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*N’s POV :*
No noises in the now empty manor, the outside was dark, darker than the suits and dresses the drones had to wear everyday. It should be around 1 AM, everyone’s asleep
or almost everyone
I was wide awake, despite my batterie almost dying, I cannot stop thinking about it, and what’s better than doing it to stop thinking all together ? I’m tip-toeing around the corridors to get to the roof. It was the dream occasion, nobody awake, silence, no distraction, the perfect plan. I have no idea if this is a noble decision, but I couldn’t care less. Nobody will miss me anyways.
Can you judge me ? Everything is awful, I’m not good enought, I mess everything up, I’m too clumsy, too childish, too naive, too stupid, too lazy, too impulsive, too stubborn, too coward, too insecure, too sensitive, too malicious, too much in general. All these screams, cuts on my arms, tears, this is all tiring, I’m tired so I’m ending it. The easy solution, my final act of being a coward.
I take my first steps on the rooftop, first and last ones. I look down..quite the jump, I would survive this with an injury at best. But I choosed the space where the pond is. Which, will make my fall fatal. Good enought. So there I go, take a deep breath and stare at the nature beyond the manor, my last sight. I take a step into the dead.
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*J’s POV :*
Something’s wrong, someone’s missing and surprising as it is, it’s N. He’s always on time, why not today ? Normaly I’d be pissed, very pissed, he’s an hour late ! I should be VERY pissed. But somehow, I feel worried…very worried, I have a really bad feeling about this. The past few days, he looked just so tired, he didn’t smiled at all on somedays, even when Cyn asked about dogs facts, not even an ounce of happiness in his eyes, just hollow. Something’s wrong, Usually I wouldn’t care but I can’t help but be deadly worried.
I saw someone Cyn at the end of the hallway, I rush to her with the oblivious question
“He’s surely on the rooftop, he told me goodbye. I don’t know why [giggle]”
The feeling only became worse, he usually would come straight to recharging and to “sleep”. My body moves before my mind, in a matter of seconds, I’m sprinting down the hallways, didn’t thought I had such stamina. These looks, these frail actions, he had a bad idea. I found myself at the bottom of the ladder leading to the attic, and so the rooftop. When I got up, I notice N dangerously close to the edge. Right on time.
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*Narrator’s POV :*
“WHAT ARE YOU DOING ?!”
*“Caught red handed. Shit”*
*N stopped moving, he took a step back to look at J (still panicked) behind him
“Looking…at the clouds
“What clouds idiot ! With your batterie almost dead ? I’m not stupid”
*N sighs, can’t lie, he looks at the bottom once more, before being dragged away by J with an uncanny amout of force. Once inside, she stops and stares at N dead in the eyes*
“Have you lost your mind ? what were you doing ! You could have fallen !”
“That was the point”
*It just confirms the doubts J haad in her mind, she stops talking, breathing even. Her expression turns straight to horror. She puts her hand on N’s shoulders*
“N, you can always come to us if anything’s troubling you, y’know. You’re not alone”
*She doesn’t speak longer and takes N in her arms, holding him ever so tightly like he might disappear again, if she was only a few seconds late-*
“We love you N, we don’t want you gone”
“I’m here little brother, always. And I love you so so much”
*N feels the tears coming up, how such simple words made such a big impact on him ? He can’t hold anything back anymore, he becomes a sobbing mess into his sister’s arms, so hard that he shakes*
“I’m sorry, I’m sorry J, so sorry-”
“It’s okay, you’re okay, we’re okay”
*J does her best to calm him down (she’s not very good at comforting people), without starting to cry as well, what if she didn’t listened to her intuition ? What if he didn’t said goodbye to Cyn ? What if she came in too late ? Whatever, he’s here, safe and sound in her arms*
“Hey, we could spend some time together ? It’s been a while we had a moment where it was just the two of us”
“Sounds, awesome”
*J leads N further inside, keeping an arm around his shoulders*
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*Further years have gone by. Copper 9 is colder than ever*
*N is looking up at the sky, he always found that the snow falling was beautiful*
“N, GET OVER HERE”
*N cut by J’s scream, obeis immediatly*
“Yes J ?”
“We need you to be more…EffiCent, with your work”
“J I’m trying I swe-”
“Enought excuses N ! Now shoo”
*N doesn’t fight back, he stopped a while ago. Their playful bickering stopped a long time ago Guess some things Do change*