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Levi’s POV:
This day couldn’t have gotten any worse, I tried my best to distance myself… but that never stopped them from dragging me right behind for their stupid adventures. It had gotten to a point where I just let them…no fighting no nothing.. I swear these people think I’m some sort of rag doll that can just be played around with.
But yet again, it wasn’t all that bad, because I’d always end up talking to Alex more often about work and how she was healing. I was proud of her for finally being able to move on.
So when she asked me to look after the squad while she went ahead to accomplish her dream job of modeling...I accepted without a second thought.
Believe me, I was sad to see her leave behind the only people that she cared for… to achieve such a big dream. Yet I was happy for her… even if I didn’t uptight say it to her, I’d be seen as a softie which I was NOT. Alex deserved the world even if she herself didn’t think so.
Watching her slowly fade from the house was a huge change for us all….Charlie helped as well as Jaxx, while I stood aside and watched with a small smile playing on my lips. Alex seemed happy to finally be able to move somewhere else more comfortably… but I could see in her eyes the.. hesitation of leaving us was painful.
It felt stupid of her to even hesitate for us, we barely helped her grow to be who she wanted to be. I’ve told her numerous times that “We will be fine”.
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Her stuff was gone completely as they were moved to her now “Home” . For her it felt like a dream come true,…but for me … it felt like she finally got the chance to leave mistakes behind.
I leaned onto a wall, watching the squad hug onto Alex as she expressed her gratitude and appreciation for them joining her on this journey she built. My gaze had fell on her as I nodded alongside her words.
Her wave of goodbye felt more like a see you later…it didn’t sting as much as before. She was happy…I needed to be happy.. for her sake.
Yes of course I loved her, I had loved her since we played games like little kids with the others. But I never got the chance to fully understand my own feelings after all. She wasn’t in a good state of mind to even appreciate a relationship.
As a fool, I kept to myself, hoping she’d see my obvious feelings but… it never seemed to click for her. That’s what I always hated of her, she seemed to take everything in consideration but my own feelings.
As I slowly zoned out into my own “space”. I had heard a soft spoken voice coming from behind me.
“Are you just gonna stand there? Or??” A blue haired man had spoke up as he stood beside me… coffee in hand, nudging my shoulder.
I had jolted at the sudden contact, nearly tripping on my own two feet. Holding myself onto the wall as I turned my head to stare at where the voice came from.
It was Sora.
Of course it was him, he always seemed to surprise someone when they least expect it. As the smaller male seemed to had just woken up from a long deep sleep…his bed hair all around the place, his face drowsy and tired.
“Did you….just wake up???” i managed to say before anything else, as my gaze turned to annoyance.
“Yeah.” Sora immediately responded, sipping on his coffee before he exchanged his hand out to hand me the coffee.
Looking confused. I took it with zero hesitation. My gaze following as he walked back to say his goodbyes to Alex.
It seemed weird, I felt my heart beating as I looked at the half empty coffee in my hand. I didn’t know exactly what was going on with me. It felt confusing, why I was so suddenly interested in what Sora did. My gaze never seeming to move on from him…he was a stupid idiot that only knew how to joke around with others in the most crueliest way.
Maybe it’s the built up wall of annoyance with having to deal with an overly dramatic idiot that will try everything in his power to make my life as the new “leader” be a living hell.
2 weeks passed.
I had felt much more tired with this leader shit. It was fun for the first couple days, bossing everyone around, giving them much more complicated scripts on purpose, and even joking around to lighten the mood.
Now I felt like I was draining myself to make the rest of tjem feel comfortable with having me as their leader. I’ve spend much more time in my own world of making the uploads come out faster than usual.
Waking up felt much more peaceful than normal. Sitting up with a small grunt of pain on my back, slowly tracing my hand over the pain before managing to kick my feet over the edge.
My nose catching a smell that was oddly so comforting and sweet. Slowly turning my head to look at the slightly open door.
The silence was loud…it just felt wrong seeing how I just stared at the door with no real thought behind my head. The silence soon being cut by a sweet and softer high pitched voice.
“GOOD MORNING LEVI!” Charlie had yelled out before gently kicking the door to make a dramatic entrance. Her smile growing even more at seeing me sit there with slightly closed eyes, replying with a softer tone back.
“good…morning” having softly sighed, glancing over to the plate of pancakes she had brought. Her gaze following mine to the food as she smiled more softly. Walking over and sitting beside me.
“How’d you sleep leader??” She had said before leaving the pancakes on the desk and glancing my way.
I had stared at the ground a bit before I just sighed and rubbed my eyes with a slow motion. It had been so tiring that I completely forgot about the nickname that the rest of them gave me…I hated it to bits, but I couldn’t just say that without them teasing me even more.
“it was fine…but still tired” My eyes scanning the walls for a way out of this awkward situation I was in.
Charlie knew I wasn’t clearly in a good state to talk with, especially with the lack of sleep that I had been ignoring. Her smile fading as she patted my shoulder for comfort.
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The moment felt calm and comfortable especially since we both knew what exactly was wrong. I just accepted her company… eating the pancakes in robotic movements.
Before an annoying voice completely blew off the calm in the air. Making both of us react and glance at the door. Seeing Sora and Light stand with smirks on their lips.
“You guys are gross genuinely.” Sora had said as he leaned onto the door. Adding onto the fire with, “Its so embarrassing seeing our leader be so “vulnerable” don ya think Light?” His gaze towards Light who nodded alongside his buddy. It felt like they were trying too hard to be those annoying bullies in tv shows.
It pissed me off.
“Can you get the hell out?” I had responded with a glare as I put the plate aside and crossed my arms. I didn’t have time to play around with their stupid games especially when I had more work to deal with later.
Starting off the day with a bad mood would ruin that. Sora had caught onto my sudden annoyance. Finding it funny how I could easily be so pissed off at his words, to which he used to his advantage
“You are so sensitive it’s actually crazy. I mean you know I’m joking right “leader” or humor suddenly so unprofessional?.” He had mocked as I gave him a deep glare back.
“Say it again, See what happens you piece of shit.” Standing up with anger covering giving in to his way of mockery which he enjoyed.
Sora was too cocky for his own good, it was like his own personal enjoyment to play around with others until they fully go all out on him.
Charlie had tried to intervene into the conversation, slowly putting herself in the middle.
“Hey we can figure this out. We don’t need to start a fight at 8 in the morning.” She had softly spoke as she stared at Light for help. Slowly getting frustrated with how he stood there with his phone, recording. Almost waiting for something to happen between the two.
Sora did not back down as he got closer to my face.
His eyes glaring back at mine with determination. “Why so pissed off leader. I’m only addressing you by your respected term?? Is that too much for a person like you.” He had said as he laughed right after.
My fists balled up as I held myself back before anything else happened. Only glaring at him as he continued his rage bait.
“No no I see. A person like you doesn’t even deserve to be leader.. I mean look at you all you do for this squad is boost up our egos. Oh not to mention how you just try so hard that you fail to be even remotely close to Alex’s personality.” His words had cut through me like a butter knife. I froze at his words as he spilled what I could only say was half true.
“It’s so embarrassing having someone that doesn’t see that their issues are worthless . We wouldn’t care less if you harmed yourself. Because unlike you, we are much more useful than you. So cut the victim bullshit and just-..”
Suddenly, Sora felt his head snap to the side, his
body jolting back with surprise. Frozen in place before he held his reddened cheek…tasting the metallic substance that now trickled down the corners of his mouth.
The room falling silent.
Charlie and Light were shocked as they just stared at the two of us, one with concern and the other with fear.
I didn’t think at the time what I had done, I was so enraged that it seemed like the only solution for this dumb annoying idiot to shut up. My annoyance was still there as I looked at the now pissed off Blue haired man in-front of me.
Sora had stared at me with anger in his eyes, his stance slowly shifting. Lunging before I could react. It had passed like a blur before I realized I was being pinned on the ground. I had stared at Sora with surprise before I was taken aback from the sudden jolt of force thrown at me, causing me to cough out from the pain. My vision turning into a blur with high pitched sounds filling my ears like a painful melody.
Charlie had called out for someone…but it sounded distorted and far. My gaze focusing more on the angered Sora that stared back. The sounds of punches being thrown between both sides becoming clearer. Our “fight”taking about 10 minutes before we were separated by Jaxx and Charlie.
Faces covered in blood and bruises, as the pain didn’t registered in the moment at-least not for me….all I cared about was the feeling of sleep that overcame me. The echo of different voices called out for me to stay awake.
As sleep takes over me… My thoughts slowly fading to dark. My thoughts drifting as they decide whether I did the right thing for defending myself even if it had been nrationg! on my behalf. Though if I'm being honest, it wasn't so bad to finally see Sora lose control for the first time in the years l've met him.