Work Text:
I wish i could be with her
“Hey penny hows it going” I quickly close my note book as my best friend Olive walks over “oh nothing much just,you know school work” I say waving my notebook lie. “ oh cool but guess what” olive asks excitedly “what” “ i just asked lilly to hoco!! It was really cute i have videos if you want to see” my heart sank cause i had been in love with olive for as long as i can remember “ oh cool yeah i would love to see” i say trying not to sound defeated to tell the truth i probably would never love anyone the way i love her and that was what i had truly been working on in my notebook it was this poem i had be writing and i knew i could never show olive cause i know how much she loved lilly in fact i had helped get with her for at least a year and a half and to be honest they were so good together
“Mum, I'm home. Mum? That's weird she's usually home oh well” i got of my shoes and headed to my room to write some more after 10 minutes of trying to describe the blue of olives eyes i gave up writing so instead i texted my best friend maya
Me
Heyyy are you home
Maya
Yea wanna call
Instead of texting i called her straight away “hey maya so i might have the tiniest tiniest problem” i tell her sheepishly “ oh no what did you do” she asked immediately assuming i had do something wrong “well so i kind of sort of have been in love with this girl for like two-two in a half years and she just asked her girlfriend to hoco and i dont know what to do because i should be happy for her but i wish the girlfriend had said no” I explain to maya “ hold on let me get this right you have been in love with this girl for over two years and you did NOTHING!!!!!” she practically screamed that last part into the phone “well not nothing i might of helped her get the girl friend” i said as i put my phone down so my ear would stay intact “OH MY GOD WTF YOU DID WHAT!!!” Maya yelled just as I predicted “ oh no would you look at that my mums home got to go byee love you” i hung up before she could respond .
“ how was school” mum asked at dinner “ it was fine” just you know the girl i have loved for ages asked her girl friend to homecoming so im devastated even though they have been dating for 6 months i only just realized that they really really love each other but other that that school was fine of course i only say the first bit aloud. When I'm finished I excuse myself and go to my room, I then spend the next few hours watching wlw tiktock compilations on youtube. “Urhh my brain feels fried” i say out loud for what feels like the first time in for ever all i can think about is how happy olive look and how that she never look that happy thinking about me or the fact that my first kiss won't be her that I’ll always just be her friend and nothing more i mean what was i expecting that she would change her mind and pick mr cause if i was her i wouldnt pick me either cause what is the to like about me and how could someone like her someone funny, cool, pretty, creative, musical, smart and amazing like someone sad, unmotivated ,mediocre at everything and boring it just wouldn't work cause it never works for me never