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Morning sunlight spilled across the polished wooden floors of the Armed Detective Agency in long, honey-colored ribbons, filtering through the broad windows that overlooked Yokohama’s waking streets. The city beyond was only just beginning to stretch itself awake; distant traffic hummed softly beneath the cries of gulls circling the harbor, while the breeze drifting through an open window carried with it the faint scent of saltwater and freshly baked bread from a nearby café. It was peaceful in the quiet way mornings often were, before deadlines accumulated into impatient stacks and clients filled the office with frantic voices and impossible requests.

The Agency had always seemed to possess a rhythm uniquely its own. No matter how chaotic their work became, there was something comforting about the predictability of the people within it. The clatter of teacups, the rustle of newspapers, and the scratch of fountain pens over paper. Then, of course, you had the people within it. 

Kunikida’s schedule beginning precisely on time.

Ranpo arriving whenever he pleased and somehow still insisting he was the first one there.

Yosano’s amused laughter floating across the room after overhearing someone’s particularly ridiculous complaint.

 Kenji’s bright greetings that somehow never failed to sound genuinely excited, no matter how many mornings had passed before this one.

It wasn’t ordinary, not really. It couldn’t be, considering the people who occupied the building. Despite that, it had become ordinary to them, like home.

Kunikida was, unsurprisingly, the first to arrive.

The moment the clock ticked over to eight, the office door swung open with practiced precision, and polished shoes clicked against the wooden floor. He carried a leather briefcase beneath one arm, his notebook already open in his other hand as he quietly reviewed the day’s schedule before he’d even reached his desk. “Meeting with the city council at ten,” he murmured beneath his breath, adjusting his glasses with two fingers. “Client consultation at eleven-thirty. Financial reports before lunch. Dazai’s overdue paperwork…” He stopped, sighed through his nose, and crossed out the final note before rewriting it more accurately.

“Force Dazai to complete overdue paperwork.”

That seemed far more realistic. He settled into his chair with the quiet satisfaction of someone whose world made sense only when everything had its proper place. It lasted exactly three minutes.

The office door burst open so violently that it slammed against the wall. “Kunikida!” Dazai stumbled dramatically into the room with all the elegance of a man who had absolutely no intention of entering normally. One hand clutched his chest while the other reached toward his partner as though begging for salvation. “I’ve discovered something truly horrifying!”

Kunikida didn’t look up. “No.”

“You haven’t even heard what it is.”

“I don’t need to.”

“But—”

“It involves you.”

“…Maybe.”

“It is entirely self-inflicted.”

“…Possibly.”

“And somehow requires me to solve it.”

“…You’re incredibly perceptive.”

Kunikida let out a slow, exhausted sigh before pinching the bridge of his nose. “What.”

Dazai brightened immediately. “The café down the street has discontinued my favorite breakfast special.” 

Silence. 

Kunikida closed his notebook, very carefully, deliberately before reaching for it again, opening to an empty page, and calmly writing something inside.

“What are you writing?” Dazai asked, leaning over with open curiosity.

“‘Reasons murder occasionally feels justified.’”

“Oh.”

“I’ve just added another.”

“That’s harsh.”

“No. Harsh would’ve been throwing you through the window.”

“I knew there was a reason we’re partners.”

“I wasn’t complimenting you.”

“I know.” Despite himself, the corner of Dazai’s mouth curled into a grin that was softer than the exaggerated expressions he usually wore. It was the kind of smile that appeared only for a heartbeat before disappearing beneath another layer of theatrics, easy and unthinking. It was sort of smile that belonged to someone who had stopped watching every word they spoke, someone comfortable.

The office door opened again before Kunikida could continue the argument. “Oh! Good morning!” Kenji stepped inside with the same boundless enthusiasm he seemed to greet every day with, a canvas bag slung over one shoulder. Sunlight caught in his golden hair as he beamed at the room.

“Morning, Kenji,” Kunikida answered.

“Morning!” Dazai replied cheerfully. “Did the cows stage another revolution on your way here?”

“They’re actually doing very well,” Kenji answered with complete sincerity. “One of them had a calf yesterday.”

“Congratulations to the mother.”

“I’ll pass it along!”

“You absolutely don’t need to—”

“I will!” Before anyone could question how exactly Kenji intended to congratulate a cow on Dazai’s behalf, another familiar voice drifted lazily through the doorway. 

“…Someone make coffee.” Ranpo wandered in with all the energy of someone who considered walking from the entrance to his desk sufficient exercise for the day. His detective cape hung loosely over one shoulder, his hat tilted slightly askew, and his eyes remained stubbornly closed as though opening them before sugar entered his bloodstream would constitute an unreasonable burden.

“The coffee’s already brewed,” Kunikida replied.

Ranpo sniffed once. “…Not enough.”

“There is an entire pot.”

“There should be two.” Without waiting for permission, he wandered toward the kitchenette, already rummaging through cabinets for sweets with the confidence of someone who knew exactly where everything was because he’d hidden half of it there himself.

Yosano arrived not long afterward, setting her medical bag beside her desk with practiced ease. “What are we arguing about this morning?”

“Dazai’s breakfast.”

“Again?”

“He believes the universe is conspiring against him.”

“The universe has excellent judgment.”

“I thought doctors were supposed to have compassion.”

“I save lives,” Yosano replied pleasantly. “I don’t indulge nonsense.”

Dazai placed a hand over his heart. “You wound me.”

“No,” she said with a smile that promised exactly the opposite if he kept talking. “Not yet.” Laughter rippled through the office, even Kunikida’s shoulders relaxed by the slightest degree.

Then, almost as if completing the picture, the door eased open once more. Atsushi stepped inside with Kyoka trailing behind him, slightly out of breath from hurrying, an apologetic smile already on his face. “Sorry! The train—”

“—was delayed,” Dazai finished for him dramatically.

“…Actually… yes.”

“I knew it.”

“How?”

“I guessed.”

Atsushi laughed despite himself, rubbing the back of his neck. Somehow, Dazai always managed that. No matter how stressful a mission had been the day before, no matter how exhausted everyone returned after dealing with gifted criminals or paperwork that seemed to multiply overnight, he had an uncanny talent for dissolving tension with a single ridiculous remark. It wasn’t elegance or sophistication, sometimes it wasn’t even particularly funny, but it worked. The room always felt lighter when he was in it. Atsushi had noticed that months ago, perhaps everyone had and without realizing it, they had all begun expecting it.

Expecting Dazai’s chair to be occupied by a man lazily spinning in circles instead of working.

Expecting Kunikida to shout his name at least five times before noon.

Expecting Ranpo to steal his snacks and Dazai to steal them back.

Expecting Yosano to threaten bodily harm while smiling sweetly.

Expecting Kenji to laugh without restraint at jokes that made no sense.

It had become so deeply woven into the fabric of the Agency that none of them stopped to consider it anymore because that was the dangerous thing about happiness. It rarely announced itself. It didn’t arrive with fanfare or fireworks or some unmistakable declaration that this was the moment your life had changed. Instead, it settled quietly into the spaces between ordinary mornings. Into shared cups of coffee, arguments over paperwork, inside jokes that no longer required explanation, the seat someone always occupied, and the footsteps everyone recognized before they reached the door. It became routine, expected, and like home.

And because it became home… No one ever imagined that one morning could be the last time the room would feel complete without knowing it.

Not Dazai, who leaned carelessly against Atsushi’s desk while complaining that Kunikida’s heart had surely petrified years ago.

Not Atsushi, who laughed with genuine ease.

Not Kunikida, who was already preparing another lecture he knew would somehow end in reluctant cooperation.

Not any of them.

None of them noticed that, for the first time in years, fate had already begun counting down the final ordinary morning they would ever spend together. So the warmth that had settled over the Agency lingered long after the laughter died down.

Eventually, conversations drifted into the comfortable background hum of work. Pens scratched steadily across paper. Files traded hands. Somewhere in the kitchenette, the kettle gave a quiet whistle before Yosano absentmindedly poured herself another cup of tea. Outside, Yokohama continued its morning as though the world possessed not a single reason to stop turning. The city breathed beneath clear skies, sunlight glittering across the distant harbor until the sea itself seemed woven from strands of gold.

Inside the Agency, everything was wonderfully, painfully ordinary.

Kunikida had already buried himself beneath several reports, his brow knit together with the familiar concentration that inevitably accompanied paperwork. Every few minutes his pen would halt just long enough for him to glance toward Dazai’s desk, only to discover exactly what he’d expected, nothing. No paperwork or progress. Only Dazai reclining comfortably in his chair, balancing one of Ranpo’s snacks across his nose with such complete seriousness one might have mistaken it for a scientific experiment.

“It has been,” Dazai announced solemnly without opening his eyes, “approximately fourteen minutes since my last break.”

“You haven’t worked.”

“Exactly.”

Kunikida looked up. “…Exactly?”

“How can I recover from labor I haven’t yet performed unless I prepare in advance?”

“Dazai.”

“Yes?”

“I’m going to hit you.”

“Violence in the workplace. Atsushi, write this down.”

Atsushi looked up from the case file he’d been reading, blinking between them. “I… don’t think that’s how—”

“It absolutely is,” Dazai interrupted. “This is discrimination against exceptionally beautiful detectives.”

“There’s only one detective being discriminated against,” Kunikida replied flatly.

“And that’s me.”

“And it’s the paperwork.”

Kenji laughed so hard he nearly spilled the stack of documents he had been carrying, even Yosano smiled into her teacup. Ranpo, meanwhile, hadn’t looked up once from the bag of candies resting in his lap. “They’re flirting again.”

“We are not flirting!” Kunikida barked immediately.

“They always deny it,” Ranpo muttered before popping another piece of candy into his mouth.

Dazai gasped dramatically. “Kunikida, I had no idea you felt that way.”

“I DON’T.”

“Rejected before I even confessed…”

“Dazai!”

The office dissolved into another chorus of laughter. Not loud or overwhelming, just enough to fill the room and make it feel alive. The kind of laughter that echoed off walls that had heard it countless times before. The kind that became part of a place without anyone realizing it. A home was rarely built from grand gestures, it was built from little moments exactly like these. From arguments no one truly meant, shared meals,  teasing remarks repeated so often they became tradition, and from simply knowing that tomorrow morning… Everyone would be here again. The thought never crossed anyone’s mind because it didn’t need to. Tomorrow was assumed. Tomorrow was promised.

Or so they believed.

The sound of footsteps approached from the hallway, measured, steady, recognizable. Conversation gradually softened before disappearing altogether as the office door opened. Fukuzawa stepped inside and immediately, the atmosphere shifted. Not into fear, but into respect. The president’s presence had always possessed a certain quiet gravity to it. He didn’t need to raise his voice or command attention; attention simply found him. Even Dazai, whose talent for disregarding authority bordered on artistic, sat up a little straighter.

“There will be an emergency meeting,” Fukuzawa said. His voice was calm as ever. “If everyone would join me in the conference room.”

A few puzzled glances were exchanged. Emergency meeting? No one remembered hearing about a new case. There hadn’t been reports of gifted terrorism overnight or hostage situations or requests from the government. Nothing that seemed particularly unusual.

Kunikida closed his notebook. “…Did something happen?”

“There has been communication from the Port Mafia.”

The room grew noticeably quieter, not silent, just careful. The Port Mafia was not a name spoken lightly. Even years after the Guild, Cannibalism, Decay of the Angel—after every catastrophe Yokohama had endured—the balance between the Agency and the Mafia remained delicate. Necessary and dangerously so.

Fukuzawa gave nothing else away. “Please.” One by one, everyone stood. Chairs slid quietly across wooden floors, files were closed, pens set aside, and conversations abandoned midway through sentences. The familiar bustle of the office faded behind them as they crossed into the conference room, taking their usual seats around the long wooden table polished smooth by years of meetings much like this one. Only… This one wasn’t, not really.

Dazai settled into his chair with his usual relaxed posture, one arm draped lazily over the backrest. “You know,” he mused, “if this turns out to be another lecture about inter-organizational cooperation, I may perish from boredom.”

“You’ll survive,” Yosano replied.

“What confidence.”

“You’ve survived far worse.”

A flicker of something unreadable crossed Dazai’s face so quickly no one noticed, then it vanished beneath another easy smile. “I’m touched.”

Fukuzawa remained standing at the head of the table. His hands rested lightly against the polished wood before him. He looked at each of them in turn.

Kunikida.

Ranpo.

Yosano.

Kenji.

Atsushi.

Tanizaki.

Naomi.

Kyouka.

Finally… Dazai.

There was an unusual stillness about him, not uncertainty Fukuzawa was not a man who hesitated, but there was… Weight. As though each word had been measured long before he intended to speak it. “I received formal notice this morning.” No one interrupted. “The protection condition between the Armed Detective Agency and the Port Mafia has been invoked.”

For a heartbeat nothing happened. The words hung in the air, understood individually but refusing to assemble into meaning. Then Atsushi frowned. “…The agreement?”

Kunikida’s expression changed first, his eyes widening almost imperceptibly. “No…” He whispered it more to himself than anyone else. “No…” The color slowly drained from his face.

Yosano’s smile disappeared.

Ranpo opened his eyes completely.

The room became impossibly still. A silence so complete that even the sounds of Yokohama outside seemed to disappear. Everyone knew the agreement. Everyone. It had been established during the terrorism with the Decay of Angels. Protection. A deal made when the Armed Detective Agency was being framed with the condition of a transfer as a thank you. An agreement spoken of so rarely that it had almost become folklore.

Almost.

Because no one had ever expected it to actually be used. “…President,” Atsushi said carefully, “why now?”

“The Port Mafia’s Boss has simply seen it to be the right time.” Fukuzawa answered without embellishment. “They have exercised their right.” Another silence, longer this time, as though the room itself had stopped breathing.

Kunikida found his voice first. “…Who?” Just one word, barely audible.

Fukuzawa closed his eyes for the briefest moment, not out of reluctance, but out of respect. Then he spoke. “The Port Mafia’s boss…” His gaze settled, quietly and inevitably, upon the man sitting halfway down the table. “…has chosen Osamu Dazai.”

No one moved. It was astonishing how a single sentence could empty a room. 

The sunlight still poured through the windows exactly as it had moments ago, warm against the polished floorboards, catching in the untouched teacups and stacks of paperwork left behind on desks outside. Nothing in the world had changed and yet… Everything had.

Atsushi stared blankly across the table. His lips parted, but no sound came out.

Kunikida’s notebook slipped from his fingers. It struck the floor with a dull, echoing thud. No one bent to pick it up or even looked at it, because every pair of eyes had already found Dazai, waiting for him to laugh. To grin. To announce that this was an elaborate prank. To say he’d somehow orchestrated the whole thing simply to watch Kunikida panic. Anything.

Please…

Anything.

But Dazai didn’t laugh, he didn’t speak. For the first time that morning, the smile left his face completely, not dramatically or all at once. It simply… Faded, as if someone had quietly blown out a candle and in that tiny, almost imperceptible moment—before a single protest was voiced—before anyone demanded there had to be another way and the room erupted—Dazai lowered his eyes to his folded hands. His expression was unreadable, yet, somewhere, buried so deeply that perhaps only he could feel it… A single thought echoed with quiet, unbearable clarity.

So… this is how it ends. I was almost there.

For several endless heartbeats after Fukuzawa spoke, the conference room seemed to forget how to breathe. No one moved or spoke. Even the city beyond the windows—the gulls circling the harbor, the distant rumble of passing trains, the life that continued so carelessly outside—felt impossibly far away, muffled behind a silence so complete it bordered on unreal. It was astonishing how loud silence could become. The words remained suspended in the room, refusing to disappear.

“The Port Mafia’s boss… has chosen Osamu Dazai.”

Chosen. Such a simple word. It sounded almost gentle. As though Mori had selected a name from a list or he had picked a flower from a garden.

Not a person.

Not a detective.

Not a friend.

Not someone who had spent four years painstakingly rebuilding a life from the ruins of another.

Just… Chosen.

Atsushi stared across the table, his eyes fixed entirely upon Dazai. He waited because surely… Surely Dazai would laugh, he always laughed. He would tilt his head, smile that impossible smile, and announce that this had all been an elaborate misunderstanding or perhaps he’d complain dramatically that Mori had terrible taste.

Anything.

Any joke.

Any grin.

Anything that sounded like Dazai.

But the man sitting across from him remained perfectly still, not frozen, just quiet. His hands rested loosely together atop the polished table. His shoulders hadn’t tensed and his breathing hadn’t quickened. If someone unfamiliar with him had walked into the room at that exact moment, they might have mistaken him for the calmest person present. Only the people who knew him best could see it. The smile was gone, not replaced, gone.

And somehow… That frightened Atsushi more than anything else. “…No.” The word escaped him before he realized he’d spoken. His voice sounded strangely small inside the room. “No.” He swallowed. “There has to be some mistake.”

Fukuzawa met his gaze. “There is no mistake.”

“But…” Atsushi looked desperately between everyone gathered around the table, as though someone else would explain it. Someone older, someone wiser.

Kunikida.

Yosano.

Ranpo.

Anyone.

Instead he found the same disbelief reflected back at him. “…They can’t just…” His voice cracked beneath the strain. “They can’t just take him.”

“He isn’t an object,” Yosano said quietly. There was no amusement left in her voice, none. “They can’t just decide—”

“They can.” The interruption came from Fukuzawa. Measured, calm, and unyielding. “The agreement permits exactly that.”

Kunikida’s chair scraped violently across the floor as he stood, the sound shattered the silence like breaking glass. “No.” His voice was sharper than anyone had heard in months. “No.” He placed both hands against the table so forcefully the wood groaned beneath the impact. “We are not honoring it.”

“Kunikida—”

“We are not handing one of our own to the Mafia.” Each word struck the room harder than the last. “They can threaten legal action or political consequences or war, I don’t care.” His composure—the composure he protected with almost obsessive discipline—had cracked cleanly down the middle. “They’re asking us to surrender one of our detectives.” His jaw clenched. “They don’t get to.”

Fukuzawa regarded him steadily. “The agreement exists because both organizations accepted these terms.”

“I know why it exists!” Kunikida almost never raised his voice at Fukuzawa, but today… He did. “I know exactly why it exists.”

“Then you understand,” Fukuzawa replied, “It was the only way to keep ourselves afloat while going against the Decay of Angels.”

“I don’t care!” The words echoed through the conference room. “I don’t care!” For the first time in years… Kunikida abandoned logic, Abandoned procedure, Abandoned ideals. “They can’t have him.” The sentence lingered in the air. Not an agent, not our member, not our detective, him.

Yosano closed her eyes.

Kenji stared down at his hands.

Tanizaki looked as though he’d forgotten how to speak.

Only one person remained unnaturally still. Ranpo. He hadn’t said a word or shifted in his chair or reached for the candies that still sat untouched beside his elbow. His posture was rigid, perfectly straight. His hands rested in his lap with unusual precision. His eyes—Open, wide awake and watching nothing yet watching everything.

Yosano noticed first. “…Ranpo.” No response. She frowned. “You knew.” Not a question, a statement.

Ranpo remained silent. Slowly… very slowly… He lowered his gaze toward the polished tabletop. “I figured it out.” His voice sounded strangely distant, quiet enough that everyone unconsciously leaned closer. “When the President said the Mafia invoked the agreement.” Another pause. “There was only one person Mori would ask for.” No one argued because they knew, of course they knew. Who else could Mori possibly choose?

His youngest executive. The prodigy he had personally raised. The one person who understood the Mafia’s inner workings better than anyone alive outside of it. The one person Mori had once called his right hand. There had never been another possibility.

Ranpo had simply reached the conclusion before anyone else. “…I kept hoping,” he admitted softly, the confession sounded almost foreign coming from him. “I hoped I’d overlooked something, but my deductions aren’t wrong, they’re just…” His fingers tightened slightly against his sleeve. “…Sometimes I wish they were.” Silence returned, different now, heavier.

Atsushi looked toward Dazai again. Still… Nothing. “Dazai.” No answer. “Dazai!”

Finally, Dazai blinked, almost as though he’d forgotten everyone else occupied the room. “Hm?”

“…Say something.”

A weak laugh escaped him. “What would you like me to say?”

“Tell them no!” Atsushi was standing now too, his chair toppling backward behind him unnoticed. “Tell them you won’t go!”

Dazai’s smile returned, small and gentle, almost apologetic. “It isn’t really up to me.”

“Then we’ll make it up to us!” Atsushi’s breathing had become uneven. “We’ll refuse and fight them if we have to! Dazai, we can’t just—”

“Atsushi.” Dazai interrupted him so softly it hardly sounded like an interruption at all. “It’s alright.”

“No, it isn’t!”

“It’ll be alright.”

“No!” The word tore itself from Atsushi’s throat before he could stop it. “It won’t!” His voice trembled. “They’ll make you go back.” He couldn’t continue because the image alone was unbearable. Dazai sitting in the Mafia’s office, a clone of how people believed Mori to be when Dazai had spent years trying to escaping. “…You promised,” Atsushi whispered.

Dazai looked up. “…What?”

“You promised…” Atsushi’s eyes had begun to shine. “You promised you’d help me.”

Dazai stared at him for a long moment. Then he smile, the same smile that was warm and heartbreakingly tired. “I know.”

There was no defense, no excuse, no reassurance. Just those two words.

I know.

Because he remembered. Every promise, every ridiculous conversation, every mission, and every morning he remembered all of it. Which only made this hurt more.

Kunikida suddenly rounded the table. In three long strides he stood directly in front of Dazai. “Look at me.” Dazai obeyed. “What are you doing?”

“…Sitting?”

“Stop joking.” The room fell quiet again. “What. Are. You. Doing.”

Dazai held his gaze, waiting patiently as Kunikida searched his face for something. Anything. Fear, anger, resistance, some sign that he intended to fight. Instead… Nothing, just quiet acceptance and somehow that made Kunikida angrier than if Dazai had laughed. “…Fight.” His voice had become almost desperate. “Dazai, fight this.”

The smile softened. “I can’t.”

“You haven’t even tried.”

“I don’t need to.”

“You don’t—”

“I already know.” Dazai’s eyes drifted briefly toward the window where sunlight still spilled across the floor outside. “The agreement exists, Mori invoked it and the President can’t refuse.” His tone remained conversational, matter-of-fact as if he was discussing tomorrow’s weather. “It’s over.”

“No.” Kunikida’s answer came instantly. “No, you’re being infuriatingly logical.”

“I learned from the best.”

“Damn you.”

A faint laugh escaped Dazai. Real this time, tiny and barely there. “I’m sure you’ve said that before.”

“I have, but it wasn’t supposed to apply here.” Kunikida’s fists tightened. “You spent two years becoming one of us, two years learning how to save people instead of killing them, two years…” His voice faltered. “…building a life.” The room became painfully quiet. Kunikida looked at him with an expression Dazai had almost never seen directed at himself. Not irritation or  exasperation or even anger. It was grief, raw, immediate, and completely powerless. “…You finally made it here.”

Dazai lowered his eyes. For the smallest fraction of a second—Something flickered across his face. Gone almost before it appeared, but everyone saw it. A crack, tiny and completely invisible to anyone who didn’t know him. There… Then gone. When he spoke again, his voice remained as gentle as ever. “…I know.” And somehow those two words hurt more than tears ever could. Because they carried the quiet resignation of someone who had never truly believed this life belonged to him forever. As though somewhere, buried beneath every laugh, every ridiculous joke, every lazy afternoon spent annoying Kunikida…

There had always lived a frightened eighteen-year-old boy who remembered Mori’s voice. Who remembered blood on black gloves. Who remembered holding Odasaku, who was dying in his arms, and choosing the light. And who had secretly believed, every day since then that one day the darkness would come to collect what it had lost.

No one noticed the exact moment Dazai decided to stand. Perhaps because the room had become so consumed by its own grief that movement itself seemed impossible or perhaps because no one truly believed he would. The legs of his chair whispered softly against the floor as he rose. It was such a small sound, emwood against polished wood. Quiet enough that, on any other morning, it would have disappeared beneath conversation. Now it echoed. Every head turned instinctively toward him and for a moment, Dazai simply stood there. His hands remained tucked comfortably into the pockets of his sand-colored coat, shoulders relaxed beneath the familiar fabric that had become as much a part of him as the bandages wrapped around his arms. His gaze drifted around the conference room, lingering on each face for only a heartbeat at a time.

Atsushi, still standing where he’d pushed back his chair, his breathing uneven.

Kunikida, rigid and his fists still clenched so tightly the knuckles had lost all color.

Yosano, watching him with an expression she usually reserved for patients whose injuries she couldn’t heal.

Kenji, looking utterly lost.

Tanizaki, speechless.

Kyouka, quietly staring at the tabletop, her fingers twisting together beneath it.

Ranpo, perfectly still and the candies beside him remained unopened, that alone felt wrong.

Dazai offered them all the same small, familiar smile. Not bright or forced, simply… gentle. “I should probably start packing.” The sentence settled over the room with unbearable softness. Nobody answered, no one could, because those five words carried a terrible implication. He wasn’t planning to fight or waiting or hoping someone would stop him because he already accepted that he was leaving.

“…No.” Atsushi shook his head immediately. “Dazai—”

“I don’t really own very much,” Dazai continued lightly, almost apologetically, as though discussing something as trivial as reorganizing his apartment. “It shouldn’t take long.”

“No.” Atsushi’s voice broke. “You can’t—”

“I’ve accumulated more paperwork than possessions.” The joke landed in complete silence. Dazai laughed once, a tiny, embarrassed sound. “…Ah, too soon.” No one smiled and for the first time in years one of Dazai’s jokes failed completely. Something inside the room seemed to fracture and, without another word, Dazai stepped away from the conference table. His footsteps were unhurried and measured, ach one impossibly calm.

He reached the doorway before Kunikida finally found his voice. “…Dazai.” He stopped, but didn’t turn around. Kunikida swallowed. “…Where are you going?”

“…To my desk.” The answer came quietly. “I should clean it out before someone else needs the space.” Someone else. As though there would be another detective sitting there, like his chair already belonged to someone new and he had already erased himself.

“No.” Kunikida took one step forward, then another. “You are not cleaning out your desk.”

Dazai tilted his head ever so slightly. “…Why not?”

“Because.” The words caught in Kunikida’s throat. Because what?

Because I don’t want you to.

Because if you pack your desk this becomes real.

Because if your things disappear, then tomorrow morning there will be an empty chair where you’ve always been.

Because I cannot watch that happen.

He couldn’t say any of it. So instead, “…Because we’re not finished discussing this.”

Dazai smiled without looking back. “I think we are.” Then he continued walking. No one tried to physically stop him, not because they didn’t want to, but none of them knew how. It felt wrong, like trying to stop the tide with bare hands.

The office beyond the conference room looked exactly as it had twenty minutes earlier. Sunlight still spilled across the wooden floor. The kettle remained on the counter, forgotten after Yosano’s tea. Stacks of case files waited patiently upon desks. Someone’s jacket hung over the back of a chair. It was like the world had refused to acknowledge what had happened. It looked…

Normal.

Painfully and cruelly normal.

Dazai walked slowly toward his desk. Each familiar object greeted him as though nothing had changed. Kunikida’s meticulously organized workspace. Ranpo’s scattered candy wrappers. Kenji’s neatly stacked reports. Atsushi’s notebook, left open where he’d abandoned it. His own chair, his own desk. He stopped in front of it. For just a moment, his fingertips brushed lightly across the worn wooden edge. There were tiny scratches near one corner and he recognized them immediately.

Months ago, he’d absentmindedly carved into the surface with a paperclip while Kunikida spent nearly an hour lecturing him about budget reports. Kunikida had been furious and insisted Dazai would pay for damages, but he never had. Dazai smiled to himself. “…I forgot about these.” He whispered it so quietly no one was certain they’d heard him.

The others had followed him into the office without realizing it. No one resumed work or returned to their desks. Instead they simply… Watched.

Dazai opened the top drawer. Inside rested exactly what one would expect from him. Loose bandages, a handful of pens that definitely belonged to someone else, several notebooks, chipped ceramic mug-

The sight of it made him pause.

“…Oh.”

His fingers curled gently around the handle before lifting it from the drawer. It wasn’t anything special. White ceramic with a tiny crack running along one side and the painted letters had begun fading long ago.

World’s Most Difficult Coworker.

He laughed, a real laugh this time, soft and warm.. “…I forgot I still had this.”

Atsushi blinked. “You still use that?”

“Mhm.”

“I thought Kunikida-san threw it away.”

“He tried.”

Kunikida looked away. “…You kept fishing it out of the trash.”

“It was a gift.”

“It was a punishment.”

“Same thing, really.” Silence followed. Dazai traced one thumb along the chipped rim. He remembered Kunikida had given it to him after an especially catastrophic month of missed paperwork. He’d claimed it was to “appropriately label office hazards.” Dazai had laughed so hard he’d nearly dropped it. After that… He’d used it every morning not because the mug was particularly nice, but because someone had thought to buy it for him.

It occurred to him then, a realization so quiet it almost escaped unnoticed, he had things here. Not equipment or files, actual things.

A mug.

Books.

An extra blanket folded beneath the desk for afternoons spent pretending to nap.

A spare tie he’d forgotten existed.

Several detective novels Ranpo had insisted he read.

A little cactus Kenji had brought in one spring because, according to him, “everyone deserves something green.” It sat by the window, still alive. Dazai stared at it. “…When did you get so big?”

Kenji smiled weakly. “You remembered to water it.”

“…Did I?”

“Sometimes.”

“…That explains it.” He reached down, lifting the tiny pot with surprising care. It fit comfortably in both hands. Ridiculously small and utterly insignificant, yet somehow he couldn’t immediately bring himself to place it into the cardboard box he’d found beneath his desk. Because doing so meant admitting it belonged to him.

Belonged.

The word caught somewhere deep inside his chest. When had that happened? When had this desk stopped being merely a place he occupied? When had these drawers filled with little pieces of a life? When had he started leaving spare clothes in the cabinet because he assumed he’d need them next week? When had he stopped carrying everything with him? When had he unpacked?

The realization settled over him with crushing gentleness. He hadn’t meant to, never remembered deciding that the Agency was temporary or permanent. He had simply stayed.

One morning had become another.

One mission had become another.

One joke.

One argument.

One cup of coffee.

Until, somewhere along the way, without ever consciously choosing it, he had made himself at home. The box in front of him suddenly seemed much too small, not because his belongings wouldn’t fit, but because his life wouldn’t.

How did one pack two years? How did one fold shared laughter into cardboard? How did one box away mornings spent listening to Kunikida complain or afternoons teasing Atsushi through paperwork? Evenings where nobody wanted to go home quite yet, so they simply remained together in companionable silence while the sun disappeared beyond Yokohama’s skyline?

There wasn’t enough room.

There never could be.

Slowly, very slowly, Dazai placed the little cactus into the box. Then the mug. Then the books. Each item disappeared beneath the cardboard lip with a dull, final sound. One after another until everyone in the room realized they weren’t watching a man pack his desk. They were watching him dismantle the quiet little life he had built without ever believing he was allowed to call it his own and somehow, that hurt far more than any tears could have.

The last thing left inside the drawer was so small that he almost overlooked it. Tucked all the way into the back corner, half-hidden beneath years’ worth of forgotten receipts and folded documents, rested a single fountain pen.

It wasn’t particularly expensive.

The lacquer along the barrel had begun to wear away where countless fingers had held it, revealing darker wood beneath. One side carried a shallow nick from where it had once been dropped against the edge of a desk. The cap no longer clicked into place quite as neatly as it once had.

Dazai stared at it for several long moments before reaching inside the drawer. “…Right.” His fingers curled around it with remarkable care. “I wondered where this disappeared.” No one answered not because they weren’t listening, but because they had all gradually realized that every object Dazai touched seemed to carry a story they had never known existed. The pen rolled once between his fingers. He remembered buying it during his first winter at the Agency after Kunikida had complained for nearly an hour that borrowing everyone else’s pens was “a logistical nightmare.” So Dazai had bought his own only to proceed to lose it less than a week later, or so he’d believed.

Apparently it had simply wandered into the back of the drawer and remained there, patiently waiting to be found on the worst day imaginable. “…How inconsiderate of you,” he murmured to the pen with a tiny smile. “You could’ve reappeared sooner.” The smile lingered only a heartbeat before fading again. He placed the pen carefully into the box. Then…

Nothing.

The drawer sat open before him, empty. His hand remained resting against the worn wood as though he expected one final forgotten belonging to reveal itself. It didn’t. There was nothing left.

No loose papers.

No forgotten bandages.

No books.

No coffee stains hidden beneath clutter.

Nothing.

Just smooth wood stretching toward the back of the drawer. Clean and vacant. Dazai slowly pushed it shut and the soft thunk echoed through the office. It shouldn’t have sounded so final, yet somehow it did. He rested both palms lightly against the edge of the desk and allowed himself one slow look around.

Morning sunlight still reached through the windows, though it had shifted across the room since he’d begun packing. Dust floated lazily through the golden light, drifting without purpose. Somewhere outside, a car horn sounded before disappearing into the city’s constant rhythm. Life continued completely indifferent. 

The chair beside his desk remained slightly crooked from where Kunikida had kicked it days earlier while chasing him around the office over a missing report.

Atsushi’s notebook still lay open several desks away.

Ranpo’s empty candy wrappers remained scattered exactly where Kunikida had repeatedly insisted they shouldn’t be.

Nothing had changed.

Everything had changed.

His own desk looked… Wrong. There was no evidence that anyone had ever occupied the space. It looked exactly as it had the morning before he joined the Agency as though two years had quietly erased themselves. “…Empty already?” The words escaped him before he realized he’d spoken aloud. He tilted his head. “…It always looked bigger than this.” No one laughed.

Kunikida had been standing only a few steps away for nearly the entire time. He hadn’t interrupted once or attempted another argument.

What argument remained?

Watching Dazai strip away the ordinary pieces of his life had done something words never could. It had forced reality upon all of them. Kunikida found himself staring at the bare surface of the desk. For years… He’d complained endlessly about the mess. The scattered papers. The abandoned coffee cups. The impossible clutter. Now he would have given anything to see it exactly as it had been yesterday. “…You forgot something.” His voice sounded rough.

Dazai blinked before following Kunikida’s gaze and spotted that crookedly beneath the corner of the desk was a tiny square of paper. He crouched and carefully peeled it free. It was yellow with age and the adhesive had almost completely given up. Across the front, written in unmistakably sharp handwriting, were four words.

DO YOUR PAPERWORK, IDIOT.

Dazai stared. Then, to everyone’s surprise, he laughed. Not loudly or dramatically, just warm. “…You really thought this would work?”

Kunikida rubbed the back of his neck. “…I forgot that was there.”

“You hid motivational notes beneath my desk?”

“They weren’t motivational.”

“They’re quite touching.”

“They were meant to irritate you.”

“They did.”

“…Good.”

Silence settled again, different now, almost gentler. Dazai folded the note once, then again and instead of throwing it away, he slipped it carefully into the inside pocket of his coat.

Kunikida noticed. He wished he hadn’t because somehow that hurt. The stupid note had been meant as a joke yet Dazai had chosen to keep it. As if even that tiny scrap of paper had become something worth taking with him. 

Dazai reached down and lifted the cardboard box. It wasn’t heavy, at least not physically. He adjusted it comfortably against one arm before turning toward Fukuzawa. “…President.” Fukuzawa met his gaze. “I’d like permission to head off for now.”

“You may.”

“I’ll return to clean my apartment.” A pause. Then, quietly, “I have somewhere I need to go.”

Fukuzawa inclined his head once. “…Take all the time you require.”

Dazai smiled. “Thank you.” He started toward the door.

Halfway there, Atsushi stepped into his path. Not intentionally, just feet simply… Moved. As if his body refused to let Dazai walk past without saying something, anything. “Dazai…” The words refused to come. What did one say to someone who had just lost everything?

Good luck?

I’m sorry?

Don’t go?

Each felt impossibly inadequate.

Dazai spared him. “I’ll be back.”

Atsushi looked up immediately. “…Really?”

“For a little while.” The clarification came so gently it almost broke him. “I just need to make a few stops.” He reached out almost absentmindedly and ruffled Atsushi’s hair exactly like he had countless times before. The familiar gesture nearly undid the younger detective. “Don’t make that face.”

“…What face?”

“The one that says you’ve forgotten to eat.”

“…That’s not—”

“It absolutely is.” Despite everything, despite the crushing grief hanging over every corner of the room, Atsushi let out one weak, watery laugh. Dazai smiled. “There you are.” Then he stepped around him. 

No one followed. They watched instead as he crossed the office one final time carrying nothing more than a cardboard box filled with ordinary belongings. The afternoon sunlight wrapped around him as he descended the Agency stairs. Outside, Yokohama greeted him with startling normalcy. The sidewalks bustled with office workers carrying briefcases. Children laughed somewhere across the street. A bicycle bell chimed cheerfully as someone wove through pedestrians. The smell of fresh bread drifted from a nearby bakery.

Life.

Everywhere.

So ordinary that it almost felt cruel.

Dazai walked without hurry. The box rested securely beneath one arm while the other remained tucked into his pocket. 

Eventually he stopped outside a small flower shop. Fresh blooms spilled from wooden buckets arranged along the entrance; Hydrangeas, lilies, chrysanthemums, and roses. The elderly owner looked up as the bell above the door chimed. “Looking for someone special?”

Dazai’s eyes wandered slowly over the flowers. “…Yes.” The answer came almost immediately. “I always am.” He chose white lilies, simple and quiet. He thanked the florist, balancing the wrapped bouquet atop the box before continuing on.

The streets gradually grew quieter. Concrete gave way to narrower roads lined with old stone walls. The city’s noise softened into birdsong carried on the breeze. The cemetery appeared just beyond a row of ancient trees whose branches whispered gently overhead.

Dazai paused at the entrance.

He had walked this path so many times over the years that he no longer needed to think about where he was going. His feet remembered. Past weathered headstones. Past carefully tended gardens. Past names worn smooth by time. Until finally… He stopped.

There it was.

The same modest gravestone in the same quiet corner. The same place where, years ago, a grieving eighteen-year-old had stood with no idea how to fulfill the dying wish entrusted to him. Slowly, Dazai set the cardboard box down beside the stone, the  the flowers.

For a long while he simply looked. The breeze stirred the leaves overhead. Somewhere nearby, a wind chime rang once before falling silent again. His reflection wavered faintly in the polished stone. Older now, tired around the eyes, but still wearing the same bandages and carrying too many ghosts.

He knelt and carefully arranged the fresh lilies then brushed a few stray leaves away from the base of the grave with absent tenderness. Only then did he finally speak. 

“…It’s been a while.” His voice carried no performance, no exaggerated cheerfulness or playful complaints, just quiet honesty. “I kept meaning to visit sooner.” A faint smile touched his lips. “You know how work gets.” The smile lingered, but then slowly it faltered. His gaze dropped to his folded hands. “…I think…” He inhaled once. The words suddenly felt much heavier than they had only moments before.

“…I think I finally understand why people come back to talk to the dead.” The breeze answered in gentle silence. “Because…” His fingers tightened ever so slightly against one another. “…Sometimes they’re the only ones you don’t have to pretend in front of.” And for the first time since Fukuzawa had spoken Mori’s choice aloud, Dazai let the silence remain exactly as it was.

He didn’t rush to fill it with a joke.

He didn’t smile.

He simply knelt before the one person whose opinion had changed the course of his life, trying to gather the courage to say the words he had hoped he would never have to speak. So for a long time, Dazai said nothing more. The cemetery had never demanded conversation from those who visited it, it just accepted silence just as readily as words. Perhaps that was why he found himself returning here so often over the years.

The dead never interrupted.

They never offered empty reassurances.

They never told him everything would work out.

They simply…

Listened.

The breeze stirred the lilies he had just arranged, their white petals shifting almost lazily beneath the afternoon sun. Somewhere in the branches overhead, leaves whispered against one another with the gentle familiarity of old friends exchanging quiet conversation. The city felt impossibly distant here. Yokohama still existed beyond the stone walls of the cemetery, still bustled with hurried footsteps and crowded streets and impatient traffic lights, but none of it reached this corner. Here, time seemed willing to slow down.

Dazai lowered himself until he was sitting rather than kneeling, crossing one leg beneath the other with absent ease. The cardboard box rested beside him, close enough that the corner brushed against the sleeve of his coat. His belongings, his whole life at the Agency reduced to a single box. He glanced at it briefly before looking back toward the weathered stone.

“You know…” His voice was softer now. “I used to think talking to gravestones was a little strange.” A tiny smile ghosted across his face. “I suppose that’s rather hypocritical considering how much I talk to myself.” The joke lingered in the air for a moment then faded naturally. He didn’t force another, he simply didn’t feel the need to. “I visited after difficult cases.” He rested one arm loosely across his knee. “After anniversaries or when I wasn’t sure what to do.” A quiet breath escaped him. “I never really expected answers.” His fingertips traced absent circles through the grass. “I think…” He paused. “…I just wanted someone who already knew who I used to be.”

The admission settled between the rows of gravestones with surprising gentleness. No shame or bitterness, just truth. “The people at the Agency know about my past, that I worked for the Mafia, and that I was an executive. They know I’ve done terrible things.” Another pause. “But…” His eyes lowered. “They don’t know him.” The word slipped out before he could stop it.

Him.

The fourteen-year-old boy who had looked at corpses with empty eyes. Who had believed life possessed no value, including his own. Who had stood beside Mori without asking questions because questions implied caring about the answers. “They know stories, but they don’t know who I truly was.” His voice had become so quiet that the wind nearly carried it away.

“You did.” The corner of his mouth lifted faintly. “You knew everything.” “The worst parts. The ugly parts. The parts I still don’t like remembering. And yet…” He laughed once beneath his breath. “…You still bought me curry.” His gaze drifted toward the sky peeking through the trees. “It still doesn’t make any sense. You looked at someone who probably wasn’t worth saving… and decided to try anyway.”

The silence that followed no longer felt empty. It felt… Companionable. As though Odasaku’s absence had somehow become another form of presence over the years. Dazai reached into the pocket of his coat, his fingers brushed against folded paper. He drew it free, the little yellow note.

DO YOUR PAPERWORK, IDIOT.

He looked at it for a long time before giving a quiet huff of laughter. “…You would’ve liked Kunikida.” The words escaped with startling certainty. “He takes everything too seriously, gets angry over the smallest things, and carries around ideals so heavy I’m surprised he hasn’t collapsed himself.” Another smile. “He lectures me constantly… him and Ango would’ve gotten along during our bar hangouts.” His thumb smoothed the folded edge of the note. “I don’t tell him that, it would embarrass him.”

His gaze wandered toward the box again. “I met a lot of people… Atsushi is the orphan I ended up saving.” His expression softened immediately. “He’s kind, so unbearably kind. He worries about everyone, usually me.” A fond sigh escaped him. “I tease him too much and he always believes me. I probably shouldn’t encourage that.” His smile widened just enough to be noticed. “He’s becoming a remarkable detective. I think…” His voice became thoughtful. “…I think you’d be proud of him too.”

Then…

“Kenji. He sees good in absolutely everyone, I still don’t understand how.”

“Yosano frightens me.”

“Ranpo frightens everyone.”

Another tiny laugh. “But…” The smile slowly weakened. “They became…” He searched for the word. Not coworkers or allies or companions… None of them were enough. “…Important.” The simplicity of the word somehow made it heavier. “I didn’t notice when it happened. It wasn’t all at once, it just… Happened.” His eyes lingered on the box again. “I started leaving books at the office, then spare clothes, then tea, then…” He looked down at his own hands. “…I stopped bringing everything home.” The realization still felt strange even saying it aloud. “I unpacked.” The breeze shifted and one of the lilies trembled gently. “I don’t remember deciding to, but I think…” He smiled sadly. “I just forgot I was supposed to leave.” The words escaped almost as a whisper.

There it was, the truth that had been sitting inside him all afternoon. Not spoken in the conference room or while cleaning his desk, only here and now. “I forgot.” His fingers curled lightly around the folded note. “I forgot that borrowed things eventually have be returned.” His throat tightened slightly. “I forgot because they let me stay. They argued with me and they laughed with me and they trusted me and they…” His voice caught, not enough to break but just enough to pause. “…They treated me like I belonged there.”

A long silence followed. Long enough for the breeze to carry the scent of lilies between the rows of graves and long enough for Dazai to gather the next sentence. “When you asked me to save people…” He looked directly at the stone. “I didn’t think I could, I thought you were asking the impossible. I didn’t understand because I thought saving people meant somehow becoming a good person.” He shook his head faintly. “I don’t think that’s what you meant anymore. I think…” Another breath. “You wanted me to keep choosing. One person, then another, and another, until one day…” He smiled. “…I looked around and realized I wasn’t alone anymore.”

His eyes stung, not with tears, but with memory. “I did it.” The words were almost impossibly quiet. “I really did. I saved people, I solved cases, and I protected strangers, I watched Atsushi become stronger. I annoyed Kunikida. I lost arguments with Ranpo. I got yelled at by Yosano. I drank terrible coffee and I complained about paperwork. I…” His voice trembled for the first time. “…I lived.”

A single leaf drifted lazily from the branches above, landing soundlessly in the grass between him and the grave. Dazai watched it settle then smiled, not because he was happy, but because the memory hurt too much to do anything else. “I kept your promise.” There was no pride in the statement, no expectation of praise, only relief. “I really tried, I don’t know if I became a good man. Hell, I still don’t know what that looks like, but I tried. I tried every day.”

His fingers loosened around the folded note. “I thought…” The sentence refused to come easily, he swallowed thickly. “I thought maybe…” He looked down at the cardboard box. “…Maybe this was what life was supposed to feel like.” The words were almost inaudible. “Waking up and going to work to listen to Kunikida yell and watch Atsushi worry. Sharing lunch and coming home tired. I thought…" His smile became impossibly small. “…Maybe I’d finally learned how to live in the world you wanted me to see.”

The cemetery remained silent. The silence didn’t comfort him, it never had, but it allowed him to continue. “I don’t resent them.” His gaze drifted toward the city beyond the trees. “Not the President or the Agency. They don’t have a choice or say in the matter. And…” A tired breath escaped him. “I’m doing what I have to do..” 

His eyes closed briefly. “When Mori chose me… I wasn’t surprised.” That was perhaps the saddest truth of all. “I think…” He opened his eyes again. “…Part of me has been expecting this ever since I walked out of the Mafia.” His smile had vanished. “I just…” Another pause, another breath. “…Forgot to keep expecting it.” The confession hung in the quiet air. He had forgotten because somewhere between shared cups of coffee, ridiculous arguments over paperwork, afternoons spent laughing in the Agency office, and ordinary mornings that had slowly become precious without anyone noticing… He had allowed himself the smallest, most dangerous hope.

Not that he deserved happiness.

Not even that he had been redeemed.

Only that perhaps, just perhaps, he had finally found somewhere he could remain. 

He bowed his head then—not in defeat, but in gratitude. “Thank you.” The words were simple. “For asking me, for believing I could, and for giving me a direction when I didn’t have one.” He stood slowly, brushing the grass from his coat before taking one last look at the lilies resting peacefully before the stone. His hand hovered for a brief moment over the weathered marker, fingertips barely grazing the cool surface. “I’ll keep choosing the side that saves people,” he murmured. “No matter where they send me.”

It was not a promise born from certainty, it was a promise born from love.

Then, after a long moment, he picked up the cardboard box once more. He lingered only long enough to let his eyes rest on the gravestone one final time before turning toward the path back to Yokohama. Back toward the city, back toward the darkness that had finally come to collect what it had once lost and away from the life that had been taken from him.

After that everything blurred together. The city passed around him in disconnected fragments, slipping through his awareness like water through open hands. A crosswalk signal changing from red to green. The muted rumble of a train somewhere overhead. Someone laughing outside a convenience store. The scent of roasted coffee drifting from a café where people sat beside broad windows, talking about ordinary things with ordinary smiles. None of it settled in his memory. 

His feet simply continued forward. One step. Then another. Then another. He had walked these streets thousands of times. Once as a Mafia executive whose very presence caused pedestrians to instinctively step aside and then later as a detective who lingered outside bakeries to annoy Kunikida into buying lunch.

The city hadn’t changed, he had. Or perhaps he finally noticed the difference because he was walking the route backwards. The roads became narrower, the storefronts fewer and modern glass surrendered to older brick. Security cameras appeared more frequently and the people changed too. Fewer office workers, more black coats and unreadable expressions. The air itself felt heavier.

Dazai’s footsteps slowed almost imperceptibly. The building rose before him without warning. Dark stone and imposing. Window after window reflecting the overcast afternoon until the entire structure appeared carved from shadow itself. 

The Port Mafia headquarters.

For years he had looked at this building from the outside without truly seeing it. Now… He found himself standing before its entrance. He couldn’t remember the last several minutes, perhaps longer. The cardboard box remained tucked beneath one arm. The lilies were gone, left where they belonged.

The guards stationed outside noticed him immediately. There was a flicker, not surprise, recognition. One of them straightened instinctively and the other lowered his gaze. Neither spoke. Neither questioned why he had come. The massive doors opened before he reached them as if they had been expecting him. Perhaps they had.

The lobby looked exactly as he remembered. Marble floors polished until they reflected the ceiling lights, dark walls, and muted footsteps. The quiet efficiency of an organization built upon violence so routine it no longer required spectacle. He crossed the floor without thinking, without hesitation. His body remembered the route and his mind simply followed.

Hallways.

Elevators.

Turning left.

Then right.

The executive floor.

The secretary outside Mori’s office stood the moment she saw him. For the briefest instant, her carefully practiced professionalism faltered. “…Demon Prodigy.” The title slipped out naturally, automatically. As if four years had been nothing more than an extended assignment. She recovered almost immediately. “The Boss has been expecting you.”

Of course he had.

She opened the door. The familiar scent greeted him before anything else.

Tea.

Old books.

Antiseptic.

The office itself appeared almost untouched by time. Tall windows overlooked Yokohama, the city spread beneath them in quiet indifference. Shelves lined with carefully arranged volumes climbed toward the ceiling. The furniture remained precisely where memory insisted it should be. Even the sunlight entered the room in exactly the same way as if the years had politely waited outside.

Mori sat behind his desk. Calm and composed. One hand rested upon an open document while the other lazily turned the page of a medical journal. He looked up and smiled. Not cruelly or triumphantly, almost pleasantly. “Ah.” His voice carried the same effortless warmth Dazai remembered from years ago. “You’re here.”

Dazai remained standing near the doorway with the cardboard box still balanced against his hip. Neither of them spoke for several moments. Mori observed him quietly then his gaze drifted to the box. To the chipped mug visible near the top, the tiny cactus, the detective novels, then back to Dazai. “I wondered if you would bring your belongings.”

Dazai glanced down as though noticing the box for the first time. “…So did I.”

A faint smile touched Mori’s lips. “You’ve accumulated quite a few.”

“I suppose I have.”

“You traveled light when you left.”

“…I remember.”

“You seem heavier now.”

Dazai almost laughed, not because it was funny, but because Mori was right. Four years ago he had walked out carrying almost nothing. One coat, bandages, a gun, and a promise. Now he had one cardboard box somehow felt impossible to carry.

Mori rose from his chair. He moved with the same measured grace Dazai had always associated with surgeons. Never hurried. Never wasted. Never uncertain. He stopped only a few feet away. For a long moment, he simply looked at him. Studying, comparing, evaluating, and then… “Welcome home, Dazai.”

Home.

The word landed quietly, softly. It should have sounded comforting. Instead something inside Dazai flinched, not visibly or enough for anyone else to notice. But he felt it.

Home.

His eyes wandered across the office. The desk. The bookshelves. The windows. Everything exactly where it had always been. Nothing had changed, yet every corner felt strangely unfamiliar. Too clean. Too quiet. Too small.

His gaze drifted toward the city outside the window. Somewhere beyond those buildings stood a modest office filled with mismatched desks. There would still be candy wrappers scattered around Ranpo’s chair. Kunikida’s notebook would still be lying on the conference room floor unless someone had finally picked it up. Kenji would probably remember to water the plants tomorrow before realizing one of them was gone. Atsushi…

His chest tightened unexpectedly.

Atsushi would almost certainly glance toward Dazai’s desk before remembering. Just for a second and out of habit. The chair would be empty. The thought struck with startling force.

Empty.

He saw it so clearly. Sunlight falling across an abandoned desk. No chipped mug. No blanket. No ridiculous stacks of unfinished paperwork. Just an empty chair waiting for someone who wasn’t coming back.

“…Dazai?” Mori’s voice drew him gently from the thought. “You’ve gone quiet.”

“…Have I?”

“You usually have something clever to say.”

Dazai smiled automatically. “I must be out of practice.”

“You’ll remember.” The certainty in Mori’s voice was absolute. “As with all things.”

Dazai looked at him, really looked. Four years ago, those words would have comforted him because four years ago he had believed people inevitably returned to what they truly were. Now they only made him tired.

Mori stepped around him, looking once more at the cardboard box. “You may leave those here.” Dazai didn’t move. “I’ll have your former office prepared.” Former, as though no time had passed. As though the years between then and now had been an inconvenience rather than a life. “I imagine settling back in won’t take long.” 

Dazai lowered his eyes to the cactus resting crookedly inside the box. One tiny green stem leaned toward the light spilling through Mori’s windows, instinctively seeking sunlight. It had spent years growing beside the Agency windows. Toward warmth. Toward morning. Toward laughter. Now there was only polished glass and shadows. Without thinking, Dazai reached out and gently turned the little pot so it still faced the light. The movement was absentminded, natural. So natural, in fact, that he didn’t realize he’d done it.

Mori noticed. He noticed everything. “You’ve changed.” The observation came without accusation, without surprise. Simply as a  fact.

Dazai’s hand lingered atop the cactus for another heartbeat before withdrawing. “…I know.” His voice was barely above a whisper. He did know. That was the tragedy. He had changed. Enough that this office no longer fit around him. Enough that the silence here felt wrong after years of listening to Kunikida complain. Enough that he missed hearing Atsushi ask innocent questions. Enough that he found himself expecting Ranpo to wander in looking for snacks. Enough that “home” had become somewhere else entirely.

He had done exactly what Odasaku asked.

He had lived.

He had laughed.

He had allowed people close enough that leaving them now felt like tearing away part of himself. He had become the sort of man who packed books because coworkers had recommended them. Who carried a joke written on a yellow sticky note inside his coat. Who instinctively turned a little cactus toward the sun. He had become someone who belonged somewhere.

And now…

That somewhere existed without him.

Mori returned to his desk. “There is much work to discuss tomorrow.” Tomorrow. “Chuuya will be there to discuss about the two of you becoming partners again.

Dazai stared out at Yokohama one last time. The evening sun stretched long bands of gold across the city, catching countless windows until they shimmered like stars scattered across the earth. Somewhere among them… The Armed Detective Agency stood exactly where it always had. 

Tomorrow morning, sunlight would spill across its wooden floors. Kunikida would arrive precisely on time. Ranpo would complain there wasn’t enough coffee. Kenji would greet everyone with the same bright smile. Yosano would laugh. Atsushi would look toward the door, just once, expecting to hear, “Kunikida! A terrible tragedy has occurred!” Expecting familiar footsteps and a lazy grin.  

Instead…

The morning would continue without him.

Dazai closed his eyes. Only for a moment. When he opened them again, the city had not changed. Neither had the promise he had made years ago. He would continue to save people, even here, even now, even if no one ever knew. He adjusted the cardboard box beneath his arm, the folded yellow note pressing gently against his chest from inside his coat.

Then, so quietly that even Mori did not hear it, he smiled—not the bright, teasing smile he wore for others, but one so heartbreakingly small it seemed ready to disappear. “I was almost there.” The words dissolved into the silence of the office. No one answered.

Outside, the city glowed beneath the setting sun. And somewhere, in an office across Yokohama, one empty desk sat waiting beneath the morning light, looking as though someone had simply stepped away for a little while. As though, if everyone waited just a little longer…

The door might still open.

And Osamu Dazai would come home.