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Beloved, let us love one another, for love is from God, and whoever loves has been born of God and knows God.
Anyone who does not love does not know God, because God is love.1 John 4:7-8
Lake Biwa does not look like Lake Biwa.
Its water has turned the colour of liquid gold, catching light that has no clear source and holding it the way a lung holds air. Where the surface should ripple and break under wind, it lies still and dense instead, tiled almost entirely over with open clam shells—thousands of them, pale and iridescent, ranged out across the water in overlapping rows like the scales of something enormous sleeping just right on the surface. The sky above has forgotten how to be a sky. It burns in the soft palette of a sunset that refuses to finish setting, streaked through with beams of light too clean and too intentional to belong to any sun. White roses drift loose through the air in every direction, weightless, untethered from any stem; turning slowly like something underwater rather than something falling.
At the centre of it all, a monolith of enormous proportions hangs suspended in the shape of a fish; its blunt nose pressed down through the layers of mist, pointing—with an intent that feels more like judgment than geography—directly at the girl seated below it.
She sits in a throne built from a massive clam shell, its ridged layers curling up and around her like petals closing for the night, thickets of pale coral rising in branching towers on either side, pink-red and delicate as something that shouldn't be able to survive out of water and yet somehow thrives here, in air that smells faintly of salt and rot and roses all at once. Her hair—longer than it has ever been, more abundant than should be humanly possible—spills down over the shell's edge in a red so vibrant it looks as though it’s catching fire in this light, enough of it that it seems to be slowly, patiently, swallowing her whole.
茉里
Mari's loafers meet the surface of the lake and do not sink.
She doesn't register that fact until she's already three steps out onto the water, adrenaline outpacing comprehension, her mind still catching up to the improbable physics of standing on a lake instead of drowning in one. The clam shells hold her weight without so much as a wobble, packed together tight enough to form something akin to solid ground, their pallid ridges cool and peculiar beneath her feet even through her shoes.
She doesn't stop to marvel at it. There’s no room in her for wonder right now—not with that fish-looking thing hanging in the sky, vast and utterly menacing. Not with the whole horizon bent into some grotesque parody of a postcard sunset, and certainly not with Lara sitting motionless in the middle of it all like something being offered up.
“Lara!”
Her own voice sounds pathetically small, swallowed fast by the open and that terrible, patient light. She doesn't care. She keeps moving, keeps calling the name like it's a rope she can throw and pull herself hand over hand toward the person on the other end of it, until—
Lara turns.
It's only her head at first, just enough to look back over her shoulder, and the sight of her face nearly stops Mari's legs from working at all—not because it's changed, not exactly, but because of everything around it that has. And then Lara turns further, enough for Mari to see all of her, and Mari's blood goes still.
She's seen this before. But she's never seen it like this—when it’s whole and complete, undisguised, lit up under a sky that seems built specifically to display it. Where Lara's legs should be, there's a tail instead, scales catching the strange light in shades of vivid red that shift and deepen with every small motion. Her eyes are the same blue Mari's spent months learning by heart, except now they seem to radiate light instead of simply returning it, something boundless and unknowable swimming inside them that makes Mari's own reflection in them look deeply mortal.
She’s beautiful. She's terrifying. She looks like a goddess that has descended from the celestial realm—divine and untouchable. And yet, she's still, unmistakably, the Lara Mari has always known. That fact settles around Mari like an invisible mantle with such complete, resolute certainty that it doesn't even occur to her, not for one single second, to be afraid of what she's looking at.
"NO!" Lara's voice cracks across the water before Mari can take another step, sharp with a fear Mari's never heard aimed at her before. "STOP! Don’t- don't come any closer, please—"
Mari freezes, and it’s not because she's decided to. Her body simply obeys the desperation in that voice before her mind can argue with it, feet rooted to the shell-covered water, close enough now to see Lara properly, to see her hands trembling where they grip the edge of her clam shell throne, to see something like terror written plain across a face that's so easy to read.
“Lara,” Mari says again, quieter, an undercurrent of urgency lying just below her voice. “What is this? What's happenin' to you?"
ララ
Lara doesn't know how to answer her.
She'd rehearsed this, in whatever fractured way a mermaid rehearses the worst moment of their life while it's already happening. Had told herself, somewhere on her frantic swim up to the surface, that she would explain everything in whatever order made it easiest for Mari to understand and then leave. But now that Mari is actually here, close enough to touch, close enough that the sheer unbearable fact of her presence has scrambled every careful sentence Lara thought she had ready, nothing comes out right at all.
“You have to go,” is what actually emerges, thin and shaking. "Please. Before it's too late. Before I—"
"Before you what?"
Lara's throat closes around the answer. She can feel it sitting right there, fully formed, the truth of it screaming and scratching at the walls to be let out—because I love you, because you're the one my heart belongs to, because that thing above me knows it and it's going to make me destroy the only good thing I've ever had—but none of it will come. It's the same silence she remembers from centuries ago, the first time she traded her voice away to walk on land, her mouth opening and closing around words that simply refuse to exist outside her own skull.
She tries again. Manages only, "The- the blade. It's going to—" Her voice breaks entirely. She presses a trembling hand to her own throat like she can physically dig the rest of the sentence out. "It's going to take you. Because of me. Because I—"
She can't finish it. The word won't come.
"Why?" Mari's voice, when it comes, isn't accusatory. It's soft, terrified in its own quieter way, asking like she already half-suspects the answer and needs Lara to be the one to say it anyway. "Why would it wanna take me, Lara? Just tell me."
Lara opens her mouth. Nothing comes out but a broken, wordless sound, something between a sob and a plea, and above her, high overhead, the monolith's vast shadow shifts fractionally across the water, patient and waiting, indifferent to the fact that she cannot make her own voice work when it matters more than it has ever mattered in either of her lives.
茉里
Mari watches her fall apart and doesn't retreat one inch.
Something is clicking into place in her head, piece by piece, faster than she can fully process it. Grace’s warnings, half-heard and dismissed as metaphor at the time. The images she'd witnessed in that mirror in Grace's hidden lair, a prince recoiling in horror, a blade manifesting out of heartbreak and rejection—the way Lara has spent weeks flinching whenever the subject of "true love" came anywhere near the topic of Mari herself.
She understands, all at once, exactly what's happening here. And she understands, with the same sudden clarity, exactly what it's waiting for.
"It only works if he says no," Mari says, taking a step closer despite Lara's flinch, despite the way the water shudders faintly below the soles of her shoes like something immense just noticed her moving. "Right? That's how it happened to Gon- Grace. To your prince. It only turns into somethin' that can hurt somebody if they look at what you really are and say no."
"Mari—"
"I ain't sayin' no." The words come out rough, cracking at the edges, Mari's whole chest shaking with the effort of holding herself together. "I see all of you. Whatever that thing up there wants to do…no matter what you say…I ain't runnin'."
She takes another step. The shells beneath her feet hold steady.
"You're so damn troublesome, you know that?" Her voice wavers, half laugh, half something closer to grief. "You don't listen. You leave your hair in the shower drain every single mornin'. You steal my shirts and never give 'em back, and half the time you got no idea what you're doin', and it drives me up the wall—"
"Mari, please—"
"—but I'd rather have all of that." Mari's voice breaks entirely on the last word, tears finally spilling over, hot and unstoppable. "I'd rather have you, than have you gone. I don’t wanna lose anyone ever again. I can’t. I can’t lose Gon-chan and lose you, too. I ain't leavin'. You can scream at me all you want. I ain't goin' anywhere."
She's close enough now to reach out and touch her. She doesn't, not yet. Just stands there, soaked in a light that feels otherworldly, close enough to see the tears standing in Lara's own inhuman, luminous eyes.
Above them, the monolith's shadow shifts again. It's beginning to hum.
ララ
Something in Lara is coming apart at the centre.
She has spent her whole life being told, this one and the past—by Lisa, the old stories, the configuration of the law itself, old and unyielding as bedrock—that this is how it always ends. That love between her kind and the surface world is a door that only opens one way: toward rejection, toward the blade and blood or foam and never toward this. Never toward someone standing both feet down on the surface of enchanted water; crying, refusing to leave, listing off every mundane, ordinary, human complaint.
"You don't understand," Lara says, and her voice finally, finally breaks free enough to shape real words, however broken they come out. "This isn't- it's not just about you and me. If I choose this…if I choose you, I don't know what happens to my family. My father. My sisters. The whole kingdom, everything they've ever built their lives around, it's all built on this. I’m a princess of the royal family, I must fulfil my duty—" Her hands twist in her own hair, desperate. “There's only one fate governing humans and mermaids, and it's never been a good one. So don't come any closer to me.”
“I told you that ain’t happenin’,” Mari says.
"It's not that simple—"
"Why not?"
Lara doesn't have an answer for that. Or rather, she has a hundred answers, every one of them inherited, none of them actually hers: her father’s expectations, the old kingdom's laws, the prince who once looked at her true form and saw only a monster to be feared. None of it, she realizes, standing here with Mari's tear-streaked, furious, stubborn face in front of her, has ever once come from her own heart. Not really. Not the way this does.
“Because I love you,” Lara says, and the words arrive all at once, flowing freely now that the first fragment has let them through. “I love you...Mari. I love...the time we've had together. I've loved people before. I loved him, in my old life, or I thought I did…but it never felt like this. It never asked this little of me and gave this much back. You've never once asked me to be anything other than what I am.” Her voice shatter entirely. “And I'm scared. If loving you is enough to turn even the truest, best thing I've ever felt…into something that can be twisted into a blade, then- then there's no version of me that's safe from it. Not ever."
The monolith's shadow deepens. Somewhere far above them, the humming starts to amplify.
Mari traverses the last of the distance between them, climbs up the clamshell throne until Lara is just a reach away.
“Then let it try,” she says. Her dark eyes shine with a fierce determination, both of her hands coming up to frame Lara's face the way they did once before, in another life that feels a thousand years removed from this one. "I love you too. However you come. Tail or legs, mermaid or human, troublesome or not…I love all of it. I'd rather be right here with you and face whatever that thing wants to do to us than spend one more day pretendin' I don't."
"Mari—"
“I ain't scared of you,” Mari says, raw and certain all at once. “You can’t scare me away.”
Lara doesn't answer with words this time. There aren't any left in her that could carry the weight of what she's feeling. Every syllable she owns has already been spent, split and cracked open and given away, and what's left underneath all of it isn't language at all. All she knows is Mari's hands; warm against her face, steady where everything else in the world has gone unmoored and surreal, and something weighty and warm and solid finally settling into her chest that has nothing to do with kingdoms or laws or the shape a story was supposed to take.
She leans in.
茉里
Mari's heart slams once, hard, against her ribs when she feels Lara start to move—some bone-deep instinct flaring bright and fast, the part of her that's spent her whole life meeting anything unexpected with her fists raised. She doesn't let it win. She doesn't pull back nor does she flinch, doesn't so much as tighten her grip where her palms are cradling Lara's face. She simply closes her eyes instead, lets her whole body go soft and unguarded the way she almost never allows itself to be, and waits.
The kiss, when it comes, tastes like salt and something sweeter underneath it, something that has no name in any human language Mari knows—like standing at the edge of the sea and being kissed by the fullness of it at once, ancient and tender despite everything vast that it's made of. Lara's hand comes up to rest on top of Mari's hands, fingers trembling slightly, like she still isn't entirely sure she's allowed to be doing this even now, even after everything she's just said out loud into the air.
The whole dreamlike world seems to hold its breath along with them. The floating roses still. The gold water goes completely flat and silent. Even the light seems to dim, just slightly, as if bowing its head.