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Adam and Jonah were hanging out as usual. They were laughing, making jokes, usual stuff. Suddenly, Jonah opened his backpack and pulled out a flower and gave it to Adam.
“Here Adam, you deserve to know..” Jonah said softly while smiling, though the corner of his lips never quite reached his eyes.
Adam was confused but accepted while saying, “Thank you…I like your necklace by the way..!”
Jonah takes off his necklace while saying, “thanks! You can have it,” and before Adam could even answer, Jonah drops the necklace into Adam’s palm and mutters, “I believe you’ll keep my necklace safe.”
Adam still looked confused and asked, “what are these types of flowers..?”
”Oh, They’re just cyclamen, nothing……impo…rtant…” Jonah seemed to hesitate, which was unusual.
Adam doesn't notice that Jonah's safety pin necklace isn’t on him anymore.
For some odd reason, Jonah says he has to go home just because he was really tired.
Adam says bye to Jonah and hugs him. For the next few hours, Adam thought of Jonah’s actions today, the way he’d often hesitate when talking, when his smile didn’t seem real, when Jonah had given Adam flowers and his necklace, and now he had to leave so early. It all seemed…unusual, as if something bad is about to happen. It surely doesn’t mean anything, right? Adam thought while doodling in his notebook. Adam decided to call Jonah, but Jonah beat him to calling.
“Hey Adam, I know I might be interrupting you, but I need to confess something. I love you. Bye. Do not call me, I won’t be there to answer..” Jonah said into the phone, and in that moment Adam realized that Jonah wasn’t just tired from stress, he’s tired of life and wants to stop feeling pain.
”WAIT JONA-“ Adam yelled out of fear, but Jonah hung up. Adam started to text Sarah.
Adam: SARAH PLS RESPOND JONAH IS ABOUT TO KILL HIMSELF
Sarah: Wow this is a surprise you’re talking to me but WHAT.
Adam: JONAHS GONNA KILL HIM HIMSELF AND I DON’T KNOW WHAT TO DO
Adam: JONAH WON’T PICK UP THE PHONE AND IT’S OBVIOUS HE’S GONNA OVERDOSE HIMSELF
Sarah: Call me. NOW.
Adam calls Sarah, wiping his tears while shaking violently.
When Sarah picks up, she immediately says, “DO YOU KNOW WHY JONAH IS ABOUT TO KILL HIMSELF!?”
Adam responds softly, “I-I think he’s just tired of..life..” He blows his nose, still shaking violently.
Sarah sighs on the other line and asks, “do you think he’ll pick up if I call him..?”
Adam whispered, “I think he’s dead…I should’ve..looked out for him more..” Adam finally searched up what Cyclamen flowers meant, thinking it might mean something.
Meanwhile, Jonah had just finished calling Adam. He grabbed his pills and ate all of them. Before Jonah knew it, he was out, dead, pill bottle still in hand.
When Adam saw the meaning of Cyclamen flowers whilst talking to Sarah, his eyes widened and he broke down into even more tears.
Sarah asked, “Is something…wrong..?”
“I was too stupid to realize…the flowers, the necklace..everything pointed to this…scene… I should’ve just stopped him…now it's too late. Thanks to my stupidity..” Adam sobbed, stuttering in his sentences while also having the hiccups.
That morning, Jonah's body was found dead, pills still in hand. The night before, Sarah lost her best friend, Eveline lost her partner in crime, and most importantly, Adam lost his crush. Jonah's room still had stuff in it, but it was clean, his cat was sniffing Jonah, wondering if he’ll wake up. Adam eventually started self harming out of grief, writing multiple letters to Jonah, hoping that someday he’d see the letters, even if Jonah might’ve been in hell.
Alt Gabriel was surprised to see Jonah, since it wasn’t in the plan for Jonah to kill himself. At all.
Sarah could barely keep herself together, trying so hard to convince herself it’s a dream.
Eveline didn’t know what to do, eventually leading her to attempt killing herself too, only difference is she failed.
Adam was cleaning Jonah's room with the others, when he found one of Jonah's favorite jackets. He put it on, knowing if Jonah was down on this earth right now, he wouldn’t want his favorite jacket to be sold. The jacket had white,soft wool on the inside, and the outside was a navy blue silk lining.
If only Adam knew about Cyclamen flowers meaning farewell, if only…