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The van showed up at 3:52 in the morning, right where Peter said it would.
He had earned that van. Three pharmacies were robbed in eleven days, one in Astoria, one in Jackson Heights, one in Elmhurst, and the police were treating them as three separate crews just because the break-ins didn't match. One gate was cut. One lock was drilled. One door just kicked in.
But the way they got in wasn't the interesting part. The interesting part was what they took.
They took painkillers. And left the Adderall.
Nobody left Adderall. Adderall sold faster and easier and every idiot with a crowbar knew it. Leaving it behind meant these guys weren't selling to whoever came along. They had one buyer they were collecting mass quantities for.
So Peter bought a paper map at a hardware store and spread it on his card table and marked the three robberies in red pen. Then he marked every pharmacy in a two-mile radius that sat within a few hundred feet of a highway on-ramp.
Nine.
He walked to all nine. It took him a whole Tuesday. Four of them had new steel bars on the gate, the kind that would take twenty minutes and a grinder, and these guys worked in under six.
That left five. Only one of the five had a back alley. If you were driving a van you didn't want photographed, you parked it in the alley. So that’s the one he chose.
He had been on the roof across the street for two hours and eleven minutes. He had a thermos of coffee he'd found in a donation box on Skillman Ave. He set it down carefully on the ledge, because he intended to come back for it, and went over the edge.
Four men. They all got out of the van. The one stayed behind and walked to the mouth of the alley to keep watch. He took his phone out and looked at it, distracted by a text alert.
Peter crawled down the brick wall head first, one hand at a time, slowly. Fast was loud. He had learned that the hard way. He stopped inches behind the man's ear.
"Hey," he said.
The man jumped with shock and opened his mouth to shout. Peter shot a web across it before any sound came out, then caught him under the arms and set him down on the pavement with his back against the wall. He webbed his hands to the brick and feet to the concrete to keep him in place.
"Breathe through your nose. You're fine. It comes off by itself in about an hour and a half, and the cops will be here way before that."
He went in through the backdoor the others had already pried open.
Inside it was half-dark and smelled like floor wax. Two men were behind the pharmacy counter. One stood on a step stool, sweeping bottles into a mesh bag. The other knelt by the bottom shelf with a crowbar in one hand and a flashlight in his teeth. The third was rooting around in the back office.
Peter could see the shape of a gun under step stool’s jacket, high on his right hip.
That was the whole job, most nights. Find the gun before it comes out.
The man saw him and reached for it.
Peter shot a web at his hip. The web spread wide and flat, covering the gun, holster and half the jacket, and stuck all of it to the man's own body. He yanked at the webbing twice. His hand came away empty both times. He looked down at his own side like it had betrayed him.
The second man jumped up from the ground and swung the crowbar at Peter's head.
Peter didn't duck. Ducking meant giving up ground, and behind him was the front of the store, with a large window providing an easy potential escape route for a spooked robber.
He took the crowbar on his left forearm. It hurt immediately but he had felt worse. He closed the distance while the man was still recovering from the swing, caught his wrist, twisted the bar out of his hand, and put him face down on the floor with one arm folded behind his back. Peter webbed him in place, almost looking like handcuffs behind his back.
Then the front door opened.
A man in his sixties stood in the doorway holding a set of keys and a paper cup of coffee. He was wearing a pharmacy coat. He came in at four in the morning to do inventory, because New Yorkers are hard working so of course that was when you did inventory. He made a sound that wasn't a word.
The third robber ran from the back office straight for him.
Peter shot a web at the pharmacist's chest and pulled. The man came off his feet and slid behind a shelf of vitamins, yelping. Peter's second web caught the robber's ankle four steps later and dropped him into a display of reading glasses.
Outside, the van's engine revved. Step stool ran while Peter was helping the shop owner.
Peter got to the front door in a second and a half but the van was already twenty feet down the alley.
He could catch it. That wasn't the question. The question was what he'd be leaving behind — three men webbed up and a sixty-year-old man breathing like a bellows behind the vitamins.
So he let it go. He flicked a tracker at the back door as it turned the corner, a thing the size of a matchbook that he'd built out of a dead phone, a coin battery and about eleven dollars of solder. It stuck. It would tell his laptop where the van was every ninety minutes for the next six days.
Then he went back inside and crouched down next to the shelf.
"Sir. Hey." He kept his voice low and slow. "You're okay. Nobody in here is going to touch you. What's your name?"
"Anwar." The man's hands shook around his keys. "My son works Sundays. He's supposed to—"
"He's not here. It's just you and me and three guys having a really bad week."
Peter sat down on the floor next to him. Standing over people scared them. Also his arm hurt and sitting down was, honestly, a relief.
"Can I tell you something funny?" he said. "They didn't take one thing from the front of the store. Not one. That guy came in here with a crowbar and walked right past an entire aisle of candy. No vision at all."
Anwar laughed. It came out cracked and surprised, but it came out.
That was the trick, and it had taken Peter years to learn it. When he was fifteen the jokes had just fallen out of him, constantly, whether they helped or not. Now he used them on purpose. A joke got a person's heart rate down faster than anything else he had.
He was very good at making frightened people feel safe. He thought about that sometimes on the way home, and never for long.
He waited on the roof across the street until the first police car turned onto the block. Then he picked up his thermos and went home.
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Home was a fourth-floor walk-up in Sunnyside with a radiator that banged all winter and an elevator that had been broken since April.
One room. A mattress on a frame he'd built himself out of two-by-fours, because a real bed frame cost more than he wanted to spend. A kitchenette. A card table under the window with one folding chair.
He'd never bought a second chair. There was no reason to.
He paid the rent in cash on the first of every month, in an envelope, straight to the hand of a landlord named Rick who owned four buildings in the neighborhood and didn’t ask questions he didn't want answers to. That arrangement worked because it was a trade. Rick took cash from a tenant with no bank account and no lease, and in exchange Peter never called him about anything.
Not the elevator. Not the radiator. Not the kitchen tap that had dripped since March, which Peter had fixed himself in nine minutes with a washer that cost forty cents. Rick's repair guy took three weeks to show up and did worse work. Peter had done the math on that in his first month and never thought about it again.
The card table was where he worked on his experiment and web fluid. A hot plate, a stirrer he'd made out of a computer fan and two magnets, a rack of forty small amber bottles, and a spiral notebook to record his observations. Out the window ran a length of dryer duct taped to a plastic bin and a bathroom fan, which was his fume hood. It was almost certainly illegal. It also worked.
Above the table was a corkboard, and on the corkboard were two things.
A photo of his Aunt May on a fire escape in July, laughing at something off to the side, holding a watering can. He'd taken it himself, which meant he wasn't in it, which was why it still made sense to anybody but him.
Next to it, her obituary, four inches long, from a paper that had run it because she'd fed half of Queens out of a church basement for six years.
That was the whole board. It had been the whole board for three years. He had nothing new to add.
He stripped the top of his suit off and looked at his left forearm in the bathroom mirror. It was swollen from the wrist halfway to the elbow, and going purple fast. He pressed along the bone with two fingers, felt for anything grinding or loose, and found nothing.
Not broken. Just ugly.
He taped it anyway, and then he ate.
The rice cooker had been going since before he left. It was always going. He dumped the whole pot into a mixing bowl, cracked six eggs on top, opened a can of black beans and didn't bother heating them, and ate standing at the counter.
The strength wasn't the part people wouldn't have believed. It was the food. Or better yet, the amount of food.
On a quiet week he needed about five thousand calories a day just to stay level. A bad night — a real one, with a fall in it or a broken bone — could push him to nine or ten thousand for three days straight while his body repaired itself. His ribs had been cracked twice. They were fine in two days, and although one time he had been so hungry on day one that he ate an entire tray of day-old empanadas standing in a stairwell at two in the morning.
He made four peanut butter sandwiches, ate three, and put the fourth in his jacket pocket for later. There was always a later. Later was always worse than he planned for.
Then he got out the chemistry, because he was awake anyway. It was always difficult to get to sleep after a night patrolling, or a stakeout like tonight.
The web fluid was the single most expensive thing about his life and the single best. The formula he'd invented at fifteen had been genuinely brilliant, and it had also dissolved after ninety minutes and lost half its strength below forty degrees, which had nearly killed him twice in one February.
The version he had now held down to twenty-eight below. It came apart on a timer he could set himself by changing one ingredient. It had taken two years, roughly four hundred failed batches, and about the price of a used car in supplies. It had also taken a scar on his right thumb from the batch that hardened inside a cartridge while the cartridge was still in his hand.
He mixed it on the hot plate and spun it in a machine he'd built out of a hard drive motor and a shoebox. There was a strip of duct tape on the lid that said DO NOT OPEN WHILE SPINNING in his own handwriting. He'd written it as a joke. There was nobody to tell it to.
Twenty-two cartridges. About ten days of Spider-Manning.
Then the suit. There was a four-inch tear along the left side where the crowbar had caught the fabric on the follow-through. He sat on the floor with his back against the radiator and sewed it shut.
The fabric was his own. He'd spent two years getting it right: tough enough to survive brick, stretchy enough to move in, and dyed with something that didn't run when it got wet. That last part sounded stupid until the first night he bled into red fabric and couldn't tell how much of the blood was his.
He was good at all of this now. That was the thing.
At seventeen he'd been fast and strong and lucky. At twenty-two he was fast and strong and good, because at seventeen he'd had homework and a girlfriend and a best friend and an aunt and a chemistry final, and now he had four hours of work a day and nothing else.
Three years of nothing else will make anybody good at something.
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The work was tutoring.
He taught high school science and math to rich kids in Manhattan, four hours most afternoons, eighty dollars an hour, cash.
Only cash. That part wasn't a preference, it was the whole shape of his life. He had no bank account and no credit card and no way to get either one, because the paper trail behind Peter Parker was a driver's license and a GED and nothing else, and every bank he'd walked into had wanted a second form of something he didn't have. So he got paid in twenties at the end of a session, folded them, and put them in a coffee tin on the shelf over the sink.
It cost him clients. Some parents didn't want to keep cash in the house for a tutor. He'd lost two that way and hadn't argued about it, because arguing meant explaining. There was no shortage of kids needing tutors anyways.
He'd landed on it because it was the only job he could disappear from.
A store job had a manager who noticed. An office job had a badge you swiped and a chat window that showed when you were away. Tutoring was one guy, one kid and a subject, on his own schedule. If the police scanner buzzed in his pocket in the middle of a session, he could reschedule and mumble something about a family emergency, and the worst that happened was that somebody found a different tutor for Thursdays.
He'd lost four clients that way in two years. That stung less than losing a whole job. It stung a lot less than the alternative, which was somebody dying eleven blocks away because Peter had been worried about getting written up.
That Thursday it was Tanner Whitfield-Cross, who was seventeen and had never once in his life been told no, and who was explaining to Peter why the mitochondria was basically a battery. Like an AA.
"It's more like a power plant," Peter said, for the third time in twenty minutes. "The battery is the ATP. The mitochondria is the thing that makes the batteries."
"Sure. Whatever. Is that gonna be on the test?"
"It's always on the test, Tanner. It's the whole chapter."
Tanner shrugged in a way that suggested the whole chapter was up for debate and went back to his phone.
Peter looked at him for a second. Really looked. It was a habit he'd picked up in the last couple of years and he suspected it was the actual reason parents kept paying him.
Tanner wasn't stupid. Tanner had gotten a 4 on a practice test with no studying, and then a 2 on the real deal after three weeks of prep. That wasn't a knowledge problem. That was a panic problem wearing a knowledge problem's clothes.
"Hey," Peter said. "Put the phone down a second. Not as a punishment. Just for a second."
Tanner put the phone down with tremendous suffering.
"What happens in your head when you sit down to take a test?"
"...What?"
"Physically. What's the first thing that happens." Peter leaned back in his chair. "Because you know this stuff. You knew it before I got here. You told me the electron transport chain in the wrong order, then you fixed it yourself in about four seconds without me saying anything, and then you said 'or whatever' at the end like you were apologizing for it."
Tanner's ears went red.
"I don't know," he said. "Everything just gets really loud."
"Yeah," Peter said. "I know."
For about ninety seconds they actually had it. Phone face down, pencil in Tanner's hand, the two of them working out a plan that had nothing to do with mitochondria and everything to do with getting a seventeen-year-old's hands to stop sweating. Peter felt the warm click of something going right, which he could not get anywhere else in his life anymore.
Then Mrs. Whitfield-Cross appeared in the doorway holding a mug that said WORLD'S OKAYEST GOLFER.
"How's he doing?" she asked, the way you'd ask a mechanic about a noise your car was making.
The ninety seconds died on the table. Tanner picked his phone back up.
"He's doing great, actually. We were just—"
"Because I told Richard, if he doesn't get at least a 4 we're putting him in the intensive program, and if there's anything else you could be doing for the eighty an hour we're already paying—"
"He knows the material," Peter said. "He knows it well. What he needs is—"
He stopped, because the end of that sentence was someone in the room who isn't grading him, and it wasn't his fight, and all he had left was forty dollars in the coffee tin at home and no other sessions until Thursday.
"He'll be okay," he said.
She didn't look convinced. That was fair. Peter wasn't sure he believed it either.
Eighty an hour was the going rate for a tutor with no diploma on the wall. Parents like the Whitfield-Crosses paid twice that without blinking for somebody who could say a school name they recognized.
He could have charged four times that if he'd been able to tell the truth.
The truth was that Peter had gone to Midtown School of Science and Technology, which was one of the best public high schools in the city, and had been the best student in his year. The truth was that at fifteen he had built the web fluid in his bedroom out of drugstore supplies. The truth was he was on track for a full-ride to MIT with a research internship with Stark Industries already lined up. The truth was that he had once explained orbital mechanics well enough to satisfy Tony Stark himself.
None of that existed anymore.
He had applied to MIT in his senior year with Ned and MJ. All three of them were rejected, because at the time Peter's face was on every screen in the country and the school didn't want the story attached to it. Ned and MJ appealed and got in. Peter never got to appeal, because before he could, he asked a wizard to make the world forget him, and the world did.
So the appeal never happened. There was no letter, no rejection, no file. There was nobody at that school who had ever heard of him.
It took him fourteen months to get a driver's license again. He'd told a clerk in a basement office in Flushing that there had been a fire and he'd lost everything, which was close enough. He'd taken a high school equivalency test at nineteen in a room with eleven adults and a proctor who kept sighing. He'd passed it in ninety minutes.
That was his whole paper trail. A test score and a license.
He said, "We'll go over mitochondria again next week," and let himself out.
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In addition to his meager earning as a tutor, Peter also sustained his lifestyle (i.e. massive appetite) through a type of trade and barter with his neighbours.
He fixed things around the neighborhood constantly, and almost none of it paid. It had started by accident and turned into a whole second economy that ran on containers of food and small favors. Mrs. Ocampo in 2A had a window air conditioner that ran hot and kept tripping the breaker, and Peter heard her swearing at it through the airshaft and knocked on her door. The fan motor had a burned-out winding. He rewound it at her kitchen table in forty minutes with a screwdriver and a spool of wire. She tried to give him twenty dollars. He said no. She gave him a container of pancit instead, which was a much better deal for everyone involved.
After that it moved through the building the way anything moves through a building. Mr. Federman's stereo, which had a dead part the size of a fingernail and had been sitting in a closet for nine years. The super's snowblower. Half the building's wifi, one apartment at a time, usually at night.
And Yusuf's.
Yusuf ran the bodega on Skillman between 46th and 47th. In July his walk-in cooler died and a repair company quoted him eleven hundred dollars. Peter opened it up, found a seized fan bearing and a swollen capacitor, and fixed both for sixty dollars in parts from a supply house on Northern Boulevard.
Then he rebuilt the security system, because it had been installed in 2014 and never touched since, and it had been recording over itself every eleven hours. He explained twice, patiently, why the camera over the door mattered more than the one over the register.
Yusuf paid him in sandwiches.
Peter had saved him something like two thousand dollars over the course of a summer, and what he got for it was a standing tab at the deli counter. Anybody looking at that on paper would have said he was being taken advantage of. Peter didn't see it that way. A sandwich was a thing he could eat tonight, and Yusuf was a man who talked to him, and both of those were worth more to him than the money was.
"You know what you should do," Yusuf said, every couple of weeks, working the slicer. "You should open a little shop. Phones, laptops. People pay real money for that. My cousin has a place on Roosevelt Avenue — after his rent, after his supplies, after everything, he's still putting four thousand a month in his pocket. Four thousand. For fixing screens."
"Yeah. Maybe."
"Four thousand, Peter."
"That's great, Yusuf."
"You're not listening. You never listen." Yusuf wrapped the sandwich in paper, set it down on the counter, and pointed at him with the knife, without a trace of menace in it. "You do everything by yourself, all the time. Somebody has to say it out loud to you."
"Somebody just did."
Peter picked up the sandwich, gave him a wink on his way past the register, and pushed out through the door with his shoulder before Yusuf could get going again. He heard him laughing about it through the glass.
That was the pattern, if he'd ever laid it out on paper.
There was a woman named Dani at the test-prep company he'd contracted through for a while. She taught math, and asked him three separate times if he wanted to get a beer with the other tutors on a Thursday. He said maybe, then he said definitely, then he said he had a thing. After the third time she stopped asking. The relief he felt would have scared him if he'd been paying attention.
Then there was the guy at the laundromat who did the crossword and kept trying to get Peter to help with 14-Across.
There was Soo-jin, who did his tattoos, who invited him to a group show her studio was putting on and wrote the address on the back of an aftercare card. He didn't go. The next time he came in, she said, "You didn't come." Not angry. Just letting him know she'd noticed.
He had reasons for all of it, and the reasons were good, and he could say them in order. He would have to lie to them constantly, forever, about the biggest thing in his life. He would vanish on them in the middle of sentences. And everyone who had ever gotten close enough to know the truth had ended up in the way of it.
The reasons were true. That was what made them so easy to use.
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He had three tattoos.
The first one was snapdragons. A small cluster of them on his right forearm, in a washed-out red, the same color May had grown in pots on the fire escape.
He got them six weeks after she died.
She died in a building on the east side of Manhattan, in the middle of the worst night of his life, with the whole top floor of it collapsed around them. There had been a man who was not really a man and there had been a lot of noise and then it was quiet, and she was lying in the rubble and she talked to him for a little while and then she stopped.
He held her hand. He said her name twice.
Then he heard sirens coming up the avenue, and he understood, in a very clear and very cold way, that he could not be there when they arrived. His face was on the news. There were people looking for him. If he stayed, everything she had just said to him stopped meaning anything.
So he let go of her hand and he ran, and he did not get to sit with her, and he did not get to ride in anything, and he was not there when they took her out.
He never told anyone that part. It was the part he thought about most.
Six weeks later he walked into a shop in Bushwick with no appointment and got lucky with a woman named Soo-jin, who didn't ask why a kid who looked about nineteen wanted flowers on his arm. He couldn't have explained it anyway. Grief had a shape and it needed to go somewhere that wasn't the inside of his own chest, and it turned out skin would hold things nothing else would.
The second one was a Lego brick.
Four studs, no bigger than a quarter, in the crook of his right elbow. He got it eight months after the first one.
It was for Ned, who had been his best friend since third grade. Some nights the size of what he'd lost only made sense in something small and stupid and specific — a Death Star they'd built together over one entire weekend when they were twelve, fifteen hundred pieces, on the floor of Ned's bedroom, arguing about the instructions.
Ned was alive. That was the thing. Ned was alive and healthy and finishing college in Boston and had no idea Peter existed.
The third one was the big one, and it took two sittings.
Black dahlias. A whole spread of them across his left shoulder and down over the shoulder blade, in the darkest ink Soo-jin had.
That one was MJ.
Two years of decathlon meets and late homework calls and a first kiss on a Ferris wheel, and a girl he had loved so much that he had wrecked the world trying to keep her, and none of it fit in one afternoon under a needle.
He told Soo-jin it was for an ex. She asked if he wanted something a little less — her word — funereal.
He said no. Funereal was the point. He hadn't gotten a breakup or a fight or a slow fade like normal people. He'd gotten a Tuesday where she existed in his life and a Wednesday where she didn't, not even a little, not even inside her own head. He needed something on his body as big as that, because nothing else was going to hold it.
He never told her what any of it meant beyond the bare minimum.
There wasn't anybody left to tell.
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Four nights a week he went to the factory.
It had been a paper plant once. Then a warehouse. Then nothing for ten years. Chain link on three sides, a hole in the fence on the fourth, a roof that leaked onto a stained concrete floor.
There was a bus in it.
A stripped city bus, no seats, no glass, sitting on four flat tires in the middle of the floor like a whale in a church. Somebody had dragged it in there for a reason and left it for a better one. Peter had found the place in his first year, looking for somewhere to be at three in the morning that wasn't a rooftop, and he'd stayed because of the bus.
He hadn't started training out of discipline. He'd started because of a guy with a piece of rebar.
It was two years ago. The guy was ordinary. No powers, no gear, nothing special about him at all except that he knew how to fight and Peter didn't. Peter was four times stronger and got hit six times anyway, and ended up lying on a rooftop afterward with two cracked ribs, breathing carefully, doing math.
The math came out like this: being strong and knowing what to do with strong are two completely different skills, and he had been coasting on the first one since he was fifteen.
His ribs were fine in two days. His pride took longer.
So he learned. There was nobody to teach him, so he taught himself off video. Wrestling from a clinic in Miami somebody had uploaded in four parts with no sound. Grip fighting from a man in Georgia with a tripod and a bad microphone. Boxing footwork, drilled on a line of tape on the factory floor, until he could do it in the dark. He learned how to fall on concrete. He learned how to get up from underneath somebody bigger. He learned, over about a year and a half, to stop leading with his face.
The strength work was for a different reason.
He cut the rear axle out of the bus with a borrowed grinder. It weighed something like nine hundred pounds, it had no handle, and it didn't balance. That was the point. A barbell taught you to lift a barbell. A bus axle taught you to lift a car off somebody.
He carried engine blocks the length of the floor and back until his forearms stopped working. He climbed the support columns with the axle chained across his shoulders. He built a heavy bag out of a duffel bag of wet sand and three layers of conveyor belt, and it lasted about five weeks before it burst.
The last hour of every session was hitting, and the hitting was not about power.
Anyone could hit hard. Hitting exactly as hard as the situation needed and not one bit harder — putting a man on the ground and not through a wall — that was the actual skill, and it took him thousands of repetitions, alone, in a building where the only sounds were the creek slapping the bulkhead and his own breathing.
He was there the night he turned twenty-two. He hadn't planned that. He just noticed it around midnight, standing in the dark with his hands taped and sweat running off his jaw, and thought, huh.
Then he did another set.
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In November there was a house in Woodside.
The call came over the scanner as a burglary in progress, two-family home, 51st Street, and Peter was eleven blocks away and got there in ninety seconds, which turned out to matter.
The lights were on upstairs.
Three men. A family of five. That was what he could see from the roof of the house next door, through a bedroom window: a woman sitting on the edge of a bed with her hands flat on her knees, and two kids behind her, and a man in the doorway with a gun held low and loose, the way people hold a thing they've decided they're going to use.
The husband was downstairs. Peter could hear him through the floor, talking too fast, trying to explain where a safe was.
Three men in a house with kids in it. He couldn't do this loud. Loud meant somebody upstairs pulled a trigger before he got there.
So he did it quiet, and he did it from the top down.
He came through the bathroom window on the second floor. It took him four seconds to get the storm window off and he did it with his fingers, no tools, no noise. He crossed the hallway on the ceiling because the floorboards in these houses were a hundred years old and would give him away.
The man in the bedroom doorway had his back to the hall.
Peter dropped behind him, put one hand over the gun — the whole gun, wrapping it, so the slide couldn't move and the trigger couldn't be reached — and put his other forearm across the man's throat and held it there for six seconds until he went slack. He lowered him to the carpet. He webbed his hands, his feet, and the gun to the floor, separately.
Then he turned around, and the woman was looking right at him, and so were both kids, and the older one was maybe nine.
He put a finger to the mouth of his mask.
She was shaking but nodded anyway, and she reached back and pulled both kids in tight against her and put her hand over the little one's mouth, gently, and that was the bravest thing Peter saw all year.
The second man was in the back bedroom going through drawers with a flashlight. He heard Peter at the last second and turned. Peter webbed the flashlight to his hand and yanked it up over his head, and while the man was following his own arm upward, Peter kicked his feet out from under him and pinned him to the floor with a wide sheet of web across the chest.
That left the one downstairs with the husband.
Peter came down the stairs on the wall, not the steps. The wall doesn’t creak.
The third man had a knife against the husband's neck and his back to the staircase, and he was still talking, and he never stopped talking, and that was the problem — Peter could take the knife or he could take the man, and if he took the man wrong the knife moved four inches.
So he webbed the husband instead.
One shot, wide, across the man's chest and shoulder. He pulled him backward and down, out from under the blade, and the knife went through empty air.
The robber didn't understand what had happened. He swung at where the hostage had been, twice, fast and panicky, at about chest height.
Peter came in on the second swing.
He was going for the wrist. He got most of it. But he came in a half step short, and the tip of the blade caught him across the left side, just under the ribs, and dragged four inches before he had the man's arm locked out and the knife on the floor.
He hit him once, in the middle of the chest, exactly as hard as it needed to be. The man sat down hard on the carpet and stayed there, wheezing, done fighting.
Peter didn't feel the cut for about ten seconds. Then he did, all at once, hot and deep and wet down his side.
He got the family into the kitchen. He got the front door open for the police. The nine-year-old, standing behind her mother's leg, looked at the side of his suit, where the fabric had gone dark and wet.
"You're bleeding," she said.
"Yeah," Peter said. "It's not as bad as it looks. You did great, by the way. You were really quiet. That was the whole thing — that was the entire plan and you did it perfectly."
She thought about that. Then she said, "Okay," and Peter went out the back door and up the wall and was three roofs away before the first cop car pulled up.
He walked home. Swinging pulled at his side, so he walked, ten blocks, with one arm pressed flat against his ribs under the jacket.
By the time he got upstairs it had already started closing.
That was the part nobody would have believed either. He peeled the suit off at the bathroom sink and looked at it in the mirror, and the bleeding had mostly stopped on its own and the edges of the cut had gone tacky and pink. Four hours in, it would be a scab. Two days, a pale line. A week, nothing.
He didn't need stitches. He'd never needed stitches. What he needed was for the thing to stay shut while it did its work, so he ran a thin strip of webbing along it, edge to edge, and pressed it down with two fingers, and that was the entire medical procedure.
Then he sat down on the edge of his mattress with a towel against his side and waited for his hands to stop shaking.
It was 1:40 in the morning. He was twenty-two years old. He had just done something genuinely hard, and done it well, and there was nobody in the world he could tell.
He thought about that for a while. Then he got up, ate most of a loaf of bread, and went to sleep.
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If you had asked him, he would have said he lived alone because it was safer.
He would have had evidence ready. He'd have told you about a hospital hallway and about a woman lying in rubble on the east side of Manhattan. He'd have told you about Ned standing in the middle of a fight he had no business being anywhere near, holding a ring of orange light with both hands because Peter had asked him to. He'd have told you about MJ falling three hundred feet off a construction scaffold, and about the fact that somebody else caught her, because Peter hadn't been fast enough.
All of that was true. That was what made it work so well.
What he never said, and never quite thought, was that it also functioned as an arrangement. He'd never shaken hands on it. He'd never written it down. But it ran his life and went something like this:
He did the work. He kept doing it, every night, forever, and he didn't complain, and he was good at it. In exchange, he didn't get people.
That was the trade. He had made it himself, on his own, three years ago, on a rooftop in the middle of the night after asking a wizard to erase him from the world and watching what that cost. Nobody had offered it to him. Nobody could have talked him out of it, because he'd never said it out loud long enough for anybody to argue.
He called it safe. He called it safe for three years.
The thing about that kind of arrangement is that the arithmetic always comes out the same, no matter what numbers you put into it, which is usually a sign that no arithmetic is happening at all.
So: a twenty-two-year-old with a hotshot career in tutoring, a corkboard with one photograph on it, a rice cooker that never got all the way empty, and one folding chair.
It stayed like that until a Tuesday in September, when he carried his laundry down four flights of stairs because the elevator was still broken and ran straight into a cardboard box at the bottom landing.
The box said KITCHEN (FRAGILE????) in black marker.
Behind the box was Ned Leeds.