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The chapter was bad.
Not bad in the interesting way, where the failure was trying something difficult and landing wrong. Bad in the embarrassing way, where she had no idea what was exactly wrong. Maybe everything was. Every word she wrote felt like arrows she was embedding in her own body willingly.
She had been rereading it on her phone for the last twenty minutes, which was a form of self-punishment she'd apparently decided to inflict on a Thursday.
The subway was mostly empty. Enough that the seat beside her was free, which she appreciated, and that the car smelled only faintly of other people's evenings, which she also appreciated. She had a half-finished energy drink in her bag that had gone flat an hour ago. She had 1864 comments on the second-to-last chapter. Most of which she had not read, some of which she had. Many people read this story, but none except a few read her chapters in the first few hours it comes out. She deliberately drops it in at working hours after all. Because the first few hours, it'll be a raw draft that comes out. And she'd edit it by night.
But the comments did not help her current situation. The ones she'd read were variations on the same two responses: I love this, which told her nothing, and this arc is getting so dark, which told her something she already knew and didn't want confirmed. As much as she tried to keep the story the way it had it was meant to be, she was unable.
It was getting dark. She knew that. She'd known it since volume two, when the story had taken a direction she hadn't planned and followed it anyway because the logic of it demanded—
Someone sat down next to her.
Not across from her. Next to her. In the adjacent seat of an otherwise empty car, in the specific way that people only did when they were very oblivious or had specifically chosen to be near someone, and she was betting on oblivious.
He looked young, probably around her age. He had the look of someone who had come from or was going to something unremarkable. School, maybe. He had the specific expression of a person with no particular plans and no particular distress about that. He was looking at his phone with the focused attention of someone reading, not scrolling. Not touring.
She looked back at her own phone.
He said, without preamble: "The pacing in the last few chapters are wrong."
She looked at him. He was still looking at his phone.
"Are you talking to me," she said.
"You're reading In Transit," he said, with the confidence of someone who had correctly identified a stranger's reading material from a glance and considered this normal. "The latest draft."
She looked at her phone. She didn't need to look to confirm, but she was indeed on the latest draft. She had not moved the phone to prevent him seeing this, which she now regretted.
"The pacing is fine," she said.
"It isn't though." He said it without particular heat, as someone states facts about the weather. "The protagonist makes a decision in this arc that the story does earn. But the author pulls back without completing the true direction the story was going. You can feel it. Like they knew what should be done and got scared."
She looked at the window.
The tunnel outside was dark and offered nothing useful.
"Maybe," she said, "they had reasons you don't know about."
"Sure," he said, with the equanimity of someone who had considered this and found it possible. "But readers don't get the reasons. Readers just get the chapter."
She had opinions about that. Several of them, arranged in order of sharpness. She did not deploy them.
"You read a lot of web novels," she said instead. Not a question.
"I do." He said it simply. "For about three years now."
"Three years," she said.
"Yes, I started with this one." He looked out with the simple look of someone catching up to their surroundings.
He then glanced at her for the first time, brief without particular agenda. "You're new to it?"
"Something like that."
He accepted this without pressing it. She noted, without meaning to, that he did not assume her newness made her opinion less valid. He went back to his phone, and she went back to hers, and for a few minutes they read in the kind of silence that two people who have just argued about something small arrive at. Not hostile exactly, but aware of each other.
Then he said: "The part that actually works, in this arc, it's the moment before the choice, not the choice itself. The author does something there that they don't do anywhere else in the story."
"What do you mean."
"They let the protagonist be unprepared. The story flows as it desires." He said it like he'd thought about it a lot. "Everywhere else, there's always a plan. The protagonist knows more than everyone around him, or he figures it out faster. But in here, in chapter 138, he just. Doesn't. And the author doesn't fix it quickly. They let him sit in it for a while."
She thought about chapter 138. She remembered writing it at two in the morning, half asleep, following the story's logic somewhere else she hadn't planned to go. She'd reread it in the morning and thought: Well that was strange.
"Hm," she said.
"It must be uncomfortable to write that." He paused. "Or I assume it is. I don't write."
"It is," she said, before she could decide not to.
He looked at her. She looked at her phone.
"You write?"
"A little," she said.
He seemed to take this at face value. "I see."
The train slowed. His stop, as it turned out. He stood, pocketed his phone, and then paused in the way someone paused when they'd almost left without saying something they'd thought of.
"The chapter's not bad," he said. "Chapter 141. It's just. Not finished yet. The author just hasn't let themselves go far enough."
He left.
She looked at the window again. The train moved.
It wasn't finished yet. She could tell.