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Kotone sat on her bed, back to the window, staring at her calendar. October 4th is circled, and she hasn’t added anything since, hasn’t even flipped it. It was January now, the day before her battle with Nyx.
Within her social links, Sandalphon hums a tune, and Orpheus plays along with her lyre. It echos in her entire body and its screaming in her head
She’s heard this song over and over again, it came from one of her playlists and the personas seemed to pick it up along the way.
“So come inside and be with me, alone with me. Alone, with me alone.”
Kotone grabs at her hair, ripping out some in the process as she remembers her first, and last night with Shinjiro. She remembers their first kiss, their first true “I love you”, and the taste of his lips against hers.
“If you would let me give you pinky promises kisses,”
Tears are running down her face and ruining her perfect makeup, and she’s lost her perfect smile. The smile she’s hidden behind for months now, the one that’s fooled everyone including herself.
“So I wouldn’t have to scream your name, atop of every roof in the city of my heart.”
The song in her doesn’t stop. It hasn’t stopped since the day Shinjiro got shot. Her personas sing the song, and so does Kotone. So she screams.
All of her emotions come down onto her like a fallen knife. Despite her many visits to his hospital room, she hasnt let anyone see her cry. That was his last wish. To see her smile. She can’t see a thing through her tears and her throat is too full of sobs to breathe. She’s still got a grip on her hair and there’s snot all over her face.
Sandalphon and Orpheus emerge from her chest with a blinding light. Sandalphon wraps his arms around her back, Orpheus sits in front of her cupping her face. They come to her ears and whisper
“If I could see you,”
They leave as soon as they came. Their blinding light is gone now, and the song in her quiets down. Kotones sobs come to a stop and she lets her hair go. She wipes away her tears and her snot onto the sleeves of her SEES uniform, and comes to a stand. If the moon can rise, then so will she.
“Once more to see you.” Kotone whispers as she grabs her naginata from her closet, before turning her door knob and leaving.
The song in her comes to a stop.