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𝕯𝖊𝖈𝖊𝖒𝖇𝖊𝖗 𝟐𝟐, 𝟐𝟎𝟐𝟐
"Why did you call me here, Hyun?"
He was standing on the rooftop. Candles dazzling on The railings of the corners of it. Even if it was Night time, I could make the silhouette of him, The Eiffel Tower standing afar in It's glory.
He turned to acknowledge me, giving me a soft smile as he walked over, softly grazing my hands with his.
"Im so glad, you made time to see me"
I let out a small smile. "Ofcourse, I'll always make time for you, now tell me what's up?"
He took a deep breath. Then looked deep into my eyes. "Follow me."
I walked alongside him, secretly glancing at him from time to time. He looked ethereal. He always does, but that night, It was different.
He was glowing.
As we came close to the doorframe to the other side of the roof, he softly covered my eyes with his large hands.
"Are you kidnapping me?" I smirked at him as he chuckled.
"You'll see"
Then a creaking sound. He opened the door with one hand while his other hand kept my eyes covered.
We walked inside. He slowly guided me in. And then,
"Open your eyes, haengbokkie"
I opened my eyes and
Oh my god.
Oh my fucking god.
My eyes are wide. I let out a huge gasp. In a way no one could tell I was the deep voiced guy of Stray kids.
"Hyun that's-"
"Yes baby. I prepared all this for you"
In front of me wasn't just a terrace, It was a goddamn wedding ceremony. A table decorated with flowers, and not just any flowers, daisies. My favourite one. Daisies were my favourite for a special reason. The entire terrace was decorated with fairy lights candles and small plants. It was ethereal.
I felt my eyes water. I turned around and threw myself on him. He cannot make me fall in love harder than this.
He wrapped his arms around my waist, letting out a small giggle.
"You like it?" he whispered.
"Are you kidding? I love it" my eyes were sparkling as I looked at him.
"Well, I did all this so that we can have an amazing dinner together, shall we?" I nod at him, still grinning.
That was the best day of my life.
He guided me towards the table, pulling the chair for me slightly so that I can sit, then moving towards his own seat.
The dinner was peaceful. We talked about various things. The places we went to together, how han made a fool of himself while trying to impress minho, even the time when chan defended all of us against JYP. As we finished our dinner, We walked around the terrace, our conversation never-ending. I was so immersed in the conversation that I didn't realize I was the only one talking at a point. I suddenly looked towards him and he Was already staring at me, breath hitching.
"Hyun, Is something wrong?"
He was hesitating. His hands trembling as he shook his head. But then,
"Actually, I have something to tell you. Wait here."
And then, he turned around and left the terrace, leaving me confused and standing there, unanswered.
After a while, He came back.
But he wasn't empty handed.
In his hand, was a rose. Blood red that looked painted by a heart. And not just anyone's heart, his. I tilt my head, trying to understand what he was going to do.
He walked over to me, taking deep breaths with every step closer.
And the next thing that happened, changed my entire life.
"Lixie-ah, My yongbokkie, my sunshine, my little fairy, This dinner plan I made today, Isn't just an ordinary dinner plan. This is something from where our future can either change forever, or return back to where it was. I'm not sure how it will end up. I just want you to know that every single moment we had, every hangout, every touch, every smile, it is all too precious for me, too precious to hold in my heart for long. It's not precious in a way a friend's memory would be. It's precious to a point that I wanna keep what we have, these memories, these moments, these dinner plans, forever. I want to be someone who would see you in our cozy little house, cooking while I stare at you through the doorframe. I wanna hold you in my arms and wrap myself around you every night. I wanna paint the house with your smile. Your happiness are like bright, pretty colour shades to me. You are my artwork, and my love for you is the paintbrush. I Don't know if you share the same feeling as I do, but Im gonna ask anyway. Felix Lee Yongbok, will you be the painting im willing to paint forever?'"
Hyunjin.
My dear Hyunjin.
What have you done.
How can I ever deserve you. After all of these words, how do I reply. All i could do was let out pathetic sobs as I heard every single syllable. The words repeatedly playing in my head as I stood there. Tears streaming down my face as I'm looking at him, eyes never acknowledging anything but him, him, him.
After a whole minute, I decided to change our future into something we hoped would be as colourful as he described it would be.
"Yes, my love. Yes I do"
And god, he was crying. He was crying for me and I couldn't do anything but cry too. He buried himself on my arms as I hugged him back, both of us sobbing like losers with no seungminnie around to give us boring remarks.
This was the best Paris date I've ever had with him.
𝕸𝖆𝖗𝖈𝖍 𝟐𝟓, 𝟐𝟎𝟐𝟑
"Im sorry, but I can't let this happen anymore. Both of you must limit your interactions on camera as soon as possible, or else I wouldn't have a choice but to separate both of you"
𝕺𝖈𝖙𝖔𝖇𝖊𝖗 𝟐, 𝟐𝟎𝟐𝟑
I'm running late. Today is a special day. God, Hyunjin finally made some time for us to go on a date. I can't miss this, I have to be quicker.
I enter through the doors of Seoul Cafe, And as expected, sitting on the 2nd table was gorgeous, gorgeous Hwang Hyunjin. Hair tied up in a bun with a blue oversized shirt.
"I'm sorry I'm late" I walk up to the table as he looks up, his eyes soften immediately.
"Ah gwenchana, yujeong-ah." he smiles and gestures me to sit.
He orders an Americano and I order a Boba tea, we small talk, work and the weather. Even giggle at random memes that fans made of us recently.
"It's nice like this, simply talking and being just the two of us, without any cameras or schedules." He suddenly said, groaning a bit.
"Yeah, Its been a while since It's Just been...us." I frown as I stare at him, his expression mirroring mine.
And then he held my hand, squeezing it lightly.
"Felix?" I hum in response.
"Promise me this Won't be over? We'll always be like this?" He looked at me with hopeful eyes. My lips curved into a sad smile.
"Ofcourse, I promise. It's just a matter of time and then we can be free."
We ended up spending the day together after cafe, going to the park, eating gelato and also taking beautiful pictures. We hadn't had such a fun time in a while.
Ever since we were separated.
At Night, I finally went back to my apartment. The door opens as My eyes land on a frowning seungmin.
"Good thing You're home. 1 more minute and I would've burned the kitchen" I giggle and enter the apartment, locking the door.
"It's alright Minnie, I'll cook some ramyeon for you" I take off my scarf and jewelleries.
"You better, or else I'm gonna switch to Changbin's dorm" I laugh and pat his shoulder.
Shower was a much needed pleasure after such a long day. I dress into pajamas and lie down on my bed a little. I took out my phone from my cross bag and Start scrolling. There were many posts about our performance from Last Saturday. But my eyes came across a particular one.
𝗛𝘆𝘂𝗻𝗹𝗶𝘅 𝗶𝘀 𝗺𝗶𝗻𝗲 @𝗵𝘆𝘂𝗻𝗹𝗶𝘅𝗰𝗼𝗳𝗳𝗲𝗲
HYUNLIX WERE SPOTTED OUTSIDE THE SEOUL CAFE TODAY. DOES THAT MEAN THEY WERE ON A DATE SKKDKFKFK MY HEART😭
[Image of Hyunjin and felix outside the cafe]
@𝗶𝗺𝗮𝗻𝗮𝗸𝗴𝗮𝗲𝗳𝘂𝗰𝗸𝗺𝗲: Bruh, It's just them hanging out, stop being delusional, they are just friends.
@𝗵𝘆𝘂𝗻𝗹𝗶𝘅𝗵𝗮𝘁𝗲𝗿67: Hyunjin doesn't love felix, You're fucking sick.
Ouch. He does.
I frowned at the comments. Why? Why do they always have a problem when it's us, but not the others. Why is it such a big issue that we're dating or not. I thought they would be happy for us.
My emotions suddenly overwhelm me. How can our relationship work out if nobody is okay with it. If jyp sees this, he's going to separate us forever. Maybe even ruin our careers.
A lone tear sliped from my eye as I wipe it away. At that moment, seungmin opened the door.
"Lix can I- hey...what's wrong??" he walked over to me as I looked away, wiping the tears that were threatening to fall.
"6 months, seungminnie. 6 months since me and Hyunjin had properly seen each other. And yet it's a problem to so many people that we had a date today. I'm so sick of it seungminnie. Why can't we be together, why can't we be free. I was so happy, so happy the day he confessed. The day we sealed our Relationship. It's like everything we've built is slowly being destroyed"
Seungmin frowned and hugged me, wrapping his arms around me tightly.
"It's gonna be okay yongbok-ah. Don't overwhelm yourself with this. Sooner or later, we'll find out a way to help you guys. Me and the members are here for you. Hold on just a little longer until the situation gets better. I'm sure we'll figure it out." Seungmin smiled at me. How can I ever live without them. They are my family.
And then, "Now make me ramyeon I'm starving" I rolled my eyes with a small smile still playing on my lips.
Spoke too soon.
𝕯𝖊𝖈𝖊𝖒𝖇𝖊𝖗 𝟐𝟐, 𝟐𝟎𝟐𝟑
"Happy Anniversary baby" He smiles at me and hands me a small box.
The box itself was beautiful. I wonder what's in it.
"Happy anniversary love" I smiled shyly as I gave him a wrapped gift as well. Inside the gift was a small teddybear necklace, matching with my own.
He opened the gift and immediately cooed like a baby.
He hugged me tightly as he started to wear the necklace around his neck.
"I love it. I'm never taking it off" I giggle. He's the opposite of me. Im never wearing it because I have a fear that I'll lose it.
Then It was my turn. i slowly open the box and oh my god.
Homaika rings.
We used to wear them back in 2022 until hyunjin lost his pair. But now there was another. The other ring was on his finger.
Hyunjin hyunjin hyunjin. Never failing to amaze me with his romanticism.
"Oh hyun, you Didn't need to buy this again" I looked at him as he rubbed his neck.
"I wanted to, I'm sorry I lost the old one." he pouted.
And then. I went on my tippy toes and pressed my lips against him. His eyes widened a little before he melted into the kiss, his arms wrapped around my waist, pulling me closer until there was no space. Until I couldn't feel or breath anything but hyunjin hyunjin hyunjin. Our tongues dancing together, deepening the kiss with every minute passing by. And Then, he lifted me up. I knew where this was going, but being too carried away to think this through, I let him carry me to my bedroom. Seungminnie was at changbin's, so we were safe.
And Just like that, Another unforgettable, long night was added to my memories.
𝕵𝖆𝖓𝖚𝖆𝖗𝖞 𝟏𝟒, 𝟐𝟎𝟐𝟒
"We can't continue this anymore. Im sorry but Let's end whatever this was." My eyes were cold and clear.