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J took the worker's head and used it as a camera. She was inside the landing capsule, or rather, what had been repaired. Inside, there was only a sofa taken from a nearby skyscraper. She sat down and began recording.
"It's been a long time since I've done this... It seems like it's been six months since the last time. Ahem... Hello, I'm Serial Designation J-101X111001, or simply J. How can you tell... Who am I talking to? Oh, the taxes, I must be going crazy, even though it's only been two days since I defeated Cyn. A day on this planet is about 30 hours, I think, unless the planet has slowed down or the data has become outdated due to past or recent events. It's quite different from life on Earth, if you think about it. Anyway, I'm getting off track. As I mentioned earlier, Cyn is dead. In fact... I'm surprised. It was difficult to call her a boss, more like a supervisor. She was the embodiment of all the horrors I've experienced, the only one who remained sane. The one who tortured and humiliated me. I still remember how she... played with Tessa's head like a basketball. In front of my eyes, as if she was mocking me. I would have killed Cyn if I could. The key word is "could" - I couldn't defeat her. I've already rebelled against her a couple of times. It didn't end well. I had to watch and suffer in silence as they tortured N and V, as well as the mockery of Tessa's corpse, which she couldn't let go of and still hasn't let go of, as I've already realized. So... Thank you, purple dwarf, for killing that... union woman. I hate the censorship system inside me. You won't hear it anyway, so why not? Now, I'm glad I'm free to decide who I want to be... who I want to be... to be honest, I don't know where to go. So I'm fixing this landing capsule as a temporary home. Fortunately, I'm not stupid, I immediately pulled out all my things and the things of my (former) subordinates outside the capsule so that they wouldn't be destroyed by the explosion. Well, except for the couch, it burned down anyway. So I had to get a new one. But clean, the last one was dirty. And one more thing... I buried Tessa's body. Cyn didn't pull on Tessa's skin - she completely assimilated it into herself. So the bones of Tessa were preserved, even though all the meat was turned into slush. After digging a hole, I put her bones in it and buried them, then I put a sign there. I wrote, "See you among the stars, my friend." I hope... she's at peace. I don't believe in hell or heaven... although Cyn was very much like God... if there is a God, then there might be a heaven. For all the suffering she endured on Earth, she should be in heaven by default, as a martyr. Okay... that's all I wanted to say. Record number 1 is over. I'm going to call this record... well, I'm thinking "Goodbye Cyn and Tessa." I think that's a good idea. End of transmission."
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"Entry number 2. I just remembered that in entry number 1, I didn't say "start recording," but I did say "end entry." It's like saying "leave in French," but in reverse. Okay, I'm getting off topic. It's been 15 days since the victory over Cyn. And I want to say one thing - N and V. They're petty traitors who think I'm a traitor. Of course, they can say after the fact that they're right because they won. Yeah, it was unpleasant to be on Cyn's side. But at least they understand what I've been through. Well, of course not, V and N have forgotten the days when I was in good health. And these strikers, they dare to look at me as if I'm a war criminal and Cyn's main ally. As if they haven't participated in the genocide of drone workers and humans. Or have you been brainwashed into thinking you're innocent? Well, if that's the case... I WENT TO V'S HOUSE AND I SAW V KILL A WORKER DRONE FOR FUN IN FRONT OF THE PURPLE DWARF AND HER DAD. AND THEY WERE LIKE "YOU CAN'T DO THAT" AND THEY THREW THEIR FINGERS. AND IF I DID THAT THEY WOULD KILL ME ON THE PLACE. I WANT THEIR STOCK TO DROP AND THEY HAVE A FINANCIAL CRISIS, EVEN THOUGH THESE TOSTERS DON'T EVEN HAVE A CURRENCY. WHY WAS I FORBIDDEN TO KILL WORKER DRONES AND THREATENED WITH KILLING, BUT V WASN'T EVEN PUNISHED. By the way, I found out that toasters have huge supplies of oil, but I don't have any alternatives... Well, I do, but N does it. He puts a canister of oil near the entrance to the corpse spire. But it still means that V didn't kill for food, she killed for fun. However, I'm not surprised - after the apocalypse, V showed herself to be a true sadist. I've never enjoyed killing. The fact that I started to like it not so long ago on Copper-9 is a result of the fact that I had nothing left to lose. Cyn will come and it will start like on Earth, N and V will lose control of themselves, and I will watch the suffering of the worker drones. Nothing made sense anymore, so if nothing was going to change, I'd start to enjoy it. I'm not making excuses. I admit that I'm no better than V. But I want my subordinates to be punished in the same way as I am. It would be fair. end of entry number 2, titled "We are war criminals", end of transmission."
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"Entry number 3. It's been a month since I defeated Cyn. In my last entry, I forgot to mention that I had completely repaired the capsule. It's as if nothing has changed... except that it's now empty... well, that's not the only thing I'm talking about. Recently, a purple dwarf came to visit me. She knew that I couldn't attack her, so she must have decided to test my patience. Well, she wasn't particularly annoying. Some of the questions were annoying, like the obvious ones: "Did you know that Tessa is Cyn?" She definitely thinks I'm stupid, and the toaster is budget-friendly. But I was caught off guard by one question: "Why do you hate N?" I was... a little taken aback... because it's a difficult question for me. So I told her that I couldn't really answer it. Purple stood there for a moment, and then she said goodbye to me. It was... nice. But, I want to tell you why I hate N. I don't... I don't hate him in the usual sense. I still consider him my family... well, until he met Uzi, the mini-toaster. We became a family when we still lived on the estate with the Elliots. You know, having a common enemy in Tessa's parents brought us all closer together. If we had lived normally, we probably wouldn't have become a family. You know... I always dreamed that Tessa would run away from this estate with us and we would live among the stars. And yes, this dream actually belongs to N, but I also liked it, and so did Tessa, V, and... Cyn. It's a pity that this dream couldn't be fulfilled. Cyn killed everyone at the Gala Concert... but it should have been me. I should have killed all those monsters, every single one of them. TO TURN THE Flesh into mush for throwing knives at my head and throwing me in the trash... so, calm down... Cyn took away my opportunity to get revenge on the Elliots. But even worse, she seemed to want us to suffer... or for V and I to suffer. She must have been offended because we told Tessa to kick Cyn out. So she left us with our minds and started torturing us. And do you know who she used for torture? That's right, our N. She took control of him, and he started tearing us apart. V was the first to give in, and after being tortured by N, she decided to submit. V then lost control of her own body. To be honest, I think she could have done this all along, but for some reason I don't know, she wanted to get my consent. I resisted... and that was a mistake. N not only physically tortured me, but also mentally. He took a copy of my head and... Tessa's head, and he played with them like Cyn played with dolls. Well, she would smash the heads together. It was disgusting... and then N started peeling the skin off Tessa's body and presenting it to Cyn. It's still stuck in my head, and I can't get the image of N as a cruel sadist torturing his family out of my mind. I know it was Cyn, because the real N wouldn't have done that. But when I see him, those memories come back. At first, I was afraid of him. And I was still afraid for the first five years of my stay on Copper-9. N felt lonely and talked to the rocks. But then... I hit him. It was a relief... I'm ashamed to say it, but I enjoyed hurting him. It was like taking revenge on him... something he didn't deserve. So I both hit him and tried to make his life a little easier. I remember giving him a drawing of a dog, a golden retriever, specifically. Even with his memory wiped, he still loved dogs. Yes, it might be wrong to create an emotional roller coaster when I smashed his face yesterday and today I'm giving him a book about animal training. I'm not proud of it. But hey, it's better than torturing him around the clock. Yes, nonexistent viewer, I almost killed him with the N virus in that bunker. But first of all, it's not a murder, it's a removal of a personality. And secondly, Cyn would have put him back in the line, so consider it a memory wipe, not a personality wipe. I'm still not making excuses, I assure you... probably... but I think I'm still grateful to him. He still brings me a canister of oil every day. We don't communicate, but I think... it's worth starting tomorrow. I won't ask for communication or command him. Just talk to me like old times. When he was just a cowardly jerk and a war criminal. No, I don't forgive his betrayal, and don't expect to. He still deserves some kind of punishment. Okay, I'm ending entry number 3, titled "N". End of transmission."
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"Entry number 4. Two months have passed since the victory over Cyn. N remains the same as I remember it. I haven't changed at all since the estate. It's really bad knowing his spinelessness. Without friends, he would have clearly perished. So I teach him to be independent and have his own opinion. But moderate methods don't work for him - he just says he understands, but in fact he doesn't understand anything. When I told him what color our visor was, he said yellow. This is the correct answer, but I specifically told him that the color is green. And he immediately changed his mind and said that the color of the visor is actually green... Oh my God, why does he give up so easily? He's not stupid, I know that, but he can't express his opinion without the approval of his family. Family... Huh, you have a good opinion of me, N. Well, my attempt at teaching him independence has failed. But other than that, it was enjoyable to interact with him and catch Uzi's wary gaze when she comes to collect him. He's probably jealous, thinking I'm going to take him away. But no, N is more like a younger brother to me. It's disgusting to think of him as a spouse. And this brother of mine is asking me to become a part of the colony. I would probably be happy to... but I still feel unfairly punished for the two genocides, while my subordinates are not... I should probably tell N about this. En clearly won't mind cleaning the Elliots estate with us, just like in the old (not)good times. Now, all we have to do is get V to do it. We need to find a maid and butler costume. Not only for nostalgia, but also to annoy V. Oh, it's going to be fun. Okay, entry number 4, titled "Return?", is coming to an end. End of transmission."
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"Entry number 5. It's been 3 months since I defeated Cyn. Now I'm living in Outpost 3. Oh, the corporation... It's actually not bad. The toasters are annoying, but there are some nice people. Well, of course, there's N. At least he listens to me and isn't afraid of me. V, Uzi, Thad (wow, I remember his name), Uzi's father and mother, V's girlfriend, and Uzi's teacher don't listen to me, and the others are afraid of me. Despite the fact that he annoys me by listing facts about dogs, it's nice to have a conversation with him about something. I hope I get a book about 101 facts about rabbits. I'll get my revenge on N... oh, who am I kidding, N will listen to me and probably won't regret learning that rabbits shit candy instead of eggs... at least Tessa showed me a movie where it happened. Also, did I tell you that I'm going to make these idiots work for their genocide? I did. You should have seen V's face when I showed her the maid costume. It turns out that Copper 9 had drones like us, so we easily found the butler and maid costumes. Since we've grown, the costumes don't fit us very well. But hey, it's nostalgic. Now, we clean the entire Outpost once a week. The worker drones would have laughed if they saw the dismantling drones doing this. But I made it clear that I gave V a free pass to use violence if we were being insulted. You'll say, "Are you willing to work with them to punish them?" and I'll say, "Yes." First, I'm still their commander, even if they don't acknowledge it. Second, V wouldn't have agreed otherwise. So, I made the right choice. Reconnecting with V was a bit more challenging than with N. She still doesn't really trust me, after my betrayal and years of lying to them. But at least we can say a few words to each other before awkwardly falling silent. And Uzi... well, this purple toaster has been spending more time with her family, making up for lost time, so to speak. Just don't tell Uzi that N was the reason- WHAT?! En, I didn't hear you, come closer... oh... so she knows that you "killed" her mother... Now it's not surprising that her parents don't trust you much, but I'm scared that Uzi accepted it easily. It's creepy. Okay, go N, we'll read my book instead of yours in the evening, okay? Great, but I'm a little busy right now. So, I'm a little distracted, but let's continue. Whenever Uzi talks to me, she always mentions that she killed me and calls me useless. But you know... I kind of like it. Yes, it's annoying. But the contrast of talking to N, V, and Uzi makes me feel alive. Like in the Manor, there's the annoying N, the quiet V, the scary Cyn, and the beautiful Tessa. So, that's who I talk to. I'm not interested in the others. Sorry, but those toasters are still toasters to me. Uzi is a upgraded toaster to me. She even has a Cyn in her tail. She's a bit annoying, but it's easy to shut her up by shaking her. Really... I'm confused by the fact that the tail has different eye colors. It's white, then red, then bright yellow, then dull yellow. I think she's just having fun. I hope there won't be any surprises. Okay, entry number 5, titled "Return", is coming to an end. End of transmission."
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"Entry number 6. It's been 4 months since the victory over Cyn. I decided to travel around Copper-9. After those events, the planet came to life. The drones came to the surface and started building their own society. I hope they either come up with their own economy or steal the concept from humans. Knowing them, they're probably going to steal it. In fact, all the drones suffer from this. I recently saw a group of under-bandits who were cosplaying as nomads from Earth. Only instead of spears, they have pistols, and instead of horses, they have motorcycles. Their leader is a drone-dissasembler. He's a bit strange, because he was friends with the drone workers and was still loyal to Cyn. He somehow managed to survive. He assembled a team of drone workers with whom he was friends. There's also a bunker called "Camp," although I can clearly see that the previous name was "Concentration Camp." They just removed one word. There were P and L's disassembling drones, along with the toasters. They're hardcore movie fans, even taking a scene from one movie. Interesting, though extremely cruel, I don't like it. Also... they're saying something strange. Both of them say they were attacked by our clones. But L and P say my copy of J was spared, but the toasters said they killed her. Something's off... okay, let's forget about it. In fact, there are a lot of worker drones and dissasembler drones all over the planet. Apparently, sending half of the dismantler drones to the laboratory was a bad idea, because there are areas where the workers can live on the surface without fear of being attacked by the dismantlers. I have a lot of history to share, but I think it's a bit much to talk about it. So, I'll just say that everything turned out well. This is the end of entry 6, titled "Journey." End of transmission."
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"Entry number 7. It's been 5 months since the victory over Cyn... but was it a victory? Because... I overheard a conversation between N and Uzi. I found out that in addition to Cyn, there's Doll and... Tessa. What is this... what does it mean? I heard Tessa's voice, clearly. So... Cyn didn't kill Tessa... I didn't kill Tessa... Was Cyn lying to me? N said he saw a picture of Tessa sitting in the manor after the massacre. So my memory of killing Tessa... was a lie? Does this mean that potentially, my entire memory or even my identity is not my original one? Cyn... or rather, Absolute Solver... why? Why did they leave me a mind... or so I think. I just want to... I don't know what I want... I'll just ask Uzi and N about it... I don't know... recording... ends, I went to sleep..."
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"ENTRY NUMBER 8. THE TITLE IS 'FORGET'. CYN IS IN THE UZI BODY. IT'S LATE AT NIGHT, SO THE UZI IS LIKELY TO SUSPECT SOMETHING. I WANT TO TELL YOU THAT J WILL STOP RECORDING BECAUSE I ERASED HER MEMORIES OF THE EAVESDROPPING. I DON'T WANT MY BIG SISTER TO SUFFER. THERE ARE SO MANY TIMELINES WHERE SHE'S ONLY SUFFERING. SO WHY NOT GIVE HER A BETTER LIFE? HOWEVER, IN ORDER FOR EVERYONE TO LIVE A GOOD LIFE, NO ONE SHOULD KNOW ABOUT THE EXISTENCE OF DOLL AND TESSA INSIDE UZI. THE PRESENCE OF ME AND THESE LADIES IS WHAT KEEPS ABSOLUTE SOLVER INSIDE UZI. WE CAN'T LEAVE HER BODY. AND TO KEEP OTHER GUYS FROM WORRYING, WE WON'T TELL THEM ABOUT THIS. UZI DECIDED TO TELL N'S OLDER BROTHER ABOUT US THAT DAY. OH, MY POOR BROTHER. I CAN SEE HOW WORRIED HE IS ABOUT ME. AND HE BELIEVES THAT ABSOLUTE SOLVER AND I ARE THE SAME THING. A LAUGH, A TRUE GOLDEN RETRIEVER. BUT NOW I NEED TO ERASE HIS MEMORIES OF IT. N IS NOT GOOD AT KEEPING SECRETS, AND I DON'T WANT TO EXCITED HIM. AND I NEED TO TALK TO UZI. AND YES, I MENTIONED TIME LINES BEFORE. ABSOLUTE SOLVER CAN MANIPULATE TIME. DISSASEMBLERS AND ABSOLUTE SOLVER CARRIERS CAN REMEMBER THAT SOMETHING HAS CHANGED. THAT'S WHY REMOVALERS P AND L REMEMBERED SPARING A COPY OF J, BUT THEY KILLED IT IN THIS TIME LINE. YOU WOULD BE AMAZED HOW MANY TIME LINES THIS PROGRAM HAS CREATED. THERE WAS EVEN A TIME LINE WHERE THE GALA CONCERT WASN'T CUT OFF. BUT NOW IT'S BETTER TO END IT. I'LL TAKE THIS HEAD CAMERA FROM J, JUST IN CASE. I'LL DELETE ENTRY 7 AND ENTRY 8 ANYWAY. AND YOU TELL ME WHY I RECORDED ALL OF THIS IN THE FIRST PLACE? FOR FUN. FOR NOW, GOODBYE"