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Aerion tasted the end of his divinity in the copper sting of blood.
It was a brutal, airless awakening. Before his mind could process the pain, his body realized it was suffocating. His nose was a wet, pulpy sponge of clotted heat, forced shut by the impact, and the pressure in his ears was deafening. When he gasped for air, his mouth filled with a metallic surge.
He spat, and a jagged, white secret clattered against the stone floor. A tooth. His tongue found the raw, screaming hole left behind in his gums.
Blinking through a blurred smear of purple and red, Aerion pieced together the shadows. A man was kneeled with his back turned, using his cloak to cover the gap in the heavy door, muffling the room from the corridor outside.
It was his guard—a man who had entered unannounced in the dead of night, whose hands had been fumbling at Aerion's sleeping garment when sleepiness ran out of him with a surge of hollow realization.
Aerion had tried to scramble up, pushing the man aside in a desperate burst of surprise, but the guard was quicker. Heavy fingers coiled into Aerion's long silver hair, slamming his face down into the nightstand beside his bed.
The impact hadn't just broken his face; it had shattered his mind.
Prior to the collision, the world had been a cathedral of whispers. Aerion had acknowledged early on that he lived within a golden weight—a constant, rhythmic thrum of ancient echoes. A chorus of voices telling him he was not merely a boy, but a creature of eternal resonance—a prince whose blood was the fire that forged the Fourteen Flames, and whose stride made the stone a mere footstool for his kin.
But then, the strike. The voices didn't fade—they snapped like a bell hit by a sledge. In their place was static: the high, thin scream of a void, a cold white noise that made the world feel paper-thin and terrifyingly quiet.
For the first time in his nine years, Aerion felt small. The internal silence was the most terrifying part. If a common man could touch him—a dragon—then he was nothing but bone and silk.
A heartbeat passed. Aerion's fingers clawed blindly across the floor, closing around a carved dragon—a gift from his uncle Baelor for his ninth name day, only days ago. A prince's toy, reduced to a splintered weapon.
With a quiet, frantic lunge, Aerion drove the toy into the man’s nape.
It was an accidental clean strike. The only sound was a wet, splintering crunch, like a dry branch snapping inside a bag of raw meat. The guard came undone, collapsing face-down with a dull, boneless thud that reverberated in the marrow of Aerion’s skull. The wooden dragon remained lodged in the corpse's neck, its carved horns and claws holding back a waterfall of blood.
Aerion stood trembling over the body as the physical agony truly arrived—a cold needle tracing the fault line in his skull. He could feel the fractured edges of his brow grinding together with every terrified heartbeat.
He was alive, but empty.
When Maekar eventually burst into the room, his heavy boots skidding on the stone, he stopped dead. It was Aerion’s expression that halted the Prince of Summerhall.
The boy’s features, usually set in a mask of petulance and haughty disdain, had completely collapsed. His eyes were wide, blown-out pools of amethyst terror, darting frantically as if searching for ghosts. His breath came in pathetic hitches; his skin the color of curdled milk beneath the blood cascading from his nose.
Looking at the devastated boy, Maekar felt a jolt of something he hadn't dared to name.
Maekar had listened to the rumors—the servants crossing themselves, the Maesters' worried glances, the quiet consensus that the Gods had tossed Aerion’s coin and it had landed on madness. But looking at him now, Maekar saw a soul that could still feel pain. Madness was a fortress, unreachable and cold; but terror? Terror was human. Terror was a crack in the armor where a father might reach in and pull his child back.
Maekar knelt, ignoring the dead body in favor of reaching out to his boy with a heavy, calloused hand.
But Aerion flinched away. The touch of a father was just more human weight—and Aerion was already crumbling beneath the burden of his own mortality.
***
By the time his brother, Aegon, was born months later, the blood on the small wooden dragon had long been scrubbed away, leaving only a muddy red stain behind. But Aerion did not falter.
Instead, he became a ghost haunting his own life. He remained a creature of porcelain pride, his chin held high to mask the scarring, but his usual self-righteous isolation had transformed into a desperate, watchful closeness.
He would sit with Daeron, watching with narrowed eyes as the elder prince reached for the table beer. Aerion would help him pour the cup, searching Daeron’s escapism for a secret he didn't know. Yet in those moments, watching Daeron’s sloppy grin, Aerion would feel a laugh bubble in his own throat—a real one, spreading an alien warmth in his chest.
With Aemon, he was a silent sentinel. He loomed over the boy’s shoulder, observing the way Aemon’s eyes lit up at a forgotten line of Valyrian lore. Aerion lingered just to hear the cadence of Aemon’s childish voice, a mentor trying to remember who he was supposed to be.
The echoes had been more than just voices; they had been his moral compass. They dictated what was expected of him and what was beneath him. Without them, the world dissolved into a grey noise of uncertainty.
Feeling lost in his own skin, he turned to his family not as a prince, but as a student. He deemed them worthy because they were the ones like him, and he sought their guidance in the quiet. He played the part of the devoted son with a feverish intensity, sharing their meals and laughing at their jokes, his ears straining to catch the warmth of his family’s fire.
Yet, he was becoming dangerously aware of himself—of the way he breathed, the way he craved his brothers' laughter, and how his physical pain subsided when he was simply present. In dark moments, he wondered if this newfound affection was just another form of the madness they feared.
In the quiet hours, the static would hiss a terrible question: Were the voices ever there at all? He began to wonder if the fracture hadn't stolen his gift, but had instead woken him up from a dream of divinity.
Aerion had grown taller and learned to live with his trauma. It haunted him like a phantom limb; whenever he was angry, or whenever he felt the stinging gaze of his father, the bone behind his eyes would throb—a rhythmic reminder of the day he became mortal.
***
The gardens were Lady Dyanna's domain—a sanctuary where the harshness of Maekar’s discipline and the suffocating pressure of the court couldn't seem to reach. Since the attempt on his life, privacy had become a rare luxury, but here, among the rose bushes, the hovering guards felt distant. Just knowing his mother was nearby was enough to anchor him. She had been the only one who stayed at his bedside when the noise in his head was at its deafening peak, and the only one who didn't look at him with the cold, clinical fear his father wore before it.
Aerion stood over the dark circle of the well, his knuckles white against the rim, watching the water ripple in the quiet. Sometimes, he would wrap himself in the image of a creature of fire and gold, soaring far above the mundane dirt of the world. But in this quiet, his thoughts were replaced by an overwhelming, unshielded weight.
Leaning closer over the stone, Aerion studied his reflection. He saw his father’s sharp nose—now split by a healed scar across the bridge—and the close-cropped hair he’d kept short ever since that night, making the resemblance to Maekar almost uncanny. A dragon’s face, he thought with a bitter pang of longing, but at least I have her eyes.
"Are you waiting for the water to tell you you're pretty? The septons say it’s a sin. Besides, I think that would be a long wait."
Aerion didn't need to turn to know the nuisance had arrived. Aegon was standing a few paces off, looking far too dusty and mud-streaked for a prince of the blood.
Aerion straightened, his features smoothing into a mask of regal detachment. "Vanity is a dragon’s birthright, not a commoner’s vice," he replied, the words lacking any real venom. He stepped toward the boy with a practiced, predatory grace. "And you, little rat, could use a touch of it. Did you roll in the mud like a peasant’s hound?"
He reached out, cuffing Aegon’s head just hard enough to mess up his hair. Aegon let out an indignant squawk and made a clumsy attempt to trip him before scampering back toward the bushes, muttering frantically about a runaway kitten.
Watching the boy go, Aerion shook his head. He vaguely remembered Aegon crying earlier about a lost animal. Though Aerion could have sworn his brother kept a ferret instead of a cat, he was used to seeing a small, white, blurry pest roaming the corridors with Aegon on its heels, as if the creature owned the prince instead of the other way around.
Not an ounce of the conqueror in him, Aerion thought, a faint, genuine smile cracking his composure.
Turning back to the water, Aerion let his gaze sink into his own reflection. If he strained his focus, he was certain he could still catch the faint, thrumming resonance of those presences in the back of his mind. But they were distorted now, like a song heard through a thick stone wall.
"I am a dragon," he whispered to himself, tracing his scar—the permanent gift from the first man he killed.
But in the high, thin ringing of his ears, the only answer was silence.
He was a Targaryen prince. Even if the ancient gods would no longer speak to him, he would wear his birthright as armour.
Yet as he turned to leave, a faint, miserable sound echoed up from the dark mouth of the well.
Aerion paused, leaning back over the stone rim. Down in the black water beneath his reflection, a tiny shape churned the dark surface, thrashing against the cold stone. A kitten—the true cause of Aegon’s muddy clothes and frantic wandering.
Normally, Aerion would have walked away and left the stupid animal to its fate. But the frantic, desperate splashing down in the dark sounded sickeningly familiar. It was the sound of something small trying to survive, defy its destiny.
Stupid creature, Aerion thought, his jaw tightening as his hand found the wooden crank. Dying in the dark where no one can hear you.
He lowered the bucket, watching as the exhausted, soaking creature clawed its way inside. He reeled the rope back up, fishing out the dripping kitten by the scruff of its neck, the way he’d once seen a lioness carry a cub—thoroughly unwilling to ruin his clothes.
When Aerion rounded the corner of the veranda, and Aegon spotted him holding the wet cat, the boy wept outright in visible relief.
Aerion offered a dry, brief explanation of the rescue, which caused his younger brother to stop sobbing instantly and surge forward into an embrace. The drenched animal was trapped between them, soaking Aerion's vest with cold water.
It was pathetic, really. Aerion almost regretted intervening; perhaps he should have let nature take its course after all.
Yet if Aegon was a creature of easy tears and playful innocence, Daeron was made of sharper, darker things—the kind of things Aerion actually understood.
***
Daeron was his closest sibling. Naturally, he had known Aerion longer than the others, being the eldest, and although a distance had begun to grow between them before that fateful night, they had always shared a quiet closeness.
There was a strange comfort in recognizing someone else’s madness.
At times, Daeron had dark, terrible dreams and couldn't bear their weight alone. Aerion offered to carry it for him.
“Visions,” he named them, without a trace of fear. “You are like Daenys, a prophetic dreamer. Don’t be afraid of your greatness, brother. You have been graced by our heritage.”
Looking at his elder brother, pale and terrorized, Aerion felt a surge of fierce protectiveness—and a sharp, bitter wave of jealousy.
“Give them to me, brother,” Aerion whispered softly, his fingers tightening on Daeron’s trembling shoulder. “The dreams. If they haunt you, let them haunt me instead.”
It wasn't purely kindness that made him reach for Daeron. It was a scavenger’s instinct—a hunger born of withdrawal that made him want to press his ear to his brother’s chest and listen for the beating of dragon wings within.
If the gods were going to pour their fire into a vessel as cracked and leaking as Daeron, why had they left Aerion—the one strong enough to contain it—so utterly empty? Every time Daeron shivered from the aftermath of a vision, Aerion felt a pulse of resentment that tasted like ash.
He would be the shield against his brother’s nightmare prophecies, yes. But deep down, he craved a way to bleed that divine fire into his own veins, making himself whole once more.
A powerful bond was forged between them after that.
But even the strongest bond frays under the weight of the years that follow.
***
By the time the party set out for the Reach, the silence had grown heavy—a suffocating shroud that not even the rhythmic thud of horse hooves could pierce.
Aerion was already on edge when the letter arrived from his father—Prince Maekar, still brooding in the shadows of the Red Keep after the funeral. They were to participate in the Ashford Tournament to honor the birthday of the Lord’s daughter.
It felt like a jeer. His mother, Dyanna, had passed only half a year ago, and the ache of her loss hadn't subsided. Aerion hadn't realized he possessed a heart until it was split in two, and he loathed how well-acquainted he had become with its throbbing presence. Perhaps, he told himself, striking something beyond the training grounds of Summerhall would purge the emotions he couldn't quite swallow.
The journey offered no respite. Daeron and their spoiled brat of a brother, Aegon, had vanished somewhere along the road, leaving Aerion to face their father’s wrath alone. Aemon had gone to the Citadel to become a maester, and the girls were deemed too young and proper for the violence of the lists.
Aerion found himself staring toward the horizon, hoping the open road would awaken the ancient whispers of his blood—that the Dragon would finally claw its way back to the surface and pull him from the abyss.
It was midday when the orange and white banners of House Ashford first flickered against the sky. They reminded him of a sunset—a dying fire, just like his mother. Aerion closed his eyes, and for a fleeting, cruel second, the stench of the camp was replaced by the memory of flowers.
He remembered their last evening together before the coughing began to tear her apart. He had been sitting at her feet, his mind a storm. Dyanna’s hand, cool and steady, had found his temple.
“What’s going on in that loud mind of yours, my boy?” she had whispered.
“It’s not loud, Mother,” Aerion had confessed, the admission feeling like treason. “It’s... empty. Like a bell that keeps ringing after the strike.”
She had leaned down, her face a pale moon in the twilight. “Then we learn how to resonate with it. You carry so much fire, Aerion. But fire needs a hearth. Without it, you will only ever be a wildfire, consuming everything—including yourself.”
He had begged the gods to spare his mother, praying until his knees grew raw against the stone and the faces of the septons blurred together. But the gods refused to answer. In desperation, he penned letters to his uncle Aerys, hunting for Valyrian rites absent from Summerhall’s library—yet every raven returned with empty silence. Dyanna was gone now, taking with her the only version of Aerion that knew how to feel tethered. Without her, the sweet scent of blossoms was a mockery, and the sunset nothing more than a bloody smear across the sky.
He watched the other knights dismounting, their squires fussing over polished plates and colorful surcoats. They looked like painted dolls. He saw the way their pulses throbbed in the hollows of their throats and how they winced at the weight of their own helmets. They didn't know what he knew. They didn't know that under all that steel, they were just pitiful bundles of meat and bone.
His thoughts drifted to his cousin Valarr—so golden, so untouched. He felt a sudden, violent urge to see if the Prince of Dragonstone's heir had the same creak in his neck as a common man. Aerion wasn’t looking for a trophy or a lady's favor; he was looking for the roar in the silence.
If he was to be a wildfire, he would be the one to choose what burned. He would win this tournament with such cold perfection that the ringing in his head would finally have no choice but to break. And if he had to turn the world to ashes to find his footing again, he would gladly strike the match.