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All Adrien could hear was the sound of the rain hitting the windows of his room as he stares out into the great expanse of Paris.
It had been a few days since he gave up on being Chat Noir and became Cat Walker,and to be honest he didn't how what to feel.
He hated himself for doing this. It started off small,that lingering thought in your mind if you should actually do this. With time, the thought expanded and gnawed on every thought that he had.
Should I really be doing this?
Do you have to be like this?
Chat Noir wouldn't have done that?
Chat Noir would have been needed. But still,he wished that he could become Chat Noir again. At least he liked being himself,or at least he did like it.
Adrien's eyes drifted towards his computer. He slowly walks and logs in, as he looks online to see if what he's doing is the right thing.
@TheLadyBlog
New Chat Noir saving the day once again!
@Glacier1870
Ladybug and Chat Noir were meant to be together! This betrayal breaks my heart💔
@QueenBee
That black cat was nothing more than a nuisance,but at least this one has some class,unlike some superheroes
@MDC
@QueenBee,dont be so salty that you got your miraculous taken away,I think he's doing just fine.
@DjTurtle_
Yeah,just give the new guy a chance.
@Garde18
Does Ladybug have no honor! Betraying thine closest brethren! I spit at thy face, Ladybug!
Well,that surely made him feel better.
Adrien let's out a loud groan as he slams his head against the table,deleting the message board.
Is this his life now?
He was already living a lie,now he had to live an even bigger one. On one hand,he's Adrien Agreste,a happy and healthy young student and model,son of Gabriel Agreste,a fashion Icon.
While on the other as Cat Walker,someone who is professional,focused,and basically pun-less. Both sides on which he hated.
As Adrien slowly looks up and stares at his computer,the photo of Emily staring back at him with kind eyes,as he started choking up at the sight of it.
Why did she have to leave me.
Tears started pouring down his face,as he began breaking down. Wasn't he good enough,do they love me.she loved me and she died. Am I someone to be loved. Everyone loves fake me.
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.
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Am I okay being me?
This thought was interrupted when he felt something,as he looked up to see Plagg had woken up from his sleep.
"Hey Kid,are you ok? you look kinda.....bad"Plagg said,not sure what's going on
Adrien wiped his face as he tries to regain his composure "Yeah,Plagg I'm fine"
"Are you sure?"
"Yes I'm sure" Are you though?
"Look Adrien,I know something is wrong,I've done and seen a lot of things and you look like youre nearing something."Plagg said
"Yes Plagg,I'm fine" You don't deserve him.
Plagg stares at him as if trying to figure out something " Okay,but just know I'm here for you if you need it" Plagg said as he slowly went back to sleep.
".......Goodnight Plagg" Adrien muttered under his breath as Plagg was already fast asleep.
As Adrien was left all alone with nothing but his thoughts,as he got into bed and stared at his long time companion with a small smile,as at least he likes me for....well,being me.
As Adrien slowly closed his eyes,hoping that tomorrow will be a better day.
A day that Ladybug realises her mistake.
A day that Father would let him quit modeling
A day that people will love you I am, not what I do.
A day that I can say that I'm okay.