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14 th January, 2026
Today is the day i go back to school after leaving all my friends, my class was since the start of high school really aggressive towards me, leaving me all alone for 3 years.
The first few hours were really comforting (maybe because i slept through it? Dont remember really well..)
and no one in class really spoke to me, that is, until the first break.
We were allowed to go in the garden, and me being the miserable fuck i am just followed my ex friend, Susie.
Me and her were friends since Third grade (i have really bad memories of me being cringy..also we are a trio with Dory! ) and when i started this school year i noticed they really started ecxluding me out everything!
Anyway, the break started and i was just behind Susie, when i noticed a girl who basically had the same interests as me, so i immediately spoke to her!
"Vro wait you also know english really well?? Do you know what fandoms are??" I know i probably sounded like a desperate fuck fkr friends, but still i wanted a runaway from the trio..
"Damn yes i do! My favorite fandom is A clockwork orange!! i noticed by your gloves we mainly could have same interests!" She responded, her name was Lucy.
Lucy.
Such a Wonderful name for a new beginning of my life.
Until the break ended, we spoke to eachother, and i was genuinely happy! I finally had a real friend.
The moment i had to go back to class, The popular girl Mandy (Aka my bully, aka the person i hated and she vice versa) immediately laughed at me? For what? Dont know.
Of course, me being a real ugly girl immediately started touching my face! Maybe i had a chewing gum in my hair along with balls of paper where it was written "Riu is a slut!" (Thats a story for another day ;))
I realized.
It was because i actually got a friend, like any other normal human being (i was not apparently?).
What was i supposed to do instead of just sitting down?
Lucy immediately laughed and pointed out:
"Well you couldve thrown a chewing gum in her hair!! "
Crystal instead just had a concerned look on her face, looking at me like i was a dog to be pitied on.
I felt human.
I had two friends in the span of 1 day.
Was it actually that easy or am i the problem?
Weeks passed by, Lucy and i actually had a few sleepovers and hangouts, but a new problem started.
When i feel noticed, i fall in love with that person apparently?
So it happened.
For a bit, i really wanted to become girlfriends, or maybe even friends with benefits! Or maybe i wanted to feel like i was loved, even if not romantically. That is until Leo joined her life. I got to know leo before the start of summer, and he ruined it all. Luckily he was an online friend, but i still felt like someone broke my heart. Lucy started constantly talking about him, how cool he was, about his life and all that shit, it just made me feel worse. Sadly things got even worse at an sleepover, where she fuckass called him! And if things could get worser, she fell asleep until morning.
Of course, i thought my love life could get better with her, but i really didnt know.
In the end, i cried the whole night about it while she slept on my bed.
The next few weeks she constantly teased me about it.
I hate falling in love.
I dont want to be noticed anymore if it means i get my heart broken everytime and getting bullied about it.
I also heard that Crystal and Lucy actually touched eachother and kissed (huh? Wasnt leo her boyfriend?) and that just made me feel worse.
I think Mandy was right
Maybe im not normal
Maybe i dont deserve attention.