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PHOENIX POV:
.....I'm not gonna even lie too myself,I was stunned,words cannot describe how shocked I was when Jett announced she and neon were dating as neon then kissed her cheek right then and there,
And now here I am laying down on my bed hugging my pillow as I wept, severely regretting not asking jett out on a damn date sooner
I thought I had time,I thought me and Jett had something going on like cmon! You don't call your best friend "pretty boy" on a daily basis and end up not have a thing for him.......
Neon was never on my radar as potential "jett stealer"infact no one was,....maybe that's my ego talking big as if it were actually hot sh**, but can you blame me??!?!
I mean looking from the outside you'd just see 2 girls bein absolute besties,not an actual couple...idk maybe I'm just coping.
If someone asked me(like yoru my goodness I can already hear him saying)"how do you feel about Jett and neon dating?"I'd being lying straight outta my blaze if I said I wasn't heartbroken.
It's funny because Jett wasn't my first crush, i've dated plenty of girls back in my high school days.(and by that I mean 2)but when they left whether it's becouse they found someone better and cheated on me or left for unknown reasons,the heartbreak never stung that much.
Funny how me and Jett never even dated,and yet my heart aches so bad seeing her with someone that's not me.
This is gonna suck,pretending too be all happy for them and congratulating them as I internally wished I had asked her out sooner.
I think I might distance myself from Jett,I need some time too process this, obviously I'm not just gonna suddenly start avoiding her and be all ignorant and all that,me and Jett are best friends and if that's all we can be?then so be it.
I'll move on right?this will all pass in the coming months right? right?
Oh God I really do hope I can move on from this.
2 hours later
11.36 pm
Yeah no I'm so not moving on from this am i?,I can't sleep genuinely she's just a constant on my mind, usually that's a good thing,usually I picture the times we hung out,messed with each other and even flirt with each other, but now?all I can picture is neon kissing jetts cheek as Jett announces she and neon are dating.
Now that I really think about it maybe I just misinterpreted it all?maybe jetts actually a lesbian and she just called me pretty boy just too f*** with me.seems like such a Jett thing to do too.
Now that I really think about it....maybe she really was just toying with me wow a boy toy for a play girl,never thought that would be me...but here we bloody are.
Maybe I really should just...stop she's no good for me not anymore,it was nice while it lasted Jett,but too move on from this heartbreak.
I MUST LEAVE YOU BEHIND