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Evourai is a fool. Everybody knows this. Boomie told it to him right to his face. Inproper or SyntaxError haunted called him a clown every time he tried to avoid pain. Mino called him one behind his back. Noob constantly rattled at him, calling him a fool until Evourai got better. Sorfin refused to call him anything besides a fool. Supzec is currently yelling at Evourai for his stupidity.
Does no one understand? Evourai continued to walk with Supzec as they trekked through the end. He wanted to cry, but if he came off weak would Supzec doubt him? A joke that’s all he was. If he was truly what he said the server wouldn’t be at risk. Noob wouldn’t have seen him as a failure.
He felt the tears prick against his eyes. Evourai rubbed his eyes using the sleeves of his kimono.
“You okay, Evo?”
“Ya, just dry eyes causing me to tear up”
It was believable. Ha, only if someone knew him well enough to know that his eyes weren’t dry and that he is typically really emotional.
When Supzec and Evourai stop to rest for a bit. Evo lets Supzec rest first, so he’s on watch duty first. He can hear Supzec’s breath slowing down as the other falls asleep. The tears bubble back up and he finally lets them fall. It hurts, it really does. He should be doing more.
Issac is dead because of his hesitance. Boomie had died in the afterlife because of him realising Naparizel. Lezy had lost a life because of his stupidity. Supzec lost two lives and now was stuck joining him on this quest to prevent DEATH from being released by the Council.
Hell from overhearing Sharpness and Flowtives talking, they were only in this because DEATH promised to bring back their dead friend/lover, Jude, who had died to Inproper as Jude attempted to defend Evourai against SyntaxError. Even when interacting with everyday people he was still causing pain and being a joke of a person.
He had made Noob lose life from Extra during the wither sickness. Could he be a worse friend? Was he at fault? Of course he was. He should have just never left his isolation.
He was fucking greedy that’s why he’s here. He only accepted Boomie’s “quest” of taking down the Desert Empire for the promise of getting a mace and elytra. If he hadn’t accepted everything would have been fine. He would have been alone, but who cared now? It was all his fault that the world was near imminent doom again.
Evourai felt a warm touch dragging him out of his mind, it was Supzec.
“I can hear you speak to yourself”
“What?”
“I can read minds. You know all the times you monologue to yourself and you call me an idiot or sidekick and I protest? Ya you weren’t speaking aloud. I just read your mind”
“And you’re telling me this now? Wait, do you just hear everyone’s thoughts or can you turn it off and on?”
“I can turn it off and on, but I’ve been permitting myself to hear yours constantly and damn Evourai you’re pushing yourself farther than anyone else.”
This got a chuckle from the ravennette. Perhaps he was pushing himself too far, he was human still. To a degree at least. Supzec sat up and pulled Evourai into a hug.
“Relax a little, Evourai”
Evourai felt how warm Supzec was and leaned into it. It has been a while since someone’s willingly hugged him. The last person to touch him like this was Lezy. Even when he was getting trained by Noob, neither of them touched each other unless sparring because Noob wasn’t an affectionate person.
Maybe he could rest a little. Just a little, enough to take down the council.