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Rumi didnt want to die, she really didnt. She wanted to live happily, with Zoey and Mira but she knows thats not the fate for her. They had a life together, they didn’t need her burning it to the ground. They don’t know that she sees all the stolen kisses when they think no ones there or the hugs that last a little too long to be just friendly or the yearning glances between the two (but failed to realize they were towards her as well). Rumi kept her distance which wasn’t so hard considering she wasn’t close to begin with. The signs of someone else sin etched in her skin kept her far from the ones she wanted the most.
She knew an early death was in her cards since Celine first taught her about the history of the honmoon. « A golden honmoon is meant to cleanse the world of demons » but what would that mean for her? She knew she was burden from the unholy. She could see it in how celine looked at her, treated her. Now don’t get it wrong, Rumi knew Celine loved her. Just not in a way one would think, Celine loved Rumi like a person loves a computer; when its useful. She thought, through hard work and never stepping out of line, she could delay the inevitable. She has tried everything, working herself to the bone, taking the most hits, singing until her voices gives out and then some, to finally carving those patterns out of her skin (which ended in a lecture from Celine on how she shouldn’t abuse the honmoon like that and to never do some thing like that again. Of course that was the only thing Celine said that she didn’t listen too.)
With the introduction of the Saja boys Rumi should’ve known better than to even consider talking to jinu. He just seemed to get her, maybe better than herself..
She should have known he’d throw everything she said back in her face but, not like this. Tearing off her sleeves, revealing the worst of her in front of everyone. And worse in front of Mira and Zoey..
The look of betrayal on their faces, the pain of seeing her in their eyes is something Rumi will never forget. She knew after this there would be no way of coming back. She tried to fix it she really did, but it backfired the moment she shouted and showed how she affected the honmoon (the moment Mira and Zoey pulled their weapons on her). Now Rumi knew this was going to happen, Celine did warn her after all, she just never thought it would happen so soon. Rumi could feel the tears rolling down her face as the patterns grew, then she knew what she had to do. Rumi dropped down to her knees moving her hair out of the way from her necks view. Mira and Zoey watched in shock of what was happening, why wasn’t Rumi attacking them? Wasn’t she was a demon? They all stood there, no one moving, so quiet you can here a pin drop. « Do it. Im ready and im sorry. » Mira and Zoey looked at each other, tears in their eyes, they knew what she was asking for. And who were they to deny that? Zoey went up to Rumi while Mira went behind her, She held Rumi close to her whispering sweet nothings while tears roll down her face, was Rumi always this soft? As Zoey held her, Mira was behind ready to deal the blow. Tears fallen from the three of them was enough to fill an empty ocean. With closed eyes and breaths being held Mira dealt the final blow, except Rumi didn’t start disappearing. No, the universe decided to pain her in a different way, making Zoey and Mira look at her dead body for longer. The scream that came out of Zoeys mouth was death curdling to hear. Mira herself looked dead inside, after everything they went through, this was their ending? They never even gotten to confess to her. While Mira and Zoeys dealt with the grief of losing the one they loved most in this world, Rumi felt at peace for the first time in her life. She hopes Mira and Zoey would get over her death soon and start living life once more.
If only she known that a few months later Zoey and Mira would commit together in hopes to see their best friend again.