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I wish I had a sibling.
A little sister, a little brother, older sister, or older brother...
I don't care as long as I'm not alone.
I wish I had someone to rely on, someone who I can rant on.
I feel bad about wishing I shouldn't have been born if this is the life that awaits for me.
But sometimes I am grateful that I'm just an only child, my mom could barely keep the two of us alive, what more if there's another living human to feed?
I hate being poor, why didn't I just get born with a silver spoon in my mouth?
What did my mom do in her past life that she deserves to suffer like this?
An older brother might suit me, especially when I get called to the Principal's Office. So I will never see my Mom helpless like this in front of people who hurt me or people who just watched and let me get hurt.
"Please, don't expel my son, Mrs. Lim... He made a mistake, he's sorry!"
My mom pleaded, down on her knees her hands placed in her knees, head reaching the floor.
My hands automatically clenched by the sight, my mom pathetically begging to her knees in front of that woman. Fuck her and her son.
"Mom, stand up. Why am I getting expelled when he's the one who do me wrong?" I said as I tried to pull her up, why are we begging? I didn't do anything wrong, I've had enough of his son bullshit towards me, of course I would try to get back at him.
My mom slap my right shoulder.
"Kim Ryul, apologized right now! Say you're sorry," nagging me then faced that evil son's mother once again, "I'm really sorry, please let my son have another chance, he can't afford to tarnish his record."
"Your son punched the shit out of my precious son's face. You're a mother, you know how it feels seeing your son in this condition," Sion's mother pointed to his pathetic face that I punched to my content.
Sion looked at me cockily.
How I wished I'd done worse.
Our homeroom teacher finally spoke.
"Ma'am, please remain calm and let's talk about this first, let's listen to their side first, shall we? Please sit down."
"Expelled him, we don't need to talk, he hurt my lovely son, my son can't even hurt a fly and this is what he gets in school? Where he should be learning, what are the teachers doing?"
I chuckled.
"What's funny, young man?" Mrs. Lim asked, and looked at me angrily.
I looked at her and pointed at Sion.
"Your son, can't even hurt a fly? You must be joking, that son of yours makes school a living hell for some of the students," my voice echoed, "if you think your son is so important than the rest of us who's just trying to finish our education while he has the time to slack off and beat the shit out of some students then what the fuck is wrong with you?!"
I suddenly felt a force directly to my left cheek.
My mom slapped me.
It fucking hurts.
All of them got silent with how hard and loud that slap was maybe.
Mrs. Lim even held her mouth, I can't even blame her. I was as surprised as her.
"Kim Ryul!" she practically screamed my name, "who taught you to speak like that to your elders? I didn't raise you like this," she held my head and made me bow.
"Apologize right now!"
She didn't let go of my head keeping me bowing, I tried to lift my head up and saw Sion was smiling and uttered the word 'faggot'.
"No," I whispered to my mom.
"What?"
"I said no, I will not apologise, not now not ever."
"Kim Ryul, please! Don't be so hard headed!"
I slug her arms out of my head.
"No! Do you know what I went through because of that guy? I tried so hard to ignore all the things he's pulling on me, I even kept my mouth shut and be a bystander every time he bullies someone, so he can leave me alone, but he just can't, all my classmates," I closed my eyes, "even my closest friends avoids me like a disease, Mom. All because I like my own likes. How crazy is that? They're treating me like I'm not a person that has feelings."
"What am I, trash...huh? What the hell did I even do to you to invade my life like this? Why are you so freaking bothered that I'm gay that you really have to broadcast it to the whole school like it's your business?"
My tears can't stop falling, I tried so hard not to. But I cannot take it anymore, I tried so hard to be strong, I didn't tell my Mom, because I know she'll get worried but at the same time we wouldn't be able to do anything against Sion's family. So it's better to endure his taunts than do something about it.
I just want to study for fuck's sake! Why can't I do that in peace?
Sion's family is crazy rich, some of his relatives are even members of the National Assembly. They're definitely one of the most-affluent and influential families in the country. I swear, I fucking tried to stay away, I fucking did. But that son of a bitch always trying my patience. I'm not a fucking saint, I've had enough of his bullshit, I don't deserve anything that is happening to me and all the shit he puts me through.
I broke down completely.
Everything suddenly went blurry, I'm struggling to breath.
I slowly opened my eyes and a white ceiling greeted me.
What a fucking nightmare.
Two years have passed and what happened that day is still vivid to me.
A dream that actually happened, all the emotions I felt were still with me.
All the frustration, madness, and helplessness.