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"What was that.." Hallritt snapped back to reality. It felt like... He didn't have control over himself. Ever since Lord kitty disappeared, he felt a little different from what he once was.
"Do you really hate the SEEDS?"
"What..?"
Who's speaking to him? He's alone, right? He looks down to the floor and sees a shadow.. a shadow that looks like him..
"Do you hate the world? The world that's goes on laughing and smiling while you've lost someone you love?" The shadow spoke, his cold voice makes Hallritts chest tighten
Hallritt's a lost for words, who even is this guy? "...I..."
"You... Do you want to forget too?" The shadow asked but Hallritt could feel his vision go dark.
Is he hallucinating all this? Is this just a dream?
Before Hallritt could say anything, he drops to the floor, the shadow catches him in time. Hallritt opens his eyes to see his head resting on the shadows lap.
Hallritt is laying on the ground but he feels too weak to stand up.
"Wha—" "Shhh" The shadow chimes in, his touch is cold, ice cold, it's soothing in a way. He hums a small tune, he recognizes it, that's the lullaby Lord kitty used to sing him to sleep as a child.
Hallritt could feel himself getting drowsy again, his eyelids get heavy and he falls asleep.
The shadow stays there for a while longer until he carries Hallritt to his bed and disappears.
.......
In the morning, Hallritt could recall what happened last night, a shadow figure appeared right in front of him! and... And..?
Weird, he forgot what happened after that, he swear he could remember but nothing comes to mind.
Maybe it's all in his head.
He gets ready and goes to Marroncream kingdom to meet up with the others. Romarriche invited red bouquet for a tea party!!
"Ahh! There he is!" Merold points
"Hallritt, you're here." Puruth smiles holding the teapot
"Sorry!! I overslept a bit!!" Hallritt sighed as he sits at the chair of the gazebo.
"You made it just in time" Romarriche hummed. "Well, let's get started then"
They enjoy their time, making little jokes and drink tea but Hallritt couldn't shake the fact about that Shadow... He felt too real.
"Hallritt? Are you okay" Rimicha worryingly said "Oh uhm.. I just zoned out a bit" Hallritt reassures
"Hallritt, if you ever need us just say the word!!" Sanah cheered. Hallritt smiles weakly.
They continue the tea party until noon and then waves goodbye to his fellow knights.
He's back in the Kingdom now, it feels so empty without Lord kittys warmness. Everytime he would come back from knight duties, Kitty would always be there to greet him at the door.
He's goes in his room and he feels a cold breeze as soon as he enters. The coldness feels familiar, like he's felt it before.
He thinks about what that Shadow said, forget? Hating the world? What does that all mean? Seeing everyone be so happy while hes lost his lord makes him feel so—
"If it hurts so much, all you need to do is forget."
"What..?" Hallritt muttered. His eyes widen as he sees that Shadow appear again
"It's you!" Hallritt exclaimed. His hands begin to shake, where did he..
"If you keep holding on to your memories, you will continue to feel this way." The shadow walks towards him
"S-stay back!" Hallritt backs away slowly
The shadow caresses his Hallritts cheek. That touch!? It's that same feeling from last night! "Who are you.." Hallritts voice trembles
The shadow doesn't respond immediately, just continues to look at him with that same look. Hallritt feels his knees getting weaker and falls to the ground.
The shadow leans towards Hallritts ear and whispers "Shadowritt" and then disappears again
......
Hallritt sits on the ground, body trembling, eyes wide. "Shadowritt.." he mutters softly.
He feels weak so he changes out of his clothes and lays down for the day.
He couldn't sleep, all he could think about is Shadowritts touch. It felt nice, the coldness on his skin felt comforting at times likes this. Without Lord kitty.
He wants to hold on to any memory of her! He has to, he's her fragaria after all, the person who raised him, the person he cares about more than anyone else! He doesn't want to forget all about her.
His memories are the only trace that she's existed..
Hallritt eventually drifts off to sleep. Shadowritt appears again and sits by Hallritts bed. He reaches out for Hallritts hand and holds it.
He's only doing this so Hallritt is happy. This is the right thing to do. Shadowritt stares at Hallritts sleeping face.
He looks cute like this, so calm, seeing him so vulnerable. No one gets to see this besides him.
He wants Hallritt to stay like this forever, happy.
"Hallritt, my Hallritt." Shadowritt muttered. A slight smile across his face
Hallritts breath hitched in his sleep and Shadowritts gone once again.
........
The past few days, he's seen Shadowritt in his room, waiting for him. He's been becoming more touchy, his cold hands on Hallritts body.
It felt nice, everything seemed so heavy lately so his presence felt.. so comforting. He doesn't want to admit it though
"Hallritt!!!" Rimicha shouted "You're zoning out again!!"
"E-eh?!" Hallritt snaps back "Im fine! Just had a long day, that's all" He explained
"Is it about that Shadow again? Don't trust anything he says!" Rimicha said squeezing Hallritts hands "We don't even know what his intentions are!!"
"I promise I won't, it's just.. nevermind" Hallritt shakes his head.
"If you say so..." Rimicha changes the topic to something more exciting.
Hallritt isn't gonna trust someone like Shadowritt, right? He's been suppressing so much of these feelings and it feels like he can see right through him.
They share the same feelings about what's happening, he doesn't want to believe someone like Shadowritt but...
Can he trust someone like Shadowritt? Even if it eases all his pain, he'll forget everyone, his friends, companions, lord kitty.. he wants to hold on to these memories longer.
Hallritt bids Rimicha a farewell and goes back to hellokitty kingdom. It's the same as always. Empty.
Hallritt retreats to his room and looks in the mirror, he's been looking terrible lately, maybe all the stress has been getting to him these past few weeks.
Lord kitty, where are you? Please come back to me
"Lord kitty..." Tears start to form in Hallritts eyes. He's been trying to pretend everythings alright but he can't, he can't keep doing this anymore.
"Hallritt." Shadowritt appears from the shadows. He places a hand on Hallritts shoulder, squeezing it slightly
Hallritt continues to sob and Shadowritt holds him in an embrace. His cold body cradles Hallritts warm one.
"All the pain and unease will leave along with your memories." Shadowritt comforts Hallritt.
I will always be with you.
Take all the time you need to forget.