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My mind started racing as I reached our apartment door. Keyword ‘our’. The last few months my brain had been on overload picking out our shared apartment, arranging everything we’d need to move out while also figuring out university stuff. It had been so tough and hectic that I’d forgotten to take a breather and let my mind catch up.
And now that I had a moment of respite, my mind was finally freaking out about all of this. I’d gotten into Tokyo University without much hastle, which I was super happy about, and now I was living with my girlfriend in our own apartment.
I let that fact simmer within me for a while. And then a blush came over my face quite quickly.
Fuck, I was so busy with the process of moving out that I hadn't even stopped to think about it.
Of course moving in together was a no brainer, since we were both going to tokyo and we were already dating. And we both had enthusiastic support from both our parents. But only after having done it had I realized how big of a step it was for our relationship.
We actually moved into the apartment yesterday, but with packing out and everything (with the help with hoshihara and a few other friends), we were both so exhausted that we went to sleep instantly. In both our seperate bedrooms.
We had decided on the seperate bedrooms as it would give both of us privacy and a personal space. I was abit disappointed at first when Ushio suggested it, but she convinced me eventually. It made sense, she was still transitioning and she still had things she preferred to do alone. Though she promised me she would sleep in my room too.
And so after waking up the next morning, I had decided to go out and get us some groceries. And that brought us to now, I was still abit sleepy while shopping but my racing thoughts had woken me up. I gulped in anticipation and rang the doorbell. I could instantly hear footsteps fast approaching. They stopped just shy of the door.
“Sakuma, is that you?”, Ushio called out.
“Yes! Can you open the door please?”
The door opened infront of me, and stood there was my beautiful girlfriend. She wore her purple pajamas and had a nasty case of bed hair. I’d never seen her wake up before, much less wake up so late, so she must’ve been very tired yesterday.
Plus she looks absolutely adorable right now
“Where have you been?” She said with furrowed brows, then glanced down to the bags in my hand. “Ah- are those groceries? Thanks I was gonna go out for those later”
I nodded and followed her into the hallway. The apartment was a perfectly acceptable 2 bedroom studio. It was cheap too, which was the main reason we picked it.
Ushio took the bags from me and headed into the kitchen area. While I took this time to admire her from behind. We had been dating for over a year and a half now, but even then sometimes I could barely believe I was lucky enough to be her boyfriend. I was such a scrub and had caused her so many problems, yet she kept her belief in me.
“I’m gonna start working on some breakfast while we're at it. Hopefully you brought some bread, so I could whip up some eggs and toast. Beans too, if we have that. My mom said it was popular in bri-” Ushio started explaining to me the ins and outs of british bean cuisine. But honestly it could’ve all been pure white noise, as the scene of her putting the stove on while having her messy bed hair flowing down filled me with a soothing feeling. Something about this felt so domestic. And so natural.
I was suddenly filled with a quiet yearning feeling, and I couldn't afford to be away from her any longer. I slowly stepped up to her as she kept explaining what Yuki-san had taught her about british food.
“yeah its abit soggy and gross looking but It tas-” I wrapped my arms around her waist from the behind and crept my head into her hair. She let out a yelp of surprise.
“S-Sakuma! Whats gotten into you? You could’ve warned me atleast….” I could see the tips of her ears painted red. I flushed closer against her body. As I inhaled I felt her smell fill my lungs, that indescribable scent that I loved so much.
“I couldn't afford to miss my daily quota, could I?”, I said into the crook of her neck. Giving it a gentle kiss, knowing she loves it when I do.
After a few seconds Ushio relaxed into my embrace and put her hands on mine. She then leaned her head back and gave me a light peck on the lips. I could still see her cheeks colored a tinge of red as she looked at me unsurely. I smiled at her, and she closed her eyes and gave me a tender smile.
While we had become alot closer physically over the past year, she was still more skittish around it, given all the problems it caused early on. I could tell that she was always trying to guage if I was truly comfortable or not during our physical intimacy. And i couldn’t blame her. It was my fault after all.
The only thing I could do is continue to show her how much I enjoyed it. Enjoyed her. Being close to her. And over the past year I had grown more and more comfortable taking the initiative and being bold with my touches, because i knew she liked it.
we stood like that for a while before Ushio started speaking again, “So, I was thinking that I was kinda tired yesterday but…” she nuzzled closer to my face “But maybe I would like to sleep in your bed tonight”'
Oh.
Of course I knew what she meant by that. Its not like it was our first time (as disastrous as that was, i still get nightmares about the talk with her parents afterwards). But whenever we did it, one of us had to leave pretty quickly. The prospect of sharing the bed and waking up next to each other. It filled me up with all different types of emotions.
“What? Don't want me to?”, Ushio said teasingly. I had just realized i’d been totally silent.
“YES! I m-mean, yeah sure. Why not…” great, now i sounded desperate.
Ushio chuckled lightly and then pushed me away from her. I sighed abit in disappointment. Ushio then shoo’ed me with her hand, “But that’s at night though, and I’m not even prepared. Plus I need to make breakfast. Now shoo and let me work”
I grumbled and let her work as i exited into the living area. I would’ve offered to help if my kitchen skills weren't dismal. All our attempts at cooking together in the past had ended in disaster and Ushio needing to save it at the last moment, as usual.
“By the way, since we both don’t have anything to do today, why don't we go out?” Ushio said from the kitchen.
That brightened my mood instantly. I quickly responded, “Yeah sure! But let me handle the planning, as a way to repay you for making us breakfast”
I heard ushio chuckle lightly from behind the kitchen area “Jeez idiot. Now that we're living together, there's nothing as repaying for food or anything. We're a couple after all. Buuut if you want to treat me with a nice date, you can go ahead”
I guess that makes sense. But that sort of logic makes me feel like we're marri-
I quickly shook my head to get rid of that thought. It’s is WAY too early to think about things like that. I don't even want to know if Ushio is thinking about stuff like that in the future….
I shook my head again as i realized i was again thinking about it.
It would be really nice though…