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(Izuku PoV)
"Yesh! It's all done!!"
I was making a chocolate macaroni for tomorrow valentine. I was planning to give it to Katsuki. The only person that I adore and I love. I kept all these feelings to myself after 10 years and tomorrow, I would let it all out to kacchan whether he liked it or not.
After I done tasting everything and made sure it was all good, I cleaned up the remaining ingredients and put it on the shelf. Then I wrapped the chocolate on the transparent packing and tied it with a red ribbon. I looked at it and sighed.
"I wonder if I could it to kacchan... I mean.. he hates me, right..?"
I mumbled to myself.
'Kacchan never see me as his friends, but more like a disgusting human beeing that should have died'
I shed a little tear remembering all those painful memories, but no. Tomorrow would be different! I mean kacchan already changed, right?? Yes. Definetly yes. He already changed and he won't do those things again!
I slap my head to erased all negative things and pick up my valentine gift to my room and put it inside my bag. Then I sat on my chair, search for paper and pen. I started to thinking about words that I wanted to write as a poem for katsuki. It seem simple but it was the hardest things I ever had in my life. I never did this before and never liked another person beside kacchan. I sighed, start to used another way to write it. After 1 hours, I felt like I nailed it a little but oh well. I put the letter inside my bag and went to sleep.
*the next day*
'Oh god oh god this is it!'
I already arrived in front of my classroom. I gulped before I entered my class. When I walked inside, there are many girls who have their chocolate in their hands and they gave it to either todoroki or kacchan but kacchan, as usual, got mad and refused all the chocolate. But still, the girls forced him to took it. I took a deep breath and walked to my seat while smiling at kacchan.
"G-good morning ka-kacchan"
"Tch.. fuck off nerd"
Kacchan looked at another direction. He looked like he wanted to avoid me. I sighed and sat on my chair. This wasn't good.. I didn't think he will accept my valentine gift. I sighed again and put my head on my desk.
"Deku? What's wrong? are you sick?"
Uraraka came to me with her worried look.
"Ah.. It's nothing uraraka. I'm just tired, that's all"
"Ohh alright then but if something happens, just tell me okay?"
"I will uraraka, Thank you for your concern"
"No problem! Oh by the way, I got this for you"
Uraraka handed me a chocolate bar with a pink ribbon on it. She blushed a little as she gave it to me.
"It's uhh.. It's a gift because you're being a good friend to me ehehe please accept it"
I take it and smiled at her.
"Thank's uraraka"
"Yes! thank you too deku!"
She grinned at me and we chatted a little bit before Aizawa-sensei came in. She went back to her seat and we started our class.
*after class*
I swear I could hear my heartbeat out loud!! I'm so nervous. I didn't think I can do this. I swear I could feel katsuki pissed off aura in front of me. I didn't know why tho. He should be happy because he received a lot of valentine gift but he refused it all. If I were him, I would take that all because I didn't want to hurt anyone feelings since I already know how hurt it is. I gathered all my voice to call kacchan but before I could call him, he turned around and face me.
"What are you looking at nerd?!"
"A-ah no! it's nothing!! it's just umm.."
I looked down, playing with my fingers to get rid of my nervousness.
"Look at me when you talk to me fuck munch"
"A-ah yes! I'm s-sorry"
Katsuki sighed and shrug his shoulder. He picked his bag, getting ready to go home. I quickly caught his hand.
"PL-PLEASE WAIT FOR ME AT TH-THE GATE!! I-I NEED TO TELL YOU SOMETHING IM-IMPORTANT!!"
Before he could reply, I dashed out from the classroom to the nearest restroom. I went in and hold my chest. My heart was beating so fast and my legs are shaking like crazy! I couldn't believe it I said it! now all I had to do is just calm down and face him at the school gate. But.. what if kacchan didn't wait for me. He just went straight home.
No! I had to believe in him! I put my bag down to search for kacchan chocolate. Once I looked at it, take a deep breath and slapped myself to gather my confident.
'yes deku! you can do this!'
I got out from the restroom ran again downstairs until I reached the school gate. I searched everywhere in the school garden for kacchan but I couldn't find him. I almost lost my faith in him until I saw a blond hair under the tree near the school gate. I smiled and walked to him.
"Kacc---"
I stopped. I wished what I saw wasn't real but it was. Kacchan was beeing kissed by kirishima. I droped the chocolate as the tears on my eyes kept rolling down into my face. I just stood there like an idiot person. Kirishima noticed me so he released kacchan.
"Mi-midoriya?!"
"D-deku?!"
I looked down to hid my face. There was a silenced between us. Normally, Kacchan would yell at me and told me to get lost but now he didn't do that. He had this shock expression on his face. I slowly lift my face and smile at them.
"I-I'm sorry. I won't tell this to anyone. You two make a good couple"
"D-deku it's not wh---"
The moment kacchan opened his mouth, that's the moment I ran. I ran as fast as I could as I let out my ugly sob.
'I shouldn't do this.. I shouldn't wait for him.. I should just give up on him.. I should just give up on my feeling so I don't have to feel this hurt feelings'
I kept ran and ran, didn't care where did I go until I realize something hit me really hard.
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(Katsuki pov)
"Fuck.. it's all your fucking fault hair for brain!"
I yelled at this idiot for ruining my chance to confess my feeling to deku. fuck. I really fucking mad at him. Why the fuck did he have to kiss me. Me of all people!
"I-I'm sorry man.. I just wanted to confess to you"
"well you can just tell me your fucking feeling instead of kissed me you fucking shit"
"sorry.."
"I don't want your fucking sorry. Not get out of my fucking face before I blow you up!"
Kirishima sighed and walked away from me. I looked at the chocolate that deku dropped before he ran from me. I picked it up and found my name on a piece of paper. I took the paper and opened it.
'Kacchan! Happy valentine! uh.. I don't think I can say this out loud to you so I'm using this to tell that to you. Also.. Please, I love you kacchan from the bottom of my heart. I don't care if you're doing bad things to me in the past but past is past! I want to start a new chapter with you. So please answer me. Will you be my valentine or not? (Actually just circle down bellow lol I'm so sorry)
Will You be My Valentine, Katsuki Bakugou?
(Yes / No) '
Fuck. I knew it! I knew that he wanted to confess to me! I fucking knew it. Fuck that nerd for made me wait that long. I got up and ran into the direction where he ran. I searched for that nerd but I couldn't find him. He shouldn't be this far, right?
Just as I reached the intersection, I saw a lot crowd gathered there. My heart sank. I approached the crowd as I kept telling myself that it anything that related to deku. As I reached the front crown, I swear the universe hated me right now. I saw deku, lying there with blood all over his fucking body. I screamed and I ran to his side.
"DEKU!!"
I picked his lifeless body and rested his head on my arms. Thank god he's till breathing.
"Deku! Fuck! Hang in there!!"
He opened his eyes when he heard my voice. He looked at me and made a weak smile.
"Ka-kacchan.."
"Fu-Fuck! deku that the fuck happened to you!!"
"I.. I messed up kacchan haha I-I.."
"Fuck! Don't say anything else!! Somebody! Call the fucking ambulance!!"
I scream at the crowd to get some help. I was shaking, scared to lose someone so special that was dying in my arms. I kept screaming until I felt a cold hand touched my cheek. I slowly change my attention to deku.
"Ka-kacchan.. It's okay. I'll go soon.. you don't have to help me. I won't be your burden anymore. I won't disturb your peaceful life anymore.. You can live happily with kirishima.. I wo--"
"SHUT THE FUCK UP!!"
I screamed at the top of my lungs. I took his cold hand from my cheek and grasp it.
"YOU WILL FUCKING LIVE. I DON'T CARE ABOUT HAIR FUCKING BRAIN. I ONLY NEED YOU FUCKING STUPID NERD!! I... I.. I FUCKING LOVE YOU!! DON'T YOU FUCKING DARE TO LEAVE ME!!"
Tears were rolling down on my face now. Deku was shocked to hear that.
"i-is that true kac-kacchan?"
"YES IT'S FUCKING TRUE SO FUCKING LIVE FOR ME! please.."
Deku looked at me, tears rolled on his eyes again as he tried his best to spoke.
"Ka-kacchan.. I-I"
"Shh shut up and save your god damn energy"
"I-I can't kacchan.. I can't.. It hurts..."
"NO! YOU WILL GOD DAMN ALIVE!!"
"Kacchan..."
"What..."
"I'm sleppy kacchan..."
"No no no"
I grasped my grip harder on him as my life depended on it. I used my other arm, that was supporting his head to stroke his head.
"Stay with me.. fucking stay with me I beg you..."
Izuku smiled at me as he brough his other hands to careless my cheek.
"It's okay kacchan... you'll be happy"
"No no! I can't be happy without you!! Just.. fucking stay with me for another minute.. I promise if you can't stay the fuck away, okay you can fucking close your eyes.. please deku.. just.. please.. with me..."
I hold him close to me, praying that the fucking siren that saved his life would fucking come. I felt deku clutch his hand on my shirt.
"O-okay kacchan"
"Thank you deku... fucking thank you"
I bent down and kissed his forehead to calm his shaking. He tried his best to held the pain from all over his body.
"Ka-kacchan.."
"Yes.. yes what is it deku?"
"M-my leg hurts.. I can't feel it... wh-what if I can't be a hero even though I alive?"
"I don't fucking care. All I care is you stay fucking alive and I swear I will be your fucking number one hero! I will fucking protect you from those shit villain!! Even though you can't fucking walk anymore, I will fucking stay by your side! I will be your fucking best boyfriend you ever had! And I will fucking make you the happiest person that ever live!!! Fucking better remember all I said, you fucking hear me nerd?!"
I gasped for breath after I finish my vow to him. I couldn't hold my tears anymore as they kept coming out from my eyes. My eyes become red because of it. Deku smiled and he snuggled closer to my chest.
"I see.. I will remember all of that kacchan *giggle* th-thank's kacchan.."
"So you better fucking stay alive"
"I hope kacchan..."
"You fucking will.."
I held him closer to me while wiping the tears away from his eyes. We stay like there until I heard an ambulance siren. Fucking finally.
"Deku... did you hear that?"
"....."
"Deku?"
"....."
"Fuck NO! DEKU!!! WAKE UP!! THIS ISN'T FUNNY!! FUCKING SHIT!!"
I kept shaking him, still had a little hope that he would wake up but he didn't wake up.
"Alright move people. We're coming through"
I heard the paramedic is coming to my way so I yelled at them to got their attention.
"OI! FUCKING HERE!!"
The paramedic team noticed me and they quickly go to my side. They started to gave deku oxygen mask and pick him up from the ground to the ambulance. I just stared there, still shaking either because of relief or scared that deku would die. A single tap on my shoulder disturbed my thought as I looked who was it.
"Yo kid. You're his friend? Are you coming or not? He need you when he wake up"
"Yes yes. Please"
"Okay. Get in the car"
I nodded and got into the car. I sat beside deku, holding his hand and praying that he would be okay.
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(Deku pov, at the hospital)
I groaned as I opened my eyes but I closed I again as soon as the ray of light attacked my eyes.
' Am I in heaven? '
After a while, I opened my eyes again and looked around. Hmm so I'm at the hospital, huh? I tried to move but my body is still hurt as fuck. I felt a weight on my chest so I looked down and saw kacchan was sleeping on my chest. I blushed, looking at how cute kacchan face is.
I couldn't move both of my hand. Moreover? I couldn't feel my hands and my legs.
"N-no.. n-no way.. n-no i-it can't be.."
Kacchan groaned when he heard my panicked voice. He opened his eyes and looked at me.
"Deku...? DEKU!!"
Kacchan hugged me really tight ashe cried on my shoulder.
"Deku... th-thank's god you're fucking alive.. please don't leave me again *sniff*"
I cried too. Not because of I'm happy that I'm alive but because I couldn't move a single muscle from my body.
"Ka-kacchan... I can't feel anything"
Kacchan broke the hug and looked at me with his teary eyes.
"I know deku.. the doctor said that you will be paralyzed for the rest of your life"
I was shocked. I felt my heart stop hearing that.
"I-... I what..."
"You heard me deku.."
"N-no... I... NO!! I CAN'T ACCEPT THIS!!"
I cried as hard as I could. My dream was broken right in front of my eyes.
"Hey hey.. don't cry"
Katsuki hugged me and he stroke the back of my head to made me calm down.
"I know it sucks.. I know but the good thing is you're still alive and I'm here to take care of you. Okay? Now don't cry.. everything will be alright shhh"
"But kacchan... I.. I'm useless.. I am the real deku who can't do anything"
"No. You're not the old deku. You are the new deku. Deku that always do his best. You're not useless to me. Just seeing you alive already made me the happiest person that ever live. So don't say that okay"
Kacchan kissed my cheek while wiping my tears. I blushed at his sudden kiss. Then he moved his head to whispered beside my ears.
"I already read your fucking love letter and my answer is. Yes. Izuku Midoriya. Let me be your husband for the rest of your life"
Kacchan moved back and he gave the warmest smile he ever had. I looked at him in disbelief before cried again.
"O-oi wh-what's wrong? Did I just fucki g hurt you?"
"N-no.. it's just that... I'm so happy right now. I-.. I love you so much kacchan"
Kacchan sighed. He placed his forehead with mine. I could felt his warm breath collide with me.
"Don't fucking scare me like that again you hear me"
"I won't.. but kacchan.."
"Hm?"
"I can't hold you or spoil you every night when we already married. Is.. that okay?"
"Fuck I don't care. I will hold you every night and cling like a fucking baby panda. You have to deal it wheter you like or not"
"Hehe okay kacchan"
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(Ten years later, no one pov)
Deku was sitting down, watching some random channel on the television as he waited his lover to come back from shower. Then he heard something interesting on the news.
"This is XY city where there are only 30% crime in here. It was all thank's to our hero, Explodo kings who protect this city from any villain."
Deku smiled hearing that. His lover already fulfill his promised to become number one hero in the world. Now he could see kacchan face anywhere in the city.
"Explodo king huh? What a cute name"
"Cute eh? More like dangerious name"
Deku looked behind him to saw kacchan without nothing to cover his body, except a towel around his hips.
"Hey kacchan. Already finish taking shower"
"Yeah"
Kacchan kissed deku cheek and walked to in front of the sofa to sit beside him. Kacchan was still wet but I didn't mind. He looked way more sexy like this anyway. Kacchan wrapped his arms around me to hold me close to him. I reated my head on his chest.
"If only I can move my arms to hug you back.."
"Hm? Oh you can do that. Here let me help you"
Kacchan put me on his lap and he took both of my arms around him.
"See. You're holding me"
"Hmm you're really smart kacchan"
"Hell yeah I am"
I smiled and snuggled closer to his neck. We stayed the until we both fall asleep.