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The first time it happened, Max thought his brain was finally breaking.
He was sitting in the driver's room, fingers wrapped around a water bottle, listening to the muffled sounds of the garage through the walls. Three years since the accident that took his sight. Three years of learning to navigate a world made of sound and texture and the sharp edges of memory. He had accepted it. He had moved on.
Then color exploded behind his eyes.
Not color. He didn't know what color was. He had never known. But something flooded his senses—something bright, something sharp, something that made his breath catch in his throat because it was new. It was entirely new, and his brain had no framework for it, and he sat there shaking while his hands gripped the bottle tight enough to crack the plastic.
The sensation lasted seven seconds. Maybe eight. Then it vanished, and Max was left in the dark again, heart pounding, mouth dry.
He told no one. Not his trainer, not his engineer, not the doctors who had long since stopped asking about phantom sensations. He told no one because he couldn't explain it. He didn't have the words. How do you describe the absence of an absence? How do you tell someone that for eight seconds, you saw when you had spent three years not seeing?
It happened again the next day. Longer this time. Twelve seconds of something soft and warm, something that made him think of the sun on his skin but translated into a sense he wasn't supposed to have. He stood in the middle of his apartment, frozen, waiting for it to stop.
It didn't stop. It came more frequently after that. Short bursts of sensation that felt like looking—if looking was a feeling, if eyes were something his brain still remembered how to use. He started to notice patterns. The sensations were strongest when he was near Charles Leclerc.
---
Max figured it out on a Thursday.
They were in the media pen, shoulder to shoulder, the way they always ended up during race weekends. Charles was answering questions in that rapid-fire French-tinged Italian, voice light, laughter frequent. Max stood beside him, saying nothing, waiting for his own turn.
The world lit up.
Not all of it. Not the whole picture. But fragments—shapes, maybe, or impressions, or something his brain translated as green. He didn't know it was green. He had no reference for green. But the sensation was specific, textured, alive in a way that the other bursts hadn't been. It felt like trees, if trees had a visual language. It felt like the color Charles's eyes were supposed to be.
Max had read Charles's file. Every driver's file, back when he could still read. He knew Charles had green eyes. He knew the exact shade, described in medical terms he had memorized but could never visualize. Hazel-green. Sometimes described as emerald in bright light. Charles Leclerc had green eyes, and Max Verstappen was suddenly seeing something that felt like those eyes, and his entire body went cold.
He turned his head toward Charles, blind eyes fixed on nothing, and the connection snapped.
The colors vanished.
But Max had felt it. He had felt the moment his awareness touched Charles's and something passed between them—something that shouldn't exist, something that doctors would call impossible, something that made no sense in any framework Max understood.
He was seeing through Charles's eyes.
---
He didn't sleep that night. He lay in his hotel bed, hands folded on his chest, and cataloged every moment of sensation he had experienced over the past two weeks. The bursts of color—he called them color now, though he still didn't know what color meant—had started during the previous race weekend. Charles had been there. Charles had been close. Max had brushed past him in the paddock, and something had opened.
The connection was erratic. It came in waves, never predictable, always tied to proximity. When Charles was near, Max saw fragments. When Charles was far, Max saw nothing. There was no logic to it, no medical explanation, no precedent in any case study he had ever heard of.
He should have told someone. He should have gone to a doctor, submitted to tests, let them poke and prod and try to understand what was happening inside his skull. Instead, he lay in the dark and waited for the next time Charles would come close enough to show him the world again.
That was the part that shamed him. Not the fear, not the confusion, but the wanting. He wanted to see. He wanted it so badly that his chest ached with it. And Charles was the only one who could give it to him.
---
The next race was Monaco.
Max arrived on Wednesday, walked the paddock with his cane, and felt the connection snap into place the moment Charles's scent hit the air. Summer rain. Petrichor and something green, something growing. Charles's Omega scent was distinct among the crowded paddock, and Max had learned to recognize it months ago, long before the colors started. Now the scent came with an overlay of visual input, and Max stopped mid-step, cane frozen against the pavement.
Blue.
The sensation was blue. Wide and open and stretched above him like a ceiling he couldn't touch. He stood there for ten full seconds, breathing, letting the blue fill the empty space behind his eyes.
He heard Charles before he saw him—heard his laugh, heard the familiar rhythm of his steps, heard the voices of the journalists clustered around him. Max turned toward the sound, and the blue intensified, deepened, became something richer and more complex. Charles was looking at the sky. Charles was seeing the Mediterranean sun reflecting off the harbor, and Max was seeing it too.
Charles's voice came closer. "Max?"
Max swallowed. "Charles."
He didn't move. Couldn't move. The visual input was overwhelming—not clear images, not anything his brain could fully process, but sensations of color and light that felt like drowning and flying at the same time. Charles was close enough that Max could feel the warmth of his body, could smell the clean sweat on his skin, could hear the slight confusion in his breathing.
"You're standing in the middle of the walkway," Charles said.
"I know."
A pause. Charles's scent changed—something curious, something cautious. "Are you okay?"
Max wanted to say no. He wanted to say I'm seeing through your eyes and I don't know why and I don't know how to stop it and I'm terrified of how much I don't want it to stop. Instead, he said, "Fine. Just—taking a moment."
Charles didn't move away. Max felt the connection hold steady, felt the colors continue to flow, felt Charles's gaze on his face. Charles was looking at him. Charles was looking at him with those green eyes that Max could feel but not see, and the blue of the sky was still there, but now it was edged with something else. Something warm. Something that might have been the color of skin in sunlight, the color of Charles's own hands, the color of—
"You're staring," Max said.
Charles laughed, surprised. "I'm not staring. I'm checking if you need help."
"I don't need help."
"You look—" Charles stopped. Max heard him shift his weight, heard the hesitation in his breathing. "You look like you're seeing something."
Max's heart stopped.
He stood there, blind eyes fixed on nothing, and felt the weight of Charles's observation press against him. Charles didn't know. Charles couldn't know. There was no way for Charles to know. But the words hung in the air between them, and Max felt the connection pulse once, twice, three times—a surge of color that made his head spin.
"Just thinking," Max said.
Charles made a soft sound, not quite agreement, not quite disbelief. His scent settled into something accepting, something patient. "Okay. I'll leave you to your thinking."
He moved away. The connection fractured, colors fading to grey to nothing, and Max stood alone in the middle of the walkway, cane in hand, blind again.
---
The connection became Max's secret.
He learned its rhythms over the following weeks. Proximity was the key—when Charles was within five meters, the visual input began. At two meters, it was clear enough to make sense of. At arm's length, it was almost overwhelming, a flood of color and light that Max was slowly learning to interpret.
He learned that Charles's world was vivid. Intensely, almost aggressively vivid. The colors Max saw through his eyes were saturated, rich, alive in a way that made him understand why sighted people used words like bright and brilliant. Charles didn't just see color; he felt it. The greens of trees, the blues of water, the gold of sunset—each came with an emotional weight, a personal significance that translated through the connection like a second language.
Max learned to read Charles's emotions through color. When Charles was happy, the world became warm—yellows and oranges that felt like comfort. When Charles was frustrated, red bled into everything, sharp and hot and demanding. When Charles was sad, the colors muted, greyed out, lost their saturation until the world looked tired.
Max learned these things without asking. Without permission. He learned them because the connection gave him no choice, because Charles's eyes were always open, always seeing, always feeding visual information into a brain that didn't know what to do with it but was learning anyway.
Guilt came with the knowledge. Max was taking something Charles hadn't offered. He was seeing through Charles's eyes without consent, without explanation, without even the basic courtesy of honesty. He told himself it wasn't his fault. He told himself he hadn't asked for this, hadn't chosen it, didn't even understand it. But the guilt stayed, a constant pressure behind his ribs, growing heavier with every color he learned to name.
He should have told Charles. He knew he should have told Charles. But the words never came. Every time he tried, every time he found himself alone with Charles and the connection was humming between them and Charles's eyes were showing him something beautiful, he opened his mouth and nothing came out.
What would he even say? I'm seeing through your eyes sounded insane. Your visual cortex is somehow connected to mine sounded like science fiction. I know what green looks like because of you sounded like poetry, and Max was not a poet.
So he said nothing. And the secret grew.
---
Charles found out on his own.
It was after qualifying in Barcelona. Max was sitting in the cool-down room, waiting for the post-session procedures, when Charles walked in. The connection snapped open, and Max was suddenly looking at himself.
Charles was looking at him. Charles was looking at his face, at his eyes, at the way he sat with his hands loose between his knees, and through Charles's gaze, Max saw himself for the first time in three years.
He saw his own hair, blond and uncombed, catching the fluorescent light. He saw the line of his jaw, the shape of his mouth, the way his blind eyes tracked sound instead of sight. He saw his hands, strong and capable, resting against his thighs. He saw his own body as Charles saw it, and the perspective was—
Charles's voice broke the silence. "Max."
Max's head came up. The connection held. He was still looking at his own face, still seeing the faint frown between his brows, still seeing the way his blind eyes were fixed on a point two feet to the left of Charles's actual position.
"Your eyes," Charles said.
Max's blood went cold.
He knew. The certainty hit Max like a physical blow. Charles knew. Charles was looking at him, and Charles was seeing something in Max's expression, something in the way Max's pupils had dilated, something that didn't make sense for a blind man.
"What about my eyes?" Max asked. His voice was steady. He was proud of that.
Charles moved closer. The connection intensified, and Max's own face filled his vision—closer now, more detailed, every line and shadow sharp and clear. Charles was studying him. Charles was watching his eyes track Charles's movement, watching them focus on Charles's face, watching them see.
"You're looking at me," Charles said.
Max didn't answer.
"You're blind. You're supposed to be blind. But you're looking at me like you can see."
The words hung in the air. Max felt his pulse hammering, felt the guilt he had been carrying for weeks crystallize into something sharper, something that cut. He should have told Charles. He should have told him from the beginning, and now Charles had found out on his own, and there was no explanation that would make this okay.
"I can explain," Max said.
Charles's scent changed. The summer rain smell sharpened with something like fear, something like anger, something like confusion all tangled together. "How long?"
"Weeks. Since before Monaco."
Charles made a sound—half laugh, half disbelief. "You've been seeing through my eyes for weeks. And you didn't tell me."
"It's not that simple."
"It's exactly that simple." Charles's voice cracked. "You've been inside my head. You've been looking at my world. And you didn't think I deserved to know."
Max stood up. The movement was blind—Charles had stepped back, breaking the proximity that made the connection functional, and Max was suddenly in darkness again. He reached out, hand finding the wall, steadying himself.
"I didn't know how to tell you," Max said. "I didn't even understand what was happening at first. I thought I was going crazy. And then I figured out it was you, and I should have said something, and I didn't, and I'm sorry."
Silence. Max listened to Charles breathe, listened to the rapid rhythm of it, listened to the small sounds of movement that meant Charles was pacing.
"Why me?" Charles asked finally. "Why my eyes?"
"I don't know." Max spread his hands, helpless. "I've been trying to figure it out for weeks. There's no medical explanation. There's no logical explanation. It just—happened. The first time was at Imola. You walked past me in the paddock, and suddenly I was seeing color. I didn't even know what color was, but I was seeing it, and it was yours."
"You were seeing what I was seeing."
"Yes."
Another pause. Max heard Charles stop pacing, heard his breathing steady, heard the slight rustle of fabric that meant Charles was crossing his arms.
"What do you see?" Charles asked.
Max blinked. "What?"
"When you see through my eyes. What does it look like?"
The question was unexpected. Max had prepared himself for anger, for accusations, for Charles to walk out and never speak to him again. He hadn't prepared for curiosity.
"It's not clear," Max said slowly. "It's not like—I don't get images. I don't get shapes or faces or anything I can really recognize. I get color. Sensations of color. And sometimes I get a sense of what you're looking at, but it's filtered through my brain trying to translate visual information into something I can understand."
Charles was quiet for a long moment. Then: "What color am I wearing right now?"
Max laughed. He couldn't help it. "Charles, I can't—the connection only works when you're close. And even then, I don't get enough information to—"
"Just try."
Max sighed. He reached out with his awareness, felt for the thread of connection that always hummed between them, felt for the place where Charles's senses touched his own. Charles was two meters away. Maybe three. The connection was faint, but it was there.
He closed his eyes—a habit, not a necessity—and focused.
Color bloomed behind his eyelids. Faint, distant, like a radio signal struggling through interference. But it was there. Charles was looking down at himself, looking at his own shirt, and Max was seeing it.
"Red," Max said. "It's red. Dark red. Almost burgundy."
He heard Charles's sharp intake of breath.
"That's—" Charles stopped. "That's right. It's maroon. How did you—"
"I told you. I see what you see."
Charles moved closer. The connection strengthened, colors sharpening, and Max felt the sudden rush of visual information that came with proximity. Charles was looking at Max's face again, studying it, and Max was looking at his own features reflected back at him through Charles's eyes.
"You're looking at me right now," Charles said. "Through my eyes, you're looking at yourself."
Max nodded. His own face stared back at him—blind eyes, closed mouth, expression carefully neutral. He looked tired. He looked like a man carrying a secret that weighed too much.
"Does it hurt?" Charles asked.
"No."
"Does it feel strange?"
"Yes."
Charles moved closer still. The connection hummed, and the image of Max's own face sharpened, resolved into something clearer. Charles was standing right in front of him. Charles was close enough to touch.
"Why did you keep it from me?" Charles asked. His voice was quiet now. Not angry. Just—curious. Wounded, maybe. But not angry.
Max swallowed. "Because I was afraid you'd take it away."
The words came out raw, stripped of pretense. Max heard them land, heard Charles's breathing change, heard the small sound Charles made in the back of his throat.
"You were afraid I'd take the colors away," Charles said slowly.
"Yes."
Charles's hand touched Max's wrist. The contact was light, brief, barely there. But the connection flared with it, colors surging, and Max saw—what did he see? A wash of green, warm and deep, the color of Charles's eyes. A flush of pink, high on cheeks, the color of embarrassment or pleasure or something Max didn't have a name for.
"I'm not going to take it away," Charles said.
Max's breath caught. "You're not?"
Charles's hand was still on his wrist. Max could feel the warmth of his fingers, could smell the summer rain of his scent, could feel the steady pulse of the connection between them.
"I'm not going to pretend I understand what's happening," Charles said. "And I'm not going to pretend I'm not—confused, and a little scared, and maybe a little angry that you didn't tell me. But I'm not going to take away something that lets you see."
Max opened his mouth. Closed it. Opened it again. Nothing came out.
Charles laughed—soft, surprised, like he hadn't expected to laugh at all. "You look like I just offered you the moon."
"It feels like you offered me the moon," Max said. "Charles, I—I've been blind for three years. Three years of nothing. And then suddenly I'm seeing color because of you, and it's—you have no idea what that's worth to me."
"I think I'm starting to."
---
After Barcelona, things changed.
Charles didn't avoid Max. That was the first surprise. Max had expected distance, awkwardness, the careful avoidance of a man who had discovered someone was using his eyes without permission. Instead, Charles sought him out. He appeared in Max's driver's room before sessions, sat beside him in briefings, found reasons to stand close in the paddock.
"You need to tell me when it's working," Charles said one afternoon in Silverstone. They were in Max's motorhome, sitting across from each other, and the connection was humming with color. Max was watching Charles's hands move as he talked, watching the play of light on his skin, watching the way his fingers shaped the air when he emphasized a point.
"It's always working when you're close," Max said. "I don't have to turn it on. It just—happens."
Charles frowned. "So you're always seeing through my eyes when I'm near?"
"Not always. Sometimes it's faint. Sometimes it's strong. I don't know what makes the difference."
Charles leaned forward, elbows on his knees. His face filled Max's vision—sharp cheekbones, full mouth, green eyes bright with curiosity. Max had seen Charles's face hundreds of times through the connection, had memorized every line and shadow, and it still took his breath away every time.
"What about now?" Charles asked. "What do you see?"
Max considered the question. Through Charles's eyes, he was looking at his own face again—but not his face. Charles was looking at the motorhome interior, at the table between them, at the half-empty water bottle sitting on the surface.
"You're not looking at me," Max said.
Charles laughed. "No. I'm looking at the table. I wanted to see what you see when I'm not looking at anything interesting."
Max focused on the visual input. The table was grey—a cool, neutral grey that felt utilitarian. The water bottle was clear plastic with blue labeling, the blue bright and artificial against the grey. Through Charles's eyes, Max could feel the weight of the observation, the casual attention Charles paid to everyday objects.
"It's not about interesting," Max said. "It's about—I don't know how to explain it. Seeing anything is interesting. Everything is interesting. I spent three years not seeing a single thing, Charles. A water bottle is a miracle."
Charles went quiet. Max felt the shift in his attention, felt Charles's gaze move from the table to Max's face, felt the sudden intensity of his focus.
"You really mean that," Charles said. It wasn't a question.
"I really mean it."
Charles reached across the table. His fingers touched Max's hand, and the connection flared so bright that Max gasped. Colors exploded behind his eyes—green and gold and a flash of brilliant red, all tangled together, all overwhelming. He felt Charles's skin against his, felt the warmth of his palm, felt the slight tremor in his fingers.
Max's hand closed around Charles's. He didn't think about it. He just did it, holding on like Charles was the only solid thing in a world of color.
"You're seeing something," Charles said. His voice was low. "What is it?"
"I don't know." Max's voice shook. "I don't have words for it. It's—bright. And warm. And there's green, a lot of green, and something gold, and—Charles, what are you looking at?"
Charles's thumb moved against Max's hand. "You."
The connection pulsed. Max saw himself through Charles's eyes—saw his own face, his own mouth slightly open, his own blind eyes wide and unseeing. But there was something else in the image, something Charles was adding without meaning to. A softness around Max's edges. A warmth in the way Charles saw him. A color that Max didn't have a name for but recognized anyway as something precious.
"Oh," Max said.
Charles squeezed his hand. "Oh what?"
Max shook his head. He couldn't say it. He couldn't put words to what he had just seen, to the tenderness in Charles's gaze, to the way Charles looked at him like he was something worth looking at. He had spent three years being the blind man, the damaged goods, the driver who had lost more than his career. And here was Charles Leclerc, looking at him like he was still whole.
"Nothing," Max said. "Just—thank you. For letting me see."
Charles's smile came through the connection like sunlight. "You don't have to thank me."
"I do. I should have told you sooner. I should have asked. You have every right to be angry, and you're not, and I don't know why."
"I'm not angry because I understand," Charles said. "You were given something you thought you'd never have again. Of course you didn't want to risk losing it. I would have done the same thing."
Max shook his head. "You wouldn't. You're better than that."
Charles laughed, but the sound was soft. "I'm not better. I'm just—I've been thinking about it. About what it would be like to live without color. Without light. To have all of that taken away, and then to have someone give it back without even knowing they were giving it. I think I'd be scared too. I think I'd hold onto it as tight as I could."
Max's throat tightened. "Charles."
"I'm not saying it was right to keep it from me. But I understand why you did. And I'm not going to punish you for being scared."
The words settled into Max's chest like something warm. He sat there, holding Charles's hand, feeling the connection hum between them, and let himself believe that maybe this was going to be okay.
---
The connection deepened over the summer.
Max learned to interpret Charles's visual language with increasing fluency. He learned that Charles saw the world in gradients, in subtleties, in the spaces between colors. He learned that Charles's attention was never passive—when he looked at something, he really looked, turning it over in his mind, finding beauty in unexpected places.
Max learned these things because Charles started showing them to him on purpose.
"What's the sky like right now?" Max asked one evening in Budapest. They were on the roof of the hotel, sitting on lounge chairs, the city spread out below them. Max couldn't see any of it, but through Charles's eyes, he was watching the sunset paint the horizon in colors he was still learning to name.
"Orange," Charles said. "Deep orange at the horizon, fading to pink, then purple, then blue. The clouds are catching the light, so they're gold around the edges. It looks like the sky is on fire."
Max closed his eyes—his own eyes, not Charles's—and let the description settle over the colors he was seeing. The orange was there, rich and warm, bleeding into pink that felt softer, gentler. The purple was new, a color Charles had shown him before but never like this, never with this depth.
"It's beautiful," Max said.
Charles made a soft sound of agreement. "It is."
They sat in silence for a while. The colors shifted, deepened, faded toward the grey of evening. Max watched it all through Charles's patient eyes, watched the world dim and change, watched the first stars appear in the darkening sky.
"You see stars," Max said. It wasn't a question. Through the connection, he was watching pinpricks of light appear against the deep blue of the night sky, each one sharp and bright and impossibly distant.
"I see them," Charles said. "Do you know what they look like to me?"
Max shook his head.
Charles's hand found Max's arm. The touch was casual, easy, the kind of contact they had developed over weeks of sitting close and sharing Charles's vision. "They look like hope. Like little promises that there's more out there than what we can see from here. My mother used to tell me that stars were the eyes of people who had gone ahead, watching over us."
Max turned toward Charles's voice. The connection shifted, and he was suddenly looking at Charles's face—at the way Charles was looking up at the stars, at the soft expression in his green eyes, at the way his lips were parted slightly in something like wonder.
"That's a nice thought," Max said.
"It is." Charles's gaze dropped from the stars to Max's face. The connection sharpened, and Max saw himself reflected in Charles's eyes—saw his own expression, open and vulnerable, saw the way he was leaning toward Charles without meaning to, saw the question he hadn't asked yet written clearly on his features.
Charles didn't look away. His hand was still on Max's arm, warm and solid, and his scent was different now—not the sharp tang of fear or anger, but something deeper, something richer. Summer rain after a storm, when the air is clean and the world feels new.
"Max," Charles said.
Max's heart rate picked up. "Charles."
"I've been thinking about something."
"What?"
Charles's thumb moved against Max's arm. The gesture was unconscious, Max could tell—Charles wasn't even aware he was doing it. But through the connection, Max felt the small motion like a current, like something building.
"I've been thinking about what this means," Charles said. "This connection. This thing between us that lets you see through my eyes. I've been thinking about why it happened, and what it means for us, and whether it's—whether it's something I should be scared of."
"Are you scared of it?"
Charles was quiet for a moment. The stars were still bright in his vision, still sharp against the dark, but his focus had narrowed to Max's face. Max could see himself in Charles's eyes, could see the tension in his own jaw, the hope he was trying to hide.
"I'm not scared of the connection," Charles said finally. "I'm scared of what I want because of it."
Max's breath caught. "What do you want?"
Charles's hand slid from Max's arm to his hand. Their fingers tangled together, and the connection flared so bright that Max saw stars—real stars, Charles's stars, multiplied and intensified until he couldn't tell where his senses ended and Charles's began.
"You," Charles said. "I want you."
The words landed in Max's chest like a physical thing. He sat there, holding Charles's hand, seeing the stars through Charles's eyes, feeling the weight of Charles's confession settle into his bones.
"I've been blind for three years," Max said. His voice was rough. "I've been in the dark for three years. And then you came along, and you showed me color, and you showed me light, and you showed me—you showed me what it looks like when someone looks at me like I matter. Do you know what that's worth to me?"
Charles's grip tightened. "Tell me."
Max leaned forward. He couldn't see Charles's face except through the connection, but he didn't need to. He could feel Charles's warmth, could smell his scent, could hear the quickening of his breath. He brought his free hand up, touched Charles's cheek, felt the shape of his face under his fingers.
"It's worth everything," Max said. "You're worth everything."
He kissed Charles.
The connection exploded.
Colors Max had never seen, never imagined, never had names for flooded his senses. Gold and green and blue and red all tangled together, all burning bright, all sharp and soft and overwhelming. He felt Charles's mouth against his, felt Charles's hand in his hair, felt the desperate press of Charles's body against his own. And through it all, he saw what Charles was seeing—saw his own face inches away, saw his own closed eyes, saw the way Charles was looking at him with something that wasn't just want.
It was love. Max saw it in Charles's eyes, felt it in the colors that flooded the connection, tasted it in the way Charles kissed him like he was something precious.
They broke apart, breathing hard. Max kept his hand on Charles's cheek, kept his forehead pressed against Charles's, kept himself anchored in the warmth of Charles's presence.
"What did you see?" Charles whispered.
Max laughed. The sound was unsteady, surprised, full of something that felt like joy. "Everything. I saw everything."
Charles's smile was bright against Max's palm. "Good. I wanted you to see."
---
After Budapest, everything was different.
Max had expected awkwardness. He had expected the kind of uncertainty that came with any new relationship, the careful navigation of boundaries and expectations. But there was no uncertainty with Charles. There was no hesitation. From the moment Max kissed him, Charles was all in—present, engaged, determined to make this work.
They told no one at first. The secrecy was practical—they were rivals on track, competitors in a sport that didn't leave room for softness. But it was also something else. Something private. Something that belonged only to them, to the strange connection that let Max see through Charles's eyes, to the colors that only Charles could give him.
"You're thinking too loud," Charles said one morning in Spa. They were in Max's apartment, the one he kept near the circuit, and Charles was making coffee. Max was sitting at the kitchen island, listening to the sounds of movement, watching through Charles's eyes as Charles measured grounds into the filter.
"I'm not thinking anything," Max said.
Charles glanced over his shoulder. Through the connection, Max saw himself—sitting at the island, chin in hand, blind eyes fixed on Charles's voice. He looked content. He looked like a man who had finally stopped waiting for something to go wrong.
"You're thinking about whether to tell people," Charles said.
Max sighed. "Maybe."
Charles finished with the coffee, crossed the kitchen, and sat on the stool beside Max. His hand found Max's knee, a familiar gesture now, grounding and warm.
"What's stopping you?" Charles asked.
"Everything. The media. The team. The fact that we're supposed to be rivals. The fact that you're an Omega and I'm an Alpha and everyone is going to have opinions about that." Max spread his hands. "Pick one."
Charles was quiet for a moment. Through the connection, Max saw Charles looking at his own hands, at the way they rested on Max's knee, at the faint tan lines from summer in Monaco.
"I don't care about any of that," Charles said finally.
Max turned toward his voice. "I know you don't. That's one of the things I love about you."
The words slipped out before Max could stop them. He felt Charles freeze beside him, felt the sudden spike in his scent, felt the connection pulse with a wash of color so bright it made his head spin.
"Love," Charles said. His voice was strange. Careful. Like he was holding something fragile.
Max's throat tightened. "I didn't mean to—I wasn't going to say it like that."
"Like what?"
"Like it was nothing. It's not nothing. It's—" Max stopped. He reached for Charles's hand, found it, held it tight. "It's everything. I love you. I love the way you see the world. I love the colors you show me. I love the way you laugh, the way you talk with your hands, the way you look at things like you're trying to memorize them. I love you, Charles."
Charles made a sound that was half laugh, half sob. His hand tightened around Max's, and the connection flared so bright that Max saw white—pure white, blinding, overwhelming.
"I love you too," Charles said. "I love you too, and I've been wanting to say it for weeks, and I didn't know if you wanted to hear it, and now you're saying it first and I'm—" He laughed again, wet and unsteady. "I'm happy. I'm so happy."
Max pulled him close. Charles came easily, fitting against Max's side like he belonged there, and Max held him and felt the warmth of his body and watched through his eyes as Charles buried his face in Max's shoulder.
"I can see you," Max said quietly. "Right now. I can see your hair, the way it curls at the ends. I can see the line of your back, the way your shirt pulls across your shoulders. I can see your hand on my chest, the way your fingers are spread out like you're trying to touch as much of me as possible."
Charles lifted his head. Through the connection, Max saw his own face reflected in Charles's eyes—saw the soft expression, the quiet joy, the way he was looking at Charles like Charles was the only thing in the world worth seeing.
"You're looking at me," Charles said.
"Always."
Charles kissed him. The connection blazed, and Max saw color after color after color, each one brighter than the last, each one more beautiful. He saw the gold of Charles's skin in the morning light. He saw the deep green of his eyes, close enough to drown in. He saw the flush across his cheekbones, the parted lips, the way his eyelashes cast shadows on his cheeks.
He saw everything Charles was willing to show him. And in Charles's eyes, reflected back at him, he saw himself—loved, wanted, seen.
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The announcement came in Monza.
Max didn't plan it. He had been thinking about it for weeks, turning over the timing, the wording, the potential fallout. But then a journalist asked Charles about his "friendship" with Max, and Charles's smile went tight, and the question had been loaded with implications that made Max's blood heat.
Max stepped forward. Through the connection, he saw his own movement from Charles's perspective—saw himself moving to stand beside Charles, saw his hand find Charles's waist, saw the way Charles looked at him with surprise and hope and something that looked like relief.
"We're together," Max said. His voice was calm, steady, the same voice he used for race strategy and contract negotiations. "Charles and I are together. If you have questions about that, you can direct them to me."
The media pen went silent.
Charles's hand found Max's. Their fingers laced together, and the connection flared, and Max saw the journalists through Charles's eyes—saw their stunned expressions, their raised eyebrows, the way they were already reaching for phones and cameras.
But he also saw Charles's face. Saw the way Charles was looking at him, green eyes bright, mouth curved into something that wasn't quite a smile but was close. Saw the way Charles's shoulders had relaxed, the tension draining out of him like he had been holding something heavy for a long time.
Max squeezed his hand. Charles squeezed back.
The questions came after, of course. A flood of them, all the angles the journalists could think of—how long, how serious, what did the teams think, what did this mean for the championship, what did this mean for the sport. Max answered them all with the same calm patience, deflecting the invasive ones, giving just enough to satisfy without offering anything he wanted to keep private.
Through it all, Charles stood beside him, hand in hand, steady and warm. And every time Max looked at him—every time Max turned toward his voice and felt the connection pulse with color—he saw Charles watching him with an expression that made his chest ache.
Later, in the privacy of Max's hotel room, Charles pushed him against the wall and kissed him until Max couldn't breathe.
"You didn't have to do that," Charles said against his mouth. "You didn't have to announce it like that. You could have let me handle it."
"I wanted to," Max said. He brought his hands up to Charles's face, tracing the shape of his cheekbones, the line of his jaw, the soft skin under his eyes. "I wanted everyone to know. I wanted everyone to see what I see when I look at you."
Charles made a sound that might have been a laugh or might have been a sob. "What do you see?"
Max smiled. Through the connection, he saw himself smiling, saw the way Charles's eyes tracked the movement, saw the way Charles's breath caught at the expression on Max's face.
"I see someone who gave me the world," Max said. "I see someone who didn't run away when things got strange. I see someone who showed me color when I didn't even know what color was. I see—" He stopped, swallowed, let the words come. "I see someone I want to spend the rest of my life looking at."
Charles's hands fisted in Max's shirt. "Max."
"I mean it."
"I know you mean it." Charles's voice was thick. "I know. And I—I want that too. I want to show you everything. I want to show you sunsets and sunrises and the way light hits the water in Monaco. I want to show you the mountains in Switzerland and the beaches in Miami and the stars in the desert. I want to show you everything beautiful in the world."
Max pulled him closer, wrapped his arms around him, held him tight. "Then show me."
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The connection never stopped. It was always there now, humming between them, a constant presence that Max had stopped trying to understand. He didn't need to understand it. He just needed to accept it, to be grateful for it, to let it be what it was.
Some nights, when they were together, Max would lie beside Charles and close his eyes and let the connection carry him. He would watch Charles's dreams if Charles was asleep, or watch the ceiling if Charles was awake and thinking, or watch Charles's own face if Charles was looking at him.
"I wonder if it'll always be like this," Max said one night. They were in Charles's apartment in Monaco, the one with the windows that faced the sea, and Charles was lying on his chest, cheek pressed to Max's shoulder.
"Like what?" Charles asked.
Max felt for the connection, felt it pulse in response to his attention. "This. Me seeing through you. I don't know if it's something that will fade over time, or if it's permanent, or if it's—" He stopped. "I don't know what it is."
Charles was quiet for a moment. Through the connection, Max saw Charles looking at his own hand, at the way it rested on Max's chest, at the rise and fall of Max's breathing under his palm.
"Does it matter?" Charles asked.
Max considered the question. He thought about the first time color had exploded behind his eyes, about the fear and wonder of that moment. He thought about the weeks of secrecy, the guilt, the terror of being found out. He thought about Barcelona, about Charles's hand on his wrist, about Charles saying I'm not going to take it away.
He thought about the sunset in Budapest, the stars, the way Charles had looked at him like he was something worth looking at. He thought about all the colors Charles had shown him, all the beauty he had never known existed, all the moments they had shared because Max could see through Charles's eyes.
"No," Max said finally. "It doesn't matter."
Charles lifted his head. Through the connection, Max saw his own face—saw the way he was looking at Charles, blind eyes fixed on the sound of his voice, mouth curved into something soft.
"What matters?" Charles asked.
Max reached up, found Charles's face, traced the shape of his features. He felt the sharp line of his jaw, the soft curve of his lips, the delicate skin of his eyelids. He had memorized Charles's face through touch months ago, but through the connection, he had learned it again in a different language. The language of color. The language of light.
"You matter," Max said. "This matters. You and me. Everything else is just—details."
Charles smiled. The smile came through the connection as a wash of gold, warm and bright, like the sun breaking through clouds. He leaned down and kissed Max, soft and slow, and Max closed his eyes and let the colors come.
"You know what I see when I look at you?" Charles asked against his lips.
Max shook his head.
Charles pulled back just enough to look at Max's face. Through the connection, Max saw himself through Charles's eyes—saw the blond hair, the strong features, the blind eyes that tracked Charles's voice. But he also saw something else. Something that Charles added to the image without meaning to. A softness. A warmth. A color that Max had learned to recognize over months of seeing through Charles's eyes.
It was the color of love.
"I see someone who learned to see the world through my eyes," Charles said. "And I see someone who showed me how to see myself through his."
Max's throat tightened. "Charles."
Charles kissed him again, quick and sweet. "I love you. I love you, and I'm going to spend every day showing you something new. Every color. Every light. Every beautiful thing I can find. And one day, maybe, you'll have seen so much through my eyes that you won't need them anymore. You'll have your own colors. Your own vision. Your own way of seeing."
Max shook his head. "I don't want my own vision. I want yours."
Charles laughed. "That's not—Max, you can't just—"
"I can," Max said. He sat up, pulling Charles with him, settling him in his lap. He found Charles's face with his hands, held it gently, felt the warmth of his skin. "I can want whatever I want. And I want to see through your eyes. I want to see the world the way you see it. I want to see the colors you love, the light you chase, the beauty you find in places other people miss. I don't want my own vision, Charles. I want yours. I want you."
Charles was quiet for a long moment. Max felt his breathing, felt the rapid beat of his heart, felt the way his hands gripped Max's shoulders like he was holding on.
"You already have me," Charles said finally. His voice was low, rough, honest. "You've had me since the first time you saw color through my eyes. Maybe before that. I don't know. I just know that I'm yours. And I'm not going anywhere."
Max pulled him close, wrapped his arms around him, held him tight. Through the connection, he saw the room around them—the dark walls, the white sheets, the window that faced the sea. He saw the moonlight coming through the glass, silver and soft, painting everything in shades of grey and blue.
He saw Charles's face, close to his own, green eyes bright even in the dim light. He saw the way Charles was looking at him—the same way he had looked at Max in Budapest, in Barcelona, in every moment since the connection had started. The same way he looked at sunsets and stars and everything beautiful in the world.
"What are you looking at?" Max asked.
Charles's lips brushed against Max's cheek. "You."