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It was weekly hangout time with the Bakusquad. Kaminari was rambling on about some video game he had been playing last week; Mina was braiding Eijirou’s hair. Katsuki had put his head into Eijirou’s lap, enjoying his boyfriend carding through his own and Sero swung lazily from his hammock, grinning at Kaminari gesturing like a madman.
“… and like, everyone is really, really gay which, love that, obviously, and it’s also kind accurate, ‘cause ancient Greek was, like, so gay, all the time and I swear, I’m gonna do the Poly-ending because hello? Why choose if you can have them all?” he fell silent for a moment.
“We have a good amount of the flag here, don’t we? Like, I’m bi, Mina’s a lesbian, Kacchan and Ei are gay and Sero is our token straight…!”
“I’m not gay.” The words had left Eijirou’s mouth before he could think about them and he felt himself going red as all eyes focused on him. Katsuki looked up at him, teetering between bemusement and worry.
“Uh… babes, your boyfriend might say otherwise.” Mina said, chuckling in a confused way. Eijirou groaned, putting his head in his hands.
“No, I mean, of course I’m into Kats, that’s not… But I’m not… I mean, maybe I’m gay too, I dunno how that works, but like… I’m actually ace?”
Silence filled the room after his rambling little speech. Katsuki’s hand came up and stroked Eijirou’s own, coaxing them away form his face to look at him, concern and care now overtaking the amusement. Eijirou smiled at him weakly.
“Wait, what’s that?” It was Kaminari who spoke first, his brow furrowed. “I thought I knew all the rainbow colors!! What’s this new thing you throw at my feet?” he said, gesturing dramatically. Mina snorted and the tension seemed to bleed out of the room as fast as it had built. Eijirou chuckled lightly.
“Sorry to give you more homework, Denks. It means ‘asexual’, like, I don’t want to have sex with anyone. Period.”
Mina hummed and Sero shrugged, but Kaminari’s eyes were almost bulging out of his face.
“What??? How??? I would die if I couldn’t have sex!!” he exclaimed, looking absolutely flabbergasted. Eijirou squirmed a bit, feeling mildly uncomfortable, but it was Katsuki who spoke.
“Well, not everyone is an incurable horndog like you, Sparkplug. Some people are just fine having no sex,” he grouched and Kaminari looked at Eijirou.
“Wait… was that totally insensitive? I’m sorry, man, you know I don’t want to be mean… Like, acceptance is my whole thing, I think everyone should do what or who they want… or don’t want!” he said, looking upset. Eijirou laughed.
“It’s fine, Denks, I know. And I mean… I guess it can really be strange if you’ve gone your whole life thinking everyone wants at least a little bit of sex.” He shrugged. “But I just don’t.” He smiled down at Katsuki.
“And luckily, I have the best boyfriend who is entirely chill with that.”
Katsuki snorted. “Course I am, Shitty Hair,” he grumbled, swatting lightly at his arm. From the corner of his eye Eijirou saw Kaminari’s mouth open, then close as he began to furiously chew the inside of his cheek, looking slightly constipated.
Eijirou grinned. “C’mon, Denks, spit it out before you pop a blood vessel because you’ve been trying to hold your questions in.” He smiled. “I promise, I won’t get mad or anything, I know you just wanna know stuff.”
Kaminari still looked torn, but it was also clear that not asking was causing him physical pain. “I just… I… how does Kacchan deal with that?” he finally asked, looking contrite almost the second the words left his mouth. Eijirou looked down at Katsuki who rolled his eyes.
“What, you never masturbated, Pikachu? You’re own hand not good enough for you?”
Eijirou had to hold back a giggle. Mina snorted and Sero turned away quickly to hide his wide grin. Kaminari, however, only looked thoughtful.
“I mean, in a pinch, sure… but I don’t think it would be enough for me in the long run. Sex just feels way too good, y’know?” he shrugged. “But I guess that’s different for everyone too.” He grinned. “Okay, I’m good, no more questions… OH!! That’s why Medusa rejects you!! Oh my god, I think the game has an Ace Character, I have to look that up right now…”
He was already typing furiously on his phone, squealing a second later because apparently, yes, the character from the game was Ace-coded.
Eijirou however was only half paying attention.
Was it enough for Katsuki? He always said it was. Eijirou couldn’t really compare, since he himself just… never felt the urge. Every once in a blue moon he woke up with morning wood, but that went away quick and other than that… nothing. He never felt any desire towards either men or women.
But Katsuki was different. Sure, he might not be as rampantly horny as Denki, but… was he really okay with never having sex? And if he wasn’t… what then? Would they break up? Or maybe Eijirou needed to let them open the relationship, so Katsuki could have sex with other people… either idea made Eijirou feel like someone stabbed him.
A hand touched his face.
“Oi.” Katsuki’s voice was low and quiet, but his gaze was trained intently on Eijirou. “What’s going on in that Rockbrain of yours, huh?” Eijirou could feel Mina’s hand still for a few seconds, then resume, gentler and with more touch than before.
He really had the best friends.
“S’nothing… later, okay?” he said, because he couldn’t have this discussion in front of all his friends. Katsuki furrowed his brow and abruptly sat up.
“I’m fucking tired, I’m going to bed. You comin’?” he gestured to Eijirou, who needed a few seconds to catch up, but then hastily nodded.
“Oh, oh, uh yeah, one sec…!” He turned and Mina hugged him tight, whispering in his ear: “He loves you, Ei, so don’t get in your head, hm?”
Eijirou sniffled slightly but smiled as he hugged her back tightly.
He waved to Sero, who looked thoughtful, but didn’t say anything and Kaminari who was only half listening because he was still in full swing explaining the games combat system.
Then he left with Katsuki to go to their rooms. On the way there, Katsuki’s fingers intertwined with his and Eijirou felt a little better, because Mina was right and they would probably be okay.
They went into Katsuki’s room and as soon as the door closed, Katsuki turned towards him.
“Spill. The hell had you so upset there?” he looked angry, but Eijirou knew him well enough to differentiate between ‘I’m angry at you’ and ‘I’m angry at me because I don’t know what to do right now’ and this was definitely the latter.
He stepped closer, putting his hands soothing on Katsuki’s arms.
“It’s fine, I just… when Denki talked about not being able to go without sex… you are fine, right? Like… I’m not… making you hold back even though you’d really need it?”
Katsuki looked at him, his brow furrowed. “And if you did? What would you do then, Ei? Give me permission to sleep around? Break up? For the record, I’m fine, but I’m gonna tell you this right fucking now: I will never need sex more than I need you. I don’t give a shit that I have to use my hand or a damn cocksleeve for the rest of my days, as long as it means you stay with me, you got it?” he looked downright furious, but a big smile crept over Eijirou’s face as he closed the gap and kissed him.
“Thanks. I know and… I just got in my head. But I know. And I love you so much… I don’t think I could ever share you and the day we break up is the day I will shrivel up and become a wrinkly little raisin.”
Katsuki snorted. “I hate raisins.”
Eijirou grinned. “Me too. So lets not do that”
Katsuki rolled his eyes, swatting his arm, but also kissing him. “Course we’re not fucking doing that. But if you ever get such thoughts again, just talk to me, yeah? ‘Cause I’m gonna tell you as often as you need to hear it: You’re it for me, Ei, and I won’t ever make a decision that would cost me you.”
Eijirou kissed him again, his heart squeezing painfully in his chest as Katsuki pulled him to the bed, where they lay down, snuggling into each other. This was where he felt safe; were he was content.
“You’re it for me too…” he mumbled and Katsuki kissed the top of his head, pressing him close.
This was all Eijirou would ever need to be happy.