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The world was against him , almost no one was on his side no matter what he tried, and all hope he had left was practically gone by that point. He had won. He had completely won. And now saps was wandering the tundra after running away from the one ally he thought he had left, collecting any solid blocks he could get his hands on, preparing.
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Saps stared down at the snow covered ground from the peak of the tower he had finished constructing, it was a kind of memorial you could say. One that no-one may ever find nor seek, Everything below seemed so far away and yet so near all at once.
he took a breath cold air stabbing at his throat and started his approach toward the ledge of the tower. He began to mutter some kind of farewell to the world through gritted teeth. He drew ever closer and closer the edge ; however , he paused mid-step just short of the drop, and listened carefully. He could hear something,something that sounded odd.other wordly. It felt familiar. He considered just ignoring it and continuing but he was far too curious to die not knowing what it was.
It only grew louder as seconds past and he galanced around and then a person suddenly appeared from thin air just in front of him. They were smiling slightly while looking down on him and when saps met the eyes of the figure he couldn't help but crack a crooked smile over the ridiculous timing of it.
Struggling to stifle a kind of morbid laugh he just stared up at the man, the God, in front of him. “ So, a god’s turned up to watch me kill myself” he says up to him, however his eyes soon fall back to studying the ground. “thanks for the honour,ish”
Ish wore the same neat black suit as always, a brilliant red rose tucked into his breast pockets,and he still wore the expression he appeared in, didn't seem malicious but it was certainly not comforting, it’s the sort of face you’d make while staring down at a bug doing something you can't quite understand and are trying to grasp why it may be doing it.
It remains quiet between the two of them, it was awfully awkward on saps end but then again he wouldn't really ever have to think back to this moment in roughly 5 minutes so it made it bearable. Still looking down at the ground he begins to talk and falters, before looking up to meet ish's eyes and continuing still sounding unsure of his words.
“ So, are you here to try and talk me away from the edge or just watch me plummet for amusement? “ The he had smile still didn't fall,not even slightly. In all honesty it seemed to get wider
“ I'm not sure yet,I just had a feeling something’d be up with you right now and… " he gestures at the tower,saps and the ground before continuing with “ I suppose my intuition was correct? “
“ I'm a fugitive, something's always going to be up”
There was moment of silence where mother talked and the only sound heard was the wind whistling through the mountains. Ish spoke again his voice that of an inquiry
“ So is this just you giving up then? just letting him win? “ his simple had gone now, relaxed with a look of curiosity and disbelieving
Saps grimaced before replying“He's already won. “ he responded, turning to look away from ish, it felt shameful to say but it was true,after all the moment everyone had agreed upon his guilt it was practically set in stone that saps was to be the loser and he the Victor of this.
“But doesn't this seem quite drastic, I mean killing yourself over something like this? “ he says waving his hand slightly, He makes it sound so trivial, like he was doing this over a messed up weather forecast. He supposed it comes from the whole being a God thing, or just a lack of empathy. He bit his tongue as he thought over what to say.He sighed and looked out into the seemingly inescapable snow surrounding him and his soon to be memorial
“What else can I do? “ his voice sounded utterly defeated “ I can't be bothered to run anymore, not when I know it'll be fruitless”
Ish watched as a snow flake had landed on his suit, brushing it off before answering. “ I mean you just ran from the last person you might have been safe with, doesn't that seem quite self sabotaging? And how do you know it'll be fruitless? No one can know that for sure. “
Saps doesn't respond, he wouldn't question how he knew about that And anyway he felt his distrust of Turntap in that moment was fair,he had been acting off refusing to explain his distress, his distrust with anyone at that point would be fair in his opinion especially considering (ill placed) trust was the main cause of his current predicament,
He just turns to look up at ish who it seems is indeed trying to talk him away from the ledge (very badly mind you), or to (What he may consider) a more interesting demise.
“Just saying you seemed like quite the up holder of justice , I wouldn't expect you to just give up like this y'know. I would of thought you'd have a bit more fight “
“ I would love, I'd be overjoyed actually for justice to be served to him and the rest of the conspiracy but realistically, how can I : a man who can't speak to a single person without the concern of an attempt on his life, possibly do anything?” He pauses and takes a moment to think and then goes on “You surely can't imply I can do this on my own“
“I don't know, I just don't think this is your time to be honest.” He had begun drifting around the tower at some point, “ I'm all for a swan dive off a tower but twice in a row is a bit depressing”
He takes a moment to register what ish has just said,his mind lingering on the ‘twice in a row’ comment.he frowns. “So you're saying I should do this any other time? “
“ I'm saying you shouldn't at all” he drifted in front of him again and instead of making another trip round stayed there “it just feels wrong,you dying without retribution I mean… “ he sounded oddly sincere. Silence falls, saps remains where he stood staring at ish in confusion.
And then suddenly, ish clasps his hands together
"Well I have to go, there's something going on in westhelm and it sounds more interesting than convincing a man to not kill himself.” He turns before adding “ I hope I don't feel your death on the winds, saps. “
And with that he vanished as soon as he appeared. What horrific whiplash. Saps stood for a long while,stock still after probably far too long he sighed.
Slowly he went to retrieve some of his things from the chest he had just dumped them into just a little while before, and made his descent down the tower. He needed a plan, after all just killing himself seemed off the table now. And he had just shown that he didn't trust his only ally to that ally's face. He started to walk away from the monument turning over ideas in his head.
Having made it far-ish from the now never to be used memorial he, spoke again. Not to himself though but seemingly the word at large (either that or to ish, who had at some point had quietly returned) “if all fails, and in the end all the roads I can take lead to deaths door I will insure drag him through there with me” He glared up at the encompassing sky as He says it as though cursing it, adding “you will pay for what you've done, Fluixon” in a quieter voice and thus he continues his march down the mountain with a new goal to accompany the one that had been nearly extinguished just a few minutes earlier.