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Either the morning sunlight is way too bright or Jun’s habit of getting up early every morning even permeates into a day to sleep in because he’s awake first thing that Sunday morning still a little drowsy from the night before and unwilling to actually move.
Not like he can, though, even if he wanted to. His husband’s still asleep next to him, breathing even and quiet, his arm curled around Jun’s waist, holding him close.
It’s Tetsu’s day off too, and Jun doesn’t have the heart to wake him just yet. So he only manages a fond, sleepy smile at Tetsu as he settles back down in his arms, forehead resting against Tetsu’s chest now.
They barely get quiet, sleepy mornings like this as of late with both of their busy schedules—Jun at practice a lot more as opening day fast approaches, and Tetsu equally busy with a new school year starting up and a new team to get together in hopes of making Koshien that summer—so Jun will take what he can get while it’s offered so generously to him.
It’s been years of this, but Jun has never once grown tired of waking up in Tetsu’s arms, of his face being the first Jun sees every morning and the last before he falls asleep each night. He could never grow tired of this. Of them. Of their tiny little apartment that they’ve made home over the past few years.
Tetsu had been the one to suggest moving in together after college, on a weekend a few months before graduation. Jun had made a sudden visit after receiving an offer to play professionally after college. In the few months prior to that, things had been falling into place for them, everything they’d been working and hoping for coming together.
“We could get an apartment,” Tetsu had said when they were curled up together in his bed that night. “Somewhere that’s between stadium and Seido.”
The suddenness of Tetsu’s suggestion caught Jun by surprise then. But now, in hindsight, it isn't surprising at all. There never was any doubt in either of their minds that they wanted their futures to include each other, to be intertwined. The question of taking things a step further than what they already had really wasn’t a game changer at all.
If anything, it only propelled them forward. Propelled them to choosing a tiny apartment in a convenient location that they could both afford—one they still live in years later. Maybe, objectively, it's not the greatest home ever and they could move out now that they can afford somewhere better, but it's theirs, and the very idea that he has a home with Tetsu to come back to every day will always be beyond satisfying.
And in these years together, they've managed to learn more and more about each other's hearts, have managed to reside in a permanent place there. One neither of them are giving up any time soon.
Everything really has fallen into place for them. From their first meeting to becoming friends and then more, from moving in together to Tetsu (very suddenly) proposing to Jun on their kitchen floor one night—which ended in them laughing at Jun's reaction of tackling Tetsu in a hug on said kitchen floor (after he'd come down from being completely thrown off balance by Tetsu once again, of course.)
From then to now.
("I want everything with you," Jun remembers saying one night back in high school, his hand curled in the front of Tetsu’s shirt, their chests pressed together, Tetsu’s back against the chain-link fence of Seido’s baseball field.
"Then take it," Tetsu had said, serious, looking Jun straight in the eye. He sounded so certain, like cutting open your chest and offering someone the opportunity to hold your heart in their bare hands was normal.
They shared a clumsy kiss after that, after the sudden confession. The first of many to come.)
Now...
Now he doesn't have to want everything with Tetsu anymore. He has it now. Cradled in his palms, here to stay.
They've made it this far. And sometimes it's unbelievable, but Jun would never want it any other way.
I have everything with you.
I have everything I could ever want with you.
“Morning,” Tetsu says stirring from sleep after who knows how long, snapping Jun back to reality, to the present moment between them. Tetsu's smile's too bright, blinding. Almost like they forgot to close the blinds the night before. “Did you sleep well?”
“Yeah, I did.” He slides even closer to Tetsu, tangling their legs under the sheets. “You?”
“I always do when I’m with you.”
“God…” Jun laughs as Tetsu’s hand cups his cheek, and he leans into the warm touch. “You think that after all these years you’d find less embarrassing things to say, but here we are.”
“Here we are,” Tetsu repeats softly. The way that Tetsu’s looking at him—fond and nostalgic, all in one—makes Jun feel warm all over. From his cheeks to his bare feet. “Do you remember the first time I said that to you?”
“How could I forget?” His fingers rub against Tetsu’s side, gentle. “Seido’s beds were fucking tiny to cram into and I fell out as soon as you said that.” He jabs a finger into Tetsu’s chest, playful. “That floor fucking hurt, Tetsu.”
The smile directed at Jun, for Jun is hard to look away from. He never wants to look away, knowing that he has something like this, someone like Tetsu right within his reach, in his grasp.
He’s never letting this go.
“Can you believe any of this?” Jun finally asks, a little out of nowhere. Can you believe we have this? Can you believe we’ve made it this far?
Sometimes Jun forgets that he hasn’t known Tetsu forever, that they only met when they were fifteen and still growing into themselves. Back then, he hadn’t even imagined being able to do something as simple as holding Tetsu’s hand, let alone lay here in bed—in their bed—reminiscing about where they came from, about how they got here together.
But now, now he can’t imagine anything but this. He can’t envision a future where he doesn’t want to wake up by Tetsu’s side every morning, can’t imagine a life where the hands they’ve grown to know like their own didn’t fit like an extension of each other.
“Sometimes no,” Tetsu replies. “I can’t believe how lucky I am.”
“You’re the lucky one?” He shifts so he can get a better look at Tetsu now. “What about me? I’m lucky!”
Tetsu laughs softly at pulls Jun closer to him, whispers, “I’m lucky because I get to spend the rest of my life with you.”
He leans his forehead against Tetsu’s chest, suddenly overwhelmed by the comment, face burning as soon as Tetsu’s words register in his brain. It’s shared. There’s no doubt that it’s a shared sentiment. But Tetsu always manages to catch Jun off balance with his honest words and face and just... everything. Jun’s been caught up in everything Tetsu is, every single piece of him, since the moment they met.
“You win,” Jun mumbles, as he presses a kiss to Tetsu’s chest, over his heart. A promise. Always their promise. “For now.”
“For now?”
Tetsu’s question accompanied with a furrowed brow and confused eyes makes Jun laugh, loudly enough that he’s sure their neighbors won’t enjoy hearing it early in the morning like this, but Jun can’t be bothered to care. He’s caught Tetsu off guard too.
Jun grins, pushing him onto his back and climbing onto him. He runs his hands down Tetsu’s chest, over his stomach. Lower, lower.
“That’s what I said. For now.” And he leans forward to catch Tetsu’s lips in a kiss.
For now, this is fine. They've got forever to continue simultaneously knocking each other off kilter and holding each other steady once again, anyway.