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Two months....
It has been two months since shadow milk has been redeemed.
While he was able to kinda prove himself to be a changed cookie, not everyone except pure vanilla and some of the ancients believed it; heck, whenever shadow milk would try and go out just to chill, he would always get side-eyed by innocent villagers. It would get so annoying to the point that he would have to shape shift just to go out.
Only pure vanilla was the one who believed in his changed self; sure, shadow milk is still cocky, charismatic and a huge trickster but he toned down a bit to finding ways to enjoy and play tricks without harming himself or anyone.
It would seem like a miracle but....the pain wouldn't go away.
Sure, shadow is "safe and welcomed here" (pure vanilla 's words" but the guilt and regret of his past actions wouldn't go away. Heck, it has been coming up recently to the point of Shadow Milk having lack of sleep.
Sure, it isn't the first time he couldn't get sleep but this feels more... painful...and pathetic.
This night this time felt...more painful and heartbreaking.
He was given a free guest room in the vanilla castle on the condition that he doesn't harass the innocent servants.
it wasn't really hard since the servants would tremble around his presence anyway.
He lied down on his bed and sighed heavily. He buried himself in the bedsheets as he tried to close his eyes and have a good night's sleep.
*Finally..it worked, he can sleep*
His vision then sees chaos: Jam everywhere, innocent cookies screaming in pain and running around, villages burning to the ground and the smell of jam and dough.
He looks around in terror as an innocent villager gets stabbed through the chest and bleeds on the ground.
*Well...look who decided to join me~*
Shadow Milk turned around and saw... himself but different. His other eye has multiple other different eyes connected to it and his arms seem to have turned into tentacles with jam.
He looked like a real beast.
Before he could say anything, he gasped in pain as he felt a strong force pushing him down before something stabbed through him.
He tried to scream but no noise came out of him as his other self looked down at him with the same smile he's had for centuries.
"Looks like you forgot who you truly are huh? Let me make this clear...you are nothing but a ruthless, pathetic..BEAST-"
*Shadow Milk!*
He gasped and woke up instantly before finding himself on the ground in his own room as pure vanilla looks down at him with worry.
*Witches, he looks dazzling~*
"Oh my witches, Bluebird are you alright?" pure vanilla finally got to his knees: not close to shadow milk but close enough to make shadow milk's breath shiver.
This can be a perfect opportunity for shadow milk to finally blur out the guilt he has carried.
The regret of all the innocent lives he has taken. All of the mistreatment he brought to others. The pain he made pure vanilla himself endured into. All his feelings towards his gorgeous sweetheart of an other-half.
Instead, he felt a bulge on his throat as his eyes become glassy.
Great! Crying in front of your other-half?! How pathetic!
He tried to come up with the words but all that came out of him was a broken sob.
Quiet, yet heartbreaking.
He tried to regain his composure but the tears won't stop flowing as he's pulled into a hug from pure vanilla.
His tears continuing flowing as Shadow Milk's body shakes faintly as pure vanilla pulled him closer, gently stroking shadow milk's hair without saying anything.
The silence of 20 minutes felt comforting somehow as Shadow Milk pulls away from the hug, a bit embarrassed while pure vanilla gently wipes away his remaining tears.
"Nilly, i-"
"Shadow Milk, my dear." Pure vanilla gently whispered softly as he took shadow milk's hand and just held it, "you don't have to say anything..or explain..but I'm right here if you want to talk."
Dear witches, he's so gorgeous!
"Nills, I... it's just... I've been feeling..." Shadow Milk was unable to make out a sentence without trembling and pure vanilla didn't push it but somehow...he knew what shadow milk was trying to say.
"Bluebird...I know I shouldn't be jumping into assumptions or anything but... you've changed. I know it's probably hard and difficult to forget everything you've done and I'm not saying you should but shadow milk~.."
He pulled shadow milk a bit closer as their breaths mixed with each other's.
"You are much more than just a beast. You make jokes, you sometimes write and act out stories to innocent doughlings. You've improved yourself so much over these past months. I've gotten to know you and...understand you better and.."
Silence
Silence just fills back the room as pure vanilla trailed off his works. Their lips were close enough to make shadow milk's face get a bit of a bluer blush. Their breathing touched their dough as Pure Vanilla felt his hand gently go up to Shadow Milk's cheek as his thumb gently grazed his lips.
The silence returns as Shadow Milk's hands reach up to Pure Vanilla's shoulders as their lips have gotten even closer, shadow milk's face flushing even more.
He finally wasn't able to keep up his growing anticipation and he gently but firmly crash their mouths together.
Pure vanilla gasped into the kiss before melting in it as he pulled shadow milk closer.
The kids started off as soft before it slowly grows deeper and rougher, the cookies lying on the ground as shadow milk grabs nilly's face as their tongues intertwine with each other.
Their soul jams glow brighty as Pure Vanilla moans into the kiss and wrapped his arms around shadow milk's neck, his thighs over shadow milk's as the kiss gets deeper and deeper.
Shadow Milk groans as his hands grip Pure Vanilla's waist as he pulled himself close enough that their chests are pressed together and their soul jams glow even brighter the moment they made contact.
They finally pull away just to catch their breaths and regain their composure on what just happened.
Shadow Milk was left stunned as his hand trembled faintly before pure vanilla gently held it down. Shadow Milk let out a soft growl, expecting to get some stupid speech before pure vanilla chuckled a bit and gently moved a strand of Shadow Milk's hair behind his ear. Silence comes back before their lips met each other once again but this time it's more.... passionate than before.
Shadow Milk's hands was busy trailing and stroking Pure Vanilla's soft but plush curves that is covered by his nightgown but Pure Vanilla cupped his face and their tongues start passing through each of their teeth.
The kiss grew deeper to the point that shadow milk needed to clutch pure vanilla 's hips to keep up the pace as new tears started to rebuild up. Not out of pain...but out of pleasure and the feeling of peace he never felt in centuries~
All his decades as fount of knowledge, he was basically told from the sugar of happiness that love comes in many different ways: both special and unique in their own ways.
What mattered most is that the lover feels comfortable and warm in the arms of their lover. However, He learned the hard way that love is conditional-not unconditional and he never got to experienced any form of love and compassion Besides first milk...his creater...his mother. He built strong relationships with former cookies, some platonic, some special and some even... romantic.
But alas, he always got back stabbed and rejected by the very cookies he let his guard down for. And every single time felt more painful than the last to the point he decided that if loving someone would only bring him pain and despair, He should seal it away...and don't let it show.
Ever since he finally decided to get redeemed, the painful feeling of desire rebuild in his chest. It gotta so bad to the point he couldn't go a single second without thinking about him. It's not worth it.. he would tell himself over and over again whenever he couldn't sleep. It'll only hurt you.. But not only is pure vanilla allowing him to let his guard down: he's returning him the burning passion shadow milk has been holding in forever.
Shadow milk didn't realize he was crying before pure vanilla gently wiped his face again. "Bluebird". "Nills, I...that wasn't...I shouldn't.." shadow milk felt his face get more hot as he just buried himself in embarrassment. "Do you need me to get you anything?" Just that soft yet patient tone. Shadow Milk said nothing before unconsciously curling himself close to pure vanilla's chest.
Not intentionally, just pure instinct. Silence grew stronger as pure vanilla got the signal and gently scooped up the cookie and placed him back on his bed. "You can always call me if you need anything, dear". Pure vanilla got ready to leave and get back to work before shadow milk tugged at his sleeve. "Mhm..". No begging..no words just... A small tug. "Heh...Bluebird, I can't stay here..". He felt shadow milk pull on his sleeve further like a cat with its blanket. "Hmm...I suppose I can... just for today." He could hear a small whimper as pure vanilla gently got into the bed and adjust himself without pushing shadow milk off. He smiled faintly as shadow milk clung to his chest. Silence has never felt so.... peaceful.~