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"1x! 1x!!" c00lkidd called, and ran up to her. "hey kiddo." she ruffled his hair, and he laughed. "i made you a drawing!" he exclaimed, holding up a drawing at her. he ran around he when she grabbed it, giggling. she held it and nodded. "very nice, i love it." she said, and nodded - although she was the creation of hatred, the drawing still did look nice, and she wasnt a monster. he stopped and looked up at her, "really? thank you!!" he happily ran off, and she watched him go. she felt her cloak tug slightly, and looked down. it was pr3typriincess. "can we have a tea party?" she asked, looking up with big eyes. "maybe later." she replied, and pr3typriincess nodded, running off - the same way c00lkidd went. 1x walked to her cabin, waving to slasher as she walked by, who nodded in greeting. she layed on her bed, using the cloak as a sort of blanket like she always did. it was her comfort item, bringing calmness when nothing else could.
wake up
wake up.
WAKE UP.
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1x gasped as she wake up, rubbing her eyes. a dream, yet a good dream. it always ached when she had dreams or thought of the times before. the times where she was at LEAST slightly feeling better. the times where c00lkidd wanted to play with her, the times where things were... sort of nice. she groaned and got up, hoping for little rounds today. she felt a pit in her stomach recently, which had been growing, making her feel sick and empty. everything felt worthless, like nothing was real. then she was teleported into a round. she felt more anger bubble up inside, but she just sat where she had spawned. she didnt move, she didnt kill. not even going after shedlestky. guest found her after a bit, and looked confused when she didnt make any attempt to get him. "you good?" he asked, and she didnt awnser. "you arent even going to go after shed??" he questioned, knowing like all the others that shed died first alot of the time. "nope. dont care." she responded, and looked at him. "go away." she looked back down, kicking a rock with her boot. "this isnt like you, whats wrong." he walked closer, and crouched down. her eyes flicked to him, and they looked at each other. "why do you care anyways.." she muttered, but he shook his head. "tell me." he said, and her hand tightened around her sword. "go away before i kill you." she snarled, and he backed off. backed off like she was a monster. she wasnt. it was just the people that wronged her, they made her like this. "ok fine." he walked off, probably to inform the other survivors. at some point, that round ended, and she went straight to her bed, ignoring the wave from slasher and c00lkidd trying to talk to her. she layed in bed, snuggling into the cape once more. it never got dirty for some reason, which was probably the Spectre's doing. she was trying to take a nap when she heard the door creak open. she pretended to be asleep, and heard a slight thud on the side table, as if something was put there. "i uh.." someone started, and it sounded like elliot. he didnt finished though, and walked off, closing the door gently behind him. she waited a bit before turning around, and saw two slices of pizza on a plate. hm, guest told everyone probably, about how she was acting. she took small bites off the pizza, and then went outside to sit in the field just outside the forest. she sat down, and plucked a flower from the grass. twisting it around in her index finger and thumb, she cleared her mind for a moment. she let the evening sky surround her, she let the wind gently blow her hair.
after a bit, someone spoke. "1x?" she couldnt recognise the voice at first. "i got something for you. i dont mean to disturb you, sorry, i just thought it would be nice.." and then she knew it was twotime. that kid was always apologising for everything. what did they want to give her anyway? she turned her head round slightly, and they handed her something small. as soon as she took it, they walked off. they were always quiet, too quiet. yet, she paid no mind, and looked at the the thing. it was a wooden trinket. to be specific, a curled up bunny with little wings, that had a keychain attached. she ran her thumb over it, feeling the faint ridges. it made her a bit happier, to be honest - well, as happy as she could be. it was a nice gesture, since twotime probably made it themself, they were always making things. she put it in her pocket, and got up, walking back to her bedroom. she just wanted to have a nap, when noli went up to her. "y-y0 1x, wh-h4t's uuupp..." it asked, glitching like always. "im fine." she responded, continuing to walk. "huh." it sounded confused, and went to were slasher was on the couch. "s-slh4sh3r, wh4t 1s u-up w1th h3r bro.." he asked, and she shut the door of her bedroom. as soon as she was going to sleep again, she heard a knock at her door. "ughhh, what. who is it." she groaned, and the door creaked open slightly. c00lkidd peeked round the door, and looked at her. "can we draw together, please?" he asked, but looked scared as if he thought she might get mad at him. she sighed, but not because she was annoyed. "sure kid, come here." she said, and he beamed. he ran in, and sat on her bed. he gave her a piece of paper and some crayons, and they both drew something. when they were done, c00lkidd was basically shaking in joy. "ok ok, this is my drawing!!" he turned it round, and it was a picture of him and all the other killers hanging out. "that looks really awesome." she nodded, and he smiled. "now your turn! show me, show meee" he shook her arm, and she handed him the piece of paper that she had drawn on. "woah.... who's this?" he asked, looking up at her. "its uh.. its me. when i was younger." she looked away, sort of embarrassed about it. she never wanted to think about the past, unless it was good. "ii.. LOVE IT!!! ITS SO COOL!!" he exclaimed, "AND YOU HAD WINGS TOO? THATS SO AMAZINGG!!" he smiled at her. her heart dropped slightly at the wing part. she had wings back then, but shedlestky had... shedlestky had ripped them off. well it was telemon, but him and shed are the same person. shed was telemon back then, but he preferred to be called shedlestky as it brought less attention. she still hated him though. he was fine, he was nice even. like a father at times, yet she made him mad, and he went too far. there was only the base of the wings left on her back, jagged and ruined. although she still had head wings left, it still broke her heart everytime she saw them. "1x, are you ok? you've been quiet and.. even shedlestky is worried about you.." he looked up at her. "ill be alright, thanks kiddo." she ruffled his hair, and he took the drawings and ran off.
she felt bad then. she had been mean to him recently, without meaning to. pushing everyone away without meaning to. she didnt realise that everyone, even the survivors sometimes, relied on her. well, relied isnt really the right word, but everyone cared for her - even if just a bit. they were concerned, shedlestky too, and they wanted to help her feel better. she turned on her side, wrapping the cape around her side. she probably would just get rest, and get in rounds the next day. she was glad, though also confused, when she knew people cared for her. no on cared her whole life, and now people she even killed again and again cared. it was confusing, but nice. she even felt a slight.. smile on her face? the Spectre might just be letting her have a day off, but smiling? she hadn't smiled since.. well since back then. she closed her eyes, and went into sleep.