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the bed is warm, something shane has now become used to since ilya and him started dating. its like there’s a heat radiating off his boyfriend, and he loves it.
hes laying on ilya’s chest, tracing circles while ilya watches. its so calm and peaceful, it feels great after a particularly rough hockey season.
shanes eyes keep closing and reopening, telling ilya hes tired.
“shanya, you are falling asleep, we can go to bed if want.”
“no! i can stay awake! i just-“
ilya pulled shane off his chest and put him on his side. he then pulled up the duvet
“we go to sleep. goodnight.”
shane clawed back on top on ilya and his lips against his.
they stayed in that position, enjoying the moment and taking it all in.
their lips parted, and shane put his head back on ilyas chest.
“ilya…?”
“yes baby?”
“…”
“…”
“whats up?” ilya said, sitting up in the bed.
“i just…no- i probably shouldnt ask-“
ilya pulled shane up, they were both sitting up now.
“you can ask me anything, whats wrong?” ilya said lovingly.
shane stayed silent for a moment. he had to ask at one point, otherwise he would never know.
“why did you start liking me in the first place?”
ilya raised his eyebrows. “hollander, i knew that i was attracted to you the moment i first met you.”
“yeah but, we didnt actually have a relationship for like almost ten years, i just- sometimes i feel like we only got together because we were fucking around for so long…”
ilyas gaze on shane immediately softened.he pulled shane into a hug.
“shane. i would have asked you out so much earlier on if it wasnt for everything happening. i wanted you so much but i didnt want us to both get in trouble because we loved eachother. thats why i waited. i know i was distant at times and you know my reasons for that. but i promise i loved you the whole time we were talking. i love you, and dont ever forget that, please.”
shane started tearing up, he didnt know how much he really meant to ilya.
ilya took shanes hand, and kissed it.
“i love you so fucking much.” shane said, wiping tears off his face.
ilya planted a kiss on shanes lips.
“i love you too.”