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Shane was starring at Ilya and he couldn't believe what Ilya had just said.
"We should get married, now." Ilya says.
Shane blinks at him again.
"What?" Shane asks.
"Shane, you just asked me to marry you, after well everything and- why not get married now? I- The plane made me realize things too and I- I want to marry you Shane. I wanted for a long time and- so, now you asked me. So marry me." Ilya says.
"but-" Shane says, not really catching up on what Ilya wants from him.
"No but, let us get married here, today. We have suits and I can think of some speech."
"my mother will kill us." Shane mumbled.
"We can have fancy wedding after. Now, just let it be us." Ilya begged him, kissing him. Shane paused and then he thought, what was stopping them? Nothing really.
And almost losing Ilya had shown him what mattered to him.
"You are right, but can we like marry just like that here?" Shane asked.
"I think so." Ilya said. He did sound unsure now.
"Fuck, okay, then let us get married, but maybe some nicer cloths for that?" Shane asked.
"Yes, yes and after that we go buy some rings, okay?" Ilya asked, and Shane nodded.
He kissed Ilya.
"and maybe we should also talk." Shane then said.
"Yes, uhm, maybe- before we marry, you should know that- "
"What?" Shane asked, making Ilya look at him.
"I have depression, like my mother. I'm in therapy for it. I- uhm… there are bad days and you can't blame yourself for it. I-"
"Are you saying you are thinking about, killing yourself?" Shane asked.
"No, I am trying to say, that I think I could think that way." Ilya admitted. He was looking at the ground. Shane lifted his chin and made Ilya look at him.
"Okay, then we deal with it. I want you to know that you can always come to me if you feel bad. I want you to tell me. I want you to be honest about ti. You are not a burden. I want to marry you and spend all my life with you. I know it is hard and we struggle and- there are many things we need to talk about. But I'm willing to listen and make it work, because I love you no matter what." Shane said. he could see the tears in Ilya's eyes.
Ilya just let them fall and nodded.
"Words Ilya." Shane said.
"I understand. Thank you, I love you and I'm-"
"if you are going to say that you are sorry, I stop you there, okay, stop it. I love you and you Don't need to be sorry about it. I love you no matter what, right?"
"Right." Ilya whispers.
"Okay, then let us get married." Shane smiled and Ilya kissed him.
They went into the bedroom, there they picked out nice shirts and pants. They quickly undressed. Shane checked the official website of the city hall and yes they could get married today.
Shane took a deep breath he couldn't believe that they were doing this, who stupid was this? They were so crazy. He was sure of this though. Shane looked at himself in the mirror of Ilya's closet. he was wearing a black dress shirt and pants.
Never he would have thought that this day would come.
He was glad that day had come.
Ilya suddenly walked up behind him and kissed him.
Shane got his phone out and took a mirror picture. Ilya kisses his throat as appreciation and Shane took another picture.
"Okay, let's go." Shane said and turned so he could kiss Ilya properly.
The drive was quiet.
You could feel in the air that they were nervous. Shane wonders if they were really doing the right thing. Maybe they should wait and invite everyone?
A wedding was kinda big, but also Shane wanted this.
he wanted forever with Ilya no matter what.
So he drove them to the city hall.
In the car he waited for a moment looking at the building as Ilya took his hand.
"We can do this." Ilya said.
"I know." Shane said and unfastened his seat belt.
He wasn't sure how Ilya did it, but thirty minutes later they stood in a small room with an officiant.
"Welcome, we gathered here today to make you two husbands. You told me you wanted to say vows?" she asked. She was old and looked nice. Shane nodded. Ilya did too. They were holding hands.
"Okay, who wants to start?" she asked with a kind smile.
"I do." Ilya said and straightened. He turned and looked at Shane and took a deep breath.
"my dear Shane, I remember when I first met you I was instantly in love with your freckles and your eyes. Ever since you said hi to me in that parking lot, and I learned to love you over the years. Loving you is one of the easiest things in the world for me. Though the world made it hard, it always came easy to me. It is the one thing I will never regret. Because it brought me you, and you are the best thing in my life, I don't know what I would do without you. I love you, so much that it sometimes hurts. I meant what I wrote in my messages. I'm safe in your heart and you are safe in mine. i can't wait to make another million memories with you. And to be thankful for them for the rest of my life. I want to be at your side no matter what happens. I want the good and the bad with you. I want many more summers at the cottage. I want to be what you need and be there for you. I want to share this life with you."
Shane's eyes were swimming with tears. He took a deep breath before he got ready to say his own words.
"Ilya, I thought I lost you for a very brief moment, and I don't know what I would do without you. Though I denied myself to admit my own feelings for you, a long time, I can say it loudly now, I love you. I love you so much, I would chose you over everything in this world. You are what matters most to me, and I won't deny it ever again. I want to be at your side for the rest of our lives no matter what. I want everything with you.
If I had been more honest to myself, maybe then I would have seen that I had liked you since I told you not to smoke at that stupid parking lot. I wanna tell that small kid that one day I will marry you and that meeting you is the best thing that happened to me. I love you, and I want to face, what ever might come next with you. I love you."
Ilya was crying. And when Shane had said that he loved him in Russian, Ilya had to hold back to not kiss him right there.
The officiant then said all the legal things and after they both had said: "I do." and signed some papers.
They were finally allowed to kiss.
Shane could not believe it. They were married. The women handed them the papers and they left. Shane could not believe what had happened.
next Ilya drove to MC Donald's. he only went to the drive in and ordered them things.
"really, this is our first meal as husbands?" Shane asked with a laugh.
"Yes, now, please eat it. Then we go buy rings." Shane nodded. Then he took the salad Ilya had bought him. While he ate, he looked at Ilya, they were married which also meant.
"What did we do with our last names?" Shane asked.
"We kept them. Shane, did you black out?" Ilya asked.
"I- kinda, I only really remember the vows."
"It's okay, as your very hot husband, I remember it all and I have all the papers."
"We are married, fuck- taxes, and our bank accounts, should we share our bank account? And insurances and-" Shane suddenly tarted to panic and almost regret it.
"Shane, Shane, calm down. We can think of that tomorrow, yes? Today we just enjoy that we are married, okay?" Ilya asked, as he put his hands on Shane's shoulder.
"Yes, okay, okay, fuck we are married." Shane said and suddenly felt tears in his eyes.
"Yes, we are married." Ilya grinned.
"I love you." Shane said again.
"I love you too." Ilya said and kissed him.
the end