Chapter Text
"How do you measure a year in the life?
How about love, Measure in love, Seasons of love"
Seasons of love- Rent
Winter-2016
It's morning again and Kyungsoo feels empty just as any other day, he stares at the ceiling blankly searching inside of him for the will to get up from bed and step into the real world.
Finally fifteen minutes later he gets up and goes to shower, hoping maybe the hot water pouring through his body will shake the numbness out of him, it does enough as to make him feel slightly more alive than before.
He changes into his everyday clothes and gets his camera ready along with his notes.
Being a documentary film-maker is a hard job, but it suits him well cause he's like literally the most realistic person in the world which makes people mistake him as a pessimist, it's not really his fault he just never had the "happier" side of life so it's difficult for him to be optimistic about things.
He leaves his house and walks to the old park two blocks away from there; hi films in there how seasons changes and how this affects the people who spend their time in the park.
He sets his camera and stars recording the threes and children when suddenly a face appeared in front of his camera blocking the view.
- Good morning , are you in love with me today? - a low voice says (screams why must he be so loud?)
He looks at the tall boy in front of him and rolls his eyes, if Kyungsoo is the most realistic person in the world them Chanyeol is the exact opposite he's optimism made person, gigantic grins, loud voice and fails to see the bad things even if he was hit in the face with them.
- Good morning Chanyeol -he says nevertheless, he's not an asshole okay- how you doing?
- Amazing isn't today a beautiful day, will you grace me today with your smile?
- What is it with you and seeing me smile, is that some sort of kink of yours or what- Kyungsoo says and it sounds exasperated
- Well did you know that people are at least ten times more beautiful when they smile? -the tall boy says cheerily as he looks right in the eyes of the smaller boy
- I know at least fifty people that don't apply to that rule- the filmmaker scoff
- You thinking of attractiveness- Chanyeol shakes his head- I'm talking of beauty, attractiveness warms your pants, beauty warms your heart- the boy concludes with a grin.
- Warm your pants? - Kyungsoo asks with wide eyes, well that's new- since when are you naughty like that?
- Come on Soo, I'm not a child, why do you relate happiness with immaturity? Why do you think you can't be happy anymore?
- You talk too much Chanyeol, I just think that adulthood should make you realist and constant happiness is not realistic ya know
- Ohh but you're so wrong my dear, everyone deserves happiness regardless of their ages or anything else, and i want to see you happy and i won't rest until I see you happy - Chanyeol smiles showing all his teeth
- When did you become an analyst and a therapist Chanyeol? - Kyungsoo ask with a scow on his face
- Well im a singer/songwriter so I kinda always been? You know love heals and music is the language of love - Chanyeol adds a peace sing when he stops talking
- Isn't French the language of love tho?- Kyungsoo asks teasingly
- Nahh, that's what French people want you to think, music is the real language of love, it speaks to everyone in a more profound way and it manages to impact people's lives in matter of short minutes
- Hmmm sounds like you -Kyungsoo says once again blankly- I have things to film ya know and im pretty sure you have songs to write or record
- You're right in that one my dear, don't let me keep you from working mister filmmaker
Kyungsoo rolls his eyes and then waves Chanyeol off and says: Yeah, see you later mister singer/songwriter/analyst/therapist did I miss something?
Chanyeol just grins and blows him a kiss as he runs to his studio to work.
Kyungsoo shakes his head as he watches his friend? lover? He's still not sure what he and Chanyeol are, he's just... Always there and Kyungsoo likes him, more than he likes other people, even though they're so opposite to each other they kinda fit well, and Kyungsoo doesn't know if that qualifies as love, he knows he likes Chanyeol a bit more than everyone else and he likes to kiss him and he doesn't want to kiss anybody else, but Chanyeol ask him every morning if he's in love with him, and he can't answer that he just can't cause he doesn't know if he's being serious of if he's just being his childish happy self, and he's afraid of what might happen if he answer that,he doesn't want to say no and see the ever happy boy sad for the first time in forever and he doesn't want to say yes and see Chanyeol laugh at him telling him it was just a joke, so he just avoids answering and avoids facing his feelings.
Kyungsoo sighs and adjust his camera, Back to reality he says to himself and gets to work.
When Kyungsoo thinks he's got enough for today's filming he packs his materials,takes one more look at the park and walks to the bench where he knows he'll find his tall friend.
Chanyeol is there as usual, he's wearing his headphones and stomps his feet to the beat of whatever song he's listening to, he doesn't notice Kyungsoo standing in front of him till the filmmaker shakes his hand in front of his face, making the tall boy flinch.
Oh you surprised me - Chanyeol says with wide eyes
Really? Couldn't tell- he replies sarcastically and then sits next to Chanyeol- did you managed to write or record something good today? - he ask as he gets closer to the other
- Mhmmm today i realized a lot of things thanks to our conversation earlier, and I write some stuff and I also had an epiphany- he says with a big smile( when are chanyeol's smile something other than big anyway)
- An epiphany? - Kyungsoo repeats with a raised eyebrow
- Yes I realized I'm your Angel- the tall boy says so sweetly it almost gives Kyungsoo diabetes
- My angel?- once again he repeats what the tall boy has said, Chanyeol just nods, so Kyungsoo keeps going- you think you're my spiritual guide or something like that? Like my guardian angel?.
Chanyeol shakes his head vigorously and says: No, I mean I'm like your Angel and you're my Tom- Chanyeol finishes
-My Angel? Your Tom?- Kyungsoo is utterly confused
- Yeah, you know like in Rent-
-Rent? What the hell are you talking about?- Kyungsoo feels so lost in this conversation to be quite honest.
Chanyeol wides his eyes and looks baffled: You don't know Rent? The musical? The most amazing musical based on social issues that ever existed?
- I make documentaries Chanyeol, musicals are like my worst enemies or something, so no, I've never knew about that musical therefore i have no idea who Angel and Tom are- the filmmaker says while he stares at nothing in particular
- we have to go see it together!!, so you'll understand what I mean, it's the season for it in the theater, I love this season of the year cause of that, the theater is full of good acts!- Chanyeol says excitedly
- I don't know Yeol, as I told you, I hate musicals and I don't even have the time nor the will to go see it
-c'mon let's go together, there's also a movie, a great movie let's at least watch that, besides Rent is about a documentaries filmmaker so you might like it- the tall boy resolves
Kyungsoo raises his eyebrow once again and thinks for a while, then finally says:
I'll think about okay, not let's go get coffee im freezing here
Chanyeol smiles widely at him and takes of his scarf and wraps it around Kyungsoo's neck and says:
- I like how you look in winter,you look like an over clothed penguin, its so cute
- I'm not cute- Kyungsoo frowns
- You're tho- Chanyeol bends and kisses his nose
Kyungsoo punches Chanyeol's shoulder and swears that the red in his cheeks is because of the cold, Chanyeol knows is not though so he smiles even bigger
Let's just go- Kyungsoo says lifting the scarf till it covers his cheeks.
They walk together to the coffee shop, and Kyungsoo thinks that if he ever felt happiness maybe it felt something like this, he still isn't happy though, he doesn't think that'll ever happen.
Kyungsoo doesn't know just how wrong he is and how everything is about to change for him and his sweet friend.