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Clarke's POV:

"Clarkeeeeeeeeyyyyyyyyy" a blonde who moments ago was hibernating in a cocoon of blankets shoots her head up immediately at the sound of that godforsaken voice, no no no no fucking no it can't be time yet it's too soon! It's too goddamn so-, the blondes train of thoughts were cut short as a smirking brunette practically fly kicks her bedroom door open and barrels head first into the blonde causing her to groan in frustration as her head hits of the head board from the brunette's force.

"Raven! What the fuck!" Clarke all but screams she did not need this right now not at all. Fucking Raven Reyes! She growls in her head, you see Clarke was up really late the night before trying to get everything perfect for school tomorrow she was starting her senior year the first day just had to go smoothly but nothings ever that easy, she ended up only getting about 5 hours of sleep therefore she was seriously cranky and Raven fucking Reyes was far from helping.

"Damn Clarke the fuck got stuck up your ass while I was away for the summer" Raven mutters a bit annoyed her friend didn't seem pleased to see her.

"Raven," Clarke says a bit more calm, "You know I love you and I'm so glad your back, seriously summer wasn't the same without you" the blonde elaborates after catching a glimpse of Ravens unconvinced facial expression, wait how the fuck am I the one explaining myself right now? Dammit griffin! 

"But you're the worst wake up call in the world" she states teasingly, Raven begins to laugh and nods her agreement.

"Sorry Clarkey I just missed you"

"Ugh you're an asshole, but I missed you too super genius" Clarke replys with a chuckle "How was space camp?" 

"Omg Clarke it was awesome I literally had the best time!" the brunettes answers excitedly. Raven was the best damn mechanic you could ask for and she was gonna make it big.

"That's great Raven, I'm proud of you" Clarke says with a smile as she hugs her friend who was grinning from ear to ear. "Alright that's enough hugs get the hell off me so I can get ready for school".

"Oh yeah dude I almost totally forgot it's SENIOR YEAR BABY!" Raven screams, senior year was very crucial and they were totally ready for it, of course ready for it meaning the parties, new faces and drama. Oh high school never gets old. 

Laughing at her friend Clarke gets up and goes to the bathroom. It's not that she was nervous for senior year but she wanted everything to go smoothly so yeah she was practically shitting herself especially since she went against what her mother told her and is pursuing art instead of being a doctor just like her mom, it was actually her father, Jake, who encouraged Clarke to do what made her happy and to follow her dreams so that's exactly what she was going to do, she was going to prove her mom wrong and make her father proud. After taking a shower and getting dressed in a pair of dark blue skinny jeans and a simple white and grey flannel top unbuttoned with a black tank top underneath finished with a pair of white converses she's out of her room and heading to the kitchen with Raven trailing behind. 

About 15 minutes later after a cup of coffee, a really big cup of coffee, they both get a text from the one and only Octavia Blake.

Taviaxx: Get Your Asses Outside 

Raven and Clarke share an amused look before gathering their things and heading out the door "Hey were my parents here when you came?" Clarke asks.

Raven totally forgetting they even existed "Uhh yeah forgot to tell you they said love kisses have a good first day" Raven replies Clarke shrugs and they make their way to Octavia's red jeep wrangler parked outside.

"IT'S SENIOR YEAR BABY!" Octavia screams scarily similar to a certain Reyes, uncanny Clarke thinks, the three girls exchange their greetings and hop in the car.

"So," Octavia starts as she turns down the music a bit, "You guys heard of that chick Lexa Woods?"

Ravens head snaps up to the mention of the name, "Um hell yeah super hot, has a dick and fucks a lot of girls" she answers eagerly "What about her?" 

Laughing Octavia slaps Raven in the back of the head "Calm down weirdo" Raven pouts which causes both Octavia and Clarke to laugh at their friends childish behavior, after a minute of laughing Octavia finally gets back to what she was meaning to say in the first place "Anyway she got transferred to Arkadia apparently."

"No fucking way" Clarke Pipes up suddenly interested in the conversation taking place in the car, she doesn't know Lexa personally and while her reputation as a player isn't the best she can't help but be in the category of obsessed fangirls who think Lexa Woods is the epitome of perfect.

"You know what I heard about that while I was at camp, some girls from Trikru High were talking about how she took out her English teachers front teeth with a single punch!" Ravens says laughing hysterically yep the still laughing brunette thinks definitely gonna like her.

"Holy shit," the driving brunette says "I wonder what he did to deserve that?" she ponders aloud.

Clarke who zoned out into a fluffy daydream about her and Lexa getting married with kids realizes that they're about to pull up in the school parking lot "We're here guys" she announces which earns a 'No shit sherlock I'm driving' from Octavia and a snort from Raven, she just rolls her eyes and looks through the window getting lost in her thoughts.

I'm totally ready for this, art is my passion and Mom will start to realize that once she sees how good I am. You got this griffin. An excited squeal in the car roughly drags her out of her thoughts she looks up to see Raven pointing someone out through the window, what she sees next has her soaked instantly.

It's Lexa fucking Woods standing by a very clean looking white Maserati GranCabrio wearing black ripped jeans, a white oversized jersey and a pair of white Nike Air Force trainers finished with a black leather jacket; it's safe to say she screams 'fuckgirl' with her chestnut hair flowing around her shoulders and back, eyes covered by an expensive looking pair of black avatar sunglasses . Around her is a flawless girl with dirty blonde hair and high cheekbones, a handsome muscular dark skinned boy and a dude who looks way too old to just be a senior in high school he has long hair and a grin plastered on his face. 

After being shell shocked for a good five minutes the three girls speak "Holy shit" they all mutter in unison.

"Why the literal fuck do they all look like they've been created in a 'I'm too sexy for this world factory'?" Octavia says her eyes firmly fixed on the dark skinned boy, mhmm Octavia likey.

"Rumors do not do her justice" Clarke mutters licking her lips Lexa Woods is absolutely gorgeous but of course Clarke would never talk to her because yeah she's that shy type; the only guy Clarke's ever dated was a douche bag called Finn who only wanted one thing, she never gave it up of course so it left her exactly where she is now single and a virgin great. It's not that Clarke doesn't get attention or offers but she's just never been ready this year is my year she thinks.

"Well bye guys" Raven says unexpectedly both Clarke and Octavia look at her confused but Clarke speaks "Um where the hell are you going?"

"I want Lexa woods for a night, I plan on getting Lexa Woods for a night; can't do that sitting in here gawking now can I?" Raven states ever the confident one. Clarke finds herself throwing daggers at the back of Raven's head because Lexa was hers and no one else's, obviously no one else knew that but still she could be internally jealous right? Although not even her closest friends new of Clarke's massive crush on the brunette stunner so she really couldn't be mad at Raven so she decided against voicing her protest and stuck with glaring at the retreating figure.

"I have to see this" Octavia mutters watching what's about to happen.

Lexa's POV: 

As Lexa stands outside her new school leaning against her parked car she thinks about how she ended up here.

It's not that Lexa was crazy she just had a really bad temper, if you said something that she didn't like even slightly you'd know about it and then some. Enter Mr. Pike, her old English teacher, who made the biggest mistake of his career telling Lexa that her and Lincoln weren't really siblings and that her mother, Indra, wasn't really her mom because they had different skin colors. You see Lexa's dad, Gustus, and Lincoln's mom, Indra, have been together since Lexa was 8 and Lincoln was 9 so they pretty much grew up in a mixed family and they wouldn't want it any different. Now you might be thinking 'What kind of teacher says shit like that?' right? But Pike gave zero fucks about anything and anyone he said what he thought and if you didn't like it then tough; little did he know Lexa doesn't fuck around when it comes to her family so jokes on him, because he's now suspended and missing a front tooth, ouch.

Anyway that's how she ended up getting transferred to Arkadia; her brother Lincoln, best friend Anya Pine, and frenemy Roan Queen also transferred because why the hell not? So there the four of them stood waiting for the bell signaling get your ass to class "So Lexa there's some pretty hot girls here, ready to compete with whoever the player is at this school" Roan said looking around, ahh how could I forget to mention the fact that Lexa loved girls girls girls girls, need I say more?

"Well Roan I dunno about you but I'm planning on fuc-" her sentence was abruptly stopped when she noticed Lincoln glaring at her, yep taking about sex in front of your big brother was definitely weird, so instead of protesting she holds up her hands in surrender but Anya has different ideas.

"Lincoln man why must you still be such a fucking prude we all know Lexa's no Virgin Mary get over it." Anya says in a blunt disinterested voice so basically her usual facade Lincoln furrows his brows at Anya looking slightly offended.

"She's still my baby sister Anya what the fuck and I'm not a prude!" he states still glaring daggers at the dirty blonde after a second of thought he adds "Also offense taken!"

Anya answers with a disinterested "I don't care" causing roan and Lexa to laugh.

"Anya stop being a dick" Lexa says to Anya still laughing nonetheless. 

Just as Lexa turns around to grab her bag from the car she's leaning against she collides with another body causing the latter to stumble a bit but before they can fall she catches them "Wow you alright there?" she asks the Latin looking girl before her who is smirking mischievously.

"Yeah, yeah I'm fine" Raven replies rather confidently after almost falling on her ass.

Strange Lexa thinks, but she hot so who the hell cares she concludes "Aha well that's good huh but you should really watch where you're going beautiful." Lexa tells her charmingly grinning from ear to ear.

"Why? When there's someone like you who catches me, Handsome." Raven counters flirtatiously, Lexa stares at her still smirking really wide well this is interesting.

"I'm Lexa, Lexa Woods and to who do I owe the pleasure?" 

"Raven. Raven Reyes nice to meet you."

"Oh believe me the pleasures all mine." Lexa states confidently looking Raven up and down not even trying to be subtle about it.

Raven chuckles at that this is way too easy. It's not that Raven slept around a lot but she loved sex, really good sex, and Raven has zero doubts in her mind that Lexa Woods can give her exactly that. Really. Good. Sex. The bell signaling class is about to start goes off, Raven looks to Octavia's car where her and Clarke are stepping out she turns back to a smirking Lexa "Well I gotta go Stud, I'll see you around?" 

"Most definitely." Lexa says with a wink as Raven laughs and walks away in the direction of another brunette and a blonde who she can only see the back off.

"You thinking about hitting that?" Roan ask seemingly out of nowhere.

Lexa who is still staring at the brunettes retreating figure tilting her head a bit to get a better view of her ass as she saunters off replies with a smirk "I'm thinking about hitting that." Lexa states 

"You gonna hit that?" he ask, also staring at the brunettes ass.

"I'm definitely gonna hit that." she confirms finally moving her eyes from the brunette once she's out of good view "Come on kiddies, let's get this over with!" she shouts to the little group roan smirks, Lincoln cheers ever the optimist while Anya simply grunts.

Time to make this school my bitch lexa thinks with a devilish grin.

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Lexa's POV:

"Oh fuck." Lexa moaned, throwing her head back in pleasure as the redhead bobs her head up and down faster bringing her closer to orgasm. She feels her balls tightening and her hips start moving frantically until she's spilling her load inside the redhead's mouth.

"Fuck." Lexa said coming down from her high breathing hard with her eyes shut.

Lexa was spent and the weed in her system was not helping. It was a Friday afternoon and She was at home when she got a call from Ontari Foster a girl only known for one thing: smoking any type of cannabis, you name it, she had it and was probably currently smoking it. She was an absolute stoner and complete bad company, unless you were Lexa who loved being stoned, it was a habit she picked up about 2 years ago when she missed the bus to go home and decided to walk she saw a group of teenagers in the alleyway smoking, now she sees that same group of people almost everyday.

After about an hour and a half of being with Ontari, the redhead she had met at school the previous Monday hit her up saying that she should come over cause her parents weren't home, Lexa of course said Give me an address and I'll be there immediately, she tended to get really horny when she was high.

So now here she is with the redhead who's name she actually forgot, after about the third round of banging she lit a joint and started smoking it but apparently the redhead had different ideas because she ended up with Lexa's dick and a load of cum in her mouth. Typical.

"I don't know when my parents are gonna get home, Lexa." the redhead said sitting up from between Lexa's legs wiping her mouth with the back of her hand.

"Is that your way of kicking me out?" Lexa asked playfully narrowing her bloodshot red eyes at the girl who laughed and shook her head.

"I would never kick you out, if it was up to me you'd stay right here all night and fuck my brains out." The redhead whispered the last part by Lexa's ear who was beginning to get a hard on again as the girl was currently groping her package.

The redhead leaned in for a kiss from Lexa who in one fluid motion swerved so the kiss landed on her cheek instead, the girl furrowed her eyebrows obviously wanting Lexa to explain which she did.

"Look...um beautiful," Lexa slipped up obviously avoiding the use of the girls name which she didn't know, although it didn't go unnoticed by the redhead who raised her eyebrows looking offended, she sat up in the bed too put a little distance between herself and Lexa who was seriously starting to piss her off, before she could talk Lexa continued "I like you and everything but you just did what you did" Lexa motioned to her dick "and I don't really feel completely comfortable you know...kissing you right now."

That was all Lexa had too say for the girl to begin a very angry rant on how Lexa was a complete asshole and could've just told her to begin with instead of being a dick and swerving her because it was embarrassing and she didn't appreciate it.

Lexa wasn't listening to much because one she was high as fuck and two the girl was still butt naked with her massive boobs on full display. Lexa was more than distracted.

Lexa reached out putting her finger on the girls mouth silencing her sweetly. "Shhh, I didn't mean to offend you babe I'm sorry can we just please forget about it and move on to something more of substance." Lexa said as she softly groped the redhead's rack, pinching at her nipples causing her too moan and forget all about why she was pissed at Lexa to begin with.

Quickly Lexa palmed the girls ass cheeks lifting her up so she could straddle her, the redhead then started grinding down hard against Lexa's shaft moaning and throwing her head back while Lexa sucked her nipples hard, just as things were about to get more intense they heard chatter and the front door being shut followed by a man's deep voice that echoed through the entire house.

"Olivia, sweetheart, we're home!"

Lexa looked with wide eyes to the girl, who was apparently named Olivia, who looked straight back at her with equally wide eyes.

"Shit that's my dad!" Olivia whisper yelled to Lexa who needed to hear nothing more before she swiftly pushed Olivia off her lap, stumbled off the bed and frantically started looking for her clothes that was scattered all over the floor, fucking shit Lexa was way to high for this.

"Whats your dad look like, ya know could I take him?" Lexa asked as she frantically hopped around trying to put her pants on before Olivia could even reply the bedroom door opened revealing a fucking monster truck with eyes and a mouth. This guy had to be about 7'1 with muscles so big you'd think he was on steroids and then some. It's safe too say Lexa's about to fucking die a very painful death if she doesn't get the hell out of there.

She quickly made an escape through the window as the monster man was distracted looking at his naked daughter, who he obviously thought was innocent, with wide eyes before they focused on Lexa who was climbing down the tree out side Olivia's window; the man ran towards her but before he could grab her and pull her back in Lexa thought fuck it and jumped no way in hell was this guy gonna catch her, fuck that.

She landed on her back, even though it wasn't a long fall and she landed on grass it still hurt like a bitch so Lexa took a moment to groan in pain, in that time the man had already bolted down the stairs and was bursting through the front door, Lexa's eyes widened comically and she quickly composed herself, got up and made a run for it which was extremely difficult seeing as she was only in a sports bra, bare foot and her belt wasn't in her pants, which were barely on properly and kept falling down causing her too hold it up which only left her with one hand to build up speed in her sprint to remain amongst the living.

But that didn't stop her she ran like there was no tomorrow she ran like she was running from someone's elses dick, she ran like Jennifer Lopez was calling her because she wanted to fuck. And if that happened best believe a fucking cheetah couldn't out run her.

She didn't stop sprinting, and never looked back once, it must of been about 15 minutes of running before she finally came to a stop when she realised just who's house she unconsciously ran too for safety she rolled her eyes and put her hands on her hips just staring at the house because really?

She had run no one other than Clarke's house, she doesn't know why this blonde that she had only met a few days ago was already becoming a big person In her life maybe it was because when they met they immediately hit it off, the fact that ever since they exchanged numbers, they texted almost everyday and every night, not to mention they've been carpooling to school together, their friendship was moving really fast and it scared Lexa to no end.

She walked up to the door and knocked twice, a moment later the door opened revealing Clarke's dad Jake. For fucks sake she can't catch a break. He looked her up and down because Lexa was still half naked with her pants falling down.

"Um hey Lexa, it's good to see you and everything but why are you here half naked?" Jake asks the amusement clear In his voice. Jake had taken a liking to Lexa as soon as they met, like her and Clarke, he liked her banter and she reminded Jake a lot of himself when he was younger because he was quite the lady's man before he met Abby, he also knew that Lexa respected and cared about Clarke even though they haven't known each other that long he supported their fast growing friendship.

Before Lexa could say anything to Jake, Abby appeared "Jake who's at the do-" Abby stopped talking when her eyes landed on Lexa "Whats going on?" Abby asked sharply. Although Jake and Lexa where cool, Abby was quite weary of Lexa still because to her Lexa practically screamed trouble and right now her standing at their door step panting and sweating not to mention half naked was definitely not helping.

Lexa wasn't quite sure what to say or do in this very awkward situation she wasn't embarrassed that she was standing in front of Clarke's parents half naked because her body was to die for she had a defined six pack that looked like it was carved in by God's, her tattoos were hot as fuck and stood out, and let's not even get started on her down stairs area which was an 8 inch beautiful looking dick that some boys can only dream of having.

"Ok Abby hang on a minute, why don't we let Lexa come inside first and then we can find out what happened." Jake said pointedly looking at his wife who rolled her eyes and moved aside for Lexa to come in. They all went into the kitchen and sat around the island that was in the middle Jake and Abby on one side, and Lexa on the other.

Lexa looked around surprised as to why Clarke has yet to appear.

"Where's Clarke?" Lexa asked.

"Not here" Abby said with a blank expression as if to say 'obviously'.

"So you get to deal with us." Jake said in his most evil voice with a mischievous smile and his best super villain laugh.

Lexa was way too high for this. Kill me now.

Clarke's POV:

Raven groaned in frustration for what felt like the billionth time since they've been walking through the mall together.

"My fucking grandmother can walk faster than you two asshats." Raven says narrowing her eyes at Octavia and Clarke who were still taking their sweet time to walk even though they could see Raven practically planning their deaths in her weird sick little mind.

Octavia furrowed her eyebrows in confusion "Rae, your grandmother passed away before you even met her."

"My point exactly." Raven deadpanned.

Clarke rolled her eyes at the brunette who had phoned her early that morning effectively waking her up; saying that they needed to go shopping ASAP for Bellamy's party tomorrow which Clarke had no idea why he was actually throwing in the first place, when she had asked Octavia she in true Octavia fashion logically answered with 'We're in senior year now and are gonna party like every other week because why the hell not?" and of course by logically she means not logical at all.

"Raven we've already got outfits for Saturday night, why the fuck are you rushing us?" Clarke said fed up with Raven's annoying behavior.

"Yeah I know that Griff, but I need to check one more store out before it closes." Raven says stopping with a big grin on her face when they finally reach their destination. Victoria's Secret?

"Why are we at Victoria's Secret, Rae?" Clarke asked whining and stomping her feet in childish tantrum type way, because literally all she wanted to do was go home and sleep forever, it's been a really long week and she deserves and demands rest for fuck sakes!

"Clarkey I don't know about you and O but I plan on getting laid tomorrow night, gotta look good." Raven said not sparing Clarke a glance as she looked through the matching lingerie sets thinking about which one to pick.

At hearing that Raven was planning on hooking up with someone tomorrow Clarke instantly thought of that person being Lexa and her heart dropped so low it was practically falling out of her ass because the thought of Raven and Lexa sleeping together still made her jealous to no end.

Everything felt even more hurtful than before because now she knew Lexa and they were becoming really good friends. On Monday when Lexa took Clarke home they talked a lot Lexa told Clarke about her family and how her mother Indra was actually her step mom and that her real mother wasn't dead or anything she added unfortunately which surprised Clarke, she said her dad told her the truth that her birth mom left them to be with another man and another family Lexa said she was only 6 when it happened but it still hurts.

Throughout the rest of the week they texted each other nonstop. At school Lincoln, Roan, Anya and Lexa sat with them at lunch and everyone was getting along, of course Clarke had to witness front row seat to the flirting and sexual tension between Raven and Lexa but she pushed the jealousy and hurt to the back of her mind and reminded herself that she had no right to be jealous.

But enough was enough.

She was going to tell Raven that she liked Lexa, she knows Raven wouldn't mind because Raven didn't want a relationship with Lexa or anyone she just wanted a fuck, and as bad as it may sound Clarke was glad that Raven wanted nothing more but sex from her because it was easier for them to deal with the predicament that they've found themselves in.

"Raven can I talk to you for a minute please? It's important." Clarke said feeling slightly anxious about revealing her crush on Lexa.

"Sure. There's something I actually wanted to talk to you about as well." Raven said as she picked up a matching burgundy lace bra and underwear, she held it up too Clarke.

"What do you think?"

Before Clarke could answer Octavia appeared with a smoothie in hand the blonde and brunette just stared at her confused about when she'd left the store and gotten a smoothie, Octavia only shrugged nonchalantly."What? I got thirsty jezz, also Raven that looks sexy as hell, buy it let's go, I'm freaking starving."

Raven rolled her eyes but nodded anyway and quickly went to purchase what she'd picked out leaving Clarke and Octavia alone.

"So ready for the party tomorrow night? Bellamy's going all out it should be lit." Octavia said with a big grin.

"Yeah I'm counting down the minuets as we speak, O." Clarke replied sarcastically Octavia only snorted.

"How do you think Bellamy's gonna react when Miss Sexy Lexi and her three musketeers show up?" Clarke asked genuinely curious.

Octavia shrugged "I honestly don't know but he better not start any fucking fights and ruin the night because it's my party as much as his so I can invite whoever I want just like he can." Octavia snarled annoyed just thinking about her brother starting shit at the party.

At that moment Raven comes back Victoria's Secret bag in hand looking between Clarke and Octavia with raised eyebrows.

"Well why the fuck are you guys still standing there? Move your asses let's go!" Raven shooed them out the shop.

They made their way too the food court Clarke still dead set on talking to Raven about Lexa.

Lexa's POV:

"Okay" Jake said looking at Lexa "So let me get this straight, you were at a girls house,"

Lexa nodded.

"And her dad came home." Abby said next.

"But he wasn't human?" Jake said with furrowed eyebrows.

Lexa nodded frantically this time.

"And he wanted to kill you, so you jumped out the window." Abby said with narrowed eyes.

"Had no other choice."

"But apparently he can teleport and ended up like two feet away from you." Jake said rubbing his chin.

"Oh yeah, it was freaky."

"So you ran for your life, and ended up running all the way here." Abby concluded with an eye roll she stood up and walked over too a basket that was on the kitchen floor taking out a belt and handing it to Lexa before she continued.

"Your story's ridiculous Lexa and I'd really appreciate it of next time you were in trouble you'd run along to your mother for support." Abby said bluntly.

Lexa clenched her jaw and fist in an attempt to keep her calm.

"Uh, well I could but I'd be running a really long time seeing as I don't know where that bitch is."

Both Abby and Jake were shocked, their jaws that were currently on the floor proved that.

"Lexa I-"

Lexa cut off Abby's apology by standing up abruptly, anyone with eyes would know that Lexa was trying her hardest to keep her emotions in check and not show any signs of hurt by the way she frantically looked around the room, tapped her feet constantly and fiddled with her hands.

"She's not dead Mrs. Griffin just, um, bigger and better priorities I guess."

"Look Lexa I know you know that I'm not your biggest fan but I'm sure that's not true. How long has she been gone for? A couple hours? She probably just got held up somewhere." Abby tried to reassure Lexa although she didn't really like her attitude, no one deserves to feel the pain and hurt Lexa's clearly feeling.

Lexa laughed bitterly "Try a couple years, you know the line in Starbucks suck but they're not that long."

"Shit..." Jake muttered going over to comfort Lexa who calmly moved away from his touch.

"I'm good really thanks for the belt but keep it, I should get going." Lexa left no room for protest as she quickly got up and bolted out the door.

As soon as she shut the door behind her though a body collided with hers when she looked up she saw that it was Raven she quickly composed herself and donned a confident smirk.

"Raven. Raven. Raven. We gotta stop running into each other like this."

"You're right especially seeing as I can think of other ways for you too run into me..." Raven trailed off her eyes firmly glued to Lexa's very defined abs. Lexa noticed this and stepped closer to Raven so they were practically a foot apart, Raven's breath caught in her throat when Lexa put her hand on her hips pulling her closer their lips so close they could feel their breaths mixing together as Lexa spoke.

"So when are we gonna hang out? You know privately?" Lexa asked gradually moving her hands lower down.

"Oh, is that what the kids are calling it these days?" Raven sassed.

Lexa laughed and shrugged "I have no idea what your talking about" Lexa whispered as she leaned in for a kiss but Raven placed her hands on her abs stopping her from coming any closer.

"What? You don't want me anymore?" Lexa asked her hands now groping Raven's ass, confidence not even the slightest bit grazed at just being rejected.

"If we start right now in public I'm not gonna be able to stop myself from jumping you." Raven said stepping back from Lexa a bit knowing full well that the real reason was because she still hadn't spoken to Clarke so not even a kiss was acceptable right now.

Lexa laughed and nodded her head "Alright the Reyes, I'll see you around preferably tomorrow at Bellamy's party." Lexa said moving around Raven, she started walking backwards.

"You're not scared about what Bellamy's gonna say or do?" Raven asked already knowing the answer.

Lexa made a face as if too say come on "I don't scare easily Reyes " was all Lexa said before she turned around and started walking but before she could get very far Raven called out to her she turned around a smirk on her face but Raven's face looked dead serious.

"You alright Lexa? You ran out of there pretty quickly. Were you looking for Clarke or something? Because she's with O picking up some pizza, you can stay and wait with me." Raven said not being sexual or flirtatious just a concerned friend.

"Oh I'm fine, you guys go ahead and have your-what I'm assuming-is a girls movie night, sleepover type thing." Lexa joked with a smile on her face although it didn't reach her eyes.

"You sure your good, Lexa?"

"I'm okay."

Raven, who wasn't completely convinced nodded deciding to let it go with a wave she went inside.

Lexa turned around and inhaled the fresh air around her with closed eyes trying to keep her tears at bay.

"I'm okay," She whispered to herself "I have to be."

She decided to leave her car where it was for now because she needed to get home quickly.

She had an email to send again.

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Lexa was at home alone, when she arrived she saw a note on the kitchen counter saying that Indra, Lincoln and Gustus went out for dinner and that they waited an hour for her. She wasn't bothered and was kind of glad they went out, she went straight to her room and locked the door, changed into a pair of red basketball shorts, and went to her email.

For half an hour the sound of buttons being pressed on the keyboard filled the room.

She looked over the email one more time and finally, after 10 minutes of just staring at it, pressed send.

Please answer me back. I need you too. 

"So do you wanna start or..." Raven trailed off looking to Clarke who was sitting opposite her in the blonde's bedroom. 

When Clarke and Octavia got back from the store Raven decided against telling Clarke that Lexa was here because her parents never said anything either.

When she had entered the house after saying goodbye to Lexa she saw Abby and Jake in the kitchen looking so spaced out they didn't even know she was there until she cleared her throat. 

Of course she asked what had happened and why Lexa was here but they ignored the question all together. 

Clarke had asked Raven if they could go to her room and talk so that's what they did.

So now here they were in Clarke's room awkwardness filling there air.

"I uh... Yeah I'll start why not. So-" Clarke barely got the chance to start her sentence let alone finish it because someone was knocking at the door, and without waiting for a 'come in' or 'please go away' they entered. She wasn't surprised when she saw that it was her parents. The only people that knock and don't wait for a freaking reply. 

"Hey girls sorry to interrupt...whatever this little awkward convention is but Lexa was here earlier so you might wanna call her or something case she certainly didn't come here for us so..." Jake said clearly not knowing he made everything more awkward between the girls by pointing out that it was awkward before. Fucking dads. 

"Okay, Dad, I'll give her a call thanks for knocking and waiting ever so patiently for a reply by the way." Clarke said sarcasm dripping from her tone of voice causing Raven to begin laughing uncontrollably, although it really wasn't that funny.

She was laughing so hard that Octavia ran all the way up stairs to see what was so funny she saw Raven laughing with tears in her eyes Clarke's pretty sure Raven wasn't even laughing at what she said anymore, once Raven started she just couldn't stop.

Seeing Raven caused Octavia to begin to laugh uncontrollably.

Literally for no reason.

Clarke was more than certain that her little conversation with Raven was not going to happen right now.

For fuck sake. 

"Fuck this man. Roan can you please call some friends over?" Lexa said standing up abruptly. 

For the last hour they've been sitting at Lincoln and Lexa's house doing fuckall, their parents had left town shortly after they came back from dinner with Lincoln claiming it was an emergency and that they'd be back tomorrow night. This caused Lexa to reflect and get in her feelings about her whole situation and the email she sent a few hours ago, which she's pretty sure still had no reply, this isn't what she wanted to be doing on a Friday night like at all.

As soon as Lexa said it Roan was on it snap chatting a couple girls...I mean 'friends'.

"Ontari stock up!" Lexa said looking too Ontari with a wide grin. 

"I like the way you think Lexa." 

Lexa pulled Ontari up by her hand and gave her a playfully pat on the butt as she left the room to get her phone from Lexa's bedroom.

"Anya get your ass up and go to the store. Get at least 4 bottles and some beers." Lexa said turning to Anya who rolled her eyes but got up nonetheless.

"What you thinking, nerd?" Anya asked putting on her jacket.

"Vodka, tequila, and of course, my baby Hennessy!" Lexa said with a clap rubbing her hands together I'm gonna get smasheddd! 

"That's only 3 dweeb." 

"Surprise me." Lexa said with a wink, Anya rolled her eyes with a laugh and left the house. 

Lexa then looked to Lincoln "You my brother...just sit there and look pretty." She teasingly squeezed his cheeks. Ontari came back in the room chuckling when she saw what Lexa was doing to Lincoln who's made off muscles from top too bottom even Roan laughed. 

Lincoln furrowed his brows and pushed Lexa's hands away as she laughed he crossed his arms and pouted which just caused everyone to laugh even more. 

"Lexa a party thought, really? Folks aren't gonna be impressed." Lincoln said tutting as he stood to get his phone and order a pizza for Lexa who was a complete light weight as it is, add not eating and getting hammered she wasn't gonna have a good night or morning.

"Let me handle the rents, Bro. Plus it's not a party, it's a...uhh I don't know..." Lexa trailed off genuinely pondering on what to call it. 

Lexa wasn't the smartest person in the world, in fact she was dyslexic and had ADHD, and with the two mixed she sometimes found it extremely difficult to form a coherent sentence, the fact that she smoked didn't help because it affected her meds, she still took them but they weren't really affective. That bit of information she left out from the doctors though. Because she had ADHD and dyslexia she got picked on a lot when she was a kid because she couldn't even say the alphabet in second grade. Kids are cruel and never let up that's actually why she got into fights majority of the time when she was younger, as she grew up kids still teased her about it but they were less fortunate than the ones in middle school because they more or less ended up getting the shit knocked out of them.

It doesn't bother her as much now tho because she had a little motto she told herself every time she looked in the mirror: We are what we are. 

"I get you Lex." Lincoln said sweetly understanding Lexa's internal struggle.

She smiled at him because he really was the best brother. Just then her phone went off from the couch, she went over too it and as soon as she saw who the text was from a wide smile crossed her face. It was Clarke who she hasn't spoken too almost all day, she missed talking too her 'friend' she told her self ignoring the way her stomach filled with butterflies at just a text from Clarke. 

Miss Sophisticated: Hey Lexa remember me?

Lexa Aka avatar wannabe: I'm not quite sure I think I need a pic to jog my memory...

Miss Sophisticated: 'image' remember me now asshole? 

Clarke sent a selfie of her laying on the floor with her tongue out cheekily. Lexa chuckled and stared at the picture for a second mesmerised by the fact that Clarke could look so stunning without even trying. She shook her head of the not so friendly thoughts that were running through her head currently and continued texting.

Lexa Aka avatar wannabe: ahh the pretty blonde I can't stop talking to all of a sudden how could I forget?

Wait am I flirting?

Miss Sophisticated: oh now you recall you're an idiot. I heard you came over today I'm sorry I wasn't there I got dragged shopping :@ 

Lexa Aka avatar wannabe: shopping!!??! How torturous that must of been for you I can't even imagine, and I may have stopped by...

Miss Sophisticated: You may have stopped by...half naked? Lol what the hell happened Lexa? 

Lexa Aka avatar wannabe: I was at a girls house and her dad came home I had to get the fuck outta there quick he was a fucking inhuman monster created I'm some sort of area 51 laboratory Clarke, no joke! 

Lexa was really apprehensive sending that text she didn't know why but it felt super weird talking to Clarke about girls for some reason, almost like she felt guilty. 

She anxiously waited for a reply and then finally her phone buzzed.

Miss Sophisticated: oh wow okay then glad you made it out alive 

Lexa Aka avatar wannabe: why? Would you miss me if I didn't??? 

Ok seriously I need to stop with these flirty text she's not into me like that, we're just friends!

Miss Sophisticated: meh in the 5 days we've known each other I've figured out a lot about you Lexa so nah I wouldn't miss you. you're annoying. 

Lexa Aka avatar wannabe: Damn Clarke you know how to break a girls heart huh? 

Miss Sophisticated: lol I'm just kidding cutie x

...Cutie? 

Lexa Aka avatar wannabe: I know you were, beautiful ;-) btw what r yu doing tonight? 

Miss Sophisticated: nothing just with raven and O about to watch a movie why? 

Lexa Aka avatar wannabe: I'm having a thing, you guys should come 

Miss Sophisticated: And by a thing you mean you refuse to call It a party? 

Lexa Aka avatar wannabe: Totally! How did yu know, but for real it's not a party just some close friends 

Miss Sophisticated: alright lexi I'll see if we can make it

Just when lexa was about to reply the front door swung open revealing Anya (Drinks in hand) and Nia? The fuck is that bitch doing at my house?

Anya came in, Nia trailing behind she placed the drinks on the table then addressed Lexa. "Look who I found Lexa it's a stray dog, can we keep it can we keep it?!!" Anya said mockingly 

"Well well well if it isn't Nia Queen herself." Lexa said walking forward a bit.

Nia also took a couple steps forward. "In the flesh." she said with a smirk.

Lexa looked to Roan for an explanation who was blatantly avoiding eye contact. "Look Lexa my folks left town they said where ever I go she goes, can you just drop it? She's my sister Lex." Roan whispered the last part pleasingly so only Lexa could hear.

She rolled her shoulders and went over to the drinks taking out the bottle of tequila and raising it in the air. "Shots anyone?" 

That being the signal that everything was cool for now Roan got the shot glasses while Nia took a seat. There was a knock at the door just then and Lincoln went to open it. Stood outside were Bellamy, Finn, Atom, and a bunch of other people, all with drinks in their hands they cheered as they made their way in by passing Lincoln who had his eyebrows furrowed.

"Where's the music at!!" Bellamy shouted not taking his eyes of Lexa who was stood drinking from the Hennessy bottle.

She smirked "The people want music, give em music!" Lexa said to Roan who blasted the stereo playing One Dance by Drake; and thus the thing that's not a party begun. Everyone mingled, drank, and got drunk. Lincoln, Anya and Roan super surprised that Lexa has yet to kick Bellamy out of the house. Lexa was making out with a random girl in the kitchen when someone came in, she looked up to see who it was and wasn't at all surprised when she saw Bellamy fucking Blake. 

"Woods." 

"Blake."  

The girl took that as her cue to leave and hurriedly exited the kitchen leaving the two alone.

Clarke was sat at home with Octavia and Raven about to watch a movie because apparently that's what teenagers do on a Friday night when she decided to text Lexa who invited them to her 'thing' so here the three of them were getting ready, Raven and Octavia each have a draw of cloths at Clarke's house so they didn't need to go home and change.

Clarke definitely got mixed signals from Lexa when they were texting because if you asked her Lexa was definitely flirting with her but if you ask anyone else they'd say it's just Lexa's personality and not to think anything of it. But Clarke couldn't help the glimmer of hope she felt growing more and more during their conversation. Another thing she couldn't help was the homicidal thoughts that wreaked havoc in her head because Lexa was with some skank.

Yeah she didn't forget about that, her heart pretty much sunk when it finally hit her that Lexa's a player, she's not all of a sudden going to stop fucking around because some blonde she met a couple days ago has a crush on her. If anything she'll probably just want to sleep with Clarke and then that's it no phone call no date no 'I like you' because Lexa Woods was a player; and players play. They play with your head, your heart, your feelings' they get what they want and then game over. Then they move on too the next level and forget all about your ass.

Yeah it sucked.

So Clarke was more than determined now that she wasn't going to be one of those skanks who gets fucked and chucked. 

Smashed and dashed. 

Oh hell no.

So school girl crush on Lexa be gone because they were going to be nothing more than friends.

"Hey Clarkey, can I ask you something?" Raven said from the mirror were she was currently doing her make up in nothing but her underwear. 

Octavia snorted from the bathroom loud enough that they could hear. 

"Something funny Blake?" Raven asked still not looking away from the mirror. 

Octavia exited the bathroom wearing a white crop top, light blue denim shorts and her white chucks "Yeah actually I was just thinking about if there was ever a time your no filter ass asked before you said or did something and guess what?" 

"There wasn't." Clarke answered chuckling from her bed where she was sat putting her shoes on. 

Octavia giggled "Ding Ding Ding we have a winner!"  

Raven got up and flipped the both of them off playfully "Fuck you bitches, you love my no filter ass."

"Can't argue with that..." Octavia muttered with a smile. 

"So what was it you wanted to ask, Rae?" Clarke says getting back too the point. 

Raven clicks her fingers and turns to Clarke after putting on a pair of black jeans and a very tight black tank top not really bothered about what she was wearing. 

She didn't plan on keeping her cloths on for long anyway.

"I wanted to ask you what you think about Lexa." 

What I think about Lexa? Oh God do they know about the crush that I've just decided to stop crushing on which is proving to be unsuccessful so far since I can't get her fucking face out of my head? Clarke's thoughts were going in overdrive but she decided to play things cool and low-key try to clarify if Raven's asking what she thinks she's asking. She clears her throat before answering "Um Lexa? She's great why?" Play it cool Griffin play it cool!

Raven shifts from foot to foot nervously "Ya know just cause you guys have been talking and spending a lot of time together ever since she got transferred." Raven says still not clarifying.

What the fuck Reyes just say what I think you're going to say, she wants me to say it hell no. Play it cool Griffin. 

"Yeah and I thinks she's great sooo...?" Clarke trails off trying to squeeze an answer out of her.  

"Um-it's whatever ya know. I was just uhh-wondering if you like had a thing for her or something?" Raven stutters out 

And there it is. That goddamn question. Clarke has two options tell the truth or tell a lie. Clarke being the stubborn idiot she is tells a lie. 

"Oh God no she's hot and everything but nah I don't have a thing for her or anything." Fuck. 

Ravens head snaps up too look at Clarke carefully "So you wouldn't mind if I went for it tonight?" 

Clarke snorts shaking her head "Would I fuck, knock yourself out Reyes!" Fuck shit fuck I'm gonna regret this aren't I?  

"Alright then." Raven smiles more than satisfied with Clarke's answer "That's that, let's go party bitches."  

"It's not a party." Clarke reminds her.

"Whatever." Raven mutters.

Just as the three of them were going to make their way downstairs and out of the house, Clarke leaving a note to her parents who went out on a date, Octavia caught Raven's wrist stopping her from walking any further.

"The fuck Octavia?" Raven says with furrowed eyebrows. 

"You can't really have believed a word she said back there right?" Octavia asks motioned to Clarke's room. 

Raven confused as ever scratches the back of her head "O I seriously have no idea what the hell your talking about." 

"Guys let's go!" Clarke yells from downstairs.

"Coming!" Raven shouts back making a move to walk down the stairs but once again Octavia stops her. Raven rolls her eyes "What?" 

"Raven, I know Clarke okay? I know when she's bullshitting and what she said about not having feelings for Lexa was bullshit trust me." Octavia tells Raven with a serious expression.

Raven only rolls her eyes again getting impatient "Look O, normally I would believe you if I didn't just hear and see Clarke for myself, she's fine with it."  

"You of all people should know that you can't always believe what comes out of the horses mouth." Octavia says instantly regretting it when she sees the look of hurt flash across Ravens face before its replaced with anger .

"Screw You Octavia!" Raven snarls pulling her wrist away from Octavia's grasp and making her way down the stairs.

"Fuck..." Octavia mutters to herself with a loud sigh she also makes her way down the stairs.

Everything is going to turn to shit very soon because everyones so goddamn stubborn! She thinks with an eye roll. Fucking high school...

Chapter Text

"So what can I do for you?" Lexa asks folding her arms across her chest.

Bellamy doesn't reply, instead he uses the lock on the kitchen door and closes it, then turns back around to face Lexa and just states at her. Lexa, who is highly amused at this point, just laughs and shakes her head; she makes a beeline right for the door to exit the kitchen but Bellamy stands in her way stopping her. She clenched her jaw and looks him dead in the eyes "Move."

He doesn't falter or back down "No" he answers dryly.

Just then Roan stumbles inside the kitchen from the back door, he looks at the two who are stood just staring at each other.

"Hey why the hell is the door locked?" he asks though neither of them pay him any attention.

"Move." Lexa says once more, fists clenching all signs of the fun outgoing person gone because now she's pissed.

Bellamy smirks glad he's getting a rise out of her "I said no Woods, you deaf or something? The back door's right there, go that way."

That's enough for Lexa to explode on this motherfucker; she tilts her head to the side eyes narrowed and eyebrows knitted together "Are you out of your goddamn mind? You're gonna come into my fucking house and start telling me what to do like you run shit?" Lexa asks voice getting higher and blood running colder with each word. "Bellamy I don't know who the fuck you think you're talking to or who you think I am but let me tell you something." Lexa says stepping closer to the boy who's confident facade has finally faltered and he looks nervous. "Your parents didn't fucking teach you respect. Especially when your on someone else's property, don't worry man, I got you covered I'll teach you some fucking respect!" Lexa shouts reaching behind her to grab something.

Roan, who's been watching the whole time, sees what's about to happen and lunges forward snatching the object before Lexa can get it; she turns around fire in her eyes "Give it back Roan." Lexa says voice calm which makes it so much more dangerous.

Roan flinches wishing Lincoln was here to tame the beast called his sister but he wasn't and he had to man up and deal with the situation before it got worse, he winces just thinking about how this can all turn to shit with one wrong move. "Lexa, listen to me, you need to calm down and think for a minute okay? Please just think about what you were about to do." Roan pleads, the object still behind his back.

Lexa clenched her jaw and closes her eyes taking a deep breath to calm herself down. Fuck. She turns around to face Bellamy who hasn't said a word the whole time obviously a bit shaken up by the way Lexa reacted; he would never admit that though.

"I want you out of my fucking house by the time I get back, and so help me God Bellamy if your still here-" Lexa says purposely not putting in a threat; she'll leave that too his imagination. She walks past Bellamy to the kitchen door and unlocks it immediately being met by a pair of gorgeous blue eyes the bluest blue to ever be blue she thinks because that's the only way too describe her eyes since the moment she saw them.

"Clarke." she breaths out with a smile. Looking at Lexa right now no one would ever think she's just been In a confrontation because in the blink of an eye her anger was gone and replaced with happiness. Clarke smiles and gives Lexa a tight hug, the brunette wrapping her arms around Clarke's waist breathing in her sweet scent, unbeknownst to Lexa Clarke was doing the exact same thing.

They finally pull apart "I'm so glad you came Clarke!" Lexa say enthusiastically trying to be heard over the loud music.

Clarke not hearing a word Lexa said furrows her eyebrows a look that just says "Huh?"

Lexa can't help but laugh because Clarke looks really cute like that, she smiles and leans forward close to Clarke's ear "I said I'm so glad you came." Lexa says once again.

The fact that Lexa is so close to her cause Clarke to shudder, Lexa feels it but thinks she must be cold or something "Wouldn't miss it," Clarke says looking around "and I hate to be the one too break it to you Lex, this is definitely a party, and I'm totally under-dressed." Clarke says looking around self consciously because all she's wearing is a pair of dark blue jeans a dark blue tank top and white chucks the same as Octavia's, while all the other girls are wearing skimpy dresses and shorts that leave very little too the imagination.

Lexa tuts "Clarke what are you talking about? You look gorgeous as always, and word travels fast round here so my thing ended up being a party which I'm super pissed about by the way." Lexa says trying to make Clarke laugh she's successful because the blonde is laughing white teeth on display eyes shinning.

"Why are you pissed? You're Lexa Woods you live for parties, no?"

"Don't believe everything you hear Clarke, you're right though, I do love a good party but not at my freaking house!" Lexa says fake pouting. She looks to Clarke who is still laughing and smiles "You think it's funny Clarke? Who's gonna clean all this shit up?" Lexa says chuckling "Sure as hell isn't going to be me!"

By now Clarke has tears in her eyes from laughing so much she composes herself and wipes her eyes "You're hilarious Lexa, but I need a tour."

"What a tour of the crib?" Clarke nods in response "Well, Miss Sophisticated, follow me." Lexa says leading Clarke through the crowd and up the stairs.

"Can you quite calling me that?" Clarke asks amusement clear in her voice as she follows Lexa up the stairs and down the corridor before they stop outside of a door.

Lexa turns to Clarke while unlocking the door "I'll stop calling you that when you stop being sophisticated, also when you stop calling me an Avatar Nerd!" they both start laughing at that, while entering the room that Clarke assumes is Lexa's, she looks around and notices it's pretty much plain, bar the avatar posters, bobble heads and toys Wow she's a nerd. I love it!

"Omg Lexa just seeing your room proves that one day without a doubt you will shave off all your hair and get an arrow tattooed in the middle of your forehead!" Clarke says looking back too Lexa who is chuckling.

"You know what, Clarke? I just might do that."

"Please don't you have beautiful hair." Clarke mutters looking at Lexa intently,

"You think? I kind of prefer blondes." Lexa says stepping closer too Clarke who is also moving closer.

"We'll agree to disagree then." Clarke says halting her steps realizing her and Lexa are literally 2 feet apart. Lexa starts leaning in but Clarke takes a step back changing the subject. She refuses to be a fuck and chuck skank no matter how much her hearts beating so fast and loud she thinks Lexa can hear it "So do you actually bring girls in here Lexa?"

"Ha, well Clarke believe it or not you ,my friend, are the very first girl to come in my room." Lexa says with her hands in her pocket rocking back and forth on her heel nervously.

There it is again that fucking word 'friend' Clarke snarls in her head Lexa is seriously fucking her shit up big time because after saying that word she so casually brings up the fact that no other girl has been inside her room! What the fuck is she supposed to think?

"No way?! I'm honored Lexa really," Clarke says with a wide smile.

Lexa shrugs "It's not that big of a deal."

Clarke just gives her a look and Lexa laughs "Alright alright, by the way, I seriously don't like how much you know me already Clarke it's beginning to be a problem, I can't hide anything from you!" Lexa says shaking her head sweet smile still in place.

"Would you want to?" Clarke asks.

Lexa shakes her head "No."

Clarke clears her throat and nods "Come on Woods spill, why don't you show anyone your room?"

"It's nothing big or serious I just think people have personal things in their room you know? You can't just show that to anyone, let alone some one night stand, you gotta trust the person." Lexa rambles nervously "Plus only my close friends can know that my life long goals is too master the art of air bending." Lexa jokes causing Clarke to giggle.

Then suddenly her hands are linked with Lexa's and she's being guided out the room and further down the corridor "Lexa where are we going?" Clarke asks with a smile because Lexa looks so determined and it's adorable.

"I'm showing you the real shit Clarke" Lexa says which makes no sense to Clarke at all but she doesn't mind because she trust Lexa. They walk until they stop by the attic door, Lexa opens it with a key and pulls the ladder down "Alright, here we are, I'm trusting you Clarke you can't tell anyone about this alright because not even my family has seen this room." Lexa says looking to the blonde.

"Lexa you can trust me, I promise I won't tell anyone." Clarke says genuinely, Lexa shakes her head not convinced.

"I'm gonna need something more solid than words Clarke" the brunette says raising her hand and holding out her pinkie finger with raised eyebrows, Clarke can no longer hold in her laughter because Lexa Woods is demanding a pinkie promise like it holds all significance.

"Omg Lexa really? A pinkie promise? How old are we 5?" Clarke asks playfully.

"Hey, I don't wanna here any disrespect towards the art of a good old fashioned pinkie promise, it's effective!" Lexa scolds Clarke playfully, who holds her hands up in mock surrender.

"OK calm down Pinkie Promise Princess." she teases, Lexa just flips her off with a muttered 'cute' they interlocked their pinkies.

"Alright then, ladies first" Lexa gestured for Clarke to climb up first.

"Fine Woods, but this better not be some ploy to stare at my ass." Clarke said narrowing her eyes at Lexa, who gasped feigning offense.

"I can't believe you think so little of me." Lexa said with her hand over her heart.

Clarke only rolled her eyes with a chuckle and begun climbing the ladder up too the basement, Lexa  leaning her head too the side checking out her ass discreetly with a wide smile How perfect can one chick be? Lexa thinks with a shake off her head. She follows the blonde up the ladder until their both standing in the dark, Lexa locks the door and goes over too the light switch and turns it on what Clarke sees next doesn't surprise her one bit. It's basically a second room for Lexa; theres a bed, TV, desk with a laptop and wardrobes but it's what's on everything that's the point. Lexa has avatar bed sheets and pillow cases on her neatly spread bed, a massive avatar bear, avatar wall paper, night lights the whole lot. Wow she's obsessed.

"Wow, Lexa I honestly don't even know what to say to you." Clarke said with a chuckle looking to Lexa as she went and sat on her bed which was right underneath the attic window, Lexa sat next to her with a smile.

"I like the kid Clarke, what can I say? He's badass. Pretty much my whole childhood growing up I've wanted to be just like him." Clarke looked at Lexa as she spoke, there was something about the way her eyes looked like they almost lost its glow as she spoke that made Clarke want to wrap her in her arms tightly and comfort her forever, protect her from the world and all its bad people and energy but decided against it seeing as she didn't know why Lexa was upset in the first place plus some of the ways she wanted to comfort her weren't so friendly.

She decided to talk first, maybe if she spoke about her childhood Lexa would feel more comfortable about opening up "When I was a kid I hated watching TV". Clarke chuckled at Lexa's horrified facial expression before she continued "Yeah believe it or not I was more of an outdoorsy kind of gal. My dad used to take me too the beach that was near my house almost every day, we'd just walk around collecting sea shells and put them in shoe boxes until they filled to the top. My mom would always complain and tell me 'Clarke if you keep taking all the shells what will the sea have too play with ?' I'd get so freaking upset I'd start demanding shit to my dad like we have to go back too the beach immediately." Clarke said the last word with a pat to her thighs for emphasis.

"Immediately?" Lexa copied with raised brows and an amused smile.

"Immediately." Clarke confirmed pretending to be serious but you could still see the corners of her mouth twitching up.

"So did you go back?" Lexa asked wanting to know what mini Clarke did next.

"Hell yeah we went back! I was terrified that the sea would be super pissed and take my eye color because I was no longer worthy to represent." at this point Lexa was clutching on too her stomach because she was laughing so hard. Clarke couldn't help but look at her mesmerized by how care free and content lexa looked. Yeah she was a pretty chilled, goofy person anyway; but this, this felt different.

"Well I for one am glad that even too this day your still representing, your eyes are amazing Clarke." Lexa said the last part with a blush and shy smile.

"Somebody tell the sea that, I think it's still punishing me, I get frequent eye pain." they both laughed.

Lexa looked like she was pondering something before she opened her mouth and started talking still looking to the carpeted floor "I didn't really go out a lot as a kid, my dad he wasn't very active back then I think it was the whole stress of my mom walking out on us; he didn't really know what to do with me." Lexa said in a low voice but continued talking nonetheless "A lot of the things I learned as a kid weren't from him."

"Who were they from" Clarke asked softly.

Lexa took a minute to compose herself before she replied "There was this guy I used too see outside my school everyday, he would just sit there not doing anything, one day I got curious and decided to go and talk too him-and no before you ask the whole stranger danger thing wasn't apparent to me-we talked a lot that day or mainly I talked and he listened." Lexa said with a smile, Clarke not knowing were the story was going but not wanting Lexa to stop forced a smile as Lexa looked at her before continuing her story.

"After that day, we were practically inseparable, I'd go to his house everyday after school because my house was just a block away from my school my dad never picked me up so instead of going home I'd go with him too his house were his wife was, she was amazing, a beautiful brunette with warm green eyes that just made me feel loved, safe even whenever she looked at me and smiled. I thought she was an angel." Lexa whispered the last part looking up through the window that was above her bed, Clarke heard though. "They taught me everything I know today" Lexa clenched her jaw.

Clarke put her hand on Lexa's thigh, who looked at her in response with watery green eyes "Who were those people Lexa?" Clarke asked softly, just as Lexa opened her mouth to talk her phone went of, ringing filling the air, she cleared her throat and looked away from Clarke to her phone that was still ringing  "It's Lincoln," Lexa stated "Something must be wrong." she answered the phone while Clarke got distracted by something she saw on Lexa's desk my her laptop, it was a bottle of Adderall.

Adderall? Clarke thought, it sounds familiar but she couldn't quite put her finger on just what it was used for, she thought about asking but didn't want Lexa to get defensive or anything; Clarke was snapped out of her thoughts when she felt Lexa get up beside her "Lincoln is being a bitch so we gotta head back downstairs." Lexa said with an eye roll; Clarke shook her head with a smile just as they were about to go something went off on the laptop that was on the desk.

"Hey Lexa?" Clarke said squinting at the screen to see who it was when she realized Lexa wasn't aware she got an email "You got a message from someone called Titus."

Lexa's head snapped up too the screen as soon as she heard the name leave Clarke's mouth she quickly went over to the laptop and slapped the lid shut effectively stopping Clarke from seeing anything else, she then turned to Clarke irritation clear on her face "Do you always go around reading people's shit?" Lexa said to Clarke kind of aggressively.

The blonde, who was now confused and sort of hurt, only furrowed her eyebrows at Lexa's tone muttering a "Sorry jhezz."

Lexa, who had realized that she was just a totally dick for no reason, rushed out an apology to Clarke "No I'm really sorry it just came out like that I didn't mean to be a dick." Lexa said apologetically Clarke only nodded with a smile signaling that it was fine; they both headed back downstairs where the party was still in full swing and then suddenly Raven was standing in front of them face flushed, wide smile directed right at Lexa.

"Lexa I've been looking everywhere for you!" Raven drawled out being very touchy feely.

Clarke at this point was beyond uncomfortable so she decided to take her leave "I'm gonna go get a drink." Clarke said with a tight lipped smile, she could practically feel the jealousy and anger rising with in her and had to remove herself from the situation before she couldn't control herself any longer and caused a scene that would most likely result in her being humiliated.

"No Clarke-" Lexa tried but the blonde was already gone What the literal fuck just happened?

Before Lexa could think too much she realized that there was currently a hand rubbing her dick, she let out a surprised moan and looked to Raven who had a mischievous smirk on her face, eyes gone dark with lust Wow that's so fucking sexy Lexa thought before she shook her head because she had to go and talk to Clarke who's obviously still upset that Lexa snapped at her, otherwise why would she leave so quickly?

Lincoln came out of nowhere pushing himself between Raven and Lexa effectively pushing them apart "Like hell you two are gonna run off upstairs together, Lexa this is your goddamn party! So can you be present and control everybody?!" Lincoln yelled at Lexa losing his patience before he stormed off.

It was silent between Lexa and Raven until the Latina snorted "He told you huh?" Lexa only glared at Raven muttering something under her breath as she walked off in search of Clarke, Raven walking off I'm search of more booze.

Lexa walked into the living room that was absolutely packed with drunk teenagers smoking, drinking, dry humping each other or passed out on the floor Damn looks like I missed a pretty good party Lexa thought as she maneuvered her way through the crowd before she stopped abruptly. In front of her dancing stood Roan and fucking Clarke, practically having sex, there was grinding and a whole lot of eye fucking going on; to say Lexa was pissed would be an understatement.

She was livid, yet she had no idea why, her and Clarke are just friends. Maybe for like a millisecond she thought they had a little something going on between them, especially when they got really close upstairs, but this-seeing Clarke act the way she was acting with roan-only proved that she's deluded because there was just no way that this blonde beauty was into her like that, honestly why would she be? Lexa was a one night stand kind of girl, Clarke seemed like the relationship type; why on earth would she even think twice about Lexa like that?

After a moment Lexa clenched her jaw and walked off in search of alcohol, marijuana, and pussy.

It was 3 am. Three fucking ante meridian. And the party was still in full swing except at this point the 'thing' that turned into a 'party' ended up being one giant fucking orgy. Whatever they say about teenagers being horn dogs with out-of-control hormones is absolutely right in this very moment, people where all over the place making out, groping, grinding and in extreme cases licking? It was a mess.

Clarke had more or less been with Roan the entire night/morning they spoke, danced, laughed, and drank. When she had left Raven and Lexa she bumped into him in search of a drink, like he had read her mind he went over to the cooler and grabbed her a beer; they made small talk before he asked her to dance, Clarke-who was kind of tipsy by now-agreed. The dancing she'd admit was a tad bit sexual...

Okay maybe a lot sexual but it was nothing serious just some fun.

She was looking around the house in search of Raven and Octavia so they could get the hell out of here when she heard moaning coming from the room that she now knew was Lexa's her heart started pounding inside of her chest, she knew looking would be stupid but apparently her legs had a mind of their own.

Peeking through the slight crack where the door was open she saw Raven and Lexa in bed together, they weren't having sex but it was pretty clear that's the direction this intense make out session was headed, she closed her eyes, begging the tears that were threatening to fall away that they wouldn't, because she gave Raven the all clear. This is her fault. Turning around Clarke collided with another body not wanting to make a noise and blow her cover she put a hand over her mouth and the other over her rapidly beating heart.

"What the fuck Clarke?!" Octavia whisper yelled, she too had a hand over her heart "You tryna mold us into the Siamese twins?! Because you're cool and everything but I'm not down for that, you fart in your sle-"

"Octavia shut the fuck up." Clarke deadpanned.

The dark haired girl thew her hands up in surrender "Alright gosh. What are you doing snooping around anyway I was looking for you and Rae?"

Clarke clenched her jaw "So was I."

It's only in that moment that Octavia saw the unshed tears in her best friends eyes, with furrowed brows she looked over Clarke's shoulder and through the crack in the door, realization washed over her face, she sighed "Clarke you said you were cool with it."

A sniffle "I am."

"No you're not." Octavia said softly pulling Clarke away from the door and into a hug.

The blonde let herself be comforted "No I'm not." Clarke chocked out.

After a few minutes of just hugging they left the party and went back to Clarkes place in silence.

"LEXA HAD A WHAT?!!?"

"Calm down dude! I took it from her."

"Roan you jackass! Lexa would forget her own head if it wasn't screwed on tight." Anya said with an eye roll

"What does that have to do with anything?"

Anya looked to the ceiling as if praying to a higher power "Meaning she most definitely forgot you took it from her so the moment she finds out..." Anya trailed of leaving roan to figure out the rest.

It didn't take long because a second later his eyes widened comically before he quickly composed himself "I'm not scared of Lexa, Anya."

"Oh wow that's real brave of you to grow some balls when she's not around, seriously well done big man." Nia piped up sarcastically with a mocking clap.

Before Roan could defend himself Lincoln was already losing his shit "ENOUGH!" Lincoln all but screamed, this day was really testing his whole 'cool, calm, and collected' attitude "I can barely hear myself think with you guys yapping and this fucking never ending music. You know what-" Lincoln said as he stormed out of the kitchen where the four of them were talking and into the living room "EVERYBODY PARTIES OVER!"

No more needed to be said before everyone started scrambling around looking for their DD's or calling an Uber to pick them up.

"Lincoln why the hell are you flipping dog shit right now? Your sister's one stubborn son of a bitch all she's gonna wanna do is get it back nothing more nothing less." Anya reasoned trying to get Lincoln to see he's fighting a losing battle.

"Like hell she is." Lincoln muttered fire in his eyes as he made his way upstairs to Lexa's room.

After seeing Clarke dancing with Roan Lexa got wasted and really, really, really fucking stoned; she was with ontari when Raven walked over to her and sat on her lap whispering things that would make a porn star cringe.

That's how they ended up in lexas bed.

"Oh God Lexa!" Raven moaned as Lexa sucked her nipples hard with her thigh pressed against the Latina's core. But it wasn't enough "I need you to fuck me Lexa." she whispered by her ear with tug to the brunette's pants.

Lexa didn't need to be told twice she quickly stripped herself of her remaining clothes, albeit difficultly seeing as she could barely stand up straight, before reaching over and grabbing a condom from her nightstand.

Raven who was lost for words staring at Lexa's package because fuck how big is she? snatched the condom and rolled it on her length causing Lexa to buck her hips forward at the contact craving more. She took her dick in her hand and guided it to Raven's entrance she pushed in until the head was in but Raven stopped her "Wait, wait you're so fucking big it kind of hurts give me a minute." Raven breathed out eyes closed and bottom lip in-between her teeth.

Lexa nodded and proceeded to distract herself from the sensation with biting and licking Raven's neck, after a minute Raven ran her hands through Lexa's hair "Alright Lex you can move."

No response.

"Lexa I want more of your big cock inside of me". Raven tried again this time with a sultry seductive tone.

But still no response.

She swore she just heard light snoring but she refused to believe that the Lexa Woods just fell asleep on her when they were just about to have sex. With an eye roll she flipped them over so she was on top, looking down at Lexa she narrowed her eyes.

She was fucking passed out whether it be drunk, high who gives a fuck but she was gone completely out for the count.

"Unbelievable." Raven muttered getting of the bed to look for her clothes and leave but then the door was being swung open, a very angry looking Lincoln storming in she squealed and quickly tried to cover herself.

Lincoln's eyes widened before he swung around almost running straight into the door he moments ago barged open "Oh shit I'm so sorry I didn't mean to- you- I- shit sorry." he stuttered out frantically.

Raven laughed "Calm down its fine I was just leaving." Raven said after putting on one of Lexa's ball shorts and jersey seeing as she had no idea where her cloths were "Tell her she's an asshole and I'll call her." Raven said over her shoulders as she made her way out the room and down the hall. Lincoln being the sweet guy he is shouting another apology which she only waved off.

He turned to Lexa thankful she still had her sports bra on and that the sheets were covering her lower area; he left the room and came back a minute later with a bucket of water in his hands throwing it all over Lexa who gasped and jumped up screaming.

She looked up and glared at Lincoln ready to rip him a new one.

He wasn't fazed at all "You have 5 minutes to get your ass up and plant it on the sofa downstairs. Sober." Lincoln instructed in a tone that left no room for arguments.

Lexa raised both her eyebrows mouth opening about to talk but Lincoln raised his hand stopping her "I'm counting." is all he said before he left the room leaving Lexa in shock.

Lincoln, Roan, and Anya were sitting on the couch, a shit load of rubbish all around them everyone had left including Nia who Roan sent home saying he won't be long.

Exactly 5 minutes and Lexa was making her way down stairs with a hoodie and some joggers on looking like complete shit but you could tell she was slightly more sober. Lincoln gave himself a mental pat on the back before focusing on the matter at hand. Lexa.

She sat on the single chair opposite the three of them that were sat on the longer chair.

Silence.

No one spoke for about a 3 minutes-yes three, Lexa counted-before Lincoln spoke up

"Lexa, I'm gonna ask you this one time okay and I want an honest and serious answer. Where did you get a fucking gun from?" Lincoln said trying his hardest to stay calm because he wasn't about to fight his sister.

Lexa had no reaction . She looked to Roan who didn't back down and stared right back at her. She ran her tongue over her front teeth with a nod still looking at Roan before she clenched her jaw and looked back to Lincoln "You want an honest and serious answer? Alright how's this one. It's. None. Of. Your. Goddamn. Business," Lexa said each word slowly so he could understand.

Lincoln raised his eyebrows "None of my goddamn business?" he whispered dangerously feeling his anger about to get the better of him.

"Yeah none of your goddamn business."

"Okay then Lexa the great do Mom and Dad know that you have a gun inside their house? Hmm or is it none of their business too?" Lincoln started raising his voice.

"Lincoln I'm not doing this with you right now." Lexa warned standing up to leave but Lincoln was already on his feet stopping her.

"Oh yes we fucking are Lexa. We're doing this right now and I'm sorry to tell you but you don't have a choice!" Lincoln snarled getting in Lexa's face.

Things looked like they were getting out of hand so Anya stood up intervening "Okay both of you guys need to calm down because all this yelling and arguing is unnecessary." she scolded.

"Unnecessary?!" Lincoln barked "Far from it. She has a gun! Lexa YOU HAVE A GUN! Not weed or alcohol but a weapon! A dangerous weapon that could kill someone in seconds! How on earth have you not gotten that into your thick fucking skull?!"

"I don't need you to spell it out for me Lincoln it's mine the reason I have it is not now nor will it ever be any of your concern." Lexa said calmly she really didn't want to lose her temper right now seeing as Lincoln already had and the both of them angry and out of control would be difficult to handle and most definitely end in bloodshed.

"You know what Lexa? I can't talk to you, I'm holding on to it and the moment Mom and Dad get back I'm telling them everything." he snarled.

Lexa let out a hysterical laugh "Wow why am I not surprised huh? You're just a little bitch doing what bitches do, ain't that right pretty boy?" Lexa mocked which only made him angrier.

"I'm the bitch yeah you're the moron with a gun yet I'm the bitch?!"

"Yeah cause all you do is bitch about every. Little. Thing! And it's been like that ever since we were kids!" Lexa shouted exasperated.

"Lexa this isn't just any little thing though! And I bitch about everything says the one who's about to start bitching about shit that happened years ago!"

"It could of happened a millennium ago and I'd still fucking hurt Lincoln! Because you're supposed to be my BROTHER and you ratted me out! For what huh? To be the fucking little golden child?!" Lexa was starting to get more upset than angry old feelings pushing their way to the surface.

"Lexa that guy was a creep! He was fucking with you! I just- I just wanted to help." Lincoln said defeated by now Lexa was full on crying.

"But you didn't help Lincoln! You took away the best thing that ever happened to me!" Lexa sobbed pushing Lincoln in the chest "You took it away!" she pushed him again "And I'll be damned if I let you do that to me again!" she pushed him one more time.

"What the hell is that supposed to mean?" Lincoln asked , when Lexa didn't answer he asked again "Lexa what are you talking about? Pleas don't tell me-"

"Give me the gun." She interrupted.

"No. You're my sister Lexa and I love you and wanna help but I can't do that if you keep shutting me out." he said defeated with tears rolling down his face he left the room.

Anya finally spoke again after being shocked the whole time, she looked to Roan "You should probably leave, I'll text you and I'm sure Lincoln will once he calms down." Roan only nodded once before he left leaving Anya and Lexa alone.

Anya wordlessly took Lexa's hand and guided her upstairs back too her bedroom they both laid on the bed, Anya holding Lexa as she cried herself to sleep.

Chapter Text

It was a rainy shitty Sunday afternoon, there was a storm brewing; both literally and metaphorically. Since Lexa's party Friday night everything with everybody has just been really fucking awkward to say the least.

Bellamy ended up not having his party, mainly because everyone was too hungover to move let alone drink all over again. He also hasn't told a single soul about his confrontation with Lexa but he swore she'd pay for it, he didn't know how just yet but she was definitely not gonna know what hit her.

Things with Lincoln and Lexa have yet to be resolved, their parents phoned Saturday night saying their flight got delayed and that they'd be back some time Sunday so the siblings avoided each other until then. Lexa was still royally pissed at Lincoln and vice versa but decided against confrontation for now because they were both too tired to fight. They would never admit it but they missed each other, both were just too damn stubborn to talk. 

The gun was a topic purposefully left unattended to but Lexa hadn't forgotten about it and planned to get it back one way or another.

Roan had tried texting and calling Lexa but to no avail, one because she was still very mad at him and two because she was far too busy trying get a hold of Clarke who she thought was still upset about the reading of the email thing... She's slow.

Not to mention Clarke's totally avoiding both Raven and Lexa at all costs. Deep down she knows it's not fair on either of them but she can't help but be pissed at Raven for being so oblivious it's like Finn all over again but let's not get into that She's also unreasonably angry at Lexa for leading her on and making her actually think for a split second that maybe, just maybe she won't play her like all the other girls. But boy how wrong was she? Seeing them in bed together really fucking hurt and she just wasn't ready to deal with them right now especially when they'll all be seeing each other at school on Monday, so she decided she'd cross that bridge when she gets to it. 

Octavia had offered to be the one to tell Raven that Clarke lied and that she does have feelings for Lexa but Clarke refused stating 'Why? they already fucked, you can't unfuck Octavia so there's no freaking point now.' while feasting on a bowl of ice-cream wrapped up in her blankets on the sofa watching re-runs of some TV show called The Hundred which was apparently really dope up until season 3 episode 7 but that's besides the point. Anyway Octavia had told Raven that Clarke wasn't answering her text or calls because she was on her period and was being a hormonal little moody shit. Raven didn't believe but accepted her explanation for now, she also accepted Octavia's apology about what she said on Friday it's not a topic Raven likes to dwell on so when Octavia low-key used it against her she wasn't happy but not being in contact with both her friends didn't sound appealing so she let it go.

Everyones basically avoiding or being avoided. Damn teens and their drama. 

Back too the present it's a Sunday afternoon the rains pissing down outside and Lexa's in her car coming back from Walmart, she needed loads and loads of sugar after her 4 hour work out. Yes 4 fucking hours. Lincoln normally reminds her too take her pills every morning but they're not talking so no pill equals a whole lot of energy, but Lexa's not one to let things go to waste, so to the gym she went. 

She was at a stop light when her phone started ringing luckily she had it connected to the car listening to the loudest music she could find. Peeking at her phone she saw that there was no caller ID with a sigh she answered.

"Hello Lexa?" came a very familiar voice.

"Raven? Your numbers saved in my phone why is there no caller ID?" 

The brunette on the other end of the phone let out a nervous chuckle "Well uh that's the thing I kinda left my phone at your house the other night along with all my clothes- I borrowed some of yours by the way." 

"Oh right I haven't been in that room since so I wouldn't have known. Quick question though what clothes did you take?" Lexa asked because she was missing her favorite football jersey.

"Some black basketball shorts and a football jersey, to be specific a Detroit Lions jersey which I'm certainly not complaining about." 

Lexa tutted and made a face "I'm complaining their my favourite team man!" After a second she added "AND THRE WAS A GAME YESTERDAY!" she exclaimed remembering how she had to sit through the whole game without it on.

Raven laughed finding this all very amusing "That's crazy my dad was a major Detroit Lions fan, you know, he got me into all that shit and not to rub salt into the wound but I totally wore that jersey when I was watching the game!" 

"OH COME ON!, that pretty much sounded like your goal just then was to rub a whole damn tub a salt on my very aching heart." Lexa playfully complained not really that mad.

"Oh stop being a baby I'm sure you managed." Raven dismissed

"Barely." Lexa grumbled pulling up outside her house she turned off the engine but stayed seated, something told her she was still going to have to drive. 

"Whatever, anyway back too the point, my phone would be really useful I've been texting everyone on this weird little flip phone it's totally ancient. Lexa I'm literally losing my mind! It has buttons!" Raven exclaimed like it was the weirdest thing in the world. 

Lexa rolled her eyes "Omg buttons?!" she gasped sarcastically.

"Very funny. I was wondering if you were home so I could jump in a taxi and get my stuff while dropping off yours?" Raven asked. 

"I actually just got home I'm sitting in my car I wouldn't mind just dropping them off to you." Lexa suggested ever the sweetheart when it comes to helping out her friends.

"You would be a life saver seriously. Only if you really don't mind." 

Lexa snorted "Okay Raven cut the crap you don't have to pretend like you actually give a shit wheather I mind or not" 

"Ahh you know me so well. My address is 47 Colamor Lane I'll see you in while" 

"Colamor Lane? That's like 10 minutes from my place no problem." Lexa said hanging up the phone and getting out of her car running to her doorstep so she wouldn't get too wet. Once inside she quickly ran up too her room, noting that Lincoln's shoes and coat were gone so he obviously wasn't home; and grabbed Raven's stuff she went back outside to her car and plugged in Raven's phone so it could charge for a bit seeing as it was dead and was on her way. 

15 minutes later thanks to the traffic and shitty weather Lexa finally arrived, she got out of her car and ran to Raven's doorstep knocking twice, seconds later Raven appeared ushering Lexa inside as lighting flashed and thunder rippled.

"Hey thanks for dropping them by, I know the weather's really shitty and this probably isn't what you had in mind for a Sunday afternoon." Raven thanked her as she took Lexa's wet jacket and hung it on the radiator so it could dry a little before she left same with her boots.

Lexa waved her off "Girl I got you, seriously it's nothing and I have zero friends apparently so my Sunday afternoon schedule was pretty much blank." 

Raven guided them into the living room where it looks like she was just laying down with a whole load of blankets and pillows watching a movie "Well as you can see," she gestured around the room "I too have no friends therefore no plans." 

Lexa took that as her chance too ask what was up with Clarke because Raven was her bestfriend she had to know right? 

"Speaking of no friends, Clarke's been ignoring my texts and calls ever since Friday do you know what's up?" 

Raven sighed getting up and grabbing two bears from the cooler beside the coffee table "Your guess is as good as mine, Woods." 

Lexa furrowed her brows "Wait, is she not replying to you either? Something must be wrong should we go over?" Lexa was starting to get worried. 

The Latina chuckled "Whoa there tiger, cool it. She's fine but we must've done something wrong..." Raven trailed of realizing that if Clarke wasn't speaking to her or Lexa then Octavia was probably right about Clarke liking Lexa. Fuck I'm so stupid! In fact, fuck that! I had my eyes on Lexa too so why should I back down for her? Plus she told me she didn't even care! Raven's thoughts where interrupted when she realised Lexa was clicking her fingers trying to get her attention.

She huffed in annoyance "Can you stop? That's really annoying plus I can't do it so it makes me salty." Raven pouted. 

Lexa chuckled "Then listen next time, you were saying something about us doing something wrong for Clarke to be ignoring us...?" 

"Oh yeah that-um-it's probably nothing don't worry she'll get over it. Do you wanna stay for a bit?" Raven asked coyly "I mean since we're both friendless and everything..." 

Lexa smiled getting comfortable on the couch "Sure. Can we watch yesterday's NFL game though? I normally watch it with Lincoln but he was absent so I was alone which sucked." Lexa said tapping her feet and and cracking her knuckles to Raven she seemed a bit restless. 

"Sure I hate watching games alone too- hey Lexa are you good? You're just fidgeting a lot right now and it's kinda freaking me out." 

"I promise I'm not a psychopath who's about to have a mental breakdown." she joked causing Raven to laugh as she sipped her bear "But I have ADHD and completely forgot to take my meds so I'm a little all over the place right now, if I'm being weird or distracting you I could go-" Raven cut off Lexa's rambling by straight up walking out of the room.

She came back a moment later with a bottle of Adderall in her hand "My mom has ADHD too." Raven stated sitting back down on the sofa, Lexa's eyebrows shot up at the new bit of information.

"Oh word? Is she here right now?" 

"Nah she actually went to work this morning so... Um I'm not sure if your even allowed to take someone else's prescribed meds but if you're feeling like taking a chance by all means go ahead just please don't die or anything." Raven tried to joke.

Lexa noticed something but didn't speak on it for now. "Awww would little Miss Reyes be devastated if I died?" Lexa asked teasingly trying to bring back the light mood.

It worked because Raven snorted "Oh please not even a little bit it's just that they'd totally try and pin that shit on me. Like, the fuck?" 

"You literally just gave me the pills and more or less stated that you couldn't care less if I took them or not" Lexa deadpanned with furrowed brows. 

Raven shrugged "They aren't going to know that though, plus you'll be dead nobody around to narc on me." 

Lexa just shook her head trying to hide an amused smile "Okay how about we stop talking about my death? And the fact that you'er just the model citizen of 2016" she said sarcastically Raven only glared at her in response while getting up to grab a bottle of water from the fridge handing it to Lexa who gave her a small smile in thanks and swallowed the pills while taking a swig of water, they both settled on the sofa a friendly distance between them and watched the game. 

 
Clarke was at home taking a power nap when she heard the consistent ringing of her front door bell, with a groan she put both her hands over her ears in an attempt to drown out the God awful sound. 

Obviously it didn't work so she did the next best thing "Mom! Dad!" The blonde was certain she heard crickets "Somebody! Anybody! Please get the door!" she whined this time like a child. A Pin drop. 

Because she was too focused on trying to get back to sleep and dream away whoever the fuck was at the door she had forgotten that her parents had went out to a house warming party held by one of their mutual friends, so she was home alone. 

Octavia had wanted to come over so they could go do something but Clarke had told her that she wasn't really feeling good and just wanted to stay in, so she had relatively slept for the whole day. Until now.

With a groan she got out of bed and ran down the stairs ready too give the dweeb on the other side of the door a piece of her mind. With great force the blonde swung the door open revealing a guy around her age with hazel eyes and short brown hair holding a pizza box with a bored expression as he chewed and made bubbles with his gum, a phone in his free hand playing color switch... 

Clarke narrowed her eyes at the boy who still hadn't looked up at her yet, she cleared her throat way too load for it to be normal causing the boy who clearly would rather be anywhere else in the world to look up his eyes widened for a second before he composed himself , just as he opened his mouth to speak Clarke beat him too it 

"Is there a reason for why you're at my doorstep ringing my fucking bell like you're summoning a goddamn army?" she spat with her eyes still narrowed so he knew she wasn't trying to joke 

He furrowed his brows and rudely looked Clarke up and down "Is there a reason it took you a fucking millennium to open the bloody door?" he fired back, Clarke noting that he has a British accent.

She read the name tag stuck to his shirt before replying "Look, Oliver, I didn't order a freaking pizza so if you don't mind-" Clarke made a move to shut the door in his face because she didn't like his attitude one bit not to mention he woke her up from a peaceful slumber, before she could shut it though he put his foot in the door way stopping her, the blonde glared at him not impressed. "Move your foot dude! I already told you I didn't order a pizza." 

He moved his foot and took out his phone reading a message "My boss told me this address, a pineapple and chicken pizza for a Clarke Griffin." 

Clarke huffed annoyed "Yeah I'm Clarke griffin but I di-" 

"Hold your horses why don't you love, there's more" he cut her off causing Clarke too raise her eyebrows at him but keeping quiet so he could continue, with a nod of his head he did "It says her mom and dad ordered and already payed for it so all the little one has to do is open the door." he concluded. 

Clarke rolled her eyes "Whatever thanks I guess, but if you ever deliver a pizza here again and ring the bell like that I'm going to bite your finger off." she warned. 

He chuckled before replying "Kinky." Clarke narrowed her eyes at him. Asshole. 

He turned on his heels about to leave when the blonde stopped him "Hey British guy I've never seen you around anywhere before and this is a pretty small town so did you emerge from thin air just to piss me off?" she asked genuinely curious but throwing an insult in there because he was still a rude douchbag. 

He smiled too big for it to be genuine "Well American girl I just moved here from England with my parents two weeks ago an-" 

She cut him off raising a hand in the air "Wait I forgot I totally don't care." she said with a fake tight lipped smile as she turned on her heel and entered her house closing the door with a thud.

"Charming." she heard him mutter before she saw him get on his bicycle through the peep hole and peddle off , with a shake of her head she went to the kitchen with Oliver still on her mind he was sort of cute, hot accent too. She thought before catching a whiff of the pizza Oo pizza! 

Lexa was driving aimlessly around the small town, exploring it as she was not quite ready to go home and face her parents who had probably already heard everything from Lincoln. 

She had left Raven's house at 12 o'clock which was half an hour ago, they had watched the football game together, both screaming at the TV like they didn't already watch it and know that Lions won against the Redskins 20-17, it wasn't awkward between them because of what happened on Friday however Lexa did get extremely embarrassed when Raven informed her about how she had fallen asleep just when they were about to have sex but they just laughed it off because it was pretty funny that 'the ultimate fuckgirl Lexa Woods passed out during sex' as Raven so graciously put it.

The duo didn't do or attempt at anything sexsual during their time together everything was pretty platonic bar the back and forth flirting but it was nothing serious just their personalities. 

Although Lexa was having a great time with Raven, a certain blonde was still on her mind. Lexa had no idea why Clarke was avoiding her because as far as she's concerned her snapping about the blonde reading her email wasn't that big of a deal anymore especially since she apologized, she thought about the fact that Clarke wasn't speaking to Raven either maybe she got jealous? No she couldn't have been because that would mean she likes one of us? It can't be me tho right? But it can't be Raven either? Fuck! I'm so confused! 

With the questions in her head spiraling out of control she didn't realize that she drove all the way to Clarke's house until she was pulling over on the curb; she sighed and ran a hand through her hair, looking to Clarke's house she saw that there was no cars in the driveway Clarke's parents must not be home she thought.  

Lexa got out of the car and made her way too Clarke's front door suddenly halting mid stride she realized that it's really late and Clarke might actually be asleep like a normal student on a freaking school night! 

As Lexa pondered on what to do she looked around catching sight of Clarke's window and a slightly climbable tree... The more Lexa looked at the tree the more she came to terms with the fact that the tree actually doesn't look climbable, like at all it looks like it spells out the words try and die clear as day, fuck!

After a minute of Lexa straight up analyzing that shit she thought fuck it, I'll climb the tree and lightly tap her window to see if she's awake if not I'll bounce and with that thought she set her plan in motion, walking toward the tree she put one leg up on a thick branch that look like it could hold her weight... Sort of 

Half way up the tree Lexa lost her footing and stumbled a bit she gasped and held on for dear life, risking a peak she saw that she was actually really high up fuck fuck fuck why am I doing this again? 

What Lexa didn't know was that the nosey old lady that lived across the street from Clarke had been watching her the whole time and already called the police now on the phone trying to ring Clarke for a second time she finally picked up. 

"Hello Clarke dear?"

"Mrs. Ramirez? Is everything okay?" Clarke asked sleep still in her voice. 

"I think there's somebody trying to break in your house..."

While Clarke was being informed that there was an intruder breaking in her house (or sadly attempting to) Lexa was hanging from a tree very much regretting the fact that she was actually currently stoned and freaking out maybe it wasn't the best idea to smoke right before a mission... Mission? Oh God! I'm totally losing sight of reality! I'm gonna die up here! 

Becaus the brunette was panicking so much she doesn't here the fast approaching sirens or Clarkes window open and then suddenly she's being sprayed with....silly string? What the- 

"Get the fuck away from my house you criminal freak!!" a very angry blonde shouted from above Lexa. 

The very confused brunette looked up just in time to be hit in the face with a bucket of water "Clarke what the hell it's me Lexa!" she shouted desperately trying to stop the very odd attack.

"Lexa!? What is wrong with you!" 

"What's wrong with me?!" Lexa yelled incredulously "Your the one going ape shit with silly string!"

"I thought you were thief!" Clarke defended with a shrug.

"OK but what the fuck was silly string supposed to do if I were a thief ? You know apart from irritate the fuck out of me?!" The brunette asked still half way up the tree hanging on for dear life, but right now she was a little distracted.

"Very funny asshole I thought it was mace!" 

Before Lexa could fire back with a witty remark two police cars were pulling up outside the house, Clarke quickly left her bedroom and ran down the stairs remembering that Mrs. Ramirez mentioned she had already called the cops.

"Wait! It's a misunderstanding I know her" Clarke said panting from her 1 minute sprint as she got outside I really need start going to the gym.

"Yeah I know her too blondie" one of the officers said walking up to the tree and looking up at the pale brunette "Lexa, what the shitsticks are you doing kid?" he asked shaking his head.

"Oh my god, Nyko? Dude you gotta call the firefighters, swat team-" 

"Swat team?" Clarke cut in with furrowed brows while one of the officers was already on the phone.

"Whoever -the-fuck okay just get me down somebody please?!" Lexa begged feeling her hands going sore and numb.

"Okay calm down kiddo Johnny boy already called the firefighters to help you down." Nyko reassured with an amused grin like he'd seen this all before.

"I don't know if I've got that long man! My hands numb and my arms killing me" Lexa panted out starting to panic again. 

"Hey cool it alright? They're almost here just hang in there Avatar." the other officer said leaning again the car and lighting a cigarette. 

Clarke stood there baffled as to what was going on and why Lexa was even at her house to begin with, Clarke had been ignoring her for almost two days now why was she so reluctant to give up? Before she could think into it too much one of the officers approached her "Hey, I'm Nyko a friend of Lexa's, kind of, I just keep the little rascal out of trouble or should I say we do." Nyko gestured to his partner who was by the car smoking his cigarette "That's John."

"Nice to meet you guys I'm Clarke and why do I get the feeling Lexa's been in this predicament before?" Clarke asked an amused twinkle in her eyes.

John laughed from where he stood by the car "Trust your gut instinct."  

"Lexa's a character." Nyko added. 

Clarke laughed and looked to Lexa who was doing her best to look intimidating and glare at John, since she was stuck up a tree crying like a baby and minutes away from pissing herself it obviously didn't work so he just laughed at her.

The sirens from the fire truck got close and soon they were pulling up in front of the house, a man with long black hair and a scruffy beard stepped out along with two other men who looked quite young. 

The man with the scruffy beard laughed as soon as he saw Lexa "Wow why am I not surprised it's you Avatar?" he asked laughing still.

One of the other boys that was in car also laughed "You know what? I knew it was her, when we got the call I thought 'What other grown 17 year old gets stuck in a tree?'" 

Lexa furrowed her brows with a tut "Can you guys stop!? John! Why would you call these guys?" Lexa groaned John only shrugged in response causing Lexa to roll her eyes "Can somebody just get me down!?" 

"Alright alright calm down your arrows glowing." Nyko mocked causing everyone to laugh. 

After half an hour of the fire fighters-who she discovered were called Marcus, Chris, and Nathan;-trying to unwrap Lexa from the tree trunk and assure her that she wouldn't die they finally left with a warning from Nyko that he knew Lexa was high and to be careful what she gets mixed up in because at the end of the day he was still a cop.

Clarke told Lexa to come inside, once in she made them both a cup of hot cocoa with whip cream and marshmallows on top, they both settled on the sofa. 

"So Avatar," Clarke said her nickname teasingly "do you wanna tell me why you were climbing the tree outside my room?" she asked.

Lexa shifted in her seat nervously "Uh I just wanted you to talk to me, tell me what I did wrong." she said shyly biting her nails. 

Clarke furrowed her eyebrows "What you did wrong?"

Lexa nodded "You've been ignoring me."

"I haven't been ignoring you." Clarke lied, looking anywhere but at Lexa.

"No point trying to deny it Griffin, Raven said you've been ignoring her too."

At that Clarke's head snapped up her blue eyes meeting lexa worried and nervous green "You spoke to Raven?" Clarke could hear the shake in her own voice as she spoke meaning Lexa definitely heard it.

The brunette narrowed her eyes questioningly "Um ye-yeah I uh actually saw-was with her today" she stuttered out, because for some reason hearing the shake in Clarke's voice made her feel guilty like she needed to explain herself which made no fucking sense to her. 

Clarke clenched her jaw "Of course you were." she mumbled standing up "Look it's really late, I don't know when my parents are coming back and we have school tomorrow so maybe you should go home." she made a move to leave the room but Lexa caught her wrist stopping her, Clarke closed her eyes for a second and then turned around to face a very confused Lexa.

"Wait, what is happening right now? " Lexa asked shaking her head.

"Nothing." Clarke dismissed "Just go home Lexa." she tried to walk away but was stopped again she sighed beginning to get frustrated. 

"Clarke, can you just fucking talk to me please?"  

"There's nothing to talk about!" the shorter girl finally snapped "There is absolutely nothing to talk about, why don't you just go fuck Raven again?!" she spat angry now.

"Is that what this is about? I never had sex with Raven. Even if I did why would you be so angry about it?" 

Lexa was beyond confused about the blonde's behavior but she'd be lying if she didn't admit that deep down she had hope that the blonde was so pissed because she maybe had feelings for her, Lexa wasn't one of those people who swore off all relationships and love because they had their heart broken and vowed that love is weakness and all that bullshit, she slept around a lot because she never came across the perfect girl you want to call yours. But Clarke, Clarke was different she was everything you could want in a girlfriend beautiful, funny, classy, intelligent and the list goes on, in fact if Lexa was being true to herself she had a crush on Clarke the moment she saw her trying to blend in with her chair in math class. 

"You didn't sleep together? But I saw you two in bed together at your stupid thing." Clarke said frustrated and confused but a little hopeful at the prospect that they didn't go that far.

Lexa smiled a little because Clarke still called her failed attempt at not having a party a thing, Yep definitely girlfriend material, she gets me.

"Why are you smiling?" Clarke whined like a child.

Lexa was now trying her best not to full on grin "I'm not. Look we never had sex I passed out, and you still haven't answered the question why do you care?" 

Clarke let out a bark of a laugh "You passed out?" she snorted "In the time we've known each other you have proved time and time again that you have no game." 

Lexa laughed whole heartedly "Hey, I got game alright and I'm kinda sorta glad I can't handle being intoxicated." She admitted wearily looking closely for Clarke's reaction.

The blonde sighed "I'm kinda sorta glad too." she said sheepishly.

Lexa took a step closer to the blonde beauty. "Why do you care Clarke?" 

Clarke also took a step forward until they were in the exact same position like in Lexa's room at the party, she took a shaky breath "Because I-" Clarke never got to finish her sentence because at that exact moment the front door opened abby and Jake steeping inside, Abby however had came in first a lot more quietly than jake did and saw how close the girls were standing before they moved apart, she narrowed her eyes suspicious. 

"What's going on?" she asked looking at Lexa who was looking at the floor nervously. 

"Hey Lexa what's up? You're here pretty late." Jake said with a friendly smile.

Lexa returned the smile "I was actually just leaving so-" she glanced at Clarke with a sweet smile "I'll see you tomorrow Clarke." 

"See you tomorrow Lexa." Clarke said also smiling, her smile getting wider and turning into a grin as soon as lexa left she ignored her parents questioning faces and went straight to her room still smiling looking forward to tomorrow way more than before.

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Clarke woke up on Monday morning at approximately 7:15 a.m. just like she did every Monday because on Mondays she had too go Starbucks and get her favorite cup of coffee; seemingly the only thing that could get her through such a specific horrid day.

However, today was different, instead of the frustrated groan that always left her mouth in the mornings thinking about how she had to go to school for hours with brainless morons who do the dumbest shit known to mankind-all in a days work-she woke up and let out a content sigh because this particular Monday she was thinking about how she had to go to school for hours with Lexa fucking Woods!

She was in a whirlwind of mixed emotions feeling excited yet nervous, confident yet insecure because today could either go really good or really bad, don't get it wrong she wasn't expecting to go to school and have a declaration of love followed by a freaking marriage proposal from Lexa but she did think that things could and should be moving along with them.

As she got out of bed and went into the bathroom to shower and freshen up for school she thought back to the night before and how Lexa had gone out of her way to come to Clarke's house at stupid o'clock and climb a scary ass tree just for attention and an explanation as to why she was being avoided, she also thought about how they more or less admitted their feelings for each other Holy fuck Lexa Woods likes me! Clarke Griffin what the fuck!

The thought of what could have happened before her parents interrupted left the blonde feeling giddy with a bunch of butterflies in her stomach Woah I'm in so deep already. 

After a quick shower she brushed her teeth and went to go get dressed, for some reason she wanted to look good today so deciding on a pair of dark grey jeans each side ripped at the knee, a white crop top and a pair of black timberland boots. Finally putting on her leather jacket she let her hair out falling around her shoulders and down her back. After getting ready she took her phone out about to text Octavia when she received a text from none other than Lexa. 

Lexa Aka Avatar Wannabe: Good morning Miss Sophisticated, I'm outside x 

Clarke was pretty sure she just died three times reading that text, she sat in surprise reading the text over and over again for who knows how long before she was snapped out of her trance by a car horn outside honking.

Getting up with her lips slightly parted she slowly made her way towards the window, moving the curtains wearily she peeked her head through the crack looking outside she saw Lexa standing there looking as badass, charming, and utterly gorgeous as always wearing a pair of jeans ripped at each knee similar to Clarke but black, a dark grey T-shirt with a black leather jacket over a black hoodie; black timberland boots on her feet, leaning against her car phone in hand. 

Clarke took a breath before she picked up her bag and made her way downstairs, just as she was about to leave Jake called out for her from the kitchen Fuck I forgot about them. 

When she got too the kitchen she saw Jake leaning against the sink with the morning news paper in his hand and Abby sitting at the table sipping her coffee. 

"Good morning my rides here so I'll see you later." Clarke rushed out desperate to leave.

"Your ride? If it was Octavia she would of came in already." Abby stated narrowing her eyes a little at her daughter. 

"It's not O, bye gotta go." was all Clarke said before she turned around swiftly making a beeline for the front door. 

Jake raised his eyebrows at his daughter's behavior shrugging his shoulders when Abby looked at him questioningly.

Once Clarke stepped outside Lexa looked up from her phone, her mouth immediately going dry at just how gorgeous Clarke really was.

Smiling and looking Lexa up and down Clarke spoke "So we're matching already?" Clarke teased Lexa who snapped out of her inappropriate thoughts and drooling over the blonde once sound came from her mouth, she looked confused until Clarke gestured to the clothes they were both wearing.

Looking at Clarke properly this time from top to bottom she realized that their outfits were indeed identical with a wide smile she looked back up to Clarke "Damn Griffin you like my swag that much?" she joked.

Clarke chuckled shaking her head "I'll be back in 5 minutes tops." just as she was about to turn around Lexa called out to her. 

"Wait Clarke where are you going?"  

The blonde furrows her brows in confusion "Uhm back inside to change." 

"Why? I think we look like a pretty badass couple to be honest with you." Lexa shrugged with a smile on her face moving to open the passenger door for Clarke. 

Clarke chuckled "But we're not a couple." she smiled at Lexa's sweet gesture and sat in the car leaning down a little so she could see Clarke she smirked. 

"Not yet." the brunette then leaned forward and placed a soft kiss to Clarke's cheek "You look beautiful by the way." was all she said before closing the door and making her way towards the drivers side of the car leaving Clarke absolutely starstruck skin as red as a tomato, she touched her cheek dazed Oh my God.

When Lexa entered the car Clarke composed herself quickly "You're really confident for someone who got stuck up a tree and almost cried like a little girl." the blonde teased laughing when she saw the scowl look on Lexa's face. 

Starting the car Lexa spoke "Can we never ever bring that up please?" 

"Never ever?" Clarke playfully whined. 

Lexa chuckled "Maybe to our future children." 

At that Clarke burst out laughing slapping Lexa's arm "You're really something aren't you Woods?"

"I'd like to think so." 

Roan, Lincoln, and Anya were standing beside Roan's car in the parking lot where everyone was waiting for school to start "So," Roan started lighting up a cigarette "What's the crack with you and our little Lexi" he asked looking to Lincoln who shook his head as if to say don't even ask.

Anya snorted "Our little Lexi? She's pissed at both of you guys right now she's not anyone's anything." she said getting defensive.

Roan put his hands up in mock surrender "Okay Miss I-know-everything-about-everyone all I fucking did was tell you guys Lexa had a gun, are you saying I shouldn't have?" 

"No of course you should have told us but you're deluded if you think that's the only reason she's mad at you." Anya said shaking her head.

Roan looked confused and a little irritated "What are you talking about? I didn't do anything to her."

Anya chuckled rolling her eyes "I saw you grinding up on Clarke at the party and I'm certain she did too."

"And? What does that have to do with Lexa?" 

"If you don't know I don't know roan but with the amount of times shit has happened between you two over a girl you'd think that you wouldn't be so fucking thick and oblivious to it all" Anya said annoyed, she grabbed her bag off the ground mumbling a goodbye to Lincoln before she left. 

Lincoln looked at Roan's bewildered facial expression laughing out loud he patted him on the back "Now they're both mad at you Bro."

Before Roan could say anything Octavia and Raven approached them "What's up losers, I was hoping to find your goddess of a leader?" Raven greeted them getting straight to the point, Octavia rolled her eyes at the Latina who just had zero chill at all times.

She then looked to Lincoln and Roan (but mostly Lincoln) with an apologetic smile "Excuse her, she was dropped on the head way too many times so as you can see the unfortunate outcome of that is her personality." Octavia said mockingly rubbing circles on Raven's back as if to soothe her.

Lincoln barely heard a word she said awe struck by Octavia's beauty, Roan on the other hand burst out laughing earning a glare from Raven "Haha Octavia aren't you just full of jokes." Raven deadpanned "Anyway where is she?" 

"No idea she left pretty early this morning." Lincoln answered shrugging when Raven whined. 

"Big help" she muttered under her breath "We saw Anya storming off from you guys, what did you do?" Raven asked changing the subject. 

"Well I didn't do anything" Lincoln said side eyeing Roan who narrowed his eyes.

"I didn't do anything either dude!" Roan said, annoyed that he was getting shit from everyone for no reason, he looked to Raven and Octavia again "Did you see where she went? I should probably talk to her." 

Octavia nodded her head in the direction of the entire fucking parking lot. Roan gave her a quizzical look but narrowed his eyes trying to see who she was gesturing too after a minute of scanning the area his eyes landed on Anya talking to Bellamy but being way too touchy feely with him, he clenched his jaw and looked away.

Lincoln noticed but decided to wait until they were alone to ask him about it man to man and hopefully he wouldn't beat around the bush.

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"Well Miss Griffin, here we are." Lexa says as she pulls up too the school parking lot smiling when Clarke doesn't answer her because she's pretty sure the blondes about to start masturbating to the taste of her coffee.

Clarke had ask Lexa to make a quick stop at Starbucks before school stating she'd 'fucking spontaneously combust' without her extra doses of caffeine; of course Lexa didn't say no and even ended up insisting that she pay for the coffee and a bagel in which the blonde refused but ended up caving because Lexa wouldn't let up.

Clarke still hadn't acknowledged that they had arrived at school yet so feeling mischievous Lexa purposefully roared the engine of the car gaining the attention of half the parking lot and Clarke who squealed almost spilling her coffee everywhere Lexa snorted earning the attention of a glaring Clarke. 

"Lexa how big of an idiot can you be!" Clarke said narrowing her eyes at the still grinning brunette.

"Well Clarke we have our entire lives for you to figure that out right?" Lexa teased getting out of the car, Clarke shook her head but couldn't help but smile when she realized Lexa was coming around to open her door. 

"Come on Miss Sophisticated we have to make sure you're on time to school or it ruins your perfect 'girl next door' image." Lexa said acting as though she was serious but failing miserably seeing as the corners of her mouth was twitching up in a smile. 

Clarke rolled her eyes but got out of the car squeezing Lexa's cheeks playfully and the brunette whined like a kid who's mom was embarrassing them at school, unbeknownst to them they still had the attention of a lot of people around the parking lot, including a very angry Latina. 

"What the actual fuck is that?!" Raven snarled her eyes firmly glued on the duo still fooling around by Lexa's car. 

"Calm down Rae." Octavia said trying her best to defuse the situation before one even started "What's your problem? It's not like you have a thing for Lexa, Clarke does so just let it go please." she pleaded.

"Let it go?! Are you fucking kidding me?" Raven turned to Octavia fire in her eyes. 

Lincoln took that as his cue to step in "What's going on? Is Lexa fucking with the both of you because so help me God if she is-" Lincoln warned.

"Why would you be mad?" Octavia asked looking at the muscular boy.

"Because she does this all the time." when Octavia still didn't look like she understood he explained further "Always getting in-between friends because she can't keep it in her pants."  

"That's not what this is" Roan intervened "She doesn't like Clarke that... Does she?" 

"I don't know she's your friend" Octavia said to Roan then turning around to address Raven "Look Raven stop being difficult." 

"How the fuck am I being difficult Octavia? I saw Lexa first so why does Clarke get everything? Newsflash: she's not an actual princess so stop treating her like she is!" Raven exclaimed before stomping of in the direction of Clarke and Lexa.

"Raven!" Octavia whisper yelled trying to get her to come back to no avail "Fuck!" 

"Clarkeeeeee" Lexa whined "Stoopp" she tried to get out of the hold Clarke had around her waist like a fucking koala bear, when she still didn't budge Lexa rolled her eyes "Why are you being so annoying?" 

"Because you almost killed me." she answered like it was obvious.

Lexa huffed out a laugh "I did not almost kill you Clarke, it was the engine." 

"Yeah sure." Clarke said sarcastically. 

In that moment Raven thought it necessary to make her appearance known, she came over and roughly grabbed Lexa by her jacket smashing their lips together, surprised, Lexa didn't pull away immediately.

The kiss earned a few wolf whistles and 'ohh's from other students watching after a few seconds Raven pulled away leaving Lexa with her mouth opened stunned, she then turned to Clarke who had her jaw tightly locked; with a sickeningly sweet smile she spoke "Oh hey Clarke I didn't see you there" she said wrapping her hand around Lexa's bicep who was still frozen on the spot.

Without a single word Clarke got her bag from Lexa's car and walked off, bringing Lexa out of her daze she called out to stop Clarke. 

"Clarke!" she said but the blonde ignored her and kept walking Lexa watched her until she disappeared through the school entrance, with a sigh she turned to Raven a questioning look on her face anyone with eyes could tell she was irritated but Raven ignored that moving closer to Lexa so there was barely any distance between them she whispered in her ear.

"What? You don't want me anymore?" with that she pecked Lexa's cheeks and walked off satisfied. 

Lexa stood there confused, trying to process what just happened in the last couple of minutes seemingly out of nowhere things turned to shit. Why does this always happen to me?

Clarke was absolutely livid, one minute her and Lexa are goofing around together and then the next she's watching Raven kiss her Lexa and the worst thing is she didn't pull back, from what she gathered Lexa liked her and they were going somewhere. Apparently not. 

With tears burning her eyes she turned the corner hurriedly so no one would see her cry just as she was turning the corner she collided with another body causing them to both fall on the floor with a thud the person on top of her.

She was beyond annoyed at this point and looked up and the person with a scowl ready to let rip on the idiot, what she wasn't expecting however was for it to be-Oliver? 

"Oh shit I'm so sor- Clarke?" Oliver said looking down confused before he plastered a smirk on his face instead "What need more pizza?" he joked still on top of her, until he heard her sniffle and wipe her eyes, he quickly got up and helped the blonde off the ground.

"Are you alright? Did someone do something to upset you?" he asked frantically not really knowing what to do and feeling irrationally angry at whoever or whatever made Clarke upset.

"I'm fine." Clarke dismissed "What are you doing here?" she asked changing the subject.

"Like you said it's a small town, this school was the only one enrolling at this time of the year." he answers still worried and looking at Clarke wearily.

"Great. One more annoying person to deal with in this shitty school." she joked trying to lighten the mood, Oliver giggled which made Clarke smile because of how cute he sounded.

"Alright I'll take that one because you're upset but don't get used to it American Girl." 

"Whatever you say British guy, have you got a schedule yet? They changed all of them so everyone is in different home rooms now." she informed him as they started walking down the corridor together.

"Yeah actually my teacher is someone called Miss Jordan." he said checking the paper in his hand.

"Looks like we'll be seeing a lot of each other in the mornings, that's my home room too." Clarke said.

At that Oliver beamed looking to Clarke with a wide grin "Isn't that fantastic? we're going to be like best friends." he joked.

Clarke rolled her eyes with a chuckle "No offense but you're the last person I wanna see in the mornings." 

Oliver feigned offense and dramatically gasped, Clarke chuckled rolling her eyes because this guy was an idiot but he was a cute one, still on the route to class they fell into a somewhat comfortable silence with Oliver occasionally side eyeing Clarke who still looked upset, just as they reached the class Oliver stopped Clarke before she could go in "Do you want to talk about it?" he asked scratching the back of his neck "It helps." 

With a sigh Clarke leaned against the wall, Oliver following her every move did the same thing, they stayed silent for a minute just watching as kids walked back and forth in groups or alone, listening to the mixed chatter coming from all directions before Clarke finally spoke "There's this girl I like and I thought she liked me but she's sort of a..." Clarke trailed off looking for the right way to put it without making it sound bad "Not one Women type of girl." Clarke finally said. 

Oliver nodded his head slowly in understanding narrowing his eyes "So she cheated?" he asked wearily. 

At that Clarke let out a dry laugh "Nope we aren't together, but I, uh-I saw it going in that direction you know? And I thought she did too but a girl who also happens to be one of my best friends just came up to her today and...kissed her." 

Oliver raised his eyebrows in surprise "Fuck, that sounds messy." 

Clarke chuckled half heartedly again "Yeah it is but the worst part is she didn't pull back, she just let it happen after eve-" Clarke stopped talking suddenly when she saw Lexa walking down the hall way in their direction, Oliver noticed and took Clarke's hand leading them into the classroom "Is that the girl?" he asked the blonde only nodded once in response.

They both took their seats and watched as the class filled up until Lexa walked in with Anya trailing behind her Clarke internally groaned she just can't catch a break around here.

"Lexa! How fortunate that your one of the people who stayed in my class." Miss Jordan said sarcastically with a wide smile.

Lexa smiled politely "I guess they know you're my favorite teacher." she shot back just as sarcastic. 

"How sweet. Take a seat in your usual spot Miss Woods, you're already late." 

Lexa rolled her eyes but made her way to sit down nonetheless, stopping in her tracks when she saw Clarke "Hey why did you walk off earlier?" Lexa questioned guilt clear in her face and voice but Clarke said nothing avoiding eye contact with her, she sighed and went to sit in the seat next to Clarke which was ironically her usual seat but somebody was already there...the hell?

"What's up Bro you're kind of in my seat." at that the two gained the attention of the entire class bar the teacher who was standing at the door talking to a student about something.

Oliver looked up with a bored expression "Really?" 

Lexa narrowed her eyes "Yeah really." 

"That's funny because I don't see your name on it, and I'm not your Bro by the way." 

Clarke sat there looking between the two of them anxious as to what was going to happen next, despite everything Oliver was a good guy and she really didn't want him making an enemy of the wrong people and Lexa...well Lexa was the wrong people. 

"Aha funny guy, now do you wanna walk out of my seat or do you want me to throw you out of my seat?" Lexa said clenching her fist.

Oliver took of his jacket "I'd love to see you try."  

Anya decided this wasn't going to go any further and tugged Lexa's wrist "No fighting Lexa." she warned.

"It won't be a fight" Oliver said standing up out of his seat, Lexa raised her eyebrows surprised by his boldness rolling her shoulders she took a step forward but before she could make any move Clarke spoke up.

"Lexa don't please. Oliver just let it go and sit down its your first day you don't wanna make any bad impressions." the blonde reasoned trying to devolve the situation Lexa looked over at her making a face. 

"You know him?" she asked 

But before Clarke could answer Miss Jordan had came back in the class room and was already ordering everyone to settle down and get to their seats, with one last look at Oliver and Clarke Lexa sighed and went to go and sit in the back not forgetting to barge Oliver's shoulder on her way past causing him to tumble a bit, with a scowl directed to Lexa he sat back down.

Looks like things are about to get even messier Clarke rolled her eyes with a sigh.

Walking to lunch Clarke couldn't help but think about what a shitty day this had turned out to be, she hasn't spoken to Raven or Lexa all day and is dreading seeing them in the cafeteria most likely together. 

The only good thing that came out of today was her getting to know Oliver as more than just the annoying pizza boy, he was sweet and caring no doubt all the attitude he gave Lexa in home room was because of what Clarke had told him. Speaking of Oliver he's walking towards her right now.

"Hey American girl." he greeted with a smile falling in step with her walking.

"Stop calling me that" Clarke said rolling her eyes, Oliver put his hands up in mock surrender. As they carried on walking down the hall Clarke spoke again "Look I know all that bullshit in class today was because of what I told you about Lexa." she started 

"Hell yeah it was she's a prick." Oliver said making a face as they both entered the cafeteria before Clarke could say anything Raven approached them. 

"Hey Clarkey can we talk?" Raven said voice quiet.

Clarke had to resist the urge to laugh hysterically in the Latina's face, oh the fucking irony "Are you serious right now Raven?" 

Oliver just stood there trying to follow what was going on and who Raven was, maybe she's the best friend. 

Raven ran a hand through her hair and sighed "Look Clarke I'm sorry about this morning I was being an impulsive bitch okay? But I need you right now." Raven said the last part quietly making sure only Clarke heard 

This time she couldn't hold it back and barked out a laugh shaking her head "Just get the fuck out of my face Raven." and with that she walked off not looking back once Oliver again trailing right behind her.

"The bestfriend?" 

"Unfortunately." 

 
Lexa was having a pretty stressful day first: Clarke's mad at her, all of a sudden she's got teachers on her case being assholes, and to top it off random jackasses with attitude.

Sitting in the cafeteria on a table by herself she waited and watched trying to spot Clarke so they could get over all this extra drama and just move on, maybe ask her on a date, A date with Clarke...huh she couldn't help but smile because she'd have such a good time, Clarke was great company and Lexa was engrossed by anything that left her mouth. 

Looking around she saw Clarke and that dude from earlier in class walk into the hall why the fuck is she always with this guy now!? Who the hell is he? Frustrated Lexa started tapping her feet, secretly glad she took her meds this morning so she's not acting on impulse.

Just then she saw Raven walk up to them it looked like things got heated because Clarke stormed off, just when she was about to go after Clarke and take her chance at talking to her she noticed Raven with watery eyes...? Lexa was so lost as to why Raven was crying but was certain of one thing and that was that she really didn't like the sight before her, looking between Clarke who was standing in line for lunch and Raven who was now hastily making her way out the cafeteria she made a no brainer decision.

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Lexa maneuvered her way through the crowd of teenagers trying to be polite about it, which was difficult considering everyone was all of a sudden constantly in her path walking like fucking brain dead zombies!

Finally managing to get through Lexa jogged down the corridor "Hey, Raven!" she called trying to catch up with the girl who was speed walking to the school exit, reaching her, Lexa gently wrapped her hands around Raven's waist stopping her from opening it and running out.

"Just go away Lexa!" Raven sobbed trying to get out of Lexa's hold causing a few people standing at their lockers; phone in hand to look up with interest. 

"Hey hey hey Raven it's alright, I just wanna help." Lexa said softly letting go of the crying brunette and putting her hands up in surrender, just then Raven crashed into Lexa's chest clinging on to her hoodie crying her eyes out, Lexa immediately wrapped her arms around Raven's shoulders pulling her closer, resting her chin on the top of the shaking girls head.

"You're alright gorgeous don't cry please." Lexa pleaded softly, pulling back a little so she could wipe away Raven's tears, after a minute her sobs turned into sniffles Lexa took this as her opportunity to lead them away from prying eyes "Come on let's take a walk." 

Raven pulled back wiping the stray tears and trying her hardest to look put together and composed with one last sniffle she spoke voice still shaky "I w-, I wanna show you something." she said hesitating for a second without another word she walked off leaving Lexa to follow which she did without a second thought.

"Hey." Clarke said to Octavia sitting down at the lunch table that the entire group was currently located at eating their lunch, engrossed in different conversations.

Octavia being the only one who wasn't engaged in conversation looked up at Clarke and smiled softly "Hey, I haven't really seen you all day, how you holding up?" she said putting a fry in her mouth.

With a sigh Clarke used the hair band on her wrist to put her hair in a ponytail because it was constantly getting in her eye "I'm completely fine." she finally answered 

Octavia suddenly started sniffing like she was a fucking dog, Clarke furrowed her eyebrows and looked around baffled and a little weirded out "Octavia, what are yo-" her question was interrupted by a particularly loud sniff coming from Octavia.

Before Clarke could question what she was doing again the dark haired girl spoke "Can you smell that?" she asked.

"Uh no?" 

"You sure? It smells a lot like that thing you always do." Octavia said shrugging. 

"And what's that?" Clarke asked with an eye roll catching on to what Octavia was getting at but deciding to humor her. 

"Bullshit." Octavia deadpanned.

"Haha very funny." Clarke drawled out rolling her eyes again. 

Octavia chuckled then shook her head "No but seriously Clarke it's okay to be mad, but Lexa is innocent in that crap from this morning so just talk to her, okay? Because you know you want to." 

Just then Jasper and Harper approached the table, looking to Clarke and Octavia Harper spoke "I just saw Raven crying guys, what happened?" Harper asked in concern. 

A look of guilt washed over Clarke's face, but was quickly replaced with one of annoyance when Jasper spoke next "It's cool, I saw Lexa going after her." 

"Surprise, surprise." Clarke said standing up to leave.

Octavia rolled her eyes "Clarkeee," she whined "Raven was looking for you earlier." the girl informed also packing away her stuff. 

"For what?!" Clarke snapped "What more could she possibly want from me?" To say the blonde was fed up with Raven's bullshit was an understatement, she looked up to see Octavia staring at her. And just like that it hit her. Fuck!

"Again? Seriously?" Clarke asked running a hand through her hair in frustration.

Octavia nodded, pulling out her phone as soon as Clarke opened her mouth to talk sensing what she was about to say "Don't worry griffin I'm already on it, I'll just ask if she's okay and wants us to go to the hospital with her this time, okay?" the dark haired girl asked.

Clarke could only nod in response, how is it that Raven fucks up multiple times yet she's the one feeling like the worst friend in the world?

Lexa was confused when they left the school building, but continued following Raven nonetheless, they came to a stop outside of an abandoned building that looked a little to creepy for Lexa's liking. Raven then started tapping each bit of wood that was placed over the porch as flooring like she was looking for something, hearing a creaking sound Raven stopped tapping the wood and bent over lifting the plank that made a noise, Lexa had to force her eyes not to stray to Ravens perfectly shaped ass it looked so squeezable and- No! Woods stop what the fuck?! 

Raven stood back up but with a key in her hand ...okay...? 

Unlocking the door Raven went inside, Lexa trailing wearily behind her; the inside looked just as abandoned and old as the outside, looking around Lexa noticed a hall type room with a lot of mirrors and railings, it looked like it was for ballet if you asked her. Looking around some more while still following Raven she also noticed a beat up looking piano in the corner of a room with paper all over it.

Staring at the piano she didn't notice that Raven had stopped walking, so she bumped into her causing Raven to stumble a bit but Lexa's quick reflexes catches her before she could fall over.

"Sorry." she mutters sheepishly to Raven who is now facing her, Lexa's hand still on her waist from where she caught her "You're always falling huh, Reyes?" she tried to joke.

"And you're always catching me" Raven said quietly looking deep into Lexa's eyes, the intensity of Raven's stare freaked Lexa out a bit but she couldn't look away after a minute Raven did clearing her throat and stepping back causing Lexa's hands to fall from her waist. 

"So what is this place?" Lexa asked desperately trying to change the subject.

It worked because Raven started looking around a smile gracing her lips "It's my moms old ballet studio." she said taking a seat on one of the chairs that littered the floor, Lexa also picked one up and sat next to her, both of them just staring at the room "She used to teach lessons here a while back" the Latina explained further.

Lexa nodded "Did you do ballet?" she asked an amused twinkle in her eyes. 

Raven snorted "Hell no Woods, do I look like some poxy princess, stuck up rich bitch?" 

At that Lexa chuckled shaking her head "You don't have to be rich or stuck up to do ballet Raven." she informed, the other brunette only shrugged.

"But still ballet? Not really my thing, when my mom had a class and I tagged along, she would teach me how to play the piano instead."

A wide grin appeared on Lexa's face almost immediately "Wait so that's your piano?!" Raven nodded "Awesome! I always wanted to learn, but I got stuck in the choir at school" Lexa accidentally let that slip, realizing all to late before she could back track Raven was already looking at her with raised eyebrows and a wide smile.

"Choir huh? I see we have a singer in our midst." Raven teased.

Lexa groaned "Stoopp." she whined.

Raven shook her head still smiling "Oh no no Woods this isn't about to fly over my head, I mean I can still play a couple tunes on the piano, what about you, Beyonce? Can you still bang out those vocals?" 

"Beyonce? Really? What about you Liberace?" Lexa fired back causing Raven to roll her eyes, standing up she took Lexa's hand and pulled her up too, guiding them to the room that has the piano she sat behind it on the bench and lifted the lid, blowing away the dust that flew around her.

Lexa just stood there as defiant as always "Are we really about to do this corny shit, Raven?" 

"Oh yeah we are." Raven answered with a snort, fixing up the piano as best as she could the brunette started playing, a soft melody filling the room, a few seconds in and Lexa already knew what song she was playing, sitting down beside Raven she let the music consume her. 

Say you love me, to my face 
I need it more than your embrace,
Just say you want me, that's all it takes,
Hearts getting torn from your mistakes 

As soon as Lexa sang the first verse Raven was entranced, not believing Lexa could sing this well. What they both didn't know was that Clarke had skipped school when she didn't see Raven in class and went to the abandoned studio that she knew the Latina always went when she was going through something, leaning on the wall Clarke rested her head against it, closed her eyes, and listened.

Cause I don't wanna fall in love, 
If you don't wanna try 
But all that I've been thinking of is maybe that you might
Baby looks as though we're running out of words to say
And loves floating away, and just say you love me,

Just for today, and don't give me time cause that's not the same,
Hmm want to feel burning flames when you say my name, 
I want to feel passion flowing to my bones like blood through my veins 

Cause I don't wanna fall in love, 
If you don't wanna try
But all that I've been thinking of is maybe that you might
And babe it looks as though we're running out of words to say and love's floating away. 

Lexa stopped singing when she noticed tears falling on Raven's fingers that she's been staring at the whole time the mechanic has been playing the piano, without a word Lexa put her arm around Raven's shoulders, causing the brunette to lean her head on Lexa's shoulder.

Silence filled the room. 

"I-I really like Clarke. " Lexa said quietly. 

"I know."

Heading back to the school grounds Clarke noticed Oliver sitting on the steps by the entrance with his head down, walking over in his direction he looks up smiling when he sees Clarke.

"Hi you disappeared after lunch I was waiting to see if you'd come back." Oliver blurts out nervously rubbing the back of his neck.

Clarke just smiles politely not really in the mood to talk to anyone although she appreciates his concern. Just when Oliver opened his mouth to talk again the school bell rang, causing him to jump which made Clarke snort in return he glared at her playfully. 

"Not funny." he muttered. 

"Yes it really is." 

"Alright well you probably want to be on your way now?" Oliver asked shifting from foot to foot nervously.

"Yep." Clarke said awkwardly, popping the 'P', uncomfortable silence washed over them for what felt like hours before Clarke cleared her throat mumbling an "Alright then, see you around." before turning on her heel ready to leave, before she could get to far though she heard Oliver ask a question so quiet she almost didn't hear it.

Almost being the key word.

"Go out with me?" 

To say Clarke was confused would be putting it lightly, she didn't even know he liked her like that they didn't exactly start off on the right foot. 

He is cute and funny which equals good company right? But..Lexa, no she can't think about Lexa because Lexa's too complicated right now, with the whole Raven situation.

Clarke was not expecting to see such an intimate scene between the two when she turned up at the studio looking for Raven, and she certainly was not expecting to hear Lexa's confession about liking her, she was so excited as soon as the words left Lexa's mouth and sunk in she felt a million butterflies in her stomach and heart skipped several beats. So much in fact she's questioning how she's still alive! Because Lexa Woods just said the words she's been dying to hear ever since she knew who Lexa was; so why did it all start to feel wrong?  

Looking at the way Lexa and Raven were together made her question everything all over again because for some reason she only believed the brunette to an extent meaning, okay, maybe she likes Clarke...but not just Clarke? 

Shaking her head of the confusing thoughts Clarke looked at Oliver, like really looked at him, he sort of looked like an exotic prince the way he was built, muscles that are clear to see but not bulging muscles that are just over board, beautiful hazel eyes that made his entire face just shine, a very sharp jawline...kind of like Lexa's actually and black hair that looked rich and shiny.

He was pretty damn gorgeous to say the least. Maybe I need this distraction? Clarke thought. She wouldn't mind getting to know Oliver a little better and she wouldn't mind taking a step back from this screwed up situation she's found herself in. 

"Okay!" Clarke blurted out.

Oliver's eyes widened in both shock and excitement "Okay?" he asked smiling wide wanting to make sure he heard correctly. 

"Yes Oliver, I will go out with you." she said her lips twitching up to a smile with how cute he looked all excited like a puppy. 

"So to be clear you're saying yes to go on a date with me? Like...the two of us, out together?" he asked teasingly still a little shocked she actually agreed. 

"Okay olive,r don't make me change my mind." Clarke said rolling her eyes still smiling. 

"Ooh Sassy are we? It's a good thing I fancy you, Miss Attitude." 

"You're an idiot." Clarke deadpanned.

"But you like it because we're going on a date, I've got your number I'll text you the details." Oliver said beginning to walk off backwards still facing Clarke who groaned playfully.

"Please Don't make me regret this British guy!" Clarke yelled after him. 

He turned around smiling "Wouldn't dream of it American Girl!" 

Tapping the steering wheel with her two index fingers as if they where drum sticks Lexa waited for what felt like hours for Clarke to get home, because familiar faces were starting to pass her car more and more and she was starting to look like a cop on a stake out, a mafia assassin, or just a straight up stalker. 

Well she was kind of on a stake out right? She's sitting in her car outside of Clarke's house staking out... For Clarke..? Interesting she thought.

As she continued to wait for Clarke her mind starting drifting off to Raven, and how upset she had been earlier and how she hated to see her cry and from that moment she vowed to only ever make her smile. After she told Raven that she liked Clarke nothing more was said, they just sat there comfortable in each other's company until Lexa had asked why she was so upset, Raven had proceeded to tell her that her mom was in the hospital because she worked herself way too hard without eating or drinking and forgetting to take her meds. 

Lexa had offered to take her to the hospital and Raven obviously agreed, after saying bye to each other that was it, there was no resolution or continuation to what she confessed which made her feel a little uneasy.  

Shaking her head she checked the time, once more looking back up with a sigh her eyes lit up when she noticed Clarke walking towards her front door, quickly getting out of the car Lexa jogged towards Clarke before she could go inside. 

"Hey Clarke." Lexa said coming to a stop a couple steps away from the blonde. 

"Hi." Clarke said turning around, stoic facial expression looking anywhere but at Lexa.

"So... Did you have a good day?" Lexa asked nervously trying to ease in to what she was about to do. 

"Look Lexa as much as I'd love to stand out here with you and chit chat, I have things to do so please get to the point or we can do this another time." Clarke said her voice sounding cold.

Lexa furrowed her eyebrows in confusion "Okay.... I, uh, just wanted to apologize to you finally, for this morning." she said carefully. 

"Apologize for what Lexa? We're not together." 

Lexa shifted a little where she stood, starting to get agitated with the way she was being treated "But we like each other right? So obviously I assumed that we were headed somewhere, and Raven came out of nowhere and I should definitely pulled away sooner but I was shocked because I wasn't expecting it so I'm very sorry" Lexa explained.

"It's whatever Lexa." Clarke shrugged indifferently "See you tomorrow." 

"Wait, what is your problem?" Lexa asked narrowing her eyes.  

"I don't have a problem." 

"Really? Cause from where I'm standing it doesn't look that way." the brunette argued. 

"We should just be friends." Clarke says finally looking at Lexa just in time to see the hurt and confusion wash over her face. 

"W-what? I thought - I, I was gonna ask you on a date, I-I thought that's what you wanted, I thought that's what we wanted?" Lexa stuttered out frantically clearly getting upset.

Clarke sighed her heart sinking but remained impassive knowing this was best for everyone "I did. I do, but you and Raven have some...feelings you need to work out first and I'm just getting in the way."

"Feelings!?" Lexa barked "What are you talking about?? I like you! Clarke, you!" she defended. 

"And Raven?" 

"What about Raven??" 

"You don't feel anything for her?"

Silence.

"N-no" Lexa stuttered quietly .

"That's it!" Clarke exclaimed "Right there Lexa that's it, the hesitation to answer a simple question, because that's what it was right? Since you like me so much then that should've been a simple question." she said softly poking Lexa's chest. 

"Don't tell me what I feel Clarke." Lexa argued weakly. 

"I'm not. I beleive you. I look at you and I believe that you feel something for me but I-I can't go into anything with you knowing that there's another girl out there that you have possible feelings for okay? Expecially not Raven! Because it's happened before and it's messy Lexa, it's too messy and I don't want that for us-" 

"But I-I-I like you Clarke!" Lexa pleaded interesting Clarke. 

The blonde just calmly took Lexa's face in her hands "Look at me," Clarke said softly, Lexa looked up "I like you too, but figure this out with Raven, figure out what it is between the two of you, I'm giving you that opportunity, I'm taking myself out of the equation. You are an amazing person who I could -who I could fall in love with one day, but I don't - I don't want to fall if you don't want to try." Clarke concluded remembering the lyrics to the song Lexa sang earlier. 

"But I'm trying, I'm here trying to ask you out on a date and you - You're rejecting me" Lexa said feeling insecure she let a tear fall from her eyes which Clarke immediately wiped away with her thumb.

"I'm not rejecting you, I'm helping you, the last thing any poor son of a bitch wants to do is fall for the wrong girl." Clarke said trying to lighten the mood it worked because Lexa chuckled breathlessly causing Clarke to smile.

"You'd be trying, by forgetting us, just for now until you figure things out," Clarke whispered resting her forehead against Lexa's "just please don't hurt my best friend" with that Clarke placed a wet kiss on Lexa's cheek and went inside softly closing the door behind her. 

Lexa just stood there, staring at the door wiping her eyes she turned around and slowly walked back over to her car. Starting the engine and driving off she arrived home, but she didn't get out of the car, just sat there staring off into space; it was quiet but her thoughts were pretty loud she didn't even notice someone opening her car door and sitting in the passenger seat, looking over in alarm she saw Lincoln.  

"I saw you pull up but you never got out of the car." Lincoln informed her, looking over at his sister he noticed red eyes but it didn't look like she'd been smoking "Have you been crying?" he asked in worry despite the fact that they haven't spoken in a couple days; he still worries, he'll always worry.

"W-what? No!" Lexa says defensive, turning away from Lincoln "What do you even want? We're not speaking remember?" 

"What happen?" was all Lincoln said, calmly.

"I think I just got dumped...without actually being in a relationship. Or having a first date or first kiss." Lexa said it to Lincoln like a reflex from his question, they had a good bond and always share, or in Lexa's case, try to share their feelings and what's going on in their lives.

"What?! You're telling me all this brooding and tears is because of a girl who you haven't even had sex with?! No wait, scratch that, who you haven't even kissed?" Lincoln said teasingly but still actually shocked.

"Alright asshole I get it." Lexa said rolling her eyes.

"I must've entered a different dimension somehow because this is pretty extraordinary." 

"That's the right word."

"No but seriously that sucks, you think you can figure it out with whoever this goddess is that tamed the beast?" Lincoln asked softly. 

"I don't know." she answered honestly. 

"What about us? Think we can figure this out?" 

"You're annoying but I need you." Lexa said sticking out her pinkie finger, still looking ahead "You're my brother for life."

"You're my little sister Lexi, for life. I love you and will always do what I have to in order to protect you, even if you hate me for it." Lincoln said circling his pinkie with Lexa's, also looking ahead.

"I could never hate you Lincoln, I'm sorry."

"I'm sorry too."

Chapter Text

Lexa was screwed. That's all the brunette could comprehend in her head right now the fact that she was without a doubt screwed. Making her way to English she internally scolded herself for binge watching the entire Avatar series all weekend without doing the assignment Mr. Weller, her English teacher, had set for the class two fucking weeks ago. The same assignment that he gave her an extra week to complete because she fed him some bullshit story about her pet cat dying, which he believed and took pity on her. 

Half way to class she noticed Raven standing by the lockers with some guy who she knows is called Wick. What kind of name is Wick anyway? She narrowed her eyes at the pair who seemed to be having one hell of a conversation because they couldn't stop laughing and fucking touching each other. 

Lexa didn't really know how she felt about seeing them together because that's not what irritates her, what pisses her off is the fact that they haven't spoken in almost a week, and she definitely didn't know how she felt about the conversation she had with Raven a few days ago.

4 days ago: 

"Hey Lexa can we talk for a minute?" Raven asked approaching the girl who was on the field playing a friendly game of touch football with Lincoln, Roan and a few of the guys from the actual football team. Raven literally had to wipe away the drool that formed at the corner of her mouth at seeing Lexa in ball shorts and a loose fitting tank top that showed of her toned arms and legs, skin glistening with sweat, she forgot what a great body Lexa had.  

Smiling, Lexa grabbed her water bottle from the bleachers and patted the spot next to her for Raven to sit down which she did "Shoot." she said before drinking her water.

"Alright so here goes: I think you should ask Clarke out on a date." Raven blurted out getting straight to the point, causing Lexa to do an unplanned spit take with the water that was in her mouth.

"What?! Why do you say that?" Lexa asked wiping her mouth. 

"First of all: that was gross but in a messed up kind of way really awesome and I wish I recorded it." Raven said chuckling, Lexa gave an amused 'really?' look causing Raven to just shrug in response before getting back to the point "Secondly, all you two have been doing for the last 2 months is throwing heart eyes at each other and it's getting old, so do something about it." 

"We are not throwing heart eyes at each other, and we're just friends she made that pretty clear." Lexa said looking away from Raven and out on the field. When she noticed Clarke and Oliver sitting on the grass laughing and seemingly having fun, she clenched her jaw she looked back at Raven who spoke. 

"What exactly did she say to you? Because she won't tell anyone." 

"Detail isn't important and isn't she with that Oliver guy?" Lexa tried to bring up the Oliver situation as nonchalantly as possible but inside her heart was pounding out of her chest awaiting the answer.  

"They've went on like two dates but nothings official." Raven clarified. 

Lexa's eyes widened "Two whole dates?! Together?? Alone?? You're fucking kidding me?!" she exclaimed. 

"Afraid not." Raven said looking at Lexa's reaction carefully "You okay?" she asked when Lexa didn't say anything else. 

Lexa nodded she's pretty sure her heart just shattered into a million fucking pieces, she's not even sure how this happened! Things with Clarke were going so good and then it got ruined all because off....her thoughts trailed off, looking up at Raven slowly she narrowed her eyes "What if I asked you on a date?" she said out of nowhere, her eyes widening when she realized what she said, looking to Raven she saw the girl with equally wide eyes.  

"No scratch that, why did you kiss me?" Lexa blurted out deciding to go with it and get some fucking answers.  

Raves eyes widened obviously not expecting the question "I-I don-" 

"Because that's what fucked up Clarke and I, you know that right? That's the reason we haven't went on any dates, but now you're telling me to ask her out? What's up with that?!" she rambled interrupting Raven before she could come out with some bullshit answer.

Raven was just sitting there mouth opening and closing like a fish out of water, trying and failing to form a coherent sentence.

Raven sighed closing her eyes for a second before going to explain herself, just then they were interrupted by Octavia who was calling Raven. Jesus Christ can no one finish a conversation around here!?! Lexa screamed in her head frustrated. 

"We'll talk later." Raven said standing up.

All Lexa could do was nod.

They never did talk later though and ever since then Lexa's seen Raven with wick nonstop so she was confused out of her mind to say the least. She didn't even know why she had asked Raven that, she surprised herself with that question but pushed those thoughts to the back of her mind as she approached her class. 

Stepping inside she noticed not many kids were in class yet so took that as her opportunity to talk to Mr. Weller "Hi sir." 

"Lexa hello, completed the homework?" he asked preparing the papers on his desk for the right class. 

Scratching the back of her neck, Lexa swallowed nervously, which the teacher didn't miss, standing up straight he gave Lexa his full attention "Explain." was all he said. 

"I am so so sorry, sir. I know I've had three weeks to work on this but I, I uh struggle sometimes, I promise I'll do it over lunch and have it on your desk by the end of the day." Lexa rambled.

Mr. Weller looked around the room before his eyes landed on Lexa again "Why didn't you mention the fact that your dyslexic?" he asked, a confused look appeared on Lexa's face.

"How do you....?" she trailed off.

"There's a little something called student files." 

"Right." Lexa said with a sigh. 

"Look Lexa, if you're struggling with the work don't be ashamed to ask me for help I'm the teacher that's what I'm here for, or you could even ask your buddy Roan for help he's pretty good in my class." Mr. Weller said being genuine because Lexa had potential she just needed a helping hand.

"I just didn't want you to treat me differently from anyone else in the class because I'm slower, you gave me an extra week to do the work and I took liberties and still didn't do it, that's not down to me being dyslexic that's just down to me being a shitty student." Lexa said taking full responsibility and wanting to be treated like everyone else.

"Alright I expect the work on my desk tomorrow after school, anything you don't understand I'll explain to you at the end of this lesson." he dismissed going back to sorting out the papers on his desk as more students came in the class.

Lexa stood there confused Wait? That's really it? No detention?! Weird, but awesome! Lexa thought as she slowly made her way to her seat a smug smile forming on her face, before she could even sit down though "Oh yeah detention for an hour after school today Miss I-Wanted-To-Be-Treated-Like-Everyone else." Mr. Weller said amusement clear In his voice.

And there it is "Gotcha." Lexa said as she sat down in her seat with an overly dramatic facepalm.  

"Hey Lexa." Roan said clicking his fingers in front of the dazed brunette, still being ignored he turned to Anya who was sitting opposite him. 

"What's up with her?" he asked taking a bite out of his burger. 

Anya, who was spaced out on her phone, didn't answer him either, with an eye roll he reached over and snatched the phone out of unexpected girls grasp, jumping into action Anya threw herself dramatically over the table trying to get her phone back. Roan just put it in the hand furthest away from her so she couldn't reach taking a look at the screen he burst out laughing.

"Are you...are you texting....Bellamy Blake?" he asked amused snorting when Anya growled at him grabbing her phone and sitting back in her seat. 

"Wait, it sounded like you said my best friend, Anya, is texting the dude who hates my guts, Bellamy Blake, and that's just preposterous." Lexa stated finally looking away from Clarke who caught her attention because well it was Clarke and she just looked so beautiful and radiant sitting down literally doing nothing but eating but for some reason Lexa couldn't look away; and joined in the conversation

"Ooo preposterous huh? Look at you." Lincoln said arriving at the table and giving Lexa an encouraging pat on the back before sitting down, Lexa blushed grumbling something under her breath about 'it just being a word and them not having to baby her' which everyone ignored in favor of praising her for actually trying to have a wider range of vocabulary when she speaks they made it a duty to always give her credit even for the little things because it helped encourage her to do better, even though she'd never admit it.

"Alright alright that's enough, back to the matter at hand, Anya over here was texting Bellamy but that's not the worst thing oh no, she was smiling..." Roan said like he just dropped a huge bombshell.

Lincoln and Lexa both gasped dramatically causing Anya to roll her eyes at her immature friends.

"Stop guys he's really not that bad." she said shrugging. 

Lexa furrowed her eyebrows at that making a face that says 'what the fuck' "Not that bad? Have you forgotten that he hates my guts?"

"He doesn't hate you, he just didn't like the idea of not being the center of attention anymore." Anya defended eating her apple pie. 

"Yes he does hate me. What if he's using you just to get to me? What then?" Lexa argued the conversation quickly turning from light hearted banter into something more serious.

"Lexa, stop being ridiculous not everything's about you." Anya said waving the girl off "Besides I can take care of myself." 

"How did you even hide that from us; from me?! For almost two freaking months!" 

Anya shrugged "You've all been busy, you" she pointed at Lexa "Have been pining over Clarke, and you" she pointed at Lincoln "have been pining over Octavia, you" she looked to Roan "well I'm sure you've been pining over somebody with ass and tits." she exclaimed rolling her eyes when Roan nodded repeatedly agreeing with her.  

"So what then...you like him?" Lexa asked narrowing her eyes a little at Bellamy who was sitting at a table with Clarke, Octavia and some other people before focusing back on Anya who was smiling to herself.

"Yeah a little, he's a good guy, and we've been on 3 dates now so you guys have to get used to us." Anya said looking anywhere but at the three people who's wide eyes she could feel on her skin.

"We all heard three dates right?" Roan said looking at the siblings who where still looking at Anya in shock, they nodded slowly in sync. 

"Just checking." Roan said looking back at Anya "So things are getting serious?"  

"Yeah you could say that." she said shrugging. 

"Why the hell is everyone going on multiple dates without my knowledge?! Especially when it makes me really really...sad! And frustrated and...unworthy..." Lexa trailed off quietly staring at Clarke like she was the only person in the entire room, looking back at everyone at the table she saw them all staring at her confused. 

She rolled her eyes "Nevermind." she muttered.

"Yeahhhh..." Roan said looking at Lexa like she was an alien.  

"I just want you guys and him to get along. You'll get to know him better this weekend because we're all going bowling with him and his gang over there." Anya said addressing all of them but looking at Lexa in a tone that left no room for arguments.

They all nodded, albeit reluctantly, but still.

"K I'll catch you guys later." Lexa said suddenly getting up and grabbing her bag, when she saw Bellamy getting up from his seat.

A chorus of 'yeah yeah' and 'whatever' was her response, making her way over to Bellamy she took her phone out and pretended to be engrossed in it, causing Bellamy who wasn't looking and herself to collide, he fell on the floor but she kept her balance. 

"Hey! watch where your fuc- Oh it's you" Bellamy said from the floor where he had fallen, he eyed Lexa skeptical at first but once it hit him what was going on he rolled his eyes.

"Bell you okay?" Octavia asked between laughter.

"He's fine." Lexa answered for him "Here let me help you up." Lexa offered him an arm which he took with caution once she pulled him up she whispered in his ear dangerously close.

"If you hurt my sister I will rip your balls off and shove them down your throat until you choke on them and die a slow and painful death." she referred to Anya as her sister so Bellamy knew how much she meant to her and understood she was dead serious.

With a smile on her face she stepped away from him patting his chest "See you this weekend Bell." before she was out of ear shot she threw in a "Hey Clarke" who smiled still eating her food "Hey Lexa" Clarke replied winking playfully at the brunette who was staring at her as she walked away. 

"What was that about?" Clarke asked Bellamy tearing her eyes away from Lexa's retreating figure. 

"Nothing." was all Bellamy said, straightening out his clothes before getting pulled away in to conversation by some guy she recognized from the basketball team.  

Clarke shrugged letting her thoughts drift back to Lexa, they've been on a weird 'Hi' and 'Bye' relationship for the last couple of months, nothing was really said about their conversation to each other, they silently decided to avoid that, and Clarke been seeing a lot of Oliver lately discovering that's he's a really sweet genuine person. There's been a few make out sessions with the British boy here and there but nothing official thing between them at the moment they're just hanging out and having a little fun. She's not even sure if she wants it to go anywhere further.

The reason for that, she won't deny, is because of Lexa, she noticed her and Raven's lack of progress in the romantic relationship sense and can't help but think that maybe she made a mistake and there was nothing that serious between the two; but when she starts thinking like that she gets mad at herself because if that's the case she never had to end things with Lexa before it even started, they could've been going up to their 4th date by now and on their way to talking labels but nooooo Clarke had to open her fucking mouth and back out instead of having faith in her and Lexa's growing relationship for fucks sakes. 

And things with raven are actually back to normal now Clarke and Octavia had gone to the hospital where they saw Raven with her mom, instantly everything else was forgotten and they came together again so Raven had all the shoulders she needed to cry on, of course her moms out of the hospital and doing much better now but they all can't help but think it's only a matter of time before she's back in there.

When things calmed down Raven had apologized to Clarke for randomly kissing Lexa, Clarke tried her best to be impassive and told Raven it was fine and that Lexa was just a crush that she's totally over now, she also told Raven whatever she wanted to do with Lexa she could do it and it wouldn't bother her.

Of course she was lying but she was trying to do the right thing and be the bigger person! Although she wondered sometimes why the right thing to her never seemed to be what she wanted and what made her happy.  

Suddenly she saw Lexa coming back towards her like she just made a life or death decision.

"What's wrong?" she asked when Lexa stopped in front of the table she sat at with Octavia and the rest of her friends. 

Lexa paced back and forth in front of the table "What's wrong?!" she exclaimed "The better question is what's right?! Because right now nothing seems right, like at all!" 

Clarke looked around before her eyes settled back on the brunette "Lexa you have to elaborate further, I don't get what you're trying to say." she spoke calmly ignoring everyones strange looks from around them.

Lexa furrowed her brows "I'm talking about Oliver! You're with him like every second and it makes me feel...bad things inside, I don't like to see you together. Why are you always together? You tell me Clarke go ahead... Please."

"Lexa-" Clarke started but was interrupted by none other than Oliver who rest his hands on Clarke's shoulder glaring at Lexa. 

"What's going on?" he asked smiling down at Clarke causing Lexa to narrow her eyes. 

"I feel very very bad things." Lexa gritted out looking at Clarke before walking away. 

Clarke was left sitting there with her mouth wide open.

Lexa groaned in ecstatic relief when she was dismissed from detention after an hour, who even still has detention? 

Making her way out of the building and too the parking lot she noticed Oliver getting his bicycle from the rack, he looked like he just came from gym or something because he was sweaty with work out gear on, Lexa couldn't help but think he looks way bigger now than when he's wearing some dorky shirt that hides his muscular physique.

Shaking her head she turned away from him and made her way to her car when she heard someone call her name. 

"Oi, Lexa!" Oliver said as he left his bike and jogged towards her. 

Lexa groaned internally because what the fuck did he want? She really just wanted to go home and finish the English assignment that she had started in detention so she'd have it done by tomorrow. Turning around she saw that Oliver finally caught up to her "What?" she said in a whiny tone. 

"You know Clarke and I are dating right?" he said getting straight to the point. 

Lexa furrowed her brows "She your girlfriend?" she asked amusement in her voice which Oliver didn't like because he clenched his jaw and narrowed his eyes at her. 

"No, but-" 

"It's been two months, I bet you she changes the subject when you bring up labels?" she asked interrupting him.  

Lexa knew she had him there because his face fell completely and he looked like he was about to spontaneously combust. Checkmate. 

"What do you want?" she asked with a smirk. 

"For you to stay the fuck away from Clarke." he snarled aggressively taking a step forward. 

"Never gonna happen unless she tells me too. Anything else? No? Great see ya." Lexa said the smirk never leaving her face.

She could tell Oliver was starting to get really angry because she wasn't taking him serious. Yeah he was a big guy, looked pretty strong, but she wasn't scared; if anything the fact that he could lash out and hit her only amused her further because her uncle's wife, Angel, always told her if you use your words to fight someone and they lash out physically then what you've said is the truth and the truth hurts.

"Lexa, my patience is extremely thin with you right now, don't push me because I will break you physically or mentally I will snap you in half like a bloody twig, so keep fooling around with me!" Oliver growled the warning loud and clear for Lexa to hear.

Lexa laughed. Just straight up laughed in his face. "Look I'm tired, I got shit to do so bye." she was about to walk off when he grabbed her roughly by the arm halting her movements.

"Do you not get what I'm saying?" he growled in her face "I really shouldn't be mad you though should I? I heard you were a bit slow in your fucking head." he laughed bitterly.

Lexa pulled her hand away and took deep calming breaths before addressing him again a mocking smile plastered on her face "You're a delusional prick and I'm going home." 

Just when she was about to leave again she felt a fist connect with her stomach so fast she didn't see it coming and so hard it knocked the wind out of her causing her to fall to the floor gasping for breath and clutching her torso in pain. 

"You see Lexa, I hate arrogant bitches and you, well, you're an arrogant bitch!" he spat as he crouched down so he was eye level with a still groaning Lexa "Stay away from Clarke or next time you'll end up in the hospital kid." with a squeeze to her shoulder he got up and went back to his bicycle jumping on it and peddling off as if nothing happened leaving Lexa on the ground.

Lexa stayed on the floor for about five more minuets just breathing in and out , she didn't retaliate because he means something to Clarke and the last thing she wanted was for Clarke to be mad at her again because she broke this asshole in half. At least it wasn't my face she thought.  

Getting up she's still clutched onto her stomach, hissing when she put pressure on where he had hit her "That's gonna bruise." she muttered to herself slowly making her way to her car.

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Anya was sitting in the library at school looking through a biology book she was recommended by her teacher to help her study when someone sat down with a huff in the seat next to her. Looking over she saw that it was a sweaty Bellamy still in his gym clothes most likely coming from lunchtime basketball practice. He looked exhausted.

"Hey," she greeted him with a sympathetic smile "rough practice?" 

With another dramatic huff he answered "Yeah the captain is the biggest douche bag I've ever met." 

"I don't know..." Anya started with a mischievous smirk gracing her lips, wrapping her arms around Bellamy's shoulders as he leaned into her embrace resting his head on her chest with his arms circling her waist "I kind of like him." 

"Oh yeah?" he chuckled looking up at her.

"Mmhm." 

"You're right, who are we kidding he's a pretty awesome dude." Bellamy joked laughing when Anya rolled her eyes. 

"Conceited much?" 

"Very much yeah." He answered getting more comfortable in Anya's embrace "You know, I'd be weary of this public display of affection if your friends didn't already know about us." He said without giving it to much thought.

Anya furrowed her eyebrows in confusion "How do you know they know?" when she didn't get a response she looked down at Bellamy and smiled when she saw he was dozing off, but she needed answers right now so pinched his arm causing him to startle awake with a cute pout as he rubbed his arm causing Anya to laugh, leaning over she gave him a chaste kiss before asking him the question again.

"I ran into Lexa yesterday in the cafeteria and she threatened to rip my balls off and shove them down my throat if I hurt you...no big deal." he said the last part sarcastically, sitting up he saw Anya's eyes widen, then her face flush with embarrassment before it turned into anger

"I am so gonna kill that girl." she said with a groan "Sorry about that, she can be obnoxiously protective when it comes to me dating someone." Anya informed him. 

He only shrugged in response "It's cool, I can deal with a few empty threats from Woods." 

Anya chuckled "If you say so." just then the bell rang "Come on," Anya said pulling up a groaning Bellamy "time for class." 

"I hate class." he said with a pout as he gave in and allowed Anya to pull him up. 

"Don't we all?"

As they walked to the exit of the library hand in hand they heard a loud scoff from behind them, turning around they saw Roan, Lincoln, and Octavia. 

"This" Roan gestured towards their joined hands "is fucking weird." Octavia and Lincoln nodded in agreement. 

Bellamy rolled his eyes and looked to Anya who only shrugged seeing he was on his own when it came to giving all the people that frowned upon their relationship a piece of his mind he let go of Anya's hand and crossed his arms over his chest giving Roan, Octavia, and Lincoln his best scowl, they just looked at him with blank facial expressions in return.

"You're my sister O you should be happy for me regardless. And you two-" he poked Roan in the chest causing the muscular boy to look down at where Bellamy poked him and back up to Bellamy with a raised eyebrow; Bellamy then poked Lincoln in the chest causing him to giggle a little, Octavia looked at him in amusement "What?" he said "It tickles." Bellamy rolled his eyes for what felt like the billionth time that day before he continued. 

"-you're her best friends you should be supportive." he scolded taking Anya's hand again who was smiling at him in approval.

"You handled that well." she said giving him a peck on the cheek ignoring the fake gagging sounds coming from the three behind them as they all walked to class. 

"Hey Blake, what about Lexa? You just so happened to start dating her bestfriend after you declared your burning hatred for her?" Lincoln commented putting his hands up in surrender when Anya glared at him "I'm just sayin.'" 

"It is a little sketchy." Octavia intervened "Sorry bell." 

"That has nothing to do with Anya and I dating, I'll make things up with Lexa, don't you worry about that." 

Making her way to the girls locker room after gym Clarke took her phone out checking her messages smiling when she saw one from Oliver.

Ollypop: Hey American girl, meet me in the parking lot after your last class, I was thinking maybe you could show me the best bakery in town ;-) 

Sending a quick reply she hurried to the locker room so she could get changed and go meet Oliver. Things were going strong with him at the moment but she was still torn on if she wanted it to go further or not, deciding to just live in the moment and deal with things as she went along, Clarke shook her head and entered the changing room.

She stopped dead in her tracks when she saw Lexa sitting on the bench taking her shoes off while some girl stood talking to her Probably another bed mate she thought with an eye roll. It was shit like this that made her glad she called things off with Lexa because clearly the girl only had one thing on her mind and it sure as hell wasn't a committed relationship, seeing as she couldn't even get things with Raven up and running.

Walking further in she went to her locker and took her clothes out, not noticing Lexa's eyes on her the moment she entered. 

"Miss Sophisticated," Lexa said teasingly, the smile on her face getting wider when she saw the exasperation in Clarke's face at the nickname "what's up?" 

"At the moment, your dick." Clarke deadpanned still gathering her stuff to change into.

Lexa's eyes widened comically as her head snapped down to look at what Clarke was taking about frowning when she saw she didn't in fact have a hard on, looking back up at Clarke her frown deepened when she saw the blonde girl laughing.

"Pop a Boner so much you don't know a lie from the truth?" Clarke asked still chuckling.

"You suck, Griffin!" Lexa shouted after Clarke who walked into one of the cubicles still laughing.

"You wish." the laughing girl sassed back.

With a smile on her face Lexa went back to changing, totally forgetting the girl who was trying to talk to her before because she wasn't in the slightest interested. After about 5 minutes the girls that occupied the changing room had left leaving only Lexa who only had her shirt to put on but stopped when she noticed the big bruise Oliver left on her torso, wincing when she flexed because the skin there was still very much tender "I can't believe that guy." she whispered to herself as she continued to examine the damage not noticing when Clarke came back into the changing rooms dressed in her regular clothes.

"Oh my God, Lexa!" Clarke gasped as she put her bag on the bench and hurried to Lexa turning her around so she could get a better look at the nasty bruise, trying her hardest to look at just the bruise and not Lexa's defined six pack.

"What the hell happened to you?!" Clarke asked looking up at Lexa with fire in her eyes, who swallowed nervously. 

"N-nothing I, uh, walked into a table." she stuttered out grimacing when she saw Clarke's face Really Lexa?! Dumbass exscuse! 

"Wow. Is that really the best you could come up with Lexa? Have you been fighting?" she asked narrowing Her eyes when Lexa didn't answer she eased up a little "Come on, I'm not your mom you can tell me." 

"Could've fooled me." Lexa muttered to hersel.f 

"What was that?" 

"Nothing." Lexa shot out quickly because although she'd never admit it out loud this fiery blonde scared the shit out of her. 

"Yeah nothing. Now spill." 

With a sigh Lexa put her hands on her hips looking at Clarke "It was your boyfriend." she grumbled when Clarke's face changed from anger and concern to confusion she clarified "Oliver." 

Clarke's eyebrows shot up. Oliver? She took a minute to let what lexa said sink in.

"First of all he's not my boyfriend, but you might wanna be careful there, someone would think you're jealous." 

Lexa scoffed "Me? Jealous? Don't flatter yourself Clarke, plus we're friends according to you right? So why would I be jealous of my friend?" Lexa lied through her teeth, she was beyond jealous but should she let Clarke see that? No because Clarke rejected and now she's dating someone. Fuck my life! With a sigh Lexa spoke again "Of course I'm jealous.... But like you insisted we're just friends." she admitted in a quiet voice that was barely audible looking anywhere but at the pair of blue eyes that she found herself drowning in.  

Taken aback Clarke replied with regret in her tone "Lexa you know why-"

"Whatever." Lexa said interrupting her. 

Clarke's sighed giving up on having that conversation with lexa for now "What happened between you two?"

"He saw me in the parking lot yesterday and thought it was the perfect time to warn me to stay away from you because you two are dating now apparently, I was being a smart ass he didn't like it so he punched me oh-so-graciously in the stomach." Lexa explained catching the contemplative look on Clarke's face "I didn't do anything back, partly because I was lying on the floor winded and the other half because I'm a good girl who wants to stay on the strait and narrow. No fights." 

Clarke couldn't help but smile at the last part "Lexa I'm so sorry he hit you, I swear I won't let this slide. Did you put ice on it at all?" when Lexa shook her head no Clarke hurried to get an ice pack from first aid, coming back she gently placed in on the bruise apologizing when Lexa winced in pain "Hold it there." she instructed. 

"You don't need to look so stressed, Griffin." Lexa started holding the ice to her bruise like Clarke said.

"I'm not stressed, I'm pissed, what the hell gives him the right?!" she snapped running a hand through her hair. 

"He cares about you." Lexa shrugged indifferently "Either that or he's a psychopath." 

Clarke narrowed her eyes at Lexa's nonchalance about the whole situation "You seem really calm for someone who got socked in the stomach." 

Lexa shrugged "I can take a hit, Griffin. Besides it's not affecting me, football try outs are next week I'll be fine by then." she said putting the ice down so she could put her plain black t-shirt on.

Clarke raised her eyebrows "So you go from fighting all the time to trying not to fight at all? What's the deal?" she sat down on the bench beside Lexa. 

"I don't know." Lexa said glancing at Clarke. 

"Come on, Lex, talk to me." Clarke encouraged putting a hand on Lexa's knee reassuringly.

Lexa stared down at Clarke's hand on her knee taking a minute before she sighed and answered because something about Clarke Griffin made her willing to open up and share what was on her mind without a second thought "I was thinking and realized that if my mom was to ever for some strange reason find my dad and I and come back, I don't wanna give her a reason to be glad she left." she paused for a minute to take a breath "I wanna do good, you know? Be good so that she feels like shit for leaving and regrets walking out on something good, something she could be proud of." Lexa finished talking and started taping her feet looking anywhere but at Clarke who's eyes she could feel on the side of her face.

Then suddenly soft lips kissed her cheecks and she froze at first; surprised, then closed her eyes and sighed content with where she was and who she was with right now. Clarke's lips felt amazing and caused butterflies to roam free in her stomach and her face to flush.

Clarke pulled back whispering in Lexa's ear "She'd be crazy not to be proud of the amazing young lady you've become and all that matters is that you're trying." With that Clarke got up and grabbed her bag from the bench making her way out of the locker room "And Lexa?" she stopped by the door and turned to face Lexa once more "Thank you for trusting me with your thoughts, I just want you to know that it's safe in my head." and with one last smile she left.

Lexa couldn't stop smiling. Like literally it was impossible she really wanted to just stop smiling because of Clarke fucking Griffin but couldn't, her face was actually starting to hurt.

Gathering her stuff Lexa also left the changing rooms with an extra hop to her step that Clarke Griffin always seemed to put there.

Clarke made her way out of school still fuming inside, she couldn't believe Oliver actually thought he had the right to dictate who she does and doesn't talk to, and then to confront them to stay away from her!? The nerve. 

Spotting Oliver sitting on the curb beside his bike Clarke stormed up to him, he looked up smiling about to talk when suddenly a hand connected with his right cheek so hard his face turned to the side. Clarke shook her hand feeling it sting from the power of her slap smiling when she saw his cheek instantly turning red. 

"What is wrong with you?!" he growled hovering over her.

Instead of answering Clarke slapped him again this time on the left cheek the same feeling in her hand and redness on his cheek.

"Are you fuc-"

Another slap. 

"Clarke I swear to go-"

She slapped him again.

He was breathing so hard Clarke thought he was going to start hyperventilating, it was clear to see he was absolutely raging but trying to keep a steady head.  

"What? I thought since you go around hitting people you could obviously take a hit yourself." Clarke said folding her arms across her chest.

"Please stop hitting me." he said in a low voice still trying to keep his anger in check "Now can you just tell me what I did that was so wrong you had to come over here and smack the shit out of me?"

Clarke raised both her eyebrows letting out a dry chuckle "So you're really gonna stand there and play dumb Oliver?" 

He threw his hands up in exasperation "Exscuse me for being confused we were fine at lunch and I haven't seen you since!" he exclaimed. 

Clarke rolled her eyes "You hit Lexa! But I think that was after you thought it was okay to threaten her into staying away from me!" she poked his chest hard. 

His eyes widened in suprise and fear but he kept his ground "Clarke obviously she upsets you, I see the way you look at her! So I thought I'd help you." he argued making a move to circle his arms around Clarke's waist but she stopped him by slapping his hands away and stepping back, he rolled his eyes crossing his arms over his chest.

"Well that's what you get for thinking." she spat running her hands through her hair something she does a lot when she's frustrated. 

"I'm sorry." he said stepping closer to Clarke again this time she didn't move back. 

"I don't give a shit if you're sorry or not just do not ever think you have the right dictate who I speak to." she warned. 

"So when do I have the right? Because we've been on a few dates-"

"Two dates." she corrected.

"Two is a few." he said narrowing his eyes. 

"Not in my book." the blonde fired back.

"Okay...we've been on two dates now and we made out from time to time so when is your business my business?"  

"We're taking things slow and don't change the subject! Don't ever put your hands on her again." Clarke said with a burning fury in her eyes.

"Look I didn't know she was so tender I thought she could take a hit with her trying out for the football team and everything, I guess not, I'll apologize for hurting the little fairy. Is that good enough?" he asked taking another chance and circling his arms around Clarke's waist who didn't decline his touch this time but instead welcomed it circling her hands around the back of his neck.

"Yes please apologize and don't do anything like that again okay? It makes you look like the bad guy." 

He nodded leaning in to catcher Clarke's lips, she kissed him back hesitant at first. She couldn't help but wish his lips were someone else's. 

Walking to the school exit Lexa noticed Raven and fucking Wick standing by the lockers, deciding she's had enough of Raven pretending she doesn't exist to spend time with that guy she made her way over to them trying to look cool but straight up looking like a mom who's about to scold their child for misbehaving "Raven!" Lexa shouted enthusiastically throwing her hands up in the air pretending to be surprised "What are the odds I'm seeing you here right now?!" 

The Latina, who was baffled beyond compare at this point, furrowed her brows questioningly "Um this is where the school exit is, and it's the end of school..." Raven trailed off.

"Point?" Lexa asked making a face as if to say 'what the fuck'.

Wick thought this was his cue to enter the conversation "I think her point is that it's actually really not that supris-" 

"No one asked you Wack" Lexa interrupted rudely looking him up and down sussing him out "Is that your name Wack? That's a pretty fucking stupid name." she joked "Wack Wack, are you from a family of ducks or what?" she teased making duck noises satisfied with her joke she turned to Raven laughing throwing her hand up for a high five when Raven just glared at her in return she instantly stopped laughing and turned back to the boy who she very much knew was called Wick.

"My names actually Wick, not Wack." he corrected getting annoyed 

"But I like Wack."

"I don't really care what you like that's not my name!" he growled snapping at Lexa's annoying behavior. 

Lexa looked around putting a hand on her heart feigning shock and hurt from his little outburst about his name "Jeez sor-ry." 

Wick smiled at that calming down a little "It's cool. So we were discussing a new project we had in science an-" 

"Anywayy Wack I gotta grab Raven and go" Lexa said cutting him off, hastily picking Raven up and throwing her over her shoulders, Raven screamed in surprise but then burst out laughing as Lexa ran away from a seething looking Wick.

When they were far enough away Lexa gently put Raven back on the ground who was still laughing uncontrollably "You my friend, are the biggest asshole in the world." she chocked out in-between laughter 

Lexa shrugged indifferently also chuckling "Eh, you dig it so I don't really mind." 

"That I do." Raven said wiping the tears that fell from her eyes with all the laughing. 

They started subconsciously walking to Lexa's car "So I haven't spoken to you in a while, how's everything going? Your mom alright?"

"Yep she's doing better, misses you though" Raven said smiling at the memory of how her mom whined saying that 'Lexa's lanky ass needed to visit more'. During the last couple of months-bar these past few days-Lexa has been over at Raven's house 24/7 either to simply chill or help out around the house (her choice) during that time Lexa and Raven's mom, Isabella, have bonded a great deal; even without Raven present they get along like a house on fire.  

"Oh my, Homie Reyes the original! I miss her, come on I'll take you home and chill for a bit..... if that's okay with you of course?" Lexa asked wearily smiling when the other brunette snorted.

"Who am I to keep you and your other half separated?" she joked chuckling "You're always welcome at my place Lexa, don't you ever forget that." she assured squeezing Lexa's cheeks.

Lexa looked to the floor before looking back up at Raven "I was thinking maybe we could have that talk?" just then Lexa noticed something from across the parking lot, it was Clarke and Oliver kissing. She had to school her features so to anyone with eyes she wouldn't look like she was about to bawl her eyes out over a girl who simply doesn't want her. 

She was so baffled though because Clarke said she liked her too she reciprocated her feelings and nothings happening between herself and Raven so why is Clarke kissing someone else, dating someone else! Why is Clarke with someone else period? 

She slumped her shoulders in defeat she had no idea what to do now, does she do what Clarke told her to do and figure out her feelings for Raven and what she wants? Eventhough she thinks she already knows exactly what she wants and what Raven really feels. With a sigh she looked away from the heartbreaking sight turning to Raven again who seemed to have spotted what caught her attention 

"That talk sounds like a really good idea" Raven said shaking her head in exasperation 

Lincoln and Roan were at Lincoln's house in the kitchen preparing popcorn and drinks for the unplanned movie night that Octavia and Anya thought was a good idea. Obviously it was an absolute terrible idea! Because everyone is going to be here! 

Everyone meaning Clarke and Oliver who were coming in an hour, Lexa and Raven who were held up having some deep conversation that Raven said was important, Anya and fucking Bellamy too! But that one did have a perk for Lincoln because his sister Octavia would also be coming and he thought why not take a shot and ask her out tonight. 

Roan grunted, annoyed as another batch of popcorn he attempted to make came out burnt; next to him, Lincoln rolled his eyes chuckling patting the frowning boy's back as he glared at him.

"This isn't funny dude, I mean why do we even have to make this crap?" he complained gesturing to the ruined popcorn in front of them "You do know we can literally get it from the store made and ready for us to munch on?!" he exclaimed, just then the bell rang. 

Lincoln looked to Roan shrugging "Yeah well what's the fun in that?" he said before going to open the door reveling Anya, Bellamy, Octavia, Clarke, Oliver, Jasper, Harper, and Monty. "Hey guys! You all came together awesome." he said looking to everyone with a wide smile. 

Anya rolled her eyes "Yeah whoopiddido!" she said sarcastically.

Oliver snorted causing everyone to look at him "What?" he said shrugging.

"You gonna let us in anytime soon big guy?" Jasper said wincing when Monty elbowed him.

"It's his house he'll let us in when he's good and ready too." monty scolded his friend. 

"Alright did you need to hit me? Jhezz" Jasper whined rubbing his arm were Monty elbowed him. 

"No no come inside sorry." Lincoln said stepping to the side so everyone could come in, they did and he ushered them to the living room where they all moved around trying to find a seat and get comfortable, he looked over at Octavia smiling. 

"Hey Octavia." he said waving slightly clearly nervous. 

"Hey." she answers blushing. 

Bellamy narrowed his eyes at the pair causing Clarke who noticed him, to laugh "Your face is looking a little sour there." she teased. 

"That's my sister." was all Bellamy said as if it explained everything and was obvious.

Clarke shook her head "And that was his sister who's face you got in the first time you met them." 

"That's different." he glared at Clarke. 

"It's not." Clarke said chuckling when Oliver approached her.

"Hey you're not gonna tell anyone right? You know about the Lexa fiasco?" he asked whispering so only the blonde could hear him. 

Clarke sighed "I should-but I don't want anymore conflict between anyone, so just apologize as soon as you see her Oliver and make sure it doesn't happen again." Clarke told him sternly.

He put his hands up "It won't ever happen again Clarke, I'm truly sorry I didn't think my actions through properly." 

Clarke only nodded not sure if Oliver was being sincere or not.

As everyone found a seat to sit on, Jasper, Monty, Harper, and Roan sitting on the floor; Octavia, Clarke, Lincoln, and Oliver settled on the long sofa; while Bellamy sat on the single recliner with Anya on his lap. 

"So we're waiting for Lexa and Raven" monty announced to the group as he went through the different films that were stacked up in a pile beside the average sized TV, 

"Don't you guys have Netflix?" Jasper asked whining when Bellamy threw a pillow at him. 

Lincoln clenched his jaw "No we don't, problem?" he asked.

Jasper held his hands up "No problem here man, I was just asking."  

Lincoln glanced at Roan who he felt boring a whole into the side of his head, "You good?" Roan asked, Lincoln only nodded looking to Anya who was also looking at him, he nodded to her too a little smile appearing on his lips. They were his best friends and he was appreciative of them, so was Lexa whether she wanted to admit it or not.  

"Where are your parents?" Jasper asked Lincoln. 

"You're just full of questions aren't you maggot?" Roan snapped. 

"Hey," Monty pipped up "no name calling."

"The rents are working late." was all Lincoln said before getting up to grab a drink. 

"Okay..." Jasper said, Roan glaring at him  

"So," Clarke said clearing her throat getting everyones attention "are-um-Lexa and Raven coming together or...?" she trailed off trying to ask the question as nonchalant as possible.

"Does anyone even know where they are?" Bellamy asked confused 

"Yeah Raven said they were having a chat, apparently it was really important, so I guess they'll be here together when they're done." Roan answered, everyone's questions shrugging while sipping on his beer from his spot on the floor. 

"A chat, huh..." Clarke mumbled to herself but Octavia heard turning to the blonde, she could practically hear all the gears turning in her head, giving her a sympathetic smile addressed to her while everyone else was distracted  

"I'm sure it's nothing, Princess." the dark haired girl tried to reassure her friend. 

"Either way I don't care." Clarke knew those words were a big lie. She wondered what they were talking about, and deep down wished that when they arrived nothing has happened between the two and that Lexa could actually look her in the eyes this time and tell her that she is the only girl she's interested in. 

But wishes rarely come true in this town. 

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As Lexa wondered into the living room to check on Raven's mom she saw her fast asleep on the couch with the blanket on the floor, smiling she walked over and turned off the TV, setting the remote on the coffee table. As she picked up the comforter a medication bottle fell out and onto the floor, she furrowed her eyes brows squatting to pick it up she examined it noting that there were very few pills left in the bottle.

"Ambien." she whispered to herself after reading the bottle, she's familiar with the sleeping pill as her uncle used to take it for his insomnia but got addicted to it so the prescription was cancelled and he had to go into rehab. Looking over at Raven's mom who was still sound asleep she sighed "What are you doing, Isabella?" she whispered moving a stray hair out of the sleeping woman's face, getting up she put the blanket back over Isabella.

"Lexa." she heard Raven say from behind her quickly hiding the bottle in her pocket she turned to Raven smiling. 

"What are you doing?" Raven asked suspicious of Lexa's weird behavior all of a sudden.

"Nothing your mom just left the TV on," she pointed to the remote "I turned it off." 

Raven narrowed her eyes "Okay...you ready to talk so we can get out of here?" 

"Yeah, let's do it" Lexa said following Raven to the kitchen where they could both still keep an eye on Raven's mom. "Uh Raven?" Lexa asked taking a seat at the little table, Raven sitting on the chair opposite her. 

"Yeah?" Raven answered.

"Does your mom take any sleeping meds?" she asked trying to make it sound like a normal question just put of curiosity. 

The other brunette furrowed her brows "Yes, she does, why?" 

"Just asking," Lexa shrugged "when did she get a refill?" Lexa asked another question. 

"What's with the interrogation dude?" 

"I'm just curious." 

"Don't you know curiosity killed the cat?" 

"Don't you know satisfaction brought it back?" Lexa fired back.

Raven huffed "Like 4 days ago." 

Lexa nodded slowly "So the bottle shouldn't be half empty by now right?" 

"Is my moms bottle half empty? Lexa what the hell are you getting at?" Raven snapped starting to get worried. 

Lexa quickly back tracked deciding to talk to Isabella about it before telling Raven anything to worry her "No calm down it's a friend of my dad I was asking for, he takes the same meds." 

At that Raven visibly relaxed "Oh okay sorry, I just don't need anymore stress with my mom you know?" 

"I know." Lexa said smiling weakly "So uh let's talk." she said changing the subject. 

"Yep, where should we start because I-"

"Kiss me." Lexa blurted out interrupting Raven who's eyes widened, however, Lexa remained calm this time, she knew what she was doing.

"Oh wow you seriously need to stop blurting out stuff like that." Raven said chuckling nervously.

"Are you gonna kiss me?" 

"No I'm not going to kiss you Lexa, what the fuck?" Raven answered confused. 

"Why not? You did it before when I didn't ask you too, hell when I didn't even see it coming!" Lexa argued. 

"Because-because Clarke-" Raven started but was interrupted once again by Lexa. 

"No, forget about Clarke for a minute, why don't you as, Raven Reyes, not want to kiss me?" 

"Clarke's-" 

"Raven!" Lexa snapped "There's no point in this talk if we're not gonna be open and honest." she said more calm this time. "Look I think that you're one hell of a human being and I have strong feelings for you but not feelings like that." 

Raven opened her mouth to talk but was stopped when Lexa raised her hand "Please hear me out, I was confused okay so so confused that I fucked everything up with Clarke, the girl I had actual romantic feelings for! But because of this-" she gestured between herself and Raven "she didn't want me, she told me to figure out what the hell is between us, but you and I both know that there is nothing but a strong platonic bond here but your actions don't add up as well as mine didn't. I also know that you're way too smart to be that confused, so what's really going on here Raven?" Lexa stared intently at Raven once she was done talking waiting for her answer but she didn't push this time she just waited.  

"Fine." Raven huffed "Fine, you want me to be open and honest? I'll be open and honest, she looked to damn happy with you! Is that a good enough reason why selfish, bitchy Raven Reyes kissed you? Because once again the Princess got what she wanted stepping over me in the fucking process, just like Finn!" 

Lexa furrowed her brows "You sound way too bitter to be talking about your best friend Raven."

"Bitter huh? Did she ever tell you about the Finn situation?"

"Not in detail, no." 

"Well Finn and I were dating first, I knew him when I was just a kid and my bitch ass dad had left. He was my support system, that one singular dude was my rock." she took a breath before continuing "He just became my boyfriend, my brother, my best friend and my guardian angel all rolled into one."

Lexa smiled to herself softly "I had an angel too." she whispered but Raven still heard. 

"You don't have that angel now do you?" Raven asked softly, Lexa shook her head no, "So you know what it feels like when that angel gets taken away from you right?" 

Lexa rubbed her eyes wiping away the tears before they fell "Yes I do, but this sounds like something you really should've spoken to Clarke about considering she's your best friend."

Raven shook her head "It wasn't that easy...finding out that he was cheating on me with her regardless of if she knew or not, it hurt. Bad. But finding out that he was still trying to get her back after we both dumped his ass fucking killed me, and I know you can sit there and think 'Yeah well that's not Clarke's fault' but it still stings okay? And it's going to leave you a little bitter whether you fucking like it or not!" 

"So let me get this straight," Lexa gritted out clenching her fist "You were using me this whole time, this whole time Raven?! To get back at Clarke for something that some asshole did to you years ago?" Lexa was pissed, pissed about the fact that she was basically a pawn on Raven's chess board, being moved whenever convenient and wasn't smart enough to realize. Because she's never fucking smart enough to realize. 

"Look, I'm sorry you had to be apart of it this way, I really am, but she played a part!" Raven argued. 

"You all played a part! Raven, you two were in the same boat, he played the both of you."  

"Clarke got over it, she got over it because he was a pig and he only wanted sex from her, but when someone has been with you literally through the toughest times of your life and then just like that they can drop you for some blonde they barely know it sucks. I guess deep down I always had that sort of resentment for her and I just kept it hidden. Then you came along and I saw you first, you know, I spoke to you first, but then Clarke comes around and she's had a crush on you forever then suddenly Lexa's all about Clarke. Those old feelings came back okay? Then I acted impulsively when I kissed you because I wanted to hurt her, I wanted her to feel just a tiny little bit of the pain I felt with Finn."

"And you think that was the right way to go about it?" 

Raven and Lexa looked up at the sound of the voice surprised to see Clarke standing by the front door. 

"How the hell did you get in?" Raven asked standing up. 

"I still have a key remember? I went to go get some beers but thought I'd come by to check on you, heard shouting so I panicked." Clarke said coming closer not taking her eyes off Raven.

Lexa cleared her throat causing them to look at her "I'm gonna go and let you guys talk, I'll be outside." grabbing her jacket and stepping outside to give them privacy.

"So that's how you feel?" Clarke asked her eyes blurry with tears, she only heard half of their conversation but she definitely heard enough.

"How much of that did you hear?" Raven asked sitting back down. 

"Enough." Clarke said moving to sit opposite the Latina "Raven how could you?"  

"Maybe I did go about it all the wrong way, but I can't change it, just like I can't change how I feel." 

"Why didn't- why didn't you just tell me Raven? We're supposed to bestfriends for crying out loud! If you feel like you can't tell me something like that then what is the point? What is the point in a freaking friendship?!" 

"I don't know!" Raven snapped now crying "I don't know because our so called friendship has never been the same for me since! And if you sit there and tell me that you don't feel the same way you're a liar!" 

"But Raven, you took it too far, you intentionally tried to hurt me! What kind of friend does that regardless of whatever rough patch we're in?" Clarke couldn't believe that Raven could be this spiteful, but as the brunette said, their friendship got screwed up a long time ago, she was wondering if she even knew Raven at all anymore.  

"You're right." was all Raven said not looking up at Clarke. 

Clarke sighed also crying "So what now?" she said quietly "Clearly you haven't forgiven me and I'm not so sure I can forgive you right now, and you sure as hell haven't forgotten, so what do we do now?" 

"I was bitch for kissing Lexa like that, you're right I wasn't acting like a best friend because best friends don't try to seek revenge and that's what I did, it was revenge even though I know that you weren't even close to feeling the hurt and pain I did with Finn. I wanted to fuck Lexa." 

Clarke grimaced "Way to be crude." 

"You know me."

"Do I?" Clarke asked quietly. 

Raven didn't respond "I wanted to sleep with her before I knew you liked her, but when I found out you did like her i wanted to have sex with her that much more, and yes that sounds really shitty and evil but I'm being honest but that's all it was me trying to get you back, I didn't have feelings for Lexa-"

"Didn't? As in past tense." 

"Don't as in present tense, I don't like Lexa like that, there's something about her that pulls me in but not romantically. I can sit here and tell you for damn sure that that girl out there doesn't want anyone but you."

"Raven-" Clarke started but Raven interjected. 

"No listen to me, she may have been confused okay, like maybe she didn't understand her feelings but I'm telling you now she doesn't want me. She wants you." Raven waited a minute to let that sink in with Clarke before she continued "I don't know what your game is with this Oliver guy but I saw the bruise he left on her and I know how you feel about unnecessary violence so why are you still with him? Be honest."

"What like you were honest?" the blonde snapped Raven just stared at her with a blank expression, Clarke huffed before finding the right words to answer "I-I know I'll sound like the worse person in the world for this but a little voice in the back of my head kept telling me I should've been the one to hit her." 

Raven furrowed her brows "Clarke...what-?" 

"I know, okay, I know it sounds horrible but I just wish I'd have been the one to hit her instead. Obviously he's a fucking asshole for hitting her and it should never have happened but I'm pissed that I didn't have the guts to do It when I was mad at her, when she was giving us both mixed signals and ruining our friendship that turns out was already ruined. I don't know, it's ridiculous but I was just mad that she had the potential to break both our hearts. Oliver's a dick and we're definitely over it's just he was me showing you guys, showing Lexa, that I was doing just fine and I could move on easily if I wanted to...he was me hiding the hurt I felt from her."

"Okay..., you should talk to her, tell her how you feel." Raven said getting up to go get Lexa when Clarke softly grabbed her wrist halting her movements. 

"What about us? Where does all of this leave us?" 

"I think you know." Raven whispered to Clarke "I'm bitter, you're bitter, I think we can both agree that's not the right foundation for a healthy relationship." 

Clarke nodded her head sadly letting Raven go "We both need space, I get it. You think we'll be friends again?" she asked tears falling down her face. 

Raven sniffles smiling sadly "I think I'll always love you like a sister Clarke Griffin."

"Sisters fight right?" 

"Right." Raven said wiping her face "I'll go and get Lexa." with that she left coming back a couple seconds later with Lexa trailing behind her, she looked to Clarke who was crying, eyes softening instantly wanting so bad to just reach out and comfort her. 

"You okay C?" Lexa asked the blonde softly.

Clarke looked up smiling "I will be." 

Raven cleared her throat "You guys should go and talk." 

"Everyone was waiting for us before, you're not coming?" Lexa asked unaware of what was just said between the two now ex-best friends.  

Raven shook her head "No I'm just gonna spend some time with my mom." They all looked over at Isabella who was still out like a light "You know when she wakes up." Raven said shrugging. 

Just then Clarke's phone rang, she took it out of her back pocket looking at the caller ID "It's Octavia, they're all probably wondering why I'm taking so long with the beer." Clarke explained awkwardly the tension in the room was so thick you could cut it with a knife. 

"Lincoln's been calling me too so maybe you should answer it?" Lexa suggested feeling just as awkward. 

Clarke answered the phone stepping outside to talk to Octavia.  

"I'm mad at you." Lexa stated going up to Raven to give her a hug which she accepted. 

"I know and I'm so sorry. For all of this, but I promise I'll try and make it up to you, you mean way too much to me." Raven whispered to Lexa sincerely, she felt terrible about dragging Lexa into what should've been just between herself and Clarke. 

"I'm mad right now, but I don't hold a grudge." Lexa clarified her earlier statement, backing out of the hug and putting some distance between them.  

"I know, you big softie." 

"I'll call you or come over later to check on the two of you, maybe bring dinner." Lexa said glancing at Isabella. 

"You're not our caretaker you know? We do just fine on our own." Raven said getting defensive, she didn't like when people pitied her. 

"I know, but I'm your friend." With that Lexa turned around and made her way out of the small apartment.  

Her and Clarke made their way to Lexa's car, the brunette opening the passenger car door for the blonde. Once they were both settled in the car Lexa spoke breaking the awkward silence. 

"So what now?" 

"I wanted to be the one to hit you instead of Oliver because I was mad and hurt that you were coming in-between Raven and I." the blonde blurted out wanting to get every little thing out in the open, and if they were meant to be together they'd try and work pass all that's happened over the last couple of months.  

"Okay." was all Lexa said. 

"But like I said, Oliver should never have put his hands on you and for that I'm done with him."

"I saw you kissing him." Lexa admitted quietly playing with her fingers nervously "Right after I told you he hit me, which you seemed pretty pissed about so how'd you end up making out with him?" 

"I saw you kissing Raven." she shot back 

Lexa furrowed her brows "What? I never kisse-"

"At your house that time, in your bedroom I saw you both." Clarke cut in.

Lexa's mouth formed an 'o' realizing what Clarke was talking about. "That was the first and last time I did anything with Raven I promise, but that was months ago at a stupid party."  

"It wasn't a party." Clarke quipped a small smile appearing on her lips. 

Lexa chuckled "No it wasn't." 

"I don't know why I kissed him, you know Oliver was just a distraction from you right? I needed my distraction to stay in place, so that if you did end up with Raven I wouldn't look like the pathetic one pining over you." Clarke felt as though they could possibly work through things if she just told the whole truth "And I know you told me you were jealous and whatever but I just didn't believe you, my heart it wouldn't let me believe you. I was just protecting myself. Which I know was selfish now and I'm really fucking sorry about....everything."  

It went silent for a while both of them thinking.

"I was selfish too, I know I should've saved everyone all this drama and figured my shit out sooner, and for that I'm sorry because it was selfish of me. I'm not saying I'm not upset that you still kissed Oliver after you found out he hit me because I am but that's only because of how I feel about you. I'm not gonna bother moping around feeling sorry for myself, I don't expect you to feel sorry for me either." Turning around in her seat to face the blonde Lexa took a breath "Can we start over? I just want to forget everything that's happened since we met and just start over. I only ever wanted you since the moment I saw you in math becoming one with your chair. You know a clean slate? I'm not interested in anybody apart from you so I'm willing to wait for us to get over everything that's happened so far if you are, I mean I haven't had sex-uh never mind." Lexa said hastily hoping Clarke didn't hear what she was going to say. 

"Woah woah woah, what were you gonna say?" Clarke asked both her eyebrows raised. 

"It doesn't matter." 

"Open and honest, Lexa." 

"Fine." Lexa huffed "I was gonna say I haven't had sex with anyone in months now so I don't mind waiting." Lexa looked over at Clarke and saw her eyes wide and mouth open in shock and surprise. 

"Oh my God." Clarke gasped "Not that I'm complaining, but why?" 

Lexa shrugged looking away from Clarke and down at her fingers once again "I don't know." she mumbled "It's like I know exactly who I want to be with and who wants to be with me so why waste my time and any poor other girl's time fucking around? I've had sex a lot but I don't crave it, that's why I'm willing to wait for you." 

Clarke smiled turning to face Lexa she stuck her hand out "Hi I'm griffin Clarke, I mean Clarke Griffin." they both chuckled.  

Lexa smiled wildly and looked at Clarke who nodded, she took Clarke's hand in her own shaking it gently "Hey I'm -"

"Lexa Woods, I know already." the blonde interrupted chucking when she saw Lexa throw her free hand up in exasperation. 

"God damn it women! Will you let me have my introduction?!"  

"Sorry, I forgot how much you love a good introduction. Go ahead stranger." Clarke teased still smiling. 

"Great. I'm Lexa, Lexa woods nice to meet you." 

"Ditto, Lexa Woods."

They both smile at each other before Lexa turned away from Clarke starting the car and making their way back to Lexa's house when the brunette realized something. 

"Is he there? At my house I mean?" 

Clarke nodded her head opening her mouth to explain but Lexa beat her to it "You didn't tell anyone right?" she asked glancing at Clarke briefly before focusing back on the road ahead.

"No." Clarke shook her head 

"Why?" 

"Because you didn't say anything so I figured you didn't want me too." Clarke shrugged staring out the window.

"Well you're right, they baby me too much as it is, I can fight my own battles." Lexa knew if her friends were to ever find out Oliver hit her all hell would break loose and she didn't want that because it had nothing to do with them.

"He's there now because he's not just my friend anymore, the others they invited him and I couldn't just say no he can't come because then they'd know something was up." Clarke explained finally tearing her eyes away from the window and looking at Lexa just in time to see her nod slowly. Staring at Lexa with the sun set reflecting off her body giving her a majestic glow she smiled softly because the brunette was truly too good for her.

"I don't deserve you." she whispered softly not taking her eyes off of Lexa. 

"I don't deserve you either." 

"But I want you." Clarke sighed, why did things have to be so damn complicated? 

"I want you more than anything, or I at least wanna try." 

"Wanna try what?" Clarke asked confused. 

"To fall in love with you...although, I don't think it'll be hard at all."  

They both had a feeling things would go how they were meant to go this time round. Well one can only hope.

Chapter Text

"So here we are..." Lexa said awkwardly pulling up on the curb outside of her house, it was starting to get dark out so the street lamps were on.

“Yep." Clarke said, just as awkward. 

Silence.

"I don't really wa-"

"Should we get ou-"

They both started at the same time. Laughing, Lexa shook her head “You go.”

"I was just gonna ask if you wanted to get out of here?" Clarke knew Lexa was feeling apprehensive about joining everyone inside and truth be told she was too.

Breathing out a laugh Lexa nodded her head "Hell yeah...but first-" she said getting out of the car and walking to the side of the house where her room was located. From the car Clarke watched her confused until she Saw the brunette put one foot on the tree branch outside of her window, immediately Clarke jumped into action getting out of the car, she jogged over to Lexa grabbing her hoodie and pulling until her feet were on the ground again.

"What the hell Clarke?" Lexa asked confused fixing her hoodie. 

"No. No. You are not climbing that tree no way. Over my dead body.”

"I need to get something from my room!" she protested 

“Okay." Clarke nodded “But there's a perfectly good door over there." 

"I don't want anyone to see us Clarke...That's the whole part of not wanting to join them inside.." Lexa said furrowing her brows Clarke was wasting time, she could have got what she wanted already and that would've been that.

“You’re totally going to get stuck again Lexa.” the blonde deadpanned with a straight face, she’s come to realize that Lexa plus tree equals a very bad idea.

“Am not.” Lexa pouted. 

“Are too." Clarke shot back raising an eyebrow. 

“Am not.” Lexa said more sternly leaning in. 

“Are too." Clarke said just as stern. 

“Am n-“ just then they heard the front door opening, Lexa quickly grabbed Clarke’s hand hiding them both behind the wall.

“Weird.” they heard Lincoln mutter. 

“What's weird, weirdo?" That was roan. 

"I thought I heard Clexa out here..." he trailed off 

Lexa looked to Clarke both of them sporting confused expressions "Clexa?" she mouthed, Clarke shrugged sniggering quietly. 

As if he read their minds Roan pondered "Clexa?" 

"Oh yeah I heard Octavia say it this one time, pretty cute right?" Lincoln said grinning wildly only his smile fell completely when he realized what he said but before he could backtrack Roan was already cackling laughter. 

"Dude you're so drunk right now!" he exclaimed still laughing.

“I had one beer man" he deadpanned. 

"Even worse! Lightweight!!" he burst out laughing going back inside. 

Clarke was struggling at this point to keep her laughter in check, Lexa had to quickly cover her mouth, putting a finger to her own lips signaling for the blonde to be quiet while she tried to reign in her own laughter.

Lincoln just shook his head "Children. I'm surrounded by children." and with that they heard the door close and then silence. 

Clarke realized that Lexa was still covering her mouth with her hand so she did what any mature 18 year old girl would do....she licked her palm. 

Lexa squealed pulling her hand away frowning at a chucking Clarke, but she couldn’t pretend to be upset for too long so she too started laughing. 

“Gross.” she said giggling. 

“Yeah whatever." Clarke said smirking. 

“Yeah whatever." Lexa mimicked Clarke in a high pitched voice that sounded absolutely nothing like Clarke causing the blonde to roll her eyes. 

“I do not sound like that.” she deadpanned. 

“So you think." Lexa said shrugging, Clarke only flipped her off in response. 

"Alright so can I climb this tree or what? We could’ve been gone already." Lexa whined. 

“Fine." Clarke held her hands up taking a step back, a smile gracing her lips “Fine. Your funeral.” 

“You, sunshine, just have no faith. I got this, okay? I got this.” she whispered the last part smugly Clarke only raised an eyebrow waiting for Lexa to go ahead. 

Once the brunette started climbing the tree, Clarke could tell it wasn't her first experience with this particular tree because she was actually doing it pretty smoothly. 

And she totally wasn’t checking out Lexa's perfectly shaped butt. 

Definitely not...

Once Lexa got inside she looked around her messy battle field looking room in search of...there you are! 

Going over to her closet she took out the duffle bag that was peeking out from behind it, just when she was about to turn and leave though she saw a figure at the corner of her eyes, turning around startled, Lexa put her hand over her chest when she realized it was just fucking Oliver.

Wait...fucking Oliver?

"What the hell are you doing you weird little creeper weirdo...what is wrong with you?" 

He shrugged “I was using the bathroom and heard noises." 

“Whatever, don't tell anyone I was here." Just as Lexa turned around and threw the bag down at Clarke who caught it, he spoke up again.

"Wait that's it? You're not kicking me out of your house??" He was beyond confused, he was expecting a stronger reaction than this, truth be told that's what he wanted. He knew he deserved it.

Lexa furrowed her brows “You're not my guest." was all she said as if it explained everything in the world. 

“Yeah but-but I hit you."  

"Okay...? Can you just stay the hell out of my room? Yeah? Awesome! Bye.” Lexa put one leg out the window and just as she was gonna put the other Oliver spoke stopping her again 

“You can't just...leave." 

"Why not?" 

"Because-becuase-becuase I hit you!" he exclaimed as if it was obvious. 

"Okay you keep saying that dude, do you want an award or what?" 

“No but I'd like to earn your forgiveness."

“Never gonna happen."

"You don't even seem like you give a shit!"

"Maybe because I don't give a shit? Look Oliver you are the furtherest thing that is on my mind right now....actually...That's a lie you're on my mind, I'm thinking was he always this annoying? The answer is yes.” 

"You're- You're so infuriating!" he said shaking his head Lexa was really something else "This isn't how things are supposed to go, you're doing it wrong!" 

She snorted furrowing her brows “I legit have no idea what you're talking about man."

Oliver furrowed his eyebrows the picture perfect image of confused as fuck "Look Lexa I'm really sorry about the other day, you know hitting you like that, it wasn't called for and I wasn't thinking straight. So I’m sorry and I mean that from the bottom of my heart.”  

Lexa stared at him for a minute before she put herself back fully inside the house walking up to Oliver she stuck her hand out to him.

He looked at it with wide eyes before slowly taking her offered hand and shaking it gently, a smile came across his face but disappeared in the blink of an eye once he felt the pressure around his hands, looking at Lexa he saw her smirking while she squeezed the shit out of his fingers, his face morphed from one of satisfaction to pain real quick.

“How about you take your pretty little apology and shove it up your ass." she said with the most serious face ever. "And I truly mean that from the bottom of my heart. Shove it right up there. All the way." with one more hard squeeze she let go causing him to wince and groan in pain as he tried to get the blood flow back to his hand by flailing it around frantically.  

“Out.” she demanded pointing to her door. 

"Of the house?" 

"Of my room you idiot! Get out.”

"Okay!" he yelled as Lexa turned back around and made her way out the window. 

“Oh and by the way, if this shitty apology was for Clarke then you should just take it back now because she doesn't want you." 

“This isn't about Clarke, it's about us." Oliver said shaking his head. 

"Us?" Lexa snorted. 

He nodded "Believe it or not Lexa but we're a lot alike you and I, we just got off on the wrong foot. I was trying to protect Clarke.”

Lexa didn't know what to say because to be honest she could admire that but he was still a prick.

“Stay out of my way and I’ll stay the hell out of yours." and with one final glare his way she started climbing back down. 

"Have fun!" he called out when he could only see Lexa's fingers not missing the middle one she sent his way.

He stayed there for a minute deep in thought before nodding his head slowly “Could’ve been worse." he muttered to himself as he turned around exiting Lexa's room closing the door behind him.

Once Lexa reached the bottom Clarke gave her a quizzical look "What took you so long?" 

“Nothing.” was all she said a sweet smile on her face, as she took the bag from Clarke and they headed back to the car. 

"What's in the bag?" 

“Wouldn’t you like to know.” Lexa replied cheekily as she put the bag in the back before opening Clarke’s door for her, Clarke got in the car nodding her head. 

"Yes. Yes I would like to know actually, it’s as light as a feather." the blonde commented. 

"You trust me?" Lexa asked as she settled in the driver’s seat putting her seat belt on then turning to face Clarke who had an eyebrow raised.   

"Is that a trick question?"

"Too soon?" Lexa asked with a grimace. 

“Little bit." Clarke said emphasizing her point by holding up her index finger and thumb a tiny inch apart.

“Alright." Lexa chuckled "I just wanna show you something, if you don't trust me do you at least believe me?" 

Clarke just stared at Lexa blankly just as the blonde was going to speak Lexa held her hand up stopping her “In fact, don't answer that. Can I just..?"

“Yeah just drive." Clarke chuckled out.

They drove for about half an hour before Clarke started to see nothing but trees and bushes surrounding them, the rare one or two street lamps at the side of the road being the main source of light. Clarke stared out the window looking up at the stars in awe when she realized the car was coming to a stop…Literally in the middle of nowhere. 

"Lexa where the hell are we?" she asked the girl who was getting out of the car Lexa didn’t say anything yet she just went around and opened Clarke's door, the blonde got out both of her brows however still raised in question. 

Lexa offered the shorter girl her hand “Come on, I'll show you." 

"Is this the part where you murder me?" the blue eyed beauty joked taking Lexa’s hand without a second thought. 

“Uhh maybe I don't know yet." the brunette joked leading them threw the dark with the flashlight on her phone pointed to the ground so they could watch where they stepped.

“Settling." Clarke muttered.

As they walked for another 10 minutes or so something ahead started to come in clear view to Clarke but she couldn't quite make out what it was. The more they got closer the clearer it became.

A tree house. 

It was a tree house the size of one small room made out of dark wood, if anything it looked like a little cottage in a tree or you know those typical square house, triangle roof, two windows and a door drawings. 

Looking around further Clarke saw that the tree it was built on was quite high up, it must be a beautiful view of the sky from up there she thought, looking past the tree house she just now noticed the river that flowed effortlessly, water sleeping peacefully in the calm of the night. Clarke smiled, it was gorgeous here, despite it being dark Clarke could tell that in the day everything was bright green and this place was crawling with life.

“Wow.” was all Clarke said out loud despite everything she was thinking. 

Lexa looked over at the blonde smiling "Right? This place gets better and better every time I see it.” Lexa commented as they came to a stop in front of the tree house. 

"A ladder? Didn’t know you knew what those were, or door for that matter” Clarke teased climbing the ladder first as instructed by Lexa.  

“You know what Griffin? Anyone who looked at little ole innocent you would never believe how snarky and sarcastic you are” Lexa said also climbing the ladder until they both got inside, Lexa led Clarke straight to the back where there was an open area almost like a balcony. They sat down on the blankets Lexa had bought in the duffel bag with their feet hanging off the edge, the river in clear view right in front of them, the stars and the moon shining bright, they could also hear the low calming whistle of the night breeze.

“This is so peaceful." Clarke whispered absent-mindedly; Lexa hummed in agreement.

They sat in comfortable silence just enjoying the view and each other's company for a while until Clarke spoke up. 

"So who are the founders of this place?" the blonde asked out of curiosity, she had the blanket wrapped around her shoulders and covering her legs that were pulled up to her chest with her arms wrapped securely around them, Lexa sat across from her in a simular position except her legs were pushed apart and her elbows rested on her knees with her hands clasped together where they met in the center. 

"Uhh that would be my father and my birth mother."  

“Oh." Clarke raised a brow “They lived in little ole Polis for quite some time then?"  

“Yep this is the only town they've ever known since they came to America." the brunette said nodding her head she looked over at Clarke and saw her confused face staring back at her intently, chuckling she groaned playfully "I know that look. History lesson now Clarke? Really?" the blonde only shrugged in response 

"I'll tell you mine if you tell me yours" she sang teasingly "Come on story time, I feel like it's a good one" 

"Fine" Lexa relented with a huff "Where should I start?"  

"Ever since they came to America? Are they not from America?"  

"Well my dad is, he's native American originated from a woodland tribe called Abenaki Tribe, they just consisted of Farmers, hunters, fishers etcetera etcetera. Long story short there was a war that went on for about 75 years France and England fought over the land that belonged to my ancestors tribe eventually the Abenaki became allies with the French due to their friendship with Jean-Vincent d’Abbadie de Saint-Castin." Lexa pronounced the name in her best French accent which surprisingly to Clarke was pretty good “He was a French military officer who became a Abenaki chief, due to war and stuff the Abenaki scattered all over most of them relocating to Canada which is where my father was born. It was there, at the delicate age of 20, he met the beautiful Greek tourist with long dark hair and piercing green eyes” 

"Your birth mom?" Clarke asked surprised, Lexa nodded "She's Greek?! Well I must say that definitely explains you, you Greek goddess.” the blonde joked chuckling when Lexa blushed muttering something under her breathe about continuing with ‘Story,’ Clarke laughed harder but nodded anyway.

"Where was I?" 

"Your dad's in Canada and met your Greek tourist mother" 

“Ah yes so they met, they’re young-he’s 20 she’s 18-they fall in love instantly that very same year they met they move back to my mother’s home country, Greece to be more specific Cyprus. So there they are the native American/Canadian man and the beautiful Cyprus lady, not even 4 years later she falls pregnant they are over the moon they’re having a baby; their family it’s about to be complete.” Clarke didn’t miss the far away look that appeared deep in Lexa’s eyes she could tell how much her mother leaving affects her, just when she was about to let Lexa know that she didn’t need to continue the brunette spoke. "9 months later they have a handsome baby boy, little did they know it wasn't a dude, once the kid started growing they obviously saw female anatomy also, so they figure out she's intersex once they go to the doctors but they don't care they love her anyway." 

"Wait so you were born in Cyprus?" Clarke asked, did lexa just get 20x hotter? 

“Yep, lived there until I was 5 years old and then my parents decided to move to America, Polis seemed like the perfect place for their family I guess, they found this little area here and built this tree house together. So here I am, little Greek girl running around an American town not knowing a speck of English add that with being dyslexic and intersex I’m sure you know how that went for me as a kid-“ Clarke nodded sadly, she knew kids were cruel and couldn’t imagine how Lexa felt, never being the subject of bullying herself "So I'm barely a year into the new American and very English life style and poof my mother's gone don't ask me how or why because I don't know my father's always been pretty bland about it expressing on many occasions that he doesn't like to talk about it all he told me was that she left for another man and family. I can't lie every time I think about what he told me and then I think about my mother, my beautiful beautiful kind-hearted mother who loved wherever she went because that's what she was good at, she was good at loving and caring it doesn't add up but I was young so maybe I was wrong about her I don't know anyway she's gone. I'm lost. My dad's lost. We don't know what to do blah blah blah blah fast forward I start learning English, I meet new friends no I meet new family my crew, my father meets Indra and here I am." Lexa concluded grinning as she gestured to herself and her surroundings 

“Here you are." Clarke said she too was smiling wildly “Quite the back story you got there Woods." 

“Why, thank you.” Lexa replied bowing playfully 

Clarke laughed shaking her head “And I expect a Greek lesson very soon if you still know any." 

“Of course I do, my father had me learn his ancestors tongue and my mother's including the cultures as a whole." 

“That explains that tribal tattoo you got there on your bicep" Clarke said pointing to Lexa's arm where there was a tribal tattoo made up of intricate lines joint together around her arm 

“Yeah I got this when I turned 16 my father told me it was Trikru tradition Lincoln also has one on his arm because my father sees him as part of that tradition , Trikru is part of Abenaki Tribe by the way, the Abenaki were known as the people of the land where as Trikru are the tree people" Lexa explained laughing when Clarke rolled her eyes, she had a feeling she knew what that was for. 

“Now that explains your tree fetish" she teased Lexa just flipped her off playfully causing the blonde to chuckle.

“Now, I believe it’s your turn." Lexa said gesturing for Clarke to talk. 

“Okay well it's nowhere near as deep and interesting as that, I'm a city girl I was born and raised in Los Angeles and my folks and I moved to Polis when I was about 7 I think, I met Raven and the Blake siblings shortly after we've all been friends since." Clarke explained briefly “I'm just your average girl." 

“Far from average.” Lexa whispered looking at Clarke in awe, the reflection from the moon made Clarke’s blue eyes shine. 

The blonde looked down shyly obviously having heard her comment causing Lexa to smile triumphantly. 

"So bumpy past. Smooth future?" Clarke asked changing the subject. 

Lexa chuckled "No probably just as bumpy, I don't know what I wanna do with myself. What about you college?" 

Clarke nodded her head “Yeah yeah college which one however I don’t know, whatever I do I want it to involve art, maybe I'll be a tattoo artist." Clarke concluded staring at Lexa’s tattoo with a shrug. 

Lexa raised both her eyebrows “Didn’t peg you as a big bulky guy with tattoos from head to toe." she teased causing Clarke to laugh. 

“That’s like the stereotypical image of someone who does tattoos right? But when I got my tattoo done it was by a girl, with very few tattoos actually" the blonde said so nonchalant 

Lexas eyes widened "You have a tattoo?!" She exclaimed I’m shocked! 

“Don't act so surprised" Clarke said rolling her eyes. 

"I am surprised. Boy oh boy Miss Sophisticated you’re just full of surprises aren't you?" Lexa said shaking her head 'show me' with that Clarke turned around moving her hair to one side revealing a constellation of small stars behind her ear. 

“It's pretty" Lexa commented more to herself than to Clarke gently reaching over and tracing her fingers along it causing Clarke to shiverer at the soft touch. 

“Sorry.” she muttered retracting her hand “Now that I’m not surprised though, pretty tattoo for a pretty girl." she said charming smirk in place. 

Clarke blushed fucking her head “Stop it." she muttered. 

"Stop what? Telling the truth?" she teased.   

Just then Clarke’s phone started vibrating, she picked it up seeing it was from her mother, when it stopped ringing she saw that she had 20 missed calls and 13 text no doubt from her parents and friends “Shit." she muttered looking at the time it was almost 12:30. 

“Lexa it's really late we should go." Clarke said showing the brunette her phone, Lexa’s eyes widened when she saw the time she got up stretching a hand out for Clarke.

“Damn time flies.” she commented as they made their way back down the ladder. 

“When you're having fun." Clarke added giving Lexa a wink who just shook her head giggling, they held hands all the way back to the car.  

Clarke had sent her mother a quick text saying she’d be home right away so it wasn't surprising when Lexa pulled up to Clarke's house and her parents were waiting outside on the porch "Fuck!" Lexa hissed when she saw them Clarke squeezed her knee comfortingly before they both got out of the car. 

"What on earth time do you call this?" Abby sneered as soon as they were in earshot, the time was now quarter past one.     

Jake stood up putting a hand on Abby's shoulder “Abby calm down she’s with Lexa.”

The older Griffin whipped around so fast Lexa thought she had to have whiplash, glaring at her husband she narrowed her eyes “Is that supposed to make me feel better?!" she growled livid.

“Yes actually she’s in safe hands" Jake bit back holding his ground even though a pissed off Abby was a force to be reckoned with. 

“You know Jake it worries me how easily you assume our only daughter is safe." 

Before it could go any further Clarke intervened “Mom, Dad stop it I'm here I was safe, I'm sorry I should've texted or called to let you know where I was and who I was with." the blonde said calmly.

"Yes you should have, inside. We’re going to have a little chat about the purpose of a mobile phone." she said before storming inside, Jake rolled his eyes going up to Lexa and giving her a pat on the shoulder before going inside to give the two a minute to sat goodnight. 

“Well." Lexa said looking to Clarke with wide eyes. 

The blonde chuckled "Isn't she just a bundle of joy?" 

“A bundle of something yes." Lexa muttered laughing with Clarke. 

"So I'll text you?" Lexa asked nervously. 

“Please do." Clarke said leaning in and giving Lexa a peck at the corner of her mouth before going inside, the brunette threw a fist in the air out of pure excitement for what was to come. 

Things were going good. For now.

Just when she was about to get back into her car she heard someone call out for her 

"Lexa!" 

Turning around she saw Abby making her way over. 

“Yes Mrs. Griffin?" Lexa answered politely. 

Abby stood there for a minute staring at Lexa before she averted her eyes to the ground and back up again, Lexa was confused. 

“I’m sorry again for what I said about your mother, I didn’t know and it was out of line for me to assume.” she said and to Lexa’s surprise, she sounded nothing but sincere.

“It's fine goodnight."  

“Oh and one more thing." Abby said stopping Lexa in her tracks once again. 

“Yes Mrs. Griffin?" she replied just as polite as the first time. 

"The next time you decide to keep my daughter out until ungodly hours will be the day you realise you can't fly. Am I making myself clear?" she asked sternly.

“Crystal."  

“Good, that'll be all." 

Did she just dismiss me? Oh that- 

Her thoughts were cut off by Abby turning on her heel and sauntering back to the house. 

"Have a good ni-"

Bang. The door slammed. 

“Night." Lexa muttered to herself.

Could've gone worse she thought as she got in her car and pictured blonde hair and blue eyes the entire way home.

Chapter Text

It’s been a week since Lexa took Clarke to her parents old tree house, during the week Lexa and Clarke have been trying to look past everything that’s happened and move forward. It was working because the two were making good progress and everyone could see that with them being together every minute of everyday trying to build a stronger bond. They had yet to talk about anything relationship wise such as dates and stuff but it wasn't far from both of their minds, they were just nervous about being the one to make the first move.

Raven and Clarke still haven't spoken both of them needing time to try and put everything behind them and forgive the other. If it was even possible at this point.

It was now a Tuesday afternoon and Clarke was making her way to lunch when she ran into none other than Oliver, rolling her eyes Clarke avoided eye contact and walked straight ahead just trying to get to the cafeteria, however, Oliver had different ideas.

“Hey Clarke." Oliver called out trying to get her attention.

She ignored him.

"Really? You can't just be mature and talk to me for one second?" he pleaded walking beside her. 

Without looking at him she scoffed “I don’t think you're one to talk about being mature, Oliver. Do you?"

Oliver sighed looking down at the floor briefly "I know that, I just wanna talk to you. Please." he tried once more but this time Clarke didn't even answer him, his shoulders slumped in defeat and he stood still no longer walking next to Clarke who just carried on walking like nothing happened.

“I wouldn't bother wasting my time on that piece of ass if I were you." Oliver heard a male voice from behind him, turning around he saw a smirking boy with long messy hair, narrowed brown eyes shining with mischief and a slimy smirk that screamed douche bag. Oliver didn't like the look of this guy one bit.

Before Oliver could ask him what he was talking about Clarke again.

“I mean don’t get me wrong man she's a fine piece of ass it's just that she has a stick lodged up it." the messy hair boy said chuckling, his friend that was stood beside him laughed shaking his head. 

“A stick, Finn? really? More like a fucking tree!" both of them burst out laughing at that, oOliver clenched his fist stepping forward. 

"You guys wanna say that again?" he gritted out through clenched teeth. 

Finn put his hands up in mock surrender the smirk still present on his face “Relax dude, just giving you a heads up.” he closed his locker picking up his bag off the floor "Find me if you want anymore...information should I say; on blondie, come on Miller." Finn walked off with Miller chuckling.

Oliver stood there eyebrows furrowed, he looked around before making his way to lunch thinking about what that Finn guy meant and what he could possibly know about Clarke.

“What up?" Lexa said clumsily flopping down in her seat at the lunch table, tray of food banging on the table in front of her. 

"What up?" Raven snorted looking at Lexa who nodded. 

“Uh yeah it's old school girl get with it" Lexa said biting into her burger. 

Raven laughed so loud that a few people around them at other tables looked over in curiosity, Lexa giggled shushing her half-heartedly, Raven quieted down so she was sniggering "Have you been watching Step Up again?" she asked still laughing

“Maybe.” Lexa said smiling Raven just shook her head. 

When Lexa had gotten her lunch she went to go and sit with Clarke and her friends but had noticed Raven sitting alone at a round lunch table so she made a u-turn and made a beeline for the Latina faltering slightly at the thought that maybe it was shit like this that had people thinking she had a thing for Raven, to Lexa all she's doing is being a decent human being.

"You okay?" Lexa asked.

Raven shrugged playing with the fries on her tray "Why wouldn't I be?"

“You're sitting alone." Lexa said staring at Raven who still hadn’t looked up from the food in front of her. 

Raven smiled finally looking up at Lexa "No I'm not. You’re sitting with me."

“You know what I meant.” Lexa mumbled rolling her eyes. 

“Clarke and I are literally sharing our friends."  

Just when Raven said that Bellamy, Anya, Lincoln and Roan approached the table being as loud as ever.

“Could you guys be anymore annoying?" Lexa joked taking another bite of her burger. 

"Could you be anymore like Chandler from Friends?" Anya shot back causing everyone to laugh and Lexa to scowl playfully. 

"Hey! You know damn well I’m Joey."

Raven shook her head laughing "Oh my God dude you're totally Chandler!" she exclaimed, everyone at the table laughed uncontrollably. 

Lexa just rolled her eyes “Yeah, laugh it up."

"Why are you even sitting with us?" Roan said his brows furrowed. 

“Oh yeah.” Lincoln agreed “Shouldn’t you be with your non girlfriend, girlfriend over there” Lincoln said pointing in the direction of Clarke's table.

“I was but something caught my attention.” she shrugged. 

“Okay well we all know you’re itching to go so there's no need to beat around the bush." Anya said winking at Lexa who smiled, standing up she said bye to everyone and went over to Clarke.

Raven watched the interaction from her seat as Lexa sat down next to Clarke who smiled wildly before laughing out loud, Lexa looked confused but smiled sheepishly when Clarke wiped away food from the corner of her mouth replacing it with her lips in a sweet kiss. All the way from her seat Raven could see the blush in Lexa’s face, smiling softly at them she looked away. Despite everything she was happy for them.

"You good Reyes?" Anya said nudging Raven’s shoulders playfully. 

“Yep." a smiling Raven said cheerfully popping the 'p' "Never been better. In fact I’m soo good that I’m gonna take your cherry" Raven joked reaching over and taking the single cherry that was on Anya's cake.

The dirty blonde raised a brow, a hint of a smile playing on her lips "You did not just take my cherry? You better put it back…like now.”

"Or what?" Raven challenged.

"Or I'll murder you....with my killer charm!" Anya exclaimed grinning wildly at her own joke, trying to make the brunette laugh because for some reason she didn't look cheerful enough for Anya to be pleased with.

Raven furrowed her brows chuckling at the usually stoic girl’s goofy behavior “Oh wow that was a good one.” Raven said sarcastically putting both her thumbs up “Although I think your killer looks will get to me first.” she added winking. 

Anya’s face flushed with embarrassment "Uh I-I" she stuttered. 

Raven held up a hand chuckling “No need to be shy stud, oh and by the way your hands been on my thigh this whole time."

Immediately Anya looked down to see her right hand rested on Raven's thigh, quickly she pulled away like she had been burnt "I'm sorry I don't kn-"

“It’s cool Anya, but if you wanted to grope me you could’ve just asked". 

If it was even possible Anya’s face got even warmer the blush spreading everywhere, just when she was about to talk Raven burst out laughing causing the dirty blonde to frown before catching on to the fact that Raven was screwing with her. 

Narrowing her eyes at the laughing brunette she huffed annoyed “Do you get a thrill out of fucking with me Reyes? Is it amusing?"

“Very." Raven just manages to get out in-between the laughing. 

Nodding Anya chuckled “Nice to know. Last time I ask you if you’re good, asshole.” Anya muttered playfully pouting.

Raven smiled squeezing Anya’s cheeks "Aww don't be such a baby." Anya just grumbled in reply. 

“Hey Bell, you haven’t spoken yet I’m pretty surprised at this point we're normally trying to get you to shut up." Raven said looking at Bellamy curiously, he was engrossed in something on his phone.

“Dude's in a trance." Roan said shaking his head. 

Bellamy snapped his head up from his phone suddenly looking at everyone clearly not knowing why they were all staring at him, shrugging he stood up "Gotta go guys. Practice.” he rushed out kissing Anya’s cheek briefly before taking off.

“Weird." Raven muttered.

On the other side of the cafeteria Lexa and Clarke were hitting it off. 

"So what you're telling me is that you think you can play football better than I can?" Clarke said smirking. 

“What I’m telling you is that I know I can, Griff, get over it” Lexa said smugly. 

Clarke raised both her eyebrows “I can not believe how cocky you're being right now, I could totally beat you if I put my mind to it!" Clarke argued. 

Lexa furrowed her brows snorting “Doubt it." Lexa mumbled chuckling “Highly doubt it."

"You are unbelievable" Clarke said laughing feigning suprise and shock "Wanna put your money were your mouth is?" Clarke challenged laughing when Lexa’s eyes widened playfully she looked around rolling her shoulders.

“Gonna have to decline for now I gotta rest up you know with try outs today and all."  

“I actually wanted to talk to you." Clarke said all of a sudden more quiet and shy. 

"I actually wanted to talk to you too but then I realized we were already talking and I was just astonished!" Lexa joked grinning at Clarke who face palmed chuckling. 

“Oh my God Lexa you gotta put your big girl pants on for a minute please." Clarke muttered shaking her head a smile gracing her lips. 

Lexa smiled sweetly nodding her head “Alrighty shoot."

"Okay-" Clarke started taking a breath "I was wondering if you would maybe be interested in you know going out with me?...Maybe?" she asked nervously. 

Lexa's eye brows shot up in the air with suprise "You're asking me out?"

"...Yes?" Clarke said hesitantly “I mean I know we’ve been trying to start fresh and move on from everything that's happened and I think things have been great between us lately but if you don't I totally understand-" Clarke stopped her rambling when she noticed Lexa just smiling at her. "What?" she muttered coyly.   

Lexa stared at Clarke in awe smiling wide “You...are absolutely gorgeous." she breathed out dreamy "You know that?"

The blonde blushed and smiled shyly looking away from the emerald green eyes that shined with affection. 

Lexa ducked her head trying to catch Clarke’s eyes with hers causing the blonde to giggle and Lexa to chuckle "I would love more than anything to have the pleasure of accompanying you on what I have zero doubts will be a spectacular date to remember."

Clarke was so taken aback by what Lexa said that all she could do was smile and join their hands. “Smooth.” Clarke muttered smiling.

“Aren't I always with you, beautiful?"  

The blonde shook her head and laughed, Lexa Woods was something else. And Clarke loved it.

"So is this like our second date now?" a smirking Lexa asked. 

"When was our first?"

"The tree house, I mean only on a technicality. We were in each others company alone and correct me if I'm wrong but we had a good time right? So I don’t know I guess that’s a date, in my head anyway." the brunette rambled on shrugging. 

Clarke smiled “I had a great time and in my head it was a date too."

“Alright then." Lexa beamed  

Just then Monty and Jasper approached the pair, monty sat on Lexa’s left while Jasper squeezing himself in-between Clarke and Lexa, the duo now sandwiching the brunette who groaned while Clarke glared at the back of Jasper's head.

"Can I help you gentlemen with something?" Lexa asked already knowing what this was about. 

A few weeks ago Lexa had been making her way to the cafeteria when she passed the biology room she noticed smoke coming out from the bottom of the closed door, confused she looked around making sure the coast was clear before entering the room. What greeted her was far from what she expected.

There in the room stood Wick, Jasper, Monty, this dude everyone calls Shorts, his trusty side kick everyone calls Shoes, and Raven all surrounding the cause of all the smoke.

"What the hell is going on in here?" Lexa asked chuckling, making her way over to the small group and what appeared to be a tv now fried with a giant hole in it.

Shorts looked over at Lexa through his giant circle rimmed glasses that was held together by a piece of tape.

"You-!"  he shrieked pointing at Lexa who's eyes widened "should not be in here! This room is closed off at lunch and is reserved for members of Mechanical Madness only! " he exclaimed

Lexa snorted "Mechanical Madness?" Lexa said looking at Raven who chuckled shrugging. 

“What can I say?"

Lexa shook her head laughing. 

“Jocks are most definitely not allowed in here, get out." Shoes said pointing to the door feeling brave seeing as there was one of her and 6 of them. 

“I'm not a jock." Lexa deadpanned. 

“Yet.” Wick added causing Lexa to roll her eyes. 

"Look Shorts and Shoes is it?" They nodded reluctantly. “I was just curious about the smoke that’s coming into the hall way, you guys should also open a window.”

"Thank you for the input jock. Now leave.” Shorts said pushing his glasses up. 

“Wait no this all looks cool, I want in." Lexa said grinning wildly Shoes who furrowed her brows. 

"Want in where?" she asked confused

"Mechanical Sadness!" Lexa exclaimed causing Raven to burst out laughing. 

“But...but you're a jock." Monty stated confused. 

“Yes she is therefore that's preposterous." Shorts said rolling his eyes. 

“Now now Shorts -“ Raven started walking over to Lexa and putting her elbow on the taller girls shoulder “as co-president of Mechanical Madness -" Lexa snorted "I say that we give jockey over here a shot."

"I second that!" Jasper shouted excited putting his hand in the air, Lexa was hot and popular, they could work with that.

“Fine." Shorts gave up fighting. 

"Yes!" Lexa exclaimed "What were you guys doing?" she asked giddy. 

“Making things go boom." Raven said a smirk on her lips as she rubbed her hands together.

And that’s how Jock Lexa became a part of Mechanical Madness or in different words The Geeks.      

Jasper clicked his fingers “Yes, help us, you can.”

"What's going on?"

“Finn and his knuckle heads are messing with Shorts again." Monty said shaking his head “We need back up to go in for the kill and save him.” he added dramatically putting his hand on Lexa’s shoulder “We need you to step up to the plate and lead us into victory, soldier.“

To Clarke’s-and Octavia who was now watching-suprise Lexa went along with it and saluted “It would be my honor." And with that the three of them took off, Lexa quickly coming back to peck Clarke on the cheek before going again "Text me we'll talk about the details!" she threw out over her shoulder before disappearing in the crowd.

Both Clarke and Octavia just sat there staring at the spot that Lexa just was baffled.

“Oh my God, Clarke.” Octavia muttered breaking the silence “You're like totally into a nerd."

Clarke rolled her eyes "Shes not a nerd, she's just.." Clarke trailed off trying to find the right words. 

“Lame?" Octavia suggested causing Clarke to playfully slap her arm the dark haired girl just laughed harder in return. 

“No, asshole, she’s open minded.”

“Sounds like you mean naive.” Octavia quipped raising an eyebrow. 

“How about you stop putting words in my mouth Octavia?" Clarke rolled her eyes "What's your problem anyway?" Clarke asked narrowing her eyes at the dark haired girl

Octavia shrugged "What do you mean?"

"Well what I mean is that last week you were all for Lexa and I but now all of a sudden she's lame and naive?"   

“It's not like that." Octavia informed the blonde shaking her head. 

“So what's it like, Tavia? You're really not one to beat around the bush so don't you dare start now. Spill."  Clarke demanded turning her whole body so that Octavia could see she had her full attention. 

The dark hair girl rolled her eyes a sigh escaping her mouth “Alright fine it's nothing crazy it just pisses me off that she can be such a oblivious naive little push over, it really doesn't accommodate to any future growth in your relationship."

"What the hell is that supposed to mean? And oblivious naive little push over? A little harsh don't you think?" the blonde was starting to get irritated. 

“No, Clarke, I didn’t even mean it like that. Look all I’m saying is that she needs to get her damn priorities straight.”

"Priorities meaning?"

“Meaning she really shouldn’t be taking a u-turn on her way over here just because she saw Raven, call me crazy but that’s a little backwards, she’s a push over because Raven did her wrong as well as you yet she's still allowing herself to be held on a leash that says Raven's bitch."  Octavia explained as best as she could. 

"So you think I should be worried about them still?" Clarke asked furrowing her brows. 

“All I’m saying is not much has changed."

Clarke nodded slowly taking in what Octavia said her eyes narrowing once they caught sight of Raven.

Lexa was still hanging around with Raven, and she can’t lie when she sees them together her blood boils, and right now she trust Raven about as much as she believes in Santa Claus.

"So what do I do?" she asks looking back at Octavia.

“Well right now you don't look back because Oliver's coming right this way."

“What?!" Clarke’s eyes widened and of course she looked back immediately just to see Oliver walking straight to her.

Turning back to Octavia she sees the younger girl getting up and gathering her things “See ya." she says to Clarke hurriedly before scurrying off without waiting for a reply.

I’ll kill her later, that bitch Clarke thinks as Oliver sits down in front of her "What?" she ask him with a neutral expression. 

"What? Well for one you've been ignoring my phone calls and messages, what's up with that?"

“I’ve been busy." she shrugged. 

“Okay now the truth."

“What more do you want me to say Olly? You got my text right?"

“Yes I got your text and you didn’t think we'd work out, okay fine, but that still doesn't explain why you're ignoring me, we can still be friends right?" he asked hopefully.

When Clarke didn’t answer he tried again "Come on American girl, we were becoming pretty good friends right? Don't let me being an idiot to someone else ruin that."

“I don't know, Oliver."

Clarke looked torn on what to do. On one hand she didn’t want Lexa getting the wrong impression and on the other hand she’d be lying if she said he wasn’t a nice guy albeit a little irrational; but still who wasn’t at times?

She also thought well if Lexa doesn’t care about how it looks to still be hanging around with Raven then it shouldn't be a problem, because just like they're so called 'friends' Oliver and herself are too but that'd be petty and immature. But still she wasn't sure.

“Tell you what." Oliver said softly standing up "You think about it and let me know. See you around.” then he left leaving Clarke to contemplate.

Lexa and Lincoln walked side by side to the field where late tryouts were taking place after school. Lincoln wasn’t staying for long, he had plans and just wanted to drop Lexa off to wish her luck seeing as Roan was nowhere to be seen and Anya went to the library with Raven.

"Sooo guess who's got a hot date?" Lincoln beamed giddy with excitement.

"Uhh Ronald McDonald? No no definitely SpongeBob, that sponge is one handsome dude.” Lexa teased, Lincoln rolled his eyes playfully shoving the now laughing brunette. “I'm kidding, I'm kidding. You trying to tell me you got a date Linc? Good for you man who with?" Lexa asked looking out onto the field, surprised that most of the football team wasn’t present and by that she means Finn and his knuckleheads.

“Octavia." Lincoln said smirking "I have a date with Octavia freaking Blake!"

Lexa’s eyebrows shot up “Octavia, huh oh wow, she’s gorgeous, she reminds me of the women you see walking around Greece." Lexa laughed at Lincolns frown “You know long dark hair, tanned skin, pretty eyes" she complimented.

"Yeah okay" Lincoln muttered putting a hand up to stop Lexa from going on "You wanna date her?" he asked sarcastically. 

Lexa barked out a laugh “I was just saying jhezz, and no I'm in a committed almost relationship." Lexa said proudly puffing up her chest. 

It was Lincoln’s turn to laugh this time "Aww look at you all whipped over a girl that isn't even your girlfriend."

"Soon. Anyway when are you going out?"

“Now actually."

“Oh really, well remember to be the handsome, polite, respectful gentleman I know you are.” Lexa loves her brother and she knows he’s a good guy but a little reminder never hurt anyone.

“It’s me you’re talking too here, Lex. You forgetting who taught you how to be a charmer when it comes to the ladies?" he teased. 

She chuckled “How could I forget?" they finally reached the field and went over to the bleachers, Lincoln sat on a bench while Lexa did some warm ups.

“So, about the date I'm picking Octavia up at her house."

Lexa looked over at him confused "With what ride?"

“Your ride." Lincoln said pulling Lexa’s car keys out of his pocket, he held it up so Lexa could see when she did her eyes went wide.

“How the hell did you get that?" She demanded walking over to him trying to snatch the keys out of his hands but failing. 

He chuckled moving the keys out of Lexa’s reach”Today when you and Clarke were eye fucking I took it out of your pocket and you didn't even realize."  

"Give them back. I'm picking Clarke up after I leave here and she leaves art class to drop her home. I need the car!" she yelled. 

“I need the car." he yelled back. They stood there staring at each other trying to figure out what the other person’s first move was gonna be, just as Lexa moved forward to pounce Lincoln took of running to the parking lot.

“Dammit." Lexa looked around not knowing if she should go after him or stay before the coach comes, before thinking fuck it and taking off after him, he was still in view until she saw him cut the corning to the building leading to the parking lot, she followed him cutting the same corner until suddenly she stopped dead in her tracks.

Standing there smoking was Finn, Atom, and Miller who noticed her right away a sly smile forming on Finn’s face. Lexa looked around before deciding she had to say something.

"Seen my brother Lincoln?" she asked looking at all of them.

“Yeah.” Atom said face neutral. 

Lexa stood there waiting for some sort of elaboration but when she realized there was going to be none she rolled her eyes making a move to go past them, however, as soon as one leg moved in front of the other Miller took a step directly into her line of sight, feeling uneasy she turned around about to leave when Finn stopped her. 

“Hey, Lexa is it?" he asked smirking. 

"Yes...the girl who's been helping the guys you terrorize fight back."

Finn waved her off “That's just a joke with those nerds nothing serious, just a little hazing."

“Not a very funny joke though is it?" she said rhetorically face as straight as a ruler and glare firmly in place. 

"To us it is. Anyway that’s besides the point, no wait actually it's exactly the point I wanted to make to you and I'm really glad you came running right to us before tryouts so I could you know make my point."  he started folding his arms.

"Your point which is?"

“You can’t tryout for the football team." he said blandly causing Atom and Miller to laugh although Miller's laugh seemed oddly forced. Finn himself chuckled adding a fake “Sorry."

"And why not? Cause I'm a girl?" she asked irritated. 

“Not even,” Atom said scoffing "We all know about your little he-she thing you got going on"

“What we're trying to say is you hang with the nerds a lot and there are certain social rules at this school, you can't hang with the nerds and be a jock it just doesn't work." Finn walked closer to Lexa looking her up and down still smirking “You’re hot, really hot I mean, maybe if you weren’t a dude down there I’d consider showing you a good time, if you know what I mean.” they all laughed again “And the ladies love you." he continued "So you could be a jock but something tells me you don't like us very much-"

“Get to the fucking point already.” she growled. 

“If you're gonna be a nerd that's the only fucking thing you're going to be." he growled right back. 

Lexa didn’t know what to do part of her just wanted to get angry and let loose on these morons but the more rational side of her knew she wasn't a fucking trained warrior and couldn't take on all of them, before she had a chance to pick between walking away or fighting another voice came into play.

"I'm trying out for the football team but I'm also on the debate team, same rules apply for me?" Lexa knew that voice clenching her jaw she turned around to see Oliver hovering behind her like a damn bodyguard, glaring at him she saw a silent message in his eyes begging her to not jump down his throat until this situation was solved. 

“Yep same goes for you, foreign dude.” Finn said taking a step back. 

“Okay." Lexa blurted out, all eyes turned to her. 

She just really didn’t want any trouble, felt like she was in Moronland with the amount of jackasses surrounding her right now and really just wanted to make it to Clarke in one piece. 

So with that she turned on her heel pushing passed Oliver and walked off to get her stuff from the field, hearing fast footsteps approaching behind her she already knew who it was.

"What the hell was that?" Oliver growled walking next to Lexa who lost it for a second, swinging her body around so she was facing Oliver she shoved him so hard he fell on the ground. 

"What the hell was that?! More like what the hell were you doing, I told you to stay the fuck away from me!" she screamed breathing hard.

"It looked like you needed help!" he shouted jumping up from off the ground quickly. 

Getting in his face Lexa shoved him again “I don't ,nor will I ever, need your fucking help you dickweed! And trying out? Really?! Do you even know how to play football??"

He got in her face "Stop pushing me and stop being a bitch for no reason!" they were so close to eachother there noises were practically touching, both almost hyperventilating with anger.

"For no reason?! I’ve had it to here!-" she emphasized her point by stretching her arm up the highest it could go "With the kids in this school, there's bullying, bullshit social standards, and a bunch of fucking pigheaded assholes constantly around me! And I'm so done! I came here for school not 90210 the fucking remake!" she screamed pushing his head with hers before storming off.

He followed “I was trying to help.” he said more calm and genuine. 

Reaching the bleachers Lexa gathered her stuff ignoring the tryouts that was taking place "In case you haven't noticed, we're not friends and I don't like you. Don’t follow me.” and with that she left, leaving Oliver confused and irritated.

Walking to the parking lot Lexa couldn’t seem to get her anger back in check so she just paced and kept pacing with the occasional kick to the bins or lamppost until it left her body. Calming down Lexa sat on the curb not knowing what to do now.

The brunette had no idea how long she was sitting there for but suddenly someone plopped down next to her causing her to jump a little since she was too spaced out to hear or notice anyone approaching her, turning around however a smile formed on her lips immediately she felt like everything that made her angry in the last 2 to 3 months just dissolved into nothing.

Clarke. Clarke and her big blue eyes were staring into Lexa’s soul and felt like she couldn't breathe.

“Hi.” she breathed out. 

“Hi." Clarke said smiling ever so slightly taking Lexa's shaking hands in her own sensing something off about the brunette "What's wrong?"

"Right now, not a goddamn thing." Lexa said staring at their joined hands. 

Clarke smiled knowing something was wrong but clearly the brunette didn't want to talk about it so she didn't push, looking around he furrowed her brows "Where's your car?"

Lexa groaned remembering the fact that she didn’t have it “Lincoln stole it, I'm so sorry I know I was meant to take you home." she said gently squeezing Clarke's hand.

The blonde just sat there smiling before standing up and pulling Lexa up with her "It's a nice day huh care for a walk? We could go through the park.”  

Lexa didn’t have to be asked twice nodding enthusiastically "I'd walk through anywhere with you." she blurted out before blushing as her and Clarke started walking still holding hands.

Clarke giggled "Even hell?" she joked. 

“Especially hell." Lexa scoffed “You’d need protection." she said firmly but the blonde found it cute.

“You say that now but you haven't seen hell."

“No I haven't, but I've seen you."

Chapter Text

The rest of the week went by fairly quickly until it was nearing the weekend again, it was time for Clarke and lexas date, they were both nervous but trying not to let it show when they were around eachother.

It was currently 2nd period witch lexa decided to skip in favour of studying for a mock test they had forth period, that she had no clue about until like an hour ago. As she wasn't really a studying kind of person the carpet on the floor was proving to be a very bad distraction, just when she sighed from frustration, the libary door came bursting open followed by raven.

lips automatically curled into a small smile as the latina approached her

"Hey" she greeted

Raven only stuck her tongue out playfully a smirk playing on her lips as she plopped down in the chair next to lexa dropping her thick physics books on the table, she opened one of them up as well as a notepad and got to studying without a word . Lexa just looked at her for a minuite before she also continued studying .

A few minuits had went by in; for some reason uncomfortable silence, lexa didn't know why the atmosphere felt so tense so she just carried on working.

"So-" raven started out of the blue "You and Clarke huh"

Lexa furrowed her brows as she stared down at her text book "Yeah...?". She trailed off confused

"You're going on a date right ?"

Lexa nodded

"That's great news, I thought I'd never happen" she deadpanned

Lexa looked over to raven who wasn't looking at her but at the table"That didn't really sound sincere" she pointed out

"Yeah well it wasn't " was all raven said , lexas eyebrows shot up in the air before she could say anything though anya entered the libary approaching the two .

"Hey lex"

"Sup?" Lexa replied barely looking away from raven as she was still baffled

"Mrs Monty is looking for you"

At that lexa looked to anya "Mrs Monty? You know that's not her secound name right? Just because it's montys mom-"

"Lexa," anya cut her off "who cares, just scram" she said rolling her eyes

Lexa flipped her off but got up nonetheless , collecting her things she looked to raven "do you need a ride home later ?"

Raven shook her head

"Well I'm giving you a ride anyway, wait for me at the car" and with that she left

Anya looked down to raven who she hasn't heard say a word yet, she sat down next to the girl, " You good?" She asked

Raven snorted "oh yeah, so good"

Raven was lying, this week she's been feeling incredibly alone, lexas been hanging around with Clarke majority of the time, her moms been working herself sick quite literally and she's only been able to hang out with Octavia once, even Monty and jasper are doing there own thing and it just feels like she's become invisible .

"Your gonna think yourself into a frenzy at this rate ." Anya said looking raven over carefully , something seemed wrong with the brunette so she wanted to get her talking.

Raven didn't say anything .

She tried again "you know half this stuff You're looking at in that textbook literally looks like flat out gibberish to me" She quipped looking into ravens book

Raven just shook her head a smile growing on her lips but didn't say anything.

Anya let out a sigh while she looked around the libary , when an interesting thought popped in her head, a cunning smile donned her face as she looked to raven

"Hey I noticed something , we've never actually hanged out just the two of us outside of school."

At that raven put her pencil down and looked to anya "No we haven't."

Anya shrugged smiling slightly "So maybe we should this Saturday"

"We should ?"

"Yeah I mean it's only right that we hang out seeing as we're both so close to lexa"

Raven raised a brow "Shouldn't you be proposing this offer to Clarke ?"

Anya shrugged again 'between you and me" She said signalling for raven to come closer, which she did. "Clarke's got nothing on you' she whispered in ravens ear

The latina couldn't help the smile that snuck on her face 'oh really, what's that supposed to mean?"

Anya shook her head laughing slightly "Nope that's all your getting out of me, so what do you say?"

"What about bellamy? Aren't you two hanging out this weekend, he is your boyfriend after all."

"We were but the asshole cancelled on me, said something important came up so screw him for now"

Raven nodded "Then sure why the hell not"
"Guess we're going on a playdate"

Finn and his friends were sitting at their table at lunch goofing around, doing the usual Finn however was oddly quite deciding to just watch his friends be assholes instead of being the ring leader for once.

when atom mentioned something that got his attention he sat up a little in his chair and listened.

"So you think I can do a little thing with raven ? " some guy called Chase said out of the blue

"Raven? Reyes ?" Atom asked laughing uncontrollably when Chase nodded "That's Finns ex so if you're into his leftovers" he joked

"Hey she's not anyone's leftovers" Finn defended weakily

"Whatever man Clarke and raven broke up so the chicks having like a quarter life crisis or some shit"

"Even better for me" Chase spoke causing all of them to laugh

Finn rolled his eyes , looking away he noticed raven walking through the cafateria , for some reason he felt the urge to go and talk to her so he did . Getting up without a word his feet carried him to raven, as he aprroached her he saw the brunette notice him coming straight towards her,

"Hey" he said casually

Ravens eyebrows shot up almost immediately at that, he shook his head at the way the Latina looked around as if he couldn't possibly be talking to her .

"I'm sorry, are you speaking to me ?" She asked pointing to herself , Finn just smiled nodding his head .

"Oh wow this is awkward" she drawled out sarcastically

"How?"

"Because I don't know what it is I'm doing today that could possibly make you think you can ever ever address me at any point in your miserable and hopefully loveless life ?" Raven pondered pretending to act genuinely confused .

"Ouch" Finn chuckled

Raven furrowed her brows at the boy making a face of disgust "Bye" she deadpanned before turning to walk away

Finn didn't try to stop her, instead he just watched her walk away, he couldn't help furrowing his brows to as he wondered why that encounter even happened.

Raven walked away confused and slightly irrateted that Finn had the nerve to even approach her, let alone try to conversate with her.

"Yo raven" jasper yelled out

Raven turned to see jasper yelling from the table the rest of the group was at, she even saw Clarke there, but no lexa.

As she approached the table Octavia squealed getting up and hugging her, she rolled her eyes but hugged back .

"I missed you so much this pass week , where the hell have you been all day?" Octavia demanded as she stepped back

"I've been around, just been a little low-key today," raven furrowed her brows "I'm actually starting to think I should've stayed lowkey."

"Whys that?" Octavia asked, by this point they were having their own private conversation as was everyone else at the table, Clarke on the other hand was just eating.

"Well none other than Finn the disease thought he could just talk to me today"

Octavia eyebrows shot up in suprise "no fucking way!"

Raven nodded "Way bitch, way."

Clarke's ears perked up at the mention of Finns name, she wasn't ear dropping or anything the conversation was just in audible distance for her.

Getting up she stepped beside the two girls who looked at her weirdly not understanding what she was doing .

"I couldn't help but over hear that you spoke to Finn ?" Clarke asked brows knitted

Raven narrowed her eyes "Ear dropping Clarke?"

"No, like I said I just overheard"

Octavia didn't intervein feeling like there was no need too, so she just let the girls talk and see how this awkward conversation turns out.

"We exchanged a few very very brief words, yes" is all raven gave her .

Clarke nodded her head "oh okay, did he uh- you know, did he mention me at all or..? Clarke asked awkwardly

"The fuck" Octavia whispered looking at Clarke in confusion

Raven on the other hand took the more ...defensive root. "Why the hell are you asking me that? Furthermore why the hell do you care?"

Clarke rolled her eyes, she should've just kept her mouth shut.

"Raven it's not even like that."

"What's not even like that?" The three girls turned to see lexa standing behind raven. The Latina smirked grabbing lexa by the arm and pulling her closer to the conversation .

"Why don't you ask clarkey here, I'm just as confused as you are right now," raven rambled "everyone seems to be doing the most outrageous shit today."

Clarke rolled her eyes while subtly eyeing ravens hand that was still touching lexa, who seemed to catch on and gently removed her hand from ravens grip.

"Look," lexa said holding her hands up "I don't know what's going on here and to be honest I'm not sure I want to know, I just came to say hello." She explained

Octavia shook her head "Backing out now lexa?"

Lexa furrowed her brows "what's that supposed to even mean" the shorter brunette just shrugged

"Hey lexa Finn spoke to me today." Raven blurted out

That immediately caught lexas attention "What did he want? Did he say anything out of line? I swear-"

"Clarke asked me if he said anything about her" Raven blurted out

"Really?" Lexa asked looking at Clarke, the blonde clenched her jaw.

"It was nothing I just wanted to know what the asshole was saying, same as you." She then turned to raven, instant anger took over, she couldn't contain it, raven was pushing the wrong buttons today.

"Are you serious ?? Why can't you ever just keep your mouth shut!?" She yelled drawing the attention of the rest of the table who watched confused.

The Latina shrugged "If what you asked was innocent why do you care if I told her"

"Because people have a thing called feelings raven, what you say affects people! actually I shouldn't expect someone as cold and heartless as you to undersand what that means."

Octavia tried to intervein but was cut off by raven, the Latina narrowed her eyes "oh really, well maybe not having feelings isn't so bad since you have enough for the both of us, I mean who's the love of your life this week Clarke?? Principal jaha?? I heard he smiled at you yesterday"

Clarke smiled "That's rich coming from you raven, you don't even want me to take it there"

Raven laughed out loud " This coming from you? The fucked up version of snow white and the seven dwarfs?" She sneered with a smirk

Octavia gasped, while Clarke mouth fell open, lexa just looked on in shock.

"I can not believe you just said that" Clarke said in a low voice

Raven shrugged

"You wanna go there?" Clarke asked moving closer to the brunette

"Go there"

"This is typical, you the sad miserable bitch who gets off on other peoples pain because some how it makes you feel like your life isn't as fucked up as it seems!" Drawing attention from beyond the group, "well news flash raven, it is!"

No one else saw it but lexa could see the hurt wash acroos ravens face, for a split second she was visibly upset before controlling her features and smiling "Wow... Is that all you got princess?" Raven said smirking.

"Fuck you, raven" the blonde sneered

"Yeah well Fuck you too"

"Okay that's enough", said Octavia stepping in between the two "You guys are supposed to be best friends, you may not be on the best of terms right now but you two are some serious dummies if you think it'll last" Octavia said looking at both of them in dissapointnent; raven rolled her eyes while Clarke looked away, "and when that does happen, you'll regret everything you just said to each other-," before Octavia could finish raven just walked off without a word, everyone watched her go and just turned back to Clarke who started collecting her things from the lunch table.

Just like that everyone lost interest and went back about their daily commute.
Lexa looked at Clarke and sighed while Octavia shook her head and then looked to lexa, "I'm gonna go see if Ravens okay" she said before leaving the cafatetia.

"You okay?" Less approached Clarke

"Never been better actually, I dodged a bullet with a shitty friend"

Lexa shook her head "you don't mean that"

"I do" Clarke retorted

"I honestly just feel like you should both stay away from each other for now, let the other heal and get over shit, so that when you do talk there's no bad vibes or in this case explosive arguments" lexa was getting Fed up of this nonsense, and felt a little guilty, thinking none of this would be happening if she didn't appear in the picture.

"Thanks doctor Phill" Clarke said smirking, lexa rolled her eyes.

"Alright let's get to class smartass"

When the bell rang signalling the end of school Clarke quickly left class making a beeline for the locker rooms, she was determined to dig her claws into a certain someone.

Standing outside the boys locker room, no more than 5 minutes later she saw just who she was looking for walking down the hall with atom; they were laughing about something Clarke couldn't make out until they got closer and finn caught sight of her, his face fell into one of confusion.

"We need to talk" Clarke said when he was in ear shot, she looked over at Atom then back at finn.

The boy eventually caught on, "I'll see you on the field" he said giving finn a fist pump before disappearing into the locker room

Clarke signalled for Finn to follow her, she opened the door to the coaches office as it was unlocked and looked around before walking in, Finn not far behind.

"Well this is a surprise, not that I'm complaining" he said when he shut the door. Clarke just looked at him.

"Whats this about princess?" He asked folding his arms across his chess

"You know what," she said finally "I heard you spoke to Raven today"

He nodded "Sure, if you couid even call it that. So what ?" He said smirking

"Finn. I'm not the one" Clarke warned

He shook his head chuckling "Don't worry Princess, your secrets safe with me" he stepped closer to her "You know I've always found it funny how no one really knows you"

"What are you talking about"

"You know" finn stepped closer "Everyone thinks yours this innocent good girl who could do no wrong and maybe one day even save the world" he waved his arms in the air laughing, he came to a stop right in front of Clarke who hadn't taken her eyes off him.

"But I know the real you Clarke, the cunning you, in fact I like it." He laughed when Clarke shoved him out of her way before walking to the door, she stopped to look at him,

"Stay away from me and stay the fuck away from Raven," she snarled

"You can't tell me to stay away from Raven I care about her, all you do day after day Is lie to her face, and you do it so easily yet I'm the bad guy?!" He yelled getting angry

Ckarke put her hand up signalling for Finn to shut up "Keep your voice down stupid we're not supposed to be in here. Also don't you dare talk to me about lying and don't dare make this a competition of who cares about Raven more because you'll loose every damn time" she was fed up of Finn interfering in their lives at this point.

They both could hear coach yelling at someone from down the hall, no more words were said as they scurried out of the office before he could see them. Clarke went the opposite way to the exit of the school, she was getting a ride home from Octavia as Raven was getting a ride home from Lexa, it bothered her how close they still were but right now Finn was her biggest problem.

Chapter Text

It was Saturday evening, Lexa was home alone; her parents went to some lame bingo night at the community centre and Lincoln was out with Octavia.

She spent the minutes waiting for Clarkes text to pick her up; sitting on her bed trying to find a steady heartbeat so her heart doesn't give out on her the moment she lays eyes on Clarke, she might've also been thinking about how to apologize.

She was feeling kind of guilty about not intervening when Clarke and Raven were arguing, she should've said something, took one of them away from the situation do anything but stand there in silence. Truthfully she just felt like it wasn't her place to get involved, they were best friends long before she came along.

And if things weren't awkward before they definitely are about to get a whole lot worse. Lexa sighed pinching the bridge of her noes, she had to do something, the way things are going right now was only going to get worse, more explosive, a bigger rift to fix; she could go on. Something had to give.

Mid thought her phone dings she checks it half way down the stairs expecting it to be Clarke but what she got was a message from Raven, clicking on it to find a picture of her and Anya grinning at the camera, laughing she came off the chat and ventures into the kitchen, just as she gets a bottle of water from the fridge the door knocks; walking over and opening it she sees Clarke looking as stunning as ever.

"Hey" she breathes out seemingly in a trance as she admires the blondes beauty.

"Hey yourself" Clarke replied with a smirk "ready to go?" She asks

"Of course" she replies grabbing her jacket and following Clarke out. "I thought me being the person with the vehicle was picking you up?

Clarke shrugged "I wanted to surprise you"

"Mission accomplished" Lexa smirked

"Can you drive?" Lexa asks as they approached her car

"Define drive" Clarke joked

"Oh my God" Lexa laughed

"I'm kidding, I'm kidding" Clarke said as she laughed along with the brunette, Lexa shook her head still laughing "sure sure" she said sarcastically.

They reached the car and came to a stop "No seriously though I can drive but I failed my test a few months ago..." The blonde trailed off,

"I wonder why" Lexa narrowed her eyes, a smile forming on her lips

"A parking test gone wrong, apparently you can't yell profanities at people in you're way" Clarke shrugged

The brunette burst out laughing unable to contain it "who's in the way in a parking space?' Lexa asked, still laughing.

Clarke chuckled shaking her head "okay so I might've hit the curb a little bit" she admitted causing Lexa to laugh more.

"Okay" she said taking a deep breath to stop laughing "you can drive with a licensed driver riding passenger right?' Lexa went into her pocket and took out her keys handing them to Clarke who took it cautiously.

"I'm pretty sure by licensed driver they don't mean you" Clarke stated jokingly

Lexa laughed "Just try not to kill us"

The brunette briefed Clarke on a few minor things about the car before she took off driving. They made a quick pit stop at Clarke's house so the blonde could get her ID just In case. Lexa followed Clarke out of the car and watched as she jogged inside, less than 2 minutes later the blonde came jogging back out with a grin.

As Clarke made a move to open the car door Lexa softly held her hands, the blonde glanced at her with a smile but when she saw a look of seriousness on the brunettes face all of a sudden her face morphed to concern.

Lexa cautiously pulled Clarke closer to her with no protest from the blonde "Before we go I just wanted to apolagize for yesterday. I shouldn't have allowed Raven to say those things to yo-"

"Just stop right there" Clarke cut her off mid sentence "You didn't allow Raven to do anything, we said those things to each other." She stated

"I know that you both said some harsh things to each other but I thought you might be wondering why I didn't intervene at all."

Clarke stepped closer to Lexa closing the little distance there was so they were just an inch apart "I know you feel bad but you shouldn't, okay?" Clarke said her eyes flicking down to Lexas lips far too often.

The brunette could feel Clarke breath on her lips, it was a spine tingling sensation. She closed her eyes and nodded, leaning in, just as their lips were about to meet they hear Clarkes front door open aggressively jolting them apart.

Abby stepped out "There is no smooching allowed. By teenagers. On this lawn." Abby stated with a pause in each sentence to make sure they understood.

Clarke furrowed her brows in frustration while Lexa did it in confusion "Did Abby just say smooching?" Lexa mumbled tilting her head slightly.

"Mom!" Clarke yelled "were you watching us?" She asked, eyebrows raised in disbelief "Unbelievable, I can't get one moment of privacy while still in vicinity of this house." The irritated blonde complained."

Abby rolled her eyes.

Lexa opened her mouth feeling as if necessary to add her two cents into the conversation but Abby was quicker interrupting whatever the brunette had planned to say.

"Lexa if you want to take my daughter out tonight I'd suggest you rethink talking"

Lexa couldn't help but smile a little, she should probably feel insulted but she's oddly grown to like the older Griffin.

She put her hands up in surrender just as Clarke groaned in annoyance.

"Mom!"

Abby rolled her eyes at her daughter's dramatics once again "The both of you please Leave and please be safe and return later in one piece, thank you" and with that she went back in the house and shut the door with a thud.

They stood there for a second just staring at the door. Claire groaned while Lexa began to chuckle.

"You know, I think she's starting to warm up to me a little" Lexa stated smiling slightly

Clarke snorted "oh yeah, what gave you that idea?"

Lexa shrugged "She's getting nicer at telling me to shut up"

Clarke laughed out loud "Okay let's go please." Clarke said opening the car door. Lexa got in the passenger seat while Clarke got behind the wheel. The both of them put their seatbelts on before Clarke began driving.

"So where are we going anyway?" Lexa asked looking out the window again.

"I can't tell you that"

Lexa looked at her with knitted brows "Why not?" She asked confused

Clarke shrugged "I don't know, isn't there like some unspoken rule that I suprise you on our first date?" The blonde said more like a question than a statement.

"I-You" she stuttered out before shaking her head and chuckling "Are you going to tell me or not?

Clarke laughed "Nope"

Lexa smiled "okay then" It felt good being with Clarke like this, there was something about the blonde that sparked a change in her whenever they were together, she definitely liked it. It was different.

She's been on a few dates in her short life but she's never been this excited to spend time with someone that she actually sees on a daily basis. It was all really weird for her but certainly not an unwelcome feeling.

The bell dinged as the door to the small pizza place opened once again. Anya sat at a small booth in the corner waiting for raven to return from the restroom. She sighed thinking about how she hasn't even heard from Bellamy today at all, not that she wasn't having fun out with Raven but it was being a slight downer on her mood. Suddenly Raven plopped back down In the booth.

"You alright there" the brunette said eyeing the girl opposite her, she seemed off all of a sudden.

Anya nodded "yeah I'm good" she stated "This pizza needs to be here like yesterday though" she jokingly looked around for someone who worked there, causing the brunette opposite her to laugh.

"I see I'm not the only one starving, thanks for that" Raven said with a smile

Anya nodded her head "No problem, always good to know you're not gonna die alone" she joked

They both laughed taking sips of their milkshakes. A few seconds of comfortable silence went by before Raven spoke again.

"Have you heard from Lexa at all?"

"No, but she should be on her date by now so I guess she's busy" Anya looked up at Raven, something was off. "Hey is everything okay?"

"Yeah"

She was lying everything was not good, she had 5 missed calls from her mom and then when she went to the bathroom and called her back there was no answer. Not that it's irrational for her to be worried but she needs to stay calm and trust that her mom is okay and just wants to bug her about something silly.

Clarke drove for another 40 minutes, as they were in a relatively small rural town they passed the woods and long dimly light roads on the way.

The long car ride consisted of talking, laughing, listening to music, stopping for gas and buying a load of snacks to eat. By the time they reached their destination they were cackling while talking about something stupid. Clarke pulled up to a big open area where there was a massive projector in the middle with cars and people all around.

"No way are we at a drive thru movie right now" Lexa said following Clarke as she got out of the car, the blonde shrugged with a shy smile as they begun a slow walk.

"I mean this is a really small town Lex, this is one of the few things around here to do for actual fun." She explained, did Lexa not like it? She thought it was a perfect idea, not the usual movie cliche but maybe she was wrong.

"Hey" Lexa stopped Clarke walking when she saw the look of disappointment cross her face, "This is great, I've never been here before its 'really cool."

Clarke shook her head "you're just saying that to make me feel better."

Lexa smirked "is it working?" Clarke chuckled "I'm kidding, this is great really, especially the fact that I'm with you" they smiled at each other before Lexa put her arm around Clarkes shoulder as they continued walking.

They walked to a cart that seemed to be selling items for the movie. Picking up two blankets and two small cushions; Lexa insisting to pay with the excuse that Clarke paid for the tickets.

They made small talk as they made their way back to lexas car, driving it out on the field a little closer to the projector, their weren't a lot of people there, maybe about ten, so they chose a spot they wanted and got out the car laying the blanket and the pillows on the hood of the car.

Clarke checked the time "Movie doesn't start for another 20 minutes or so" She announced.

A mischievous smile slid on to the brunettes face "wanna do something spontaneous?"

"Depends, how spontaneous we talking?"

Lexa went back in her car signalling for Clarke to follow her, she lift up the drivers seat pulling out a bag...of weed.

"No way" Clarke said straight away "I don't even like you doing it, what makes you think I will?" She asked before realising that she might sound really lame right now, I mean there was no harm in having a little spontaneous fun. Plus she was with lexa, in safe hands.

Lexa shrugged "You don't have to, it was just an idea. I thought I'd be fun." She began to put it away again when Clarke grabbed her wrist halting her movements, she looked at the blonde who had a smirk on her face.

"Fuck it"

A few minutes later they found a spot in the woods nearby, both sitting on a fallen log.

"Is this your first time?" Less asked sparking the blunt, after a seconds thought "Smoking...that is" she added

Clarke laughed at her goofiness "With friends like Monty and jasper how could it be" she answered taking the offered smoke from Lexas hand "One time before this" she then took the first drag holding it in for all of 2 seconds before she saw the stupid face Lexa was pulling at her,

All at once the blonde laughed out the smoke then fell into an immediate coughing fit, Lexa got worried right away and handed Clarke the water she bought and rubbed her back.

Clarke took the water and downed half the bottle, lexa looked on shocked which caused the blonde to start laughing again

The brunette shook her head with a slight smile "Are you okay? Maybe I shouldn't have done that"

"No its okay, it was funny. I'm fine"

20 minutes later they were walking out of the woods and back towards the main area. Lexa was having a hard time breathing with how hilarious Clarke was being the entire journey back. She remembers hearing a few whispers around school about Clarke being a stuck up Princess when she first started getting to know the blonde, but being with her like this, where she's able to let loose and enjoy herself; not to mention all the laughs they've had carpooling to school together, everyone couldn't be further away from the truth.

Once they got back the movie was already starting, both getting comfy on the hood of Lexas car with snacks all around them as they cracked jokes the whole way through the movie.

"Can I just say" Clarke said suddenly, they were almost at the end of the movie, somehow transitioning into a cuddling position with Clarke laying her head on Lexas chest, "Please don't think this will be a regular thing, I don't Smoke and don't really like being around people who are high off their faces, it feels like there's a disconnection. I only did this because I wanted to have fun with you tonight." The blonde explained.

Lexa nodded not sure where this was going "That's fine with me." Was all she replied hoping that would be enough, and it really was fine with her, she didn't expect Clarke to do anything just because she was doing it.

"Have you ever thought about stopping?"

Lexa looked over at Clarke who was looking at the Movie playing right ahead "uh sure I guess, I mean I could if I wanted to"

"But you don't want to?" Clarke wasn't trying to sound like she had an issue with the amount of smoking the brunette did but let's be honest, she may have a small tiny issue with it.

"No, I like it. I'll stop when and if I want to." Lexa explained simply

"Fair enough" And just like that Clarke dropped the subject.

A few moments went by in silence before Clarke turned to look at Lexa once realised she felt eyes on the side of her face. What was funny was the fact that even though she had caught the brunette staring the other girl still didn't look away, instead opting to send a sweet smile in Clarkes direction.

"You're staring" she stated returning the smile

Less shrugged "I'm not even sorry, you're gorgeous you know that Clarke?" Clarke ducked her head, a blush creeping under rosey cheeks.

"This is probably really random but can I kiss you?" Lexa asked staring at cherry red lips.

Clarke nodded repeatedly already leaning forward. Words were something she couldn't comprehend In that moment. All she knew was that her lips were moving against lexas and it was better than she ever imagined.

It was soft, like If she kissed her too hard she would break kind of soft. It was weird considering she was kissing Lexa of all people and calling it soft but when the brunette put her hand on Clarke's cheek in a gentle caress she was certain Lexa had never kissed anyone this way before.

In that moment the brunette pulled away slightly, staying close enough so that their lips were brushing and their foreheads connected.

"Clarke" she whispered "I-I've never liked anyone the way I like you" And that was it, the brunette didn't know what else to say that could convey her feelings deeply with words, so she kept it simple and said exactly what she felt.

"I feel the same way" Clarke breathed out, before losing control and crashing their lips back together in a more needy kiss.

That made her want for Lexa increase even more, she felt a possessive feeling creep up at the thought of this kiss by lexa being reserved for her and no one else, at the thought of making her feel things she's never felt before. She couldn't help herself when things started getting heated and she slipped her tongue into the kiss with a moan, nor could she control herself when one leg went over lexas hip; straddling the brunette, she definitely couldn't control the fact that Lexas phone had just rang for the third time since they'd been kissing. How long were they kissing?

Breaking an inch apart the both took deep breathes, Clarke still straddling the brunette. "Are you gonna answer it?" She asked.

Lexa shook her head staring deep into ocean irises, her fingers running gently up and down the blondes back. "Hell no" she breathed before leaning in again causing Clarke to laugh and gently push her back "As much as I like that idea it's rang a few times, could be important"

Lexa shook her head repeatedly "Nothing could be more important than what's happening right now in this very moment" and she meant that, she'd imagined kissing Clarke a few times but nothing came close to the reality of it, nothing and no one could compare.

Clarke leaned forward and placed a soft peck to the lips below her, "Answer it"

Lexa nodded frantically as she chased Clarke's lips causing the blonde to chuckle with an eye roll.

Picking up her phone and unlocking it she saw that there were in total 6 missed calls within the last 10 minutes from Raven. She furrowed her brows before deciding to Switch her phone off completely. She felt herself getting a little irrationally angry at Raven who just always seemed to ruin her chances with Clarke. Not this time. This time she wasn't going to let Raven interfere in her moment with Clarke.

Putting her phone back down she looked up at Clarke who was staring down at her with questioning eyes, "Is everything okay, who was it?" The blonde asked

Lexa smiled circling her arms around Clarke's waist "It was nobody important" she reassured before leaning in again.

'Either I'm busy or not interested, call back some other tim-'

She cut the call off before the voice mail played out again. Biting the inside of her cheeks she closed her eyes tightly before taking a deep shaky breath.

She wasn't going to answer, that much was evident after the 4th attempt at calling her but for some stupid reason she kept calling almost dependent on Lexa answering, and rushing to her after she explained what happened, comforting her, reassuring her. But it wasn't going to happen.

During dinner with Anya she excused herself one more time to try and get through to her mom again, when she called a man had picked up the phone, he sounded out of breath and aggressive, he told her Bella was busy and hung up without waiting for a response, when she called back almost immediately after the phone had been switched off completely.

She knew what what happening. She's experienced it enough times in her life, it had just been a while and she thought things were different, her Mom had a legitimate job at the shitty diner, making shitty money, but it was something and now it was just nothing again.

A majority of her childhood up until junior year her mom did some things for money, things she wasn't proud to admit to people, the type of shit that causes men who you've never seen before in your life to approach you about your mother and when She's back on 'shift' or if you've decided to join the family business.

It was the type of shit that could really mess a kids head up, make them know about things no kid has any business knowing at all.

She wanted to go home, but she knew that was a bad idea so going back out to Anya with tears pooling her eyes she told her there was a family emergency and she had to go before rushing out the door.

Anya didn't deserve that, she deserved a proper explanation but that just wasn't possible at the time. Now here she is nearly empty beer bottle in hand, sitting on some run down bench that smells like it's the home to a bunch of drunk hobos, crying and desperate. She didn't know if she was desperate for Lexa or just somebody, anybody.

Looking to her left at the sound of loud laughing she noticed a group of people walking, there was a girl that looked really familiar to her, as if she'd seen her somewhere significant; maybe school? Without thinking too much she got up and her legs carried her over to the group.

"Hey!" She called to get their attention as they walked in front of her "Yo" she yelled louder when they didn't acknowledge her.

The group of four, 3 boys and a girl; turned to face her with confused faces, the girls confusion was accompanied by a small smirk and a head tilt "Hey yourself" she said looking Raven up and down before a looked washed across her face "wait don't I know you?"

Raven shrugged

The girl clicked her fingers all of a sudden "Yeah I know you" she blurted moving closer causing the boys to move closer too, Raven stepped back slightly mentally kicking herself for not really thinking this through properly, these people could be anybody, thanks to her mom she is quite known around the neighbourhood.

"Don't be spooked now, you approached us" one of the boys from behind the other brunette spoke after he noticed Raven moving away from them. And he was big, dangerously big.

"Stop" the smirking girl said "You're scaring her"

"I don't get scared" Raven sassed even though she was on edge.

All four of them started laughing "nice to know," the girl said "You're that bird" she stated confidently "Raven is it?"

"Depends who's asking"

"Ontari" the girl said " I recognize you as Lexas friend"

At that Raven subtly sighed in relief, nodding slightly while she relaxed.

"Weed girl" Raven deadpanned

Ontari burst out laughing nodding her head "Sure. You okay?, look like you've been crying"

"Do you even care?"

Ontari shrugged "I care if you want me to care"

"I don't. I don't Want you to care." Raven wiped away stray tears.

"Then I don't give a shit." She chuckled when she saw Raven laugh. "Why are you sitting on that hobo bench? It smells like piss and bad b.o" that made Raven laugh louder.

"It does smell really bad. What are you guys doing?"

"Going to a place"

"Just a place?"

"Just a place." Ontari confirmed

"What are you going to do at this 'place'?" Raven had a feeling she knew exactly what this place was and what they were going to do there.

Ontari smirked "oh you know-" she started tapping the side of her nose "Relax a little. Wanna come?" She offered

Raven didn't even need to think it through "Yes"

"Will lexa be cool with you going to a 'place' like where we're headed? Seemed like you were really close at the party"

Raven shook her head "We're not that close. Lets go"

Chapter Text

"Oh come on Clarke, give me a break!" Lexa exasperated, Clarke just rolled her eyes. 

"You don't get breaks in the real thing Lexa, no take backs." She warned

Lexa narrowed her eyes "Actually, I think you can get a do over." 

"Yeah. When you're like 40 with 5 kids and nothing else to do with you're life. Don't you want to dream big?" She asked looking at the brunette "Don't you want to have time to dream at all?" That was always something Clarke dreaded, running out of time and realising that you haven't actually done anything meaningful. 

"Of course I do. I'd give an arm and a leg to be remembered way after I'm gone..." Lexa trailed off. 

Clarke looked at her "Is that what you want? Is that what you dream about? Being remembered, leaving your mark?" 

Lexa shrugged "I kind of just see it as not being forgotten, not being left behind, you know?" 

"Yeah, I get you" she smiled sweetly

Lexa returned the smile "Sometimes I think you're the only person that does." It was true, She's never met anyone like Clarke, someone who just understands her, all of her. 

Clarke smiled wider, eyes shining. 

"What do you dream about?" Lexa asked

Clarke took a minute to think. "Freedom." 

"How so?" 

"Being able to live in compete control. Which means being fee of certain emotions like fear. I think fear consumes us, I think it holds us back, stops our full potential. I dream of being so free that fear no longer matters, I can do whatever I want, whatever I've always wanted." Clarke got lost somewhere between her sentence, her imagination running wild, when she fades back to reality Lexa is just staring at her. 

"Well this conversation got heavy" Lexa sighed out, Clarke chuckled. 

"Tell me about it. You're supposed to be doing the test Lexa, there's a time limit." Clarke scolded playfully. 

They were at Lexas house on a Sunday evening, they had a big English exam coming up and Lexa had no choice but to study and study hard, failing really wasn't an option. Especially considering how much she's already been slacking in school. Senior year couldn't end without her graduating, no way. 

Clarke volunteered to tutor her so that's more or less what they've been doing all weekend. Studying. 

Lexas not quite sure how and why the conversation got so deep just then but that is honestly one of the reasons she loves being around Clarke, she can always say whatever is on her mind no matter how unrelated or random it is. Clarke always listens. Always knows exactly what to say. 

She doesn't feel embarrassed when she openes up to Clarke, the blonde is always encouraging her to talk more, communicate more, she learnt alot from Clarke. 

Her thoughts trailed to Raven briefly, funny enough raven understood her too, but it was different, she always had to be strong in front of Raven; for Raven, she was her anchor. Lexa didn't actually know what having an anchor felt like, not until she met Clarke. She didn't always have to be tough in front of Clarke and ironically those were the moments she felt the most powerful, being able to be vulnerable and rely on someone else's strength isn't easy for her, but Clarke was strong, strong enough for the both of them.

Suddenly Lexas bedroom door burst open revealing her 6 foot 6 tank of a Father. Clarke had met Gustus a few times before in passing, and by meet she means smile awkwardly at him as he completely ignores her existence. When she first 'met' him Clarke thought Lexa and her father seemed like polar opposites, until she started spending more time with Lexa, she realised thats the side of her that no one knows, the side she wanted to bury, all the bad parts of herself she thinks stem from her father, most of the time she's specifically doing what she knows he wouldn't. 

"Jesus Gustus, would it kill you to knock?" Lexa complained 

"I don't knock doors in my house Lexa. It's my house." He responded nonchalant.

"Maybe consider living alone? Then you can just rip all the doors of the hinges, sound good?" She stared at him. He stared at her. Clarke could feel the animosity suffocating them in the room thay seemed to be getting smaller by the second. 

Finally Gustus broke the silence "Indra and I have a dinner date-" he started but Lexa interrupted him. 

"Hey Gustus, can you acknowledge my girlfriend please? Can you do that?" Clarke could tell she was irritated, she noticed a while back that Lexa doesn't blink when she's really mad, she also has a habit to clench her jaw really hard when she's trying to calm down, Clarke can actually hear her teeth clamping together most of the time, she worries about them, her teeth are perfect. 

She was just going to ignore the fact that Lexa just referred to her as Girlfriend for the first time, and to her dad no less. Now probably wasn't the time to ask questions, so she would just sit and silently turn red with blush, maybe no one will notice the sudden human sized tomato in the room.

Gustus chuckles "Girlfriend? You get a new one every month, why would I waste my time?" He glanced in Clarke's direction briefly "No offence" at least that actually sounded genuine.

Clarke was surprised, from what she's gathered he's usually a bit of an asshole, but today he seems to have a particular stick up his ass. 

"You know what, screw you Gustus." In an instant he was in her face, stood before him in contrast to his size Lexa looked like the helpless prey waiting to be devoured by the vicious predator in front of her. 

For the first time since she has known the Brunette, Lexa looked truly unnerved, she looked scared. 

"You will not, speak to me like that Alexandreía." Clarke took note of the way he pronounced her name. She remembers Lexa telling her that he said it the way her mother used to.

Before it could go further Indra walked into the room stepping between the pair. "Go downstairs please Gustus, we'll be leaving shortly." It wasn't a demand but the way she said it really left no room for an argument. 

"But indra-" he started 

"Gustus, I'll handle it, please." She softened her voice this time and he nodded, with one last glare at Lexa he left the room. 

"Lexa why must you provoke your father." 

"Provo- he literally barreled in here and disrespected Clarke for no reason!" 

"He's having a bad day Lexa." Indra tried to explain

"He's always having a bad day" 

Indra sighed 'He's a good man Lexa." 

"Yeah, says no one EVER." 

"I said it, I'm married to him. And you trust me right?" She rubbed Lexas arm softly, soothing her. 

"A little" Lexa said softly, rolling her eyes discreetly. Clarke smiled, Indra clearly had this household on lock, keeping the peace as well as everyone in line. 

Indra looked between Clarke and Lexa, smiling. "That's good enough for me. I wouldn't marry a monster Lexa." She chuckled. 

Lexa shrugged and Indra leaned in and kissed her cheek, "Clarke dear try not to stay too late, it's a school night" she reminded sweetly as she walked to the door. 

"Sure thing" Clarke said smilling slightly. 

Just when she was exiting the room Lexa spoke again "Maybe you're a monster too. You just don't know it yet." It was a challenge, not particularly rude but not polite either. 

This time indra smirked "Maybe" and then she shut the door behind her and they were alone again. 

"I'm sorry about that Clarke, my dad can be a real asshole sometimes" she sat back down on the bed and put her head in her hands taking a deep breath. 

"Hey it's alright. My parents are always fighting, family confrontations are pretty normal in the Griffin household too." Lexa looked at her not convinced. 

Clarke nodded "Seriously. I haven't told anyone this but-" she hesitated

Lexa turned her body and wrapped her arm around Clarke so the blonde could cuddle into her chest "Talk to me" 

"During the summer" she started "My parents split, they were going to divorce and not on good terms" the entire summer her parents weren't even living under the same roof "Dad rented a motel and I stayed there on the weekends. It was rough." That wasn't the only thing that happened during her summer before senior year, but she was too much of a coward to admit the rest.

"I can't believe Jake and Abby were going to divorce, they seem perfect for eachother." She thought out loud, when she looked back at Clarke the blonde seemed to be in deep thought. "I'm sorry you had to go through that, parents don't know that what they do can leave their kids with some serious mental scars, there's so oblivious sometimes it's like they can't do anything right" 

"Well honestly, it think we forget that our parents are people too, they were like us once. We think they're super human but the reality is that their life can suck just as much as ours, maybe more." She explained. Before she died her grandmother would always talk about her marriage to her late husband and the children they had including Clarke's mother, the blonde took notes. 

"You're so wise." Lexa whispered looking at the blonde in awe, "you are one of a kind, did you know that" she softly placed a hand on Clarke's cheek, staring down at her lips.

"Well i know now." She teased smiling

"And I'll make sure you never forget it" 

Clarke leaned in and connected their lips in a sweet yet passionate kiss, things started heating up when Clarke straddled the brunette, as soon as she was able to she rolled her hips into Lexas and smirked when she heard the girl whimper, never breaking the kiss she continued grinding her hips until Lexa held her waist and started up her own motion, Clarke could feel her getting hard, she smirked.

Just when she let out a louder than usual moan Lexa stoped her movements and held Clarke's waist effectively stopping her too. 

"We should stop before I can't anymore." She suggested breathlessly 

"Who says we have to stop?" The blonde asked pecking Lexas lips before taking it in between her teeth and biting slightly, Lexa hips bucked forward as she groaned. 

"Wait what?" She was confused and turned on. 

"We don't have to stop." 

"I thought- well I mean I know you haven't exactly told me this but I just-, I kind of assumed-, aren't you a virgin?" 

Clarke opened her mouth to respond and then shut it again "Is that the door?" Lexa listened and sure enough she heard a knock coming from downstairs. 

"You're parents left right?" Lexa nodded, getting up she headed downstairs with Clarke hot on her heels. 

"Who is it?!" Lexa yelled through the closed front door. 

"Its Lincoln, I forgot my key."

Lexa opened the door reveling Lincoln and Octavia on the other side "dude do you know who's house this is? What if Gustus was here." 

"Good thing I knew he wasn't here." Lincoln winked at her. 

"Let me grab my stuff really quick O." Clarke said as she jogged back upstairs to gather her belongings.  

"Hey Octavia, How's it going?" Lexa asked sweetly as they all waited by the door. 

"I'm good, how about yourself?" 

"Studying. So not so good." She joked causing Octavia to laugh

"If Clarke's tutoring you I promise you have nothing to worry about. That girl has saved my ass in history so many times I've lost count. Besides if you need an extra tutor I'm sure I can check my schedule for time to rescue you" 

Octavia and Lincoln were now officially dating, not girlfriend and boyfriend, but dating. She actually ended up meeting Lincoln's parents sooner than she thought when they came back home early after Lincoln promised it was just him and Lexa for most of the night, after the awkwardness left the air indra suggested ordering pizza; so all five of them sat around and ate dinner, they have a hard exterior but they were actually a really loving family. Except for the tension between Lexa and her dad that was just painfully obvious. 

The brunette wasn't so bad, once Ocatavia got to really talk to her she realised that they actually had a lot in common, she didn't know if that was a good or bad thing yet, she was still figuring that part out. 

"Alright O, I'm ready" Clarke came back down with her bag in hand, she went over to Lexa and wrapped her arms around the taller girls waist, pulling her in for a hug, she sighed into the embrace as her body relaxed. 

"I'll pick you up in the morning?" Lexa asked, squeezing Clarke tighter. 

"You better" the blonde replied causing Lexa to chuckle. The brunette leaned down and kissed her. Clarke wonders when the butterflies will stop. 

As the blonde turned around to leave Lexa wrapped her arms around her shoulders from behind keeping the blonde close "Is it pathetic that i miss you already?" Lexa whined refusing to let Clarke go. 

"Yes" Octavia interjected where she was stood cuddling up to Lincoln.

Clarke rolled her eyes "Well then i guess we're both pathetic because I miss already too." She stated turning around in Lexas embrace and wrapping her arms around the brunettes kneck, she pecked her lips repeatedly. 

Octavia fake gagged "Oh so you guys are THAT couple? Alright, well remind me to never third wheel with you two." She teased, Raven and herself were often the childish duo that terrorized Clarke and the blonde was always the mom friend. "I have to be back by 10 Clarke, my beauty sleep is essential." She waved bye to Lexa as Lincoln escorted her back out to her jeep. 

"Thank you for helping me study this weekend, I know it couldn't have been too fun" Lexa said hugging Clarke one more time. It was like she physically couldn't keep her hands off of her. 

"Are you kidding? Of course it was fun. I was with you." She smiled 

"You're beautiful" Lexa pecked her lips "I'll text you in the morning" with one last peck the blonde finally freed herself from Lexa and went outside as Lincoln came back inside, the two if them watched as the red jeep drove out of sight. 

"Well you're whipped." Lexa dead panned as she turned around and walked back inside, Lincoln followed. 

"What? You're literally so whipped it's insane." 

Lexa shrugged, before she headed upstairs she turned back around to face her brother. "Hey so I know I didn't thank you for not telling the rents about the, the thing. But I really do appreciate it." Lincoln nodded 

"What did you do with it?" She asked, Lincoln narrowed his eyes. 

"Why do you want to know?" 

Lexa rolled her eyes "Oh Lincoln give me a fucking break, you're not my father." 

He sighed "Nothing. I still have it" 

"Well i need it back, I'm getting rid" she stated simply. 

"How do you plan on doing that? Where did you even get it from?: 

"You seriously don't want to know. But it's not mine and I don't want it anywhere near me." She explained. They stared at eachother for a minute until Lincoln nodded slowly. 

"I trust you Lex." Lincoln eyed her "Clarke's been a good influence on you." He mentioned as he walked past her and started up the stairs "I like it." He shouted over his shoulder

She smiled "I like it too." 

Octavia picked her up from Ontaris place this morning and was waiting outside for her to shower and change before driving to school. She actually had to borrow a few of the older brunettes clothes like a larger than life t-shirt and a pair of black sweats, truthfully she could've just went to school the way she was, it's not like she was trying to impress anyone but the thought of the list of inevitable questions about why she looks like she spent the night in a brothel was more than enough of a turn off. 

She had spent the last week hanging out with Ontari after school, they may have even hooked up once or twice...maybe three times. The older brunette was hot and most importantly she didn't ask too much questions, Raven hated questions. Ontari was hesitant at first, Lexa was her friend and she wasn't sure if there were any lines, once Raven assured her Lexa was nothing more than a friend the Latina was fair game.

Ontari was fun, she's interested to see how long their little arrangement last.

Stepping inside cautiously she takes a deep breath, her mom has been calling her nonstop since Saturday, she didn't answer of course so this conversation should be fun, she just wants to save the fun for much later in the day, much much later...Plus if she's in and out quickly she might be able to get to school in time to hide out in the library.

As soon as she closed the door behind her, footsteps Were heard coming straight to her, heavy and fast. 

"Where the HELL have you been?" Isabella demanded slurring her words slightly, she looked like shit and Raven could smell the stench of stale alcohol on her breath even though they were a good few feet apart. 

"I do what I want. Besides why do you even care?" She spat looking her Mother over in disgust. She hated seeing her like this. 

"I'm your mother" she said stepping closer "Of course I care. I was worried!" She was yelling now, still taking small steps forward. "Jesus, your so goddamn selfish, Raven does what Raven wants is it? Fuck everybody else right? For all I know you could've been dead in a ditch!" Her Mom was pissed, nay, she was livid, that much was evident but something else that was clear to Raven was that she was heavily intoxicated. 

"Okay. Please don't come any closer, you wreak and I'm late for school." Raven did not want to have this war of words with her mom right now, no fucking way, not when she's like this. Pushing past Isabella she headed for the wooden starirs before suddenly stopping right in her tracks, 'Fuck this' she thought, whirling around to face her mom. "I'm selfish? I'M SELFISH?!" She screamed taking her mom by surprise who visibly flinched at the loud outburst "I think your fucking selfish, because you promised me you'd stop" 

"Raven-" 

"NO! Fuck you! You promised me." The Latina was now hysterical and sobbing, the sight shattered her Mothers heart, is this what she created? This broken child? 

"We need the money Raven." 

"You have a job already! You work at the diner" 

Isabella snorted "And what? You think that's enough? I'm barely making minimum fucking wage at that dead end piece of shit job!" 

"We're doing just fine, we've been doing fine for the past year now" They had been struggling really bad a few years back but since her mom went to rehab, got clean and found a job they've been managing, nothing's perfect but they were getting by. 

A few seconds went by In silence. 

"No we haven't" Isabellas speech was barely audible. 

"What?" Raven asked brows knitted 

"We haven't" she said looking up, tears pooling in her sour eyes. 

"We haven't?" Raven asked quietly, still confused "We haven't what mom?" Mom? We haven't what?!" 

"We're being evicted!" She screamed, sobbing. Raven froze. "I'm not making enough money to keep this-" she looked around shaking her head "this fucking run down hole and they want us out."  

"Why didn't you tell me? You know I help Sinclair at his shop sometimes, I could ask for a full time job-" Raven felt like her entire life was reaching its climax, it felt like this was the penultimate episode, it felt like everything was wrapping and the curtains were going to be closing soon. It felt awful. 

"It wouldn't have made a difference Raven." Isabella said dejected. 

"You don't know that! I could've helped, anything would've been better than this! Than you-" 

"Being a whore? Yes Raven. I'm a whore. I fuck for money so that my daughter keeps a roof over her head and food in her mouth. But guess what, you'll never understand, not until you have a kid of your own. I didn't grow you up to be naive Raven, I've never shielded you from how cruel this world is, actually you witnessed it first hand before I could even make that decision. You think you can judge me? It's not nice In the real world Raven! People like me and you don't have it easy, we're born into struggle and it just keeps going down the godamned line, hell you might as well join the family buisness now, a head start will do you good for when you end up just. Like. Me." 

And wow. It felt like she was punched in the throat and she couldn't breathe. She turned around and quickly made her way back out the front door, her eyes burning with unshed tears. 

"Nena por favor, no quise decir eso. te quiero. I didn't mean that, Raven, Raven!" 

She quickly slammed the door shut and took a deep breath. She made her way over to Octavias car like nothing happened. 

"So, you and Lexa..." Abby trailed off. The older blonde was sat at the kitchen island sipping her morning coffee, watching her daughter tense at the question.

"What about me and Lexa?" 

"Well, are you an item? Have you always been am item or is this a new development?" Abby questioned.

'I think the key question here is why are you so interested in who I may or may not be dating?" Clarke could feel herself getting irritated, her mom could do that so easily. Abby had always been overly intrusive and judgmental.  

When her parents found out she was bisexual her Dad had been a lot more positive than her Mother, she remembers her biggest concern before even asking how Clarke is feeling about heraelf was that it would be much harder for her to have grandchildren if Clarke ended up with a Female. The comment had been so insensitive  Clarke cried herself to sleep while her parents argued through the night; they did that a lot. 

Abby had made up for it in the morning, making Clarke's favorite breakfast and apologizing several times and everything was back to the Griffin level of normal but it still upset her. It was actually something she still thought about. Her Mom was not a cruel woman, not by a long shot, everything she does even a few of the questionable acts like Clarke's education always come from a place of care, but she was straight forward and overly sure of herself, her way or no way. 

Abby rolled her eyes, standing up as she drank the last bit of coffee in her cup "You're overreacting" she stated simply. 

"I'm not" 

"Look, you're only 18 Clarke, you don't know you're leftt from you're right when it comes to relationships" 

Clarke chuckled "in that case, with my luck I'll be you're age and still not have a clue." 

"And what does that mean?" Abby turned around to face Clarke who shrugged. 

"Something tells me you already know" 

"Don't talk to me like that Clarke. You'll regret it." She said in a stern voice that left no room for arguments. "Besides I only wanted to know if you and Lexa were an item, if you are we'd have to schedule a dinner, get to know her on a more personal level " 

Clarke groaned "Oh my God, listen to yourself. Why would any of that be necessary mom?" 

"After that Finn Fiasco you were a mess, that won't be happening again, so I'd prefer to properly suss out who comes into your life." Abby already has a bad impression of Lexa, she wants to know if it can get any worse than what she's already seen.

"Mom, she's already been over for dinner a bunch of times, you're close enough that you constantly shut her down and she still shows you respect, how much more personal can it get right now? It's not like she's my girlfriend." She lied, or did she? She really needed to have 'the talk' with Lexa.

"Well, do you want her to be?" 

"Mom!" 

"Hey what's all the noise about?" Her Dad came walking into the kitchen, giving both Clarke and Abby a kiss on the head before fixing himself a cup of coffee. 

"Clarke's over reacting as per usual-" 

 "Mom's being weird and intrusive again-" 

They both began speaking at the same time causing a tornado of words that her Dad couldn't quite catch. 

"Alright, stop, stop, stop it." Jake waved his  arm in the air. "Clarke don't call your mom weird, Abby stop being weird. The end. So everyone ready for the day?" He swiftly tried to change the subject to no avail. 

"I'm not being weird I'm simply asking my daughter why she wants Lexa to be her girlfriend but hasn't asked her yet" Abby shrugged with a tiny smirk.

Clarke's brows creased "okay that is so not what you asked me mom" 

"Wait, I thought she was already your girlfriend?" 

Clarke shook her head in confusion "When, when did we discuss this?" 

Jake shrugged "We didn't, but I thought it was one of those things that we all know but dont feel the need to announce that we all know it. You know what I mean?" He turned to Abby with a smile who returned it with a chuckle.

"Absolutely" she learned over to give him a kiss and Clarke groaned, "Okay then, and on that note I should probably go before you tag team me any further. I'll be outside waiting for O to come." 

"No Lexa today? You spent the entire weekend together and she can't give you a ride to school?" Abby knew what she was doing with that remark. 

"She's caught up in some family stuff, it's more than fine."

"Clarke, you want some final words of wisdom from me this morning?" Abby asked. 

"No but I'm sure you're still going to tell me." 

"Take what you want before someone else beats you to it. Lexa seems like the type of girl who's charming, attracts all the naive high school girls; like yourself- no offense-"

"Offense taken" 

"I just don't want to have to see that heartbreak, because it's clear you really like her." Abby actually sounded genuine. 

"Mom-" 

"We're Griffin's Clarke, every move we make as long as it's calculated is a winning one, unless we're too slow, then in that case the balls no longer in your court, You might have to make a decision you don't want to, you might regret it. But the important thing to remember is that high scool doesn't last forever, and it doesn't define who you are, or who you'll be in 20 years from now. You decide that. Oh yeah, keep that in mind when you think about Raven too." 

Clarke's eyes narrowed "How do you-" 

"I know more than you think Clarke, these walls are like paper, remember that." A car horn went off from outside, "Have a nice day at school." Abby said a little too sweet, Clarke just glared at her suspiciously as she hugged her Father goodbye and left through the front door. 

So what Octavia had failed to tell Clarke was that she was also giving Raven a ride. Clarke sat at the back quietly. Raven sat at the front quietly. Octavia squirmed. 

"Guys the awkwardness is really getting to me, how much would it cost me if I jumped out of the car right now?" 

Clarke snorted "It would cost you 3 lives." 
Octavia nodded "Seems worth it" she began taking her seatbelt off. 

"Knock it off O" Clarke rolled her eyes 

"Please, please, please. For my sanity, talk to each other. It's so awkward in here, this is so not us, this is not our vibe, we need to fix it, you guys need to talk." Octavia hated being in the middle of this conflict, she loved them both equally. But if she has to hear one of them complain about the other non-stop for hours one more time, she's gonna kill them both. "So?" Octavia persisted "I took the long way, so we have an entire 15 minutes of therapy time, somebody other than myself better start talking." 

"Octavia" Raven said in a quiet voice, which was extremely unusual, "What you want to  happen, will not be happening, so stop." 

"Oh of course that'd be coming from you 'miss mysterious', 'miss pick me up at this random address' 'miss-" 

"I think I get it" Raven interrupted. 

"Who's place was that anyway? Are you seeing someone?" 

"No" 

"So Little miss sunshine in the back won't tell me about her sexscapades with Lexa and you won't tell me about your hookup? Plus you guys still aren't talking to each other? Oh Hell no, you guys are fucking with me." Octavia abruptly stopped the car, completely turning it off, "You girls can talk for the remaining 10 minutes until we get to school or you can both get the fuck out now and get to walking. Your choice." 

They both stared at her straight faced, almost at the exact same time they removed their seatbelts and opened the car door to exit. Octavia snorted. 

"I'd rather walk than hear you talk for another second O." Raven picked up her bag."I love you but same here" Clarke agreed. 

"Suit yourselves, enjoy the exercise." She started the car up again yelling to them as she took off "immature bitches!" 

Clarke knows Octavia just wants things to go back to normal, so does she. But the worst hasn't even happened and they're already at war. Sad thing is the slow realisation that things will never be the same isn't even the worst part. The truth, that's always the worst part. 

Clarke saw Raven walking away and doesn't know what came over her when she approached her ex bestfriend "I-i uh, how are you?" 

"What do you want Clarke? I didn't lose my ride to school because I wanted to talk to you." 

The words left her mouth before she could even think it through properly "Did you wake up on the wrong side of the bed because your mission to ruin my date with Lexa last week failed?" Nice one Clarke, being the bigger bitch today I see. 

Raven shook her head, "Real mature. Eat a dick, Clarke." She started walking away again. 

Clarke followed close behind "You know, I don't think you can tell me I'm being immature and then say 'eat a dick' but I'll take that as a yes" 

Raven swung back around to face the blonde "Why are you even here? Don't you ride to school with Lexa?" 

"That's completely irrelevant"

"Oh come on Clarke, give me a fucking break" Raven chuckled

"If you must know, she's busy this morning." 

Raven smiled "Oh really? Busy huh. Interesting."

Clarke narrowed her eyes "Alright, whatever that means, weirdo." She paused for a moment, debating what she should say. And Raven wasn't making it any easier, standing there giving her that look, Clarke has definitely seen that look before, but never aimed towards her. "I was a little worried okay, Lexa told me you called her, like a lot. I- I thought that maybe something bad had happened, I didn't see you around school all week and Lexa couldn't get through to you this weekend" 

"Honestly," Raven sighed "mostly because I can't be bothered to lie; I needed her comfort or whatever, I don't know, something happened with my Mom and I just- I needed a friend, Lexa didn't come through so I guess that lets me know where I stand with her." 

"Oh shut up Raven, you know she cares about you. Is everything okay? Is your mom okay?" Clarke was genuinely concerned, she understands that they're not on good terms right now but that doesn't mean she suddenly stopped caring. She wishes it was that easy. 

"Well Clarke as you so kindly reminded me before, my life is pretty fucking shit, so i best hurry off to school to get my daily fix out of fucking with other people. See you around, but hopefully not." 

Clarke watched as the brunette walked away, she didn't know what to say or think, so she just said nothing and thought a lot. 

Lexa paced back and forth in her room, anxiety causing her to shake slightly. The Bruneete wasn't expecting to get a response from the email she sent a few months ago. Her uncle Titus was always a sore subject, that's why she snapped at Clarke so badly at the party when she read her email. 

Titus had been in prison for the last 6 years, he got out a few months ago and since then they've been communicating through email. Lincoln acts like he doesn't know but he does, that's one of the reasons he was so pissed at the party. 

Her dad would literally kill him if he found out, then he'd kill her and bring her back to life so he can tell her how stupid she is. She needs to stop taking to him, she's let him manipulate her over and over and now it needed to stop. 

"Lexa! We're going to be late for school!" Lincoln yelled at her through the closed door.

She had just agreed to meet with him and immediately after sending the email she regretted it, but it needed to be done. That stupid fucking gun had been left hidden in the car when Titus gifted it to her, and because she's a jackass she didn't tell anyone about it. The only reason her dad let her keep the car was because she agreed that her and Lincoln would share it until highscool was over, so they wouldn't have to buy either of them a car. 

It might actually be time to get rid of that too, it was a fucking amazing car but the memories of Titus and angel just weren't worth it. Angel and Titus were the couple she had told Clarke about, Titus was her biological Mother's half brother, she hated him so Gustus hated him more. 

"Lincoln just take the fucking car and go! I'll take the bus." She yelled back, irritated. 

"Language!" She heard indra shout from downstairs. 

"Suite yourself. Oh and Lexa, Gustus is standing right next to me." As he said that Lexa could hear him scurry away awkwardly. 

"Fuck" she cursed under her breath. 

"Alexandréia" his voice was cool, calm, collected, the worst tone for Gustus woods "You have until the count of 5 to open and unloc-" before he could finish his sentence the door was open and he was looking directly at Lexa.

"Why didn't you go with Lincoln? You're going to be late." He questioned, looking her up and down, her body language screamed nervous. 

"Didn't feel good" 

"You look fine to me" 

"Yeah well you don't have your glasses on" she cringed immediately "I'm sorry. I-i just want to walk dad, is that okay?" She didn't want to fight, not now. 

He stares at her for a moment before stepping aside so she could leave past him, which she does without another word. After a moment Indra came upstairs. 

"She loves you Gustus" 

"She hates me" 

"She's young, she doesn't understand that you do everything because you love her, she thinks you're just being a hard ass grump." She teased him at the end causing him to smile softly. 

"Clarke. She's good for her." He noted

"Says the one who refuses to acknowledge that poor girls presence." She said pointedly, Clarke was a sweet girl. She didn't deserve rude treatment from Gustus. 

"Come on now indra, I can't make it too easy for her." 

"You make it easy for Lincoln and Octavia." 

He shook his head "That's different, Lexa, she's fragile, she doesn't need to get hurt anymore. But maybe you're right, I'll lay off of Clarke" indra looked at him expectantly. He rolled his eyes discreetly "Fine" he huffed "I'll arrange a dinner like we had with Octavia. Happy?" He asked wrapping his arms around his wife who smiled.

"Yes actually, I'm sure Lexa will be too. She is a remarkable young Woman, you might not think so but you did a good job" she assured him. 

"We did a good job" he kissed his wife softly. Indra and Lincoln Truly were a blessing to both him and Lexa. They were a family, but something wasn't right with Lexa, and he was going to find out what. 

Chapter Text

"So who's going again?" Lexa asked for the umpteenth time, Clarke rolled her eyes. 

"Everyone babe, everyone's going." She kissed the brunettes cheek. 

"What's your problem lex, parties aren't your scene all of a sudden?" Said Roan with a scoff. 

It was Wednesday afternoon, the whole group was sitting in the Cafeteria discussing the plans for them to meet up on Saturday, apparently a friend of a friend was having a party and word got around to everyone in the school, no one actually knew who's party it was, just a location, but everyone was invited. 

Lexa won't admit to these guys, maybe just Clarke when they're alone; but she thought the entire thing was sketchy ass hell, in her old school a similar situation happened and the party ended up being raided by the cops and a shit tone of people got arrested that night, including her. She just didn't want anyone getting into trouble, she didn't want Clarke getting into trouble, but the blonde seemed to be the main one eager to go to this party. 

In the back of her mind she also thought about the fact that she was meeting up with Titus tomorrow. She wouldn't be any fun this weekend. 

"No Roan, just bad experience from the last time some shit like this happened. In fact I kind of distinctly remember your ass screaming from a holding cell." She said throwing a wrapper at his head. 

Anya and Lincoln laughed because they remember those two getting arrested that night, they had always been the smart ones, never getting caught, lexa on the other hand specifically went back inside the building to try and find Roan and ended up getting arrested with him, Lincoln almost had a heart attack waiting at the station.

Roan dodged the flying wrapper "Eh, the past is the past lex." He shrugged

"Lex if you don't want to go, it's fine, you don't have too." Clarke said, her arm was wrapped around Lexas shoulder.

"If I don't go, will you still go?" 

Clarke sighed a little disappointed, she really wanted to go and let lose this weekend, party and get drunk, probably make some stupid decisions, she just wanted to forget about Raven and Finn for a while, but if Lexa really didn't want to go, there's no way the blonde would leave her alone. "You know I won't go if you really don't want me too." 

"Hey guys!" Octavia greeted approaching the table, she was with Raven. She went and sat on Lincoln's lap giving him a peck, while everyone else greeted the pair.

"Hey O, where's your brother?' Anya asked, she hasn't seen him practically all day and he didn't answer her text she sent him just before lunch. 

'No idea, I thought he was here." She shrugged

"Raven!" Roan cheered "My girl, where you been?" 

"Around" she smiled. She kept standing eventhough seats were available. 

"Well will you be around on Saturday? You heard about the party right." 

"I heard." Was all she said

"We're going right babe?" Lincoln asked Octavia, she smiled "hell yeah we're going." 

"So I'll be seeing all my favourite people on Saturday!" They all turned to the source of the voice and saw Finn approaching the table with a big grin.

'Get lost Finn" Octavia muttered with an eye roll. 

"Hey princess" he ignored Octavias comment and greeted Clarke, "Hope to see you and Raven there."  

"Why" Raven piped up, finn stood directly next to her, practically brushing shoulders. She wanted to gag. 

"Come on rae, I need a reason to party with my favourite people." He looked over at Clarke and winked 

"Do that again and I'll rip your eye out and have it wink right back at you." Lexa stated calmly.

"Clarke would never let that happen, right Clarke?" He was taunting the blonde. She wanted to slap his stupid smug little face  

"Just get fucked Finn" they all turned to Oliver who had been quiet the entire time "Your're kind of like sunshine-" 

Finn smirked 

"Sunshine during a year long drought." Lexa added

"Exactly! It's a bit fucking exhausting." Oliver finished.

Finn rolled his eyes "Whatever" with that he walked away. 

"Thanks ollie" Clarke smiled at the boy, he smiled back. 

"Gotta run guys" everyone said bye to him as he left, even Lexa. She didn't hate the guy, she wasn't exactly his biggest fan either, or his friend for that matter but everyone else was friends with him so she tolerated his presence at best. 

"So Raven, you're going to the party?" Lexa asked timidly, Raven has been giving her the cold shoulder for too long now. 

"I'll see you guys around." And just like that she walked away, completely ignoring Lexa. 

Roan and Lincoln made noises to show how much that sting. 

"That was cold" Anya said looking at Lexa, all she could do was shrug. 

"Walk with me?" Clarke whispered to Lexa who smiled and nodded, they both got up and said bye to everyone before leaving the Cafeteria and making their way outside to the courtyard, there were a few people lingering around. 

"So, looks like you've joined me on Ravens naughty list." Clarke remarked as they strolled around.

"It does look that way doesn't it? I kind of miss her" said Lexa 

"Me too" Clarke admitted.

Lexa turned to her "So why don't you do something about it? Everybody hates seeing you guys like this Clarke, and it's clear you two are lost without eachother." 

"It's not that simple Lexa." 

"It is that simple! Look Clarke, I would never speak to Raven again if it meant that you two could be friends again." 

Clarke scoffed "You'd do that?" 

"I'd do it for you" she admitted "for both of you" she added on second thought. "I just want you to be happy, Raven makes you happy. You made eachother happy, before all this mess"

"Some things just can't be fixed Lexa" she shrugged 

"Oh please Clarke, if anyone should be the bad guy here it's me or Finn, not Raven, she just acted out of hurt and I didn't make anything better. It's my fault you're not friends anymore-" 

"Its not your fault. Can I tell you something, if you promise not to judge me" Was this it? Was Clarke really going to tell Lexa about what happened during the summer. 

"Of course, you can tell me anything." The brunette stopped walking and took Clarke's hand, encouraging the blonde to speak. 

"Not here. After school at my house, okay?" 

"It's a date" they both chuckled."I actually wanted to tell you something too, you're not going to like it " 

"So let me get this straight-" Lexa was over at Clarke's house and they were sitting cuddled up on the sofa, her parents weren't home so they were free to talk about anything. "Your uncle Titus used to groom you?" She asked outraged

"Not exactly" Lexa cringed

When she was younger Titus would get her to approach strangers and ask them to walk her through the alleyway that was always dimly lit, even in the day time. She was a very cute kid, and she had an accent so people just automatically felt sorry for her, there Titus would wait with his gun and Rob them.

It happened for a few years until Gustus found out with a little help from Lincoln. He was absolutely livid and before he went over there and killed him indra convinced her father to just call the police. He tried to leave before they arrived which resulted in a car chase with the police, he lost control of the car, crashed and Angel died while he suffered with a head injury in the hospital for months, he was given 6 years. 

Angel was the second mother figure she'd lost.

"Manipulating a kid into luring unsuspecting victims to their robbery is definitely grooming Lexa! Not to mention he killed his wife!"

"No!" Lexa rushed out "He said he wasn't the one driving, said she was." He sent her a few letters from Prison before Gustus found out and put a stop to it. 

Clarke couldn't believe what she was hearing, "And you what? You believe him! Lexa that man is clearly a master manipulator. Why is he emailing you? Did you respond? Is he getting to you again? Lex-" 

"Okay slow down Clarke" the blonde was rambling, she was getting more anxious by the minute. "He emailed me and I responded-" Clarke opened her mouth to protest "BUT" Lexa carried on "I don't want anything to do with him, nothing at all, the car, remember I told you it was a gift?" Clarke nodded, "Well he can take that shit back" 

"Fuck that!" Clarke exclaimed causing Lexa to look at her with raised eyebrows, a glint of amusement in her eyes, "I say you sell that shit and make enough money to buy a new car, screw him, Lexa." 

Lexa sat up and pulled Clarke so she was straddling her, "I think I like this side of you, it's sexy" she purred grinning from ear to ear. 

Clarke laughed "Anyone who messes with the people i care about instantly have enemy status Lexa, I hate him." She knew Titus was no good just from the way Lexa reacted when she read the email he sent her a few months ago. 

"You really are my hero huh?" Lexa flirted trying to lighten the mood "First you save me with a pencil in math and now you're protecting me from big baldheaded bad men-" they both burst our laughing. Just when Clarke leaned down and kissed the brunette the front door opened causing them to groan and break apart. 

"Always interrupted." Lexa muttered "Oh yeah, what did you want to talk to me about?" 

Clarke froze, she forgot about that. 

"Hey ladies!" Jake cheered as he entered the living room "Lexa, I could use some help bringing in the groceries from the car, it's alot."  He asked, Lexa got up instantly. 

"No problem Jake, I know you'd ask Clarke but-" they both shared a knowing look before looking at Clarke in amusment. The blonde smiled sweetly

"I'll just direct you on where to put them, that's my job" they all laughed.

"When does somebody else get that job sweetie?" Jake asked amusement clear in his voice as he walked outside with Lexa. 

"Check the rota!" The blonde yelled out.

"Pretty sure this so called rota is rigged!" He yelled back laughing with Lexa. 

She internally groaned, looks like she wasn't going to tell Lexa just yet. More time to prepare, she thought or more time to be a chicken shit and take her secret to the grave. 

It was Friday Lexa was meeting Titus.

She chewed her finger nailes nervously, the way her heart pounded in her chest felt like any minute now It'd burst out, leaving a heart shaped hole. She checked the time on her phone, she had 2 minuets to get out of the car and go to the spot she agreed to meet Titus, she took a deep breath and exited the car, her shaking hands were quickly hidden in her pockets. As she reached the secluded location she quickly checked the time again. 3pm on the dot, she turned around and saw Titus approaching, he was a very punctual man, a perfectionist even, Lexa shook her head slightly, some things just didn't change. 

Of course she was supposed to be in school, but she couldn't find it in her to care about any consequences right now, she had snuck into the locker rooms when Lincoln had gym and took the car keys, then she left the school grounds without a word, her parents would definitely be getting a call from the principal. 

As Titus got closer she took note of the fact that he looked exactly the same, clean shaved head, shaved face, stoic  and very well put together, he didn't look like a man who had just spent the past 6 years in a prison cell. 

When he was at arms reach he gripped her forarm tightly In greeting, before she could return the gesture he muttered something under his breath and pulled her into a bone crushing hug, she froze. They never hug  she wasn't sure what to do so she just stood stiffly and waited for him to let her go. 

He pulled away mere seconds later and gripped her shoulders, she stared at him, unsure of what to feel and he stared at her, eyes tracing every little detail on her face. 

"Alexandreía" he said her name. She imagined that's exactly how her mother would say it, but of course much softer. Gustus tried but he wasn't greek, it sounded different, it was oddly comforting the way Titus said her name, he had a thick Greek accent.

"My god. You look so much like your mother. To gampró tis eísai ousiastiká gynaíka tóra, so alike!" He let her go, taking a step back to look at her entire appearance. "You have grown!" He exclaimed "You are taller and older" 

"That's usually what happens when time passes" she felt like she was in a trance, it was, honestly surreal seeing Titus again, he was such a big part of her life. 

"You sound so Amerikanós" he laughed "eísai aftoí tóra. I know you wished to fit in"

Lexa just nodded. Her accent came out sometimes when she was angry and yelling without any thought but other than that, you'd never know she wasn't from here, she liked it that way.

"You are what, 18 now?"

"Almost" after a beat she elaborated "A month away"

He shook his head in disbelief. It was silent for a while, they both just took In the moment.

"Peinás? We could go get some food?" Titus suggested, he started walking away but stopped when he realised Lexa wasn't following him.

Her feet were rooted to the ground, she felt like she couldn't move even if she wanted to. 

"Aftó?" that was his nickname for her, it meant Heda In trigedaslang "You okay?" 

Lexa took a breathe before she spoke, she wanted her words to come out strong and sure, Titus wouldn't accept anything less. 

"Lypámai allá óchi" The language almost felt foreign leaving her lips, she hadn't spoken it in such a long time, no one understood her. Sometimes it felt like she was hiding that part of herself which she was okay with at times but speaking to Titus In her language, it felt like finally coming home and taking off your jacket and shoes after a long day at work, she realised how much she missed it.

"We can't speak to eachother anymore." When the words left her mouth, the tone in which she used even surprised her, she drew strength from it though, the false confidence, the fake bravery, deep down she was just a little girl crumbling. 

"I don't want to be in your life. I don't want you in my life." 

"What are you talking about Alexandreía" his words were calm, very controlled. "aftó eínai treló"

She looked him in the eyes, refusing to back down. "I agreed for us to meet today so that I could give you your belongings." She took the car keys out of her pocket, her hands were shaking slightly but she willed them to stop. "to óplo? It's in the car" she held the keys out waiting for him to take it.

"Where is this coming from to korítsi mou?" 

She didn't say anything.

He shook his head "I am the only part of her you have left"

She knew he was talking about her Mother. Gustus didn't like to talk about her but Titus, Titus kept the memory of her alive for Lexa.

"You are the only part of her I have left" his voice cracked slightly when he referred to himself "We need eachother" 

It was Lexas turn to shake her head "She left me Titus. I don't want any part of her, or you. I did horrible things under your watch, I helped you hurt people." She frowned, noticing the way her voice was so emotionless, this is the person Titus turned her into. "You made me a fucking criminal" he flinched slightly at the accusation "before I even knew what that was, what It meant." 

"What you did was not a bad thing Alexandreía." He explained calmy, going back to his stoic demeanor "You did it to help me, and to help Angel, what you did was brave, it show me that you would do anything for the ones you love" 

"Your're right, I would do anything for the people I love, but that isn't you" she turned abruptly and walked away, she wasn't even sure what she was doing, the car keys were still clutched tightly in her grasp and the gun still sit in the car, but she had to walk away, she felt her resolve cracking, she was sure she didn't want anything to do with him, but the emotions, the sad look in his eyes, it made her think about her Mother giving her that same look, it felt like she was walking away from her too, but that should be easy, afterall she had been the one to leave Lexa in the first place. 

Titus followed behind her "Alexandreía" he called after her calmy, no one was around but he still didn't want to make a scene.  

"Alexandreía. I beg you to remember what I have always said, what you have always known to be true" they got to the car and she swung the trunk open. 

"I won't hear this again" she gritted out searching the boot of the car frantically. 

"Yes you will!" He finally wavered, his voice rising slightly "We need eachother" she didn't say anything. "We need eachother! Do you hear me? nomízeis óti eísai esý? You think your're the only one? She didn't just leave you Alexandreía, she fucking left me too!" He roared, he wasn't necessarily angry at her, he just seemed angry at the world. 

Her heart was pounding. She finally got a hold of what she was searching for, wrapped up in a thick blanket. 

"Alexandreía!" 

"Stop calling me that!" She yelled turning around and throwing the item at him, it was wrapped in a thick blanket but somehow she still felt the cold metal sending chills down her spine. 

"Stay the fuck away from me!" Without another word she got in the car and slammed the door shut quickly turning the key in the ignition and slamming her foot on the gas, she needed to get as far away from him as possible. 

Saturday came around pretty quick, a little too quick for Lexas liking, she was dreading going to that party tonight, mostly because she just wasn't in the mood. Obviously Clarke wouldn't mind if Lexa decided not to go but the more she spends time with the blonde the more protective she gets, there's no way she'd let Clarke go to some random party without her. 

On Thursday Clarke accompanied her to go and see Titus, Lexa didn't really want Clarke to come but the blonde insisted, it seemed she wasn't the only one who developed protective instincts, because if looks could kill, Titus would be as good as dead.  She had every intention of giving the man his belongings and walking out of life but he had a way of pulling her back in, she saw the man and she felt like the little girl who would do anything for him, because he'd do anything for her. 

Titus refused to take the car, much to Lexas annoyance, but when Clarke nudged her side and shook her head Lexa went along with it, on the way back home the blonde had said "screw him lex, I understand you don't want to use the car anymore but you might aswell make it a win. I still stand by what I said, sell it and use the money to buy a new one." 

That didn't sound like a bad idea, when she told her parents and Lincoln about selling the car, they had agreed straight away, her family wanted all aspects of Titus eradicated a long time ago.

So Lexa headed over to Sinclair's auto that afternoon, upon entering the garage, she did a double take when she saw Raven, elbow deep in some car, they made eye contact and luckily for her Raven wasn't completely ignoring her existence that day, she sent her a small smile, once in which Lexa eagerly returned before going into the office with Sinclair and discussing the prices. Then suddenly and idea hit her, she knew Raven and her mom were struggling to make ends meet, they'd put the money to much better use than Lexa. 

Of course Raven would never take a hand out so she delivered it straight to Isabella, she had no doubt the woman would do the right thing.

So with the money left over she aimlessly walked around the car park looking for a veichle she could afford, she picked an old mustang at random, it was matte black and In descent-ish condition, It needed some new paint but luckily for her Sinclair offered to do it free of charge. 

It was an obvious downgrade from the Audi, and when she pulled up to school the next day, she had strange looks coming from all angles, Finn even made a show out of it and mocked her in the parking lot, Lexa couldn't tell if everyone was laughing with him or at him, the guy was a clown, either way Clarke was by her side the entire time, so she couldn't bring herself to even care. 

Back in the present, Lexa was pulling up to the house party address, it was on the remote side of town, the nearest neighbour had to be about a mile away. Lexa wouldn't mind living far out like this, she could appreciate the isolation, it was comforting.

Octavia was driving her car with Lincoln, Anya, and Roan. Raven told Octavia she was already at the party and Bellamy caught a ride with his basketball buddies; Anya was getting a little suspicious of Bellamy, he was never around as much and when he was texting seemed to occupy most of his time, she thought it was weird and honestly, whatever spark she first felt for him was now drastically sizzling out, maybe it was time to call it quits. 

Lexa turned the car off, upon seeing the house she let out a low whistle "Kids loaded" she noted, it was a big three story house. 

Clarke hummed her agreement from the passenger seat, the blonde applied lip gloss in the small mirror before flipping it back up and turning to face Lexa "Wells Jaha, his dad is mayor." 

Leca nodded and then their eyes connected. Clarke blushed at the intensity of Lexas stare, she felt naked and exposed under Lexas intrusive gaze.

"Did i mention you look absolutely breathtaking."

Clarke turned an even deeper shade of red, even though they've been spending so much time together, go on dates; they even kiss! None of that matters, Lexa will always have the ability to make Clarke nervous, she would get butterflies like Lexa was still just a crush  when in reality she was now so much more than that  

"You did in fact mention that several times in our-" she looked down at Lexas watch "forty minutes journey." 

Lexa shrugged "Consistency is key." Clarke's brain went into overdrive when Lexa leaned forward and placed a lingering kiss to rosy red lips.

"I can't believe I'm allowed to do that." Lexa breathed out against Clarke's lips, their foreheads connected when Lexa kissed Clarke repeatedly causing the blonde to giggle. 

"What?" Lexa smiled feigning innocence "I'm just exercising my Clarke given right." 

"Your're a cheese ball-" Clarke's teasing died in her throat when Lexa surged forward and claimed her lips, they both giggled into the kiss, completely wrapped up in eachother. 

They were rudely pulled out of the moment by loud and consistent knocking on the passenger side window. 

Octavia was pressed up against the car grinning from ear to ear "Clarke and Lexa sitting in a tree, K-i-s-s-i-n-g-" she sang earning a the middle finger from Clarke. 

Lexa huffed "And that's our que." 

The six of them entered the house immediately met with the strong stench of alcohol and sweat, Lexa grimaced, all of a sudden she'd rather be anywhere but here, preferably with Clarke. 

"Come on, pretty boy, let's dance!" Octavia cheered pulling on Lincolns arm. They were dating officially now, and they let everyone know it. 

"I guess I'm dancing! Clarke keep an eye on her." Lincoln called over his shoulder before he and Octavia disappeared into the crowd of bodies, Roan and Anya had disappeared on entry, leaving Clarke and Lexa alone.  

"Lincoln shouldn't worry, I'm not letting you out of my sight" the blonde flirted. 

Lexa smirked "Ditto" 

Clarke laughed rolling her eyes "Come on, let's get a drink." 

By bow they'd been at the party for a few hours, Clarke had left the group playing beer pong in the front, everyone was tipsy bar Octavia who was borderline drunk.

Lincoln had offered to be DD and drive everyone home in Octavias jeep later, and Lexa was the other driver, so everyone else was free to get hammered.

Approaching the corner the blonde was almost trampled by a boy and girl running and laughing, they were both dripping wet and didn't even spare Clarke a glance as they ran upstairs and out of sight. 

"Don't mind me" Clatke muttered rolling her eyes, she stopped short when something caught her eye. 

Finn and Raven were standing outside in the drive way, he was moving his arms around animated as if he was explaining something, Clarke felt her heart rate sky rocket and without thinking she approached the pair. 

Lexa kept an eye on Clarke as she left for the restroom, her lazy smile turned into a frown when she saw the blonde rush outside. 

"Finn!" Clarke yelled barreling outside, they both looked at her like she had an extra head. Maybe she should've thought this through. When she didn't say anything Finn made a face. 

"What do you want Clarke?" She was beginning to get on his nerves, every time he would try and talk to Raven the blonde would hover. 

"What are you doing?" She asked failing to sound casual with the way her heart was racing. 

Raven narrowed her eyes at the blonde, she was acting weird. 

"We were in the middle of a conversation, so if you don't mind-" 

"Actually," Raven interrupted him "You were in the middle of wasting your breathe and my time. He's all yours." Raven said walking past Finn who was scowling at Clarke. 

Just then Lexa and a giggling Octavia and Lincoln came strolling outside.

"Everything okay?" The brunette scanned the faces around her and approached Clarke circling a possessive arm around her waist  she frowned when she noticed the look on the blondes face, it was like she'd seen a ghost or she was the ghost. 

"No surprise Finn is here being a dick." Octavia slurred. 

"Let's just go inside." Clarke said  

Finn shook his head "What the fuck did I do? I was just trying to-" 

"Raven doesn't want to talk to you Finn." Clarke interrupted. 

"News flash: she doesn't want to talk to you either!" He yelled. 

"Hey!" Lincoln warned

"I'm sick of you always hovering, these losers think your're the good guy but why don't you go ahead and tell everyone what you got up to during the summer." He smirked when he saw fear wash over the blondes face. 

"Finn." She said slowly. 

"We hung out a lot didn't we?" He taunted her

"Finn!" This time it was desperate, a plea in which he gleefully ignored. 

"Lets just go-" Lincoln started but was cut off by Raven who was quietly watching the exchange, she wanted to leave but there was a bad feeling in the pit of her stomach. 

"Finn, what are you talking about?" She asked slowly.

"Well that's the million dollar question isn't it." 

"Finn, please-" Clarke's voice was shaking. 

"Are you okay?" Lexa asked the blonde, she was utterly confused and Clarke was acting too weird for her liking. 

"That's right Clarke; beg." He sneered

"Don't do this." 

"Don't do what? Tell the truth? As a matter of fact, keeping this dirty little secret of yours has been eating me up inside, I'm just dying to let it out." 

"I will hate you for the rest of my life, Finn." Clarke spoke slowly, on the verge of tears. 

"I'll add you to the list of people." He refused to admit it stung to hear that.  

Raven couldn't take it anymore "Just spit it out Finn-" 

"We fucked. Repeatedly. All summer." 

The silence that followed was completely chaotic, it was the dangerous kind of silence, no one knew what would happen next.  

Finn chuckled, nothing was funny to him, in fact it sort of hurt that he had to throw Clarke under the bus like that, but he felt she had given him no choice. 

Raven felt the air leave her lungs as her breathing picked up, she took a deep breathe to try and ground herself, she wanted to believe he was lying, at the same time she wanted to demand an explanation; anything at all, but one look at the blondes face told her everything she needed to know.

"Liar." Lexa muttered, it was a weak accusation. She was grasping at straws. 

Finn scoffed "You think so?" 

"That's bullshit" Octavia was getting more sober by the minute.

"What would you know, you were away at your grandparents lake house most of the summer." Finn said.

"Clarke would never-" she trailed off when she looked over at the blonde who refused to meet her eyes. "Clarke?" Octavia gasped when it dawned on her. 

The blonde had never felt so ashamed in her entire life, she was terrified to look up, to look at all the faces of her friends, judging her. 

But all she could think of was Raven, she looked over at the girl who was already staring at her, their eyes connected and Clarke felt like she was condemned to hell; the look of utter betrayal and hurt on Ravens face was devastating. 

"Raven- I" 

"Tell me he's lying." 

Clarke swallowed the lump in her throat "I wish I could." 

Raven sucked in a breathe, she looked like she was about to throw up. 

"You have to understand-" Clarke was openly sobbing at this point, she approached Raven who reached out and gently placed both her hands on either side of Clarke's face. 

"Understand this-" she whispered, voice cold, the tears pooling in her eyes gave away her true emotions "Your're dead to me." She let go of the blonde and backed away. 

"I hate everything about you." What she really hated was the way her voice cracked, she wanted to be strong, emotionless, but this fucking hurt. "Go fuck yourself." She turned around and rushed back inside. 

It was quiet after Raven left, no one knew what to say, they just watched Clarke cry.

Clarke took a chance and met Lexas eyes, she hated the way Lexa looked at her like she had no idea who she was. 

"Lexa- I can explain-" 

"So explain." Lexas voice was calm and even, she was honestly at a lost for words, still trying to process what just happened. She shook her head "The Clarke i know wouldn't do something like that." this was alot for her to wrap her head around; she thought Clarke was a virgin! Granted the blonde never outright said that but she didn't exactly deny it or correct her in any way. 

Clarke frowned "Everyone makes mistakes, Lexa, we shouldn't be defined by the person we were when we made them!" 

Lexa frowned "A-are you trying to guilt trip me right now?" 

"No! I just-" she groaned in frustration, there was nothing she could say to make any of this better, she fucked up.

Octavia cleared her throat, she avoided looking at Clarke "I'm gonna go find Raven." Her voice was quiet and she was no doubt still a little drunk, the adrenaline dump she was going through was obvious. 

"No. I'll go, you stay with Clarke- or whoever this person is." She jabbed, it was a low blow  one she regret, she didn't want to kick Clarke whien she was down but she didnt know how else to act. She would apologise to the blonde later.

After a 20 minute search Lexa came across Harper who told her she saw Raven go into the shed out back not too long ago. 

When Lexa stepped inside the shed she couldn't help but notice the room was 4 times the size of her bedroom! 

"Rich people and fucking space." She grumbled to herself.  

"Tell me about it." She jumped when Raven spoke from the corner of the room, she was looking out the small window, staring at the party that was still in full swing. 

"Rich people suck." 

"Tell me about it." Lexa mimicked her words, she considered it a job well done when she received a small smile from Raven.

It was silent for a few minutes, Lexa didn't know what she could possibly say that would comfort her friend right now. 

So she just wait, maybe Raven would talk, maybe she'd just tell her to fuck off, either way she waited.

"I lost my virginity to him." Raven admitted she laughed at herself, at how pathetic she felt. "He was there for me when my mom-" she paused taking a breathe "He gave me a roof over my head when I didn't want to go home. He- how is that the same person that would sleep with my best friend behind my back?" 

"Fuck him" Lexa exclaimed "He doesn't deserve someone like you, never did." 

"Fuck Clarke." Raven said looking at Lexa, she squirmed under the intense stare. "I think your're forgetting that part." 

"Raven-" 

"Be careful what you say Lexa." Raven warned. 

She knew it was idiotic to try and defend Clarke in this situation, but she also knew she couldn't just sit back and listen to Raven shred her.

She sighed "How did you get here? Do you need a ride? What do you need Raven." 

"My ride is almost here." She mumbled

Lexa huffed, she felt awkward, they hadn't spoken in so long, she came out here to make sure Raven was okay, but now what? She didn't really have anything to say.

"I'm sorry he did this to you." Lexa tried, when Raven spun around, fire in her eyes, she knew she said the wrong thing.  

"THEY." Raven yelled "They did this to me! You fucking moron!" Raven picked up plastic wrapping that lay on the floor and launched it at Lexa, it grazed her chest before slowly and pathetically falling to the floor, Lexa stared at the wrapper then at the fuming girl before her.

"That was uncalled for." Lexa said calmy. 

"Fuck you and your slut of a girlfriend just leave me alone." She slumped back in the chair defeated. 

Leca sighed heavily before approaching the sad girl, she got on her knees and gently took Ravens hand in her own. "Raven what they did was wrong. Clarke should've told you, there's no excuse. You have every right to feel the way you do." 

While Lexa spoke Raven saw a flash of blonde hair in her peripheral. She had always been a petty person, it was who she was, she could be mean and bitchy, and if someone hurt her, she'd always make it a priority to get them back. Clarke didn't just hurt her, she ripped out her heart and stomped on it. 

Lexa was taken aback when Raven stood up suddenly, pacing the floor before stopping to face Lexa who was now standing. 

"Why not me?" Raven asked

Leca furrowed her brows in confusion. 

"Is there something wrong with me?" 

Lexa frowned "No." 

"So then why don't you want me?" Raven hate the way Lexa was able to break her walls down without even trying.  

"I-" Lexa opened and closed her mouth, unsure of how to respond.

"Do you ever think about us? What we could've been?" Raven was genieunly curious,  she thought about it all the time.

Lexa shrugged her heart speeding up "You didn't really want me Raven, remember?" 

"What if I want you now?" She asked with a tilt of her head. 

Lexa sucked in a breathe, why was Raven saying these things? Without warning Raven surged forward and claimed her lips, In that same second the door opened revealing Clarke, she looked between the pair before her eyes settled on Raven. 

"You see that's the difference between you and I Raven; I never tried to hurt you on purpose." 

"Get fucked" Raven sneered. 

Clarke swallowed the lump in her throat, this is What she deserved. 

"Clarke, it's not what if looks like-" the blonde didn't let her finish, she turned on her heels and stormed away, Lexa made a move to go after her but was stoped by a hand holding onto her wrist. 

"Let her go, she deserves to cry herself to sleep tonight." 

Lexa frowned "And what about me, is that what I deserve?" 

Raven let go of her hand. 

"When you do shit like that Raven, Clarke isn't the only person your're hurting." 

Raven had the decency to look guilty. 

"But you don't care about that, do you?" 

When Raven didn't say anything Lexa nodded "Noted" without another word or so much as a spare glance she turned and walked away intent on finding Clarke and fixing things. While she was caught in a compromising position just now, Clarke still had some explaining to do of her own.

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"Lexa wait!" Raven hurried after the angry girl who just ignored her and carried on walking. 

"Lexa, slow down." Raven was struggling to keep up with the way Lexa was power walking throigh the pool party. 

When they got inside and Lexa still didn't slow down Raven groaned in frustration

"Lexa will you just fucking stop and talk to me for one goddamn second!" She yelled out in desperation, that got her attention because Lexa spun around abruptly, Raven almost ran into her. 

"Now you wanna talk Raven? After the all the shit you've caused-" 

"I caused?" Raven pointed to herself "Are you forgetting your slut fucked my boyfriend?" 

"Ex Boyfriend!" Lexa corrected "And stop calling her that." She warned. 

"That's what she is-" 

"So what about you?" She cut her off "whoopty-fucking-doo Clarke slept with one dude, but what. About. You. The next time you want to slut shame someone, look no further than a mirror because as far as I'm aware you've been through more bodies than a fucking biologist-" 

The force in which Raven slapped the other girl had her shaking her hand out to stop the stinging sensation. Lexa touched her face where she had been hit, she looked at Raven with a mixture of rage and resentment. 

"Truth hurt?" Lexa said through clenched teeth

"That slap hurt?" Raven retorted. 

"I don't know you want to find out?" Lexa asked stepping closer to the smaller girl who threw her head back and laughed before shoving Lexa away from her. 

"Shiver me fucking timbers. Clarke betrayed my trust-" 

"Jesus Christ i thought it was me but you hands down take the crown for worlds most delusional person." 

They were standing in a quiet corridor but the occasional party goer would walk past them and look on in curiosity, eager to easdrop on any gossip they could share. Neither of them cared. 

"What Clarke did was not intentional, I believe that wholeheartedly, but you-" she pointed an accusing finger at the smaller girl "You have made it your life long mission to hurt her and make her miserable."

"She deserves it. She's a bad friend." Raven said jaw clenched  She would not allow Lexa to make her feel bad about hurting Clarke.  

Lexa chuckled In disbelief "Clarke made a mistake, what you did was premeditated, it was malicious, and spiteful! I'm looking at the bad friend." 

Raven finally looked like she was cracking "I- don't let Clarke be the reason you say something that I can't forgive you for." 

Lexa shook her head "Is that a joke? Raven you've literally played me like a fucking banjo since the moment we met! You don't give a shit about me, you use me and you twist and bend and fucking manipulate every single thing until it's in your favour! And I'm starting to think maybe Clarke was right about you! you aren't happy unless everyone else around you is fucking miserable!"

Raven scoffed with tears in her eyes "Ouch" 

They stared at eachother for a solid five seconds before Raven gave in with a deep sigh. 

"What if- what if I just really like you, and I'm struggling with how to deal with it, how to watch you and Clarke be all lovey dovey." 

Lexa chuckled shaking her head "I'm getting dejavu, I could've sworn we went down this road already." 

"I like you Lexa." Raven took a small step towards her, it was like there was some invisible barrier in between them. 

"You like the idea of me, the idea that you can use me to get back at Clarke." 

Raven shook her head "Maybe at first, but, I don't know, you-" 

Lexa threw her head back and laughed, it hurt Raven that she's fucked the other girl over so much it's now a joke to even think Raven could have actual feelings for her.

"How stupid do you think I am? No seriously, give me a little credit." 

"Lexa-" 

"No. You just found out that the love of your life and Clarke did the nasty and now after purposely kissing me in front of Clarke, your're standing in front of me professing how much you like me? And I'm supposed to what? Make my speech now on how much your feelings are reciprocated?" 

"I meant what I said" Raven said in a quiet voice. 

"How do you expect me to believe a single word that comes out of your mouth when you've done nothing but use me and lie to me." 

"Yo!" They both turned to see Anya jogging over.

"Anya" she let out a sigh of relief, Anya had a knack for always being in the right place at the right time.

"There you are! I've been looking everywhere for you." Anya looked between the pair before her eyes settled on Raven. 

"You good?" 

"Peachy"

"Where is everyone?" Lexa asked looking around at the party that was still in full swing, she couldn't see her brother, Clarke, or anyone else in the group for that matter. 

"They left, I think Clarke was crying so Octavia and Lincoln took her home, Roan left with some chick and I stayed behind to look for you. What happen with Finn dudes a mess." 

"Long story. I'm ready to leave." Anya could feel the tension in the air when she approached the two brunettes, Raven looked like she was about to cry and lexa looked pissed. 

"Are you coming or-" 

Raven checked her phone "Negative, my rides here." She glanced over at Lexa briefly, the taller girl refused to even look in her direction. 

"It was nice seeing you Ahn." 

"Yeah, you-" Raven walked off before Anya could respond properly "too-" she trailed off "Rude" she mumbled under her breathe.

Lexa and Anya awkwardly trailed behind her as they were all headed in the same direction. 

"Lexa!" She heard someone call out to her upon stepping outside, when she looked around her eyes settled on Ontari.

"Hey sexy." Lexa rolled her eyes, Ontari was an annoying flirt. 

"Ontari" she said her name in greeting "You selling here?" 

"Nah,  came to get my favourite bird." She joked putting her arm around Ravens shoulder. 

Lexa had only just noticed her standing there,  she cleared her throat. "You too are friends?" 

"Something like that-" when Raven started tugging her away towards her car she spoke over her shoulder "I gotta dash but make sure you call me Lexa you fucking sell out."

It had been a while since Lexa hung out with Ontari and her friends, she wasn't smoking as much as she did before so there was really no point, they were cool people but it's not like Lexa was hanging around them because they were so fucking philosophical and she was interested in anything they had to say...she got high with them, and now she doesn't.

Lexa and Anya both watched on as Raven and Ontari got in the car before it took off down the long drive. 

"That chick and her friends do hardcore drugs right?" 

"Yeah" 

"Raven shouldn't be hanging around them, right?" 

Lexa turned to Anya with an annoyed look on her face "Yeah, no shit Ahn" 

Anya rolled her eyes "Well what should we do about it smartass." 

Lexa scoffed "We?" 

"I get you might not be on good terms but all of a sudden you don't care?" Anya said as they both got in Lexas car. 

"Oh I care, I just don't feel like being her knight in shining armor, she's a big girl, I'm sure she can take care of herself." Lexa waited not so patiently when a group of drunk partygoers wondered around the parking space,  effectively blocking her exit. 

"Send me Ontaris address, I'm gonna go over there,  check up on her." 

"Good luck with that." Lexa beeped her car horn repeatedly trying to clear the people from the way.

"You coming?" 

"No. I need to go and talk to Clarke." Lexa grumbled exiting the large drive through the metal gates, she drove down the long lonely road slow, trying to take this time and gather her thoughts. 

"Is Raven why she was upset earlier? I overheard some of what Clarke said to Octavia when she was crying." 

"Partly."

Anya took a moment to observe her best friend, she looked like she was on the verge of tears. 

"Raven kissed me and Clarke saw." Lexa admitted "Why does she keep doing this to me Anya?" Lexas tone reeked of self pity  Anya fought the urge to roll her eyes. 

"Better question is: Why do you keep doing this to yourself?" 

Lexa frowned "What are you talking about?" She asked dumbfounded 

"What are you talking about" Anya mimicked in a voice meant to be Lexas, except it was incredibly exaggerated. 

"That was unnecessary." Lexa said dead pan. 

"No, what's unnecessary is your brain, because you never seem to use it anyway-" 

"Anya-" Lexa growled annoyed at the girls relentless jabs,  she wasn't in the mood.

"Look-" Anya said forfeiting the teasing for now. "I like Raven, she's my kind of people, but the girls also a ginormous asshole." 

Leca nodded making a face as if to say what Anya said was true. 

"And because she's only human Lex, the girls fucking selfish. Now don't get me wrong I'm sure she cares about you and your feelings and shit but I'm also pretty sure she cares about hers a little more right now." 

"Is there a point to this?" Lexa was genieunly confused, and what Anya was saying made her think she overheard the conversation she just had with Raven.

Anya didn't hold back the gigantic eye roll this time. "You can't expect her to have your best interest at heart Lex; she's hurting, and not everyone's a big softie like you." She smiled at her naive friend. 

"Raven is-" Anya paused blowing out a breath "Hell hath no fury like a woman scorned,  need I say more?" 

"Stay away from her?" Lexa said it like a question but she already knew what the answer was. 

"Stay away from her." Anya confirmed sadly "I kmow she's your friend and you care about her but care about yourself for a second, because I hate to say it but Ravens going to be the reason you graduate miserable and single" Anya tried to joke a little but Lexa was deep in thought. 

Anya was right, she couldn't allow Raven to get in between her and Clarke anymore, nothing was worth losing the blonde for good. 

"You might really like Clarke-" Anya started

"I like her. No if, and, or buts. Clarke's special." Lexa took a moment to look away from the wheel and stare deep into Anyas eyes so she could read her, Anya had always been good at reading her. 

Anya smiled looking at Lexa with curious eyes "I've never seen you this wrapped up in someone before, not even Costia. What's so special about her anyway?" Anya said narrowing her eyes, best friend instincts coming out automatically. 

"I don't even fucking know-" 

"Course you do." 

Lexa bit her lip, a nervous gesture "She makes me feel like me. Like I'm here, like I'm real, I'm okay and-" Lexa paused struggling to find the right words. 

In the end She settled on her initial words "She makes me feel like me Ahn" 

Leca didn't have to say anything else, Anya knew the depth and meaning in what she said, simple words, possibly even simple expectations, but she knew how much that meant to Lexa; being herself. 

In the beginning Anya was cautious of the fact that Lexa might develop strong feeling for the blonde, now she was being hit with the realisation that Lexa may already be head over heels in love.

Soft knocking on her bedroom door pulled her out of the trance she was in. The door slowly pushed open and her mom's head popped in,

"Hi sweetie, so I was just wondering if we're definitely ignoring Lexa yelling your name outside? She sucks at whispering" 

Clarke rolled her eyes but quickly shot up when Abby made a move to turn on her bedroom light. "No!" She whisper yelled "No lights, we're still ignoring her" 

Abby sighed "Alright" she looked at her daughter, the only light source being the hallway light that was on "Do you want to talk about it?" She asked in a sympathetic tone.

Clarke shook her head "No mom, I don't want to talk" Her mom wouldn't understand, there was no point. 

"I'll say this then, I don't know what she did to deserve this, but what I do know is that despite how I've treated her in the past, she's a really good kid Clarke. In fact she's great, a free spirit roaming this earth willing to take on anything head first-" 

Clarke furrowed her brows and looked over at her mom standing in the doorway, she wasn't sure where this was going, but she was interested. 

"I admire that about her, I actually think that one of the reasons I didn't like her was because I was envious. Envious of how confident she was, of how easy it was for her to be so different and just own it, embrace it. I wish I could've had that spirit when I was her age, maybe I wouldn't be 39 wondering 'what if'?" 

Clarke felt her heart pick up, she knew her mom and dad were going through problems, but she definitely didn't know it was this bad. Was she really that unhappy with her marriage? Has she fallen out of love? Clarke won't act like she hasn't seen a shift in the way her parents interact with each other, they can be so standoffish at times,  ready to snap at eachother for any little thing, it's toxic, even she can see that. 

"You regret the way your life turned out?" She asked

Abby just looked at her and smiled "How could I regret you baby girl? You are literally the best thing that ever happened to me." 

The stray tear that fell was shooed away as quickly as it came,  a smile spread across her face. She didn't even know what to say, so she waited for her mom to continue. 

"What I'm trying to say is I'm a Doctor, I know how to read people, and Lexa isn't leaving anytime soon. She cares about you. The way she looks at you, Clarke..." her Mother trailed off with a small sigh "Your father used to look at me the same way, when we were teenagers-" she chuckled "It's like I had him under a spell" Clarke laughed at that, not missing the fact that her mother used past tense to describe their infatuation with each other. "I See it in her eyes, you should take a closer look. I don't believe she'd ever hurt you on purpose." 

Clarke couldn't believe what she was hearing from start to now, she thought her mom hated Lexa, but she found herself being wrong about a few things lately. 

"What if I did something that hurt her, and now I'm scared to face her?" She muttered, 

"what did you do," Abby asked 

"I-I wasn't honest with her" 

"So you lied to her?"

"No! I didn't lie, I just- I just messed up really bad, okay." 

"Okay, Well Clarke part of being an adult is to own up to whatever it is you did wrong and face the consequences head on, when you're wrong you're wrong, all you can do is hope that she can forgive you." 

Clarke sighed "What if she kind of- well- what I'm trying to say is what if I feel hurt from something she did? Even if it was a reaction to what I did. It's complicated i know." Why she was telling Abby all of this was beyond her. "I'm not going into too much detail but just know that I feel like she abandoned me. I-I think i feel insecure." She admitted before instantly regretting it "Actually I don't think I want to talk about this anymore Mom." 

"Clarke-" Abby started 

"No mom please, listen to me for once, please." 

"Okay. Okay sweetie, you win." Abby didn't want to push her daughter too far, this is the most she's opened up to her in years. "I like Lexa, I hope you work it out. Although if you tell me what she did and I don't like it, I'll go out there and give her hell." Clarke laughed, she actually, wholeheartedly laughed at something her mom said, her life was really getting weird. 

"Seriously-" she started again "storm Abby is not something she'd survive Clarke." She put both her arms up in a flexing pose "look at these guns, I work out." She joked

Clarke couldn't stop laughing "Okay there storm Abby, reign it in, we didn't get a weather warning." 

"Alright, I'm just saying. Goodnight." She whispered the last part with a smile. 

"Night" Clarke said, as Abby was half way out the door she called out to her "Hey mom" 

Abby turned around "Hey daughter?" 

Clarke chuckled "thanks, thanks a lot. I love you." 

Abby smiled like her heart just melted "I love you more baby, sleep well." 

It had been about 40 minutes since her conversation with Clarke and it was now 3:00am. Lexa was still outside. She got up to pee, took a peek outside, and there she was, sleeping in her car. Abby would never admit it to anyone but her heart broke for her. 

So now she was standing in the kitchen preparing two mugs of steaming hot chocolate with whipped cream and marsh mellows. 

"Abs? What are you doing?" Jake shuffled into the kitchen with his eyes squinted, he had clearly been sleeping. 

"Lexas still outside." 

"Seriously? It's 3am! I should go talk to her, do one of thoes belong to her?" He asked as he watched Abby put the two mugs on a tray. 

"Yes, but I'll go." She stated confidently.

"You sure?" Jake asked with a small smile

"I'm sure." She nodded

"Alright mama bear, go work your magic." He teased, he was loving every minute of this.

As Abby approached the car she saw that Lexa was definitely sound asleep, she rolled her eyes looking around. That was definitely dangerous no matter what neighborhood. 

She tapped on the window softly causing Lexa to jostle awake almost immediately, looking around in alert before she saw Abby and let out a relieved breathe.

"Mrs Griffin, you scared me" Lexa said rolling down her window. "I'm- I, me sitting out here isn't- What I'm trying to say is-" 

"You've been sitting out here for the past 2 hours. Now, can I come in?" She decided to save Lexa from any awkwardness.  

"Yeah, I mean yes! Of course you can" Lexa got out of the car and jogged around to the passenger side, opening the door for the older Griffin. Abby tried her best to hide the smile that wanted to break out so bad, she failed. 

A few minutes had gone by where they settled into the car and drank their hot chocolate in silence. "What happened?" Abby asked abruptly.  

"Oh, Clarke hasn't told you?" Lexa asked surprised 

"No, but you will." She smiled softly to encourage the  girl to speak. 

"Um, she um- Raven kissed me" she blurted out "she kissed me and Clarke saw." 

Abby brows shot up in surprise, "Wow, I do not miss high school" 

Lexa chuckled "Yeah, there's not much to be envious of. I mean apart from youth." Lexa added after a second thought "No offence, no offence at all." She rushed out 

Abby smiled "None taken. Why did she kiss you? I know her and Clarke are having a lover's quarrel right now but still" 

"She said she liles me" Lexa had no idea why she was saying all of this to Clarke's mom but she thought why not? it was 1am and she's high on hot chocolate. 

"Wow, quite the triangle. How do you feel?"

Lexa shrugged "Raven says and does a lot of things she doesn't mean." 

Abby shook her head "But how do you feel, Lexa?" She asked looking over at the teen as she immediately opened her mouth but shut it again just as quickly. "What were you going to say?" When Lexa just stared at her she got more curious. 

After a few seconds Lexa spoke "I-, I'm in love with your daughter Mrs Griffin" she said it to Clarke's mom before Clarke, but she didn't regret it, it actually almost felt like a weight was lifted off her shoulders, she felt relief saying it out loud again, because it felt like confirmation. 

"And do you mean that? Is that your heart speaking?" 

Lexa looked over to Clarke's bedroom window, a smile spread across her face, "Honestly, my hearts been telling me to sit out here for the past 2 hours and wait." 

"Wait for what?" 

"Wait for Clarke." Lexa looked at Abby in the eyes, the older woman furrowed her brows.

"She's not coming out here Lexa." 

"Then you'll be seeing me this time tomorrow night" 

"And if she still doesn't want to talk to you?" 

"Lets just say you should probably stock up on hot chocolate and marsh mellows, it's my favourite." She smiled as she popped one in her mouth. 

Abby couldn't help the laugh that escaped her "Alright Lexa, let's go inside, the guest room is waiting for you." Lexa looked like she was about to protest "It's not up for discussion Lexa, now move your butt out of this car." She was stern but her eyes were soft, Lexa smiled with a nod before they got out Abby spoke. 

"I don't know where your mom is-" Lexas head snapped up In surprise "But she's missing out on an amazing kid. Let's go inside."

Chapter Text

Clarke didn't want to come to school today, her mom gave her a little pep talk in the morning to try and cheer her up but when Clarke was still reluctant Abby pretty much reminded her that she didn't actually have a choice in the matter. 

She was going to school, whether she wanted to or not.

She hasn't spoken to anyone since the party not even Octavia, she was terrified of having to look at her friends disapproving faces as she attempted to explain herself, as she tried to muster up some sort of justification because there wasn't one, what she did was fucking shitty and truth be told she felt ashamed, like she had done something so low down dirty it was almsot unforgivable.

Everything From Ravens heart shattering right before her eyes, the disappointed look on Octavia face, and Lexa looking at her like she was a stranger was too fucking much for her too handle, everytime she thought about it she wanted to crawl into a dark cave and never come back out. 

Even though she had ignored Octavia all weekend the girl had still sent her a text in the morning offering her a ride to school, she ignored it of course and before leaving her house she peeped out the windows like an idiot just to make sure Octavia didn't just show up anyway because if that was the case she'd be leaving out the back door. 

The whole MIA thing she was doing was honestly fucking stupid at this point, because she was going to school and then what? She'd put on her invisibility cloak? No. She was absolutely going to see all the people she had been avoiding, but it didn't hurt to buy herself some time, figure out what she was going to say, especially to Lexa. 

Lexa. 

Lexa who had stayed over at her house Saturday night thanks too Abby, Lexa who stayed for breakfast, also upon Abbys request, and what did Clarke do? She stayed in her room the entire fucking time. 

Lexa, bless her soul had even knocked her bedroom door before she left, she asked for Clarke to just come out and talk to her, she reassured her that she wasn't mad and that she just wanted to talk to the blonde face to face. 

The poor girl obviously spoke to a wooden door the entire time because Clarke said nothing, she couldn't even muster up the courage or the decency to give the brunette even a teeny tiny hint that she had heard or acknowledged a word she said. It was immature and probably pathetic but that's what she did and she'd do it again, because she messed up and now her insecurities have her In a fucking chokehold.  

She barely even thought about Raven making a move on Lexa at the party, the memory tried to creep it's way into her mind a few times but it was swiftly removed. If she was going to hold onto something good, it was that Lexa would never do anything like that intentionally, if nothing else the brunette respected her, she cared about her, that doesn't just go away in the blink of an eye, or at least she hoped. 

Thanks to the bus she was running a little late, which was a good thing because it brought het more time to avoid her friends, she wouldn't run into them in the parking lot or corridors as everyone was loitering around before the bell rang, but being late was also a bad thing because now she had to walk into class while everyone else was already seated, that meant every fucking eye in the room would be on her, and by now the news of what went down at the party had to be public knowledge, everyone had to have been gossiping about her all weekend, everyone had to have been fucking judging her. 

She walked through the corridors slowly, trying to slow down her racing heart before she reached her class. She wasn't sure whether or not God was actually on her side in this matter, because Lexa wasn't in her first period but Finn and Raven were, Octavia would be there too which was good, she didn't want to have to explain herself to the girl but she at least knew that in that awkward situation Octavia was a safe place. 

Clarke took a brief moment to really contemplate on which one would've been worse, having to see Lexa first or her current predicament, what she really wished she could've done was avoid either at all cost.

The blonde wasn't far from class when she felt  someone grab her arm and tug her into the nearest janitors closet. 

She looked up and came face to face with Finn. 

She was angry that he touched her, angry that she was looking at his face 60 seconds sooner than she would have if she had made it to class, but mostly really confused about what he was doing in the closet to begin with. In the end her curious nature won out. 

"Wha- what were you doing in here?" She asked confused. 

"I was waiting for you." 

She frowned "I- what?" 

"My buddy text me and said he saw you waking into school from the window of his class." 

Clarke sighed, great, she was definitely the talk of the school, she took a deep breath to compose herself before looking back at Finn. 

"Fuck off." She said attempting to leave the closet, he grabbed her arm to stop her, he was being too rough and she was getting more pissed off by the second. 

"Finn, if you touch me again 10 years from now you'll remember this moment and know I'm the reason you can't have kids. Now get fucked!" She growled. 

"I just-" 

"You just what?" She interrupted him. "You ruined everything!" She yelled.

He scoffed "I didn't make you have sex with me and then lie about it, you did that all on your own." 

"Okay first of all, I did not lie. I withheld the truth for a period of time but I was going to tell her!" She was trying to defend herself here, there's no way she'd allow someone like Finn Collins to look down at her, fuck that. "You just beat me to it because you're a slimy piece of shit." 

"You know what? Fuck you Clarke, even now when your web of lies has collapsed in on itself, you still can't even admit you were fucking wrong! You'd rather blame it all on me because you're too scared to admit that you're just as shitty a person as I am." He was going to apologise to the blonde, let her know that he regret throwing her under the bus the way he did but where he thought the blonde was knocked off her high horse, she seemed to still be holding on for dear life. 

Clarke barked out a laugh, they were probably being far too loud at this point but honestly neither one of them cared. 

"Web of lies? Give me a break! You're so desperate to villianize me because I'm sure it must be lonely for you waiting in the line going straight to hell." Clarke said mockingly. 

Finn laughed incredulously "You're so delusional you don't even know you're in the very same line ahead of me!" 

"You know what Finn, just stop, leave me alone, okay? You won. Raven hates my guts, my friends don't even know who I am, and the entire school either thinks I'm a slut or a bitch friend." She sighed in defeat, instead of being in class right now with her head buried in a textbook to avoid everyone else around her, she was in a janitors closet having a screaming match with Finn. 

This is absolutely not what was on her agenda today, she planned on not even looking In Finns direction, let alone exchanging words with him, wasting her breath on him. She was over this conversation. 

She gave Finn one last dirty look before promptly exiting the closet. 

When she walked into class she didn't even look at anyone as the teacher berated her for being late, when she heard whispers and chuckles she looked up to see that Finn had come in, she mentally cursed, her and Finn arriving to class at the same time was not a good look, she saw Octavia looking at then with her brows furrowed, she looked a little disturbed. 

Clarke looked over at Finn as the teacher laid into him too, he glanced at her with his trademark smug smirk, she narrowed her eyes, he did this on purpose, now if there isn't already one, a rumour that they've still got some sort of fling going on will be the next talk of the school.

Great, just what she needed, another rumour circulating the halls, as if she doesn't have enough to feel like shit about.

"Clarke's here." 

"What?" Lexa said putting on her backpack as she followed behind Roan.

The pair walked out of 3rd period and made their way towards the cafeteria for lunch. 

"We had physics together second period." Roan said. "Everyone's been talking about her and Finn, you haven't heard?" 

"No. I.tend to have selective hearing when it comes to gossip that might piss me off. What is it?" She mumbled already mad at the situation. 

"Apparently they came to school together this morning." 

Lexa scoffed looking at Roan with her eyebrows crinckled. "Yeah-fucking right. That's a lie." 

Roan shrugged "I don't know, Rebecca from English said she was in first period when they walked into class together." 

"It's. A. Lie." Lexa repeated glaring at Roan.

"I mean, think what you want but I don't see the point in you being in denial. They had sex, they're probably still fooling around." 

Lexa frowned "What? You sound fucking stupid, Clarke and I are dating, you think she'd do something like that? You clearly don't know her." 

Roan snorted "Well turns out neither do you." 

"What's your problem? I mean, you're usually a dick but today you're breaking records." 

"This entire time we've been looking at Raven like she's the bad guy when it was really Clarke."

Lexa stopped walking and Roan followed suit, they both stood in the middle of the corridor as other kids walked around them to get to the cafeteria. 

"Clarke may have slept with Finn but he and Raven weren't together." She defended. 

"Riiiight, because that makes it much better." Roan said his tone dripping with sarcasm. "She told you she was a virgin which was a lie because she fucked Finn, and whether you want to accept it or not they walked into class together this morning. She's a liar Lexa. Stop being naive." 

Lexa got in his face and jabbed him in the chest "You don't know anything about her, so I suggest you shut your mouth before I do it for you." 

Roan pushed Lexa out of his face "Really Lexa? You gonna fight me over some girl you haven't even fucked? How is it possible to be pussy whipped without even getting any?" 

The push made her stumble back slightly but she stepped right back up to him. "You know how I feel about her Roan, it's not about sex! I Lo- I like her, a lot." 

"I like her too Lex, that doesn't mean she's not a bit-" 

"Roan." Lexa cut him off. "I will kick your ass,  right here, and right now." 

He chuckled "Correction: you'll try to kick my ass." 

Lexa pushed him, he pushed her back, just when their little pushing match was getting intense Lincoln ran in between them pushing them both apart. 

"What the hell are you two doing?" Anya said standing next to Lincoln.  

"She's got a fucking stick wedged up her ass!" Roan yelled Ponting at Lexa as Anya put a hand on his chest to stop him from moving forward.

"Oh yeah, keep fucking talking." Lexa said trying to push past Lincoln and get to Roan. 

"You both sound super dumb." Anya said exasperated.

"You both look even dumber. Just stop, whatever this argument is about, it's over." Lincoln said, his voice calm. 

This was nothing new to them, Lexa and Roan fought all the time, the two really did hate to love each other.

"He's talking shit about Clarke!" Lexa tried to justify her anger.  

"I'm just saying what everyone else is thinking!" 

"You're supposed to be my friend, you're supposed to have my back." Lexa shoved him slightly, Anya tugged Lincoln back, they were still pushing each other but Anya was confident a fight wouldn't break out, best thing to do was just let them talk it out, they always did.

Roan didn't push her back this time  instead he threw his arms up in exasperation. "I do have your back! That's why I don't want to see you get hurt." 

Lexa deflated,  she knew Roan meant well, he just always had a shit approach. 

"Clarke wouldn't hurt me Roan, at least not on purpose." 

"She already has hurt you." 

"You're acting like I'm some saint! I hurt her too, I fucked up too." 

"Yeah but the difference is you're woman enough to own up to your mistakes. Clarke is avoiding you like the plague. I've had to deal with you moping around all weekend wondering why she just won't fucking talk to you. For all your faults and mistakes, you've never not once avoided her, you've always had the decency to explain yourself, to fucking communicate. What she's doing isn't fair." 

Lexa thought Roan didn't know, but he knows alright, he knows exactly how much Clarke means to her, that's why he's so angry at Clarke, he doesn't want to see his best friend get her heart broken. 

"You can blame her for being apprehensive when there are people thinking and doing exactly what you are right now, you're judging, summing up her character after a mistake she made. I've made plenty, but you still support me. Clarke's not a bad person, show her the same sentiments. Give her a chance." 

Roan sighed, Lexa was right, perhaps he was being way too harsh with his judgments, Clarke is a sweet girl, and she's got Lexa smitten, one mistake doesn't define her. 

Truth is he also just felt really bad for Raven, she didn't deserve to be hurt by the two people she cared about the most. 

"Okay." He conceded. "Okay. Even though I was 10 seconds away from knocking some sense into you, turns out I was the one who was being senseless, Clarke's not all bad, I'm just trying to protect you. You're a pain in my ass but I love you Lex." 

Lexa smiled rolling her eyes "I love you too dickhead." She said pulling him into a hug, Anya rolled her eyes and Lincoln grinned. 

The four of them finally made it to the cafeteria. Lexa was in the line for lunch, she got her food and turned around to go over to the table that her friends were at when she collided with another body, her tray and her food fell on the ground. 

"Shit! I'm so- Lexa." Clarke said caught off guard. 

"Hi." Lexa said staring at Clarke, she wanted to be mad at the blonde for ignoring her all weekend, she wanted to be mad at her for all the gossip and the bullshit, but as soon as she looked into those ocean blue eyes, she felt secure again, she felt safe, because all the gossip and the rumours it was all bullshit, Clarke was all that mattered. 

"Lex, I-" Clarke started to say. 

"Jesus Christ, it's a good thing you never made the football team, you can barely coordinate when you walk, no one wants to see the shit show you'd cause on the field.".Finn said loudly from his table. 

Lexa looked up and noticed that they gained the attention of half of the cafeteria when her tray fell. She stared at Finn, when he smirked she felt the anger rise, her hands curled into fist, her arm practically twitching to swing.

"How are you guys? Still dating or?...I honestly can't keep up. Clarke's really indecisive." 

Finn looked so smug, Lexa didn't know how she was restraining herself

"I'll make it clear for you to avoid any confusion moving forward, you don't talk to me and you don't talk to her." She gestured towards Clarke who bit her lip nervously. Clarke has actually never seen Lexa freak out and get into any fight but she's can't forget the reason Lexa got expelled from her old school to begin with, the brunette is very capable of violence, but around the time they met and started becoming friends Lexa swor off fighting, and Clarke would like to keep it that way.

"Or what? Are you threatening me?" Finn said standing up. 

"I'm warning you Finn. I don't want to have to do anything rash but you're pushing it. You've caused enough damage, now it's time to back off" 

When Finn clenched his fist Clarke knew he was going to do something just to prove a point since Lexa was kind of bitching him right now and none of his friends were getting involved, instead they snickered quietly.

Boys like Finn didn't appreciate being spoke  down too, in fact they thrived off the exact oposit, sitting on a throne while everyone crawled on their hands and knees beneath them.

"Finn-" Clarke tried to stop him from coming any closer but as she took a step to stand in front of Lexa she tripped on the continent's of her fallen lunch tray, she braced for impact but she never touched the floor, Lexa had caught her and was standing her back up right. They smiled at each other, but the moment was short lived.

"I guess we can add clutz to the long list of why Clarke Griffin should be avoided." One of the cheerleaders at Finns table piped up. 

Lexa saw the moment Clarkes face fell and it made her heart ache, the blonde looked like she wanted the floor to open up and swallow her whole. Lexa opened her mouth to say something to the bitchy cheerleader but when Clarke looked at her and shook her head she held back.

"Not only will she steal your boyfriend, she'll walk all over you in the process." Another cheerleader joined in laughing, Lexa recognised her as Olivia, that girl she slept with when she first got transferred here. 

"Are you done?" Clarke said looking between the two girls. 

"Wait, will she walk all over you because she's a boyfriend stealing bitch or because she's a clutz?" The first cheerleader asked ignoring her.

Olivia looked the blonde up and down "Both." She said causing the entire table to burst out Into laughter. 

Octavia came over all guns blazing "You two airheads are the last ones who should be talking. Tara aren't you dating Atom? Then why did the entire band team catch your bestie Olivia sucking his dick under the bleachers last week?" 

The kids that were watching the scene unfold simultaneously mumbled 'Oooo' to hype up the situation. 

Olivia looked shocked. "Tara she's literally lying." 

"Roan!" Octavia yelled out without even looking away from the two cheerleaders. 

"Yo!" He responded grinning from ear to ear, he lived for cafeteria fights between girls, they were always entertaining. 

"I could've sworn your friend from band sent you a picture he took?" 

"Hell yeah he did." 

"Why don't you go ahead and forward that to me, there's a boyfriend stealing bitch that needs to be exposed." Octavia said smirking.

Tara frowned and Olivia gasped as they went back and forth with Octavia, it effectively took the attention off of Clarke and Lexa. 

The blonde was about to walk away when lexa gently grabbed her hand. "Please don't walk away from me." 

"Lexa, I don't know what you want me to say. I messed up." Clarke said on the verge of tears. 

"That's okay. You're not expected to be perfect, I know I call you that all the time but I know that you're only human, sometimes we mess up and that's okay. But I want you to know that I don't believe any of the bullshit going around school, if it didn't come from your mouth then I don't believe it, becuse you'd never lie to me, I have more trust in you than these emotional terrorist. You can talk to me, I'm here to listen, Clarke, I'm on your side. I promise. Just please stop shutting me out. It hurts." 

Lexa reached out and wiped away a stray tear from Clarkes face, the blonde sniffled reaching out to take lexas hand she squeezed it, Lexa squeezed back. 

Clarke looked over to make sure Octavia was okay, sure enough instead of Octavia fighting the two cheerleaders were now arguing with each other. She looked back at Lexa and smiled "Can we get out of here?" 

"You took the words right out of my mouth." Lexa said pulling Clarke in, Clarke wraps her arms around her waist, holding her tight as she buries her face in her chest. 

"My parents had been at each others throats for a while, and I don't mean the normal marital bickering, I mean constantly having these explosive arguments. One day during the summer I overheard them arguing and my mom said she wanted a divorce." 

They ditched school and Lexa drove them to her parents old tree house, the car ride there was silent the soft music playing through the radio filled the quiet. 

Once they got to the tree house Lexa opened her arms for Clarke and the blonde accepted the contact without hesitation, they were sitting down on the floor of the tree house in a comfortable embrace, Clarke played with Lexas fingers as she opened up to the brunette about what went on during the summer.

"I didn't take it serious because they were arguing, people say hurtful things to each other in the heat of the moment, right, so I chalked it up as that, but then the next day I over heard them talking about how they were going to tell me and how I'd react to it."

Lexa frowned, Abby and Jake always seemed so stable, it's strange to think that they were going to divorce. Even though the blonde would never admit it she gets the impression that Clarke has always looked up to her mom and the solidarity of her marriage, she admired her parents and their love for each other, to think that it all was about to come crumbling down must have been hard for her. 

 "I freaked out and left, went to the mall to clear my head, that's were I ran into Finn. He saw me crying and was comforting me, I was upset and alone so I let him, and Finn can be charming when he wants too be, I guess my vulnerability in that moment made it easier for me to fall for his fucking performances. It's not an excuse I just-" 

"Hey, you don't need to justify anything to me, I'm not here to judge you, I'm here to listen and understand." Lexa reassured the blonde, Clarke gave her a soft smile.

The blonde blew out a breathe before continuing "We sat in the food court at the mall and talked for hours, he let me vent about how I was feeling and I needed that, I needed someone to talk too. He invited me over to his house and I guess one thing led to another-" she sat up abruptly "-and we only had sex twice, so when he says we did it all throughout the summer he's lying." 

"I believe you." Lexa nodded. 

Clarke sighed "Why are you being so nice to me? I lied to you, to everyone." 

Lexa shook her head "You didn't lie, you were just scared to admit what had happened, I get it." 

"I hurt Raven." 

"You hurt each other." 

"Yeah but what I did was fucked up." 

"Well what she did wasn't any better." 

"She wasn't in school today." Clarke pointed out. 

"Octavia said she texted her that she wasn't up for it." 

Clarke closed her eyes and buried her head in her hands "How are we ever going to salvage any kind of friendship after all of this? We both hurt each other but I still care about her, I always will, she's one of my best friends, and now she hates me." 

"You both can still recover, you just need to give each other time and space to heal. When your heart mends forgiveness seems a lot less impossible." 

"I don't know, she was in love with Finn, maybe deep down she still is, love like that, the dependent kind, it doesn't just disappear over the course of one summer." 

"Finn is despicable, I hate that a prick like him was able to play you both." Lexa clenched her jaw in frustration, she wanted to hurt that boy so badly. 
.
"Well we let him, what does that say about us? Clarke chuckled, Lexa still looked pissed off though. 

"Look Clarke, about what you saw at the party-" 

Clarke shook her head 'We don't have to talk about that." 

"Yes we do, I like you so fucking much, and it hurts me that I allow Raven to use me to hurt you." 

"She just found out I slept with her ex behind her back, what better way to get back at me than to try and make out with my girlfriend. Ravens always been petty like that." 

Lexa smiled "Did you just refer to me as your girlfriend?" 

Clarke blushed "You called me your girlfriend to your dad." 

"I did." 

They both stared at each other. 

"You know I had a crush on you before you transferred." Clarke never thought she'd confess that, it probably made her sound pathetic.  

Lexa looked like she wasn't buying it "Shut up, you did not." 

"I'm serious, when our schools went up against each other at sporting events I'd always notice you.". Clarke fingers brushed across every inch of Lexas face in the most delicate way. 

"You stood out to me. So beautiful...You were a magnet, everyone just always seemed to gravitate towards you, it was fascinating to me, like live action art." Clarke gently brushed her thumb across Lexas full lips.

"Live action art?" Lexa teased.

Clarke blushed "You know what I mean." 

"Sure I do. What we have here is the classic case of 'I fell for my stalker."

Clarke shook her head, smilling "Oh whatever." Clarkes hand had stopped roaming and was rested on lexas cheek, when the blonde made a move to pull away Lexa gently took hold of her wrist, keeping her hand in place. 

"I wish I could say I saw you, but I was in this world of superficial bullshit before I met you. To be honest every moment we've spent together leading up to now, I've never felt more like myself."

"I bet you say that to all the girls." Clarke joked, she was blushing and didn't know how to respond to lexas sweet confession.

"I really like you Clarke." 

"You said that already." The blonde teased. 

"I can't say it enough." 

"I really like you too Lex." 

"Then be my girlfriend? Like officially." Lexa asked quietly, she was uncharacteristically nervous. 

"I'll be yours as long as you promise you'll be mine." Clarke said cheesily. 

"That's heavily implied within the title of girlfriend." Lexa said. 

They both laughed. 

Clarke cradled Lexas face in her hands, she used her thumb and softly caressed her cheek before leaning in and capturing her lips in a soft kiss. 

As the kiss got deeper Clarke snaked her arms around Lexas shoulders and softly gripped the back of her neck, lexas arm automatically went around the blondes waist, she pulled her close so that the shorter girl was now straddling her. 

When they pulled apart Lexa peppered kisses all over Clarke's face making her giggle. 

"You just have to promise me something. And in return I'll do something for you." Lexa said in a serious tone. Clarke nod her head slowly as she wait for her to say it.

"You ignored me. I opened myself up too you and you shut me out." Lexa said with a frown. "I know you were scared and I know I probably didn't make anything better with the way I acted at the party but you can't do anything like that again. It fucking hurt." 

Clarke looked a little guilty, she knew it was stupid and unfair especially since Lexa was trying so hard to reach out but she did it anyway, she had a habit of running away from her problems until there was just nowhere else to run. 

It hurt her to shut Lexa out but truth be told she just needed space and time to work out how she was going to deal with the situation, perhaps it would've been better to just communicate that to the brunette instead of just ignoring her existence.

"Deal?" Lexa said holding out her pinkie.

Clarke let out a soft chuckle. "Deal." She said entwining their small fingers. 

"And i promise to keep my distance from Raven. I want you and I to work out and she's kind of toxic." Lexa said. 

Clarke furrowed her brows "We're teenagers Lex, we're all a little toxic. Don't stop talking to her on my account, she cares about you, I know she does. She values your friendship, and she could use a friend like you now more than ever, don't abandon her because of me, I don't want that." Clarke said shaking her head. 

"Well what if she tries something with me again?" Lexa thought about not telling Clarke that Raven alluded to having genuine feelings for her, but then she remembered their promise to not shut each other out and part of that meant being honest. 

"Clarke, Raven- she- she said she has feeling foe me, like real feelings, well at least I think they're real, I can never really tell with Raven, she's a good actress, good at pretending, I don't really trust her." That realisation made Lexas stomach turn. 

She liked Raven as a person, or at least the version of herself that Lexa had the privilege to see. They got along like a house on fire, but with everything that's gone on between them and Clarke, Lexa trusted Raven about as far as she could throw her. 

And honestly when she's around Raven it's like she's under some sort of fucking spell, the girl can just do whatever she wants with her, it's mostly becuse she cares about her so much and Raven shows her vulnerable side to Lexa and it melts her fucking heart, she just wants to be there for her and protect her, Isabelle too. 

But Raven uses that advantage for all the wrong reasons, that's what Lexa hates the most. She's positive that her feelings for Clarke are far stronger than any weird control Raven might have over her. If it came down to a tug of war Clarke would win every time, but she's over being a pawn on Ravens board.

"I don't trust Raven either. I used too...".Clarke trailed off. "I trust you though." She said softly.

"I Trust you Lex. You won't fall for Ravens games. If she needs a friend she can have that in you, but there's a line and I trust you to draw it." 

Lexa smiled "Thank you, for trusting me, it means a lot, especially since I haven't always given you good reason too." 

"Well neither have I, but we can start now."

"You're not the only reason I want to keep my distance from her, I'm just not sure she even gives a fuck about how her actions affect me half the time, what kind of friend is that?" 

"She cares. Raven always cares, most of the time she just has a shitty way of showing it. We can thank her mom for that. Look the point I'm trying to make is it's up to you, but it's important that you understand I'm not asking you to not be her friend." 

Lexa frowned "Yeah. I guess you're right." 

Clarke smiled wrapping her arms around Lexa "Rule number one of being my girlfriend, I'm always right." 

Lexa laughed "Your toxic teenager is showing babe." 

"Babe?" Clarke swooned "I like that." She said bringing Lexa close so their lips were brushing.

"I like you." 

"Oh yeah?" Clarke flirted "Show me." 

Lexa then surged forward and captured Clarke's lips in a hungry kiss, it's not long before their tongues intertwine and they're moaning in eachothers mouth.

Lexa pulls Clarke in impossibly close, her hands go under Clarkes shirt and run down the blondes slender back as Clarke begins to grind on top of her. When Clarke reaches down in between them and begins to gently massage her through her jeans the brunette is sure she sees stars. There has never been a touch from a girl that felt this good, this right.

Lexa can barely keep up when all of a sudden Clarke is ridding herself of her shirt and unhooking her bra, exposing herself for Lexa. 

"Touch me." Clarke moans into her mouth, Lexas eyes practically roll to the back of her head, she gently massages Clarke's chest  watching her face closely as she closes her eyes and throws her head back in pleasure, Lexa then leans down and takes a stiff nipple in her mouth, the sound that Clarke lets out would give Lexa an eargasm if that were even scientifically possible.

When Lexa stops her ministratuons suddenly Clarke looks down to find previously green eyes almost black with want, the intensity of the stare has her rolling her hips in desperate search for any kind of stimulation to momentarily placate her. 

"Lexa, I want you." Clarke moans kissing down the brunettes neck, licking and biting every inch of skin. 

"Clarke are you sure?" Lexa is trying to control herself and think rationally as if all the blood in her body hasn't left her head and rushed down to her throbbing member that is painfully erect, tucked away behind compression shorts and jeans were it's been for months, actionless and inactive, but she'd gladly leave this tree house with the worst blue balls known to mankind if Clarke didn't actually want this.

Oh god, the tree house. Was she really about to defile her parents sacred place? With Clarke? Fuck yes.

Clarke took lexas hand and slowly slid it down into her leggings until the brunette was met with slick heat, she whimpered when her hands gently moved through wet folds. 

Clarke moans her voice husky with want "Does it not feel like I'm sure?" 

And that was all the confirmation she needed to let her brain be completely taken over by Clarke.  

Clarke Clarke Clarke.

Lexas never wanted anything this bad in her life, so with the blondes permission, she took it.

There was just no way Raven was going to school today, if she had to see Finn and Clarke, if she even had to breathe the same air as them she'd probably snap and end up doing something really stupid, like putting a bomb in both their lockers. 

Raven understood that she wasn't innocent, she betrayed Clarke too, but what Clarke did was so much worse, she loved Finn, he was her rock at one point, Clarke knew this, so for her to go behind her back and sleep with him after he had already been two timing the pair, it was despicable. 

Yeah she used Lexa to mess with Clarke but it's not like Clarke was in love with Lexa, it was just some silly schoolgirl crush at that point.

Finn waa one thing, but how could she ever look at Clarke the same way again?

Her mom was working the morning shift at the diner which surprised Raven, most of the time Isabella could barely drag herself out of bed before noon. But since her mom was gone she took the opportunity to bunk off. 

The latina was sitting on the couch watching TV when she heard the front door knock, she frowned and got up slowly walking over to the window so she could see who it was before she answered. 

When she saw who was at the door her frown deepened, she considered ignoring it but In the end her curiosity got the best of her. 

"Hey." Roan said when Raven opened the door. 

Raven didn't say anything. 

Roan cleared his throat "I heard about what went down at the party on Saturday and you weren't at school today so I thought I'd check up on you, see how you were doing." 

"Why?" Raven questioned with a frown. 

"Why not? You're a cool person, I feel bad about what happened." 

Raven snorted "Roan the very last thing I need is your fucking pity." 

"It's not pity. I'm just a concerned friend." He shrugged, burying his hands deep in his pants pockets. 

"Since when were we friends?" Raven quirked an eyebrow.

Roan laughed "Ouch. We're lab partners in chemistry, I thought that was grounds for a solid friendship, no?" 

Raven narrowed her eyes "Did Lexa send you?" 

"No. I persuaded Anya to give me your address." 

Raven internally smiled, Anya was a fucking great person, and Raven doesn't admit shit like that easily. The night of the party Anya has shown up to Ontaris place, everyone was high and either sleeping or getting more high.

Raven had been offered something stronger than her usual but she refused, she was reckless but not borderline stupid, weed would suffice, always. 

When Anya walked in Raven was just laying on the couch staring up at the ceiling, she was surprised to see Anya there but for some reason she also felt this sense of relief she had hoped Lexa was with her but she wasn't which was okay, she didn't know Anya as well as she knew Lexa but she still felt like she was in good hands.

Anya drove her home and made sure she made it inside okay, and when Raven broke down in tears, Anya stayed until she fell asleep. It was nice, she appreciated the comfort.

"Anya wanted to come but she said she had to meet up with Bellamy." He shrugged "It seemed pretty urgent." 

Raven nodded slowly.

"This seems weird." Raven said still suspicious. 

"Only if you make it weird. You gonna invite me in or no? I'd much rather have this interrogation indoors." He said smiling. 

Raven stared at him for a moment before moving to the side to let him in.

She went over to the couch and sat down. "This is me." She gestured around her. "Nothing special." 

"It's alright, cosy, I like it." 

"Well now that I have your approval of my home my life is complete."

Roan chuckled "Glad I could help." 

Raven just stared at him for a moment, he seemed really relaxed, well to be fair he always seemed relaxed, he was a very laid back guy, even in lessons they shared together, he always made the class laugh, the teachers liked him and he was good at school which was a bonus, confident in himself and his abilities. 

Raven admired his charming personality, he made it easy for you to feel comfortable around him. 

Of course she wasn't completely convinced that he wasn't sent by Lexa, they haven't spoken since the party and to her disappointment Lexa hadn't even tried to reach out once. 

"So-" Raven started "How bad is it?" Raven didn't have to say what she was talking about, Roan knew. 

"Well Clarke's been hung up to dry by half the school, everyone thought she was quiet and sweet, now they think she's fake. All sorts of rumours are being conjured up which isn't helping her case." Roan said casually. 

Raven took a deep breathe. What Roan said didn't make her feel good. Why didn't it make her feel good? Because deep down Raven knew she didn't hate Clarke, what she hated was the fact that she didn't hate her, but she should, they should hate each other. 

She didn't want to admit that she still cared about Clarke, it made her angry that those soul sucking assholes In school thought they had a right to target her, she was allowed to be angry at the blonde, but everyone else could go fuck themselves. 

"How's she handling it?" Raven asked. 

Roan observed her for a brief moment, not expecting her to show any care for how Clatke was being treated. 

"Well I'm sure she knew she'd be a target today, but she still showed up." 

 "Which I'm a little surprised about, impressed actually." Raven commented genuinely. "She has more guts than I do." She mumbled quietly but Roan still caught it. 

"It's okay that you gave yourself more time before you could face them. In fact I'd say you did the entire school a favour, I've seen you in chemistry, things could've gotten ugly today." Roan joked lighthearted. 

Raven gave him a grateful smile. She appreciated his understanding. 

"Dare I ask about Finn." She said 

"Some people think he's an asshole, most of the school are too afraid to let him know it." 

Raven rolled her eyes "Two people screw up but of course the guy gets off scotch free while the girl is the one that has to deal with the backlash." 

"It's unfair but are you really surprised? Finn is the king of that school, quarterback of the football team, good grades, rich family, people either admire him or are too scared to speak up against him." Roan summed up the injustice. 

Raven hummed, annoyed about the situation. It went quiet for a moment, a question lingering around in her head, one that she was extremely reluctant to ask. "What about Lexa?" She mumbled. 

"What about Lexa?" Roan asked back.

Raven huffed "Is- I don't know. Just forget it." 

Roan furrowed his brows "I'm not sure what you wanted to say but we almost had a fight today." 

"You and Lexa?" Raven questioned confused "Why?" 

Roan shrugged "I guess I wasn't being fair to clatke and it pissed her off." 

"What do you mean, what did you do?" 

"I just pointed out that it wasn't right that we judged you off of what you did wrong but Lexa expects us to just be cool with Clarke because what she did was a 'mistake'. Why couldn't the same courtesy be extended to you."

"Maybe becuse what I did wasn't a mistake, it was wrong and I regret it, but I knew what I was doing." 

"So did Clarke when she was fucking Finn behind your back." Roan pointed out "It's not like she just forgot he was your ex." 

"I don't know, what she did makes me angry but I don't know why she did it. I know Clarke, sleeping with Finn is so out of character for her." 

"You're being pretty easy on her, how come?" 

Raven shrugged "I'm sure the minute I see her face my anger will take over again." 

Right now Raven was trying to understand Clarke's motives, but that didn't mean she was any less hurt, she was just confused. 

"So Lexa and Clarke are good?" She asked, her heart suddenly beating a little faster. 

"I don't know, Clarke's been ignoring her since the party." 

"That might be my fault." Raven smirked, it was a little evil buy considering the circumstances surely that was allowed.

"Why have you got that smug look on your face." Roan chuckled "What did you do?" 

"What I always do. Hurt people, hurt people." 

"Well whatever you did, isn't just affecting Clarke, you hurt Lexa indirectly too." 

"Collateral damage." 

Roan frowned "You don't mean that." 

Raven shrugged but didn't respond. She got up and grabbed two beers from the cooler in the living room, she handed one to Roan. They both opened their beverage and drank for a bit in silence making small talk here and thete before he eventually left when Raven said her mom would be home soon, she thanked him for the company and for checking up on her. 

When he was gone she sat on the couch and really thought about where she wanted things to go from here.