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It started the way most things did with them: quietly, late at night, in a haze of smoke and unspoken history.
By late 2018, the air around Julian was heavy. Things with Juliet were fraying, the rough patch turning into a chasm he didn’t know how to cross. Somewhere in the middle of all that noise, he gravitated back to Albert. It wasn't planned. It was just a glance held a second too long in a dimly lit studio lounge, a familiar brush of shoulders, and suddenly it was 2001 all over again. Suddenly, they were those same kids running around the Lower East Side, invincible and electric.
For Julian, it made perfect, twisted sense. In his mind, it wasn't a betrayal. It’s just Al, he’d rationalize, staring at the ceiling of a hotel room while Albert slept beside him. It’s not another woman. It’s different. It doesn't count as cheating. It was a separate universe, a secret pocket of time where the rules of their marriages didn't apply.
Albert, however, lived on earth. He was married to Justyna, and the guilt sat like a stone in his chest. For a few months, he let himself be pulled into Julian’s orbit, intoxicating as it always was. But the reality of their lives was too heavy to ignore.
It happened in a sterile green room before a show. Albert sat Julian down, rubbing the back of his neck, unable to meet his eyes.
"We need to stop, Jules," Albert said, his voice tight. "This isn't right. We can't keep doing this."
Julian leaned back, sliding his sunglasses down his nose, his expression immediately closing off. "Stop what? We’re just existing, man."
"You know what," Albert shot back, frustration leaking out. "I have a wife. You have a wife. We aren't twenty anymore."
Julian crossed his arms, his cryptic deflection snapping into place like armor. He looked away, his jaw working. "Right. Okay. I get it. You just don't love me. Never really did, did you? It’s fine."
"That's not fair, and you know it," Albert pleaded, but Julian was already standing up, walking out the door without another word, leaving a trail of heavy, unresolved tension in his wake.
Fast forward a few months. The band was gathered in Malibu, the California sun a stark contrast to the storm clouds still hanging between the frontman and the guitarist. They were deep into recording The New Abnormal. They were professionals, so they played their parts, but the air between them crackled with unspoken grievances.
One afternoon, they started laying down the tracks for a new song. The working title was "Not The Same Anymore." The vibe was melancholic, a slow-burn groove.
Julian, sitting behind the mixing board with a notebook half-covered in scribbled lyrics, pointed the end of his pen at Albert. "Hey, Al. I want you to play lead on this one. It needs your tone."
Albert just nodded, plugging in his Stratocaster. "Okay. Let's run it."
They recorded it. It was fun; it felt like the band was clicking into place. Albert focused on the melody, letting his fingers do the talking, not really paying attention to the scratch vocals Julian was laying down in the booth.
A week later, Albert was in the lounge by himself. The studio was empty. He pulled up the rough mixes on his laptop, throwing his headphones on to listen to the progress they’d made. He clicked on Not The Same Anymore.
The drums kicked in, then his own melancholic guitar lead. And then, Julian’s voice cut through the mix.
As Albert listened, his brow furrowed. He replayed the first verse. Then the chorus. The lyrics painted a picture of regret, of a dynamic shifting, of a door closing. It was about losing a connection, about things changing irrevocably.
What the fuck? Albert thought, his heart hammering against his ribs. He pulled the headphones off, the silence of the room suddenly deafening. The song wasn't just a mood. It was a mirror.
Julian was out on the patio, smoking a cigarette and staring out at the Pacific Ocean when the sliding glass door threw open. Albert marched out, his face pale and furious.
"Did you write that fucking song about me?" Albert demanded, not even bothering to preface it.
Julian didn't flinch. He took a slow drag of his cigarette, exhaling the smoke into the ocean breeze. "Which song, Albert? We've got a dozen."
"'Not The Same Anymore'!" Albert snapped, stepping into Julian's space. "Did you write those lyrics about us?"
Julian rolled his eyes, a defensive smirk playing on his lips. "Jesus, Al. Not everything is about you. It's just a song. It's abstract."
"Bullshit," Albert countered, his voice rising. "I heard the lyrics. I know you, Jules. You literally told me to play the lead part! You made me play the lead on a song you wrote about me dumping you? Yes, you fucking did."
Julian threw the cigarette down, crushing it under his boot. The cool exterior vanished, replaced by a sudden, raw anger. "Well, what the fuck am I supposed to do then, huh? Just do nothing? Just swallow it and pretend everything is fine while you act like I don't exist?"
"We agreed!" Albert yelled back, throwing his hands up. "I have a wife, Julian! You have Juliet! We shouldn't be doing this. It was a mistake. It belongs in the past, back when we didn't know any better!"
"Oh, right," Julian scoffed, his voice dripping with bitter sarcasm, stepping closer until they were chest to chest. "You're the saint now. You're the family man. Well, guess what? I have a wife too. But we fucking did it anyway, didn't we?"
Albert stared at him, breathing hard, the anger giving way to a sickening wave of sadness. "Yeah," he said quietly, his voice cracking. "We did."
Julian held his gaze for a long, agonizing moment, his eyes flashing with a mix of betrayal and stubborn pride. "Then let me write my fucking song," he muttered, turning his back on Albert and walking back into the studio, leaving the heavy, unresolved silence hanging in the air between them.
Albert stood at the railing and looked out at the water and didn't move for a long time.