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The next day i wear my shortest skirt... just to spite jj
I mean its really cute! Its white fuzzy skirt and i topped it with a huge bright pink hello kitty sweatshirt , and some white knee high boots that synch to my skin
While jj lists off how cold its gonna be...
I only have two classes today,
I go to psych the first two hours and after that i would i have study hall buut it got cancelled im pretty sure... after that its criminology for the last two hours
jj has only one class today because her last class got called off too, sooooo after my first class me and jj are gonna go eat at this old diner thats known for there burgers
She's absolutely OBSESSED with this place, Ive only ever gotten take out so were eating in, but then i have to head back to campus after that.
"Im probably gonna leave my class early so just come to my car, ill pull up to the front when your out".jj says swinging her arm around my neck.
She's currently walking me to my first class, hes only on the 2nd floor so we wont take long.
"We got two hours to spare so dinner first" jj says pointing at me sternly
" aaaand jan an cirius wanna smoke after we get out, i had already planned to do that but.."
jj sighs, sometimes shes just as tired as me
"Alright well ill probs get out of class around 10:15 soo ill see you" waving goodbye as we part
"See you later bunny"
jj says waving me off
And all Mr. Pho made us do was watch a movie...Obviously it was on psychology and he said he'd give us till next week.
Its about a story between a therapist and a patient, he wants us to put ourselves in the the shoes of therapists and right at least 2 pages (giving out ginormous piece of paper to is all...
he says its ' quite a sad movie'
It must be completed back in front on any type of sheet of paper
I like these sorts of things, so ill just watch it with jj
Sooo I slept through the rest of the class:)
10:15 im awoken to a face i'd rather not see
The infamous matt nobel.
Hes this basic white boy who, for one dose not know how to take a hint, two this man has no play
Whatever he dose has only worked on long tall stick built ass bitches with brown hair and that nasty faded pink strip on it
Because yes, I seen them talking before my class started and yes she did stare at me as she left the room..
Yet he follows me around like any other dog.
Not to mention im gayer then the word gay, and somehow I find myself looking straight at him
"Class is ending, you getting up bro?"he says after he stops tapping me
"Yeah thanks" sleepily gathering my things so i can get out and eat, making my way down the aisle and making my way to the door
"So whats your next class, im headin to Mr. Pearlys"he says right on my tail following me out the classroom
Hes the band teacher,
"Class is canceled soo im gon grab some food with a friend" i say looking for my exit.
"Oh cool... you doin anything later?"he says
"Yeah just gonna chill with some friends but ill see you around" i say turning to the stairs
"Alright see y-" cut off, because
im flyin down them steps.
Like i said.. no new friends
Making my way out the front doors i spot jjs big truck blaring her usual music
Jumping in and getting comfy
jj hands me a nicley rolled lit blunt.. "Freshly rolled" she says with a smile
"Why thank you"i say finding a lighter, and jj starts our drive
"How was class bun?"
jj says focused on the road
"I dont know, mr. Pho put on a movie and i took a tiny nap"i say giggling after lighting the blunt.
"Oh! Guess who woke me up" i say taking a long hit
"Who?"
"Matt fucking nobel"i say laughing knowing jj is gonna be maad
"I thought all the glares i sent his scary ass would make him leave, of course he'll take any chance to talk to you.."
And jj rants about him all the way there.
Pulling into the parking lot i put out our half blunt and jump out ( literally )with jj and we head in
As we walk in i take a look around, it kinda reminds of those breakfast diners from the 90's
A red bartop and black stools, with a few sat up there with drinks and few people on the other side end of it idly chattin.
jj walks us to the counter where the waitress greets us with a smile " hello ladies! Just the two of you?" She says grabbing some menus
"Yup"jj says... very montone,
I swear! shes mean to everyone shes not friends with.
She sits us at a tiny booth in the corner, she takes both of our drink orders and Told us she'd be back.
"You want any appetizers bun?"
jj says, head in her hands
"Yeaahh i want some mozzarella sticks.."
I am a VERY picky eater sooo
Im getting what i always get.
"Of course you do, im gonna get some fried mushrooms oh and they have a pasta section now too"jj says
"Well you couldnt have said that sooner.." flipping the menu around, jj knooows i love any type of pasta
When me and my ma first came to the U.S. we moved in with my aunty and her kids, the first thing she made me was chicken Alfredo and it was like heaven on earth..
I love her cooking to this day.
"I think im gonna get some spaghetti..." i say to jj, they have three different kinds that all came with big 'ol bread sticks
"Im gonna get the the double decker burger, im probably not gonna eat it all so you can have some" jj says just as i spot our waitress heading back over to us
"Awh you don't have to jj"
I say giving her a pouty face
"Alright are we ready to order?"
Our waitress says as she gets up to our table, pulling out a pencil and pad
jj tells her both of our orders while i lay my head on the table, still feeling the effects of my nap in class.
"Are you still tired bun?"jj says leaning forward at the table.
"Yeah just a tiny bit, that was a really good nap.." pausing letting out a big yawn.
"Here.."she leans over and grabs my ankles, sitting my feet in her lap
"jj ill realllly fall asleeep"i say with a groan
"It wont be long for the food bunny"she says chuckling
And yet i still fell asleep at the table...
Ten minutes later..
i smell mozzarella sticks!
"Did you smell your food and wake up"jj says laughing at me
"jj im huuunggrryyy" i say taking a bite out of one
"I can tell, you bit that like a starved animal"still laughing at me...
"Waheva!"i say with a full mouth
"Ay y'know its not very polite to talk with your mouth full"she says in a teasing tone
And just to annoy her, i open my mouth wide so she can see all my food.
"awuuuhhhh come on buun! thats grooosss" she says slapping her hands over her eyes
"Ha ha" i say shoveling more food into my mouth.
A couple minutes later a loud group of teens come in, and as im watching them talk to our waitress hearing bits and pieces of the conversation
I can tell from here that they are flirting with her, i can really see the disgust in her face..
She sits them in a large booth on our side, jjs back is facing them so she probably forgot they just came in.
A couple minutes later our waitress comes back with our food, telling us to enjoy.
Taking a huuge bite of my pasta
" jj this is sooooo good you have to try!" Pushing my plate towards her
"Then tell me if my burgers good" she says also giving me her her plate
Taking as big of a bite i can
"Ugghh jj this is to good.."
and sipping on my drink
"Yeah this is pretty good, its better than my take outs..."
She says continuing to take her bite
As we eat our food i zone out for awhile just enjoying my pasta
Focusing on the music coming from above me i look up just to find an unkown set of eyes staring me down, its one of the boys from the group
Why is it always some blonde man?
I got 1 hour and like 30 minutes of peace and its being disturbed..
So i just decided to ignore him, when we start packing up our food i see him get out his seat heading over here.
So i look behind me in search of maybe a bathroom?
but there is none.
Sooo what dose he want?
"Hey mamas, how you doin tonight?" He says with a deep voice
MAMAS??
And jj just bursts out laughing literally slamming her hands on the table, i didint wanna hurt this boys feelings so i gave him a tiny smile
"Im good, did ya... need something oor?" I say putting my take out box in the bag
"Yeah im tryna get your number baby" he says stepping closer to me
And im speechless..
No words.
And jj thankfully handles the problem for me
"Well if you want her so bad, you gotta go through me buddy" she says in maybe a little too threatening tone... oh and now she had her scary mean face on, standing up next to the boy patting his shoulder
And that somehow makes him scurry off apologizing.
"Hehe thank you jj, you ready to dip?" I say smiling hard trying to contain my laughter, jumping up next to her
"Yeaah you got a smoke to finish" she says, leading me up to the front counter so she can pay for our food
" did those boys give yall trouble?? I can kick them out, they are always in her messin with folks.." she says sighing hard
"Hehe noo no were just here to pay, jj handled that" i say looking over to her, just to see this girl WINKING AT MEE.
How scandalous, now i must shrink into myself
*tuck*
jj pays wishing her a good day and were outta there
"You want ice cream? Ermas is around the corner from the school and there open till the 30th" jj says as were getting in the car
"Oo yess" i say lighting up my jj blessed blunt, and yes i smoked
It all.
I got a brownie delight and jj for a dirty worm, mine obviously had tons of brownies in and jjs was vanilla and oreo bits and gummy worms.
We sat at one of their cute little picnic tables basically people watching as people came and went
When we were done jj took me back to the school with almost 10 minutes to spare which gives me time to vape in the bathrooooom!! Whheewww!!
Wishing our farewells i make my way inside to find a stairwell to head up to the third floor and find the closest bathroom to my class
But who do i spot on the other side of the hall 2 doors down?
Guess because i shall not say the devils name or she will hear me...
So I immediately throw on my beats and scroll through my phone to find a song i can ignore her to
Hear no evil see no evil
I make it past her with the bathroom just a few feet infront
Of me and just as im about to round the corner, i feel someone grab both my shoulders turning me around
Just to find a tall ass bitch, and its not mine
T_T
She says something but I obviously cant hear her
So i back out of her space and pull off one of my headphones
"Sorry what?"
I say quietly cause she actually kind of scares me...
No matter how much shit talking i do i am NOT a fighter.
"Your milei?" She says pointing to me hooking her arm around mine
"Yes?"
"Mhmm where are you off to? The bathroom?"she says
Pulling me towards my destination as i nod to her
As we make it inside she leaves me to one side of wall as she looks at herself in the mirror, just standing there silently for a couple minutes..
"How come everytime i find you your running off? Why arent you ever at lunch? Oh and how do you know my man.." and she blabs on for what seems like forever.
Doing a complete 180 on me asking me all these questions...
And they just kept getting dumber, alot were very disrespectful but the girl gave me no time to answer.
But y'know im all bark so im very silent as she raises her voice at me, I feel like this went on for a good ten minutes...
Until she said
"How do you know joy too! Are you her stalker? Do you like her or something?? Well ill just let you know shes not one of those ga-"
"Excuse me? I am just her dorm roommate! And I shouldn't have to prove anything you've been asking of me, i dont know you..."
i say trying to calm my shaky voice, folding my arms.
"And if we wanna talk about stalkers thats you, how do you know half of the things you know?" I say tilting my head at her
"You think i dont know you've been talkin with my man everyday in that Spanish class?!"she yells
"Bitch i dont want your man! Hehe.. Hes asked for my number to many times, Its not my fault your an uninteresting ass white bit--"
She interrupts my sentence, slapping me hard dragging her nasty fake nails across my cheek.
Hot stings flood into my left cheek, s-she smacked me! Holding my cheek, i stare at her wide eyed feeling my body start to shiver and shake.
"What the fuck is wrong with you?" I say finally raising my voice at her, holding my face to soothe it, looking down to try and ease the stinging in my face that was seeping down into my neck.
Looking at my shoes remembering i have my heavy ass boots on soo...
Impulsively and very in the moment.
I lift my boot and stomp down on her tiny ass feet in those tall ass heels making her stumble back with one foot still in place.
She ends up falling on here ass,
Letting out a high pitched scream "uughhiihhhhhiuu!!"
Quickly looking back in the mirror to make sure i look fine, looking back at her walking around her and just to add effect... i spat on her!, "BITCH" i yell out stepping out of that death trap.
neveragainneveragainneverever
Heading to class was harder than I thought id be.. as i start to feel my chest heave and my eyes get watery, legs starting to feel like jello..
If i can just make it to my class ill be fine.. just a couple doors down, i tell myself forcing my legs to walk faster.
Reaching for the door
I open it looking down avoiding eye contact my teacher as she reads me very well
"Hey there Milei! your a bit late, how are you?"she says very happy go lucky
"Im fine, just a bit tired thanks"
I say quietly finding my seat and putting my head down letting my silent tears fall letting the dizziness set in along with my headache.
This is is gonna be a long two hours..
Long it was.
It took me the whole hour to stop my tears and shaking, heavy breathingg.
It feels like i just ran track and with that feeling in comes the urge to vomit... its just a scary cycle.
Its been a while, everything has been going so good lately, i still get really jittery in big crowds and around new people.
But these people are actually nice... and want to be my friends.
But it really felt like i was back in 7th grade like 4'7 huddled in a corner trying to defend myself in the girls locker room or running after them trying to get my clothes back... i hated the shower rooms.
Ive told jj about the therapy and anything that might seem 'out of hand' in the start so she wouldn't think i was crazy if she ever seen me balling tears and potentially pulling hair...
Ive had severe anxiety and Depression since i was a child, starting from the 3rd grade i was super tiny and short in a class where everyone was at least four-five inches taller than me.
And you know children are cruel and dont think before they speak tiny, short, forgotten, laughed at milei cried her little eyes out everyday till she turned 12.
When my mom moved me schools, just for us to leave the country half way into the school year away from my father
I dont remember much of him except that he was always mean and in a terrible mood, so my ma tried to keep me away from him as much as possible.
As that man did not help at all with how fragile i felt and looked as a child, moving to the U.S. felt worse.
I had a strong accent that made my speech sound slurred, i was still really short and i wasnt in most my classes because i had to do therapy and speech classes , so not many friends either
So when i say it took me a long time to come out my shell, it took forever.
And when i start to feel myself creeping back into my shell, which ive felt since she started glaring and staring me down more
Its very hard for me to come out and control and regulate myself,
Maybe my ma was right..?
It took me 2 full hours to even pay attention to my teachers voice as i hear her telling everyone to have a good day
As everyones shuffling around and talking as they leave, i try my hardest to move from spot still hiding my face under my arms
Slowly moving my body to wake it up, as im moving my legs around a hand lays on my shoulder immediately making me sit up .
Forcing me to make eye contact
With my professor seeing the worried look on her face, immediately forcing a smile for her.
"Honey are you alright? There are tears all down your face??" She says now squatting in front of me
"Yeah sorry... i guess today just isnt my day" i say as i roughly rub away my left over tears
"Are you sure honey?"she says softly
"Yeah ill probably sleep this whole day off" giving her my best smile
"Alrighty just let me know if you need anything, ok honey?"
She says standing up out of my space
"I will! Thank you, and sorry for keeping you so long after class.." standing up and grabbing my bag
"oh no honey you were no trouble at all! I have some work i need to finish up so ill be here a while!" She says patting my back and walking me out the door and we wish each other a good day, and her telling me to feel better.
Deciding to take the elevator to avoid as much human contact possible, while inside i call jj
And she always picks up on the first ring
'Hey buun, im here'
'Hey jj' i say with a sigh, just thinking about that weird interaction with that bitch just makes me wanna cry again
Watching the levels go down, listening to the music playing.
'Why do you sound so sad bun, whats wrong?'and i can already see the face shes making
' ill tell you when i see you its alot, and before you say anything yes i still want to smoke with you and your friends' i say as i step out the elevator finding the front doors to leave
'Where you parked j?' I say looking around for her truck
'Over here baby' she says quietly into the phone honking her loud horn one time... i think ill consider what monica said instead of that long legged giraffe who doesn't know how to stand properly :)
Ending the call and speed walking to her car and hopping in.
"Whats wrong bunny?"she immediately asks putting her hand on my knee
And i just let it out and not just a couple tears, full on sobbing.
i just couldn't help it and i was just to tired to feel embarrassed, even when my professor seen me like this.
I probably still had mascara all down my face, now its worse.
jj says something but i cant hear her over my now ringing ears from my nonescapable headache, i feel her pull me into a tight hug over the armrest one hand whipping my tears the other rubbing my back.
The worst of my headache calms and i hear her trying to sooth me as i hiccup in every sentences as i tell her everything, very telling anger on her face as she comforts me..
As i finish telling her everything she drives us straight to our dorm, and she held my hand the whole way!
" im sorry you were there by yourself bunny, i really am.."
jj holding my hand in hers and leaning forward to kiss it
"And im serious! The next time something like this happens call mee!" She says planting a couple more down on my knucles
"N-next time? I-im running away from her" i say with a tiny smile rubbing away my tears to try an make myself feel better
"Are you sure you still wanna smoke with jan and cirius? You dont have too" she says as we pull into our college dorm parking lot
"I need to at this point, and we dont have to be there for another half an hour, sooo your gonna lay down with mee" i say sniffling... which was very bold of me
"Alright bunny whatever you want"she says back as we both get out the car
More like hop out for me
And lay down we do, because by the time we had to leave to cirius's flat jj was carrying me to the car half asleep
Cirius is a sophomore, he used to live on campus but he didn't like it sooo he lives in a flat a couple minutes away from campus.
Pulling into his little drive way more awake, i stumble out of the car and over to jj so she can go first
The door is already open so we just go in.
"Heyoo" she says as we walk through the door
Jan and Cirius greet us as we come in, including some random girl with blonde hair...
"OH, bun this is mia cirius's cousin i promise shes super cool!" jj says rubbing my shoulder as we walk over to the ginormous bean bag in his tiny living room
"Bun?" The now named mia questions
"i-its a nickname you can call me milei" i say quietly giving her
a small smile
And as me and jj settle in I immediately fall asleep...
And a little bit later i awake to music playing and a lit blunt in my face.
"Do you still wanna smoke bunny? You can go back to sleep if you want" jj says quietly
"No no i want it" i say sitting up and taking it from her
"So mi those the shoes you stepped on the bitch with?"
Jan says giggling
Looking down at my feet I realize i never took my shoes off for my nap
"Yeah i threw my foot down on her bitch ass, i hope shes in the hospital for her fucked up ass feet" i say giggling after a long hit
"Damn how many inches are those" the blonde one says laughing loudly
"4 inches, you should've seen the way the bitch fell i know i broke one of her heels so i wont have to ever see those pink barbie doll straps ever again uggghh" i say takin another hit
"What dose she look like again? ill keep an eye out" cirius says
"Brown hair, pink stripe, tall as shit and always wearing bright colored heels" i say passing the blunt to jan
"If i even see her in the halls im bookin it to the nearest jj, because never again.."
And of course i got the jokes i was throwing them out in every sentence making everybody laugh.
After the 2nd blunt jj got a text and she brings it out so we can both see it from her mom
'Sooo? Did you take my baby out for lunch???'
And jj IMMEDIATELY turns her phone so i cant see while she types and when she turns it back a bit before shutting it off and putting back
It said 'of course i took MY baby out for lunch❤️' ok so maybe i can somehow fasten my crush speech?
I did end up falling asleep again before we left but i was promptly woken back up because jj said we were going to her moms for dinner because she misses me?
So me and jj made the ten minute ride to her moms, which i have never been so this is a big first.
jj was way to chill for me as i was rambling on and on and on, y'know nervous chatter
i mean it was very nice change from the start of the evening
At jj's house her mom gives me so many hugs, we talked about school and her and my moms hangouts that they've planned together while jj finished up making dinner so we could talk.
Isnt jj the sweetest?
In the middle of me talking,
While maybe watching jj plate food from across the room, she holds onto both my hands with hers.
I stop to look giving her questioning look before she whispers to me " mi? Do you like my daughter" she asks in a sweet voice.
"Oh weell uhhm-" i blubber out
"Its ok honey you dont have to lie to me, i see the way you two look at eacther and thats from only seeing you together for a couple of days"she says now soothing over the skin on my hands
" ..do you think she actually sees me like that?" I say to her feeling hot and red
" of course honey she's always talking about you, when i talk to her about you i call you my 'future daughter'"she says giggling
"Mooom foods ready, come on Bun- ugggh one second ill go get celeste" she says going down the hall
"Oh and she calls you bunny, thats a little too friendly"she says laughing
" i guess your right, ive been denying myself this whole time" i say as we both get up to head to the dinner table
"Oh you really have honey, oh! And whens the wedding? "
She says joking around
And that just immediately sends me into a blubbering mess at the table leaving jj to figure out what her moms done while she was gone.
...
And the next morning i sleep in because my classes do not exist on such days as the weekend.
jj has only one though so she leaves me with a kiss to the forehead, another hour later i sit up to do my morning routine and to look for the snacks jj usually leaves for me.
And while doing so i call monica
'M&M' i say when she finally answers on the last ring
'Hello m&m' says a groggy monica
'You will NOT believe where i went last night' i say munching on some food
'Ooo where?'she says perking up
'jjs house!! And her mom is actually freaking loaded she has two floors with five rooms and two bathrooms'
I yell through the phone
'Alright alright no need to brag about your rich ass girlfriend damn' she says groaning
'ABOUT THAT TOOO why did her mom just straight up ask if i wanted to be with jj and that she basically approves and that jj also likes me AAAND SHE ASKED ME WHENS THE WEEEDIINNGGGGG' i say gasping for air after the spill
'SEE I FUCKIN TOLD YOU SHE WAS CRUSHIN ON YOOOOOU!'
monica yells just as loud over the phone
' M what do i do what do i doooo' i say actually starting to freak out, 'like do i just tell her i wanna go out on a date or or-
'Mi calm down, remember to breeaath' she say's slowly
Closing my eyes and taking a couple deep breaths and putting my head down on my desk
' i think you should just flirt with her, i dont think you see it most times but shes always saying some slick shit' m chuckles through the phone
'But m you know i have absolutely noooo game'
Feeling like i wanted to cry
'No mi just say whats on your mind at allll times i promise, PINKY promise it always works'
She says still laughing at me
'Ughhh ok m, ill talk to you in a bit jj will be here in like an hour and i look terrible' i say with a groan looking at myself in the mirror
'Now milei you know damn well that girl couldnt care if you look like a slug she would still like you' she says now laughing even more
'But you dont knooooww that m'
I say whining
'Ohhh but i dooo you'll see'
And she just hangs up.
Letting out a load groan i stand to turn on the radio on a shelf by the door to play my playlist
Starting on my outfit, something that will appeal to jj
Something warm even though its still only 60 outside
Continuing with with my skirts because why not
I grab a black fuzzy skirt that had a more blanket type of material, with a thick black sweatshirt that had a pink skeleton with headphones on
And some roseary looking stalkings.
I do a black smokey eye thinking it was easy... but it took me the whole hour and 2 tutorials to do it.
Putting on the last touches i jump up to stretch, starting to dance cheering for my beautiful makeup.
And just as i spin away from the door it swings open..
I unfortunately didn't notice because im always bumping my music.
"Ok bun...whats got you in such a good mood?" she says closing the door behind herself
Letting out a tiny scream and whipping around to find a smirking jj.
"h-hi jj" i say, EMBARRASSING
"Hey bunny" she says walking to her desk and dropping her bag in her chair
"What ya been up to while i was gone" she says comin back over to me, stopping a couple inches from me
"Nothin i just got done with my make up" i say backing up and turning around to sit on my bed watching jj follow me over.
"Yeah? And how did you sleep" She says sitting down next to me just to lean all over me
" i had a really weird dream actually, i was riding the tallest giraffe in the world" i say giggling, but it is true i did have that dream.
"Really?" jj says laughing with me
"Im being for real jj! It felt like i was lucid dreaming because i ran that bitch into a deep lake, like i knew that tall ass bitch was in my dream" i say whipping away tears from laughing to hard
We end up laying on my bed just talking, my legs laying over her as she had an arm around
M would be sooo mad if she seen us she hates that jj hasn't asked me out yet,
I know she means well though.
But i can understand why... 70
Percent of our conversations is her complementing me on how pretty i am, just as shes doing right now.
She also dose the granny cheek pinch all the times me to me.
M says its her attempting to make me "blush"..
"Speaking of short bitchezz"
jj says cutting through my thoughts.
"You know lila from my first hour? Before i left class she asked if i was going to any partys and slapped a flyer in my hand, and she quite literally assaulted me with the way she touched me eeeerruugghhhh" and then jj starts making the most disgusting gagging noises ive ever heard..
"Ew ew you mean lila cruise?"
I say covering her mouth.
She nods furiously grabbing my hand to show me how the girl touched her.
Ugh the real only reason im disgusted is because lila.. she came from my school and to say she fucked everyone was an understatement
She fucked all the nasty kids you could ever think of, and when i say nasty i mean disease nasty.
So the first time i spotted her i told jj NOT to fucks with her.
"Ay...she want you jj" i say bustin out laughing.
"Naaw im gon have to put her onto someone else, I didn't know her ass was bi" jj says laughing with me to
"Naw naw she hit on me for few days one time shes gonna find your ass hehe" i say calming down a bit
"Hmm I guess ill just have to stay here with you"jj says squeezing me.