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28 May 2023
Dear stupid diary,
Honestly I don't really know why I'm doing this.
My therapist (frank) said it'd be a good emotional outlet, I'm not sure I believe him yet but I'm gonna give it a shot.
Today's shift wasn't anything particularly special. Eddie was on shift today; he always makes long shifts slightly easier.
Bobby also made his firehouse famous chilli (still need to ask him for the recipe). Also in totally unrelated news eddie invited me over after shift, he said something about “Chris wants to see his buck” (that kid is so special to me)
1 day down i think I might have the hang of this whole diary thing
Until tomorrow
E
31st May 2023
Dear diary,
Yes I realise its been 2 days and i still think this is a silly idea, but things have been so chaotic maddie and chim went away for the weekend so I was on uncle buck duty with jee so on the Saturday we went to the zoo where I:
- Got mocked by a parrot
- Jee fell in love with a penguin (then threw a tantrum when I told we couldn't bring it home)
- Bought jee a stuffed penguin which calmed her for all of 5 minutes.
Then when we got home she helped me to make some snickerdoodles for the firehouse.
Eddie called later that night asking if we wanted to come over for movie night and I couldn't say no, I can never say no to eddie he's my BEST FRIEND. Movie night ended in success we ended up watching frozen (jee absolutely loves that film) toy story and cars (jee said “can all cars talk” i then spend the next 20 minutes telling her it's just a film and not real.
Sunday came around quicker than I thought we went grocery shopping where Jee convinced me to buy
- A bag of dino nuggets
- Cereal with marshmallows in
- An oversized blanket
I swear when she grows up she's gonna be a lawyer.
Maddie came to pick jee up later that day and wouldn't stop thanking me for looking after jee, when I asked her where chim was though she said something about “needing to do a food shop without the tiny dictator” (yeah thanks for warning me about that NOT)
Once jee had gone the house felt quieter so I facetimed eddie and we spent about 5 hours talking about everything and nothing until he fell asleep on me while I was in the middle of talking about a new bread recipe I wanted to try. (He looks so beautiful peaceful when hes sleeping.)
Until next time
E
1st June 2023
Hey diary,
Me again, it's the 1st of June which means its pride month, which means me being able to celebrate who I am openly and freely.
Today's shift was weirder than normal thanks to someone saying the Q word (ravi) we had non stop calls all day no rest no time to eat thankfully eddie always carries an extra granola bar.(between me and this diary entry eddie gets hangry if he doesn’t eat.)
Luckily for me I was on a 12hr shift today eddies on a 24 hr so I'm on Christopher duty tonight, I've already planned so much for us:
Help chris with homework (hopefully nothing maths)
- Watch new nature documentary
- Bake cupcakes for bake sale this weekend
- Check in on eddie (thats more of a me thing)
8:15pm
It was maths homework and for some stupid reason it was fractions (the bane of my existence) :( .
Whoever invented maths sucks, like why do fractions even exist, oh I know why to insult people like me.
I think chris enjoyed the documentary although he did fall asleep on me part way through so I'm not 100% sure.
Eddie called me and said, shift was still crazy and they'd had at least 5 calls about cats in trees that Chim had to try and coax down. (I know, very cliché for a firefighter.)
Talk soon
E
June 10th 2023
Dear diary,
It's been a minute since I checked in but things have been weird, not bad weird though and that's the crazy thing. Ive been looking back at the past entries and have realised something…
I seem to have mentioned Eddie in every single one, but surely it's just pure coincidence he's my best friend and one of the most important people I know (after Bobby and Athena they're basically my adoptive parents.)
Also update on the chilli recipe, Bobby wrote it down for me and I've been swore to secrecy on the secret ingredient (it's…) I'm not spilling the beans on that one, anyway I made a batch for eddie and chris and eddie actually asked if Bobby had made it.(the cheek of him)
Bobby gave me a few more recipes to ask well as how to perfect my pancake flip (they now no longer land on the floor or stick to the ceiling so I'm taking that as a win.)
I've told my therapist about the diary and she says i should be proud of myself for having a good outlet for my emotions, she did give me one more piece of advice; at the end of every entry try and write down 3 things I'm grateful for it can be big wins or small victories so…
I'm grateful for:
- The 118
- Bobby's chilli recipe
- My new ability to flip pancakes ;)
Until next time
E :)
P.s
I'm probably gonna look back at this one day and either be extremely grateful for it or wonder why the hell is started it.
June 11th
Hey diary,
Today eddie looked at me and smiled and my mouth acted before my brain and I thanked him THANKED HIM.
What was i thinking… oh wait I wasn't.
He probably thinks I'm either a complete idiot or I jave issues, usually its the former but after today who knows.
Anyway I'm gonna go crawl into a ditch and die from embarrassment so if there's no entries after this you now know why.
Things I'm grateful for:
…
I don't think I have anything to be grateful for today just the fact I have a few days off shift so hopefully eddie will either completely forget what I said or not ever let me live it down.
Until next time (hopefully)
Buck
June 15th
Dear diary,
He didn't remember at least I don't think he did because he didn't mention anything during shift but he did keep looking at me and smiling and for that I am extremely grateful. That is it thats the entry.
Until tomorrow
Buck