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Chuuyas POV-
I woke up early morning and rolled out of bed, Im exhausted from the mission last night. Im usually able to sleep in, but today there is an important meeting with the PM executives, the boss, and a group that supplies us with all of weapons and other assisting tools. It will be fine, all I have to do is go to this meeting for somewhere around an half an hour and then I can crawl back into my fluffy blankets and pillows. I brushed my teeth and fixed up my hair before throwing on my clothes and walking out my door. It was a cloudy and rainy day which was nice, I like the rain and sound of thunder so seeing the clouds made me happy. I made my way to the PM before walking into the meeting room, I got there about 5 minutes early and there was only a few people there. I sat down and leaned beck resting my eyes, "Good morning Chuuya, how are you this morning?" Ane-san asked as she walked into the room and came to sit next to me. I sat up before giving her a slight smile, "A little tired but other then that I'm good, what about you?" I asked "Im great, thanks for asking. Did you have a mission last night?" "Ah, yeah. I was out pretty late but it's okay. After this I can go back home since I have the rest of the day off." I said with a sigh. She smiled before responding "Well Im glad that you are getting proper rest." I just smiled as everyone else started pouring into the room one by one and took there seats.
"Im glad your getting proper rest."
If only that would be possible for me...
"Shall we begin since everyone is here?" More said taking his seat at the far end of the table, everyone agreed and the meeting started. We had these meetings about once a month so this wasn't anything out of the ordinary, we basically just went over what we needed and how much it was all going to cost. The reason the executives where there is so we could get what the member that we are responsible for there supplies and anything that we needed for upcoming missions. Thankfully, my requests were always easy to put in because it was always basically the same. Each executive had a group of men they would look after, for me I just have them send me an email of what they need and if it's anything out of the ordinary they give me an explanation. And all I really use is boxes of bullets, and most of the time I don't even use them.
The meetings were always boring but they aren't to long so its not that big of a deal. The meeting was getting close to being over when I heard a sight ringing in my ears, I went still knowing what the ringing meant. "Shit..." I unintentionally said under my breath. "Chuuya, are you okay dear?" Ane-san asked looking at me with worry, "Oh, yeah I'm good" I smiled looking at her, she smiled back before focusing back on the meeting. Why does this have to happen now, I looked down at my hand and they were already shaking. Fuck. Why does this always have to happened at the worst time? Why is it happening again...why now? Please... not now-
"Your. Not. Human."
"Go die somewhere."
"You belong back in the lab you came from"
"You will NEVER be loved..."
The voice in my head, or more so Arabaki. Loves to play these little fucked up games in my head, and I hate that it gets to me. I fucking hate it.
Shut up
Shut up.
Shut Up.
SHUT UP.
SHUT UP.
SHUT UP.
SHUT UP.
JUST SHUT THE FUCK UP!
I stood up quickly slamming my hands on the table, shit. "Chuuya, is something wrong?" More asked looking towards me. "No. Sorry, I have something I need to do, please excuse me." I said walking quickly walking out the room, I made it out of the room and shut the door behind me before running back to my house. "Shit, where the fuck are they!!!" I said digging through all of my drawers. Even though Arabaki is technically apart of me, there are pills that make it so I can't hear him. I don't really know how they work, Ive been told that since Arabaki can't takeover my body without my permission, when I don't use corruption for a long period of time, he gets restless and all that built up energy he is able to talk in my mind. Basically the pills are a power nullifier, but they only slightly weaken Arabaki, but it wakens him enough to make him shut up. I found the bottle, but it's just my luck that the bottle is empty. At a point, my head gets extremely painful, the constant yelling becomes painful and makes me wanna puck. I ran to my bathroom and violently vomited in the toilet, I hadn't eaten so it was just start stomach acid that made my through burn. At this point I was curled on my floor begging for it to stop, I hatted the sound of me begging...
But I don't know what else to do...
Dazais POV-
It's my day off and I'm so BORED, everyone else is either working or outdoing boring stuff like grocery shopping... I laid in my apartment thinking of something I could do when I had the best idea Ive had all day. "Im going to sneak into Chibi's house!!" I exclaimed to an empty house before grabbing my coat and walking outside. It was going to rain soon so I better hurry. I quickly walked to Chuuyas house before sneaking in the window that he always forgets to lock for some reason. Chili is usually always working at this time of day so I didn't really car about being quiet.
I walked into his bedroom so I could snoop around when I heard... whispers? And... breathing?
Shit.
I quickly walked towards the sound and flung open the door that led to the bathroom, I looked down to see Chuuya curled in a ball. He looked almost petrified, no he did look petrified. I looked on the ground next to him to see an empty pill bottle, I quickly picked it up before looking at the table. It read, "Nullification pills, take one when needed." that's what's wrong then, he ran out of his damn pills and that asshole is yelling in his head. I gently touched the side of his face and he jumped not noticing I was even there. When I touched him he looked instantly at ease as if he could finally breath, "hey, you okay?" I asked helping him stand. "My head is killing me..." He said looking down. This isn't the first time that Ive had to help Chuuya with this, but ever since he got those pills I haven't had to help before now. Thankfully, he got the pills before I left the Mafia. But before that he could barely ever sleep because of how often it happened, most of the time he would never let me help him. But once he got so exhausted from sleepless nights he would eventually cave. And I have a feeling that's what he's been doing with the pills too, because he looks like he hasn't slept in years. And If he has been taking his pills regularly when he needs the, he would have noticed that the pill bottle was empty.
"You haven't been taking the pills when you need them have you?" I asked forcing his head up so he would look at me, but he looked away and avoided the question. "Chuuya, it's fine to need pills. You know that I take them too." I said with a sigh. "I know, it just. I don't like the idea of needing pills to sleep through the night. Even you don't need pills every night to sleep, I'm fine taking them every now and then. But not every night..." He said still not looking at me. I was holding his hand so we wouldn't break physical contact. "Chuuya, when was the last time you actually slept?" I asked "I don't know... the last time I took a pill." he said rubbing his eyes and pinching the bridge of his nose. "And how long ago was that?" I asked again. "like... two weeks ago..." He whispered. I sighed before puling him back to the bedroom and pulling him into the bed with me. "W-what are you doing?" He asked surprised. "Chuuya, you haven't slept in two weeks. You need sleep, and you are refusing to take your pills and now you're out of them. So now I have to make sure you sleep." I said a little louder than intended, he winced when I talked his head obviously still in pain. "Fine. but I'm going to go get medicine fist. My head is killing me." He scoot to the edge of the bed and stood up before letting go of my hand, but right as he did he whimpered in pain and fell to the floor. I quickly got of the bed and kneeled next to him grabbing his hand, "I'll go with you." I said helping him stand up again. "Yeah... that's probably best..." We walked to the kitchen and he took pain meds before we walked back to the room and laid down. We laid close to each other, I played with his hair as he slowly fell asleep.
"Hey Osamu."
"Hmm?"
"Thank you."
"Anytime Chuu."