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Kazuha first noticed the flower in the practice room mirror.
It was small.
Almost insignificant.
A single white petal caught against the collar of her shirt while she was stretching after rehearsal.
She brushed it away.
It fell onto the floor.
Kazuha stared at it.
Then at herself.
Then back at the petal.
“That's weird.”
“Kazuha?”
She nearly jumped.
Yunjin was standing in the doorway, hair tied messily behind her head and an iced coffee in one hand.
“You've been staring at the floor for, like, thirty seconds.”
Kazuha quickly stepped over the petal.
“Nothing.”
Yunjin narrowed her eyes.
“You're a terrible liar.”
“I'm not lying.”
“That's exactly what a liar would say.”
Kazuha laughed.
Yunjin smiled.
And that was the problem.
It had always been the problem.
Yunjin smiled at her, and Kazuha's chest felt strangely tight.
She didn't think much of it.
Not then.
The second flower appeared three days later.
This one came with blood.
Kazuha locked herself in the bathroom before anyone could notice.
She coughed into her hand.
A small white flower lay in her palm.
Her breathing stopped.
Hanahaki.
She knew what it was.
Everyone did.
A disease caused by feelings that had nowhere to go.
Unrequited love blooming inside the lungs.
It was supposed to be rare.
Tragic.
The sort of thing that happened in dramas and old songs.
Not to her.
Not when she had schedules.
Rehearsals.
Performances.
A group depending on her.
And certainly not because of—
No.
She refused to finish the thought.
Kazuha wrapped the flower in toilet paper and threw it away.
Then she washed her hands.
She looked into the mirror.
“You don't.”
Her reflection stared back.
“You don't love her.”
A pause.
“Right?”
Her chest hurt.
Yunjin noticed the coughing before anyone else did.
Kazuha had become good at hiding it.
She'd turn away during breaks.
Drink water.
Pretend she had swallowed something wrong.
But Yunjin knew her too well.
One night, after practice, everyone else had already left.
Kazuha was packing her bag when Yunjin spoke.
“Are you sick?”
Kazuha froze.
“No.”
“You've been coughing for two weeks.”
“It's nothing.”
“You said that last time.”
Kazuha looked at her.
Yunjin's expression had softened.
Concerned.
Warm.
Too warm.
“I'll be okay,” Kazuha said.
Yunjin walked closer.
“Promise?”
Kazuha's heart twisted.
“Promise.”
Yunjin held out her pinky.
Kazuha blinked.
“What?”
“Promise properly.”
A laugh escaped her.
“You're childish.”
“Maybe.”
Kazuha hooked her pinky around Yunjin's.
Their hands stayed together for a second too long.
Neither moved.
Yunjin looked at their hands.
Then at Kazuha.
Something passed between them.
Something neither dared to name.
Kazuha pulled away first.
The flowers multiplied.
White petals.
Tiny blossoms.
Sometimes whole flowers.
Kazuha hid them everywhere.
Tissues in her pockets.
Flowers wrapped in receipts.
Petals flushed down sinks.
She became terrified of laundry days.
One afternoon, she coughed so hard she had to sit on the floor.
When she finally looked down, there were flowers scattered around her knees.
Beautiful.
Delicate.
Horrifying.
She started crying.
Not because she was afraid of dying.
Not exactly.
She was afraid that she would never get to tell Yunjin.
And even worse—
She was afraid that Yunjin already knew.
Yunjin knew.
Not about the flowers.
About the feelings.
At least, she suspected.
She had noticed the way Kazuha looked at her when she thought nobody was watching.
The way Kazuha remembered tiny details.
The way she always saved the seat beside her.
The way her expression changed whenever Yunjin laughed.
But Yunjin had convinced herself she was imagining it.
Because wanting something too badly could make almost anything look like hope.
And Yunjin had been wanting Kazuha for years.
Quietly.
Carefully.
Hopelessly.
She had never said anything.
Because what if Kazuha didn't feel the same?
What if their friendship disappeared?
What if one confession ruined everything they had built together?
So Yunjin stayed silent.
And Kazuha did the same.
Two people standing on opposite sides of the same door.
Neither brave enough to knock.
The breaking point came after a performance.
Kazuha had made it through the show.
Barely.
The second they got backstage, she turned away from everyone and coughed.
Once.
Twice.
Then she couldn't stop.
“Kazuha?”
She heard Yunjin's voice.
“No.”
Yunjin grabbed her shoulder.
“Kazuha, what's wrong?”
“Don't—”
A flower fell from Kazuha's mouth.
Yunjin went still.
Another followed.
Then another.
Kazuha covered her face.
“Please.”
Yunjin stared at the petals.
Her expression changed from confusion to horror.
“Oh my God.”
Kazuha couldn't look at her.
“I'm sorry.”
“For what?”
“I didn't want you to find out like this.”
Yunjin's voice broke.
“How long?”
Kazuha said nothing.
“Kazuha.”
“Almost two months.”
Yunjin's eyes filled with tears.
“Two months?”
“I thought I could handle it.”
“You could have told me.”
“I couldn't.”
“Why?”
Kazuha finally looked at her.
And Yunjin understood.
The answer was in her eyes.
It had always been there.
“Oh.”
Kazuha laughed weakly.
“Yeah.”
Yunjin stepped closer.
“It's me.”
Kazuha's face crumpled.
“Yunjin—”
“It's me, isn't it?”
Kazuha couldn't lie anymore.
“Yes.”
The word was barely audible.
Yunjin closed her eyes.
A tear slipped down her cheek.
“I was so scared.”
Kazuha stared.
“Of what?”
“That you didn't feel the same.”
Silence.
Kazuha's breathing hitched.
“What?”
Yunjin laughed through her tears.
“I love you too, idiot.”
Kazuha looked like she'd forgotten how to breathe.
“You…”
“Yes.”
“You love me?”
“Yes.”
“Then why didn't you say anything?”
“Why didn't you?”
“I was scared.”
“So was I.”
Kazuha began crying.
Yunjin reached for her.
This time, Kazuha didn't pull away.
She fell into Yunjin's arms.
For a long moment, neither said anything.
They simply held each other.
“I thought I was going to lose you,” Yunjin whispered.
“You're not.”
“You don't know that.”
“I do.”
Kazuha lifted her head.
Yunjin brushed a tear from her cheek.
“Because I'm not letting you go.”
The flowers didn't disappear immediately.
That was the cruel part.
Even after the confession, Kazuha still coughed.
The doctors said healing took time.
Her lungs had spent weeks believing she was unloved.
They needed time to believe otherwise.
So Yunjin stayed.
She brought Kazuha water during rehearsals.
She sat beside her whenever the coughing got bad.
She slipped notes into Kazuha's bag.
Eat something.
Don't overwork yourself.
I love you.
The last one appeared more often than the others.
Kazuha kept every note.
One night, Yunjin found her arranging them in a little box.
“You kept those?”
Kazuha looked embarrassed.
“Of course.”
“Even this one?”
Yunjin picked up a note that simply said:
Your hair looked pretty today.
Kazuha covered her face.
“You wrote it.”
“I know.”
“Then why are you embarrassed?”
“Because you kept it.”
Yunjin smiled.
“I'm keeping you, too.”
Kazuha peeked through her fingers.
“That's very possessive.”
“Maybe.”
Yunjin sat beside her.
Their shoulders touched.
Kazuha leaned against her.
“Can I ask you something?”
“Anything.”
“Did you ever suspect?”
Yunjin thought for a moment.
“Yes.”
“When?”
“Probably the first time you gave me your jacket.”
“That was because you were cold.”
“You remembered my favorite color.”
“Coincidence.”
“You brought me strawberry milk when I was having a bad day.”
“You said you liked it.”
“You learned that song because I mentioned it once.”
Kazuha went quiet.
Yunjin smiled.
“You were never subtle.”
“I thought I was.”
“You were adorable.”
“Don't call me adorable.”
“Adorable.”
Kazuha laughed.
A real laugh.
Warm and bright.
Then she coughed.
Yunjin immediately reached for her.
But Kazuha waved her off.
“I'm okay.”
A tiny white petal landed in her palm.
They both stared at it.
Yunjin gently took it.
Then she smiled.
“One more.”
Kazuha nodded.
“One more.”
Yunjin leaned her head against Kazuha's shoulder.
“We'll wait for the last one together.”
And they did.
Weeks later, Kazuha woke up without pain.
No pressure in her chest.
No burning throat.
No flowers.
She sat up slowly.
Yunjin was asleep beside her, curled beneath a blanket.
Kazuha smiled.
She reached over and gently brushed Yunjin's hair away from her face.
Yunjin stirred.
“Morning…”
“Morning.”
“How do you feel?”
Kazuha took a deep breath.
For the first time in months, it was easy.
“Fine.”
Yunjin smiled sleepily.
“Really?”
“Really.”
Kazuha breathed in again.
Nothing.
No petals.
No pain.
Just air.
Just morning.
Just Yunjin.
She laughed softly.
Yunjin looked at her.
“What?”
Kazuha shook her head.
“Nothing.”
Then she took Yunjin's hand.
“I just think I like breathing.”
Yunjin laughed.
“Me too.”
Their fingers intertwined.
Outside, spring sunlight spilled across the windowsill.
A single white flower rested there.
The last one.
Yunjin picked it up.
She looked at Kazuha.
“Should we keep it?”
Kazuha smiled.
“No.”
She opened the window.
The breeze carried the flower away.
For once, neither of them chased it.
They had something better now.
Something that didn't need to bloom inside them to prove it was real.
Yunjin squeezed Kazuha's hand.
“I love you.”
Kazuha smiled.
“I love you too.”
And for the first time, the words didn't hurt.