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I want to die.
That's what I deserve anyways.
I should've died in that fire instead of mamá.
She deserved so much more then I ever will.
I just hide behind my machines. My only solace where I can forget everything. I never even face reality. And when I do, I joke it off.
None of my friends care or realise. They all forget me anyways. Jason has Piper. Piper has Jason. Hazel has Frank. Annabeth doesn't like me because I'm not serious, but how can I be when it makes everything worse. Frank hates me for the same reason as Annabeth, plus I make fun of him. Percy is bombarded with enough crap from the gods and school already. Lou Ellen and Cecil have each other and a multitude of other friends. Reyna has the hunters. Jo and Emmie already have enough on their plate taking care of Georgia. Lester's annoying plus he has his godly shit he has to take care of. Conner and Travis have each other and their partners when they aren't pranking together.
Everyone has someone else but me.
Calypso broke up with me because it just wasn't working.
Yeah it's actually been better without her even if it did hurt, but she left me with highlighting my insecurities and bringing them to the front rather then how they just hid in the back of my brain.
I didn't know what to do with myself anymore.
But since everyone already hates me, wishes I was dead, forgets about me. Why don't I help them with that.
I wish I hadn't come back to life in the first place, this wouldn't be necessary.
Or maybe I'd have the guts to actually die again.
But I'm to scared of the pain I'd experience again. I deserved it, yes, but I just couldn't bring myself to do it.
So instead. I'll make everyone forget me. No one has to worry about me then. Piper won't have to remember me once a year just to check up on me and make sure I'm ok and not dead. Jason won't have to worry about coming to see me at all, he could just stay in California. No one would think twice about me.
So I was on my way to the only witch I knew. Lou Ellen.
I was going go trick her to make the potion for me.
I bounced up the stairs of cabin twenty to the door.
I knocked and in a second a very alt person opened the door. Man, Hecate kids whole vibes really are just purple or alt isn't it?
"Is Lou here?"
"Yeah." They left and Lou came to the door.
"Hey Leo, what do you need?"
I internally cringed at her wording, am I really that needy she assumes I want something? I mean I did but still. Ouch.
I gave her a embarrassed grin. I've faked so many emotions for my whole life, you could never tell it was fake. "So uh, I may have made a machine REALLYYY bad, and my whole cabin and Jason seen it, I was wondering if you could make a potion so everyone forgets it ever existed. If you do it I promise I'll show you every bad invention I've made and you can laugh at me for it."
"Ooooo I love making fun of you! So sure! I was kinda bored anyways-"
"She's been complaining for hours about how she had nothing to do and she was bored!" Her cabinmate cuts her off teasingly.
So that's why she agreed. She was bored. Can't say I haven't done the same thing.
"Shush bitch." She turned back to me, "Anyways yes. I will do it for you so you're siblings and boyfriend don't make fun of you. After all I still need you and Grace to get together."
I was to numb to even act offended or blush. Yeah Jase was kinda cute, but one he was Pipes. I'm not stealing my besties ex-boyfriend. And two he's as straight as a line. And besides, I don't like him. Just 'cause I can recognize fine shit doesn't mean I like said fine shit.
I rolled my eyes, "Neither of us like each other. We might be close but like no homo." I joke.
"Yeah suree no homo."
"You both are as straight as this ruler, I ship it." A different cabinmate of Lou's shouted holding up a bendy ruler. Do they just have a bendy ruler lying around so they can say people are as straight as it? Damn.
"Exactly." Said Lou without looking back at the ruler.
"Can you just make the potion?"
"Sure, I'll probably have it done in an hour."
"Don't they normally take longer?"
"Yeah but as my lovely sibling commented very politely, I am bored. Boredom makes making shit go faster."
"Alright, then I'll come here in around an hour?"
"Yup!"
"Alright thanks!" I smiled at her then walked away.
I made my way back to bunker 9 for a little bit.
I needed to prepare.
First. I needed to go on the monster proof phone I made and change all my socials to things that lead no trace to it being me.
I changed my usernames to be something I liked but not something that just I liked. I changed my profile pictures to match.
Then I tweaked it a bit so there was no change anyone could find me and no chance my siblings would be able to tell it was the same phones they had. Even I they had made their own it had the same basic things, I couldn't let that give it away. My siblings had the blueprints, they could make more.
Next I went to the door and worked with it for a bit. Now the door didn't just open to fire users, but all children of Hephaestus. I know Harley loves bunker 9, he thinks it's so cool he'd love to work in here.
I then went and put some parts in a bag along with some of my few belongings. I grabbed the army jacket Calypso had made for me when we were together and some money I had earned by helping the stolls prank and steal.
Then I checked up on Festus.
"Hey buddy, um you'll have to listen to Nyssa from now on. I'm going on my own again. You'll be better with Nyssa, she'll care for you." Festus chose to, instead of listening, blow fire at me.
"Don't worry, you won't miss me, I promise."
I ran away back to the Hecate cabin before Festus could argue more.
I ran up the stairs and knocked on the door.
"Gods you took forever." Lou rolled her eyes opening the door.
I gave her a wide smile, "Sorry Festus was a little cranky."
"Well here's the potion. Pore it over the machine and everyone will forget about it forever! Unless they interact with it, then they might start to remember, but they won't remember if they see it."
"Alright, thanks." I go to grab it but she pulls it back.
"Hold up now. You didn't uphold your end if the deal. Now I say you put it on then show me and explain so I'll still remember it and I can bother you, but you have to go get it."
"Ok, I need to go grab it anyways so I can take the potion, pour it on it, then come back and show you."
"Alright, I trust you will uphold the deal."
I smiled and took the potion.
"Be back in a sec!"
I ran back to bunker 9. As soon as I entered the forest my smile fell.
I wouldn't be back in a second. I wouldn't ever be back.
I walked through the forest, weaving through trees, until I made it back to bunker 9.
I went inside. grabbed my bag and jacket, walked out, told Festus to lead the rest of cabin 9 to the bunker and show them it was open to all Hephaestus kids, then walked away.
The bunker had always been open to all Hephaestus kids, they just never used it. I hoped without me there they would.
Maybe this was what the person that originally owned the bunker did. Made everyone forget them and just left their blueprints. I mean, Chiron didn't even remember who could've made it.
Guess I'll just be another forgotten cmaper. I can't wait. But I also feel a sense of dread. I don't want my friends to worry. Not like they actually care I'm just their responsibility, but I wonder if they'll feel any different? If they'll still remember all I did and that a real person did that, or if I'll become another forgotten myth in the world of forgotten history and blurry past.
I made my way through the peaceful maze of trees towards the city. I always liked forest. I love machines and stuff more of course, but nature was always quiet. A place I can just think. Where I don't have to worry about distractions. My adhd is calmer, it reminds me of the many times I ran away.
I like the quiet. After a while you realize it's not just quiet. You can hear the sounds of the forest. Even if there isn't complete silence, it's nicer than the loud sounds of people sometimes.
There's times I prefer loud places, it drowns out my thoughts and everything else. But I have to perform still.
By the time I made it to the city I was getting extremely light headed and it had turned to dusk.
I hadn't eaten enough today I guess. I thought I did, but my burry vision, the fact I was light headed, and I was dizzy, said otherwise.
Since I was in the city finally, I decided to pour the potion over myself.
I would drink it, but I wasn't sure if it'd work if I did it.
The potion soaked my hair, but it dried faster than water. It dried within seconds, absorbing into my skin.
I felt no different, I didn't know if it worked. But the only way I could check was purposely going up to someone I knew, and I was not doing that.
For now though, that didn't matter as much. Right now, I had to find somewhere I could sleep. My legs felt like they were going to drop me any second. I could bearly think over the cloud of numbness and pain in my head, not to mention the fog from not eating or sleeping. I was blinded by the black spots thats danced in my vision, obstructing everything.
I wasn't going to waste my money in a hotel though. The best bet I had was outside, but then there's the chance of a monster finding me. But then again did I care?
Did I truly care if a monster were to find and kill me. I don't think I did care. I don't think it would matter if lightening struck me down or if I was swallowed into an abyss. It would change nothing, I would just go to asphodel sooner. And that might be something I'd want to happen anyways.
I chose to wait till I got out of the city before I rested. Which meant I'd have to actually get out of the city first. Which meant more walking. Fun.