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(MASSIVE TRIGGER WARNING FOR SELF HARM!!!!!!)
Gangle sat on her bed, staring at her wall that was covered in drawings and sketches. She had been in her room all day. By now it was definitely night, since outside was silent.
She was so useless. She couldn't even respond to Zooble when they had knocked on her door. She couldn't even get out of bed. She couldn't do anything.
Was she just not trying? She was trying so hard, but she just couldn't. It was like something was physically blocking her from getting up.
She fell back down into her bed, staring at the ceiling. A sudden thought crossed her mind.
How would cutting feel?
Gangle had been clean since she'd entered the circus. But it wouldn't be that bad if she cut herself here. She was just ribbon, so it wasnt like anything that bad could happen..
She had a few pencil sharpeners in her room, since obviously, she was an artist. She just had to unscrew them.
Picking one up, her eyes scanned the room to find something that would work. She sat down at her desk, seeing a pair of tweezers she used for making bracelets. That would work.
(I am NOT detailing on how she unscrewed it)
She dragged the blade across her ribbon wrist, seeing it split open. The pain was addicting, a type of pleasure she'd missed. Before long she zoned out. When she zoned in again, both of her arms were covered in cuts. Her ribbon was frayed and cut open, very noticeably. But she didn't care.
She moved to her legs, cutting over and over.
10 minutes later, nearly her whole ribbon body was cut open. There was no blood, something she was thankful of.
Setting down the blade she went to go find clothes to cover up the cuts.
(In my AU, Caine gave everyone clothes ok)
Yummy timeskip
The next morning, Gangle came out of her room. She felt so much better. A long, slightly oversized pink sweater covered her upper body cuts, whilst she wore black flare trousers to cover her lower body cuts. Zooble noticed that she was wearing long sleeves, which was unsual. They didn't really think twice about it.
Gangle now knew she could self harm again.