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Castiel Novak dragged the last of his belongings from the trunk of his ‘78 Lincoln, the metal groaning shut behind him as if it, too, was exhausted by the effort. The late summer air clung to his skin, heavy and unmoving, and he exhaled slowly, staring up at the looming brick building that would be his home for the foreseeable future.
Six floors.
Of course it was on the sixth floor.
And of course—because fate clearly had a sense of humor—none of his brothers were around to help. They were scattered across their own lives, their own colleges, their own responsibilities, leaving
Castiel alone with a car full of boxes and the kind of stubborn determination that bordered on self-destruction.
By the time he reached his dorm for the final time, his arms ached, his legs trembled, and his patience had long since worn thin. He nudged the door open with his shoulder, stumbling inside before letting the last box fall unceremoniously onto the rickety desk. The wood rattled in protest.
“Yeah,” he muttered under his breath, voice rough with exhaustion. “You and me both.”
The room smelled faintly of dust and something sterile, like it hadn’t quite decided if it was meant to be lived in yet. Half of it remained untouched, bare, impersonal, waiting. His roommate’s side.
Tomorrow, they’d said.
That gave him time. Time to make this place feel like something other than a temporary stop.
Castiel didn’t make it much farther than the bed.
He collapsed onto it, the frame letting out a long, uneasy creak beneath his weight. He made a mental note—fix that later—though the thought drifted away almost as quickly as it came. His limbs felt like
they’d dissolved into something soft and useless, his body sinking into the thin mattress.
He threw an arm over his eyes, shielding them from the golden light of the setting sun that slipped through the gauzy curtains. The room glowed in warm amber, dust motes drifting lazily in the air.
For a moment, everything was quiet.
Too quiet.
—
When he opened his eyes again, the light had changed.
Cooler. Sharper.
His phone read 8:30 AM.
“Shit—”
He lurched upright too quickly, the world tilting as his foot caught on a rogue box. The next moment, he was on the floor in a graceless heap, the impact knocking the breath from his lungs.
“—stupid fucking boxes,” he finished weakly, staring up at the ceiling.
He kicked the offender half-heartedly, sending it skidding a few feet away. It didn’t make him feel better.
For a while, he just… sat there. Surrounded by half-unpacked pieces of his life, suspended in that strange, in-between space where nothing quite feels real yet. Where you’re not sure if you’ve arrived or if
you’ve just left something behind.
Eventually, with a quiet sigh, he pushed himself up and made his way to the en suite bathroom.
One of the few perks of being a Novak.
Legacy had its privileges—his father’s money opening doors Castiel wasn’t sure he deserved. Early dorm selection. Private bathroom. Small luxuries that felt heavier than they should.
He gripped the edge of the sink, staring at his reflection for a moment before turning on the tap. Cold water splashed against his face, shocking him fully awake. He ran a hand through his short brown
hair, attempting to tame it into something presentable, though it resisted him stubbornly.
“Good enough,” he murmured.
Back in the bedroom, he got to work.
Unpacking was methodical, almost meditative. Clothes folded and tucked neatly into drawers. Sheets stretched across the mattress in soft gray tones, smoothing out the unfamiliar bed into something
closer to his own. Each small action carved out a sense of control, of grounding.
When he placed the small bee plushie beside his pillow, his movements slowed.
For a moment, he just looked at it.
Worn, slightly lopsided, its fabric softened with time.
His chest tightened, something quiet and aching settling beneath his ribs. His mother’s voice lingered in the back of his mind, warm and distant, like something half-remembered from a dream.
He swallowed, adjusting it slightly so it sat just right.
“It’s staying,” he muttered to no one in particular.
Embarrassing or not.
The rest came together in pieces, his desk arranged with careful precision, school supplies aligned, a small standing mirror catching the morning light. His shower products found their place, tucked
neatly away. Decorations followed: a college banner pinned to the wall, a poster of his favorite band, a handful of family photos that felt both comforting and a little too heavy to look at for long.
Bit by bit, his side of the room began to breathe.
To exist.
To feel like his.
When he finally stepped back, he found himself standing in the center of the room, caught between two worlds.
On one side: warmth, color, fragments of a life he understood.
On the other: bare walls, untouched furniture, an empty bed that felt more like a question than a space.
His stomach twisted.
What if his roommate hated it?
Hated him?
The thought settled in, unwelcome and persistent.
Castiel exhaled slowly, running a hand over the back of his neck before letting himself fall backward onto the bed. It creaked beneath him again, louder this time, like it was trying to say something he
didn’t quite want to hear.
He stared up at the ceiling, the unfamiliar room stretching around him.
In a few hours, it wouldn’t be just his anymore.
And somehow, that felt a lot heavier than carrying boxes up six flights of stairs.
His fingers drifted to his wrist, brushing over the name etched into his skin.
Winchester.
It had always been there. From the moment he came screaming into the world.
A promise. Or a sentence.
He wondered what she would be like—who she would be.
If she would love him.
Fate had tied them together, after all. And he had never heard of soulmates who didn’t.
But with his luck.
Castiel let out a quiet, humorless breath.
It would be him.
The hours that followed unfolded slowly, stretching thin in that peculiar way time does when there’s nothing anchoring it.
Castiel tried, at first, to be productive.
He reorganized his desk twice, shifting pens by millimeters and aligning notebooks until their edges formed perfect, unforgiving lines. He adjusted the angle of his mirror, moved it back, then forward
again, only to return it to where it had been to begin with. He checked his schedule—once, twice, a third time—committing room numbers and times to memory with quiet intensity, as if precision might
grant him some measure of control over what came next.
It didn’t.
By late morning, the stillness began to press in.
The building, which had felt cavernous and empty the night before, was beginning to wake. Footsteps echoed faintly through the hallways. Doors opened and shut. Voices—distant, overlapping—filtered
through the walls in fragments of laughter and introductions.
Life, beginning without him.
Castiel lingered at the threshold of his room for a long moment before stepping into the hallway.
The air outside felt different. Less stagnant. Charged with motion, with possibility. Students passed in clusters—arms full of boxes, parents trailing behind, voices bright and animated. Someone laughed too loudly down the hall. Someone else swore as something heavy hit the floor.
Normal.
It all felt painfully, unmistakably normal.
He moved through it quietly, slipping between conversations that didn’t include him, past glances that didn’t linger long enough to matter. No one stopped him. No one spoke. And Castiel, for all his
awareness, made no move to change that.
Outside, the sun sat high and unforgiving, the heat no less oppressive than it had been the day before. The campus stretched wide around him, green lawns, winding paths, buildings that stood older and
more certain than he felt.
He walked without much direction.
Past groups of students sprawled across the grass, already forming the beginnings of friendships that seemed effortless in a way he didn’t quite understand. Past open doors and easy smiles and the low
hum of belonging that threaded through it all.
He wondered, briefly, if it would ever feel like that for him.
The thought lingered longer than he wanted it to.
Eventually, he found himself at the edge of campus, where the noise softened into something more manageable. There, beneath the sparse shade of a tree that didn’t offer much relief, he sat.
For a while, he did nothing.
Just watched.
People came and went in a steady stream, each of them carrying pieces of their lives into this new place, stitching themselves into something larger without hesitation. It should have felt comforting, he
thought. Reassuring.
Instead, it only made the distance more obvious.
By the time he returned to his dorm, the sun had begun its slow descent, the light softening into something warmer, less intrusive. The hallways were louder now, alive in a way they hadn’t been that
morning. Doors propped open. Music drifted from somewhere down the corridor. Voices weaving together in a chaotic, vibrant rhythm.
Castiel slipped back into his room unnoticed.
It still felt the same.
Half full. Half waiting.
He hovered near his bed for a moment before sitting, the mattress dipping beneath him with that same familiar creak. His gaze drifted across the room, lingering—inevitably—on the empty side.
Still untouched.
Still unknown.
He checked the time.
Late afternoon.
Any minute now.
A strange tension settled beneath his ribs, tight and restless. Not because of fate. Not about destiny. Just the quiet, creeping unease of not knowing who was about to walk through the door—and what
that would mean for the small, carefully constructed space he’d carved out for himself.
What if he was loud?
What if he never stopped talking?
What if he moved his things, or laughed too easily, or filled the room in a way that left no space for silence?
What if he expected something from him he didn’t know how to give?
Castiel exhaled slowly, dragging a hand over the back of his neck before letting himself fall backward onto the bed. It creaked beneath him again, sharp and insistent.
He stared at the ceiling.
He sat up again after a moment, unable to stay still, and straightened the edge of his blanket that didn’t need straightening. Adjusted the bee plushie by a fraction of an inch. Smoothed his shirt.
Waiting, it turned out, was worse than doing.
The minutes stretched.
Footsteps passed in the hallway, some slowing, some stopping, none of them his. Voices rose and fell. A door slammed somewhere down the corridor. Laughter followed, bright and careless.
And then—
More Footsteps.
Closer.
Measured.
Stopping just outside his door.
Castiel stilled, his attention sharpening instinctively, every other sound dulling at the edges.
A pause.
The faint scrape of something being shifted, weight adjusting, like someone balancing too many things at once.
And then the handle turned.
No knock.
The door pushed inward with a quiet creak.
Castiel straightened automatically, something in his chest tightening as the boundary of his space gave way without warning.
A figure stepped inside, half-turned at first, focused on maneuvering a duffel bag through the doorway without catching it on the frame. He nudged the door shut behind him with his foot, setting the
bag down with a soft thud before finally looking up.
He was young.
But there was a weight to him, a quiet vigilance carved into his posture, as if every inch of him had been shaped by a life that demanded more than it should of someone so young. Tall, though not quite
settled into it yet, like his body had grown faster than his years could keep up, carrying the hard edges of experience in every line of his frame. His eyes—keen, watchful—hinted at lessons learned too
early, and the subtle tension in his shoulders spoke of battles fought in silence, of a caution born from too many wrong turns. There was a resilience there, unmistakable, that set him apart, making him
feel older than the calendar would allow, yet still fragile in the quietest, human ways
His hair fell in soft, uneven waves, a little too long to be considered neat, brushing just past his ears and curling slightly at the ends as if it refused to be fully tamed. It framed his face in a way that softened it despite everything else about him—something earnest there, something almost disarming.
His eyes moved quickly at first,like he was searching for threats, carefully taking in the room in pieces—the divided space, the already-claimed half, the careful order of Castiel’s things–before settling,
finally, on Castiel himself.
There was a flicker of something in his expression then.
Surprise, maybe.
Or recognition of a different sort, the quiet realization of oh, this is real now.
He shifted his weight slightly, one hand coming up to push his hair back in a distracted, absent gesture, like he’d done it a thousand times without thinking.
“Uh—” he started, voice a little rough around the edges, like he wasn’t entirely sure what it was supposed to sound like yet in this space. He cleared his throat softly. “Hey.”
Not awkward.
Not entirely confident, either.
Just… honest.
Castiel stood there for a second too long, taking him in in the same careful, measured way, like committing details to memory without meaning to. The unstructured way he carried himself. The slight
tension in his shoulders beneath the casual exterior. The way he hovered just a fraction inside the doorway, as if unsure how much space he was allowed to take up yet.
A stranger.
Just a stranger.
And yet—
Not as overwhelming as he’d expected.
Castiel exhaled quietly, something in his chest loosening by a degree so small it was almost imperceptible.
“Hi,” he replied, voice steadier than he felt.
The room shifted then, subtly.
No longer waiting.
No longer empty.
Just… shared.