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The scent of lotus blossoms in Yunmeng was usually sweet, but to Wei Wuxian, it had begun to taste like ash and iron.
He sat on the edge of the wooden pier, his black boots dangling just inches above the shimmering water. In his hands, he held a small, exquisite jade token. It was carved with the intricate, swirling clouds of Gusu—a formal invitation to the Cloud Recesses, extended not to the Jiang Sect as a whole, but to him. Personally. From Lan Wangji.
"Still staring at that piece of junk?"
The voice was sharp, cutting through the humid afternoon air like a whip. Jiang Cheng strode down the pier, his purple robes billowing, his brow already furrowed into his trademark scowl. He didn't wait for an answer before snatching the token from Wei Wuxian’s hand.
"Hey! Jiang Cheng, give it back!" Wei Wuxian scrambled to his feet, reaching for it, but Jiang Cheng held it out of reach, his eyes flashing with bitter resentment.
"Why do you even care about this?" Jiang Cheng hissed, tossing the token into the dirt at Wei Wuxian's feet. "Lan Wangji is the Second Young Master of the Lan Sect. He’s nobility. You are the son of a servant, Wei Wuxian. Have you forgotten that? Or has all his sniffing around made you forget your place?"
The words stung, a familiar poison that Wei Wuxian had learned to swallow down until his throat burned. "Lan Zhan isn't like that. He’s just... he’s being kind."
"Kind? A Lan doesn't waste kindness on a stray dog from Yunmeng unless they want something," Jiang Cheng spat, stepping closer, his posture aggressive and suffocating. "My father brought you into this house. He fed you, clothed you, and gave you a home when you were starving in the streets. You owe everything to the Jiang name. Your sword, your cultivation, your very life belongs to Lotus Pier. And your duty is to me. You are my right-hand man. My shadow. You don't get to run off to Gusu just because a pretty jade smiles at you."
"I know my duty, Jiang Cheng," Wei Wuxian said, his voice dropping, losing its usual playful spark. He knelt, picking up the dusty jade token and wiping it against his black robes. "I haven't forgotten."
"Good. Because if you think you can abandon me for him, you're mistaken. I won't allow it. You tell him to leave. You tell him to go back to his mountain and stop bothering us." Jiang Cheng turned on his heel and marched away, leaving a heavy, suffocating silence in his wake.
Wei Wuxian clutched the token tight enough to imbed the edges into his palm. He loved Jiang Cheng—he really did. They had grown up together. But Jiang Cheng’s sharp edges and fierce jealousy isolated him from everyone else. Sect Leader Jiang Fengmian had sat Wei Wuxian down years ago, his expression solemn as he said, “A-Cheng is lonely, A-Ying. He drives people away with his temper. You must be his friend. You must protect him and stay by his side, no matter what.”
It was a command disguised as a plea, a debt written in blood and gratitude. Wei Wuxian had bound his own soul to it.
"A-Xian?"
A soft, gentle voice broke through his spiraling thoughts. Wei Wuxian looked up to see Jiang Yanli standing at the edge of the walkway, carrying a small bowl of lotus root and pork rib soup. Her eyes were filled with a profound, aching sadness as she looked at him.
"Shijie," Wei Wuxian managed a smile, though it didn't reach his eyes.
She walked over and sat down beside him, placing the bowl between them. She reached out, gently prying his fingers away from the jade token. "A-Cheng was shouting again. I heard."
"He’s just stressed, Shijie. The tension between the sects is rising, and—"
"A-Xian, stop," Jiang Yanli interrupted softly, resting her hand over his. "Stop defending him. And stop doing this to yourself. You do not owe your very life to our family."
"Shijie, Uncle Jiang took me in—"
"Because he loved your parents, and because it was the right thing to do," she said firmly, her eyes shining with unshed tears. "Not so you could become a prisoner to A-Cheng’s temper. Not so you could throw away your own happiness. Look at me, A-Xian."
Wei Wuxian reluctantly met her gaze.
"Lan Wangji loves you," she whispered. "Anyone with eyes can see it. The way he looks at you, the way he travels all this distance just to bring you Emperor's Smile, to offer you a sanctuary. And I know you feel the same. Why do you keep pushing him away?"
Wei Wuxian looked away, his chest heaving with a sudden, suffocating panic. "I can't, Shijie. If I leave, if I even look like I want to leave, Jiang Cheng... the Sect... I am the head disciple. I am meant to be the shield. If I pursue my own dreams, if I choose my own path, I am betraying the debt I owe. I have to stay. I have to be what they need me to be."
"You are breaking your own heart," Jiang Yanli said, a tear finally escaping and rolling down her cheek. "And you are breaking his."
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The next day, Lan Wangji arrived at Lotus Pier.
He was as flawless as ever, a vision in pristine white and light blue, his guqin strapped to his back. He didn't look at the grand halls or the bustling disciples; his amber eyes searched the docks until they landed squarely on Wei Wuxian.
Every time Wei Wuxian saw him, his heart did a frantic, painful dance. He loved the man. He loved the quiet intensity of him, the hidden warmth beneath the icy exterior, the way Lan Wangji’s voice softened whenever he spoke Wei Wuxian's name. But behind Wei Wuxian, standing in the shadows of the training hall, was Jiang Cheng, watching with a dark, warning glare.
Wei Wuxian plastered a loud, fake smirk across his face and sauntered down the pier, his hands tucked behind his back.
"Lan Zhan!" he called out, his voice deliberately loud and obnoxious. "Back again? Don't you Gusu Lans have rules against loitering in other sects? Honestly, you're becoming a bit of a nuisance."
Lan Wangji paused, his expression unchanged, but a flicker of vulnerability crossed his eyes. He reached into his sleeve and pulled out a small, beautifully wrapped package. The scent of traditional Gusu loquats and high-quality tea leaves drifted from it.
"Wei Ying," Lan Wangji said, his voice deep and steady. "I brought this for you. And... the invitation. Did you receive it?"
Wei Wuxian didn't look at the package. He didn't dare look into those earnest amber eyes for too long, fearing he would break. Instead, he laughed, a harsh, mocking sound that felt like glass in his own throat.
"Oh, that silly piece of jade? Yeah, I got it. I think I dropped it somewhere in the dirt. Lan Zhan, how many times do I have to tell you? I'm the Head Disciple of Yunmeng Jiang. I don't have time to sit in your quiet mountains, copying rules and drinking boring tea with you. I have a sect to run, actual responsibilities. Unlike you, I can't just wander around playing tourist."
Lan Wangji’s hand tightened around the package. "Wei Ying. Come to Gusu. Just for a few days. We can... talk. You are not well. Your energy—"
"My energy is fine!" Wei Wuxian snapped, stepping closer, his expression hardening into a mask of cruel indifference. "Stop hovering over me like an overbearing wife, Lan Zhan. It's annoying. I don't want your gifts, I don't want your invitations, and I certainly don't want you. Can't you take a hint? You've been chasing me around like a lost puppy, and frankly, it's pathetic. Go back to Gusu and leave me alone."
The words hung in the humid air, heavy and violent.
Lan Wangji stood entirely still. For a long, agonizing moment, the Second Young Master Lan looked as though he had been struck physically. The hand holding the package slowly lowered to his side. The warmth that usually lingered in his gaze died out, replaced by a profound, hollow exhaustion.
He had endured the teasing, the rejections, the anger, and the coldness for months, believing that beneath it all, Wei Ying felt the bond between them. But a soul can only take so many lacerations before it begins to bleed out.
"I see," Lan Wangji whispered. His voice was completely devoid of its usual resonance, flat and empty.
He looked at Wei Wuxian, really looked at him, noting the forced smirk, the tense shoulders, and the shadow of Jiang Cheng standing like a warden in the background. Lan Wangji closed his eyes for a brief second. When he opened them, the longing was gone. Only a quiet, devastating resignation remained.
"Wei Ying," Lan Wangji said softly. "If there is a next life... I hope I do not fall for you. I hope I will have the strength to walk away." He paused, a ghost of a bitter smile touching his lips. "And if the heavens are cruel enough to bind us again, I hope you will be the one to chase. Perhaps then, you will understand."
Lan Wangji turned around. He did not look back. He walked down the pier, boarded his boat, and drifted away into the mist of the lake.
Wei Wuxian stood frozen. The fake smirk melted off his face, leaving him pale and trembling. His chest locked up so tightly he couldn't breathe. He wanted to scream, to dive into the water and swim after the boat, to drag Lan Wangji back and beg for forgiveness, to tell him that he loved him, that he was sorry, that he was a coward bound by chains he couldn't break.
"Good riddance," Jiang Cheng’s voice cut in from behind, full of smug satisfaction. "He finally gets the message. Come on, we have training to oversee. Don't waste any more time standing around."
Wei Wuxian didn't move. He looked down at the wooden planks of the pier. A few feet away, the small package Lan Wangji had brought sat abandoned on the wood, forgotten by its creator in his grief.
Wei Wuxian fell to his knees, his hands shaking violently as he pulled the package to his chest. He didn't cry out, but silent, bitter tears streamed down his face, dripping onto the pristine wrapping. He had protected his debt. He had stayed loyal to the Jiangs.
And in doing so, he had destroyed the only light in his dark, suffocating world.
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