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Beomgyu was bored out of his mind, he had turned on Netflix in hopes of something catching his eye, but of course it was just the same boring old shit on there, and it wasn't like youtube was any better, it was all about 24 hour challenges on youtube, everyone was desperate to become Mr. beast nowadays.
What's even worse is that it was a Saturday night. His boredom might actually lead to his death. Usually Beomgyu had his roommate, his name was Taehyun. He was the type of guy everyone got along with including the socially irrelevant and awkward beomgyu.
Taehyun was a chill guy. He never made Beomgyu feel bored, and yet today Taehyun had the audacity to go hang out with his actual friends. The betrayal!
Speaking of friends. Friendships were something Beomgyu lacked, he had very few friends, and went out once a blue moon. Not that there was anything wrong with Beomgyu himself– well okay there probably was.
But Beomgyu was just a generally awkward person around others, he was always saying stupid shit when talking to people he desperately wanted to become friends with, mentioning things that were either too TMI, or completely boring and irrelevant things such as the colors of his socks, or whatever.
It took him forever to become friends with Taehyun too, he kept being so quiet at parties and being extremely awkward like he’s never tried speaking before, like it was his first day here, on planet earth. Beomgyu always left people wondering. It was honestly a super power at this point.
But it wasn't important to him. Beomgyu didn't even try or care about having friends, it was useless, and also it was better to be alone… right?
Ugh.
But on days like this he could really use some human interaction before he went crazy.
Beomgyu was probably an alien, he definitely thought of himself as one, he doesn't understand other humans, he doesn't really try to.
Well, Except…
Beomgyu wasn't always an antisocial loser, he actually had a well established friend group.
There was this one guy, from high school. His first and last, one and only best friend.
He understood Beomgyu, it was like they shared minds.
Choi Soobin.
That was the name of Beomgyu’s closest friend.
They don't speak anymore, but he always thinks about him on these days. These lonely, thought provoking, boring days. He didn't want to think too hard about his high school days, too many emotions to unpack.
Beomgyu was still bored out of his mind, and with nothing to do he decided to try and pass time by doomscrolling on tiktok, he sighed.
Beomgyu turned on his phone, and as if the universe planned it, right as he opened tiktok to doomscroll, Taehyun texted him.
+2 new messages
Taehyun : Dude I know you probably don't want to but there's an epic party going on right now please join!! I'll even help you get some new friends, pinky swear!
Taehyun : Seriously you dont wanna miss this buddy, it's gonna be life changing!!
What?
A party…
Did Taehyun even know Beomgyu? Since when did he show interest in partying?
Beomgyu stared at the text. He doesn't remember much from his past experience in partying back in high school other then. Vomit and sweat everywhere, loud eardrum-bursting music, and worst of all walking in on active make out sessions.
Yeah no thanks. And plus he doesn't even like drinking like that anymore. But at the same time his boredom was serious torture, besides he hasnt been to a party since high school, so maybe college was different, theyre way way more mature now. And wasn't he just thinking about how he wanted to get out of his shell? Beomgyu was considering it…
Beomgyu : You know what, maybe. Who's gonna be there? I'll try to come, but if I get overwhelmed I'm leaving.
Taehyun : Seriously? That's amazing Beomgyu! Good for you trying something new, oh and the people there, well you know Karina, the pretty one? She's the host.
Beomgyu listened to his heart for the first time. He was honestly excited, but very anxious.
Beomgyu : I can't believe I'm doing this but, fine. You've convinced me. What’s the address?
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Beomgyu looked up from his phone, staring at a beautiful 2 story home. This was it, that was the house, no doubt about it. It had people on the outside chatting and smoking, and through the windows you could see everyone having so much fun, You could just hear the music blasting, I mean–how had the neighbors not complained yet?
Beomgyu crossed the street and walked over to the home, people stared at him, but he was gonna ignore that. The door was open so he walked in and was greeted by the strong stench of alcohol, and music so loud he honestly felt the ground beneath him shake.
He was walking around like a lost puppy, not daring to look anyone in the eye. Where was Taehyun when you needed him?
Beomgyu felt lost, he put his phone in his pocket and gave up looking for him, the defeated Beomgyu then found the nearest wall and leaned against it, looking at his surroundings.
He looked down at the floor, and then the people around him. Some were singing along to the upbeat music, some were eating the snacks the host left for them. There were quite a handful of people making out.
He looked at the floor again, mumbling something about Taehyun, whilst fidgeting with the skin around his fingers.
Suddenly he heard heels clicking, the air felt different and the noise got closer and closer towards him.
“Hey, you there I've never seen you around. What's your name?” A voice called out.
He could smell the expensive perfume. Beomgyu looked up, it was 2 girls, Both of them were standing like they owned the world, they looked like models nowhere near Beomgyu’s level, wearing flashy outfits that looked like it cost more than anything he has ever owned.
Why would they talk to someone so lowly and trashy as Beomgyu?
Beomgyu felt like a chewed up piece of gum next to them, he quickly stopped leaning against the wall, why were they interested in him? Beomgyu took a deep breath and avoided eye contact.
“Me- uh well i-im Beomgyu…”
The girls pulled their sun glasses down at the same time, it was honestly scary. They looked Beomgyu up and down dissecting every small detail about him, mumbling and pointing, they stared at each other and nodded.
“Ningning he is adorable. we have to have him !!” One of the girls squealed.
Beomgyu was taken back, he was not expecting that, he was honestly expecting to get kicked out because of his lack of SWAG or something.
“I-Im sorry? Adorable uh I- thanks?” he stuttered, trying to understand what exactly they were saying.
“Oh right, I'm Ningning and this is Giselle, we're recruiting people that wanna play drinking games and stuff with our gang in private, we need one more person, but they have to be attractive.”
Beomgyu was stunned. They thought he was attractive, that kinda gave him an ego boost, but still he didn't have the energy to play a drinking game with people he hasn't even talked to yet.
He awkwardly smiled, and started scratching his head.
“Uh t-thats really sweet but I don-”
“COME ON!! it's right in that room, it's only gonna be a handful of people” The Giselle girl said, cutting him off entirely.
Both girls started grabbing Beomgyu and dragging him into a secluded room.
“Wait! Ladies I-I don't know if that's a great idea, I mean uh- not that I'm calling you guys stupid or anything, you both seem very intelligent.” Beomgyu was blabbering on and on.
“Beomgyu dear, you talk too much, just go with the flow and relax” Ningning said, pulling her expensive looking sunglasses down, whilst she was dragging the stressed out Beomgyu to play with them.
The girls pushed him in the room, and closed the door behind them.
It was a big group.
The talkative room went silent as they all stared at Beomgyu.
All of them were sitting in a circle, Beomgyu stood there before hurrying behind the girls, as if he was a kid starting at a new school.
“Guys we found our last guy, his name is Beomgyu!” Ningning announced moving away so he couldn't hide anymore, he awkwardly waved at everyone.
“He's like, such a cutie and shy, total femboy vibe!!” Giselle said, she grabbed him and started pushing him to the very front so everyone could see him. Showcasing him like a product.
Beomgyu didn't know what to do, he ran out of emotes.
“Uhm, hi, I guess- it's nice to meet everyone..?” The group waved and smiled back. They weren't as scary.
The girls urged him to sit down in the circle. He sat down next to a girl he recognized, it was Karina the host. She was actually quite pretty just as Taehyun said.
She took a sip of her drink. “Ah hah. You're so right I see the femboy potential good pick Gigi” Karina said whilst pointing and staring at him.
Beomgyu was flustered, he hadn't been the center of attention in a hot minute, he didn't know how to react. He just looked away.
“Nice to meet you, you can call me Sunoo!” A guy said while reaching his hand out for Beomgyu to shake. He had such a light voice for a guy, and smiled so adorably. Beomgyu shook his hand, hoping Sunoo couldn't tell his hands were sweaty.
“Okay people, the first game is gonna be seven minutes in heaven, isn't it exciting!?” Sunoo said, pulling out an empty bottle and laying it in the middle of the circle.
“Awh cmon Sunoo that's so high school, and besides it's only fun if people actually do something in the closet.” A girl with the same wolfcut as Beomgyu said, she was drinking vodka straight out of the bottle. How intimidating.
“Okay fine Ryujin, let's say that if you don't do something with the other person in the closet you get punished by everyone else!” Ningning exclaimed.
She smirked and took another sip of her vodka. “Now we're talking, that seems way better.” Ryujin scoffed.
Beomgyu saw this whole interaction, having a lot of friends seemed so fun. So far it wasn't that bad, he was starting to feel grateful he came today.
“Well then lets begin!” Karina said, grabbing the empty bottle from Sunoo.
Sunoo snatched it right back. “Heyyy! Karina, have some patience, we’re missing 2 people.”
Beomgyu looked at them with confusion. “Huh- who’s missing? I thought everyone was here already.” He asked the circle.
“Oh right you don’t know about the others, sorry. It's our 2 guy friends, they said they were coming soon. Sunghoon-”
The door swung open.
2 Guys stepped in, laughing.
“-And Soobin” Sunoo finished, he turned around after hearing the door open, looking at the entrance.
“Ahh just in time we were just talking about you two!”
What.
Did Beomgyu hear correctly?
Surely it wasn't the same Soobin, it couldn't be him. It SHOULDN'T be him.
A lot of people are called Soobin, he was just being crazy.
Beomgyu didn't turn around.
Ningning yelled across the room waving at them.
“Hey you two, meet Beomgyu. He's gonna be joining us today isn't he just SO cute!”
Beomgyu was basically frozen, he didn't dare look at the two males.
Everyone in the circle saw how distressed he looked, everyone whispered confused. But Soobin and Sunghoon didn't see it.
“Is the guy okay?” Ryujin whispered to Karina.
Sunghoon and Soobin were standing by the door entrance, they didn't sit down, they were waiting for Beomgyu to introduce himself. But Beomgyu’s back was still facing them, he didn't turn around, he didn't speak.
Soobin was getting annoyed, how could Ningning find him cute? He was just a rude loser that didn't even greet Soobin.
“What type drugs are you guys on why’d you invite a weirdo-”
Beomgyu felt his whole world collapse. He recognized that voice.
Beomgyu wished the world swallowed him whole, was it really HIM...?
He turned around so fast, Beomgyu thought he broke his neck.
He looked at the standing male, and just as he feared. The face he saw was the one of Choi Soobin.
Choi Soobin, his one and only.
Beomgyu felt his heart start beating faster, his palms got sweatier and his mouth went dry. He had a long history with this guy. God where should he even start.
“...S-soobin.” He stuttered.
He looked at the weirdo who called his name, his voice sounded familiar. He looked at the guy.
Soobin saw who it was. His eyes went wide.
“Holy shit, it can't be… Beomgyu?” Soobin said with confusion in his eyes. His past irritation was gone, but now Soobin felt a new emotion, one that didn't quite have a name.
The rest of the group were watching the event unfold, everyone was confused and silent; they didn't dare speak, all of them agreeing not to interrupt, they were waiting for the drama to reveal itself.
“Hah.. I can't believe my eyes.” Beomgyu sighed.
“It's been a while, Soobin.”
Soobin looked like he wanted to say something. He slightly opened his mouth like he was gonna speak, but he just clenched his jaw, stopping himself before saying anything.
Both of them stared at each other, with yearning, hatred and confusion.
They both looked like they were thinking hard about something, someone.
The tension was there, everyone felt it.
Everyone held their breath.
Seconds went by of them looking at each other. Beomgyu looked hurt and angry, if you looked hard enough you would see small tears forming in his eyes. Soobin looked like he was regretful, like he wanted to fix something.
Their expressions told a story.
Sunghoon was probably the most confused one, he required context, who the hell was Beomgyu, and why did he have Soobin in a chokehold. He stood there beside Soobin waiting for someone to speak, to explain the situation.
But no one explained.
So he took the initiative and asked, respectfully.
“Alright that's enough bullshit, someone fill me in here I require context people. What's going on, do you two know each other or what- Who even are you? ” Sunghoon asked what everyone else was thinking in their heads.
Beomgyu scoffed and grabbed his temples. Before snapping.
"Look i got invited by those two girls, and I don't even wanna talk about it, lets just begin with the fucking game. That's what I'm here for right?”
He said this sentence with so much confidence, he had almost forgotten he was a dorky loser, who stuttered each word before.
Holy shit.
The rest of the group were stunned, they realized there was DEFINITELY something between them, they did in fact have history, a long one for that matter. And Soobin hid it from his friends, why had they never heard of this Beomgyu before tonight?
Soobin heard that and snapped out of whatever he was doing, he took one look at Beomgyu and rolled his eyes. He hurriedly dragged Sunghoon with him and made him sit far far away from Beomgyu.
Sunoo laughed awkwardly, trying to ease the tension caused by these two.
“Oh that's nice, our Beomgyu has a friend here! Right guys… haha…”
Everyone collectively started mumbling, agreeing and laughing uncomfortably.
“WE’RE NOT FRIENDS” Soobin and Beomgyu yelled at the circle, pointing at one another. Crazy how Beomgyu’s anxiety and awkwardness left his body when Soobin was around.
The group stared at them. No one said anything.
…
Giselle looked frustrated, this was not how she planned that night, she NEEDED to have fun.
She grabbed Ningning's arm and whispered something in her ear.
“OKAY GUYS!!” Ningning yelled.
“Everyone, stop being so boring and let's start with the fun!”
She gave a look to Soobin, a look that said that he should get a fucking grip already. Ningning hurriedly grabbed the bottle from Sunoo’s hands before he could refuse or take it back.
“Ah- hey!” Sunoo pouted.
“Sorry but I have to end this tension somehow.” She smiled at Sunoo and playfully patted his head.
“I'll start alright? And remember you can't refuse, no matter the gender of the person it lands on! We don't discriminate. A baddie is a baddie.”
She placed the bottle on the floor, she made sure to be careful. It began spinning, extremely fast, and then slowly the bottle slowed down. Until finally it stopped completely.
Ningning looked up from the floor where the bottle laid, and followed where it was pointing.
It was Karina.
Karina pushed her hair back and rose from the circle.
“Oh hah- well then set the timer Sunoo.” She went over to the closet, Ningning was right behind, smiling.
The gang set the timer and the two girls went into the closet.
While they were waiting for the timer to end, the group were all chatting, all of them well except for Soobin. He was the only one not engaging in the conversation, he was too busy staring at Beomgyu from afar, Beomgyu acted oblivious and honestly it was painfully obvious even if Soobin tried acting non-chalant.
He wasn't the only one who noticed this, Sunoo saw it too, it piqued his curiosity. He wanted to know how they knew each other. Why did they both look so hurt by each other?
Sunoo tugged at Beomgyu’s shirt, he turned and looked.
“Hm? W-whats up?”
Beomgyu said, falling back into his quiet and shy demeanor forgetting that he was fully arguing with Soobin a few minutes ago.
“Seriously what was that whole ordeal with Soobin, how do you know each other?!” Sunoo said very quietly, making sure only Beomgyu heard it.
Beomgyu’s already slight smile disappeared, he sighed, it was a long and complex story, only he and Soobin understood.
He formed a fake smile, Beomgyu looked at Soobin then back at Sunoo.
“Ah well. We used to be acquaintances in high school, I-I was just shocked to see him today… That's all I swear!”
Sunoo wasn't buying it, but he didn't want to pry even more so he let it go. It was obviously a sensitive subject for Beomgyu. Sunoo nodded and smiled back.
But what Beomgyu failed to realise is, Soobin was staring and listening to that entire conversation, he heard everything. How dare he call them just acquaintances, they were BEST FRIENDS for crying out loud!
Soobin held back his words, not trying to cause more distress for everyone. But he desperately wanted to make himself forget Beomgyu, thinking about it made him angry. He grabbed the cold bottle from the even colder floor.
“Once the girls come back it's my turn to spin the bottle!” He announced. This would make everything better, a makeout session with one of his hot friends, great thinking Soobin!
Everyone turned their heads and nodded, they didn't have a problem with it, in their eyes it was normal, nothing weird about wanting to be the first in line, ‘Soobin was just impatient’ they thought.
Soobin looked at Beomgyu, and Beomgyu looked away.
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The closet door opened, 7 minutes went by and Ningning and Karina walked out. Both walked out looking flustered, with messed up hair and makeup. They still looked like a million bucks even like this, Beomgyu was more jealous then he’d like to admit.
“Wow, I'm guessing you two had fun?” Giselle said, taking a sip of Ryujin's bottle.
Ningning playfully slapped her hand.
“Shut up! Anywho- who wanted to spin the bottle now?” She said sitting down.
“Me. It's my turn now. God that was the longest 7 minutes of my life” Soobin rolled his eyes.
Beomgyu scoffed at his rude demeanor, he shook his head and whispered under his breath
“...Still as bitchy as ever I see.”
Soobin heard that, he looked at Beomgyu for a split second, before hurriedly slamming the bottle on the floor. Soobin whispered something too.
“...Still as moody as fucking ever i see.”
But he made sure no one heard, he was trying to be the IDGAF-er, emphasis on TRYING cause he clearly gave a few fucks…
He spun the bottle lightly, manifesting anyone in this room, as long as they were hot enough to make Beomgyu jealous he’d take it.
The bottle spun slower and slower, Soobin was nervous as hell, he was plotting something and it had to work, for the sake of revenge. He needed this for Beomgyu.
The bottle was barely moving, then it stopped. He heard some gasps around him, that worried him but it was probably nothing, right? Soobin looked at where the bottle's tip was pointing.
And what he saw was gonna haunt him at night for the rest of his life.
It was Choi Beomgyu, he looked speechless and concerned.
Soobin had never felt this stupid.
He forgot to factor in the fact that, Beomgyu. BEOMGYU, could've been the one in the closet with him. If god doesn't just take him out already, he would do it himself.
Soobin just stared at the bottle regretting his life choices.
“N-no way. Seriously you can't force me to do that, I refuse!” Soobin stammered explaining himself.
Ryujin slapped the back of his head. “ What is wrong with you? Don't be a bitch soobin, ever thought of how that makes Beomgyu feel? Seriously… you can't refuse that final.”
She tried to knock some sense into him.
Beomgyu took this as an opportunity for some slander. “Quit being a bitch, let's go and stop making this a hassle.”
Beomgyu stood up and walked over to Soobin's end of the circle, he reached his hand out awaiting an answer. Everyone else was watching in suspense.
Soobin looked dumbfounded, what the hell? Why was Beomgyu so bold all of a sudden?
He looked around, everyone was waiting for him, they seriously put him on the spot here.
“Dont expect me to… do stuff in there.” He smacked Beomgyu’s hand away and stood up by himself.
Beomgyu half-smirked, half-scoffed, he was annoyed as hell. Seriously, where did all this audacity and attitude come from?
“Arrogant bastard…” he whispered as they walked over to the closet door.
Both of them stepped inside.
The closet was big enough for Around 3 people to sit in, so they had a decent amount of space. And yet they both sat as far away as they could from each other, neither one saying a word.
They suddenly heard a loud banging on the door.
“BY THE WAY IF YOU GUYS DON’T ENGAGE IN ANY ACTIVITIES WE AREN'T LETTING YOU OUT!” One of the guys said.
Soobin listened in horror, he banged the door back “YOU ASSHOLES- AH I SWEAR!” he banged harder, and harder.
Beomgyu sighed, not moving a muscle. “Dont bother.”
“What?”
“I said, don't bother. You heard what they said, they're not gonna let us out until they're satisfied, why waste energy trying.” He leaned against the wall.
Soobin banged loudly, one last time, before turning his head towards Beomgyu, he stood there staring at him.
“And… you suggest we do exactly what?”
Beomgyu acted like he didn't notice Soobin speaking to him.
They both sat in silence, Soobin was very clearly staring at him. Beomgyu knew but chose to ignore it.
“... Hey now that we’re alone, could I ask you some things, I mean it's been years since we saw each other, it's been years since… The incident.”
Beomgyu sat upright again. His heart sank, but he was trying to hide it. Not showing it on his facial expressions that he was absolutely shaken inside.
“Dont you dare mention that. Asshole...” He snapped.