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Martin is like a dream for Juhoon.
Honestly Juhoon’s life was so boring before he met Martin.
Martin was the color, he was everything for Juhoon.
But they do say first love is temporary.
Sometimes Juhoon wonders about it. About the day Martin decided to leave him, the day their love was nothing but a memory.
Martin always say I love you to Juhoon, and he believed it. It was all real.
their day was filled with laughter, smiles and love.
they study together, They eat together and They were always together.
Martin and Juhoon knew each other for 4 years
they were 15 years old little kids, having feelings for each other, just a pure admiration and love for each other.
And they are 19 years old now, feelings never change, Juhoon still gets shy around Martin, Juhoon’s heart still skip a beat when Martin kissed him gently.
Martin has passion for music, he is always playing an instrument, always writing songs about Juhoon.
Juhoon was his muse. The most beautiful muse.
Martin made such beautiful songs for his muse.
Juhoon was the reason why Martin wrote love songs every single day.
Juhoon always blushed when Martin sings the song beautifully written about him.
For a moment, Juhoon thought, like really thought, they are gonna be like the couples in the movies.
Happily ever after.
but he was wrong.
That one phone call, that damn phone call from Martin.
“ hello Jju are you doing okay during this summer break?” Martin asked
Juhoon definitely noticed that Martin’s voice was different today. He was speaking normally but there was faint heaviness in his voice. Juhoon acted like he didn’t notice it, keep the conversation going on.
” I’m doing fine..how about you love?”
Martin hesitated to answer and he giggled, the fakest laugh ever. Juhoon’s expression changed, his heart is waiting to drop.
Martin didn’t call Juhoon once during summer break but he picked up when Juhoon calls. Juhoon was in his hometown for holidays so they couldn’t see each other for months.
Juhoon is intuitive, he knows something before it even happened, and he doesn’t feel good about the phone call. He was over the moon because Martin called him first but Martin’s voice made him feel heavy. He just wished that Martin was just tired.
” ah…hey Juhoon I wanna say something”
” yeah ?” Juhoon replied quickly.
“ you know…” Martin again hesitated.
” Tell me..”
” i will have to go to New York next week..”
Juhoon hearts dropped, but he comforted himself. Martin and him will call face time text messages, it wouldn’t feel lonely.
Martin is his best friend, his boyfriend and his everything.
“ but why??”
“ ahh..my friend’s uncle saw me and he want to make music with me. Juhoon I’m sorry but this is my dream I’m not gonna be an unknown artist. If i make music with him, I’m gonna to famous. I decided to dropped out of school and pursue my dream, I really hope you understand it”
Juhoon was happy for Martin, his boyfriend will get the chance to do his dream job.
but
They are gonna be in different countries, different parts of the world. Will it be possible for them to stay in contact forever…?
juhoon pause for a moment before he says something.
“ I’m so happy for you Martin, I really do…”
” thanks my love..but you know..I” Martin is holding back again.
“ you can tell me everything..”
Martin let out a deep sigh. And he exhale.
A heavy silence lingers between them.
“ let’s break up”
Juhoon heart dropped to the lowest part of earth, just like it was waiting for it.
and he could feel the tightness in his throat.
His lower lips trembled, he could feel his tears running down, he could feel that there is a slight burn in his eyes he couldn’t ignore.
Juhoon was feeling everything, he was in disbelief.
” Are you joking right?” Juhoon said, his voice cracking.
“ I wish I was joking, There is a high chance that I will never come back.. and I want to focus on my career..”
Juhoon can’t find the words now that Martin has broken up with him. He tries to keep his crying quiet, but he knows it carries through the call.
“ what should I say Martin? Should I beg you to not go? To not leave me? But you won’t listen to me right?”
“ please come back to our city let’s meet before I go… and I’m sorry Jju”