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Dramatis Personae
A mostly accurate list of suspects, witnesses, hazards, and children emotionally unsupervised by adults who keep saying things like “peer integration.”
The Gossip Crew
Hong Eunchae.
Sees the problem first. Says it out loud. Terrible habit, accuracy.
Kim Woonhak.
Not told anything. Knows everything. Puppy-shaped intelligence leak.
Han Jihoon.
Does not eavesdrop. Merely arrives where secrets are already trembling.
Han Zhen.
Soft voice. Kind eyes. Psychological damage by gentle observation.
Shigeta Harua.
Looks angelic. Takes notes like the prosecution has rested.
Hirota Riki.
Says the worst possible thing at the best possible volume.
Nishimura Riki.
Believes feelings should be settled through competition. This explains much.
Takayama Riki.
Turns bad ideas into group activities. Dangerous skill set.
The Persons of Interest
Ahn Keonho.
Former peer integration asset. Current terrier with feelings. Bought one good birthday present and mistook it for a strategy.
Kim Juhoon.
Former child and teen model. Quiet, beautiful, impossible to impress. Kept the book sleeve, thereby causing problems.
Martin Edwards Park.
Cortis' leader. Tall emotional weather event. Accidentally ruins romance by needing care near furniture.
Zhao Yufan.
Also known as James. Glamour menace. Finds Juhoon’s silence useful and Keonho’s suffering funny.
Eom Seonghyeon.
No romantic interest. Too many opinions. Unfortunately correct about all of them.
The Adults
Casting Staff, Managers, Stylists, Producers, Editors, and Other Grown People With Clipboards.
Say “visual potential” like that is normal. Should be monitored near rookies and metaphors.
Objects of Consequence
One Black Book Sleeve.
Bought by Keonho. Kept by Juhoon. More emotionally productive than the adults.
One Skateboard.
Martin’s. Natural enemy of romance, indoor safety, and manager blood pressure.
One Remote-Control Car.
James’s. Small. Loud. Guilty with plausible deniability.
One Drone.
Currently innocent. Spiritually not.
Chapter 1: Peer Integration Asset
Part 1: Acquisition Cost
The first thing the Gossip Crew agreed on was that BigHit had absolutely used Keonho as bait.
They did not write bait in the case file, because Eunchae said that sounded illegal and Jihoon said legality was a mood, which made Hanjin shut his eyes in pain for three full seconds. Harua suggested “emotional lure,” because there was always someone in every friend group willing to make a bad situation sound like perfume copy. Maki, who had arrived late with convenience store bread and the face of a boy about to make things worse for the public good, suggested “friendship worm on industry fishing hook.”
Nobody spoke for a while after that.
The image was disgusting.
The image was also accurate.
The final case file said: peer integration asset.
This was not better. It was, however, the sort of phrase adults loved, because it hid the crime scene under laminated language.
“Peer integration asset,” Eunchae read aloud, sitting cross-legged on the floor behind a vending machine on the third floor of HYBE, because all important investigations apparently had to happen within whispering distance of artificially sweetened coffee. “Subject A: Ahn Keonho. Function: bright, socially disarming rookie candidate with high approachability index.”
“High approachability index,” Jihoon repeated, delighted. “That means he smiles like customer service.”
Hanjin gave him a sideways look. “Do not say that near him. He will smile harder and prove your point.”
“He already does,” Maki said through bread. “He smiles like the universe personally apologized to him.”
Harua leaned around the vending machine and looked down the hallway, where CORTIS were being walked from one rehearsal room to another by three managers, two stylists, and one assistant director whose job appeared to be preventing beautiful children from accidentally becoming news. “He smiles like a company strategy,” Harua said, then paused as Keonho turned at the exact wrong moment and grinned at a passing producer who had complimented his posture. “Actually, he smiles like the company strategy worked.”
CORTIS were new then. New-new. Rookie-new. Still shiny enough that everyone wanted to test the packaging, praise the visuals, poke the talent, and say strange things like “You boys have a very fresh energy,” as if they were fruit arranged in a premium department store.
They bowed too often. They laughed too loudly. They thanked people like gratitude could be measured on broadcast camera angles.
They were also being overpraised by everybody.
Mostly, technically, allegedly, in the industry way. Adults did not always mean anything by it, which was the sentence adults used right before meaning something inconvenient. Compliments came softened with mentorship. Invitations came wrapped in advice. Hands lingered too long on shoulders under the excuse of adjusting posture. Stylists said, “You’re going to be dangerous when you grow into your features,” like that was a normal thing to say to a teenager and not a line that should summon a manager from the ceiling.
CORTIS did not know what to do with this. They had trained for vocals, dance, media manners, self-introductions, camera blocking, and the ancient idol art of looking awake while wanting to evaporate. No one had trained them for adults leaning too close and saying things like, “Your face is very memorable,” while smiling as if they had discovered a loophole in professionalism.
James handled it best, which was unfair because James handled most terrifying things best, at least outwardly. When a photographer said his face held light beautifully, James smiled with the calm cruelty of a marble statue given media training and said, “The lighting team worked hard.” When a senior producer said Martin had lonely eyes, James stepped between them and replied, “He has sleep deprivation,” in a tone so pleasant the producer thanked him for the correction.
Martin handled it worst, which was not his fault. Martin had the sort of sincerity that made compliments hit him directly in the bloodstream. If someone praised his songwriting, he glowed. If someone praised his stage presence, he thanked them like they had donated a kidney. If someone praised his height, he folded inward like a giraffe trying to use public transportation and whispered, “Thank you, I grew accidentally.”
Seonghyeon handled it by noticing everything and judging everyone. This made him valuable to the Gossip Crew, although he was not formally a member because Seonghyeon said gossip required too much emotional cardio. He preferred reports. He preferred accuracy. He preferred standing beside Keonho and saying, “That stylist held your sleeve three seconds too long,” with the calm of a man announcing weather conditions before a flood.
Juhoon, of course, handled it by seeming completely unaffected.
That was what made him dangerous.
Before BigHit, Juhoon had already lived inside cameras. He had been a child model, then a teen model, then the kind of industry whisper people discussed with phrases like “excellent proportions,” “natural restraint,” and “very high demand,” which made Eunchae once say, “Adults talking about children’s faces like investment products should be forced to eat plain rice in silence for ten years.”
Juhoon knew how to stand under lights. He knew how to turn his head without looking like he had been instructed to turn his head. He knew people looking did not always mean they saw.
BigHit wanted him. Every label with a casting department, ambition, and a functioning pair of eyes wanted him. He had a model’s stillness, a dancer’s potential, a face cameras trusted too easily, and the kind of quiet that made adults think they could project meaning onto him for campaign decks.
The problem was that Juhoon did not seem especially impressed by being wanted.
That was where Keonho came in.
BigHit sent Keonho because Keonho was warmth with legs. He was bright, pretty, harmless-looking in the way of boys who could cause administrative collapse and still be described as “sweet.” He had a grin that made staff forgive him before finding out what he had done. He had the specific charm of someone who did not know yet that charm was a tool, which made it much more effective, because sincerity remained humanity’s most irresponsible weapon.
The memo, according to James, who later claimed he had seen only the subject line and absolutely had not opened confidential staff communication, referred to Keonho as a peer comfort bridge.
“A bridge,” Jihoon said, scandalized when the Gossip Crew learned this. “They called the boy a bridge.”
“Expensive infrastructure,” Maki said. “Emotionally toll-free.”
“Do you think Keonho knows he was infrastructure?” Harua asked, watching Keonho from the hallway as he tried to open a protein bar with his teeth and got scolded by Seonghyeon without Seonghyeon even looking up from his phone.
Eunchae sighed. “Keonho thinks he made a friend.”
That was the cruelest part, because it was true.
Keonho met Juhoon in a practice building lounge before Juhoon signed. This was back when Juhoon still arrived in pressed clothes with a model agency driver and left before dinner, always carrying a book, always looking like he had been placed in the wrong genre. The lounge had gray sofas, bright vending machines, and a motivational slogan on the wall that said DREAM BIGGER in huge white letters, which seemed threatening when viewed under fluorescent lights.
Juhoon sat alone near the window, one ankle crossed neatly over the other, book open on his lap. He had the kind of composure that made the room around him look messier. His hair was dark, his posture clean, his expression calm enough to annoy anyone with a pulse.
Keonho had been told to be casual.
This was already a doomed instruction. Keonho could be cheerful, friendly, impulsive, affectionate, loud, delighted, panicked, and occasionally suspiciously competent in crisis. Casual, however, required not caring too much, and Keonho had never met a situation he could not care about excessively within five minutes.
He approached with two banana milks in hand because staff had said snacks helped, and Keonho believed in snacks as both diplomacy and emotional insurance.
“Hi,” Keonho said.
Juhoon looked up.
For one second, Keonho understood why adults kept lowering their voices around him. Juhoon was pretty, yes, but that was the boring part, the part everyone had already agreed on. What made him difficult was the stillness. He looked at Keonho as if Keonho had entered the room fully, noise and grin and banana milk and all, and Juhoon was deciding where to place him.
“Hi,” Juhoon said.
Then he looked back at his book.
Keonho stood there holding banana milk like an abandoned mascot.
The plan, as delivered by staff, had contained several possible opening lines. Ask about his day. Ask how he finds the practice facilities. Mention shared age range. Mention how comfortable the trainee environment can be. Do not mention contract terms. Do not oversell. Do not overwhelm.
Keonho forgot all of it.
He sat down beside Juhoon, leaving what he hoped was a polite amount of space, and held out the banana milk. “I brought this.”
Juhoon looked at it.
Keonho kept holding it out.
Juhoon looked at Keonho.
Keonho smiled.
Juhoon accepted the banana milk.
This, Keonho decided, was friendship.
It was not friendship yet, obviously. It was beverage transfer. Human beings had built religions on less, but still. Keonho was new to corporate recruitment emotional warfare and could not be expected to classify every social exchange correctly under pressure.
“What are you reading?” Keonho asked.
Juhoon glanced at the cover. “A book.”
Keonho nodded. “Good.”
Juhoon looked at him again.
Keonho nodded harder, because apparently he had chosen to perish here.
The corner of Juhoon’s mouth moved.
Barely. Almost nothing. A crack in the marble. A weather event visible only to trained equipment and boys with too much hope.
Keonho went home that night and told the casting manager, with full confidence and absolutely no evidence, that Juhoon liked him.
The casting manager looked relieved.
Seonghyeon, who had been waiting outside the practice room and somehow already knew too much, looked at Keonho with deep pity. “Did he say that?”
“He took the banana milk.”
“That is not legally binding.”
“He almost smiled.”
“Almost is doing a lot of labor in that sentence.”
Keonho ignored him because Seonghyeon had no romance in his soul, only analytics and dimples he pretended were accidental.
The next few weeks became a pattern. Juhoon came to BigHit. Keonho appeared. Sometimes Keonho brought drinks. Sometimes he brought snacks. Sometimes he asked questions so badly formed that Juhoon had to help him complete the sentence before answering, which Seonghyeon said was less conversation and more assisted breathing.
Juhoon did not give much away. He liked quiet corners. He liked having a place to put his bag where no one would step on it. He liked warm drinks more than cold ones, unless he had just practiced. He disliked loud praise. He disliked being watched while being expected to react to being watched. He disliked people touching his things without asking. He liked books, but not when people pretended to like books in order to impress him, which was unfortunate for Keonho’s future and several bookstore receipts.
Keonho learned these things because Keonho was bright, not stupid. This distinction mattered. Adults often treated smiling boys like they were simple, which was how smiling boys ended up knowing more than adults expected. Keonho noticed the way Juhoon’s fingers tightened when someone moved his bag. He noticed when Juhoon answered a direct question more easily than a compliment. He noticed that Juhoon did not laugh at jokes designed to make everyone laugh, but sometimes smiled at small stupid accidents that had no audience.
Once, Keonho dropped a wrapped rice ball, tried to catch it with his knee, failed, kicked it under the vending machine, and then stood frozen while Juhoon watched the whole thing.
“I can explain,” Keonho said.
Juhoon looked at the vending machine.
Then at Keonho.
“You fought lunch,” he said.
Keonho stared at him in astonishment because that was, unmistakably, a joke.
He laughed so loudly that a staff member opened the door to check whether someone had fallen.
Juhoon looked back down at his book, but his ears went faintly pink.
That was the second cathedral Keonho built on one millimeter of expression.
The birthday present happened because Keonho, having been given one successful assignment by the universe, decided to become unbearable about it.
Juhoon’s birthday was not a secret. Staff knew. The casting team knew. The schedule knew. Adults handled birthdays in the industry with the tense efficiency of people moving glass through a crowded room. Cakes appeared, photos were taken, captions were drafted, smiles were arranged, and somebody always said, “Make a wish,” as if the child in question had not already been converted into someone else’s quarterly possibility.
Keonho wanted to give him something different.
This was his first mistake, emotionally speaking.
He asked staff what Juhoon liked. Staff said safe things. Books. Simple design. Neutral colors. Practical items. Nothing too flashy. Nothing that looked like pressure. Nothing that could be misunderstood.
Keonho wrote this down. Then he stared at the list and understood nothing because it was a list made by adults who believed gifts could be optimized like thumbnail images.
He asked Seonghyeon.
Seonghyeon looked up from stretching. “Why are you buying him a birthday present?”
“Because it’s his birthday.”
“You have met him four times.”
“Five.”
“My mistake. You are clearly lifelong companions.”
Keonho threw a towel at him. Seonghyeon caught it, which was infuriating because he always caught things when it would be funnier if he did not.
“I need something good,” Keonho said. “Something he’ll actually use.”
Seonghyeon studied him for a moment, and the teasing in his face shifted into something sharper. “Did staff ask you to do this?”
“No.”
“Did staff ask you to be close to him?”
Keonho looked away.
Seonghyeon’s mouth thinned, and for once he did not make a joke immediately. This was how Keonho knew the situation was bad. Seonghyeon treated jokes as oxygen. If he withheld one, someone had probably committed emotional fraud nearby.
“They asked me to talk to him,” Keonho said. “That’s all.”
“That is never all.”
Keonho picked at the edge of his sleeve. “I know.”
“Do you?”
“I’m not dumb.”
“I didn’t say you were dumb.”
“You looked like it.”
“I looked like adults are gross.”
That was fair. Adults were often gross in ways that involved spreadsheets and soft voices.
Keonho sat beside him on the practice room floor and leaned back against the mirror. “I still want to get him something.”
Seonghyeon sighed in the dramatic manner of a prince forced to advise commoners. “What does he carry?”
“Books.”
“Then get him something for the books.”
“Like another book?”
“No. That requires knowing his taste, and your taste is currently banana milk as courtship strategy.”
“It worked.”
“It achieved beverage acceptance.”
“Same thing.”
Seonghyeon stared at the ceiling as if asking it for patience. The ceiling, being corporate property, offered none.
That was how Keonho ended up buying a book sleeve.
He went with a manager, because he was young enough that the company preferred knowing where he was and old enough to resent that while still needing help finding the right store. He chose black fabric, soft but strong, with neat stitching and a small clasp. Simple. Useful. Quiet. The kind of thing someone could keep without needing to explain it.
He paid for it himself.
This mattered to him in a way he did not know how to say.
On Juhoon’s birthday, the company gave Juhoon a small cake in a conference room. There were staff smiles, polite clapping, a few photos, and a candle that refused to light because even fire apparently had concerns about trainee contracts. Juhoon bowed. Juhoon thanked everyone. Juhoon looked composed and faintly elsewhere.
Keonho waited until later.
This was difficult because waiting was against several of his core principles, including enthusiasm, impulse, and the belief that good feelings should happen immediately before they escaped. He waited anyway because Juhoon disliked being watched while receiving things. He knew that. He had learned.
Juhoon was in the lounge again, book in hand, cake box beside him. The city outside had gone purple with evening. The vending machine hummed in the corner like a tired robot.
Keonho stood in front of him with the gift behind his back.
Juhoon looked up.
Keonho smiled.
Juhoon’s gaze flicked to his hidden hands. “What?”
“It’s your birthday.”
“I know.”
“So.” Keonho brought the gift forward. “This.”
Juhoon stared at the small wrapped package.
Keonho’s heart began behaving like it had joined a drumline.
“You don’t have to,” Juhoon said.
“I know.”
“Then why?”
The question was soft, which made it worse.
Keonho had several possible answers. Because staff wanted you comfortable. Because I am supposed to be friendly. Because you looked lonely, and I did not know what to do with that. Because I started noticing the corners of your books, and now I notice too much. Because I wanted one thing here to be from a person and not from a company.
He said, “Birthday.”
Juhoon looked at him for a long moment.
Keonho added, with great courage and zero elegance, “Your birthday.”
Juhoon opened the gift carefully. Of course he did. Juhoon did everything as if objects could feel rushed and he did not wish to offend them.
The book sleeve slid into his hands.
Black fabric. Simple clasp. Good stitching.
Juhoon touched the edge with his thumb.
Keonho held his breath.
The lounge seemed too quiet. Somewhere down the hall, someone laughed. Somewhere else, a door closed. The vending machine hummed on, because machines did not care about boys and their terrible feelings, which was probably why adults trusted them.
Juhoon looked up.
“Thank you,” he said.
It was not dramatic. It was not emotional in any way someone could put into a teaser caption. His voice did not shake. His expression did not transform. No music swelled. No camera pushed in. No staff member whispered, “This is marketable.”
Keonho felt the moment anyway.
He felt it because Juhoon put his book into the sleeve immediately.
He felt it because Juhoon’s hand lingered on the clasp.
He felt it because the next week, Juhoon brought the sleeve again.
And the week after that.
And the week after that.
Keonho began looking for it before looking for Juhoon’s face, which was ridiculous and embarrassing and entirely his own fault.
When Juhoon finally signed with BigHit, adults smiled like a deal had closed. Casting staff looked relieved. Managers looked satisfied. Someone said the transition had gone smoothly. Someone else said peer integration had helped. The language flowed over Keonho like elevator music in a haunted office.
Keonho should have felt proud.
He did, partly.
Juhoon was joining. Juhoon would train with them. Juhoon would be there in the mornings and evenings and ugly fluorescent hours between. No more temporary visits. No more agency cars taking him away before dinner. No more wondering whether he would choose BigHit or some other company with cleaner couches and fewer emotionally compromised trainees.
Keonho thought, with the fragile optimism of someone about to learn narrative punishment, that things would get easier now.
He imagined showing Juhoon the best vending machine. He imagined introducing him to practice room hiding spots. He imagined sitting beside him during breaks, maybe reading too, although that would require acquiring both books and patience. He imagined Juhoon choosing the seat next to him because Keonho was familiar. Because Keonho had been there first.
He had not accounted for Martin.
Nobody ever accounted for Martin.
Part 2: Customer Retention
Keonho had imagined success differently.
This was his first problem.
In Keonho’s head, Juhoon joining BigHit meant more of everything. More time. More chances. More quiet conversations beside vending machines. More banana milk negotiations. More book sleeve sightings. More of Juhoon looking at him with that tiny almost-smile like joy was a controlled substance and Keonho had somehow been granted a sample.
Keonho had pictured showing him around properly.
Staff tours were useless. Staff tours had access cards, rehearsal blocks, storage warnings, and the soft corporate terror of adults saying, “This is where you’ll grow.” Keonho meant the real version. The trainee survival map nobody printed because it would make the company look like a maze built by ambitious raccoons.
He would show Juhoon which vending machine sometimes gave two drinks if you hit the side with confidence. He would show him which practice room had the best air conditioning. He would show him the couch in the corner of the lounge that looked uncomfortable but was secretly perfect if you knew which cushion to flip. He would show him the stairwell where staff almost never came unless somebody was crying, hiding, or doing vocal warmups like a haunted trumpet.
He would become Juhoon’s person.
In a normal way.
A completely normal way that involved spending twenty minutes selecting a hoodie before Juhoon’s first full trainee day because the hoodie needed to say friendly but not desperate, warm but not clingy, cool but not arrogant, approachable but not company-assigned.
Seonghyeon, watching him change for the fourth time, had said, “You know he already signed, right?”
Keonho pulled the hoodie over his head and emerged offended. “This is not about signing.”
“No,” Seonghyeon said. “This is about whatever illness makes you match your sleeves to emotional intent.”
“I look normal.”
“You look like a brochure for safe youth bonding.”
“That is a horrible sentence.”
“You are wearing beige.”
Keonho looked down.
The hoodie was beige.
He changed again.
By the time Juhoon arrived with his suitcase, two garment bags, one backpack, and the black book sleeve tucked carefully under his arm, Keonho was wearing blue and vibrating at a frequency that made Seonghyeon step two meters away from him.
The dorm hallway smelled like fresh laundry, floor cleaner, and nervous adolescence.
Managers stood around pretending this was an ordinary move-in and not the official transfer of one highly coveted former model into BigHit’s machinery. Staff had been very calm all morning, which meant they were one unanswered email away from collapse. James leaned against the wall with a water bottle in one hand and the expression of someone watching the opening act of a disaster he had already predicted. Martin stood near the door, tall and bright and visibly trying not to be overwhelming, which somehow made him more overwhelming.
Martin had brought a skateboard because he said balance training counted as personal development, which was the kind of sentence adults wrote down before regretting it. James had brought a remote-control car because James believed all menace should be portable, quiet until activated, and technically deniable.
Juhoon bowed to everyone.
Keonho smiled.
Juhoon looked at him.
The book sleeve was there.
Keonho’s heart became fireworks in a closed room.
“You brought it,” he said before he could stop himself.
Juhoon glanced down at the sleeve, then back at him. “It is for books.”
“Yes,” Keonho said, nodding with entirely too much enthusiasm. “Books go in it.”
James, from the wall, murmured, “Sharp work, team.”
Keonho ignored him.
Juhoon’s mouth moved.
Almost.
There it was. The almost-smile. The small private weather Keonho had started measuring his life by, because apparently dignity was optional in this dorm.
Then Martin stepped forward.
“Hi,” Martin said, voice warm and careful. “I’m Martin. I mean, you know that. Obviously. We met. Briefly. In the hallway. When I almost walked into the plant.”
Juhoon looked at him.
Martin flushed. “The plant is fine.”
“I did not ask,” Juhoon said.
“No. Right. Good. I just wanted to clarify there was no plant casualty.”
James took a sip of water and looked away like he was trying very hard not to laugh.
Keonho felt no concern.
At first.
Martin was sweet. Martin was everyone’s problem in a harmless way. Martin had the energy of a boy who would apologize to furniture if he suspected it had feelings. Juhoon would not be stolen by that. Juhoon liked quiet. Juhoon liked carefulness. Juhoon liked black book sleeves and drinks accepted after suspiciously long pauses.
Martin was a giraffe-shaped sunbeam.
Juhoon was a turtle with a book.
They were incompatible.
Then room assignments happened.
“Juhoon will share with Martin,” the manager said.
Keonho stopped breathing.
Martin blinked. “Oh.”
Juhoon said nothing.
Keonho waited for the universe to correct itself out of embarrassment.
It did not.
The manager continued, cruelly alive. “It makes the most logistical sense for now. Similar schedules, same vocal block, and Martin’s room has the extra desk cleared.”
Martin immediately straightened. “I cleared it. I mean, staff helped. I mean, I moved things. Most things. There is one box of cables, but they are organized emotionally.”
James closed his eyes.
Juhoon looked at Martin.
“Emotionally?” Juhoon asked.
Martin nodded earnestly. “By urgency.”
The silence that followed was beautiful and terrible.
Then Juhoon said, “That is not organization.”
Martin’s face lit up.
Keonho knew, with the icy clarity of a man watching an enemy army crest the hill, that something had gone wrong.
It was not that Juhoon smiled.
He did not. Not exactly.
It was worse.
Juhoon paid attention.
There were many ways to pay attention. Adults paid attention to potential, angles, schedules, figures, what could be used and polished until a person became a plan. Staff paid attention to logistics. Cameras paid attention to faces. Fans, someday, would pay attention to everything, including nothing, especially nothing, because nothing photographed from three angles could become a theory.
Juhoon paid attention to Martin like he was a problem that required quiet handling.
That was dangerous.
Martin, naturally, had no idea.
He dragged Juhoon’s suitcase inside the room, knocked it gently against the doorframe, apologized to the suitcase, apologized to Juhoon, then apologized to the doorframe because Martin’s sense of justice had architectural range.
Juhoon took the handle from him.
“I can carry it.”
“Oh,” Martin said. “Right. Sorry.”
“Stop apologizing.”
“Sorry.”
Juhoon looked at him.
Martin pressed his lips together.
Keonho watched from the hallway, still holding the welcome snack he had brought and no longer knowing what to do with his hands.
Seonghyeon appeared beside him like a dark thought in human form.
“That was fast,” Seonghyeon said.
“What was fast?”
“The roommate imprinting.”
“There is no imprinting.”
Seonghyeon looked into the room.
Martin was trying to explain where the outlets were. Juhoon was silently moving the dangerous tangle of charging cables away from the chair leg with the calm patience of someone who had accepted a long-term responsibility in the last three minutes.
Seonghyeon looked back at Keonho.
Keonho hated his face.
His face was saying things.
“Don’t,” Keonho said.
“I didn’t.”
“You are about to.”
“I am restraining myself.”
“Restrain harder.”
Inside the room, Martin said, “This drawer sticks sometimes, but if you lift it a little and pull left, it opens.”
Juhoon tried it once.
The drawer opened.
Martin gasped as if Juhoon had performed a miracle.
Keonho turned around and walked away.
Seonghyeon followed him because Seonghyeon believed suffering was funnier with witnesses.
For the first week, Keonho told himself it was logistics.
Roommates became close. That was natural. People who shared rooms shared chargers, air, weird sleeping habits, and the specific embarrassment of hearing someone brush their teeth half-awake. Juhoon and Martin would settle into normal politeness. Keonho would reclaim his access later. There was no need to panic.
By day two, Martin was calling Juhoon “Jju” in private.
By day three, Juhoon was moving Martin’s water bottle away from the edge of the table before Martin’s hand knocked it over.
By day four, Martin had fallen asleep sitting up on the floor after practice, and Juhoon had wordlessly put a folded hoodie behind his head so he did not hit the wall.
By day five, Keonho saw Martin tug Juhoon’s sleeve without looking.
Juhoon moved closer.
The movement was tiny. A half-step. A silent adjustment. The sort of thing no one would notice unless they were already watching too much.
Keonho was watching too much.
He discovered this with horror.
He had become one of those people. The over-observers. The hallway lingerers. The boys who noticed sleeve tugs and half-steps and made themselves miserable with geometry. He had thought this species lived only online and in comment sections. Now here he was, in the wild, measuring emotional distance like a fan with slow-motion footage and no moral supervision.
The worst part was that Juhoon seemed fine.
He was comfortable in the strangeness of it. Martin filled the air. Juhoon gave it edges. Martin spun out. Juhoon grounded him. Martin forgot where he put his phone. Juhoon pointed without looking. Martin asked, “Do you think this bridge is too sentimental?” and Juhoon said, “Yes,” which somehow made Martin say, “Thank you,” like he had received emotional nourishment.
They were opposites.
This, horribly, made them work.
Keonho complained to Seonghyeon in the laundry room because all great romantic crises happened either under moonlight or near washing machines. They did not have moonlight. They had a dryer making a sound like a sneaker was being executed.
“They are always together,” Keonho said.
“They live together,” Seonghyeon replied, folding a black T-shirt with unnecessary precision.
“I know.”
“So you understand the concept.”
“It’s not the same.”
“No. It is worse for you because walls are involved.”
Keonho leaned against the washing machine and frowned. “Why him?”
“Martin?”
“Yes.”
Seonghyeon looked at him. “Because Martin is easy to take care of.”
Keonho made a face. “That sounds bad.”
“It is not. Some people make care obvious. Martin does. He drops it everywhere. Juhoon probably likes that he does not have to guess.”
Keonho stared at the dryer.
The sneaker inside thudded miserably.
“I was there first,” he said, and hated himself immediately.
Seonghyeon stopped folding.
For once, he did not mock.
That was worse.
“I know,” Seonghyeon said.
Keonho rubbed at his sleeve. “I know that sounds childish.”
“It is childish.”
“Hyeonie.”
“And true.”
Keonho looked at him.
Seonghyeon continued folding, eyes lowered. “Both can happen. You can know people are not seats you reserve and still feel bad when someone else sits closer.”
Keonho swallowed.
This was the problem with Seonghyeon. He hid actual kindness inside sentences that still managed to slap.
“I don’t want to be weird,” Keonho said.
“You are already weird.”
“Helpful.”
“I mean you are emotionally under-trained weird.”
“That is not better.”
“It is more fixable.”
Keonho groaned and tipped his head back against the washing machine.
The dryer thudded again.
Then Seonghyeon said, “How did you get close anyway?”
Keonho blinked. “What?”
“With Juhoon-hyung. Before. How did you get close?”
Keonho answered immediately, because the answer was the only thing that still felt clean.
“I bought him a birthday present.”
The dryer thudded.
Seonghyeon stared at him.
Keonho stared back.
There were moments in life when a person could hear a friend mentally opening a file, labeling it IDIOT, and saving it somewhere permanent.
This was one of them.
“You bought him a birthday present,” Seonghyeon repeated.
“Yes.”
“That was your strategy?”
“It worked.”
“Once.”
“It was a good present.”
“I am sure the present has excellent morals.”
“He still uses it.”
Seonghyeon paused at that.
His expression changed, just slightly.
Keonho saw it and sat up straighter. “He does.”
“I know,” Seonghyeon said.
“You know?”
“Everyone knows. You look at that book sleeve like it is your firstborn child.”
“I do not.”
“You absolutely do. If it had a school recital, you would attend.”
Keonho grabbed a towel and threw it.
Seonghyeon caught it again because the universe hated comedy when Keonho needed it most.
“Fine,” Seonghyeon said, tossing the towel into the basket. “The birthday present mattered.”
Keonho brightened.
“But,” Seonghyeon continued, lifting one finger, “that is not a scalable relationship model.”
Keonho frowned. “Why are you talking like management?”
“Because apparently your love life has become a business case.”
“It is not a love life.”
“It is at minimum a poorly managed account.”
Keonho groaned again.
Seonghyeon leaned back against the counter, eyes sharp now. “You cannot keep giving him symbolic objects every time you want closeness.”
“Why not?”
“Because eventually you will run out of shelf space and emotional plausibility.”
Keonho considered this.
Seonghyeon watched him consider this.
“Do not buy him another birthday present,” Seonghyeon said.
“It is not his birthday.”
“I know. I am warning you in case romance has destroyed your calendar.”
Keonho frowned harder. “So what do I do?”
“Talk to him.”
“I do talk to him.”
“You ask if he wants coffee at nine at night.”
“That is talking.”
“That is caffeine-based harassment.”
Keonho opened his mouth, then closed it, because there was no dignified defense against accuracy.
Seonghyeon softened again, which remained rude and destabilizing. “Try sitting with him.”
“I do.”
“No,” Seonghyeon said. “You perform near him. Sit with him.”
Keonho looked away.
Outside the laundry room, someone laughed. Martin, probably. His laugh carried through walls like it had a company pass. A second later came James’s voice, lower and amused, followed by Juhoon saying something too quiet to hear.
Keonho hated that too.
The voices were fine.
The not hearing was the problem.
Before, he had been in the room.
Now he was outside the door, catching pieces.
“I don’t know how to sit without doing something,” Keonho admitted.
Seonghyeon’s face did something strange.
Something almost fond.
Then, because he was Seonghyeon, he ruined it by saying, “Start by not treating silence like a test you failed.”
Keonho groaned into his hands.
This was good advice.
He resented it deeply.
James became the second problem during the second week.
At least Martin made sense. Martin was loud affection. Martin was visible attachment. Martin’s closeness to Juhoon could be resented in normal ways by normal people who liked torturing themselves.
James was harder.
James did not compete for Juhoon.
James did not need anything obvious.
James simply appeared near Juhoon when he was tired, stretched out on the floor like an exhausted designer cat, and existed in silence. Juhoon would read. James would close his eyes. Sometimes neither of them spoke for half an hour.
This drove Keonho insane.
Because how could nothing be bonding?
Keonho understood laughter. He understood snacks. He understood walking together, talking too much, shared jokes, exchanged drinks, accidental shoulder bumps, and the sacred social contract of sending memes at the correct emotional temperature. He did not understand lying on the floor near someone and calling it friendship.
James did.
Juhoon did.
That was offensive.
The first time Keonho interrupted them, he did it with confidence.
Confidence was one of Keonho’s more dangerous accessories.
Juhoon was sitting near the mirror in Practice Room 4, book open, the black sleeve beside him. James lay flat on his back nearby, one arm over his eyes, hair slightly messy, hoodie riding up just enough to reveal that even exhausted people at BigHit were apparently styled by divine malice. The room was quiet in a way practice rooms rarely were.
Keonho stood in the doorway.
“Hyung,” he said brightly.
James lifted one finger. “No.”
Keonho stopped. “I did not even say which hyung.”
“You meant Juhoon.”
“That is discrimination.”
“That is pattern recognition.”
Juhoon turned a page.
Keonho came in anyway because retreat was for people with stronger shame. He sat down on Juhoon’s other side.
Juhoon glanced at him.
Keonho smiled.
James groaned softly from the floor. “Too bright.”
Keonho dimmed his smile by approximately five percent.
James kept his arm over his eyes. “Still bright.”
“Close your eyes harder.”
“They are closed.”
“Skill issue.”
James lifted his arm and looked at him.
Keonho smiled wider.
James looked at Juhoon. “He is your peer integration asset.”
Keonho froze.
Juhoon looked up from his book.
The words landed with the neat, horrible precision of something pulled from an email subject line.
“Peer integration asset?” Juhoon asked.
Keonho felt heat climb his neck.
James sat up on one elbow, suddenly awake in the way predators became awake when blood entered water. “Did no one tell you?”
Keonho pointed at him. “Don’t.”
James smiled. “Interesting.”
“James-hyung.”
“Very interesting.”
Juhoon looked between them.
Keonho wanted to disappear. He did not want a trapdoor or smoke. He wanted a quiet administrative deletion, like a file moved to a folder nobody checked.
“It was staff language,” Keonho said quickly.
Juhoon’s expression did not change.
Keonho hated that he could not read it.
“They wanted you comfortable,” he continued. “So they asked me to talk to you.”
Juhoon said nothing.
James’s amusement faded, which meant things had become serious, which meant Keonho was about to die.
“But,” Keonho said, gripping his own knee because if his hands had nothing to do they might start confessing crimes, “the birthday present was mine.”
Juhoon’s gaze shifted.
To the book sleeve beside him.
Keonho followed it.
His chest tightened.
“I know the first part was company,” Keonho said. “I know. But that was mine. I picked it. I paid for it. I just thought...” He swallowed. “You always looked annoyed when book corners bent.”
James’s face softened despite himself.
Keonho hated that too, but less.
Juhoon touched the edge of the book sleeve.
“You noticed that?” he asked.
Keonho stared at him.
“Of course.”
The words came out too fast, too honest, too big for the quiet room.
Juhoon’s fingers paused on the fabric.
Keonho looked down immediately.
The silence stretched.
James, who apparently possessed the self-preservation to recognize when he was suddenly in someone else’s moment, lay back down and put his arm over his eyes again.
For once, he said nothing.
Juhoon returned the book to the sleeve with careful hands.
“I know,” he said.
Keonho looked up.
Juhoon’s voice was calm. His face was calm. Everything about him was calm except the way his thumb rested on the clasp.
“I know it was yours.”
Keonho’s stupid heart made a stupid sound somewhere in his stupid chest.
“Oh,” he said.
James, from the floor, murmured, “Beautifully articulated.”
Keonho kicked lightly at his shoe.
James kicked back without looking.
Juhoon’s mouth twitched.
There.
There it was again.
The almost-smile.
The problem with Juhoon’s almost-smile was that it made Keonho optimistic. Optimism was one of nature’s more embarrassing renewable resources. It kept returning no matter how often reality dragged it into traffic.
For the next several days, Keonho tried sitting.
He was bad at it.
This surprised no one.
He sat beside Juhoon in the lounge and lasted four minutes before asking what the book was about.
“People,” Juhoon said.
“You always say that.”
“It is often true.”
“What kind of people?”
“Sad.”
Keonho nodded solemnly. “Relatable.”
Juhoon looked at him.
Keonho panicked and added, “I am emotionally healthy.”
From across the room, Seonghyeon said, “Lie.”
Keonho threw a cushion at him.
The cushion hit Martin instead.
Martin made a surprised noise, dropped his phone, and accidentally paused James’s remote-control car halfway under the couch.
James turned slowly.
Keonho knew fear.
“Do you know,” James said, voice polite in the way knives were polite before becoming evidence, “how long it took me to get the angle right?”
Martin peered under the couch. “Why is it carrying a snack packet?”
“Espionage,” James said.
Juhoon closed his book.
Keonho whispered, “That’s my fault.”
Seonghyeon said, “Many things are.”
The second time, Keonho brought a book.
This should have helped.
It did not.
He chose a serious-looking novel from the company shelf because the cover had a dark forest and no smiling couples, which suggested literary value. He sat beside Juhoon in the practice room and opened it with great purpose.
The book was in Japanese.
Keonho stared at the page.
He recognized three words and possibly one tree.
Juhoon glanced over.
Keonho nodded like he was deep in thought.
“You cannot read that,” Juhoon said.
“I can infer.”
“From what?”
“The atmosphere.”
Juhoon looked at the page.
Then at Keonho.
“Atmosphere says murder,” Keonho tried.
“It is a gardening essay collection.”
Seonghyeon, who had been stretching nearby, collapsed fully onto the mat.
Juhoon’s shoulders moved once.
Keonho accepted the humiliation because Juhoon had almost laughed.
Progress was ugly, but progress was progress.
The third time, Keonho brought nothing.
This was Seonghyeon’s idea.
“Empty hands,” Seonghyeon said. “Closed mouth. Sit.”
“I sound like a dog.”
“You said it.”
“I did not.”
“You implied it with your life.”
Keonho sat beside Juhoon after evening practice, empty-handed and full of terror.
Martin and James were at the other end of the room, which meant they were temporarily contained only in the philosophical sense. Martin had a skateboard. James had the remote-control car. Both of them looked delighted in ways managers had learned to fear. Seonghyeon sat near the speaker pretending not to supervise. Staff were changing schedules outside. The practice room lights had dimmed into that late-hour softness where everyone looked more human and less like a product of seventeen separate planning meetings.
Juhoon had a book open.
Keonho sat.
He did not speak.
One minute passed.
Then two.
Then five.
Keonho’s soul began chewing furniture.
He wanted to ask what Juhoon was reading. He wanted to ask if he was tired. He wanted to ask if the book sleeve was holding up well, which even he knew was an insane question because fabric did not require emotional performance reviews.
He said nothing.
Juhoon turned a page.
Keonho watched the mirror instead of Juhoon’s hands, because apparently he had developed some standards.
Across the room, Martin put one foot on the skateboard and said, “I think balance is mostly confidence.”
James drove the remote-control car in a neat circle around his other foot.
“That sounds like something people say before injury,” James said.
“I have excellent balance.”
“You tripped over air yesterday.”
“Air has volume.”
“Beautiful defense. Completely useless.”
Keonho bit the inside of his cheek to avoid laughing.
Juhoon looked up from his book.
Keonho felt the look more than saw it.
“You’re quiet,” Juhoon said.
Keonho panicked.
“Bad?”
“No.”
Keonho looked at him.
Juhoon’s eyes returned to the page.
“I noticed.”
This was not a confession.
Keonho knew that.
He was not fully delusional. Maybe slightly. Maybe in small manageable amounts. But he knew Juhoon was not declaring anything. He had said two words in a practice room while reading a book. This was not romance. This was not enough to build a house on.
Keonho built a small cottage anyway.
Seonghyeon, from near the speaker, smiled like a villain.
Keonho ignored him.
The remote-control car hummed.
Martin rolled forward three centimeters and gasped as if he had crossed a continent.
James said, “Congratulations. Transportation has been invented.”
Juhoon turned another page.
Keonho sat beside him, hands empty, mouth closed, chest bright.
He thought maybe this was what Seonghyeon meant.
Not performing.
Not chasing.
Just staying close enough to be noticed.
For the first time since Juhoon had joined, Keonho did not feel like he was outside the door.
He was in the room.
It lasted exactly eleven minutes.
Then Martin said, “I’m going to try turning.”
James said, “I support this as a legal witness.”
Seonghyeon whispered, “And thus romance loses another battle to wheels.”
Keonho turned to Juhoon before he could stand.
“After,” he said quickly.
Juhoon looked at him.
Keonho swallowed. “Can we read after?”
The room seemed to pause.
Even James, which meant history should mark the moment.
Juhoon studied him.
Then he nodded once.
“After,” he said.
Keonho smiled.
Not full brightness.
Not recruitment smile.
Not customer service, not peer integration, not cheerful trainee asset smile.
Just his own.
Juhoon looked at it for half a second longer than usual.
Then Martin attempted to turn on the skateboard indoors and immediately rolled backward into a pile of mats.
The remote-control car shot under the speaker.
The manager opened the door at the exact moment James said, “It’s fine. He landed soft.”
The manager aged five years.
Seonghyeon got up with a sigh. “I’ll get the incident report template.”
Keonho stood too, because there was chaos to handle and because after existed now.
After.
One small word.
One scheduled opening in the impossible calendar of Juhoon’s attention.
Keonho could work with that.
Across the room, Juhoon picked up the black book sleeve before following.
Keonho saw it.
Of course he saw it.
He had noticed the bent corners first.
He had noticed the sleeve after.
Now he noticed something else.
Juhoon was still carrying the gift.
And maybe, just maybe, he had been carrying the boy who gave it too.
Only quietly.
Because Juhoon did everything quietly.
Because Keonho, despite every staff memo and every terrible adult phrase, had been right about one thing from the beginning.
The almost-smile had meant something.
Not everything.
Not yet.
But something.
Behind them, Martin said, “I improved.”
Juhoon said, “You moved three centimeters.”
“Progress,” Martin insisted.
Seonghyeon looked at Keonho. “See? Even he understands.”
Keonho smiled despite himself.
Progress.
Fine.
He could do progress.
He was persistent.
Childishly, inconveniently, embarrassingly persistent.
And if BigHit had accidentally put him in Juhoon’s path for corporate reasons, then BigHit could suffer the consequences like everyone else.
After all, Keonho had brought the banana milk.
Keonho had bought the birthday present.
Keonho had sat through silence without exploding, which frankly deserved an award.
The company could call it peer integration.
Seonghyeon could call it failed account management.
James could call it funny.
Martin could call it, probably, “really sweet” while accidentally knocking something over.
Keonho did not know what to call it yet.
He only knew that when Juhoon said after, it felt like a door opening.
Quietly.
Just enough.
For him.