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"I think I'm ready to talk about him now."
"Hm?" the two lovers cuddling togther, one lying on top of the other.
"My dad... remember how you spoke about your mom and asked about my family when we first started dating? ...I think I'm ready now."
Gundham gets up to move but is stopped
"Nah it's okay, I'm comfortable like this... I... acatually prefer it." Kazuichi said the last part softly.
After some physical adjustments, Gundham gets comfortable, "You know I won't judge you"
"Mhm... To be honest he wasn't the greatest... sure he wanted me to live like a regular kid but... the bad out weighs the good.. if im being honest."
A beat of silence.
"Ah, when I say that I mean, whenever school trips were happening, I would pretend to be sick so I wouldn't go... because we never really had money for it"
"I thought I was helping out y'know, but my dad actually beat the crap out of me for it, telling me that its not my responsibility and all that." he said as if to say 'can you believe it'
"He was right though, it isn't a kid's responsibility to-"
"I know i know" Kazuichi interrupts Gundham's lecture, "I probably wouldn't have thought it was my responsibility if I wasn't the only one running the bike shop. Oh! my dad owned a bike shop... but I basically ran everything since he was.... good for nothing." he said that last part with a breath of fresh air.
"To be honest, if he wasn't drunk out of his mind every other day, he could've actually been useful. The fucking son of a bitch..."
"When he was... inebriated... did he ever...." Gundham trailed off to find the words.
"Beat me some more? Yeah he did... it's crazy huh? Beat at school, Beat at home. It seemed like everyone just wanted me out of their way... in the back of that shop.. tinkering with whatever was there." Kazuichi says jokingly... Gundham however doesn't find it all that funny, but nonetheless responds with a lighthearted "Haha..."
Kazuichi speaks up, "That's about it anyways, he was useless husk of a man who was only useful at destroying his liver and wanting his only son dead." some silence, "He had good moments though... I kinda.... miss him" he says as if whispering to himself as he hides his face in his boyfriend's neck. "A-and your mother allowed him... to do that to you?" Gundham says carefully.
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Before Gundham can retract his question...
"I think... he might have killed my mom actually." Kazuichi says casually as he stops hiding.
Halting shock, Gundham doesn't say another word, he doesn't even breathe
"Ah, d-dont worry about that, haha... I was just... talking... to myself..." Kazuichi quickly raises his top half as he frantically starts but gradually lowers his voice in embarrassment. Lowering back into the safety of Gundham's neck.
"And... why is that... the case" Gundham urges him to talk, uttered in a soft voice, as if he were talking in the presence of a newborn. Kazuichi takes a breath... and hides his face again. "Because" he squeezes his boyfriend tightly "Whenever I asked about her or mentioned anything about mothers, he would get... really... angry... a-and start saying really awful things..." some complative silence , "Almost like he was guilty of something, like... he was projecting." he says downcast, as if he was a kid being told that he wasn't allowed to have any more candy. "To be honest, sometimes, when he was sober and in a good mood," he says a little more upbeat, "He would tell me how I look so much like her," he says with a small smile, appreciation painting his tone of voice, before Gundham can say anything he quickly continues "But... I think.... he may have been using me as a replacement for her..." the air stood dead still "I-i'm not really sure though, haha."
It pained Gundham to hear how his beloved had to deal with such a horrible human for years and yet here he is, admitting to being a victim so casually and even lightly chuckling about it as if it were happy nostalgic memory. He hugged the other tightly, rubbing soothing circles on his back. They didn't share anymore words after that. Not until Kazuichi got hungry and quitely asked if Gundham wanted to eat.