Chapter Text
Another day in the empty sekai, another day of numbing terror.
The life of Kagamine Len is only an endless whirlpool of terror with small cracks of light in the distance.
But today, she feels okay about herself.
Maybe a little bit today.
Wandering further into the endless landscape, she stops at the lake in the endless grey to relax. And yet, a familiar face stands before her solemnly.
Rin.
The two looked essentially identical, both with bobs and blue eyes. The only thing really setting them apart were their accessories, clothing, and voice. Len liked having a deeper voice, more raspy and masculine while Rin hated when her voice would sound like that as observed from the few times she wasnt so scared to see her.
Mirror images, maybe there was something they didnt know about eachother.
"Oh... I didnt know you were gonna be here." Len says, while fiddling with her ribbon.
"Its fine, you can stay here if you wish."
"Okay..." she sits next to the other girl just before the water's edge.
Len is disgusted by the image that stares back at her. God, since when did she look so... effeminate? The millionth feeling of dread that grows cold in her chest should've been numb by now, but it hurts as much as ever.
Rin notices the other girl's face twist, a familiar feeling huh? Rin cant prove it but, she suspects that her sister might be a boy. They are mirrors of eachother after all, one in the same, because she used to be a boy before she met Len.
But those dog days are over, and Rin wants to help her younger reflection.
"Len? Are you alright?"
She snaps out of another spiral from her own reflection, "Ah... yes?" A quivering voice replies to the question.
"You look sadder than usual."
"Sorry?"
"I just wanted to have some small talk with you..."
"Okay..." Len feared what could come next, but something told her that it would be alright.
"Have you ever wondered what its like to be the opposite gender?" She asked with a solemn look in her eyes.
"I- havent... thought about that." She chuckled to herself, so much time in these endless plains and she never thought of these hypotheticals? A scary world dosent give you the privilege of silly questions.
"I dont think I'd like it at all." Rin replies coldly.
Len stares back into the reflection on the water. How would she feel if she was a boy? Having a flat chest... deeper voice... being called a boy....
She didnt- maybe- maybe it would feel better? What would boy Len be like? She heard some other Lens were boys... well, most of them are.
Except for her...
Len barely speaks above a whisper, "Maybe... being a boy sounds nice..."
The tension was so thick, the two didnt dare to speak. Len was shaking like a scared animal at the thought.
"I... think I'd be nice if I was one, just to see-"
Len merely ran away from the lake, that thought wasnt supposed to come out.
And a certain pink-haired girl heard everything.
//
A week since the conversation, Len hasnt been seen anywhere in that time.
Mizuki was asking everyone in the sekai where they were, and yet to no avail.
Mizuki whined for mafuyu to help her search for the blonde, thinking that maybe since it was her SEKAI, it could have some effect on it. Until the duo heard distant quiet sobs from behind a stone fragment quite far from the main area.
It was Len.
Her face was absolutely a mess, bloodshot eyes and sniffling all about. Her hairclips were all on the ground and she was covered in snot and tissues.
Mizuki looks back at mafuyu with a glint of sympathy in her eyes.
"Len? Is there a reason why you were gone for so long?"
She slowly looks up at the two, red eyes barely open. "I-I... dont... want to be like this..."
Her voice sounded like nails on a chalkboard, shes been crying for hours.
Mizuki furrows her eyebrows, did Len figure it out? "Be like what..?"
And just barely over a whisper, he spoke.
"Like rin... or- like a girl? I-im sorry im so weird." He cant bear to hold the stare of Mizuki and Mafuyu... hes so pathetic.
"You dont want to be a girl anymore huh? I could make you new clothes if you want..."
He stops. Staring back at the former, he can get new clothes? He always didnt like how his current clothes made his chest look bigger, but still- he wasnt expecting that response.
"Is it ok if I want to be a boy...?"
"Ofcourse it is, Len." She gives back a reassuring wink.
Rin finds the trio, she rushes over to Len at a lightning pace. "Hah... I knew you were always a boy."
Len turns blood red embarrassed at the statement, "Ah!? H-how do you-"
"I know how it feels, Len. I used to be in the same spot you were in."
Both Mizuki and Len were shocked, rhey were both trans?
Rin places a hand on Len's shoulder, "No matter what, youll always be my little brother."
// a few hours pass by, Mizuki is working on Len's new outfit for the sekai when suddenly, she gets a dm from Yuki.
Yuki:
Amia? Theres something I'd like to talk about.
Amia:
Sure! What do ya wanna talk about? :3
Yuki:
I think I resonate with what Len said at the sekai today.
Her hands stop at the keyboard, pausing for a moment.
Amia:
Do you wanna be a boy too?
Yuki:
Maybe.