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I couldn’t handle being the ‘perfect role model’ anymore.
Fuck whatever society thought of me. Fuck my reputation. Fuck all the relationships that were built on my perfectness. No one can accept the fact that someone as ‘perfect’ as me could be so broken on the inside.
Especially Abe Yura. Once my best friend, who idolized me for having his dream personality and reputation, now the person who looked down on me the most. He didn’t care about the fact that I was fractured on the inside. I only realized that he was friends with me for my past reputation when I decided enough was enough.
“I don’t want to be friends with a fucking scumbag like you, Yada-kun. Now go, and I hope you’re always alone. Fuck off from my life.” Yura had said to me that day.
I thought he actually appreciated me for who I was. Not the facade I put up when there were other people around.
It was what made me fall for him.
But on the week I wanted to confess to him, he ruined things for me. All because I stopped putting up with what society wanted of me.
Now, I just spend my days hanging out with a seemingly normal friend group. But we all have our secrets that make us… not much different than all the other groups of friends at school.
Ryuji’s in the talking stage with someone and we respect that. Kosuke and Towa are dating and we respect that. Siyoung’s going through heartbreak after his boyfriend cheated on him, and we respect that. They somehow still haven’t broken up yet.
Maybe it’s because some people are toxic, but being with them doesn’t tire you out or make you feel like anything’s wrong.
I could say the same about that son of a bitch I fell in love with. He made me feel loved, important, then when I broke, stopped doing what I normally did, he snapped too - but in a different way. The way that tells you that someone’s just there for a part of you that’s never actually been a part of you.
Sometimes we just never learn.
“Yoshiki-san, are you okay?” Siyoung asked me with that gentle voice of his that always showed his innocence and gullible personality.
“Hmm, yeah.” I huffed.
“You’re not thinking about that little shit, right?” Ryuji was genuinely concerned for me.
“Ugh, fine. I just… I really miss him.” a tear slipped out of the corner of my eye.
“It’s okay, you have us, so if he ever comes running back to you and you lose interest, one of us can act as your fake boyfriend.” Kosuke chimed in.
“Yah, Kosuke, what about me? You’re fucking taken!” Towa complained loudly.
We all giggled together at the youngest’s complaint. Until Ryuji spoke up.
“I have literally the perfect idea! You could get this anonymous texting app - Mystery - and find someone else to fall in love with.” he explained.
“Do you really think this is a good idea?” Yoshiki asked with uncertainty.
“Yeah. You know the boy I’m talking with? That really cute senior? I met him on Mystery!” Ryuji chuckled.
“Okay, okay, whatever, I’ll download it tonight.” Yoshiki groaned.
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Welcome to Mystery, y0sushi_kun! Pick an ID to text:
yuyubery <-
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Your conversation with yuyubery starts here!
yuyubery:
hi
js call me yuyu lol
y0sushi_kun:
oh hihi
u can call me yoshi🥹
yuyubery:
eh? ur id name reminds me of someone i uhm kinda ended shit with
his names yada yoshiki btw
y0sushi_kun:
oh
howd things end tho???
yuyubery:
its cuz he wanted to defy social views ig
but i guess i got mad cuz he wanted to be normal after being that one kid everyone loved yk?
and i feel like it rly messed him up
so i wanna apologize to him
but idk howwww
y0sushi_kun:
maybe the next time u see him go up to him and tell him ur sorry and how u rly feel yk
did u ever like him or love him
?
yuyubery:
i mean yea i love him sm but idk how to tell him now that he prob hates me…
i dont think he ever wants to look at my damn face
y0sushi_kun:
u never know bro
what if he rly misses u
yuyubery:
hm maybe…
anyways gn yoshi
i needa do hw
y0sushi_kun:
gn yuyu
also what skl u go to
yuyubery:
ah i go to tokyo high wbu?
y0sushi_kun:
oh me too maybe ill see u tmrw
gn fr