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2:40pm , Phalanx base . Bev sat in his room , alone , when he heard a familiar knock on the door .
“ Come in . “
He pushed himself up to answer the door , it swung open and hit his face before he could reach the handle .
“ Hey Bev !! “
It was Damian , Ray and Arthur . Damian had wiggled his way in front of the two , and was now standing in the room with an annoyed looking Ray holding onto his arm . He squirmed free and launched himself at Bev , hugging him .
“ I'm not doing this today . “
He pushed him off .
Ray sighed , bowing her head at Bev , trying to apologise .
“ We can just go , don't worry . “
Bev stared at the trio in the doorway . All of his emotions seemed to just .. turn into anger . All of the sadness became frustration . Everything he's had to deal with , caring for others while he's been dealing with his own shit , he was pissed . He had to get this out somehow , he'd tried sleeping but that was a fail . He still woke up feeling empty with upset , so , he began running at Damian , knocking him to the floor , and punching and kicking .
They were both crying .
“ U-Ugh .. Bev-Bevvy , get off me !! Y-You’re hurting me , I-I'm sorry !! “
“ BEV , GET OFF OF HIM . “
Ray raised her voice , but Bev persisted .
“ SHUT UP , SHUT UP FOR ONCE . YOU CAN NEVER BE QUIET , CAN YOU ?? IT'S ALWAYS YOUR PROBLEMS PEOPLE SEEM TO CARE ABOUT . I'M LEFT BEING THE ONE HAVING TO COMFORT YOU . YOU DON'T EVEN HAVE TO LIFT A FINGER FOR PEOPLE TO WORRY ABOUT YOU , YET , NOBODY BATS AN EYE TO ME !! BECAUSE I'M A TOUGH MAN , AND APPARENTLY THAT MEANS I HAVE NO WEAKNESSES !! “
Damian began pleading again , his ministry drugs were slowly wearing off .. so pain is definitely back in his system .
“ B-Bev , please .. !! “
Whack .
He stared down at him .
He was knocked out .
There was blood spilling from his nose , his eyes were rolled back and he was making a slight groaning noise .
Bev stood up , panting . Ray and Arthur were stood in the doorway , Ray with an arm over him , seemingly trying to protect him .
He looked at Damian again .
God , Bev , went a little overkill .
He stared at his hands , his knuckles bloody .
You're just like him , Bev .
Staggering back , he sat on his bed , refusing to look at the duo as they helped the injured Damian up .
He began muttering to himself .
“ You're just proving my point . You went straight to him , despite me being the one who's clearly having a crisis . “
Arthur and Ray exchanged glances of confusion and annoyance .
“ He needs medical attention , Beverly , you knocked him unconscious . I will get you in a minute . Arthur , take him to medical . “
He nodded , hauling the groggy Damian's arm over his shoulder .
“ On it !! “
He spoke with a slight lisp , his tongue has been cut out when he was still an advocate , a permanent reminder if you will . It was funny , everyone in the room had had to deal with the Guy or the sanctuary , yet , they'd all reacted different .
The door shut , it was now just Bev and Ray .
“ So , shall we discuss what you just did . “
She had that disappointed look in her eyes , almost like a mother . That stung . Bev had been out of his family home for years now , and his parents barely payed attention to him . So , no matter how rare , being looked at like that , in an ashamed manner by someone who he looked up too , hurt ; it hurt a lot .
“ I'm not in the mood . “
“ I think we really should . “
“ Another day , please , Ray . “
She went quiet , like she wasn't sure if she'd accept this .
“ Hmph . Alright . But , I'm going to stay because I'd rather you weren't alone . And don't push me away , because that would be hypocritical . Crying as nobody listens to you , yet sending away the only person , at the give moment , who will . “
“ I wasn't going to . “
He was , but he'd rather not be scolded further .
“ Are we going to sit in silence or talk about something else . “
Bev shrugged .
“ I dunno .. - “
He sighed , a wave of regret coming over him .
“ - look , Ray , I am really sorry . I'll apologise later . I acted like a proper shithead there . “
“ You were . “
He wasn't expecting to hear that , I think he was looking for a little bit of comfort from her . He wanted justification for what he did , but now he felt like a savage .
“ Well .. well it's not my fault that I did that .. ? He's the one who hit me in the nose , oh , AND , has been bothering my non-stop . “
“ I know . But .. “
Bev cut him off .
“ No , no buts . I never get any buts when I do something . Just because he went to the sanctuary doesn't mean he's excused for everything . Maybe that's what I need to do to get some respect , get my brain fried !! May I remind you , HE went on his own accord . Does everyone just magically forget that I was dealing with your crappy brother before him ?? Do I need to whip my scar out in front of everyone here for you to listen ? Huh ? “
“ It's funny how you're complaining about not being listened to , yet you're the one who just cut me off . “
“ Are you serious ? Are you ACTUALLY SERIOUS , RAY ? No wonder you only hang out with Arthur , he can't speak against HOW RUDE YOU ARE . You speak with such a cold and tough act , I bet you're just like your brother underneath . God . “
The door slammed . Ray had left , leaving Bev alone .
Why did you bring up his relation to Guy ?
Idiot . Idiot . Idiot .
What a way to make everything awkward , amazing performance , Beverly .
He sobbed , did he even have any friends left ? Damian was probably petrified of him now , Ray most likely hated his guts and Arthur will just follow Ray .
Maybe he should've just stayed in space , he had friends there . He had a boyfriend , he had a home , and he had an identity .
What even was he anymore ?
He wanted to go home .
Space was the only place that felt like that now .