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Tsujinaka Yoshiki
Ueno City
Tokyo ST #7766
Tsujinaka Yoshiki
Ueno City
Tokyo ST#7766
[AN:These are the three segments of page one]
Dear Yoshiki
I hope my letter finds you well. I keep going back and forth on sending it... I don't even know if these are getting to you, but in some degree I hope they don't. Even if they did, are you reading them? Sending letters is new to me. Many people at school said sending letters is old fashioned. They said to call you but your father didn't give me that. Do ya have a phone number? You probably wouldn't tell me if you did and that's okay.
To tell you the truth Yoshiki, ever since you left, I've felt quite strange. The body I have seems to be rejecting me. Hikaru's limbs and the way I feel. It feels like he knows your gone too. I'm not writing this letter to make you feel guilty, but I think I miss you. I don't think, I know what that means clearly. I do know, I don't like it. This pit in my stomach of these thoughts. This feeling of going to the creak and catching odd things. I miss slipping on the wet rocks and you laughing at me and calling me an idiot. I miss the feeling of you looking at me...You would look away so quickly, but I always would see you sneaking a glance at me. I would admittedly would too. Your hair would fall over your face, is it still like that now? I liked how it looked. I'm sorry. These are just memories, but Hikaru misses you. I miss you.
I know that your father said you're not going to come home for awhile, but I'm glad in some regard you are able to leave this place and go to Tokyo like we wanted. Would you still let me visit? I always heard of this place called Tokyo. Everyone in the village fantasizes about it, like it's a utopia of some sort. Some people might refer to it as heaven? I am not sure what heaven means or utopia, but I'm guessing it's good a place? If it's a good place, you have to be in it. You've always been a good person. Tell me Yoshiki, do you think I can make it there too?
Sincerely,
Hikaru
Dear Yoshiki
Spring has come to the village. Does the warm air greet you as it does for me? These days I wanna feel the warm weather. Even though it's warm, it reminds me of you. I talked to your father again and ask when you would be back. He didn't have an answer. You have to come back soon, right? You must miss me at this point. It's been so long since I've written the last letter...But there was no reply. You must have your reasons. Maybe, you miss me sooooo much that you have no words to write. This feeling of missing is wordless for you. This is my first time feeling this way. The feeling of missing. I don't know how some one can feel this way all the time. Does it ever stop?
I hate it. I hate it. I hate it. I hate it. I hate this feeling. Why why why why why why why whyyyyyy. Why did you have to leave me by myself. You have to come back. You have to. You have to come back. No matter what. Do I have to come all the way to Tokyo to find you? I want to see you. I want to be near you. What's so wrong with that? Is it wrong to be selfish? Is it wrong to want you? You always said it was wrong, but I know you wanted it too. The way you looked at me. Please never stop looking at me like you used to. Please look at me.
I'm sorry. I know going to Tokyo was your choice. I can't control your life. I can't even control Hikaru how I want to. But these emotions...It isn't just mine. Anyways. Please come see me. We both want to see you.
Sincerely,
Hikaru