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Rui loved Tsukasa. He knew that much.
But did Tsukasa love him back?
Rui didn’t know for sure, but he didn’t think so...
I mean, what reason would Tsukasa have to love him? Rui is weird. Rui doesn’t understand social cues. He doesn’t understand when others are uncomfortable. He makes weird comments, weird jokes. He’s just the complete opposite of what Tsukasa should want in someone.
Besides. He’s 99% sure that Tsukasa and Emu like each other. Which- good for them, of course. Rui wouldn’t get in the way of a possible relationship. A normal one. Two men together was not normal. It was perverted. Rui was a pervert. He was disgusting. He needs help. He needs to make these feelings go away as quickly as possible.
The more Rui thought about it, the more his vision blurred. Huh? Why was everything blurry? Did he mess up on an invention and it was about to temporarily blind him?
As he was wondering this, he felt the tears dripping down his face. Oh. He was crying.
Shit, he was crying? Pathetic. It was just a dumb crush. Probably not even a crush. He just really admired Tsukasa, probably. Men don’t like other men. That wasn’t real. If you asked most of the people at Kamiyama, or even just in Shibuya, or in Japan, or in Asia, or on Planet Earth, they would say that homosexuality is morally wrong. Most people that believe that there is a God will tell you that it’s a sin. Rui was a sinner. Not just his attraction to men, but how easily jealous he got, how his thoughts about Tsukasa weren’t completely pure, how he sometimes craved just the slightest bit of attention, even just by WonderlandsxShowtime...
Fuck.
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When Rui showed up to practice the next day, he was clearly not himself. Everyone noticed it. Emu, Nene, even Tsukasa. And Tsukasa was extremely oblivious. As was Emu, but to a lesser degree. Rui’s hair wasn’t as taken care of as it usually is, and his uniform was a bit ruffled, as if he was in a rush to put it on as to not be late. When they would ask Rui if everything was alright, he would always say “Oya, of course I’m okay! Why are you asking, (whoever is asking)?” and it worried every single one of them. Especially Nene.
Nene had been harboring feelings for Rui for quite a while now, but hasn’t said anything out of just being afraid, as she was a timid girl. She didn’t even know about Rui being gay, didn’t know about his feelings for Tsukasa. Which wasn’t her fault- he hasn’t came out as gay to anyone. Not his parents, not Mizuki, and definitely not Tsukasa. Tsukasa was actually the last person Rui had planned to tell. The only reason Rui could think of to tell Tsukasa that he was attracted to men would be to confess to Tsukasa, and he would rather eat a whole plate of just vegetables than do that! No way, no how!
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Nene had pulled Rui aside after practice had concluded and Emu and Tsukasa had already left, Rui yelping a tiny bit at the sudden pull on his arm. “Ah- what’s going on, Nene?” Nene glares at Rui, then grabbing him by his shirt, “I should be asking you that, idiot! You’re acting so weird, I hardly recognize you at this point! What aren’t you telling us, Rui?!”
Rui gasps a bit, and then visibly starts to sweat a bit, nervous. “Ah... well...,” Rui pauses, trying to gather his thoughts.
“I just... I-I like someone. And it’s... kind of tearing me apart,” he says, laughing as he mentioned his crush on a certain someone tearing him apart. As if he was trying to laugh it off. He did that a lot. Anyone who’s been friends with him more than a few months know this about the director. Nene gasps as soon as she hears Rui’s confession, but not in the same way that he had just now. It was a gasp more of hope. Like she thought that maybe the crush was her.
“Uuh... is she in this troupe, maybe?”
She. Right. Because it was definitely a woman. Aha. Right. Mhm.
“Yes.”
Come on, it was only half of a lie! His crush was in WonderlandsxShowtime, they just weren’t a girl...!
“Have you known her for a while?”
Has he known Tsukasa for a while? He’s known him for about two years... that counts, right?
“Mhm.”
“Can I do something, then? Just to, ah... not have to ask any more questions?”
Rui was clearly nervous, and he was praying that Nene wasn’t making any moves and that he was just reading the signs wrong. Pleaaase don’t kiss me.
Nene did, though. Rui pushed her away rather quickly, and for obvious reasons.
“Ah- Rui, I’m so sorry! You must like Emu then, huh?” Rui of course shakes his head. “No. Uhm... I’m afraid I ever so slightly lied to you, Nene.”
Nene tilts her head. “Huh? How so?”
Rui sighs. He sits down with Nene on a bench. “Nene, there’s something I haven’t told you. Or anyone, really. Not even my parents.” Nene nods her head, implying that he can go on. He sighs once again, and nods back at her.
“Okay. Well. I... I do like someone in this troupe. But it’s not a woman.”
Rui pauses to look back at Nene, and her eyes had visible shock in them. He understood. He continued.
“I never accepted it until now, and even now, I’m having a hard time coming to terms with it. I’m only just now doing so because of Tsukasa. I- I’ve had crushes before, but I’m pretty sure what I feel for Tsukasa is so much more than that. I want to be with him. And- I’m sorry for dumping this on you, Nene. My general point is, I don’t like women at all. I wish I did, I would never want to upset you. But I just can’t return your feelings. I hope you’re okay with that.” Nene just simply nods, and hugs him. “It’s completely alright, Rui. The only thing that I have to say is that, if you feel this strongly for Tsukasa, then you shouldn’t bottle it up for much longer. I did that with you, and I just got a whole confession that you play for the same team. If you want some closure, at least tell him just to get it over with.” Rui nods, getting up from the bench. “Thank you, Nene. I’ll always love you as a friend, I hope that’s enough!” Nene laughs and nods, the two waving each other off.
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Rui got home, and he noticed that he had a bunch of missed calls from both Tsukasa and Emu while he and Nene were calling. It was mainly Tsukasa, of course. He prioritizes calling Tsukasa back, pressing the ‘call back’ button.
“Hello?”
“Rui!”
“Hello, Tsukasa-kun.”
“What happened?! Why did you and Nene stay late?! Did she finally tell you?!”
Rui flushes quickly, sighing. “Yes. Yes, she did, Tsukasa-kun.”
“So you have a girlfriend now?” Rui laughs, and Tsukasa could hear it from the phone. “What’s so funny?! It was a genuine question, you know!”
Rui takes a few minutes to stop laughing, then he finally answers the star, “No, I don’t have a girlfriend. I let her down gently.”
“Ehhh?! I thought you liked Nene!”
“No, no. I don’t. She understood when I told her I didn’t feel the same way.”
Tsukasa huffs, and it makes Rui laugh. Anything Tsukasa did served to make Rui happy. Rui loved Tsukasa so much. With every fiber of his being, with all he was.
“Well-! Do you like anyone for real, then?”
Rui swallows. Tsukasa could probably hear the small gulp sound he made.
“Uh...”
“You don’t have to answer!”
But he did. He didn’t want to leave Tsukasa hanging. That would be wrong, to do that to his star.
What??? His star? Tsukasa wasn’t his boyfriend, Tsukasa wasn’t his!
I wish he was, though.
“... yeah, I do.”
“Really?! Whooo?! Tell me!”
“I... I’ll tell you another time, Tsukasa-kun.”
He quickly hangs up the phone after that.
Little did he know, that might-as-well-be confirmation had Tsukasa screaming in his room.
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Tsukasa had called Shizuku to come over because of a so-called ‘emergency,’ when he was really just freaking out over Rui. She was brushing his messy hair as he cried to her about Rui.
“And I asked him if he had a girlfriend after Nene confessed, and he said no! He apparently didn’t feel the same way about her as she did about him! And he said he would tell me who he likes another time! Shizukuuu, I’m going insane!” Shizuku just chuckles softly. “It’ll be alright, Tsukasa-kun,” she reassures him. “I was freaking out just as you are about Airi-chan, and we’ve been dating for two years now, have we not?” Tsukasa merely grumbles and manages to get out a ‘... yeah ...’
“Has he dropped any other hints?” Tsukasa sighs exaggeratedly. “That’s the thing, Shizuku! I don’t know! I thought how he was acting with Nene was flirting, but apparently he only feels platonically for me! I’m dyinggg.” Shizuku chuckles once more, lightly kissing his head. “Again, Tsukasa-kun, it will be okay. I’m sure of it.”
Shizuku then puts down the brush since Tsukasa’s hair was no longer messy, and she notices a notification on the former’s phone.
“Tsukasa-kun, you have a text on your phone! You might want to check it.”
Tsukasa makes a small noise of acknowledgement, grabbing his phone and putting in his password- 2468. Rui’s birthday. Why was it all just multiples of two if you didn’t know Rui was born June 24th, 2008?
And why did Tsukasa have the exact fucking date memorized?
Whatever. That doesn‘t matter.
He unlocks his phone successfully of course, and he sees a text in the WxS group chat.
rui <3
hey guys, i’m sorry that this is so sudden but i have decided that you guys would be better off if i left wxs. i love you all a lot, but i think this is just for the best (◞‸◟) see you in the next life!
The next life? What was wrong with this one?
Tsukasa only snaps out of it when he hears a gasp from Shizuku. She was looking at his phone screen, the nosy person she was.
“Hey, look away from my phone!”
“Ah...! Sorry, Tsukasa-kun! But... if he’s saying that he will ‘see you in the next life’... I think he’s gonna do something to himself! I’m sure of it, Tsukasa-kun!”
Tsukasa’s breath hitched. He hadn’t even considered that as a possibility. He just thought that Rui was being a weirdo as usual. Shit. Shit, shit. Tsukasa is an idiot. Fuck.
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Rui had just sent that message, and he was searching around the entire house for something sharp. Fuck, when could he find something that could actually do the fucking job? Damn.
Eventually, he found a huge knife, and he smiled just a tiny bit upon seeing it. Finally. He could end everything, and not have to feel guilt over it. He could feel free! He could be free! Rui’s smile widened at the thought. Yes, yes. He was so happy now. Such a shame he had to end things now.
Before actually doing anything, he grabbed a piece of lines paper and wrote on it with a pen.
Dear whoever may be reading this,
I’m sorry that this is how I have to go. 18 in mere weeks, dying because I don’t think the man I love loves me back, because my childhood best friend, a woman, has feelings for me, and I only like men. I truly did not want to die this young, but I think it’s just how it’s meant to be. After all, why would I be made constantly craving death if it was not what was exactly intended for me?
Haha, sorry, that’s awfully morbid.
The point is, I believe that everything happens for a reason. And what is the reason for this particular occasion, you may ask...?
I am meant to be taken by death early on.
Hate me if you want. Love me if you want. But please do not be sad. If anything, at my funeral, poke fun at me.
Please. That’s what I would have wanted.
He writes on the paper and arrow pointing right, and then puts that paper aside and starts writing on another piece of lined paper.
And, one last thing, before I go.
Tsukasa-kun, I promised that I would tell you who the one that I love is. Well, that person is you. I love you, Tsukasa-kun. I’m sorry that I did not tell you sooner. Maybe in another life, we were happy together.
And you loved me back.
I know you don’t love me back now, and you definitely won’t after I’m dead. But I don’t blame you at all.
All I ask of you, Tsukasa-kun, is to never blame yourself for this unfortunate scene. You will probably find me with slit wrists, on the ground, bleeding out, knowing your impeccable timing. And I would not have it any other way.
I love you, Tsukasa-kun.
I love you.
I love you.
I love you.
I love you.
I love you.
I love you.
Have a great rest of your life.
With love,
Rui Kamishiro.
The director lifted up the knife, just looking at how big it was for a moment. He touches the tip of the knife with his finger, noting how it already made his finger bleed with just the slightest pressure. Hah... this was perfect.
He slowly starts to slide the blade along his wrists. It made him bleed so quickly. Oh my god, this would do the job so well.
He repeatedly slides it, again and again, even when it was unbearably painful. He laughed a bit when it was that painful. You couldn’t even see bone yet. How could it already be so bad? Hah. He was pathetic.
He kept going until he was seething in pain, and he could see just a bit of bone. Ahh. That should do the trick.
Then, he suddenly heard a knock on the door. His door. How did they get in? Fuck. Is it his parents? They have spare house keys, right? Fuck. Fuck, fuck, fuck.
Rui continues anyways, even as he hears a barely audible voice to his slowly deafening ears, and it was only when he collapsed that he saw the door open. Shit. Hopefully this will be the last time seeing any door open, he thought, before his eyes closed and he went unconscious. The last thing he heard was a loud voice yelling his name. It sounded like his dearest star... that brought him some comfort, something to rely on before he would be reaching his inevitable end.
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Tsukasa had been really worried ever since Shizuku even suggested the idea of Rui doing something to hurt himself. Why would his sweet Rui do that?
Wait, his what?
Well, anyway.
He had ran as fast as he could to Rui’s house after Mizuki had texted him about being worried for Rui. When he got there, he knocked, and when there was no immediate answer, he called for Rui.
“Rui? Are you in there?”
No response.
“Ruiii...? Are you there?”
No response.
“Rui, please, this isn’t funny.”
You can probably guess by now.
“If I don’t get an answer from you, I’m just gonna come in.”
Guess if he got a response or not.
Tsukasa heard a thud, and he decided to barge in, only to see Rui with blood all over his wrists and passed out on the ground.
“RUI!”
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He was shaking Rui as he was still unconscious, even after he had cleaned all his cuts and bandaged them. He was so scared. So fucking scared. What if this was it? What if he never got to tell Rui how he felt because he was waiting for his sweet, lovely director to do it first? He hated himself for it already, and Rui was still breathing- he didn’t know if he was actually dead yet.
He begged one more time, “Rui. Rui, please wake up!”
But, just his luck, Rui still did not wake up.
And Tsukasa of course started crying. Really hard. And once he started, he couldn’t stop. Tears flowed freely down his face to Rui’s arms, since Tsukasa was still holding him, trying to hold on to what little hope he could. His tears kept going, not stopping crying for nearly thirty minutes. He only started to stop because in the middle of his sob-fest, Rui woke up and asked him what was wrong. Once Tsukasa had calmed down, he had noticed a two papers stapled together on the kitchen counter, and he looked at it, reading it in front of an embarrassed and ashamed Rui. Tsukasa started crying again when he saw the parts about Rui loving him but not believing Tsukasa loved him back. Rui hugged Tsukasa, whispering something about him being sorry into his ear.
Why was Rui apologizing? For having feelings for Tsukasa and just not thinking it was mutual? For getting so miserable that he tried to end it all? As if that was his fault! If anything, it was Tsukasa’s. And that thought caused Tsukasa to cry even more, ranting about how he loved Rui just as much, Rui moving to wipe his tears as he did.
“Rui... did you really think I didn’t love you, too?”
Ruu looks away for a moment, sighing, before looking back at Tsukasa and nodding. “Yes. I’m sorry. I-I thought that you liked Emu-kun.” Rui closes his eyes, preparing for a negative reaction from Tsukasa. Well, of course I do! he imagined Tsukasa would say, In fact, she’s my girlfriend! But he must have been wrong, as Tsukasa took a break from crying to break into a fit of laughter. He was laughing so hard to the point he was starting to cry again, but this time because of his joy. Rui’s heart skipped a beat. Oh god... he really was head over heels, wasn’t he?
“H- haha- agh- Emu?! I love Emu, but not like that!” He kept laughing and laughing. The idea was just absolutely absurd to the star, apparently. Rui flushed a bit, looking away out of embarrassment. Tsukasa noticed this and grabbed Rui by his chin, causing Rui’s face to feel hot. “T-Tsukasa...?”
Tsukasa grins a bit, letting go of his chin once he was sure Rui was looking and would not move.
“Rui. I love you. So much. I love the others too, but... not to the extent of how much I love you. I love you in a way that I wanna be able to kiss you whenever I want to, but never when you don’t want to. I love you in a way that I want to introduce you to my parents not as my beloved theatre director, but as my boyfriend. I love you in a way that I want to kiss your scars. I love you in a way that I want to hold you when things get hard. I love you in a way that it’s absolutely crazy that you didn’t know I loved you! I mean, is it not obvious based off how much I look at you, and the way that I look at you?! You’re a genius when it comes to planning and technology, but you’re so stupid when it comes to love.”
Rui turned red. Then he got close. Tsukasa also turned red when Rui got as close as he did.
“I- okay, the point was...”
Tsukasa sighs, nuzzling into Rui’s hand.
“Will you be my boyfriend?”
Rui gasped.
Tsukasa gasped.
Did he really just say that?
Did I really just say that?
Rui leaned in a bit closer, “Is it okay if I kiss you?”
Tsukasa of course immediately nodded.
Rui leaned in further, and then their lips met, and Tsukasa would be lying if he didn’t say that he expected a tiny bit more. He always expected Rui to be the kind of guy to deepen a kiss immediately, but who was he to complain? This was perfect, really. It was just the right pace. He loved it. He loved him.
When Rui did finally decide to deepen the kiss a bit, Tsukasa happily accepted it, and when they finally pulled away, he gave Rui a big fat kiss on his forehead.
After a prolonged moment of comfortable silence between the two boys, Tsukasa ended up laughing at the absurdity of it all, and Rui joined him. It was kind of funny. The last few days went from Rui not being himself and worrying the entire troupe, to being caught bleeding out by Tsukasa, to kissing him on the kitchen floor. They laugh about it some more before kissing again, Tsukasa wrapping his arms around Rui’s neck. When they finally pulled away from each other’s lips, they panted a tiny bit from the lack of air. Then they laughed again. Everything felt funny right now, especially with all this kissing after what had just happened.
Tsukasa looked at the newly formed scars on Rui’s wrists, or really just the entirety of both of his arms, and then, he started to kiss them. Rui quickly grew flustered, looking away as Tsukasa kissed the red lines on his skin, “Are you okay with me kissing these?” he asked. Rui of course nodded immediately. God, he loved that. He’d let Tsukasa kiss any scar on his body, whether it was self-inflicted or due to one of his inventions. Rui sighs contentedly, leaning over and kissing Tsukasa again.
“Tsukasa?”
“Eh?”
“Can I try kissing your neck?”
“Eh?!”
“Pleaaase?”
Tsukasa sighs, nodding. Rui got on his lap, ready, but Tsukasa suddenly said, “Shouldn’t we move to your ‘bed?’ It would be more comfortable than a tile floor.” Rui chuckles and nods.
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“Tsukasa-kun?”
“Hmm?”
Rui leans up and kisses Tsukasa, the blond lightly rubbing Rui’s back as he kisses him back. When they pulled away from the kiss, Rui said, “I love you.” Tsukasa gently pulls him into another kiss, mumbling “I love you too” into the kiss, before pulling away and saying, “So... you never properly answered my question, Rui~ are we dating or not?” Rui hesitates for a second, before settling with the classic answer.
“Do you want to?”
“I was the one that asked you out first, Rui. What do you think?”
“I- you- y-you could have been messing around with me or something!”
Tsukasa chuckles, “Well, I wasn’t. So, let me confirm- yes, I do want to date you, Rui. But only if you’re okay with it, too.” Rui of course immediately nods, who would he be to say no?!
But of course... the confirmation led to them kissing again. And again. And again... and when they finally could get their lips off of each other, they fell asleep in each other’s arms.
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The next morning, Rui woke up to a decent amount of texts and calls left by his parents. Oh, shit. He slept through all of them...? What a dumbass. He sits up and reads all of them, starting with his mother.
okkasan
Rui are you alright? Nene’s mother told your father and I that you seemed off. Please respond as soon as you can ❤️
Rui?
Rui please text back we are really worried about you
Rui please we are out on a business trip and cant just manually check if you are ok. Please respond we are very very worried
otousan
You missed a call.
You missed a call.
You missed a call.
You missed a call.
You missed a call.
You missed a call.
You missed a call.
You missed a call.
You missed a call.
You missed a call.
You missed a call.
You missed a call.
You missed a call.
You missed a call.
You missed a call.
Shiiit... he felt really bad now. His mother bothered to message him not once, not twice, but four times. And he knew how she was afraid to overwhelm her autistic son. And his father called him fifteen times. He felt horrible.
Suddenly, his boyfriend -- boyfriend! -- woke up, nuzzling his face into his back. “Rui... what time is it?” Rui checks the clock on his phone, “10:45. I’m sure you usually wake up much earlier, my star.” Tsukasa chuckles, kissing Rui’s back through his shirt. Rui takes this as a sign to lay back down, moving to face Tsukasa, getting pulled into a kiss as he did. Rui of course kissed back, what kind of boyfriend would he be if he didn’t?
When they pulled away, Rui got on top of Tsukasa and started tickling him a bit, wanting to hear his laugh.
“Ah- Rui--! That ticklesss...!”
“That’s the point, my star.”
Tsukasa didn’t even respond, he was too busy laughing his ass off from being tickled. Rui decides to make it just a bit worse, kissing his neck when he finally stopped tickling him. This had Tsukasa squirming under Rui, making small noises. Rui chuckles softly and stops kissing him, setting for nuzzling into his neck. Tsukasa was lightly petting his hair as Rui was nuzzled into him. It was messing up his hair, but why would he care? He finally got to be with the man he loves, and that was more than enough for him.
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Now, Rui and Tsukasa had been dating for a month, and they were laying on Tsukasa’s bed, cuddling, since it was Saturday and they had nothing to do. Well ... at least until Rui spoke up...
“Would you ever wanna get married?”
“Eh?!”
Rui laughs, nuzzling into Tsukasa’s chest, kissing his chest through his shirt. “You heard me. Would you?” Tsukasa pretended to think about it before nodding, kissing Rui right on the lips, but only really for a second before pulling away. “I would. Why? You wanna propose already?” Rui chuckles, wrapping his arms around Tsukasa when he got pulled onto his lap.
“Yeah. But I’ll wait a bit. But I promise that I will one day.”
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Well, Rui had kept his promise. Well. Both of them. He was going to propose today, and he was also self-harm clean for about a year. He still struggled with it for around a year after he and Tsukasa got together but he eventually overcame it.
Now, Rui was 19 turning 20 in a few days, meanwhile Tsukasa had just turned 20, and they recently had their two year anniversary. They were still young -- really young -- but why would Rui care? Marriage is marriage.
Rui had recently got the money to finally buy a ring, and he had stuffed it in his pocket while Tsukasa was searching around for clothes and wasn’t paying attention. Rui was now just sitting down on the bed, on his phone, probably on TikTok, waiting for his boyfriend to get dressed.
“Argh- babe, where the fuck is my shirt?!”
“Which one?”
“The one that I always wear on dates, you dumbass!”
Rui chuckles softly. He didn’t care when Tsukasa yelled at him like this, because he knew he was mad at everyone and everything but him. It was hard to make Tsukasa upset when it came to Rui. Throughout their entire relationship, they’d only gotten in three or four arguments, and only one was about something serious.
That’s what Rui loved about his and Tsukasa’s relationship.
Yes, they bickered over stupid shit, but they never actually really got pissed at each other. In fact, most of the time if they were upset at each other, they would end up go to bed after either apologizing and making out, or make-up sex. Sometimes both.
When Tsukasa finally found his shirt and got dressed, he walked up to give Rui a kiss. ”Are you ready to go?” Rui asked while still kissing him. Tsukasa drags on the kiss a little longer before nodding, “Yeah, just let me brush my hair real quick. I have to make sure my hair is perfect for my dearest boyfriend~!” Rui chuckles. “Fufu~ why would I expect anything different from you, my love?”
Even as Tsukasa walked away, Rui could practically sense his flush.
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When they got to the amusement park, Rui was a bit clingier than usual. I mean, it makes sense- the man was about to propose, after all. But it was still annoying. They ended up making out more times than necessary, in front of kids. Eh, who cares at this point?
About two hours later, they left the amusement park, Tsukasa leaning in to kiss Rui before Rui started driving.
When they got home, Rui watches as Tsukasa sits down on the couch. Rui sees this as an opportunity.
“Tsukasa?”
“Hmm?”
Rui gets on one knee, which confused Tsukasa. “Mm? What are you doing, Ru...”
The words died on his lips as he noticed Rui pulling out a box.
“Oh.”
Rui swallows nervously.
“Ah... well... Tsukasa-kun, I’ll just get straight to the point.”
Tsukasa nods, encouraging Rui to go on. Rui swallows nervously once more.”
“Okay.”
He sighs, starting.
“Tsukasa-kun, I’ve had the pleasure of being your boyfriend for two lovely, wonderful years. But I want more. I always have. I’ve wanted to call myself your husband since before we started dating. And when we started dating, those feelings for stronger. I want to be yours in a way that anyone can tell by just looking at my hand. Which is silly. But... I just love you so much, my star. Before meeting you, I wasn’t nearly as lively as I am now. And that’s one of a hundred reasons I’m glad I met you. I can list them all right now if you wish. But... that’s beside the point. I just- I love you. So much. So... will you marry me?”
Rui could see Tsukasa tearing up, and when he cupped his face to wipe the tears, Tsukasa kissed him. Rui kisses back, of course, and before he can even ask if Tsukasa is okay, Tsukasa practically tackles him to the ground.
”Yes! Yes, Rui, of course I’ll marry you! I’ve been waiting for you to ask me since you mentioned marriage when we first started dating!”
Rui’s face turns red. Right. He did mention that. And immediately after that day, he started saving to buy a ring.
“So are you gonna put the ring on my finger or not~?”
Ah. Speaking of the devil.
“R-Right, of course,” Rui stammers, before sliding the ring on Tsukasa’s finger, then kissing the palm of his hand. Tsukasa smiles as Rui nuzzles into his hand, and when Rui notices that Tsukasa was smiling, he did too.
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Months later, Rui was getting ready for the wedding, Mizuki walking into the room.
“Ruiii~! You’re already getting married! I could never get married this young, not even to Nene.”
Right. Mizuki and Nene had been dating for a year, half as long as Rui and Tsukasa had been dating.
“Well, you saw how badly I was pining for Tsukasa years ago. Only makes sense that we would get married.”
Mizuki nods, and sighs when she sees how disastrous Rui’s hair looks. “Sit on the chair, Kamishiro.” Rui raises an eyebrow. “Kamishiro? You’ve always referred to me as Rui.” “Well, I’m disappointed in you,” Mizuki huffs. Rui just chuckles.
Once Mizuki was finally done with Rui’s hair, she guides him to look in the mirror. “Look, Rui~! You look amazing! Much better than you did before~”
Rui smiles, and he notices Nene walking into the room as well. “Ah, Nene. Came here to see your girlfriend?” Nene rolls her eyes a bit, kissing Mizuki on the cheek before walking up to Rui.
“So... are you excited, Rui?” Rui of course nods, smiling fondly at the reminder that he was to marry his beloved in less than an hour. Mizuki and Nene look at each other knowingly. They sigh and leave the room together.
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When they were finally at the aisle together, Rui could have made out with Tsukasa right then and there. But he waits. Waits through all the bullshit about staying with Tsukasa through sickness and health, through good times and bad, if he takes him to be his lawfully wedded husband... God, it was all just stupid. If he didn’t wanna marry him, why the hell would he be doing so? He was the one who proposed. Fucking stupid logic.
Rui was completely zoned out until he heard that they could kiss, and he immediately pulled Tsukasa towards him with his tie and kissed him. It was less of a kiss and more of making out, but he doesn’t care. Tsukasa mumbled to him something about public decency, but Rui didn’t care about that stupid, useless shit. He would do what he wanted, when he wanted, regardless of what their guests thought about it.
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Now, they had made it to their motel room, Rui taking off his shoes and tie and suit jacket, giving Tsukasa a kiss when he sat down on the bed. Tsukasa obviously immediately kissed back, and Rui towered over him just a small bit as he helped Tsukasa take off his blazer. He then kissed his neck juuust a bit, and Tsukasa playfully pushed him away, but both men knew that he didn’t actually want Rui to stop. Rui had learned that after dating his darling star for two years, and now being his husband.
Later, they got ready for bed, and Rui laid himself down on Tsukasa’s chest as soon as he was on the bed, taking his husband’s hand into his own.
God... he loved Tsukasa so much.
“Tsukasa-kun?”
“Yes, Rui?”
“I love you.”
They were both silent for a minute.
“Rui,” Tsukasa began, “you’ve said that at least eight times since we got married six hours ago.” Rui chuckles, nuzzling into Tsukasa’s chest while still holding his hand. “What, so I can’t love my boyfr– my husband?” Tsukasa laughs a bit. “You can. But you don’t have to say it every five seconds.”
Rui only smiles, kissing Tsukasa’s cheek before they went to sleep for the night.