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Idk it's like 2 am and I just want something to write, honestly I'm feeling a bit happier then I have, I've been taking my anxiety meds, yk to get rid of my anxiety,,, but like it makes me feel bad that I have to take meds, and I didn't take adhd meds because those make u have more anxiety and I would've probably died if I needed to have more anxiety then I already did but whatever, I've been getting back into dungeon meshi yk my hyperfixation peaked in 2024 but its back, and I bought a chilchuck funko (because honestly I find them cute), I also bought blue lock stickers and a mlp Keychain (it was Sunset Shimmer my queen) and uhm recently I watched the tadc finale, Jax my girl 🫶🫶🫶 I love her sm... AND I GET HER WITH THE TRANS THING ok here's like an actual vent where I pout my heart and soul out on the internet yesss king okay but back in 2024, I tried to come out to my mom (as a trans man) the words she said to me SHATTERED my heart, it wasn't as bad as jax tho bcs... she didn't laugh... but she said like "I used to want to be a man too!" "Its just a phase" "you'll never be a real man." It all hurt me so much, I've tried to come out to her FOUR TIMES. FOUR FUCKING TIMES. EACH TIME SHE TELLS ME THE SAME SHIT. "Why don't you tell ur dad?" BECAUSE I FEEL SO UNCOMFORTABLE AROUND THAT RACIST PIECE OF SHIT. ACTUALLY YOU WANNA KNOW SOMETHING? Him and my mom were arguing and he calls her a WHORE. And yk my mom leaves the house, probably to recollect herself and she calls me to ask what I want for dinner, yk I answer and then I ask her if everything's okay she says AND I QUOTE. "I'm fine, I'm just a bit annoyed at ur dad, it's normal" IS IT NORMAL FOR UR PARTNER TO CALL U A WHORE??? IM SO LIKE LOST I FEEL LIKE CRYING EVERY NIGHT sighssss this was just a random vent I expect like no one to see this but like hiii if u do what's ur fav color,, smiles.... skibidi